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for many a reason i very deeply resonate with the found family aspect of 8path and have spent a lot of time daydreaming about it - so a Hefty Chunk of what i've taken from it includes projection and indulgent headcanoning. i loved english literature at school so i like to think my analysis skills have aided me in keeping the characters i ship in a recognisably canon-compliant state, but because i'm just stubbornly gay i stop caring whether it makes sense to then add copious amounts of romance on top. ~anyway~.
alfion. i originally didn't like alfyn! my first experience of him was the english dub and i found his sonic-like mannerisms annoying. after experiencing the game in full, however, and becoming very attached to therion, i figured that he was a great asset to those who needed a soft-hearted-strongman. i love what the narrative offers regarding how it shapes these characters and would make a seriously long post about analysing every character i talk about here If People Cared -- for now, though, i'll try to keep it short. (NARRATOR VOICE: he did not keep it short.)
i just love the foils between alfyn and therion. therion, whose heart stutters and bleeds the truth of his loneliness; a man who lives in the shadows only to yearn for the love that light holds. alfyn, who from his trauma took the lesson of embracing life with open arms; a man who would rather unintentionally shepherd in evil than to deny a second chance. they embody such a deep sense of hurt/comfort whilst also curating a casual, warm and boyish sense of true friendship together.
therion benefits so deeply from all 7 of his playable companions, and in alfyn's case, i think it's deeply tied to his free-falling honesty. not only does alfyn portray his values strongly - he also does utterly risk-intensive and sometimes borderline stupid things because he believes in his chosen role as a force for change. his story arc seems to show him doubling down on these decisions, and there are several points at which therion's existence as a societal menace and ~bad person~ can be seen as relevant to them. whether or not you should help a no-good thief; whether or not a person is evil because of their past and circumstances that changed the trajectory of their life; where you should draw the line and what you should punish; whether you should give up on a person who nobody else can seem to help. to me, alfyn seems to decide that he'll be somewhat of an objective and benevolent (as much as a human with a strong protective complex can be) shepherd to the weak and forsaken, taking consequences of his actions as a workplace risk instead of a curse to his worth. therion, however ... this man is mired in shame and has no sense of self-worth that doesn't come down to spiteful pride in the abilities that darius praised & his self-preserving spite. he gave his heart to someone and he thinks, for the most part, that he need not ever get past the pain it caused him, lest it make him weak all over again. because being weak hurt - being powerless hurt. and being chucked off a cliff by someone you would've burned the world with... *really* hurt.
from therion's standpoint he is seen by others as undeserving and, for the longest time, i don't think it matters to him whether or not that assessment is true. his way of compartmentalising the way society treats him is to do what he needs for survival regardless, because there are a hundred more evil things than he himself is capable of - as, iirc, an orphan, and a pauper - but i don't think this leads to an appreciation for his worth. it's so tarnished by darius, the fallout of which probably confirmed pre-conceived notions such as 'don't trust anyone', 'always account for yourself and forsake others before they forsake you', 'the whole world is more likely to turn you in than to hold your hand'. honestly, i see in therion such overflowing yearning that he doesn't *fully* live by these notions - he can't cut himself off from the love he longs for because he's not the kind of no-good scoundrel he thinks he belongs with. whereas darius and plenty of other criminals ingame sow cruelty and are cutthroat with their relationships, therion seems to be capable of empathising with a broader spectrum of people (as seen, to me, by his ability to sympathise with cordelia & thus the untouchable bourgeoise he so loathes). alfyn's open-minded worldview allows therion to be present in the life of a thoroughly kind person without either feeling threatened or like he's in disguise. from there, he's able to observe the light he's yearned for and, in time, this could blossom into a love that finally grants him security.
god i could talk about them forever, but i also have a headcanon that i've held close to me for a few years now. based on the map and where therion's attempted murder takes place, i've ruminated on the idea that therion could have ended up getting medical treatment in clearbrook. after tumbling down the jagged, steep lines of bolderfall's mountainside, he could have broken his fall as the terrain blushed green with grass and trees and underbrush. dry from the desert sun and on the brink of death, a near sightless therion dragged himself towards the sounds of rushing water. the current dragged his limbs - some broken, others just weak and covered in wounds - further down the river. as therion and alfyn were both younger, i wonder if zeph would have lead the treatment that therion received once he was pulled from the bubbling waters and rushed onto the medieval equivalent of an operating table. the immediate question is, "wouldn't they recognise each other once they met in the future?" - and i don't think therion would want himself to be known, treated or kept in such a generous home. most apothecaries are paid in-universe - a service therion was beyond sure he couldn't pay for. to me, therion is apprehensive about returning to clearbrook on his travels but *needs*, for whatever narrative reason, to pass through and receive apothecary aid. alfyn recognises the white hair and skittish tendencies, recalling little other than a patient who picked from zeph's coinpurse and ran. for the longest time, he never brings up that he belives - knows - that person was therion. he wrestles with it, deciding that he indeed wants to see just what kind of person therion is, which eventually leads him to discover that he was right to trust & nurture him.
the therion i depict always has a snarled lip from a lasting scar, cleft from the incident, and i headcanon him suffering from lasting conditions, both physically and mentally, that actually alfyn would be able to treat or provide relief from - continuing the proof that he can and will be taken care of here; that there's no reason to be afraid; that he can scratch and protest all he likes, but he's in the hands of a man whose whole purpose (and joyfully so) is to make sure he has a space to heal.
god lmao i love them so much. i also see them both as trans but i also see a good portion of the casts of both 8path 1&2 as trans so it barely feels relevant. i just think its neat.
h'aanirose. primh'aan. it's a very similar story, though their personalities, goals and lives are led in very different manners to alfyn and therion. i certainly think there's a lot to add about lesbianism here, such as comparing primrose's relationships with women to those she has with men, as well as h'aanit's portrayal as a warrior woman and a blushing knight in the face of her alluring lady, but i probably wom't go into all of it.
primrose and yusufa was an extremely formative relationship. it, unfortunately, mirrored the one with her father and left her losing another deeply important person to murder. the kind of rage that rumbles in primrose's heart and thunders out into bursts of arcane shadow is not to be underestimated, in part because it left her so vulnerable to the puppeteering of simeon. in her eyes, she lost everyone she loved - and then, suddenly, in a way that made her once again feel like a child, she un-lost one of those people. forming a deep and lasting connection must be tough for her after the events of the game and thus i think the a certain travel banter line from the end of her story is representative of even more yearning than it seems on the surface. to h'aanit she suggests they could travel together in future, even commenting that she could protect h'aanit herself. to which, of course, the incredibly muscular pseudo-viking with axe-wielding biceps and a giant snow leopard says, 'dost thou not mean *i* coulde protecten *thee*?' i find this so incredibly cute. of course there's a huge aspect of prim's banter where she alludes to her physique & intimately informed commentary on men, which leads her to praise h'aanit for choosing neither of the 'two kinds of men' in chapter 2. however, the power of yuri in my heart takes this subtext and runs with it - when i talk about the deeper yearning of this interaction, what i'm referring to is the fact that the game gives us an insight into her thoughts and has her, like a stumbling shy lovebird, question why she didn't just outright admit she likes h'aanit's company. it's one of my favourite little things in the entire game because primrose has lived so much of her life as someone that she didn't want to be, but *had* to be in order to approach the truth and get closure for her grief. i think she knows that there's an aimless and unknowable path before her, and her old skills kick in. before she can simply ask for h'aanit to join her on this daunting endeavour, she finds herself trying to sweeten her words & make herself seem appealing as a companion. (seeing as prim can allure any gender, it highlights that alluring isn't just used in a sexual manner - though frequently that's how she's received by men & has more success playing into that across the board). i think this scene is emblematic of the effect h'aanit has on her, and i love gobbling it up.
primrose feels comfortable in letting h'aanit know that she feels safe with her very automatically, even when she's shy about asking for her company. h'aanit, to me, would make a lovely candidate for a person that primrose can deeply love & is less likely to lose to a cruel deception or death; i think the way in which h'aanit fends for herself is appealing in this manner. in turn, the sweet way in which they can exchange life lessons creates a foundation of support, which is both fantastic in a world where the men* in their lives are falling short of the roles they might otherwise occupy and a foundation for love that appreciates their strengths without regretting their weaknesses. (*z'aanta as a drunken & lighthearted mentor often scolded by his apprentice; primrose's lack of a present father figure or protector; the way h'aanit's story champions the presence of strong and/or skilled women; primrose chapter 1 villain who icr the name of cause he sucked; simeon as an older man in young primrose's life who preyed on her innocence and love for him). etc etc.
h'aanit is a learner. she may not start out with experience, and further on she finds herself flustered at several points when it comes to the mannerisms of cityfolk, but she's capable of understanding the wider picture. i think this is aided by the way in which she sees herself in the cycle of life, protecting the forest by stepping into it only where it can undo the superfluous presence of man. she doesn't get too involved in the habits of others unless they threaten the forest - an example is with therion and the way she just flat-out judges his nimble fingers, only to do nothing about it other than sass him out in ye olde. she is patient to see how things pan out, and can respect others enough to see where their actions will take them before stepping in. then, when she steps in, she is both graceful and noble, making her an incredibly romantic figure imo. i have, many a time, also thought about the way h'aanit is predominantly a melee (aside from summoning) fighter, with an emphasis on strategic timing for her skills, and prim is almost entirely a support. throughout the trauma and troubles that primrose faced prior to meeting any of the cast, she was unable to access enough power or knowledge to push forward and instead played a waiting game. i think it delights her to know that she can stand beside her battering ram of a girlfriend and fuel her, achieving her goals not through manipulation or abuse but through their shared vision.
my hands feel a bit numb from typing all of this out on my phone, which i didn't need to do but did anyways because it's very easy to fixate on these characters. i feel like i have a thousand things to say, all of them obsessive and excited because of an adoration for the character writing in these games. i love squeezing it for all of the gay stuff and i will never stop.
honourable ship mentions that i will go into detail about if anyone asks, *particularly* those for 8path2 - olberus, olberus but with erhardt too for yaoi reasons, throné x temenos t4t, throné x agnea (postgame +several years), knightlight, a polyamorous amalgamation of the above 8path2 characters (with the exception of temenos not being into women in my hc)... god. help. theres always more but im tired and now i want to replay the games. thank you op for my life
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I miss octopath yapping with people so uh yknow what! Weâre gonna play a game!!
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plot: henry is always here for his best friend, but everyone reaches their breaking point eventually. but maybe, just maybe, this is for the best.
pairing: henry hart x fem!reader
show: henry danger
warnings: light mentions of blood, cuts and bruises; implied domestic violence but nothing graphic; henry swearing when heâs pissed off (listen, that boy swears a lot and you canât convince me of the opposite). also, the part in italics is a flashback from henry's pov.
word count: 6,8k
authorâs notes: english isnât my first language, apologies for the possible mistakes. this piece is inspired by the song Hard from Why Donât We, and i guess a little bit by the song Treat You Better from Shawn Mendes, so i suggest you listen to the songs beforehand to get the vibe of the story, or read the lyrics to know what itâs about. it takes place around season five of henry danger, to give you an idea of how old the characters are. also, itâs implied that the reader is in a bad relationship, it might be triggering for some people so read it to your own discretion. and if you ever need anyone to talk to, my dms are always open.
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Henry lays wide awake in his bed, looking up at the ceiling above him. His hands are flat on his stomach as he lays on his back, pulling his bottom lip between his teeth. He knows itâs late at night and that heâll probably regret it in the morning, aware that heâll have to wake up around 7 if he doesnât want to be late for school again. He just canât seem to get her out of his head. Every day and every night, she plagues his every thought; Y/N, his best friend since kindergarten.Â
When heâs at school, sheâs on his mind. When heâs at work, sheâs on his mind. When he lays alone in bed at night, sheâs on his mind. No matter what heâs doing, or where he is, sheâs always in a corner of his mind. Always. It doesnât help that she goes to the same school and works in the same place; heâs always catching sight of her, even when she isnât looking. He doesnât know how anyone hasnât said anything to him, or how she hasnât noticed him staring, because he isnât the most subtle person in the world when it comes to his feelings for her. He always gets sidetracked when she enters a room, his eyes always linger on her when she walks away, his cheeks always flare up when she smiles, and when she stands close to him, he always pretends to accidentally brush his hand against hers, craving the warmth of her skin against his. Perhaps he is better at hiding his feelings than he thought heâd be; either way, he doesnât mind. If his feelings are unacknowledged by the people around him, it makes it easier to push down those feelings, forever wondering if theyâll go away; if itâll hurt less every time she walks away.
Henry lets out a sigh, turning on his side to check the time on his bedside clock. The bright red numbers display 12:15 in the morning, and he groans, burying his face in his pillow out of frustration. He knows he wonât get enough sleep to get himself through the day and that heâll probably fall asleep in class at some point, and he hates it. He doesnât really know when his sleep schedule became fucked up; if it had been when he first became Kid Danger when he was thirteen, or if it were since he first realized he had feelings for Y/N. Perhaps a little bit of both, he thinks. He did choose to become Captain Manâs sidekick, but he certainly didnât choose to fall in love with his best friend. He hates it, but there isnât much he can do about it; even if he tries to push his feelings away, theyâll always come back to bite him in the ass. It doesnât help that Y/N already has a boyfriend and, granted, Henry hates the guy, but Y/N seems happy with him so Henry thinks itâs all that matters. If she is happy, then he is happy for her. At least, thatâs what he told himself when she first began dating the guy; he went back on his words when he realized he loved her.
Henry closes his eyes as he sighs again, remembering the night when he admitted to himself that he was in love with Y/N. She hadnât shown up to his birthday party that his parents had thrown, which was unlike her and it had him worried the whole night. Until she showed up, at midnight, on his front porch.Â
Y/N is standing there, with tears in her eyes as she looks up at him. Her arms are wrapped around herself in a hug, as if she were trying to shield herself from the cold air of the night. Henry doesnât know what to say, still mad that she wasnât there for his birthday party, but his anger dissolves into nothing when his eyes drift to the red tear stains on her cheeks. He holds his breath as a sob rushes past her lips, and his arms find her waist to hold her up when her knees almost give out under her weight. He leads her inside, closing the front door behind him with the heel of his foot, and he helps her up to his room where she sits on his bed.Â
Henry doesnât have to say anything as he sits next to her and she rests her head on his shoulder, but he is smart enough to understand. He feels his chest tighten when his mind makes him think about what might have happened, that perhaps her boyfriend had laid a hand on her, and he tilts his head downward to look at her. He shivers at the thought, swallowing the growing lump in his throat. He knows it hasnât been long since she started dating this guy from high school, about a month or two, but she seemed happy with him, and Henry frowns when he thinks about it. His hands move to hold the sides of her face as he shifts in his spot to be facing her, and his eyes flicker to the fading bruise in the corner of her left eye. His frown deepens, not remembering ever seeing a bruise on her face before, but his features soften when tears begin to roll down her cheeks the second his eyes drift back to hers, holding her gaze in his. He uses his thumbs to wipe the tears away, worry flashing in his eyes. Warmth spreads through his muscles when her hands find his wrists, and she wraps her fingers around them to ground herself. Her hands are cold, but her skin is soft against his, and his heart flutters in his chest. Another sob leaves her lips, and Henry moves his hands to wrap his arms around her shoulders to pull her close to him.Â
âWanna tell me what happened?â He whispers softly, resting his cheek against the top of her head.
Y/N shakes her head a little, further burying it into his chest as she grips the hem of his shirt, her tears forming wet patches against the cotton fabric. Her shoulders tremble with every sob that leaves her body, but Henry keeps her close to him, using his hands to draw soothing circles against her back. He closes his eyes as he begins to rock their bodies back and forth gently, until her sobs die down and he can hear the slow pace of her breath and her soft sniffles. Sheâs the one to pull away from him, using the palm of her hand to wipe away her runny nose, and her lips break into an embarrassed smile as she looks down in her lap. One of her hands reaches for something in the pocket of her coat, and Henry tilts his head in confusion when she hands him a small white box with a silver ribbon on it.
âHappy birthday Hen.â Y/N whispers hoarsely, looking at him with a small smile on her lips.Â
He smiles then, taking the box from her and unraveling the ribbon before he carefully opens the lid. He recognizes what it is; she has the same one, and she gifted one to Jasper and Charlotte too, on their respective birthdays. Itâs a permanent chain silver bracelet, one Y/N says is supposed to represent their friendship. Henry knew he would get one from her eventually, because sheâd gifted one to their friends, he just didnât think sheâd gift it to him on his eighteenth birthday.
âI love it.â He tells her, smiling.
She smiles back. âCâmon, Iâll help you put it on.â
Henry can still see the sadness in her eyes, and the fading purple bruise in the corner of her eye, but he lets her take the chain bracelet and the pair of cutting pliers provided in the kit. He extends his right arm in front of him, and she puts the silver bracelet around his wrist, using the pliers to cut the chain. He observes as she concentrates herself on sealing the bracelet, making sure itâs not too tight so that it sits comfortably on his wrist. He watches her, and his heart flutters in his chest when her fingers brush against his skin, sending shivers down his spine and he can feel the heat flushing his cheeks. His eyes drift to her face, and he sees that sheâs slightly poking her tongue out in concentration, licking her lips after taking a deep breath. His heart begins to race in his chest, and the butterflies flutter in his stomach when she brings the palm of her hand against his to analyze her work on the silver chain. He holds his breath when she glances up to him through her eyelashes, a soft smile on her lips. He hears her let out a small chuckle when he looks away from her, knowing his cheeks are probably as red as a tomato, but he canât help it; she looks beautiful, wrapped in her black coat and with her hair falling on each side of her face, eyebrows turned into a focused frown as she focuses on the permanent bracelet again. She shifts positions, and her knees touch his, sending a wave of warmth through his muscles. He loves having her close to him, in the comforting silence of his room. He loves observing her, and the little things she does that only he seems to notice. He loves the way her hand feels against his when her palm is pressed against his, and he has to fight the urge to intertwine their fingers together. His eyes drift from their hands to her face again, lingering on her lips a little too long, and he thinks about how it would feel like to taste them; to have his lips against hers, to be kissing her.Â
He blinks, reminding himself that she already has a boyfriend, that he cannot be in love with her, and he is pulled away from his thoughts when she clears her throat. He looks up to her, and he sees her put a strand of hair back behind her ear when she sits straighter, letting the cutting pliers fall between her crossed legs on his bed. He glances down at the silver chain on his wrist as she brings her right arm close to his, revealing the matching permanent bracelet on hers.Â
âIâm sorry I couldnât be here today.â She says, her eyes flickering to his.
âWhy are you here now?â Henry asks her, his voice barely a whisper.
He knows sheâs picked up on the worry in his voice, because her eyes drift back to their wrists, and he can feel her tears falling on his skin as she looks down.Â
âDid he hurt you?â
Henry doesnât know why his voice comes out with a crack; perhaps because he is afraid of what her answer might be. He doesnât know why he asked her either, but he wants to know. Because she is his best friend, and he cares about her.Â
His blood freezes in his veins and his face pales when he sees her nod her head, more tears rolling down her cheeks as sobs leave her lips. His chest hurts as his heart constricts inside, and his breathing becomes shallow. He has to keep himself together because, as she falls apart in front of him, he knows she needs him. He shifts around on his mattress, opening his arms. Y/N takes refuge in them, wrapping her own around his midsection and she buries her face in his chest. He lets out a low sigh, feeling her tears through the fabric of his shirt, and he begins to draw circles on her back in a soothing way. He lays his head atop hers, his cheek pressed against the crown of her head as he gently rocks their bodies back and forth until her cries die down. She deserves so much better than her boyfriend, Henry thinks as he holds her close, wondering what else has been going on that he doesnât know about.
Henry groans, running a hand over his face as he tries to forget that night, pushing the memory to the far back of his mind. The moon casts its light in his room through the window, and he can see it reflecting on the chain bracelet on his wrist. Four months. It had been four months since then, and Henry still couldnât understand how Y/N went back to her boyfriend. She says itâs because she loves him, because heâll never lay a hand on her again, but Henry has been observing her since that night. Because he worries about her, and because he loves her. He would notice the way sheâd pull her sleeves down or wear scarves in class when she never wore one in her life before. He would take note of the makeup she wears, when sheâd never been one to cover herself with makeup in the first place. He would see how sheâd flinch when someone would accidentally hit a locker, or if a door was slammed too hard. He would catch sight of her trying to make herself small in the Man Cave whenever one of them would get angry and raise their voice. He knows that what she wants everyone to believe isnât true because he sees her. And because he notices the little things no one else seems to pick up on.Â
Henry turns on his back again, eyes up to the ceiling. Just as sleep is about to pull him in, he hears the familiar creaking noise of his window being lifted open. He sits up on his bed, back against the wall behind him as he searches for the lightswitch of the lamp on his bedside table. Henry blinks, adjusting his eyes to the dim light in his room. He runs a hand across his face as he looks up, a frown creasing lines on his forehead when he sees Y/N tumbling into his room through the window, falling onto his couch to her right. His eyes widen slightly at the sight of her, and he pulls the bedcovers away from his body as he makes his way to the loft area in his room, climbing the couple of stairs before sitting next to her on the couch, his body turned a little so that he can face her. She doesnât look at him, but he sees the phone in her hand and he hears the soft sniffles that leave her. His arms find home around her shoulders as he pulls her in closer, and his heart flutters when she rests her head against his shoulder. Her phone falls onto her lap, and he can see the blocked symbol next to her boyfriendâs name on her screen. His chest heaves up as a sigh leaves him, and he mentally curses himself. He doesnât know why he was expecting anything else, but it does not surprise him that sheâs come to him. Again.Â
Itâs a repetitive circle, ever since she started dating Gareth, her boyfriend. Heâd pull her away from her friends, then theyâd have a fight, and Henry would be there to pick up the pieces when sheâd come to him and break down in his arms. Days later, Y/N would run back to Gareth as if nothing happened, and Henry would be left with another piece of his heart gone with her. He knows itâs not right, that he should put distance between him and Y/N, but then his mind reminds him of how sheâs always been there for him after he broke up with his first girlfriend, how she comforted him and helped him change his mind after Chloe and then Bianca left to do a television show in the woods. Sheâs always been there for him; itâs only right if heâs there for her. Even if his heart breaks a little more each time she walks away. Because even if sheâll never be his, heâll always be hers.
Y/N is the one to pull away from him, using one hand to wipe away the tears on her cheeks, and her sniffles pull him out of his thoughts. Her eyes drift up to his, and she cracks a thin-lipped smile. Henry tilts his head, sighing.Â
âIâm sorry.â Y/N whispers, looking down when she hears him sigh. âIâ I should have calledâŠâ
âItâs fine, Y/N.â Henry tells her, taking her hand in his. âI couldnât sleep anyway.â
Y/N chuckles under her breath, looking down at their hands together. The warmth of his skin spreads through hers, and she feels her heart flutter in her chest. She clears her throat, pulling her hand away from his and she looks away from him.Â
âHe said he needed distance, and I had nowhere to goâŠâ She whispers, scratching the back of her neck.Â
Henry knows what she means; his parents are never really here for him, but hers are never there. Theyâre always traveling abroad for work, only showing up in Swellview twice a year; one time for her birthday, and a second time for Christmas. So Y/N always spends most of her time at work, at his house, or at her boyfriendâs place.Â
Henry shakes his head and he scoots closer to her, pulling her hand in his own again. His eyes scan over her features, and a frown creases lines on his forehead when he notices a new bruise on her cheek, and the small cut on her upper lip. He grinds his teeth, biting down on the inside of his cheek to keep his anger simmering beneath the surface. A low sigh leaves his lips instead, and he closes his eyes briefly.Â
âYou know youâre always welcome here.â He says eventually, looking at her. âBesides, I still have the clothes you forgot the last time you slept here.â
Y/N chuckles at that, and Henry swears itâs the most beautiful sound heâs ever heard. Itâs been a while since heâs heard too; he canât really remember when was the last time he did, but he knows heâs missed it. His heart flutters when she looks him in the eyes with a genuine smile on her lips, and itâs like the anger in him has never existed. His body relaxes, and he finds himself smiling at her.
âIâll take the couch,â he tells her. âYou can take my bed. Make yourself at home.â
Her smile widens. âThank you Hen.â
She lifts her free hand, pressing her palm against his left cheek and she tilts her head, leaning in to leave a quick kiss on his right one. Henry feels the heat rush to his cheeks as his breath gets caught up in his throat, and he watches as she gets down the couple stairs of the loft area in his room, heading for the bathroom in the hallway after taking her clothes from his closet like she owned the place. He runs a hand through his hair, tugging at it in frustration. What is he doing?
When she returns after a few minutes, Henry notices that she has inadvertently taken a shirt of his out of the closet instead of hers. His breath hitches, and his eyes travel up and down her frame to fully take in the sight of her in his clothes. Itâs just his shirt, he knows that, but because heâs always been taller than her, it looks like a dress that stops at her thighs when she wears it, and the short sleeves slide off of her shoulders a little. He can see the edge of her collarbone because she has tied her hair in a messy bun to the back of her head, and Henry blinks, his eyes drifting to anywhere but her. She already has a boyfriend, he tries to remind himself. But that selfish side of him thinks itâs not fair; that he should be the one who gets to see her like this every night. He should be the one who gets to take her out for dinner. He should be the one who gets to give her flowers for no particular reason. He should be the one who gets to tell her he loves her. Not that stupid boyfriend of hers; but him.Â
Henry shakes his head, letting out a low, frustrated sigh. From the corner of his eyes he watches as Y/N slips under his bed covers, leaving her locked phone onto his nightstand before she glances his way with a soft smile curling her lips upwards and carving dimples in the curves of her cheeks.
âYouâre gonna be okay?â Henry finds himself asking, settling himself onto his couch with a pillow behind his back.
âYouâre giving me your bed for the night,â she chuckles, rolling her eyes. âI should be the one asking you that.â
âNâ no, I mean⊠about Gareth. Are you gonna be alright?â
She sighs, fiddling with her fingers in her lap. âYâ yeah, I think. I mean, I miss him⊠but he needs space. Iâ I know heâs trying to be better, but we both needed some air tonight. I needed some air. And he needs the distance, even if only for tonight. But I miss himâŠâ
Henry nods, only half-listening to what sheâs saying. He doesnât understand how she can think about going back to Gareth, when all he does is break her heart every time. He doesnât understand how she stays with her boyfriend when he keeps hurting her, leaving bruises on her skin. And Henry can see the way her shoulders tense when she mentions Gareth, even without saying his name, and how she keeps fumbling with her fingers, picking at her nails. Y/N always does it when sheâs anxious, Henry notices. He always notices the little things no one else seems to pick up on; because he cares. But he doesnât say anything, because she is his best friend and he doesnât want to lose her.
âGood night, Hen.â Y/N whispers, pulling him out of his thoughts.
He licks his lips and glances towards her. âGânight Y/N.â
As she turns off the lights in his room, Henry takes one last glance at the clock on his bedside table. 2:05 in the morning. Now heâll definitely fall asleep in class.
â
The last time Henry spoke to Y/N was two weeks earlier, when sheâd showed up into his room in the middle of the night after another fight with her boyfriend. He hadnât talked to her since, and heâd only seen her at school. Sheâs stopped coming to work as well, but when he tried talking to her at school, sheâd look down on the ground and avoid conversation at all cost. She was ignoring him and Henry was pretty sure her boyfriend was the one making her do it.
âAlright Kid.â Rayâs voice catches Henryâs attention. âYouâve been sulking for the last two weeks. Whatâs going on?â
âItâs Y/N.â Charlotte says bluntly, and Henry glares at her.
âOh come on, Char!â
âWhat?â She crosses her arms, holding his gaze. âYouâve been in a mood since Y/N began ignoring you. And, she stopped coming to work.â
âOh, so you think itâs my fault sheâs not coming to work?â
âI didnât say I did.â Charlotte shrugs.
âWhat happened with Y/N?â Ray asks before Henry could reply to Charlotte.Â
âI donât know.â Henry sighs, running a hand over his face. âShe hasnât talked to me in two weeks. Sheâs been avoiding me.â
âDid you do something wrong?â
âWhâ what? No! She came to my place because sheâd gotten into a fight with her boyfrââ
Henry stops himself, eyes widening slightly when realization dwells upon him. Of course. He should have known; he should have figured it out sooner. Now that he thinks about it, she hadnât returned that shirt of his she accidentally borrowed when she came by, and he swears she had been wearing it the next day. At school, where her boyfriend was. Henry groans, throwing his head back in annoyance.
âStupid GarethâŠâ Henry mutters under his breath.
Charlotte frowns, having caught on. âWhat about Gareth?â
âHeâs a fucking asshole, thatâs what he is.â
âWhoâs Gareth?â Ray asks, frowning.
Charlotte begins to answer, but she barely gets a word out as the emergency alarm begins to echo across the Man Cave. Henry jumps on his feet, walking over to the supercomputer. An emergency is what he needs to keep his mind off of everything else. He presses one of the larger buttons on the control panel, his muscle memory guiding his movements. After five years of working as Captain Manâs sidekick, you do pick up on a few things around here. The Man Cave sort of became his second home.Â
âCaptain Manâs emergency line, how may we punch your problem?â
Henry speaks up, taking sight of Charlotte sitting on the chair to his right with her hands roaming over the control panel to try and pinpoint the location of the call, and he feels Ray standing behind him, probably with his hands on his hips as he looks to the screen.Â
Henry frowns when no one answers, but he can hear them breathing through the phone line. Itâs ragged, coming out in hiccups, and faintly in the distance he can discern the sound of objects clattering onto the ground. He pulls his bottom lip between his teeth, frowning.
âThis is Kid Danger speaking, how may I help you?â He tries again, worriedly glancing at Charlotte.
He doesnât want to say anything, but his heart leaps in his chest, his heartbeat quickening with every second that passes by. He still doesnât know where the phone call comes from, but judging by the personâs silence his mind plays him all the worst scenarios he can imagine. Y/N still occupies the corner of his mind, and this phone call is one that is way too familiar for Henryâs liking. A week after his birthday, sheâd given him a call, and the beginning had been just like this one.
âOh, shit⊠Henry?â
He hears Charlotte whisper next to him, and he turns to look at her when she nudges his side. She points a finger at one of the five monitors of the supercomputer, and Henry follows her finger to the green letters displayed on the screen. He squeezes his eyes shut, pinching the bridge of his nose with one hand. He takes a deep breath to try and calm his nerves. Y/Nâs home address is blinking in green letters on one of the computerâs monitors, and Henry feels a shiver down his spine. Why did he have to be right about this?
âHey, Y/N?â He calls out, ignoring Rayâs confused look. âIâ Iâm right here, okay? Iâm still on the phone with you. Can youâ can you leave the house?â
His stomach drops when he hears her whimper through the phone, and he clenches his fists at his sides. Chills run down his spine when he hears more clattering on the other side of the line, followed by Y/Nâs quiet sobs. Then he hears footsteps, and something like a window being open and a soft thud as if someone had fallen on the ground. He swallows back the lump in his throat, his heartbeat quickening beneath his chest. Thereâs a hand on his shoulder, Henry can feel it and when he glances to his left, Ray is there with a worried look in his eyes. He may not show it in the right way because he acts like a man-child more often than not, but Henry knows Ray cares for the kids he works with, including Y/N.Â
âIâ Iâm⊠outâŠâ
Y/Nâs voice brings Henry back to look helplessly at the screens. Through the phone, he can hear sheâs panting, her footsteps clacking against the ground. Sheâs running, he tells himself. He lets out a relieved sigh; at least sheâs getting away from her boyfriend.Â
âCan you make it to JunkâNâStuff?â He asks her, worried. âOr do you need me to pick you up somewhere?â
âI canâ JunkâNâStuffâ is fineâŠâ
âOâ okay, Iâllâ Iâll go up to the store and wait for you, alright? And Ray and Charlotte are gonna stay on the phone with you, okay?â
She doesnât answer him, but he knows sheâs heard him. Ray clasps his shoulder, and Henry takes it as his queue to leave the Man Cave. He knows Jasper has closed the junk store around half an hour earlier, so no one is up there. Henry prefers it that way, because then heâll have the time alone with Y/N. No one but him actually knows just how bad itâs gotten between her and Gareth, because she always hid her bruises with makeup and for some reason, not even Charlotte had noticed. And his brain keeps picturing the worst-case scenarios, making his heart beat faster as he steps inside the elevator and presses on the storeâs up button.Â
When heâs up in the store, he waits by the front door, eyes darting to the outdoors for any sign of her until he sees her, catching her breath as she leans under a lamppost. He opens the door, and he sees her lift her head when she hears the bells jingling. He notices the look of relief on her face when she spots him, hanging up her phone and shoving it in the back pocket of her pants before she rushes toward him. She stumbles on her feet, exhausted, but Henry is there to catch her, his arms wrapping around her waist to keep her on her feet.Â
âItâs okay, Iâve got you. Iâve got you.â Henry mutters in a reassuring way as he leads her inside.
He can hear her muffled cries against his chest as he closes the shopâs front door with the heel of his foot, and her body trembles in his arms.
âIâm right here.â He whispers as he moves his hands to hold the sides of her face. âYouâre safe now; he canât hurt you.â
At first he canât see her features, but when he brushes her hair away from her face thatâs when he spots her busted lip, and the darkening bruise around her left eye. There is a large bleeding cut across her right eyebrow arch, and a few smaller ones all over the right side of her face, as if something sharp had been thrown in her face. Her cheeks are reddened by the tears that escape her eyes, her lips trembling with every sharp breath she takes.Â
Henryâs face pales when he takes in the sight of her, his heart dropping. He knows that no matter what he says, or does, she will run back to her boyfriend after a day or two. Like she always does. But the selfish side of him knows that he cannot let her go back to Gareth; he cannot risk her being hurt again. Yesterday it was a few bruises, tonight itâs a few cuts and a black eye, but tomorrow? Tomorrow still isnât set in stone, but he canât let her risk her life again; no matter how much she claims to love her boyfriend.Â
He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath before he sneaks an arm under her kneecaps and the other around her shoulder blades, picking her up bridal style. He feels her wrap her arms around his shoulders for support, and he feels her bury her face in the crook of his neck. He makes his way around the shop with her in his arms, going towards the elevator in the back shop. With agility, he steps inside the elevator and presses down onto the Man Cave button. He can feel her slow breath against his skin; it sends shivers down his spine, and when he looks down at her, he sees sheâs somehow fallen asleep in his arms. He smiles a little, sighing when the elevator dings open, and he sees Ray and Charlotte sitting on the round couch in the middle of the Man Cave, with worried looks on their faces. He shakes his head when they glance up to him, and he dips his chin toward Y/N. Charlotte nods in understanding, but Ray frowns, taking note of the dried blood he spots on the girlâs shirt.Â
Henry ignores Rayâs questioning gaze as he makes his way to the sprocket, disappearing in the hallway that leads to the few bedrooms the Man Cave has to offer. He walks past the one with a big âDO NOT ENTERâ sign hung on the door, well-aware that it is Rayâs room and he will not make the mistake of stepping inside a second time. Then, there is Schwozïżœïżœïżœs guest bedroom, and the one his sister Winnie uses when she comes to visit. Henry keeps on walking until he makes it to the end of the hallway, using his foot to push open the door to the last guest bedroom. Â
Y/N stirs up in his arms just as he puts her down on the mattress, and he sits beside her, smiling when she opens her eyes. The blood on her face is now dry and sticks to her skin, and Henry frowns, standing up without a word to look for a first-aid kit in one of the drawers in the roomâs closet. When he returns to the bed with the red case in his hand, Y/N is sitting up on the mattress, leaning against the backrest behind her, and she watches as he pulls out some cotton pads and the antiseptic spray from the kit.Â
âIt might sting a little.â Henry whispers as he brings a cotton to her face.
She nods, allowing him to clean the cuts on her cheeks and across her eyebrow arch, wincing in pain and gritting her teeth. But she keeps her eyes on her best friend, watching as his wrinkled brows carve a line on his forehead, and how his nose scrunches up whenever she lets out a wince. She sees the worry in his chocolate irises when he leans back, his eyes drifting across her features to make sure heâs cleaned every bit of dried blood off of her face.
âThank you.â She whispers, reaching for his hand.Â
âYou canât keep going back to him, Y/N.â Henry blurts out all of the sudden, pulling his hand away from hers.
Y/N frowns. âHeâs my boyfriend, Hen. And I love him.â
âI know you do, I justâ Iâm not sure he loves you, too.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âSeriously, Y/N?â
Henryâs frowns deepens as he stands up, and Y/Nâs smile falters, her lips pressed into a thin line as she watches him pace back and forth in front of her, frustratedly tugging at his hair. She shakes her head, heaving out a sigh. Henry stops pacing, hands on his hips as he turns to her.
âDo you know how hard it is?â He begins, scowling. âTo be the one to fix you, whâ when all you do is run back to the one who breaks your heart?â He takes a deep breath, pinching the bridge of his nose. âYouâve been with him for six months, and every time something happens between the two of you, who do you run to? Me! Iâm always here to pick up the pieces of your broken heart, and every fucking time you go back to that piece of shit as if nothing happened! I know weâre best friends Y/N, and I know youâve always been there for me when I had girl problems but, fuck, youâre making this too hardâŠâ He inhales sharply, running a hand over his face.
Henry doesnât dare to look at her, at first, and he isnât sure that he wants to. He probably has ruined their friendship but at this point, he doesnât care. He needed to tell her everything; he needed to tell her how he feels about her, and damn the consequences.
âI canât keep on pretending that this isnât hurting me, too.â He sighs, resuming his pacing. âI canât keep on pretending that watching you getting hurt by the man who claims to love you doesnât break my heart every fucking time, because it does. It does break my heart to see you hurt.â He stops pacing then, finally looking at her. âI canât stand to see you getting hurt by him every single time, and I canât keep on having my heart broken every time you run back to him. So if you want to go back to him, Iâm not holding you back, but I wonât be there to pick up the pieces when he breaks your heart again.â
His eyes sting as he blinks back the tears in his tear ducts. He wonât let her see him cry. He inhales sharply, his gaze drifting away to look anywhere but her. The silence in the room is suffocating, and Henry feels his chest tightens with each passing second. Heâs too afraid to move, his feet anchored to the ground, and heâs scared of what she might say. He hears her shift on the mattress, wincing a little when she moves around, and then he can feel her standing close to him. Y/N brings one hand up, and he feels the warmth of her palm against his skin, her touch soft on his right cheek. With a soft pressure, she turns his face to hers, and Henry is forced to look at her. Her gentle smile lightens her features, reaching her glossy and bright eyes. Her head is slightly tilted to the side as her eyes roam over his features, her thumb delicately brushing over his flushed cheekbone.Â
âI canât keep on being hurt by you, Y/NâŠâ Henry whispers, his voice wavering as he takes a sharp breath.
âI donât want to be the one hurting you, Hen.â Her voice is soft when she speaks up, and a single tear runs down her cheek. âAnd I am sorry for ever hurting you. I justââ
âI knowâŠâ Henry sighs, defeated. âYouâre in love with him.â
âItâs notâ itâs not that simpleâŠâ Y/N sighs. âI canâtâ I canât just leave him.â
She drops her hand back to her side, sitting back on the mattressâ edge, and she begins to anxiously fiddle with her fingers in her lap. Henry frowns when he no longer feels her touch, and he sits next to her. His hands find hers, and he takes them in his to stop her from torturing her fingers.Â
âYou donâtâ you donât have to do this alone, you know.â He tells her, his tone gentle. âIf you want to leave him, Iâm right here with you, I promise.â
âIâ Iâm scared of what heâll do ifâ if I leave himâŠâ
âY/NâŠâ He lets go of her hands to hold her face in his, making her look his way. âYou know heâs not right for you. He keeps hurting you, physically. Emotionally too, I bet, because itâs the first time in two weeks that weâre talking. You deserve so much better than that piece of shit.â He smiles when she laughs at that. âYou deserve a gentleman that will treat you right, take you out for dinner and give you flowers for no specific reason. Iâve known you my whole life Y/N; youâre one of a kind, and you deserve someone whoâll love you with all their heart. Not someone like GarethâŠâ
âBut, someone⊠like you?â
Henry falls silent next to her, because as much as he loves her, he didnât think sheâd catch on to what he was trying to tell her. Does he want her to be his girlfriend? Yes. Does he want to be her boyfriend? Also, yes. But he knows the things sheâs been through with Gareth, and as much as he loves her, heâs smart enough to know that if she leaves her boyfriend, she will need time to heal from that relationship. Heâs willing to wait; for her, heâd wait a lifetime, because he wants nothing more than to see her happy.
âOne day. Maybe.â He whispers, brushing his thumb over the cuts on her cheek. âBut youâre not alone, Y/N. You have me. And Charlotte, and Jasper. Even Piper, or Ray and Schwoz. I know you, and I know you have the strength to leave him, even if you think you canât. Youâre the strongest person I know, and you deserve to be happy.â
âOkay.â She breathes out, smiling.
âOâ okay?â
She hums softly, chuckling when he lets out a relieved sigh. Maybe he was right to tell her how he felt. Maybe he was right to tell her what he thought of her relationship with her boyfriend. Because maybe, just maybe, it opened the possibility of something more. Because maybe, just maybe, one day he would get to call her his.
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you go to a lesbian blog and find it says women only!! no men allowed!!! and go oh! excuse me, um, what about other lesbians? plenty of lesbians are genderqueer... and they go well, okay, go fuck yourself tim chop off your sweaty dick and stop calling yourself a lesbian. you do not have a dick, actually. you think about that fact often, even though it does you no good. you do not tell this person that.
you go to another lesbian blog and it says women only and you try again, and this time they change it to wlw + nblw only (non-men who love non-men :D). and you'll say hey i appreciate that but gender's not really that cut and dry for a lot of people. someone could be both a man and nonbinary, for instance. i just worry that you're looking at nonbinary as a generic third gender, or an extension of womanhood. i mean yeah you include nblw in your tags but all your posts are about pussy-havers exclusively. what's with that? and they say go fuck yourself you pervy man pretending to be a lesbian. you tried to sneak in but i won't let you.
so you go to a lesbian blog with a dozen or so posts about queer people needing to be more weird about it and you sigh in relief. but you still see the men dni. that's odd. hoping for the best, you say hey! i know you mean well but please maybe don't put men dni at the end of the lovely posts on your lesbian blog bc some lesbians are men. and they'll be like ok!! well you're allowed ;) and you say no that's not. no. some men are lesbians not just me. you think about your own dicklessness and wonder if that's why you were given entry. and you add that even if male lesbians are allowed, there's no indication of that. how would anyone know without asking? and they're like ohh gotcha gotcha well men dni + this is for sapphics only!! and you'll be like ok well that treats the concepts of men and sapphics as mutually exclusive identities and i just told you that's not true and you agreed with me so.. i don't think that solves our problem. and they're like. ok. fine. men dni but genderfluid and multigender people are allowed! and you're like no see that's. that's still the same thing.. you're saying the same thing just with different words. if you don't want men to interact but you're fine with multigender/genderfluid/etc ppl interacting then you either don't see them as Real Men (because they don't reach a standard of Full Manhood) or Complete Men (because they're only Part-Time Men), both of which suggest that they are, in some way, not men or less-than men, which is invalidating and defeats the point of the exception in the first place (accommodation) OR that you don't really mean the dni which is confusing and inconsistent and makes guydykes feel weird and uncomfortable and excluded from the lesbian space you're trying to cultivate. and they're like um. ok. so. cishet men dni? and you're like well i think that makes more sense, but what if someone identifies as both a cishet man and a sapphic? again, if we're trying to accommodate the genderfucky populace then that has to be a possibility that is considered. and they say god you people are never happy. what do you want me to do? what am i supposed to say to keep the right men out? and you pause. you empathize with the need for a space free from dudes trying to fuck you straight and feminine. dudes who watch lesbian porn and joke about what they'd do if they were allowed into girls locker rooms. who look at you like a piece of meat, and like someone who looks at women like pieces of meat in the same way he does. you get it. you know. you want a space where you can be sapphic, too. that's why you came to these blogs in the first place. you brace yourself and you say well i don't know that there are "right men" to keep out. i don't know that there's any single label that would accomplish whatever it is you're trying to accomplish. you could go for "sapphics only" or "queers only" and i think that might be the closest thing to what you want, but it's never going to be perfect. creating any exclusive space is going to shut out people you didn't account for, and the broader the label, the more people will be shut out that you didn't want to shut out. and what about people who don't know if they're allowed? what of questioning transbians, where are they supposed to go? and, frankly, i think i might rather my dykey posts get read and appreciated by a gay guy who sees me as a man than a woman who only sees me as a sacred womb, pure from male perversions or violence or whatever. i think community might just be more complex than a dni can handle. and they look at you and say i don't want to not have a dni. i think you're too permissive. you can't just "what about" or microlabel your way into everything. go fuck yourself, i bet you're not even a lesbian anyway. go find a real problem to get mad about.
you go to a lesbian blog. you ignore the men dni because you know you probably don't even count to them. or maybe you do count and, out of respect for your manhood, they'd shun you accordingly. you try to feel okay about that. you scroll past dozens of posts about mediocre men and gagging at straight friends' boyfriends and how gross and undeserving men are of the beautiful women they couple up with and how all women should be gay so they can get treated right and and and and and. you finally find a post about curling into someone you love and feeling at peace and try to lose yourself in it. you know that feeling is what unites you, what makes you belong. you try to focus on it. you think about carding your hands through a butch's hair or lacing fingers with a femme and feeling warm and loved and more yourself than you ever have before. like this is who you're meant to be. you read about lesboys and butch boytoys and genderfucky dykes and big hairy deep-voiced wonderful women (like you want to be someday, like you wish you could make yourself) and you try to ignore the men dni underneath each and every post. and you daydream about meeting someone kind and earnest at a lesbian bar even though you don't think any such bars exist within three states of you and you can't drink and don't want to drink because you need to be in control of yourself at all times so you don't fuck up like you're always about to and here in the nonexistent lesbian bar you feel wanted and safe and in good company. you picture your ideal, happiest self. it is a mistake. ideal-you has a goatee. not the mascara one you smear on and call drag even though you know it's not drag, not really, the beard you call drag because you think everyone would look at you sadly if you told them it was just to pretend you had something out of your reach. a beard that's soft and that you grew and that cannot be smudged away if you get too comfortable with it. the dream shatters. your people pull away from you, their scoffs mixing with the mind-numbing gay girl bedroom pop you learned to settle for just to have something that almost resembled you, they all pull away and turn their backs and do not look at you. you're too close to being a man now, even though you're the same amount of man as before. and they know you're not supposed to interact with men, not as you would with dykes, at least. and it sours. it's all your imagination, all in your head, but it sours.
you sigh. you think about how small you are. how short, how narrow, how feeble. how your voice pitches up when you talk to strangers because it's easier to speak quietly when it carries more, and because you're nervous. because it's a chore to talk, like everything is. you think about testosterone. you think about how your family would look at you, the questions they would ask, your answers they would only pretend to accept. the uncomfortable glances and whispered questions they'd try to hide from you. you think about how small you are, and how small you will always be. how you don't know of a way to fix it, but even if there was one, no one would want you anymore. you'd be the only one thinking it made you a cooler dyke. you think about how you don't even want a T-voice all the time, how you'll never be able to switch it at will, because you don't know how and can't bring yourself to figure it out. you think about how your throat closes around every hint of your own attraction. how wanting is perverse, how wanting is invasive, how wanting is embarrassing and too vulnerable so it must stay anonymous, as an online witness, and how you can barely manage to form or maintain friendships because your brain makes you pull away, always spinning out and struggling to recover from the simplest of interactions. how they'll all leave you and you won't chase after them at all and how that will hurt them. how stuck you get. how it looks like nothing's holding you back, how that frustrates everyone who thought you were going to be more than you were. the people you love who understand except when it comes to being ghosted, being shut out. how you don't want to hurt them. how you can't tell them that because you're stuck. how you turn to stone when touched, how you never reach out, how you lose your speech and can't look at people, how your autism is fun and sexy until it becomes real and you never see them anymore, how much you longed for someone who knew everything without you having to explain, and who loved you anyway. how unreasonable you know that is to expect of anyone. you think about that not-even-real lesbian bar. you think about how you still can't drive. how you can't leave your home on your own, without dragging somebody into helping you. how you can't leave your body. how you can't leave your manhood behind.
you think about finding another lesbian blog and ignoring everything. about skimming it for the parts you can juice some meaning from. the parts men ignore and don't understand, and how typical of you it is to do so. or the parts where you're not welcome and you should accept that, because it's for lesbians only. how you are a lesbian anyway. how you're meant to choose lesbian or man, how each is a betrayal of some kind to yourself or your people, your family, your lovely strangers, your rare friendly acquaintances. about the parts that tell you you're not wanted, that you're ugly and lazy and gross and insert yourself everywhere without even asking. about the parts that tell you you are hated, and how lesbians are above it all by rejecting men. how lesbians are each blessed miracles. about the parts that say you should be ashamed of being whatever twisted confused freak you are, of everything, of looking and wanting or not looking or not wanting, of picking and choosing instead of taking it all in with a smile. after all, shouldn't you take it? or is your ego too fragile, as men's so often are? aren't you tired? good. we're not here for your consumption. and we sure as hell don't want your company or "community" or whatever. didn't you read the sign? no boys allowed. and if you want to come in you have to make up your mind. as if you haven't told them the only answer you have. you're both. you're both.
you know you broke the rule by interacting.
but it gets lonely sometimes. you wonder if they know.
#before i maybe get yelled at:#1) no i do not think ppl are evil for having men dnis no i do not think these are all equal transgressions even#though there is an overlap that should be examined that i think is based in a degree of lesbian separatism + exclusionism#2) yes there are lesbian blogs and people that are cool about genderfucky people. i'm not talking about them#3) this is a stylized vent post about trying to find lesbian content on tumblr that isn't like this. all these dnis/rules are ones i have#encountered. no i do not literally tell these people to change their dnis to suit me. the conversations are symbolic and ideological in#nature. if i find a blog with men dni i generally go somewhere else. it's about emotions. it's about my feelings on that it's not literally#about dming someone demanding they change things. it's not about demanding that You change things or else you're a bad person.#4) it is about the conflicts and hypocrisy and inconsistency of strict and exclusive sexuality labels persisting in gender-diverse spaces#and how it affects me as a lesbian who is a man who is a woman who is fucking whatever else. and yes it is about transphobia too.#5) it's about how lesbians feel the need to exclude men and how i think efforts to do so fail and hurt ppl and are often misguided#tht i think also comes up in like. bi lesbian/mspec lesbian/gaybian discourse. i'm not any of those myself but it seems like there's overla#6) if this post seems whiny and sad and insecure that's because it probably is. i have a right to be all of those things.#7) no i do not think all lesbians are man-hating assholes. i am a lesbian. i love lesbians. i love dykes and most of them are fantastic ppl#i just think the general bullshit of the world leads to this defensive thing that ends up hurting others in our community y'know?#8) i get that my perspective/experience is a bit unusual and many lovely ppl haven't considered it. that's part of why i'm sharing this#nyarla dni#<- sorry man it's too vulnerable. gonna keep this one to the internet-only folks#adding this wayy later but a crucial part of the experience i Almost talked about it this but never explicitly did was that like#the measures ppl take to 'defend against men' are often deeply transmisogynistic as well. obviously#and when i see that it hurts me too. not that it hits me the same way when strangers assume im a trans woman and hate me for it#but it doesn't feel good to see transphobia at all. i focused on how that relates to other kinds of transphobia#namely transandrophobia here but like. it's all connected. lesbain separatism + exclusionism relies on both and they aren't always#distinct experiences. ime. anyway trans ppl i love all of you forever#i just thought me writing â*turns to the camera* and trans women exp this too.' wouldve been too much even for this post#i figured the audience would like. know that. and so far it hasn't been an issue. i have not been yelled at thanks guys đ«¶
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#prefacing this by saying I'm too lazy to do anything besides self harm#but it's time for my monthly spiral except shit is hitting different this time lmao#i turn 29 in 7 days and i really am just. over it#i started writing something last night that kinda devolved into a suicide note#talking about how the guilt of existence is tearing me apart. how i have no passions or motivations#i just get up. work. play some video games sometimes. go to bed. repeat.#I've barely slept lately#I've been awake since 2 am on and off crying#I'm tired of existing#I'm tired of not being able to help my friends or help my community or help the world#my existence contributed to the overall problem and I've been struggling to see a way forward#i started stock piling pills again and i know i could kill myself if i got the energy to#but I'm too lazy even for that#and it only brings with it further guilt because what the fuck do i have to be depressed about#i have a great job. a roof over my head. a car. enough money to live (even if it's barely)#some of the people i love most don't even have that. or they're stuck in situations that are just awful for one reason or another#yet I'm the one sitting here like âhaha what if i just overdose on every medication in my house :D wouldn't that be funny guys?â#there's a song i love that i reference to my therapist a lot called Gut Punch by Everyone's Worried About Owen#and there's a line that goes âI feel guilty bring hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right nowâ#and it just. sums me up a lot. i feel guilty feeling like this when so many people in the world have it so much worse#so many of my friends have it so much worse#who the fuck am i to say it's too hard? it only furthers the cycle of guilt#and i don't know how to make it stop#anyway
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HusbandSukuna! Who's never been the one to understand today's relationships. 50/50? No, his woman will never touch a single bill with her delicate fingers as long as he's alive and well.
HusbandSukuna! Who never understood the whole "giving your relationship time before proposing" thing. You aren't a real man if you drag out your relationship and take what you have for granted, Atleast that must have been what he was thinking when he put a big rock on your finger after dating for only 7 months.
HusbandSukuna! Who takes his role as your fiancé VERY seriously. He asked you to move in with him just right after he proposed. He does everything he can to make sure you feel comfortable in his house. He even went as far to renovate half of the house to your liking despite your much protesting that it's not needed.
HusbandSukuna! Who checks everyday to see if you are wearing the ring he put on you. it almost become a habbit for him to kiss the ring in your finger every single morning. Not just in the morning, whenever you two hangout in the public he intentionally kisses it to give other people the signal that his girl is strictly taken.
HusbandSukuna! Who wants to get married as soon as possible but he respect your time and choices. He doesn't want you to get overwhelmed by this at all, so he waits patiently ( had to restraint himself from asking like 5 times)
HusbandSukuna! Who gets so freaking happy when you finally confront him about being ready for marriage. The moment those words slip from your mouth his hands instantly go to your waist to pull you closer, closer till your foreheads are touching, He places a warm kiss on your temple and the next thing you hear makes your heart warm and fuzzy.
"You are the best thing that ever happened to me, I promise to be the best husband and I swear on my life I will take care of you and protect you till I die, I love you"
HusbandSukuna! Who jumps straight into the wedding planning. He hears from his married friends how stressful wedding planning was to them and he determines to not make you experience any bit of the stress, He tries everything in his power to make things go smooth as possible.
HusbandSukuna! Who breakdown in tears the moment he saw you walking the aisle to everyone's shock. The grumpy tatted 6'4 scary big guy who has given them nothing but attitude crying over seeing the love of his life walking down aisle? Who would have thought.
HusbandSukuna! Who immediately intertwine your fingers with his as he looks into your eyes like he sees nothing but the whole world in them and wait no minute to whisper "The prettiest, mine"
HusbandSukuna! who finally breaks free from his staring as the wedding officiant clears his throat to let him know that there's a whole wedding left to finish.
Everyone expect him to do a short vow and get done with it. Sukuna isn't known as the most expressive guy after all, but to everyone's surprise the vow lasted whole 15 minutes!! It was filled with nothing but love and appreciation for you and the little grin plastered in his mouth at the end of the vow makes it obvious how proud he was of himself ( I mean practicing this costed him a years worth friend too, after he suggested Sukuna to add some dirty degrading sex joke about you in the vows he ended up punching the guy as a result, so hell yeah he's proud of this!)
HusbandSukuna! Who keeps the honeymoon destination as a surprise till last minute, and your heart fills with joy as you realize he took you back to the beach you two first met, a place special to you both.
He booked the hotel room with the best view to the beach as expected.
HusbandSukuna! Who's heart feel warm all of a sudden, it's only a year ago he believed himself to be someone who's unable to be loved. Oh how much have changed since then.
HusbandSukuna! Who takes your hand and drags you to the balcony for a dance.
The smell of the beach, evening lightening, sounds of the ocean..All adds to the atmosphere as you two get lost in yourselves.
HusbandSukuna! Who takes a glance at the beach and sees a young family, not much older than both of you playing in the sand with their little girl.
HusbandSukuna! Who has a small smile tugged at his lips as he mentally promises to himself that he will return here again after you two finally complete your own little family.
No grammar checks, forgive me I'm too lazy
What do we think about part 2?
#ryomen sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna#jjk x you#jjk drabbles#sukuna fluff#anime#sukuna x#ryomen sukuna#fluff#jjk x reader#jjk fluff#relationship
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Okay but the weirdest thing about the whole "Brotherhood is better you should skip 03" discourse that's become commonplace now, it sort of forgets the world Brotherhood came out in and why you should watch the original Fullmetal Alchemist. When Brotherhood came out, the original Fullmetal Alchemist was one of the most beloved and most watched animes of all time. Brotherhood assumes you the audience have already seen it because of course you have, everyone has seen it, so it skips important information and speeds the story up because it doesn't want to bore you with things you already know. Have you ever wondered "hey why does the first episode of Brotherhood kind of suck, and why am I being introduced to like 50 new characters, and why are they acting like I know what the hell an alchemist is?" It's because Brotherhood thinks you've seen 03.
The first 7 or so episodes of Brotherhood constitute dozens of chapters in the manga, and the first 25 or so episodes of the original Fullmetal Alchemist. The Nina Tucker episode in Brotherhood, in FMA 03 takes up nearly three episodes. Yoki gets a backstory in 03 and it's genuinely one of the best episodes and taken directly from the manga and Brotherhood glosses over it because: duh, you've already seen it. And so if you skip the original you miss out on dozens of really great character building episodes like Ed and Al meeting Hughes for the first time and getting to spend a whole episode helping him free a train from terrorists, or Ed and Roy having a duel that expands on the relationship they have, or episodes where the brothers just help out random people in towns before the major story gets going.
The original also paces itself quite a bit better than Brotherhood and is more in line with the mangas storytelling. In the manga we don't find out about The Gate until nearly two dozen chapters in, and the same goes for the original anime. Like, that's a twist reveal in those stories, and it's weird that the most watched series is the one where they tell you all about The Gate in the first two episodes because they assume you've already seen the original show.
What's more, people don't know that Hiromu Arakawa helped write for the anime while she was still in the middle of writing the manga, and as a result was inspired to write scenes in Brotherhood that the anime did first. That scene of Edward getting impaled by a falling beam? Directly inspired by a similar scene in the original anime. There's a lot of little instances of that and they're great when you can recognize parallels and things in Brotherhood that are direct references to the original anime, but people don't notice any of that anymore. Because the original anime is just an automatic skip these days, and it's a bummer because people don't realize what a giant it was back before Brotherhood was released. They treat it as *bad,* not realizing it was one of the most beloved anime of its time and the problems people take issue with have a lot more to do with personal taste than any kind of actual flaw in the writing. Brotherhood was never meant to dethrone it, and the original anime was always supposed to be part of the viewing experience which is why those first few episodes of Brotherhood are so fast paced. So like, please stop telling people Fullmetal Alchemist 2003 is a skip, or it's bad, or you don't need it because Brotherhood is better. Regardless if you think Brotherhood is better or not, the original wrote Brotherhood's check. It was huge, it was beloved, and Brotherhood is *banking* on the knowledge you've seen all of it and loved it. And trust me when I say there is so much to love about the original series. It's still my favorite branch of the FMA franchise, and it's worth your time, I promise you.
#Fma 03#FMA#fullmetal alchemist#Fma:b#fullmetal alchimist brotherhood#fma brotherhood#Legitimately though the original is so fucking good#The music alone makes it worth the watch#Also the art direction is better fight me#mild spoilers
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I was like 11-12 years old when I figured out at a boring-ass church activity that you could put rocks into little plastic spoons and then pelt people who annoyed me with them. I did this for the rest of the activity, and at Sunday dinner the next night was bragging about my victory (cornering the mean kid who picked on my youngest brother and pelting him with rocks). One of my cousins was like âno way, that sounds SO fun! Letâs do that RIGHT NOW!â So we grabbed spoons and went and got pebbles from the back yard and launched them at each other.
The problem was my grandma sold her soul for the worldâs most resilient plastic spoons so we could launch those fuckers HARD. I gave out welts like candy on Halloween, and I got them back in kind.
So we resorted to taking cover and giggling until we got whacked, then yelping, then returning fire.
My cousin hid in my grandpaâs little fishing boat. It was a good boat, but simple and honestly underused. We didnât know the little windows on it, meant to keep the wind out of my grandpaâs face while he drove, were cracking. However, they were definitely cracking. Eventually it became obvious and we realized we had been being dumb.
This was NOT the first time in my life Iâd been dumb roughhousing and broken something, and I had developed a reputation in my family as being âsuicidally honestâ so I was the one to deliver the bad news. My grandpa let out a pretty good chuckle and said it was OK, tousled my hair, and asked my grandma to bring me cake. I am not kidding. I learned later he hated his boat and only bought it for his kidsâ sakes, since he thought everyone needed to know how to fish. At the time though I was just bewildered and pleased at my good fortune. FINALLY, at long last, being honest and telling the truth about breaking something expensive was getting me cake. I knew if I kept trying it would eventually serve me, and now so had CAKE. I was pleased as could be.
My dad, on the other hand, was livid. He LOVED that boat. He spent several weeks each summer recovering from breaking ribs in that boat every year for about 7 years prior to this incident. He had great memories and memories that boat. So he told my Grandma NO cake for me AND that Iâd be coming by this weekend to fix stuff around the house and pay for the broken window with my babysitting/lawn mowing money.
Obviously I was devastated, but that felt more in-line with the way things normally went when I broke something expensive so I just figured it was OK. My grandpa gave my grandma a look and sadly said âOk, have her here on Saturday to help me with some yard work.â
That Saturday my dad woke me up at 6:00 sharp and drove me, sleepy and bewildered, to my grandpaâs house. He was mumbling under his breath the whole time but he thought he was teaching me consequences for my actions so he was ultimately OK with it.
We get to my grandpaâs house at 6:15. My grandpa is outside with a ladder hanging Christmas lights. The lawn is freshly mowed, the trees and garden are weeded and well-tended to, the carnations in the front yard look immaculate, and my grandpa has this giddy mischievous look on his face. He tells me he was so excited that I was coming over that he couldnât sleep, so he did all the yard work himself. He asked me to help him put up Christmas lights and decorate the Christmas tree, which I did, then said that because I was such a good helper I could have some pancakes for breakfast. I was sent home with the slice of cake I had been denied the week before, wrapped to keep it as fresh as possible.
The whole way home my dad looked a little miffed, but told me that he was glad I had been honest and was proud of me for helping grandpa. I know he wanted me to Learn a Lessonâąïžthe cowboy way, like he had as a kid, but didnât have much room to complain since Iâd still been Put To Work.
I think that was a lesson for both of us, although Iâm not totally sure what it was supposed to show me. I think it was my grandpaâs way of showing my dad that discipline without tenderness doesnât count as much. He died last year and I miss him terribly, as does my dad. I hope that my story of victory, drama, punishment, and ultimately a secret second victory is meaningful to someone else out there, but if not it still means a lot to me â€ïž
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Dear Brother
Kinktober Day 14: Incest Yandere brother x male reader CW: Incest, noncon, memory alteration, mind manipulation, possessive yandere, protective yandere, general yandere behavior, versatile reader, anal sex, drugging, sedatives, aphrodisiacs, collaring, murder, Stockholm syndrome, major character death, reader's own cum as lube, masturbation, discrimination against those without powers, dead dove: DO NOT EAT Word Count: 3.8k (This is dark. Sorry for any errors, I did not have it betaread. I hope there are some who will enjoy this.)
The meteor that crashed to the ground generations ago came with it a particularly invasive pathogen. A virus that infected all of humanity, changing the DNA of everyone on Earth, though a large portion of people remained asymptomatic with recessive changes.
Those with symptoms displayed mutations. They varied wildly from animal traits, elemental powers, enhanced strength, super speed, extra limbs, and many others.
Over many years, the DNA that the virus altered became increasingly prominent as mutations were inherited and compounded. Asymptomatics were rarer and rarer. Currently, they made up only 15 percent of the population.
A small portion of people used their extra human abilities for evil, and others became government sanctioned heroes to fight them.
The people who had mutations become highly sought after and fetishized. More laws came into effect to protect them from villains and criminals who would traffic them.
You were a mutationless nobody living in this society.
A brand new law had established a curfew for all people without strong enough mutations. They couldn't go out unless someone with a strong ability was with them.
Another law was that those with no abilities couldn't live alone.
Because of this, you became wholly dependent on your older brother, Drew.
Your older sibling was entirely fine with this arrangement. He had a love for you that wasn't entirely brotherly, though you didn't suspect anything. It seemed to you that his overprotective behavior was the product of being an older brother to someone without a mutation in a world that conditioned people to think of those like you as defenseless. You thought yourself fairly lucky. You weren't forced into an abusive or restrictive marriage or roommate situation because you had Drew. He was always happy to chaperone and escort you.
When he wasn't too busy with his work as a hero. Drew had moved the two of you to a small town due to a lower crime rate and desire to keep you safe and spend as much time with you as possible. It was also to isolate you from any potential suitors. But... you didn't really need to know about that... You had gotten too chummy with people online through various social media and dating websites who lived a bit too close for comfort in the large city you had lived in previously. It was getting burdensome finding them, intimidating them, burying more than one body when they wouldn't get the hint that you were spoken for. That had been rare, though.
If he really needed to, he could use a power no one knew he possessed. He could remove and replace memories. It was a tedious task, requiring a lot of time and energy, and not all minds were susceptible. Even if they were, it couldn't normally be used multiple times on the same person. Which is why he couldn't just make you forget or hate them. Luckily, most people were easily intimidated by Drew. He was tall and muscular, which was enough in some cases, but he also could move things with his mind and produce a psychic barrier around his skin to make him indestructible.
The quieter smaller town was kinda nice, but you were rather bored. Especially when Drew had to do his patrols. He made sure he worked more in the early morning and afternoon since you always liked to be up at night playing video games and going for walks at night with him. Sometimes, he'd take you out to eat at a 24/7 diner that the town had.
He thought of those outings as dates and considered himself to be courting his defenseless brother.
Your brother always ordered ice cream for you to share. Drew loved to watch you eat it, sometimes biting his lip as you so lewdly licked the cold confection from your spoon. It made his cock twitch in his pants. How he wished you were licking his manhood like that. Eager to get every drop of his cum.
The last time you were at the diner you had caught him staring at you with an odd expression.
"What's with that weird face?"
"Oh, uh... I just had a brain freeze."
You had chuckled at him and went back to eating. How he longed for the day when he could tell you how he really loved you. Hopefully it would be soon, but he just didn't know how to broach the topic.
He had let you walk in on him wanking a few times. But all it achieved was you turning red and scrambling out of the room with an immediate apology followed by you pretending that nothing had occurred. Nothing like the pornos.
The other day, you had been comfortable enough to fall asleep on the couch as the two of you watched a movie. He had been admiring your peacefully sleeping form when you slouched over and leaned on his shoulder. He could hear your breathing and felt your drool as it ran down his arm.
It gave him an instant hard-on that he had to address. You had been a busy bee and cleaned the whole house earlier before cooking dinner. You were totally wiped out. Though even on an easy day, you were known for sleeping deeply. Drew carefully shifted the shorts he had been wearing so his large cock was sticking out through the leg and cautiously jerked himself off while imaging you cuddling and clinging to him after a long day.
He had cum so hard that a bit had landed on your lips. He was worried you would wake up, but you remained out like a light as he gently massaged it into your lip like lip gloss.
After that, he had "accidentally" fallen asleep right beside you. He couldn't very well wake a sleeping angel by moving.
That had been well over a month ago, and his desire for you had only grown. He had taken to stealing your underwear and keeping a pair under his pillows so he could sniff them before bed and dream about you.
He knew one day soon he'd have you in every way.
But there was a setback.
His schedule had shifted temporarily while he was on an assignment to help take down a super villain coalition. For two weeks, he was barely home at all, and a vermin had slipped in.
He came home one day to find you on the porch chatting with some piece of absolute filth who kept brushing his hand against yours.
When he left and you came back inside, Drew was holding back serious rage. You had a look on your face that told him all you needed to know. He didn't even have to question you about who it was. You just kept gushing about him.
"That was Len! He's such a sweetie! He saw me on the porch a few days ago when he was walking by and noticed I was glum."
The way you swooned and gushed made Drew's stomach lurch.
"He's so cool! I'm sure you'll like him. He isn't a hero, but his mutation is awesome. He can spontaneously make fire."
Drew noticed you twiddling your fingers in the way you only did when you were brimming with joy. Would that piece of trash know details like that about you!?
Your brother immediately began planning for Len's demise. This was beyond intimidation, threats, and memory alteration. He lived far too close and touched your perfect weak hands with his disgusting grubby ones. Drew knew exactly how he'd do it. He'd infiltrate Len's home and use his telekinetic abilities to cause him to have a stroke. Then he'd burn the house down. It wasn't unheard of for people's mutations to run out of control.
On the night that Drew planned to end Len, you had been texting Len. Even though it was late, he had invited you over because he was playing a new game that he thought you might enjoy together. If you wanted, he'd leave the door unlocked so you could come in. He knew knocking and waiting made you anxious.
He was such a good listener. He would have come over and walked with you, but it was such a short walk, and you didn't want to wake up Drew. Besides, his house was just a few down from yours. If you ran, you could be there in under a minute. And, honestly, no one took these curfew laws seriously in small towns.
You rushed over as fast as you could and nervously opened the door and stepped inside.
"Dr-Drew? What are you-?"
The question was left unfinished as your gaze lowered to Len laying motionless at your brother's feet. Drew's eyes went wide, and his mouth agape when he noticed you. He obviously had not expected you to walk in on his activities. This was just like when you had just turned 20 and you had caught him killing your parents because they had wanted to convince you to go to an isolated island for the mutationless because they wanted you to feel normal.
He had wiped the events from your brain, made you think they had abandoned you both long ago, and finished by making you think he was the older brother so you'd accept him taking care of you a bit more easily when in reality he was a year younger.
But unlike last time, he couldn't erase Len or what you had witnessed. After doing it once, and so extensively, you were inoculated from it.
Your mind was reeling, struggling to piece together an explanation for what you were seeing. You took a few steps back, planning to just run away and hope you woke up from whatever awful nightmare this night was shaping into. But the door slammed shut before you could finish turning around.
"Y-you have to understand! He was going to steal you away... He didn't deserve you. No one does! Except me."
Drew used his abilities to make you slowly float towards him. The look on his face could only be described as deranged.
"I'm so sorry you had to see this. It was supposed to look like an accident..."
You squirmed in his psychic hold as you began sobbing. Your brain finally registered that your brother killed the man you had started to fall in love with. Nothing made sense.
Once his power brought you to him, he wrapped one arm around you tightly and used his free hand to pull a tiny spray capsule up to your face from his utility belt.
He spritzed you just once, and within a few seconds, you were fast asleep. With you taken care of for the moment, Drew could safely get back to the business at hand.
Your subconscious mind must have still been in denial because you found yourself in a dream pounding Len's muscular ass. He was riding you, and you found yourself bucking into his tight hot hole. In reality, your brother had been watching you sleep and decided to rub your crotch. He figured you needed the stress relief, and if you woke up, maybe the pleasure would prove he was just trying to make you happy.
It made sense in his warped mind.
He was originally just going to jerk you off, but when you got fully hard under his touch... he couldn't resist the urge to ride on it. Drew lubed it up and sank himself down on it. This was perfect, he thought. Your first official act as lovers. It would definitely make you forget about that sack of garbage he just took out.
The look on your face as you drooled in your sleep and let out little lewd gasps went straight to his dick and had him cumming in no time. He briefly lifted off of your cock long enough to smear his semen on it before lowering himself again.
You were fucking his cum into him and it would be mixed with your own once you climaxed. The thought made his stomach flutter as blush crept across his face.
Drew knew you were close, your moans had gotten louder and you had started bucking your hips into him. He was amazed you hadn't woken up yet. Though you had always been a deep sleeper and the stuff he sprayed you with was pretty heavy duty. Your eyes fluttered open as you shot your load inside him and moaned out the name Len.
L e n.
It was exactly the wrong thing to say. Your brother, who had never raised a hand to you, slapped you hard across the face.
"That loser is DEAD!! Len is a fucking corpse smoldering in the ashes of his house!"
You were shaking as you stared up at him, still confused about what was going on. Your brain was full of fog and struggled to piece together the events that transpired last night and the fact that your brother was on your dick and angrily yelling in your face.
When he realized the fear in your eyes, he got off of you and pulled you close.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I know it's not your fault. You're so innocent, and he wormed his way into your mind like the greedy parasite he was."
He kissed your cheek gently where he had struck you.
"Just... try not to say his name, okay? You gotta forget about him. It isn't healthy to linger on toxic people like that."
He got up and made his way to the bathroom connected to his room.
"I bet a bath will make us both feel a little more relaxed."
You were pretty sure that you would never be relaxed again for the rest of your life. Your brother was a villain and you had no idea what he was capable of doing to you. The sibling you had depended on killed Len, forced himself on you while you were sleeping, and slapped you.
Since he was busy making a bath, you thought you'd take the chance to leave. You pulled up your pants and crept past the bedroom door and down the stairs. When you reached the bottom, you stared in dismay at the blockade he had put in front of the door. There was no other choice but to turn around. But as you did so you slammed right into the chest of your sibling, who was staring down at you darkly.
"I just came downstairs for a sn-snack."
You were trembling and hoped he bought it. You knew he had when his face softened.
"Oh, well after our bath I'll make us a late night snack."
He grabbed you by the hand and led you back upstairs.
"This will be our first bath together! I'm really excited."
The last thing you wanted to do was to bathe with this monster. But there was no escaping it.
"Haha I guess I'm excited in more than one way!"
You glanced over and saw what he meant. His cock was fully erect.
"I-I'm too shy to bathe together!"
"Don't be silly! We're lovers now and we both really need this."
He picked you up like you weighed nothing and took you into the tub with him. He sat down and positioned you on his lap facing towards him. His erection jabbed at you from below. It made you cringe and curl in on yourself.
Despite the bubbles and warm water, you had never felt so filthy.
"You're still so tense, but big bro will make everything better~"
He groped and massaged your ass before starting to rub your hole. You flinched.
"You have to relax to make this easier."
Eventually, he pressed a finger into you.
"Please sto-"
You were cut off by involuntarily moaning as he hit a special spot inside you.
"Oh, you liked that, didn't you? Made you sound so needy~"
As he kept attending to that place inside you, working his way up to three fingers, your mind got more clouded and distracted, and your body went limp and relaxed.
"Sto-ahhh AAAHHHH!!"
Your hole clenched tightly as you spilled your load on his chest.
Before you could catch your breath he slowly replaced his fingers with his cock. Careful not to hurt you as he slowly eased you down on his entire length.
You were already hard again despite being so sensitive. His hard cock entered you with a bit of pain despite the previous stretching.
For Drew, it was bliss. Heaven. His cock was wrapped in the warm paradise that was his beloved brother. Finally, he was with you in the way his heart yearned to be. He should have just done this the second the two of you had moved out here.
The slight bit of pain you had initially felt faded at the feeling of him battering your insides. His tip perfectly kissed that spot inside you, your resolve being fucked away with each thrust.
Drew moaned your name as he came in you all too soon.
"My cum is in you. My cum is in you. My cum is in you. Mycumisinyou."
He never lost his hard on and kept right on making love to you, his precious brother, without stopping for a second. As his movements intensified, the lavender scented water splashed against the two of you.
"I-I knew I could make it all better!"
You prattled on incoherently as drool pooled from the corner of your mouth.
"You're right. We should let our actions do the talking"
Drews lips dominated yours as he kissed you deeply, nibbling on your lower lip and licking up your drool as he made out with you. As both of you came once more, he slid his tongue into your mouth and rubbed it against yours.
He pulled away and kissed your forehead. Your brain was foggy, and your body was exhausted after all you had been made to endure.
"I guess I should clean us up before the water goes completely cold. Don't worry, we can do that some more after we've rested up, okay?"
You muttered something, but you didn't know what you were saying or even what you were responding to.
That didn't stop Drew from hearing whatever he wanted to though.
"Yeah, we can still make out in bed before we fall asleep!"
Drew cleaned you off then sat you down on his bed after dressing you. Then he ran downstairs and came back up with some cookies.
"You wanted a snack right?"
You nodded sheepishly and nibbled a few to maintain the lie you told earlier. When you finished you went to brush your teeth before bed.
You couldn't look at yourself in the mirror. You were ashamed you had let your brother violate you in such a manner. You were ashamed you were brushing your teeth like it was a normal night. Maybe you could escape or call for help when he was working. It was already early in the morning. His schedule had returned to normal, and he would be back to work in a few hours. You just had to play along and get into bed with him...
The trembling of your body didn't betray your fear, Drew just assumed you were cold and held you protectively under the blankets. He stroked your side gently. It would have been comforting before you knew he was a murderer. Now, it only made you tense. Though you did manage to grab a few moments of uneasy rest.
Upon waking, you realized you were oddly calm. Tranquil. When you had finally fallen asleep, he had sprayed you with another substance from his utility belt.
This time, it was just something heroes used to calm people down. Villains and sometimes people in shock. It was pretty harmless, so if he had to keep you mildly sedated with it, he could. Though he hoped he could adjust you to your new circumstances with it and then eventually wean you off. It made you a little calmer, happier, and more accepting of your situation.
You also found yourself collared. The inside was a soft fabric and the outside a rough material. It was locked to a long chain that was mounted to the wall. You could reach the restroom and the minifridge he had by his bed. A minifridge stocked with all your favorite snacks and cold meals, a mounted chain, a custom collar in your favorite color... How long had he planned for this possibility?
There was definitely anger and grief, but they felt much more muted than they should have been.
The first year or so as your brother's boyfriend was a bit messy. Despite the calming drug, you still had emotional outbursts and anxiety. But your brother understood. He wasn't going to abandon you just because you were a bit moody or said hurtful things sometimes.
He endured and the two of you got through. It didn't hurt that he had stockpiled illegal aphrodisiacs confiscated from human traffickers. They made a target especially horny for the first person who's DNA they were exposed to. Whenever he used it, you were hard and needy to the point of crying, and only his dick could make it any better.
It was a great breakthrough when your body finally got hard from his touch without the help of any drugs at all.
And then you started kissing him and leaning on your big strong brother whenever you got lonely from your isolation. He was the only person you were allowed to have any contact with, and the craving for touch became too unbearable.
Your broken mind slowly justified it and changed your perspective on how you saw Drew. The only other option was going insane.
He was just looking out for you and keeping you safe from evil people. It was all for your own good. He took care of all of your needs. Cuddled you, kept you safe, provided you with games and food, and he was always happy to give you his cock or hole whenever you needed it, even when he was tired from work. If you had trouble sleeping, he'd even gently slip his dick into you and rock you to sleep with the thrusts.
It had, at long last, gotten to the point where he could take you outside on dates again with no fear at all that you'd try to escape him. In fact, you'd cling to his arm for dear life no matter where you went.
Drew was so happy. Now everyone could see that you two were the perfect couple.
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The Lion's Lamb - chapter 1 - MV1/33
Max Verstappen x reader
The lion's lamb series: Aesthetics, Ch. 2, Ch.3, Ch.4, Ch.5, Ch.6, Ch.7, Ch.8, Ch.9
You spent most of your life alone. It wasn't your decision but artists tend to isolate themselves by accident. you were the type to find inspiration and peace when alone.
You would spend hours in your room, painting, until your vision became a reality.
Most people would never work as hard as you do to make a living, but you lived in Monaco. The country where money flowed. You knew you weren't like other residents that surrounded her in this country.
You weren't rich and you didn't have a trust fund to fall back onto. Don't get it wrong, your paintings sold high enough to be able to live in the country permanently, but you were barely scrapping by.
Some might ask why you choose to live in Monaco when you could have been living somewhere else more comfortably.
Monaco itself was known for their wealth and in your line of work, you need the rich to buy your work. You had about three regular clients in Monaco that provided 80% of your entire income.
Coffee was the only time you took a break and wandered into the outside world. And today was one of those days where you needed a break. you had been in your room for the past 4 hours trying to come up with something, but your mind was blank with ideas.
A client had commissioned a piece about 3 months ago and gave the 23 year old a wide range of creative ability on the painting as long as it was a darker piece.
You were the epitome of bright and bubbly and couldn't seem to get her mind into a darker frame of thought. With the piece needing to be done in a months time, you were starting to stress.
You had ordered your cup of coffee at your usual spot. You heard your name being yelled at the counter and quickly went up to grab your drink. Once in hand, you turned only to run into a wall, spilling coffee all over herself and the wall.
To add fuel to the fire of the already embarrassing situation, you slipped on the coffee that had spilled on the ground and fell to the floor hard causing more attention to be drawn onto you. While on the ground, you noticed two shoes in front of you.
You hadn't run into a wall like you originally thought, but instead a man. Your eyes followed the shoes all the way up at the man's face.
Piercing blue eyes stared down at you in annoyance. You could tell he wasn't truly taking you in but rather glaring at you for spilling both their coffees.
Jumping up quickly, You immediately grabbed some napkins off the counter of the coffee shop and tried your best to wipe the stains off the mans white shirt.
"I'm so sorry sir!" you said with tears building in your eyes. "I didn't see you! I'm so sorry!"
As you wipe the man's chest, he grabs your hands causing you to look up at him. It was then, he took in the details of you standing before him.
Your big eyes stared up at him, tears threatening to spill out of the sides. You had a light sprinkle of freckles that ran along her cheekbones and over your nose.
You had long hair that was pulled back out of Your face, but bangs to frame your face perfectly. Your lips were the perfect size and your cheeks were now the color of your lips from embarrassment.
There was a certain shine in your eyes that drew him. He couldn't tell if it was because of the tears or something else, but he needed to find out.
"It's alright," he said. You picked up an accent that wasn't from Monaco but you didn't know where.
"Please, sir, let me buy you your coffee! It's my fault, I can at least try make up it up to you by getting you another."
He nods his head at your response causing a smile to erupt across your face. The man loved how every part of your face lit up at his response. He didn't even say a word, yet you acted like he hung the stars just for you.
"How do you like your coffee?" you asked.
"Black," he state.
With a nod of your head, you told him to sit down while you waited in line. There were only two people ahead of you but you didn't want the man to have to stand with you after you ruined his clothes.
Being around him longer than necessary would cause more embarrassment on your part.
After getting both their coffees again, you found your way back to the blue eyed stranger sitting at a corner table by the window.
"Here," you said while putting it on the table. You noticed his shirt was definitely going to stain and winced slightly at the brown blob on his chest "Again sir, I am so sorry!"
You started digging in your bag for some money to give to the man for dry cleaning. Pulling out whatever you had, you tried to hand it to the man, "Here. It's not a lot but it should pay for dry cleaning to get that stain out."
"No," was the simple response you got.
"Please! It'll make me feel better if you take it! It's the only way I can make up for spilling you coffee!"
"Sit down," he said. You tilted your head in confusion at the blue eyed man. "Sit down and tell me your name. I don't want your money but I will take a name and a conversation as payment."
A blush quickly took over your cheeks as you shyly looked away from the man and sat down across from him. When you sat down you finally got a good look at his face.
He was attractive. He had these piercing blue eyes that would stare into your sole. He looked at you with softness but you were scared to be on the other end of that stare when he was angry.
He was tall, or at least taller than you, but that wasn't saying much compared to him. He was a dirty blond and had a bit of scruff that started to turn into a beard.
You could tell he didn't smile much due to him having very little smile lines. He was a serious man and it showed.
"Your name?" He stated.
"(name)," she said softly, "and yours?"
The man's eyes quickly flashed a look of surprise before they softened again, "Max."
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The Game of Teaching Body - Ch. 1.
viktorxfemale!reader mature! (for now, I will mark later chapters as explicit when the time comes)
AU university, AU modern era, slow burn, frenemies to lovers, teasing, pinning, banter, eventual romance and therefore smut, Viktor is simultaneously a menace and needs a hug, TA Viktor
Ch. 2. | Ch.3. | Ch.4. | Ch.5. | Ch.6. | Ch.7. | Ch.8. | Ch.9. | Ch.10. | Ch.11. | Ch.12.
word count:Â 4,3K
tag: #the game of teaching body
summary:Â Reader is a second-year science student that had just switched schools to escape the suffocating love of her parents and Viktor is being a black cat all the way through. A 12-chapter story of two emotionally problematic people falling in love through acknowledging each other's imperfections.
author's note: This is less introspective than my other fics, attempts to be lighter and funny at times. World is completely made up, even though contains some real things in it. Viktor's disability is present, but decreased (no back brace and breathing affliction). I will soon create fic masterlist and pin it on my blog and will be linking chapters with future updates.
Cross-posted on AO3 + POV3rd Person Version
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You sat wedged between a hot, doe-eyed girl named Sue who was going to be your roommate, and some skinny guy whose name you hadnât caughtâCallum, maybe? Your friend Hale had ditched you to join his theatre group on the other side of the campus, leaving you to navigate introductions with your new course mates alone. Changing universities mid-degree was stressful, but staying back in Sheffield with your parents had been worse. So, yes, it had been the right call. A very good call, you reminded yourself.
Camden had a tiny science department with a handful of brilliant professors. It wasnât the best, but it wasnât Sheffield. And it had Hale, who had convinced you to come down south with promises of freedom, self-discovery, and the chance to reclaim your status as the unstoppable friend power-couple youâd been in high school (not that you had mattered at all back then, of course).
The room buzzed with overlapping conversations and sporadic bursts of laughter, the faint thrum of inoffensive pop music humming from a Bluetooth speaker in the corner. The second-year welcome party was more like a casual gathering, hosted in one of the university lounges with just enough couches and harsh fluorescent lighting to feel awkwardly cozy. You sipped from a plastic cup of lukewarm cider, your attention flitting between three different conversations happening around you.
To your left, Jayce was in the middle of an animated retelling of how heâd nearly blown up a lab during his undergrad years. His booming laugh and sweeping hand gestures kept everyone engaged, even those who had only half-heard the setup to his punchline. You found yourself smiling despite having missed most of the story. You vaguely recalled his introduction earlier in the eveningâJayce, one of the TAs for your course this year. From Sheffield, like you. Big personality, bigger grin.
On your right stood Viktor, the second TA, his hands resting lightly on his cane. He exuded a quieter kind of presence, his sharp amber eyes scanning the group with an air of detached curiosity. Heâd joined the circle mid-conversation, offering the occasional dry comment that earned chuckles from those paying attention.
âYouâre training to be a geneticist?â Viktor asked, leaning slightly toward you. His accent caught you off guardâit was Slavic, you thought, though you werenât confident enough to guess further. You made a mental note to ask him about it one day.
You blinked, surprised to be addressed. âOh, yeah,â you replied quickly, nodding. âSecond year. Still deciding whether I want to focus on medical or research applications, though.â You paused. âYouâre in bioengineering for your PhD, right?â
âCorrect,â Viktor said with a slight upward quirk of his lips. âIt is refreshing to meet someone undecided. Most claim they will change the world before finishing their first term.â
You laughed nervously, unsure if he was mocking you or just making an observation. âYeah, Iâm saving that for third year.â
Viktor raised an eyebrow, his expression hovering somewhere between amused and sceptical. âAmbitious,â he said dryly.
Before you could respond, Jayce turned toward you, pulling the groupâs focus with him. âWhat about you? Have you had Professor Albin yet? Heâs a character, let me tell you. Loves his experiments more than his students.â
You grinned, drawn into the shift in energy. âOh, yeah, Iâve heard about him. But wait, is he the one who smokes under the laboratory fume hood?â
Jayce snapped his fingers in mock recognition. âExactly! Last year, he almost caused the whole building to evacuate because he didnât realise the hood was broken.â
The group erupted into laughter. You found yourself relaxing, leaning into the easy rhythm of the conversation. You missed the glance Viktor cast your way, faintly bemused.
He cleared his throat, a subtle gesture that drew only a few eyes. âAlbin may be forgetful, but he has published groundbreaking work on single-cell RNA sequencing. One might forgive the eccentricities, no?â
The remark hung in the air for a beat, slightly out of sync with the conversationâs playful tone. Jayce, quick to keep the mood light, grinned and waved it off. âTrue, but it doesnât make his lectures any less painful.â
The laughter resumed, bubbling back up with ease. You smiled, but something about Viktorâs expression lingered in your mindâa subtle tightness around his mouth, almost imperceptible but impossible to ignore once noticed.
You thought to say something, maybe steer the conversation back toward him, but Jayce was already pulling your attention with another question, his energy impossible to resist. The moment slipped away, and with it, that fleeting glimpse of something unreadable in Viktorâs eyes.
The party dispersed shortly after midnight, and you went to find Hale for the promised cigarette and your earlier-agreed session of impression comparing. You spotted him by the fountain, his tall figure hunched over in his velvet vest, already smoking.
âMy darling!â he exclaimed, throwing his arms wide in a theatrical flourish. âSo, spill the teaâhow was it? Anyone hot? Anyone you already hate? Good decision? Bad decision?â
âUh⊠Can I bum a fag? I forgot my pack in the room.â You patted your pockets distractedly as Hale swept you into his arms, spinning you around dramatically. He placed his own cigarette between your lips with a flourish.
âIâm going to burst if you donât tell me right now. Your mother already hates meâI need to know you donât hate me too!â
âJoanne is going to be fine,â you replied, rolling your eyes but letting yourself be twirled in your exaggerated tango. âShe already sent me, like, a thousand affirmations for my ânew beginnings.ââ
Hale dipped you low, grinning. âAnd?â
âI⊠donât know,â you sighed as he held you in the dramatic pose. âItâs a bunch of nerds, like me, so I guess Iâll be alright.â
Hale gave you a pointed look, his brow furrowing. âYou are not just some nerd. You are brilliant, and they are not ready for you.â He placed a soft kiss on your forehead, his voice gentle but firm.
âAlright, alright,â you muttered, waving him off with a small smile. âFull report is as follows: Sue, my roommateâhot and completely oblivious about it. Nobody else really standing out. Itâs an even mix of guys and girls.â You started pacing along the edge of the fountain, ticking details off on your fingers. âWeâve got two TAs: one would make you drool, and the other one would make you run for your life.â
âI have to meet them both,â Hale declared with a dramatic flourish, grinning mischievously.
Hale twirled you one last time before pulling you upright with exaggerated care. âYouâre lucky Iâm such a gracious dance partner, darling,â he said, letting you go with a flourishing bow.
You laughed and brushed your hair out of your face. âOh, youâre too kind. I didnât know youâd start your evening in full drama mode.â
Hale smirked, looping his arm through yours as you strolled around the fountain. The air was crisp, the faint glow of the nearby building lights reflecting off the water. âIâm always in drama mode. You know this. Now, tell meâwhatâs the plan tomorrow? More parties? Some secret nerd ritual?â
You rolled your eyes, nudging him with your shoulder. âYes, we are totally raising someone from the dead tomorrow,â you smirked. âThe TAs are swinging by each room tomorrow to hand out schedules and do a quick orientation. Viktor mentioned it tonight in passing.â
Hale gasped dramatically, clutching his chest. âViktor, you say? Is that the one who would make me drool or the one whoâd send me running for my life?â
You laughed. âThe latter. Heâs got this whole âintimidating geniusâ vibe going on, but I canât tell if heâs just really smart or if he practices those broody stares in the mirror.â
âOh, I have to meet this man,â Hale said with a gleam in his eye, spinning you around. âAnd what about the one whoâd make me drool?â
âThatâs Jayce,â you replied. âBig, loud, charming. Like a golden retriever who also happens to be jacked and into science.â
Hale pretended to swoon, leaning on you for support. âBe still, my heart. This place might actually be worth sticking around for.â
You smirked, brushing ash off your borrowed cigarette. âSpeaking of sticking around, how was your night? Any tragic love stories waiting to happen?â
Hale shrugged nonchalantly, but there was a glint of mischief in his eyes. âSame old faces, same old dramas. Nothing new. Nobody around here who could really crush my heart, but you know meâIâll eat anything when Iâm starved.â
You snorted, shaking your head. âThatâs the spirit. Settle for mediocrity!â
âItâs a survival skill, darling,â Hale replied, grinning as he plucked the cigarette from your fingers and took a long drag.
You walked in silence for a moment, your steps slow and unhurried. You glanced at the fountain, its gentle ripples catching the light, and exhaled a breath you hadnât realised you were holding.
âI think it was a good decision,â you said softly, breaking the quiet.
Hale raised an eyebrow, handing the cigarette back to you. âCamden? Or letting me drag you here tonight?â
âBoth,â you admitted, a small smile playing at your lips. âThanks for making me come. For once, I actually feel⊠scared of something. Not stuck.â
Haleâs expression softened, and he threw an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close. âThatâs because youâre brilliant, and the world doesnât stand a chance against you.â
You rolled your eyes but leaned into the gesture, taking one last drag of the cigarette before flicking it into the fountain.
âHereâs to not being stuck,â Hale declared, lifting an imaginary glass.
âTo not being stuck,â you echoed, laughing as the two of you turned and headed back toward the dorms.
***
The sound that woke you and Sue was impossible to describeâa cacophony of metal being violently banged together, accompanied by a high-pitched whining noise. Then came loud banging on the door.
A soft groan came from Sueâs bed as she rolled out, stretching her limbs before sinking onto the floor and curling into a foetal position. âI think itâs the TAs,â she said weakly, yawning.
You decided to be brave, though your first instinct was to shove a pillow over your head and wait for the monster to go away. Dragging yourself out of bed, your head pounding from the cider and cigarettes youâd had with Hale the night before, you trudged to the door. Your expression was one of pure pleading as you opened it and asked, âIs this really how you guys want to start this relationship?â
In front of you, Jayce froze mid-motion, one frying pan held in each hand. Viktor stood just behind him, clutching a bicycle horn and smirking mercilessly.
âGood morning, sunshine!â Jayce boomed, lowering the frying pans slightly but keeping his grin firmly in place, like a weapon. âReady to seize the day?â
You squinted, shielding your eyes from the hallway light as though it were a personal attack. âSeize the day? Iâm about to seize your frying pans and toss them out the window.â
Jayce laughed, completely unbothered, while Viktor raised the bicycle horn and gave it a sharp honk. âConsider it your wake-up call,â Viktor said smoothly, his smirk deepening. âPromptness is a virtue, no?â
âIâm promptly considering murder,â you muttered, glaring at them both.
Behind you, Sue groaned from her spot on the floor. âIâm not coming out. Tell them Iâm dead.â
Jayce leaned sideways to peer into the room. âGood morning to you too, Sue!â he called cheerfully.
âSod off,â Sue replied, her voice muffled by her arm.
Viktor glanced at Jayce, shaking his head slightly as though disapproving of his partnerâs antics. Then he turned his attention back to you. âWe are here to distribute schedules and perform a brief orientation,â he said, his tone more measured but no less smug. âYou should be grateful. Only the science department students receive such... personal service.â
You crossed your arms, raising an eyebrow. âYeah, I feel so special. Is banging cookware a requirement of this personal service, or is it just a special treat for us?â
âJust for you,â Jayce said with a wink. âAnd hey, it worked, didnât it? Youâre awake.â
You sighed, stepping back to let them into the room. âFine. Come in. But if you touch anything, Iâm calling security.â
Jayce sauntered in like he owned the place, plopping the frying pans onto the desk with a loud clang. Viktor followed more quietly, his eyes sweeping the room in a quick, assessing glance. He placed the bicycle horn next to the pans, the absurdity of the scene making you shake your head in disbelief.
âYouâre like two chaotic sitcom characters,â you said, rubbing your temples. âAnd Iâm the poor, sleep-deprived protagonist who has to deal with your nonsense.â
Jayce grinned. âI like to think of myself as the lovable goofball.â
âAnd Viktorâs the straight man?â you guessed, glancing at him.
Viktorâs lips twitched, but he didnât respond immediately. Instead, he handed you a neatly folded piece of paper. âYour schedule,â he said. âI trust you can manage to read it despite your current... condition.â He gave you a once-over and added, âNice pyjamas.â
You looked down at yourself, remembering too late that you were wearing red cotton pants with white hearts and an oversized Nirvana sweatshirt. It was a damn nice set of pyjamasâwhat was the problem? You snatched the paper from him, your mouth twitching into a reluctant smile despite yourself. âThanks. Iâll try not to faint from gratitude.â
âMuch appreciated,â Viktor replied dryly.
Sue, still sprawled on the floor, finally raised her head and groaned. âDo we at least get coffee with this torture?â
Jayce perked up. âNow thatâs an idea! Viktor, we shouldâve brought coffee.â
âI am not your barista,â Viktor deadpanned.
You couldnât help but laugh, the absurdity of the morning starting to chip away at your hangover. âAlright, alright. Give us five minutes, and weâll join the rest of the poor souls youâve terrorized this morning.â
âMake it three,â Viktor said, his smirk returning as he turned toward the door.
Jayce followed with a wave. âSee you downstairs!â
As the door closed behind them, you turned to Sue, who was now sitting up, her hair a wild mess.
âSo,â you said, leaning against the door. âDrool-worthy or run-for-your-life?â
Sue blinked, still half-asleep. âWhat?â
âThe TAs,â you clarified, holding back a grin. âJayce and Viktor. Whatâs the verdict?â
Sue rubbed her eyes, yawning. âJayce is like a golden retriever on caffeine. Viktor... is something else. Sharp. Kinda scary. But, like, in a hot way?â
You snorted, tossing the schedule onto your desk. âIâm just trying to survive their weird buddy cop energy.â
Sue flopped back onto the floor with a groan. âWake me up when itâs over.â
You shook your head, a smile tugging at your lips. âItâs never over, Sue. Welcome to Camden.â
***
Orientation and the first classes passed in a blur of introductions, schedules, and information overload. By the time the fifth person introduced themselves, youâd already forgotten the first three names. Professor Heimerdinger, perched at the front of the lab like an animated encyclopaedia, launched into an overview of the semester: rules for grades and exams, expectations for in-class behaviour, and a note about optional after-class activities for the particularly ambitiousâor masochistic.
You braced yourself for the inevitable repeat classes like chemistry and biophysics, but it didnât bother you. Repetition wasnât so bad if you could zone out without missing much.
Jayce and Viktor drifted through the room during the lecture, their presence oddly complementaryâone buzzing with boundless energy, the other moving with deliberate precision. They pointed out key locations: lab glass, gloves, coats, goggles, and the cabinets youâd definitely forget the moment you walked out. They handed out maps of the department and listed their office hours. Standard procedure. Functional. Dandy.
When it was finally over, Sue nudged you, a mischievous glint in her eye. âWanna head to the bar nearby?â
âYou want to drink again?â You raised an eyebrow, though her expression hinted at ulterior motives.
Sue tilted her head, all innocence. âOr⊠maybe I want to go to the bar to spy on our TAs,â she said, her gaze trailing after Jayce and Viktor as they left the room.
You sighed, exasperated but amused. âBy my calculations, we have about a week to live before weâre buried in coursework.â
âExactly! We should enjoy it while it lasts.â Sue clasped her hands together and unleashed the puppy eyes. âPlease?â she added, her lower lip quivering with Oscar-worthy conviction.
You rolled your eyes, defeated. âI am genuinely terrified of you. And convinced Iâll never be able to say no to you. Fine. One condition: I get to drag Hale along.â
âIs Hale your hot theatre friend?â Sueâs excitement was palpable, her grin wide enough to make you laugh.
âYes, and heâs also gay, so donât get your hopes up. Heâll break your heart,â you warned, pulling out your phone to text him.
âI am desperate for a gay boyfriend, so please drag him along whenever you feel like it,â Sue replied, already on her feet, coat slung over her arm.
Your phone buzzed almost instantly: I know the place â seedy shithole. Be there in no time! Haleâs response sealed the deal. You were officially going to a bar to âspyâ on your TAs.
The bar was, indeed, a seedy shithole, but it had a quirky charm. Posters plastered the walls, advertising plays, gigs, and questionable student endeavours. Lamps made of beer bottles cast a dim, golden light, and the furniture was an eclectic mixâlike someone had raided every grandmotherâs attic in a three-mile radius. A fireplace crackled in one corner, surrounded by mismatched cushions for floor seating, and a jukebox stood proudly by the bar, humming with potential.
You approached the bar with Sue, scanning the menu. Sueâs brows furrowed in confusion as she searched for something that wasnât beer. The bartender, a man with a weathered face and a disarming smile, leaned in. âWhat can I do for you, honey?â
Sueâs voice turned soft and sweet, almost like a fairy casting a spell. âDo you have anything⊠sweet?â
The bartender paused, giving her a look like heâd climb mountains to fetch whatever she wanted. For a moment, you wondered if he might actually run to another bar, buy something sugary, and bring it back. The thought made you chuckle as you watched Sue charm her way to a perfect drink.
âLet me surprise you,â the bartender said, flashing Sue a sweet smile before turning to you. âAnd for you, darling?â
âIâll just have a pint, cheers,â you replied, your gaze lingering on the heartwarming interaction between the adorable Sue and the massive, tattooed bartender.
âAh! Let me get this,â you registered an arm sliding between you and Sue, holding a credit card. âSince we forgot the coffees this morning,â Jayceâs familiar grin soon followed, putting a face to the offering hand.
âIâll be the one buying drinks for my pookie today,â a strong arm wrapped around your neck and shoulders, and you immediately recognized Haleâs voice from above you. âLet me guess⊠drool-worthy andââhis eyes shifted toward Viktorâârun-for-your-life?â
âIâve also been called âthe straight man,ââ Viktor remarked, giving you a questioning look.
âAh, I can see why,â Hale replied, on the verge of ruining your chances for any semblance of dignity this semester. Then he turned to Sue. âAnd you must be the hot Sue?â
âOh my god, did you say that?â Sue squeaked playfully, leaning over to grab your hand. âI think youâre hot too,â she added with a wink.
You wanted to sink deep underground and let the demons of hell swallow you whole.
Waiting for your drink to be poured, you watched Jayce, Sue, and Hale drift toward the fireplace sitting area, Haleâs arm already wrapped around your roommate as they chatted animatedly.
âYou seem to have a lot of opinions already formed,â Viktorâs voice came from above your shoulder as he reached for his drinkâa vodka on the rocks.
âKeep looking at me like that, and Iâll indeed run for my life,â you shot back, narrowing your eyes at him, a playful smirk tugging at your lips.
Viktor raised an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth twitching with amusement. âIs that so?â His tone was smooth, with just a hint of challenge.
âAbsolutely,â you replied, leaning in slightly with mock seriousness. âYouâre giving off dangerous, 'Iâve got a sarcastic comment for everything' vibes. It's a threat.â
Viktor chuckled, the sound warm and surprisingly disarming. âA threat, huh? Iâll have to be careful then.â He took a sip of his drink, his eyes glinting. âDonât worry. I wonât bite.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât stop the smile forming at the edge of your mouth. âI wasnât worried.â
For a moment, you both stood there, the noise of the bar buzzing around you. Viktorâs gaze lingered a moment too long, making you feel slightly off balance. Then, with a casual shrug, he turned back to the group by the fireplace.
âLetâs go join the chaos,â he said nonchalantly, throwing you a brief glance over his shoulder as he walked away.
You followed, still trying to shake the unexpected buzz of the encounter. It was weird how Viktor could throw you off without even trying.
By the time you approached the group, Hale had already charmed Jayce and Sue, effortlessly pulling them into his world with animated tales of his theatre exploits. He gestured enthusiastically, his voice rich with excitement. âSo, weâre doing Rocky Horror Picture Show this year for the mid-semester final,â he announced, his theatrical tone drawing everyone in. âWeâre looking for actorsâare any of you up for it?â
Sue, looking both intrigued and a little unsure, glanced over at Jayce, who was already grinning. âIâm afraid that my singing would have you fail the final, Hale,â Jayce said with a laugh, clearly weighing the possibilities. âI will gladly come and watch, though?â
Hale grinned wider. âIâll put you in the front row! And Y/Nâs been trying to convince me to take on Frank N. Furterâs part, which made me think sheâd make a killer Janet.â
At that, you couldnât help but roll your eyes, your playful tone cutting through the banter. âOnly if I can play Magenta,â you said, tossing your head back slightly. âOtherwise, it's a no-go.â
The group chuckled, but Jayce, who had been half-listening as they continued talking, suddenly perked up. âWait, hold on. Are you both actually from Sheffield?â He leaned forward slightly, clearly curious.
You smirked, folding your arms across your chest and leaning in, dropping the playful façade for a second. âI donât have my Pulp T-shirt on me today,â you quipped, âbut I can show you my ID?â
Raising an eyebrow, you knew full well that a bit of playful sarcasm could spark a reaction. Viktor, standing just a few steps behind, glanced over at you as your words hit the air. His eyes flicked between you and Jayce, his attention sharpened but still calm, like he was quietly enjoying your back-and-forth with the others.
Jayce laughed, shaking his head. âYou really are from Sheffield, arenât you?â
âBorn and bred,â you shot back with a grin, your hands slipping into your pockets. âDonât let the accent fool you.â
Viktor took a small sip of his drink, a glimmer of amusement flickering in his gaze as he continued to watch you. You had a way of carrying yourselfâlike you knew how to hold your ground, even when teasing. And now that you had mentioned it, there was a non-Sheffield accent lingering underneath your words.
âEh, itâs not a place for stars like us,â Hale mused, giving your thigh a playful squeeze.
âMy darling, brilliant man, you know all I wish for you is to never step foot in that shithole again and rise to stardom so fast the bystanders get their eyes burned,â you replied with a dramatic flourish, your grin wide and teasing.
Jayce laughed, raising his beer. âWell, before anyone dies burned by Haleâs halo, I guess we could all drag along back for Christmas together?â
âJayce, if there is anything to drag by then, be my guest,â you responded with a quiet clank of your glass against Jayceâs.
âOh yes, Christmas is a must. I have to bring a peace offering to Y/Nâs mother for stealing her precious daughter away from the family nest,â Hale said, making an exaggerated frightened face when mentioning your mum, Joanne.
âHale, repeat after me: Joanne is going to be fine. Itâs about time she grows up.â
***
Jayce and Viktor walked down the dimly lit street, the buzz of the bar still echoing in their steps. The night air was cool, and the muffled sounds of laughter and music faded behind them as they made their way back to the dorms.
âI love freshmen,â Jayce said, a grin tugging at his lips.
Viktor shot him a sidelong glance. âThatâs disturbing.â
âCome on, theyâre cute.â Jayce shrugged; his tone playful. âGood idea with the morning orchestra, by the way. Got them all riled up.â
Viktorâs lips twitched at the memory. âThe girls sure have their eyes on you.â He looked at Jayce, raising an eyebrow. âYou planning on visiting Y/Nâs family for Christmas already?â
Jayce laughed. âI donât know, man. I have a feeling her eyes are actually on you.â
Viktor paused mid-step, narrowing his eyes. âShe literally called me 'the straight man' and the 'run-for-your-life-one.' I highly doubt it.â
Jayce nudged him with his elbow. âYou know nothing about girls, Viktor.â Viktor gave him a sceptical look, but Jayceâs grin only grew wider, and for once, Viktor couldn't help but wonder if Jayce was right.
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i beg of you to write more mean abby.. i reread all of ur mean abby works religiously i swear i just love her too much à«ź ˶ᔠᔠá”˶ á
Êâ§áŽ„âŠÊ NONNIEEEEE STOP THIS JS TOO SWEET!!!! IM BLUSHING IM BLUSHING I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!! sorry this is a lil bit messy, i havenât really had time to lock in on anything official I HOPE THATS OKAY!!!! here are some thoughts⊠18+
i think mean!abby is one of those people who are discreetly rich. sheâs not the type of person to go on big fancy vacations, or buy expensive sports cars, or to always have the newest technology. before she met you, she probably spent most of her money on books or expensive brands of tea imported from countries sheâs never even heard of. after she met you, though? sheâd swipe her card a million times a day to see you smile.
the best way i can describe her personality is like some old cranky grandpa, the scary guy on the block who never smiles but is very confrontational. if youâve seen her around, youâd know that sheâs always wearing a scowl, only leaves her penthouse apartment early to go to the gym, and has beef with most of her neighbors. but if you know know her? sheâs a sweetie pie. she loves spontaneous sweet treats, slow dancing to 70âs music, old horror films (mean!abby letterboxd goes CRAZY i just know), and most shockingly, her cats.
and she LOVES those fuckers. itâs so perfect how she can have a companion whoâs quiet and small and independent, and two of them? barely any responsibility. they have an automatic feeder, entertain each other, and only bug her about once a day for attention.
as for her job, i could see her having two possibilities. one being an extreme workaholic. maybe an office job or a surgeon or something?? (NOT a nurse because theyâre supposed to be good at talking to peopleâŠ) OR she only really works part time, some freelance job that doesnât really have any rules. a photographer or a tattoo artist or some sort of small business that she can mostly manage on her own. money has never been an issue for her, coming from a family of doctors. her ass was spoiled rotten as a kid, and after her dad died she inherited all of that money.
sheâs the biggest protector in the world. someone was talking shit about you? sheâs breaking their nose right now actually. i think the biggest reason sheâs âmeanâ is because she actually just has anxiety. the last time she felt a love this strong, it was for her dad. she canât afford to lose you like she lost him, so she always has to make sure youâre safe and sound. itâs not like sheâs trying to be controlling by texting you every half hour, she just worries that maybe she wonât be able to protect you for once, and itâll be at the worst possible time.
ok lock in here are some nsfw thoughts :3
you know that trope thatâs like âbig mean stoic character is actually the subbiest bottomest little puppy in the whole world.â yeahâŠ. if you donât agree what are you still doing here.
it definitely took her a while to be this vulnerable, but jesus christ is it worth it!!! the way you get to watch her squirm and whimper underneath you, knowing that youâre the only one who can make her feel this way. to give your big protective guard dog girlfriend a night off, to take care of her in return for all that she does for you.
and she lovessss being tied up!!!! something about the intimacy of knowing youâre gonna give her a good time makes her submit to you almost instantly. she has to trust you on this, has sit back and relax and let her brain melt because she physically canât do anything about it.
when she does dom i imagine sheâs a pretty big brat tamer. câmon, not everyone has the luxury of having a girlfriend like her. if you donât act grateful sheâll whip you in to shape. literally. sheâs not afraid of a good spanking.
also sheâs strapped up 24/7 but this is canon in every universe⊠no matter what sheâs doing or where sheâs going or who sheâs gonna meet, the strap stays ON!!! just in case she may need itâŠ.
but sheâs the aftercare QUEEN. of course. apart from the basics like food, water, cuddles, etc. she has tonssss of knowledge on proper aftercare. youâd never have to worry about being hurt or getting a uti or feeling unloved because sheâs read every forum to exist about aftercare!!! i just know this bitch runs a tumblr kink blog like itâs the military⊠đ€Š
thatâs allâŠ. going to eep nowâŠâŠ
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Okay perfume talk, I wouldnât consider myself to be a serious fraghead but Iâve been in this for a couple of years maybe 3 or 4 so Iâm not a novice either atp,, Every holiday season Sephora and ulta release a perfume/cologne set of tester samples that you can also use to redeem a full or travel size of perfume which is a pretty good deal because getting perf samples is a pain in the ass esp if youâre looking for more elusive perfume, usually goes around $4-6 on average so getting this collection of say (for this year, it varies per year I believe the average is around 7-8 samples for the travel pack and usually something similar for the full/mid size set) 8 samples for a value of 34 is really good plus you get a travel size on top of that for free because again, if each of those samples youâre eyeing are even just 4 bucks a piece, thatâs still 32 and youâre out a travel size so these are really good value deals.
Now hereâs the issue. Every single year without fail, there are the sample fucking scents EVERY SINGLE TIME yeah yeah cult classics or whatever but itâs fucking boring and it lowers the value of the set because we already tried them the previous year and if you just want to try like say three scents, itâs better to just go in store try them and buy a normal travel size, which are typically from $28-34 depending on the brand but this is a typical average for travel sizes. Itâs always the most BORING scents they choose to re-use because weâre stuck in like 2015 or something idk but usually you can see D&Gâs light blue, herreraâs good girl, Valentino bright crystal, ysl black opium AND libre, Viktor & Rolf either flower bomb or good fortune. Hereâs the other issue with these sets, 90% of these scents are strong vanilla or heavy sweet floral which is fine EXCEPT thatâs most the set. Itâs just not very versatile usually, and caters to a specific group of people who enjoy more overpowering scents because, again, thatâs what perfume is known as typically. Kinda strong vanilla (specifically vanilla base) and usually a floral like rose or peony.
ALSO my other issue with these sets is that I KNOW the other perfume in them are ass because Iâve smelt them before. The other ones they add in are not âindieâ perfumes per say but theyâre not super popular such as Juliette has a gun which HAS GOOD SCENTS BUT they ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS put in not a gun which is a layering scent and is lame and is not for the average normal people consumer because most people donât think to layer their perfume when theyâre testing out new scents so I think itâs not great in these kinds of sample sets because people want to take each scent in as an individual.
Regardless, they always choose some of the most popular scents and some mid scents from other brands which are âtrendy or people have their eyes onâ but typically smell mediocre if I havenât mentioned that. That brings me to this year where theyâve really stepped it up. This year, they changed the typical line up to the âone offâ scents where a lot of big frag brands will create a âtwistâ on their scents and sometimes it does make a difference, but sometimes not.
For example, black opium from ysl has like three iterations where thereâs the classic, thereâs one called over red, and thereâs one called like illicit green or something WHCIH is not to be confused with edp, edc, and edt thatâs different <- this is the strength of the fragrance concentration (side tangent, perfume is comprised of two main elements, the alc which diffuses the perfume and is the reason why when you first spray something it smells like alc and the actual fragrance oils, each of those have varying quantities of each, the strongest smell and amount of fragrance oil to alc concentration goes eau de parfum, followed by eau de cologne, then eau de toilette <- the toilette is a reference to the bathroom aka toilet, meaning youâre supposed to refresh this perfume when you go to the bathroom so itâs intentionally a perfume that doesnât last).
Anyways. This year, the sample set from Sephora has more ânewâ scents that step away from the cookie cutter cult classics and also have favored the new âtwistâ perfumes on the actual classics, typically as a means of promotion for the new version of the scent which usually isnât as well loved/recieved aka Herreraâs new version of good girl which is good girl blush. They also have included perfume oils which is really new and fresh because those have been increasing in trend recently and I really appreciate it. Anyways, thereâs a new massive set for 95? That has 15 samples and includes a free MID sized perfume, it says full size but itâs actually the size in between full and travel, itâs usually around a two oz or so less which comes out to around 30-50 mL usually (depends on the brand, some do both 30 and 50 if theyâre more expensive) compared to a full which is usually around 98sih mL. The line up was pretty good!! I was happy about the mix of older and newer scents that they chose, though Iâm not happy about the appearance of Charlotte tilbury into the perfume world, I havenât tried any but just looking at them they look cheap and gross in terms of scent. While the trend to cater towards sweet and floral hasnât changed, Iâm glad they started branching out of the usual mainstream scents and I really do think that even the smaller full and travel sets they came out this year are a lot more unique than usual.
In terms of ulta, theyâre lacking a bit as per usual when it comes to these things, but they also included a new like diversity set so thereâs one with all the cult classics and thereâs a different one where most are relatively newer scents which I like, also the price point is crazy itâs like 17 and 14 scents (the sets have different # of scents, the classics is 17 the new one is 14) for 20 plus a 15 gift card so the âessentialsâ they have is good for people getting into perfume and those that want the normal popular scents and the newer one are more relevant scents to 2022ish and while itâs still a sweet vanilla and floral set, Iâm happier about the ones they chose to include. Though the thing with these sets is that thereâs always a chance theyâll give you perfumes that are empty/half full just because this is something third parties put together. Thereâs less of a risk with regular sample sets that the brands put out because itâs from the brand, but Sephora and ulta have a history of having crappy sets with less than full bottles, however if youâre just wanting to sincerely try out a scent like once or twice, itâs whatever. Honestly I donât need most of my samples past one use because I can tell when I like or hate something pretty easy. Anyways, thatâs my thing about perfume LMFAO sorry this was long
do you guys want to see my literal essay i just sent to my coworker about perfume
#chatterye#tldr: sample sets came out and are not completely ass for once but still mostly vanilla and floral#also long tags under here be warned#also i was really proud of myself for correctly putting peony for florals because that's so popular#like i just fragrantica-ed it and i was so right it's in everything#also yeah i pulled most of this from memory i did fact check some of the thigns though#like the number of samples the price and the average mL size for this year#otherwise names and stuff? all from my head unfortunately#i don't really understand the ulta deal but whatever#i might get their 14 sample set i'm curious about some of them#i liked some of sephora's BUT in those same sets i know i hate like half of them#or i can tell i will hate them#i need the perfume world to walk away from coconut scents and beach scents#they always suck and smell like sunscreen#also i just hate coconut#also honorable mentions for overused scents include anything from the replica series#which i like one scent from but people need to lay off them#and jo malone <- ass brand btw we don't like them#but their scents are in everything also recent up and coming indie brands that are everywhere#dedcool which i don't love their stuff by rosie jane <- hated everything i tried#henry rose is better but i don't love them milk commodity <- i'm just biased against layering scents/skin scents don't love them#kayali which i literally have perfume from but they always choose her vanilla one which is okay but also basic and boring#7 virtues which i like more of their scents so i'm fine with this#they throw nest in there pretty frequently and i like some of their scents but there's a lot of misses for me#also i am begging them to stop putting not a perfume everywhere#pear inc from jhag is so much more exciting and fun and good but seriously why not a perfume#literally jhag has good other scents stop putting not a perfume PLEASE#'but it's popular' IDGAF i am TIRED of it#i could actually go on more about this but i won't#i'll stop here....
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web of wyrd: annual energies and relationship milestones
my best friend is newly engaged, as i said recently, which has inspired me to focus a little more focused on love and romance posts than you typically would see from me. i previously covered annual energies and some broad themes associated with them, so i thought lets look a bit more at the romantic themes seeing that it's over a year later (since that post) and i have seen WAY more webs at this point and picked up on some other trends.
something to keep in mind though - these are COMMON energy markers, any of this can happen any year. these are just the best case scenarios in my opinion.
for instance you can get married in a 22 year, but i feel like it may not last long term or it might be an elopement that upsets the couple and those around them long term...
or you could have a baby in a 12 year but need a c-section.
just some examples. by no means should you feel limited by what i say below!
let's get to it!
energies that indicate meeting your person
3 (the empress): finding a relationship where both people feel nurtured. it's a loving connection with a great potential to become something beautiful. this is a connection where you can dream about a life and a family together.
5 (the hierophant): meeting someone who shares your values and beliefs. this often leads to a conventional, committed relationship, often marriage.
6 (the lovers): friends to lovers energy for sure - it starts with simple conversations and evolves into love. it more often than not leads to meaningful and deep connections.
10 (the wheel of fortune): suggests that meeting your future spouse / person could be a part of your destiny, often through unexpected or "serendipitous" events.
17 (the star): the relationship is blessed/guided by a higher power. destiny seems to bring you both together. you can sleep well knowing you're on the right path and that the universe is bring you a significant relationship.
19 (the sun): a connection will bring happiness, warmth, and a sense of completeness.
21 (the world): finding a partner with whom you feel whole, a sense of completion, and/or a deep understanding. this leads to a long-term, potentially lifelong partnership.
energies that indicate moving in together
4 (the emperor): moving in together often requires a stable and organized environment, which aligns with the themes of the energy such as establishing a solid foundation and practical arrangements.
5 (the hierophant): moving in together can be seen as following milestones in a relationship leading towards a more traditional or serious commitment (like shared housing).
7 (the chariot): directly linked to movement and travel. represents taking control of one's life and moving forward, which can include physically moving to a new home or location.
energies that indicate becoming engaged
4 (the emperor): suggests that a relationship is entering a phase of solid commitment, usually it's the formalizing of a bond through engagement if that is the next phase of commitment in terms of your relationship.
5 (the hierophant): suggesting that a relationship is moving toward a more traditional and committed phase - if you are in a relationship, it is likely that the next step will be an engagement.
6 (the lovers): this energy is all about love, union, and making choices that align with one's heart. it can symbolize making a significant commitment, like being engaged.
11 (justice): there is a desire to make things official, usually this is an engagement leading to marriage. this is the most common marker i see in the years where people get engaged to one another.
19 (the sun): suggests a joyous occasion, like getting engaged, where both parties feel a sense of fulfillment and happiness surrounding their future together (there might be a large engagement party to celebrate).
21 (the world): signifies reaching a milestone. it can indicate that a couple is ready to complete one phase of their relationship and move into the next one, like engagement.
energies that indicate a wedding/marriage
4 (the emperor): often this is a sign of "securing" the partnership, which can extend to the formality and structure of marriage.
5 (the hierophant): represents tradition, societal norms, and formal ceremonies. this energy can signify a traditional marriage or commitment in the eyes of the community/law, suggesting a formal union. all of the events of a wedding are ticked off: engagement party, bridal shower, bachelorette, bachelor, rehearsal, ceremony, reception, send off, and honeymoon.
6 (the lovers): the union of two individuals. it doesnât always spell out marriage ceremony, but it often comes up in the context of a relationship oriented commitment.
11 (justice): this can indicate making things official through marriage.
13 (death): this could be a symbol of a brand new era in your relationship (aka marriage).
19 (the sun): this energy can symbolize the happiness and celebration of a wedding, suggesting that marriage will bring joy and fulfillment to the couple.
20 (judgment): like 13, this could be a symbol of a brand new era in your relationship (aka marriage).
21 (the world): indicates that a partnership has reached a stage where marriage feels like the natural and fulfilling next step. symbolized a long-term commitment.
energies that indicate having a child
2 (the high priestess): often this energy shows up when a couple has been trying to no avail to become pregnant and suddenly does. this is because this energy signifies hidden or secret aspects of life (like the early stages of pregnancy). the energy is also connected to the moon and other feminine mysteries.
3 (the empress): the most obvious energy linked to pregnancy and fertility - it symbolizes motherhood, creation, and nurturing. there is a strong possibility of pregnancy in these years
17 (the star): symbolizes hope. this is a time of fertility and holds the possibility for new beginnings. may suggest a blessing or a dream come true (becoming pregnant after a period of trying or waiting).
18 (the moon): deals with cycles (ovulation), intuition, and hidden aspects of life. like 2 energy (but more common in the outer ring) this energy signifies the mystery of pregnancy and the feminine cycles. sometimes i see this in the ring where people weren't trying and tested negative or they don't show (physically or publicly) when pregnant.
19 (the sun): can signify a healthy, happy pregnancy, and the birth of a child (come on it's a kid on a horse). suggesting a positive outcome (you test positive hCG on the stick or with blood).
20 (judgment): suggests the arrival of a new life / the transformative experience of becoming a parent. this could also be a positive sign for couples looking to adopt or foster a child (as it could be a sudden and somewhat unexpected change of events (the list is often long)).
21 (the world): symbolizes the completion of a cycle, such as successfully conceiving or carrying a pregnancy to term (if not beyond the "due date"). can represent the fulfillment that comes with creating life.
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đ TFTOBER 2024 !!
Hey there!! I really wanted to participate in an October prompt list, but seeing as I've been really hooked on TF2 for this entire year, I figured it would be fun to do a TF2 themed list!!
If you participate, feel free to tag your posts w/ #tftober !!! I'd love to see what other people do <3 This list should be perfectly doable for any medium (art, writing, sfm, etc!)
Below the cut is a list of all the prompts with some extra flavor text/ideas! Things are kept vague in a typical drawing prompt fashion
DAY 1 - Main
Who's your main? Who do you play most often?
DAY 2 - Hats!
It's not called a glorified hat simulator for nothing! There's plenty of cosmetics at your fingertips in the game!
DAY 3 - Relationships
Everyone knows someone. Whether it's a family member, a friend, a lover, or even an arch nemesis!
DAY 4 - Pyrovision
Put on the goggles and take a look at things with a new perspective!
DAY 5 - Battlefield
Probably where a mercenary spends most of their time
DAY 6 - On Break
Battles don't rage on forever. You've gotta take a break eventually
DAY 7 - Offense
The front lines. The moving force
DAY 8 - Defense
The back lines. Makes sure nobody gets too far
DAY 9 - Support
Everything in between! Perhaps even the foundations of some teams
DAY 10 - Teamwork
It's not called TEAM Fortress for nothing, right?
DAY 11 - Fem Fortress
Happy Friday! Give some love to the girls!
DAY 12 - Free Space
Draw, write, or SFM to your heart's content! Do whatever you'd like!
DAY 13 - Respawn
Nobody stays dead.
DAY 14 - Capture the Flag
That briefcase isn't going to steal itself!
DAY 15 - Backstab
Should've checked behind you.
DAY 16 - Mann vs Machine
Guns and bullets or nuts and bolts? Who knows what could be running through those metallic minds...
DAY 17 - Expiration Date
Teleportation and bread. What else can I say?
DAY 18 - Headcannons
Think a little deeper. What do you just know has got to be true about the mercenaries?
DAY 19 - At home
Everyone comes from somewhere. Everyone has a home.
DAY 20 - Headshot
Looks like you stood a little bit too still.
DAY 21 - Alternate Universe
Emesis Blue? Lil' Pootis? A universe where the mercenaries are all alligators? The world is your oyster.
DAY 22 - Australium
A divine and valued substance rarer than gold
DAY 23 - Administrator
There's more to a war than just the fighters
DAY 24 - Pets
Some people have a soft spot for certain animals. Others choose to keep theirs around 24/7.
DAY 25 - Injury
An inevitability of war
DAY 26 - Control Points
A constant back and fourth
DAY 27 - Comics
Ink, panels, and pages. A story through words and pictures.
DAY 28 - Custom Class
Is nine really enough to cover everyone needed in a war? Probably not!
DAY 29 - Ubercharge
A miracle of medicine
DAY 30 - Sentry
Sometimes the best way to get good aim is to not be the one aiming
DAY 31 - Scream Fortress
Happy Halloween! Scream out to your heart's content and enjoy the spooks of the night!
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Alright so can we talk about the Rafayel to Caleb girlie - pipeline because Iâm seeing something interesting
I feel like a lot of Rafayel girlies are so into Caleb right now. Like I saw a lot of us posting about Gege and discussing about his storyline more than other girlies does.
What is with us here? đ
I saw the post talking about Caleb is for the only-child/ or oldest child who grow up ALONE and I was like, hold on a minute. I think I cracked the code
1. We do have a type. A complex, have a tragic back story but also very passionate man. The type to not be very easy to love. But will be the most loyal& devoted to you through thick and thin
2. From howl in howl's moving castle to Prince Zuko to Gojo Satoru to Oikawa to Rafayel to Caleb- something like that
3. Plus if you are an ARMY, who's your bias in BTS and why it is Min Yoongi??
4. You are not scared of a complicated (fictional) man, youâre not scared to put in the effort for them, to understand and get to know who they are (bc maybe nobody has ever put an effort to really understand you before)
5. And youâre the type to not scared of their âflawsâ or âimperfectionsâ (bc you also have some parts of you that is not perfect and you know they would accept them as what it is)
6. you're attracted to someone who doesnât care if you make mistakes or not be a perfect human being all the time (because you have to be like that all your life)
7. We need a man who is a little bit intense. For some people theyâre too overbearing, but for you it's just right. Someone whoâs not scared to be âtoo muchâ for you in terms of expressing their love (bc thatâs what you fear you are so you learn to keep most of your emotions to yourself- leaning more on avoidant side)
8. The kinda guy who would hide their emotional side behind those playful gazes (bc sometimes you did that too)
9. THE BANTER, they have to be a bit of playfulness from them and be able to joke about serious stuffs with you
10. You need someone to heal your inner child. A part from you that never got taken care of
Now with the only child who grew up ALONE topic
As an only child, I grow up in a household where every woman in my life are living the life of âStrong, independent, girlbossâ woman to the point of burning themselves on the ground. I see the cycle repeating for several generations until my own.
I grow up mostly alone, having to take care of myself in every aspects. And I mostly did it well.
But In reality, I just canât effort to be reckless. Because if I donât take care of myself and keep myself in check, nobody else will.
(Nobody will save me but me)
For some people the âYandereâ side of Caleb are a red-flag but for me?
to have a man care about you and taking care of you all the time? Notices about every details in your life and makes sure you never have to lift a finger? the man who's so down bad and would burn the world down for just you alone?
Thatâs my wet dream, A fantasy.
unlike MC, maybe because I have to live as an independent woman my whole life. I have nothing to proved.
I just want to be loved.
I just want to be a woman
I just want to just 'be'
His doting & overprotective personality healed the little girl inside me.
Same with Rafayel, being with him always heals my inner child that I never fully experience as a kid.
Both of them are so đ„șđ€đ»đ€đ»đ€đ»
#sorry for the trauma dumping at the last part lolll#I just have so much thoughts about these 2 men#I need them in real life#please come take me in#off-topic but Iâm so fucking sick of driving my own car#I knew Caleb would NEVER let me drive if heâs with me#Gosh I missed my dad lol#He would never let me drive also#love and deepspace#lads#rafayel#lads rafayel#love and deepspace rafayel#about caleb#love and deepspace caleb#lads caleb#caleb love and deepspace#caleb x mc#caleb x reader#rafayel love and deepspace#đŠą: post
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Hello!! I just read your twst x chubby S/O and I thought it was amazing! Could I request Third Years x S/O who's into crocheting and crochets them plushies or keychains as random gifts? Plus a bonus when they admit that after they graduation Night raven they want to start a small business on it after hiding it if you want >w<
Hehehehe i love this so much because i crochet! It is one of my many house husband skills, personally my favorite things to make is these little octopuses but i should really branch out lol, this reminds me of those manhwas where the mc starts a business that boomsÂ
Cw : tooth rotting fluff, mc has a successful side hustle to make that bag, gn reader, bonus grim because i love my cat so much, my son, grims is obvi platonic, rsa mention because vil is petty
GrimÂ
Oh hes braggingÂ
His human henchman is the best because they make him cute giftsÂ
The skrungly
I wanna make him little kitty outfits for every occasion
Making grim cat toys and he acts like he doesn't like them at first but he literally wont sleep without the crochet tuna fish you made himÂ
I think he needs a little kitty bag to wear and put his stuff in (mostly tuna)Â
He would taunt the others because clearly he is the most special kitty with his very cool bad and fishÂ
He is and i won't stand for anyone telling me otherwise, i love our bastard cat son
CaterÂ
Hes obsessedÂ
If you make him a keychain then he is adding it to his growing collection on his phone right away
I hc that hes a big fan of stuffed animals so he adores anny that you make him and they sit on his bedÂ
He names all of them
He helps you start the small business during school actually! At first its his suggestion to run a magicam page for all your creationsÂ
Soon the comments are flooded with people asking if you sell, one thing leads to another and boom you now have a successful side hustleÂ
Rsa is honestly a big seller they love this kind of stuff
He loves everything you make him and never stops posting about his love for it
Very supportive of your small business venturesÂ
His favorite thing you've made him is a little bag for pens and pencils that is shaped like a playing card because he thinks its just the cutest thing in the worldÂ
And the keychains that he gets to show off whenever he whips his phone out (often)
Some of his favorite candid photos of you are when youâre crocheting peacefullyÂ
TreyÂ
Dometic bliss pt.1
Trey is,,,such an old man- he like baking and the simple domestic little things like making you coffee/tea in the morningÂ
He loves to watch you crochet because he thinks its very cute and wholesome to spend time when you are doing activities together that are calmÂ
MAKE THIS MAN DOILIES AND POT HOLDERS pleaseÂ
He adores the set of frilly doilies you made him and the cute potholders are always in use
He is 100% in support of your dreams of making that bag, honestly he really thinks you should get a start now to make extra cash on the side since 7 forbid crowley pay you for the work you do
He smiles every time he sees a tart cooling on one of the doilies you made him, seeing the little pattern always makes him happy
He trades you baked good for the things you make him so i hope you enjoy sweet treats
LeonaÂ
CatâŠbig kittyâŠ
Oddly captivated by any balls or skeins of yarn that are out and about but hes fighting the urge to play with themÂ
He is not beating the house cat allegationsÂ
At first hes pretty neutral on it honestly, he likes the gifts you give him because they are just his but hes not a big keychain guy, or stuffies
Then you make him a blanket and hes goneÂ
He claims to be neutral about it, saying he likes the gift but dont be fooled by his aloof act he sleeps with that blanket everywhereÂ
He is bringing it to class if he doesn't just skip the classÂ
It is his favorite blanket and he almost lost his shit when ruggie took it to wash it- he's kinda territorial about the blanketÂ
Gives 0 fucks that its some cutesy blanket with little lions on it
Also a big fan of pillows/pillow coversÂ
If you make him multiple blankets he loves them too but the first one is extra special to himÂ
Hes neutral about you starting a business during or after school/graduation because well,,,he's a whole prince,,,
You make cheka a matching blanket and leona gets a very happy letter from his brother on how much the mini lion loves it, leona rolls his eyes but is secretly very proud of youÂ
Regardless if you want to start the small business he is happy to support you making that breadÂ
VilÂ
Vil in crochet clothes my belovedÂ
Hes charmed by your little hobby and the adorable stuffed animal you made him, a little crochet owl that sits on his vanity so he sees it when he does his makeup and night routineÂ
Vil does not post a lot of personal stuff on his magicam/socials, but he does wear anything you make him, he has a folder in his gallery dedicated to photos of the two of you, dates or candid photos either he took or rook took and sent to him.Â
Most of these pics he's in something you crochet for him even if it's just a simple keychain it's a staple of hisÂ
He is very supportive of your dreams of starting a business for your crochet, he admires the drive and discipline and encourages you to pursue this workÂ
Ironically if you start a side hustle soon to be full business, neige of all people is a big customer as he's fond of cute stuff like thisÂ
This is where vil gets pettyÂ
He sees a photo post of neigeâs where heâs in a new outfit, not odd at all, what catches vils attention is that the cardigan and hat he's wearing is oddly similar to a piece he saw you working on for an order- anyone watching can see the twitch in vilâs eye when he sees the shoutout to you in the caption
The next 5-8 posts of vilâs are a mix of his regular posts and pictures of him in your clothes or with the keychains, all with captions along the lines of âmy beautiful s/o @[your name here]â
He even posts the owl
RookÂ
If you were to make him a keychain he calls it his lucky charm for hunting and always had it on him.Â
Really he's just fond of anything you make him
a lot of his photos are of you when you are deep in a project and not paying attending, candid photos like this are his favorites and he looks at them oftenÂ
He really likes any little animal stuffies you make because he thinks they are just the cutestÂ
âHuntsâ your plushies aka he will sneak up on you making them or sorting them out and act like he caught themÂ
Silly
He is very supportive of your business ventures, he loves to see you so passionate about wanting to eventually start a small business and be able to sell your creationsÂ
He definitely encourages you to sell a few things in sams shop, afterall he sells anything and everything anyone could ever need
IdiaÂ
The outfits you make grim are his favesÂ
He is a cat man at heart and cant help but coo over every new thing you make grim because it makes the kitty so so so cute and as a cat he was already uber SS+ cute levelsÂ
He is also a big fan of any keychains you make him or even stuffies
The stuffies either are on his bed so he can cuddle them or they are with the rest of his game/anime figures on his shelves so its a horrific mix of like neon genesis mechs and crochetÂ
I think it would be funny to make him doilies to put the figures on because when hes gaming and people are like âdude why is your [super cool limited edition game figure] on a doily???â hes like âhaha L+loser+lonely+my super cool s/o made them for me lvl10 affectionâ and is it cringe as hell? Yes. can those normies suck it because hes no longer forever alone? Also yes
They are demanding proof or it didn't happenÂ
Ortho is also a big fan and has a lil keychain you made hooked on him <3
idia would actually combust if you made anything themed after a game or show he watches/plays because that is SS+ max lvl affection with full hearts right thereÂ
You have unlocked the super secret route and that is unlimited discord nitro and a new pc because he is so happyÂ
He also would support your business during and after schoolÂ
MalleusÂ
Domestic bliss pt 2
Genuinely you are breaking this guy. Like he cannot take it anymoreÂ
I feel we all can agree malleus is prone to casual proposals because hes just,,,kinda like that
He pictures a future with you by his side and you aren't making it any better by being so endearingÂ
When he sees you doing something as simple as sitting down and crocheting his draconic heart is filled with sweet domestic love, makes him feel like an old married couple and he can't take it lmaoÂ
At first he's a bit weird about accepting gifts as it's a big deal in fae culture to just,,,get a gift out of nowhere
But he does accept them, he simply gives you something he sees as equal value (this is how you end up with several big ass gems)
He considers all of your gifts his most precious items, his favorites however are the following 4 gifts he has receivedÂ
A keychain that looks like his gaogao-drakon-kun tamagotchi witch he keeps on the same keychain as said virtual pet
A gargoyle plushy that he considers to be one of his most treasured gifts, in a similar light he has a plushie of your fave animal and you have a dragon plushie that match (this almost killed him)
And a little crochet bracelet that you match (he never takes it off unless he has to)Â
Your desire to start a business throws him for a loop at first because in his mind you are happily by his side in the briar valley, (he is very male lead coded) but he quickly re-adjusts to account for your business plans and he is the most supportive dragon you could ever hope forÂ
LiliaÂ
Old man (affectionate)Â
 I like to think lilia knits and is simply overjoyed when he finds out you crochetÂ
You exchange little giftsÂ
It makes his very old fae heart happy to sit around the ramshackle fireplace and crochet/knit with you while chatting about your day/week, simple things like this make him feel like hes back in the old days with a baby silverÂ
He loves anything you make him and happily wears any keychains or items he is gifted
Stuffies are named and placed around his room without a hint of shameÂ
And he loves that you have such good goals and dreams like a businessÂ
I like the idea of meeting general lilia and also making him somethingÂ
At first he is confused, almost indignant that you would have the gaul to give him a gift- of all people he would never accept such a token
Maybe its something simple, a granny square on the lacy side that resembles something akin to a handkerchief, something small you explain as a favor, something youd give a knightÂ
He claims he is disgusted by such human customs but his grip on the crochet piece is unmistakable, and the way you wake up the next morning to a small green gem-the same that adorns his armor, tells you all you need to
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