#but i just couldn't anymore
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finally have an actual job so maybe I can stop being a hermit and get officially divorced and feel sort of financially stable and possibly try dating again and get a cat ??? is that allowed? no I probably shouldn't unless I get a bigger place and can have two cats to be friends
downside is when the fuck am I supposed to draw dumb comics if I'm working for hours and hours a day? Hell and suffering on earth. maybe i should get an iPad or a whatthefuck ever and draw on the commute so I don't lose even more of my meager art skills
#personal bullshit#i have never had what is traditionally considered a Real Job#this is my first 8 to 4 type job#tbqh if i could have just done teaching assistant work without the whole grad student shit that would have been cool#but i just couldn't anymore#no one there helped me when i needed it#a super huge fuck you to all of the mandatory training i had to do re: intimate partner violence and abuse#well anyway it's fucking done and who cares if i wasted 8ish years of my only life (:#now i get to help people make babies#which is not at all what i thought i would do#but hey at least it feels meaningful#and i get to wear scrubs all the time which is nice because they're kind of shapeless and make me look slightly more masc esp with binding#wonder if i could donate oocytes#im sure as fuck not gonna use them#might be too old tho#give bad eggs#also might have too much testosterone in my system now#0 idea how that works except at some point they expect me to stop menstruating#but my dumb reproductive parts are too strong too powerful will not be stopped by some pitiful exogenous T#anyway i really need to try to sleep#and stfu#but yeah maybe i can think about moving and getting 2 cats
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cursed kids v2 ⚠️👹
i've been a jjk first years stan since day one and have been wanting to redraw the first art i did featuring the three of them
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#kugisaki nobara#yuuji#megumi#nobara#fanart#jjk fanart#im so tired help but theyre DONE im sososoosos pleased with them#even yuuji who dug his heels in to th very end :'>>>#wow 2020 rly was 4 years ago huh#to my credit i still think the designs i came up with in th og r honestly really good???#obv i didn't do a fullbody redraw (n thank god fr that) so i couldn't include All my details and there were some things that i edited#but overall they r solid !!!! i rly regret tht i couldn't include nobara's fishnets dgfhs#gave her her bat instead . equivalent exchange :)#she has one in the original but i specifically remember being bummed that the pose didnt let me show the nails that were in it#so took Full advantage of the new pose here !! she has killed before and will kill again#other changes....yuuji's omamori earring n sword details r New! as is the decision to include his canon scars :> fits the vibe#megumi changed the least?? changed the tassels n colour of his shoulder kanji to match yuuji and gave him a cigarette to fill empty space#other than that i think th majority of his changes r just me getting better at drawing megu#god the edited poses make these designs sing im so happy i did this#these r my kids !!!!! they have grown with me!!!!!#i am very proud and also sleep deprived and i need to not look at these anymore
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shein switzerland has been sending me monthly emails titled "not just the may flowers are blooming" and im slowly starting to doubt they know how seasons work
#i don't buy from shein anymore btw#i just did so like twice because i was poor as shit and needed new clothes and couldn't find anything at the thrift store#but hey the few things i have from there i Still wear like two years later (if it still fits me lol)
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ANJANA VASAN as Amina Hussain
WE ARE LADY PARTS (SEASON 2)
#*#we are lady parts#amina hussain#anjana vasan#tvedit#wocedit#dailywoc#userbbelcher#tuserdee#userelletao#pearlcaddy#userellis#userleila#jameszmaguire#useraurore#userkraina#usererry#nessa007#muse inspo#flashing gif#tw // flashing#glamoroussource#thequeensofbeauty#womendaily#just when i thought i couldn't love her anymore :')#and apologies again for the inconsistent colouring
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okay so I am still working on that silly animatic but I put it on brief hold for this because I was plagued by visions
Anyway Mouthwashing actor au
#Can you guys genuinely not point out the ridiculous misspelling of mouthwashing on the poster#I saw it immediately but it was all on one layer and I couldn't change the previous pictures anymore so I just left it#Idk what stroke I was having but eh#wrong organ#mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#mouthwashing jimmy#daisuke mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing daisuke#mouthwashing fanart#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing au#mouthwashing actor au
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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happy blacktober to those who celebrate 🖤
#having complicated feelings but seeing others still celebrate it warms my heart#i just couldn't handle the harassment anymore it was very violent and it made me sewer side all#but i wanted to use my platform for smth positive#im rooting for everyone Black!#delete later
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(166/∞) the perfect nose for butterflies to land on it ♡
#jungkook#jungkookedit#jeon jungkook#jeongguk#bts#btsedit#btsgif#gif#jnotd*#maknaelinegifs#userkelli#usersky#annietrack#userdimple#raplineuser#rjshope#tuserandi#useremmeline#usermaggie#underbetelgeuse#dailybts#i am still#sorry i just... don't know how to gif/color anymore#but hey :((( i couldn't stop thinking about this smol clip since i saw it early this morning#nose nose nose cheek scar cheek scar cheek scar jimples jimples jimples he he he#i love nose :( i love he :(
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they can never make me hate you
(collage by me)
#this was gonna be multiple collages#one for every character that is generally hated by fandoms that i'll never hate#but i couldn't think of any#and im watching korra reactions rn and just felt like only making this one after reading and hearing such terrible takes#korra stans/defenders get behind me#tlok#the legend of korra#legend of korra#korra#avatar korra#tlok korra#korra tlok#venux's “they can never make me hate you”s#lok#EDIT: kinda pissed that i did the hearts so faintly but i don't have the korra pics anymore to quickly remake it eeh
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Stop -- Hammer time !
#a spiritual redraw of a drawing i made in 2021 of just hammer kirby & dedede. i did post it but you're not gonna see it anymore it's hidden-#- for being ugly as sin. this time with more hammer ability-givers & adding a lil idea i had for the hammer design#i have an amv in my head about dedede's development & i wanted to include the tidbit of the hammer being loaned from ddd but since-#- it's just 3 mins long i thought of portraying it via visual shorthand instead#in-universe reason ddd probably painted his symbol on it because he was so sure he'd win in superstar ultra & somewhat rubbed it in kirby's#- face with that. & well we all know how that turned out#also i decided to make bonker's black shadow over his face be shades instead bc i like how it already looks like he's got a pompadour#like a greaser. a greasemonkey if you will#wanted to include heavy mole's projectiles but couldn't bc it'd not fit in well w/ this composition </3 so sorry my lil chainsaw roomba#my art#kirby series#kirby#king dedede#storo#bonkers#mookie
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SOME BAGGINSHIELD FINALLY YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
#WHAT IF THEY WERE TEACHERS#WHAT IF ON SOME KIND OF PARTY BILBO GOT DRUNK AND JUST COULDN'T TAKE THORIN'S CLUELESS ASS ANYMORE#WHAT IF THORIN DID HIS HAIR IN A HALF PONYTAIL WITH SOME FANCY BRAIDS FOR FANCY OCCASIONS#WHAT IF I JUST STARTED BITING#sandwichart#bagginshield#bilbo baggins#thorin oakenshield#the hobbit#fanart
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i know they're literally called noise cancelling headphones but holy shit these really do cancel noise
#ramble#when i put them on and just couldn't hear my computer humming or the washing machine anymore#incredible#once again proving that auDHDers are right about everything
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*dusting off another drawing found in my old folders* Oh waw early 2020 connverse. And I drew in 97 dpi RIP
#I remember redrawing the first one but I couldn't remember if I ever posted these outside Facebook.#Man I drew Steven a lil weird lol#I don't think I can draw in this drawing style anymore. 🤔 I switched from android phone+finger to a laptop+drawing tab and my style shifted#I was so sure there was a different one where Steven is running towards Connie with open arms as she was just closing the door of her#dad's car#connverse#Connie Maheswaran#steven quartz universe#steven universe#my shiz#old drawing#OH RIGHT! I DID post the first image! It's just the second one that wasn't posted outside FB.#The one where Steven is running to Connie disappeared completely tho#SU#Guys. I am having flashbacks to when the people in the SU FB group I'm in were getting more and more agitated the more SUf episo#des came out without Connie. 😭#Now that I think about it. I might have drawn this in late 2019 after the movie went out.
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Clamshell box for my binding of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
Materials used
boxes - grey board (1,5mm and 1mm) case - grey board (1,5mm, cardboard, 2,4mm) covering material - iris bookcloth (commercial) decorative paper - handmade paste paper
#bookbinding#clamshell box#jekyll and hyde#paste paper#measuring cutting and gluing the cardboard for recessed areas was a pain and don't get me started on the paper#I really liked how it turned out though#there will be a few WIP pics and closse-ups of where I fucked up soon#I was a bit worried about the k/y situation in Jekyll#at some point I just couldn't tell anymore whether I saw it because I knew or others could see it too
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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.
#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me#vees#it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives#they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty#because they never want to be those people again#narratives about people who make each other worse <3#to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc#but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves#of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies#like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him#it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires#vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then#90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory#he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago#val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him#velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults#the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again#the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course
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AU where Jason lived, but only barely. People know that Jason is alive, tragically injured in a villain attack, but alive. Thing is, they don't know that the second Robin is alive. Bruce tells anyone that asks, the kid is alive, but he never says he's fine because Jason isn't fine, he's traumatized and disabled and angry that he had his choice to be a vigilante taken from him, but he's clear that the kid is alive. People don't believe Bruce though, they think he's in denial, because it's clear to anyone who had ever seen the two together that Batman saw Robin as his son. It becomes common knowledge that the second Robin died, there are even conspiracy theories that he died saving Jason's life, and Batman was too distraught by this to ever really accept his death. So when Tim meets Bats, he too thinks the second Robin is dead, it's the only explanation he can think of anyways, because no new vigilante ever showed up like after the first Robin disappeared. And then Bruce takes him to the manor, and Jason is just sat on the couch, mending Dick's costume because his useless himbo older brother can't keep a costume intact for twenty minutes, and he sees Tim and he gasps all fake dramatic "You're finally letting me meet my replacement?!" And Tim goes through all the stages of grief at once as he realizes he never once even considered Jason being the second Robin, not even after he found out Batman was Bruce Wayne.
The potential, Jason loving Dick but hating him at the same time because Jason was forced into retirment and Dick gets to pick and choose when he wants to be a vigilante. Bruce realizing how few rights permanently disabled people have and deciding to fight to fix it and Jason yelling at him for not caring until it was his family being effected. Jason realizing if he ever loses Bruce's support he's totally screwed because he can't do any of what he used to to keep himself alive anymore, and breaking down because how could he possibly help the people like him when he couldn't even help himself anymore? Jason being obsessively over protective of Tim and every sidekick who comes after him because he's terrified one of them will end up like him and they're just kids they don't deserve that. Jason overworking himself because he's convinced if he just Tries Harder he can get past his disabilities, but slowly learning his new limits and accepting them. Just, permanently disabled Jason man.
#batman#jason todd#batfam#dick grayson#tim drake#disability#injury#bruce wayne#me projecting onto Jason#i'll never forget the day I realized I couldn't do the same work to feed myself anymore#and if my parents decided to stop paying for my lunch again#i would just die#that breakdown was BAD
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