#but i just : ( GAHHHHHH

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x03 - “Finally Got The Name Right”

[kociokwiki]

pov you try to take 1 (one) step in the garden

[percyweasleyapologist]

Marlene: Truth or dare? 

Lily: Dare. 

Marlene: I dare you to kiss the hottest person in the room. 

Lily: Hey James? 

James, blushing: Yeah? 

Lily: Can you move? I'm trying to get to Reggie. 

[a-moth-called-mof]

No actually I'm going to say. I honestly think that was such a satisfying and fitting epilogue for something as unqiue as the dream smp. Maybe its vague about certain things and maybe it wasn't a picture perfect happy ending but it felt so satisfying, not just because of the original shit nuke ending and the way the server originally just slowly faded (although that contributes) but also, because it's a representation of the dream smp itself saying goodbye to its fans. Jack being the point of the view character is so fitting because he's been there since the early days and it makes it so that for once, we get to see C! Tommy from someone else's point of view without his own perspective offered. And that's so fucking impactful. When C! Tommy asked Jack where he'd been and that he hadn't seen him in a long time, he was talking to C! Jack sure but he was also talking to the viewers themselves by extension. The image of C! Tommy silently standing there and treating Jack, the point of view character of the viewers, like an old friend is so haunting and comforting in a way words can't express.

And then there's just the entire theme of grief and moving on that's present throughout the entire thing? C! Jack and Tommy both reminisce about how much the SMP impacted both of them. They look on at C! TECHNO'S HOUSE as they talk about how despite all the shit it put them through, a part of them misses it and longs to be back there again because there were things there that were fun and that meant something to them. It's so fitting on a metatextual levels. The characters are reminiscing about the SMP's old days "before everyone left" and so are the content creators through the characters but also, so is the audience. The viewers. The old fans who clung on. The fans who who didn't. The fans who, despite everything the server put them through, still wanted to tune into a livestream for even a chance of seeing it again.

I just feel like the stream represented so many of us. When C! Jack says he didn't like the person he was back then but that doesnt mean he was bad, I just feel like that encapsulates so many of us during the pandemic. Like many (I think?), I used the dream smp as escapism. I was in a really bad place and I was avoiding most of my irl friends. I hate who I became during those times. But also. I had so much fun. I would tune into streams every day and scroll tumblr and the fandom made me feel so happy and included and I loved the inside jokes and I loved the characters and I loved the streams and I loved everything and a part of me still misses that. I was avoiding everything in my life and I was so isolated but I was so full of excitement and bliss and fun when I would tune into those streams. I've kinda spent the past 2 years lowkey hating who I was. But this stream, C! Jack's line and reflection specifically, genuinely made me realise that maybe I shouldn't idk view my old self so negative and that he (who I was) was probably just trying his best during a tough time even if his choices weren't always the most functional. That I've improved and that that's okay and good even. And that maybe just because I like who I am now doesn't mean he was bad.

Idk there's also something about C! Tommy telling C! Jack he might never see him again and C! Jack telling him that that's okay (also again image of C! Tommy looking at the viewer's point of view and telling them he'll probably never see them again...). There's just something about growing up and how you kind of lose contact with some people and how that's normal and it's okay and it happens and how that ties back into some of the dream smp's themes about growing up. But also there's a bit of grief there and that's okay. Idk there's something so visceral about the last piece of media about the dream smp literally being about grief and moving on and about how the characters literally say goodbye to eachother after everything but also about how that's okay. Idk I wonder how many people feel similarly

To conclude this, I feel like the moment in the stream that hit me the most was CC! Jack being happy he let go of the manishroom (and the server by extension) and that he's moving on but then later saying "I didn't like letting go of the mushroom. Felt like I wanted to cling onto it forever" and something about that just hits. Idk there's something how the characters both feel such a unique pain and longing for the old times in universe and how that reflects how the audience and streamers themselves feel and there's something about how I genuinely don't think something that wasn't as accidental and beautiful and messy and painful and earnest and flawed and unique as the dream smp could ever capture that feeling. And I think I love it for that. And I think I love the epilogue for representing that. And I think the dream smp said I love you and goodbye to its viewers with that epilogue and I think I said it back.

[blitzwhore]

Couldn't post Octavia's bingo without also posting Loona's! Feel free to share your results and find my other bingos here ✨

[the-knife-consumer]

Bill is the villain of the series. Not Mabel. Not ford. BILL. oh my god. If I see one more post pinning literally everything on Ford I'm going to lose my mind. And before it was Ford it was Mabel. Mabel was a little girl terrified of growing up who got tricked by BILL pretending to be someone else. She didn't make a deal with him she got tricked (and even if she did?? Literal twelve year old she's just a kid). Also yeah ford did a bunch of horrible shit because BILL fucked with his head. Bill MADE him trust no one and isolate himself. Mabel and ford are not the bad guys the BAD GUY IS THE BAD GUY. SCREAMS AND RUNS AROUND IN CIRCLES. COME ONNNNNMN

[automatonwithautonomy]

hey so do you think john reminded gideon of magnus? who told bad dad jokes and shitty puns and loved jeannemary and isaac and was nice to her. do you. do you ever fucking think that??

[oxymoronicdumbass]

i have such a love-hate relationship with being autistic because on one hand, i know that i will never be able to function in a way that is deemed “normal” in society, but on the other hand, there are very few other things that can possess you with the ability to spend 5 straight minutes jumping up and down because of one sentence in a fanfic

[weatheredcopper]

dl!pearl is autistic to me. me when a character tries their hardest to be loved and included but is shunned without really knowing or understanding why </3

[spoopieere]

New Year’s first post. Have fun ppl <3 (idk why but Tumblr keeps fucking the quality up)

The Collector & ChromeSkull Tamagotchis :3

Arkin - Asa: 🔒 🕷

Preston- Jesse: 🍷 💀

[finleycannotdraw]

there’s just something about these albums that makes me feel like

[b33-fus]

Fallout New Vegas Playlists!!!!

As I said yesterday, i was makin a playlist for Doctor 8 and 0, but i got a little carried away and made some more for other characters i like, so here you guys go!

Benny:

Doctor 8/0:

Doctor Borous:

Arcade Gannon:

Mr. House:

Victor:

And here are two more made by the beloved @paper-plate-smile

Yes Man:

Joshua Graham:

I just threw these together today, so chances are, ill be adding a ton more and editing as time goes on, if i have the energy i might actually draw new covers just for the playlists. I tried to use my own drawing but the only one that couldnt work was victor since ive never drawn him before But yeahhhhhh!! there you go =] silly fallout new vegas playlists for you goobs

[margindoodles2407]

WHY is our copy of the Catechism khaki with an orange drop-shadow font

[whoblewboobear]

Thinking about Porter growing up around a big family that sheltered him because he was a lot smaller and a very impressionable. He’d sit around for hours listening to his grandparents talk about the house of sunstone and all their atrocities achievements. His grandmother always told him he could bring them back to glory. That his cousins were too focused on themselves and not the history.

His grandparents homeschooled him and raised him to be their perfect little soldier. They gave him books on war tactics and strategy to read. His grandfather taught him about rage and how to wield it in battle. Little Porter trusts his family with his life, he loves history, he gets rage. But he knows there’s more to the world than hiding out in the mountains. There’s no active wars for him to apply his skills to. But there is adventuring. He’s seen parties pass through, offering to trade or asking to stay a night or two.

Sometimes he’ll peer at them from the shadows. Watching them cleaning their weapons and telling stories around a campfire, drinking and enjoying each other’s company. The older he gets, the more he ventures out to spend time with them until a party offers for him to join them.

He’s torn at first, but adventure is calling and he knows he needs it, craves it. He steals the war hammer his grandfather promised to give him ‘once he’s ready.’ It was his dad’s. His birthright. He leaves a note for his grandparents before shoving a few well-loved books into his bag along with a few changes of clothes.

He’s off to find his own meaning in the world, even if his mind wanders back to his grandparents stories of ruin and conquest. The homesickness just makes him all the more ruthless in battle. All the more sure he was made for this. Made for greatness.

[cranberrytea451]

The boy ;-;

[automatonwithautonomy]

it is just. so interesting to me how the entirety of red valley revolves around warren. i mean. "how are we supposed to sleep when all we can think about is waking someone up" he is - their ticket to fame and fortune, their frankenstein's monster, their failure, their friend. he is the only thing that matters, the center of the universe in that cold mountain at the end of the world.

but, like. he's just some random fucking loser who has ptsd. he isn't important. all he managed to do was have the right brain chemistry and it is so fucked up how he is constantly reminded of this. he is the most important slab of dying meat on earth. the world's most special statistic. just some fucking guy. his only acheivement is that he can sleep, no fucking wonder it's all he wants to do.