#GAHHHHHH. JESUS. WHY DO I DO THIS???

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hey so do you think john reminded gideon of magnus? who told bad dad jokes and shitty puns and loved jeannemary and isaac and was nice to her. do you. do you ever fucking think that??

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HI im so sorry i just finished reading the e4 script and i am just . fuckign speechless i cant articulate at all lol it was soo amazing when i finished i needed to stare at a wall for like three minutes straight just to process hang on one sec hang on a minute let me uh let me jsut two seconds here hangn on HDSHHSDCHSCSCVGSCVGDVGSCDCGSXCGXSCXSCGSGSCGCGHCXGHCGXHCHXHXFFHCHXD#DFFDCEFHDFSNCNKSDCNJDSTHFH3489FDJNHJFVDSHJFDHSDFDHVHGSDCVDGHC489FHJHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am literally SO OBSESSED you are such a talented writer and im so sorry once again for dumping all my thoughts in ur askbox especially when most are just incoherent but i have so many of them 😭 and this has been on my mind like all day lmao chewing on drywall actually<3333

okay first of all i LOVE HOW EVERYTHING IS COMING TOGETHER IT'S SO INTERESTING all the little plotlines feed into the bigger ones,,,,,, th hive mind isn't toxic plot which means SHITT vecna isnt trying to kill them he's trying to do something Else WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT PLOT TWISTS AAAAAAA and the back-and-forth between dustin and robin, the reveal that vecna was trying to force someone out ("where's will?")CHILLS. THE CHILLS. GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD it was so cool omgg omgomgomg. also max's storyline is literally INSANE i am SO INVESTED and i love how you've handled it so far i can't wait to see where you're gonna go with it!! <3 like. LIGHT. run the other way run to the light,,,, and the whole thing with TERRY is so genius it all makes so much sense but i never saw it coming and it was just SOOO SICK to see play out on the script i was on the edge of my damn seat the whole time you are literally SO TALENTED i am yelling sosososo loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kind of continuing on from that i love all the references to past seasons :D the heart motif with lumax and byler has me in a chokehold btw grnjfrgnjfdjknnfjdgvknjkgfdjnkhehe!!!!!!! and the "you can leave, it's---" the rain is DEAFENING. will FLINCHES. THE RAIN SCENE??? also HELLOOOOOOO EMOTIONAL RAIN SCENE i think i can speak for all of us when i say im FLOOORED!!!!! gahhhhhh I CANT I ACTUALLY CANNOT YOURE AMAZING AND SO IS YOUR WRITING!!! plus the curiosity voyage WHO CHEERED :)

the. the byler quarry scene i. the lead up to it was INCREDIBLE and the gut punch sliding down walls head in hands heartwrenching 1000year brainrot is REAL because it has been my resting state since i read it when it dropped!!!!!! <3 basically my quick review is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA and woag the slightly less quick review is also AAAAAokay no im kidding dont worry i have soo many thoughts head FULL girl i am so unwell over it "stay" THE CHEEK TOUCH THE HAND OVER HEART THE "i cant" and then it's TOO LATE.throwing up!!!!!THROWING UP and the jump and the running start and the rainstorm as a whole i am . I AM !!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOqhjwhjsdhjjhdjhdsjwjsdjhhjdhjehjwejhogufdoudfgjgdfjjwhdjhd dyinf a thousand deaths passing away rn

ANYWAYYY looking back on this i realize how long it is I AM SO SORRY JESUS😭😭😭 but yeah thats my roundabout way of letting you know that this rewrite and the s5 plot and scripts and fic and shoutout to the characterization which you NAILED it's absolutely EVERYTHINGGGG okay i promise im done now im so sorry like i said this got Way Unreasonably Long but thank you sosososo much for sharing this with us i hope you have a great rest of your day!! :D

this is the comment that made me cry at work btw so please never apologize for it being long😭😭 this was soooooo nice of you and it makes me so happy to know that all the work i put into these scripts is being recognized!!

one of the biggest challenges of this script has definitely been all the intersecting plot lines. i’ve never really attempted anything this expansive or complicated before, so there’s definitely a learning curve to it! i’m glad you’re enjoying it so far. & while i don’t think this plot twist is one of my best by any means, and honestly i wasn’t even thinking about it as a plot twist, i’m still glad you liked it! i really adore writing plot twists, and i love the feeling you get when reading something that has been so cleverly executed. it’s really the same feeling that i strive to emulate in all my fics!

i just said this in another ask, but i am SO psyched about max’s plot. i was really stuck on what to do with her, but i didn’t want to sideline her. pairing her up with terry was something that i never considered, but i literally had a revelation one night and was like oh my god that’s PERFECT!! & i haven’t seen anyone else do anything even moderately close, so i’m very excited to try something new.

i love a good reference!! parallels make my heart so happy. or so sad. depending on the circumstance. the rain fight one was a little bit evil, i’ll admit. the curiosity voyage was a lot more fun!

i was also unwell over the quarry scene. i literally cried writing it. i had to take multiple breaks. just ask suni i was SO unwell oh my god😭 so i’m right there with you.

again, please don’t apologize!!! this was incredibly kind of you, and it makes me so unbelievably happy to get comments on my script. this is an episode that i was insanely proud of, and i’m really happy that everyone has enjoyed it so much. thank you so much for all your kind words!!💗🫂

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HELLLOO?!!!!! HELLO?!?

Girliepop why would you do that to me I am living peacefully and you do THIS?

GAHHHHHH

Aghhhhh

Your writing is so so so so so beautiful and the entire fucking thing broke my heart !!!! PLEASE make it a series and for the love of Jesus Christ DO NOT make it a sad ending cause it will once again ✨kill me off✨

My Dearest,

A/N: so, while I was in Galena for my girls trip this weekend…my friend and I went into a bookstore and that’s where the inspiration struck! Ulysses Grant wrote letters to his wife (My Dearest Julia) from June 4th, 1844 to February 2, 1854. Of course I immediately had to throw Joel into the narrative, with a twist ;) please have your tissue boxes at the ready for this one and remember, fiction can’t hurt you! Also, big thank you and kisses to @beardedjoel for sobbing along with me while I wrote these series of letters 💘 P.S I know California wasn’t founded as a state until 1850…but let’s just pretend!

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Summary: a series of letters written by Joel Miller, a hopeless romantic yearning for your embrace once more.

Pairing | forbidden love!joel miller x f!reader

Warnings: angst, allusion to smut, infertility, pining, hopeless romantic, unrequited love, forbidden love, major character death, alcoholism, death by alcohol poisoning, yearning, no age gap, mentions of social status, somewhat historically accurate language, no happy ending, reader has no physical descriptions, readers nickname is my dearest, +18 minors dni! (If I missed anything, please let me know!)

June 4th, 1844

My Dearest,

I am deeply remorseful for the events that transcribed three days ago. I know I have put you in an undesirable situation now with your father’s wishes for your arranged marriage to the rich banker's son. Forgive me, for I don’t care to remember his name. I needed to see you, dearest. You understand, don’t you? What is a man to do when he is in love? I’m heading west, in hopes that you will follow me and go against your fathers wishes. Please write to me soon, and grace me with your sweet words.

Your devoted Joel.

-

August 31st, 1844

My Dearest,

California is beautiful and my eyes are seeing the ocean for the very first time. I wonder what your view is? Last I heard you were moving to New York. Is it true? Please tell me it’s a lie. I would be naive to think that what is written in the papers to be false, but my heart is still holding on. Are you moving to New York because of me? I’m so sorry, my dearest. We should have been more careful. I can still smell your perfume, and feel the ghost of your lips on my skin. I am no poet, but if I was, perhaps your father would think highly of me.

I dream of you even in the daytime.

Please write to me, dearest.

J.M

-

September, 7th 1844

My Dearest,

There is a sweetness on my tongue that I have not felt the indulgence of for many moons and suns. I worried that I would never hear from you again, that I would become another distant memory fading into ash. I forbade this from happening, dearest. We are thousands of miles apart, and all I wish for is to see your face once more. Do you wish for the same, dearest? To see your Joel, to feel his warm embrace? Please don’t forget me, please. I know in your heart that you still feel for me. California calls your name as it did mine. Come back to me, dearest.

Yours most affectionately,

Joel

-

January 12th, 1845

My Dearest,

I have not heard from you in months and my heart cannot bare it any longer. Why do you not write to me, dearest? I’ve enrolled in classes, maybe I’ll even become the next great American author! Would your father accept me then, if I was no longer a penniless man? I think he would. Your father is a very simple man in those regards. If only my status in society didn’t matter. Do you lie awake in bed and think of me, dearest? Does your dream state float off to the thoughts of your Joel? My dearest, my love for you has not changed, only grown stronger. Has yours for me felt all the same?

Joel

-

July 11th, 1845

My Dearest,

I write to you with a heavy heart and an anger that has never once possessed me. Please tell me it isn’t true. That you have fallen for another, the rich banker's son? It cannot be true. The papers lie, dearest. Your heart belongs to me, does it not? It must. You promised! You said that no matter what happened, no matter the consequences, we would end up together. You spoke those words so sweetly upon my ear when I laid beneath your sheets, dearest. Back in Texas, in your abandoned home, the stench of me still lingers. When you receive this letter, close your eyes and imagine me there with you, wherever that may be. I’ll come to New York, I swear it. I’ll come find you!

Please, write to me soon, dearest. Do not allow this to be the end of our story, I beg of you.

Yours always,

Joel Miller

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October, 1845

My Dearest,

This morning I write to you about the thoughts of reminiscing on our love. Something so sweet, fresh, ripened, but not yet spoiled. Do you remember the night we first met? We were just children then. All bright eyed and filled with curiosity. I remember the bows in your braided hair, your mother scolding you for them, slapping your cheek and yanking them from your braids. You wept with your face buried in your hands, and I comforted you. Your mother taught you how to curtsey, how to engage in small talk and forced you to wear those unbreathable garments that you hated so. I showed you how to run, to make mud pies and swim in the river. Do you remember the night of our first kiss? The first time our lips touched and my life held a meaning again? The foul mouthed, stable hand boy winning the affections of a girl such as you. If I bring my fingers to my lips now, I can feel your kiss there, too. I moved back to Texas, dearest. I wanted to feel closer to you. Write to me soon, and in your letter tell me that you wish for me to come to New York to be with you.

I am inconsolable without your presence at my side.

Yours devotedly,

Joel Miller

P.S. Every night I pray to the moon and stars that we will be in one another’s embrace very soon. I have never been a religious man by any means, but I find myself praying for you, my dearest.

-

March 29th, 1846

My Dearest,

It is spring once again, and everything is in bloom! A new family has moved into your abandoned home, and I am back to my roots. I have given up my dreams to be an author, but I write to you, still. I missed being around the horses more than you could possibly imagine. There’s a piece missing here, and that piece is you. The new family I work for has a daughter around your age. She’s pretty, beautiful even, but she’s not you, my dearest. She’ll never be you. Her hair isn’t the right length, her eyes the wrong shade, her laugh isn’t yours, her mannerisms are all wrong. She yearns for my affections, but my heart belongs to another. I will not commit adultery against you, my sweet. Even in my loneliest hours, I will not give into my sins against you. She would make a fine wife, and her parents are unlike your own, but she will never be you, and she will never possess my heart.

I yearn for you.

Your Joel

-

July 2nd, 1846

My Dearest,

I write to you with sweat dripping down my brow. I cannot sleep, the Texas heat has played a cruel trick upon my mind. I awoke to your voice, whispering my name through the billowing curtains. I taste your sweet kiss and the oncoming summer storm, but you are not here. Am I going insane? I fear that I am. What is the weather like in New York? Write to me soon, I beg of you.

Joel Miller

-

September 23rd, 1846

My Dearest,

I am facing my loneliest night yet, and I picture you laying beside me beneath my sheets. I have scrapped up enough money to finally buy you a ring! Isn’t that the most wonderful news? Tomorrow evening, after supper, I will head into town to the jewelers and buy you a ring that shines more brilliantly than the heavens above. You’ll wait for me, won’t you? Promise me that you will.

With love,

Your Joel

-

April 24th 1847

My Dearest,

Today is the day where I wish I never awoke. I wish to stay in a sweet slumber where my dreams are filled with you. You cannot marry him, please. Tell your father that you don’t accept the banker's son’s hand in marriage! He will never know you as I do, my dearest. He will never satisfy you the way that I can. He will turn his nose up at your politics, your drinking habits, your antics and wildness. But I love you as so. Come back to me, runaway with me. I can give you so much happiness if you only let me. How will your husband to-be react when he finds that you cannot bear him children? When the marriage is to be consummated, and he strips you of your skirts and touches you where only I have been, how will he feel? I worry for you, my dearest. I remember the night that we first became one. Do you still think of the way I moved in you? I still feel the phantom crescents of your nails in my back. I wish the marks left there were permanent, so I would always have a piece of you with me. Tell me that you remember the way that my kisses feel, my taste on your tongue, my voice, my body moving with yours. There was a time when you wanted to bear my children, and begged me to fill your womb with my seed. We waited and waited, but your womb never swelled with life no matter how many times we tried. You assumed my feelings for you would sour, but they only grew.

If you accept the banker's son's hand in marriage, I wish to never see the sunrise again.

Joel Miller

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May 7th, 1848

My Dearest,

I have never wept more than I have this morn. I shredded the papers, I pounded my fists into the earth and spooked every horse in the stable. Even the heavens weep with me, my dearest. Can I even call you that any longer? You wear his ring upon your finger, awake beneath his sheets, smelling of him. I’m sorry, my dearest. I’m sorry I could never be enough for you. I have tried so hard, and have continued to fail. My heart aches, and I wish I could rip it from my chest and stab it till all movement ceases. I wish to not feel any longer. I have lost all hope, and I fear that my attempts to hear from you have been fruitless. My devoted letters are out there, somewhere. Or perhaps you have collected them. Perhaps you did not awaken in his sheets. Perhaps you are on your way back to me. I’ll wait for you, my dearest.

Undoubtedly yours,

Joel Miller

-

June 4th, 1848

My Dearest,

In my loneliest hour, I write to you. If you ever receive this letter, do not weep for me. You and I were cut from a separate cloth since birth. I was not born into wealth. I was not fed from silver spoons. My clothes are tattered, the soles of my boots are worn down. All I have to my name is my penmanship and my memories of you. Think of me sweetly, will you? I wish you only happiness and love. I have turned into a drunk, my dearest. Alcohol soothes my mind, woes, and ailments. I hear your voice so vividly when I am in this state. You’re here beside me now, watching as I write my final letter. I can reach out and touch your cheek, soft, supple. You smell of saccharine honey and lavender fields. Your laugh is my favorite tune, and I can hear it now. Sing me a lullaby, my darling as I close my eyes and dream of you for a final time. If another universe exists, I hope I am rich. I hope I am the wealthiest man who is adored by your mother and father. I hope that on the night we meet again, I present you with a ring forged from my heart, a piece of me that has forever belonged to you. I hope I am fed from a silver spoon, dressed in the finest garments, attend every gala with you on my arm as my lady, my wife, my reason to live. I hope to bless you with as many children as you so desire. I have always loved you, my dearest, from the moment we met, I have been yours.

Farewell,

Your Joel.

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Chapter Fifteen liveblog of The Mandalorian Season 2! Let's go!!!

Ok long ship

Giraffe droid!

Okkkk so a junkyard?

Podracer engine!

Ah shit right I forgot they were bringing Mayfield back lmao he's annoying

They DO know he's gonna betray them right

Like that's what he does he's scummy lol

Ok so Boba's given his armor a touchup

Aaaaand there's the other guy xD

The BELIEVER? Oh shiiiiit that has to be something to do with Gideon and the Force!!!!!!

HIS KIIIIIIIIIIID ;_; ;_; ;_;

Don't TRUST him

Aaaaaand side mission to another planet time!

Bet you anything Mayfield's gonna betray them there

Pfffff the Slave 1 still looks so friggin silly I can't

I think he's calling for help I DON'T trust him

NOOOOO DON'T MAKE HIM TAKE HIS HELMET OFF

Ok ok ok phew he gets a helmet

Alright but they BETTER not make him lose his beskar and helmet now that he took it off or I'm gonna flip all the tables

"OH MY GOD THIS GUY REEKED" ok so I still don't like Mayfield but I am VERY glad they're doing more tongue in cheek crit of the silly SW stuff like stealing armor and OSHA violations xD

Awwwwww HE TRUSTS CARA

Wait a sec if Din doesn't have to take the mask off why the hell couldn't Boba just go? He wouldn't need to worry about someone recognizing his face then??????????

Mayfield SHUT UP CHALLENGE

Oh great workers' camps

Dude Alderaan blew UP, Mandalore's still fuckin' there lmao

.......dammit ok so he has a POINT about the helmets xD

Oh more rebels????

I'm predicting Bo Katan lol, it sounds like her kinda music and also her kind of destruction xD

Or wait maybe the Armorer!

Oh nah just some regular ass pirates xD

DIN YOU DON'T HAVE YOUR BESKAR NOW BE CAREFULLLLLLLL

Ok he got them but watch the BOMB

Aw great there's more

So convenient they're coming one at a time lol

DIN GET THE BOMB GET THE BOMB GET THE ok phewwwwwww good

Jesus FUCK how many of these guys are there

Lol for once we're on the TIEs' side xD

Damn that's weird hearing the Imps have heroic music xD

DAMMIT MAYFIELD STOP MAKING ME AGREE WITH YOU

Oh no shit now they're doing the whole "Imperials are people too!" thing nooo they're still fascist metaphors

Oh DAMMIT they stole the name Valin he's one of my OC's xD

STOP TRYING TO MAKE HIM TAKE HIS DAMN MASK OFF AND SHOW HIS FACE YOU FUCKERS

Gah ok fine, it's for the baby, it's for the baby, no one is actually gonna see him, it's fine

Ahhhhh Pedro never thought I'd be upset to see your beautiful face oh shit I hope no one sees him!

OK PUT IT BACK ON NOW BABY YOU'RE GOOD

MAYFIELD FUCKER DON'T LOOK

Nonononononono I hate this

NO

I HATE LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS MAYFIELD SAW HIS FACE

DON'T FUCKING CALL HIM BROWN EYES MAYFIELD DON'T ACKNOWLEDGE YOU SAW HIS FACE

I HATE THIS

This is actually making me cry I hate this so so so much

He looks so fucking uncomfortable baby NO

Careful there Mayfield you don't need revenge rn

BRO HE TOOK HIS FUCKING HELMET OFF FOR THIS I GET THE EMPIRE SUCKS BUT YOU CANNOT DO THIS RIGHT NOW

BITCH

DIN BABY NOOOOOOO

HE LOOKS SO UPSET AND DEAD I'M--

Ok these fuckers better actually escape

ok good GO

Oh good good he took out the rhydonium

Ok MAYBE Mayfield did something good

Oh HEYYYYYY the boom boom thing Boba's ship does! I forget what it's called but nice to see it again!

Ok FINE Mayfield maybe deserves to be let go, say he escaped

BITCH DON'T QUESTION IT JUST LEAVE

Lol so that lava planet obviously wasn't Ahsoka that they visited last time lol

Oooooh we seeing Gideon's ship

AAAAAAAAAAAASLKDFLSKAJFLKSDJFLKSDJFLK HOOOOOOOOLY SHIT DIN. DIIIIIIIIN. HE'S FUCKING REPEATING GIDEON'S LINES BACK AT HIM HOLY FUCKING SHIT YES BABY GO OFFFFFFFFFFFFF

I LOVE YOU

EVEN IF SERIOUSLY YOU SHOULD NOT BE LETTING THEM KNOW YOU'RE COMING BRO NO LET SOME THINGS BE A SURPRISE YEAH?

Rick Famuyiwa! Good directing my good sir but Jesus was taking off Din's helmet REALLY necessary dude that fucking sucked

Like deadass I'm still upset about that

Also I guess Famuyiwa's obligated to gIve Bill Burr roles xD

But gahhhhhh good episode, also felt like maybe it shouldn't be the second to last of the season

also SHOULD NOT HAVE REMOVED HELMET

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History3 Trapped Episode 19

Okay, so full disclosure, I’m a Banana Chinese™️ so my Mandarin comprehension is basic at best and I’m watching this episode RAW, SO HERE WE GO!

“I think he has still another place he’s injured” “Where?” “HIS BRAIN” akasdlasdfl

Dr. CrackJob, your bedside manner is shit bruh. Also, super side note, is that his bf? Can someone confirm to me?

“If you’re worried about me then don’t let me die” SHAO FEI YOU FUCKING--- I SWEAR TO GODDDDD (;*△*;) Shao Fei nuzzling against Tang Yi’s shoulder is just. So soft. I cannot.

Shao Fei telling Tang Yi that he loves him and then we get a handcuff hug moment, and Zhao Zi coming in to ask if he can take Tang Yi away is like, making my heart hurt a little.

Drunk!Zhao Zi is more sober than Sober!Zhao Zi. I know of people irl who are like that, but Drunk!Zhao Zi is super eloquent and a sad babu so it’s good that Jack is here to comfort his babu.

(;̦̦̦̦̦̦̦̦ↂ⃝⃓⃙⃚⃘дↂ⃝⃓⃙⃚⃘;̦̦̦̦̦̦̦̦) “IF YOU DON’T WANT ME TO GO, THEN I’LL STAY” 

ALSO. HOLY SHIT ANDY’S KISSING TECHNIQUE HNNGH. (never have i ever wanted to be a guy as bad as i do now) AND THEIR SMILESSSS GAHHHHHH

JESUS H. CHRIST. SHAO FEI. YOUR SUIT IS A HORROR ON MY EYES.

But also, Poor Boss. He loves his daughter so much... And everything he’s done is for her. This scene where Shao Fei and the Boss are talking it out is good. I like that they’re getting their closure on this matter.

Father-In-Law and Son-In-Law meeting over coffee heh

Sometimes, I do believe that this show is a subtle propaganda on Anti-drugs... (also, product placements on this show is done pretty subtly so I’m not too mad about it)

Shao Fei thinking he is about to get the shovel talk, only to have Father-In-Law tell him that he doesn’t have a say in this and then Shao Fei assuring him that Tang Yi is someone who needs a lot of love and that he won’t let Tang Yi go is just. I’m gonna just be sat here. Crying. Coz this scene. Holy shit this scene.

PARTNERS COOKING TOGETHER. PARTNERS. COOKING. TOGETHER. COOKING OMURICE~ (is this another easter egg/callback to History2 Right or Wrong?)

You know, when I started watching this show I thought Shao Fei was incredibly naïve and childish, but really, he’s very wise, and I like that I got to see him unfurl like an onion like this. 

“THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME” okay brb my heart can’t take all this softness.

OMFGGGGG THEY ARE PLAYING THE RIGHT OR WRONG SONG AS THEY’RE DOING THE KETCHUP FACE OMFGGGGG I’M JUST------ FUCK SO EMOTIONAL RN OMMMMMMGGGGGGGGG GAHHHHHHHHHHHH ICONIC (if it isn’t obvious, that’s my favourite History series song thus far ok my absolute fave)

JACK MOVING INTO ZHAO ZI’S IS EVERY FANFIC COME TO LIFE; JACK, MY BOY, YOU MAKE A COMPELLING CASE FOR WHY HE SHOULD MOVE IN. ALSO. ZHAO ZI. YOUR SHIRT.

Also, can we talk about the fact that they’re making out on the kitchen table because 1) HNNGH. 2) Unsanitary.

In conclusion, I hope the penultimate episode will be as good as this one, but my bar for finales are set so low this year (Fuck You Very Much Game of Thrones) and as long as I get them tying up loose ends and stuff, I’m pretty much good tbh.

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nickname: shirlz, shnilly, honestly it just depends on the mood my friends are in

height: 5′6″ but everyone argues I'm either taller or shorter...so 168cm :)

time right now: 4:31pm

last thing i googled: “cute backpack fits 15″ laptop” bc I need a new backpack and my old one can barely fit my laptop rip

favorite bands: EXO, BTS, VIXX, MAMAMOO... and a lot of K-Indie stuff recently like MOLA and KREAM and Echae King and Bolbbalgan4 etc etc

favorite solo artists: Oohyo, Ailee, Taeyeon, Agust D

song stuck in your head: Love Me Do - VIXX (I swear to god that one performance with the water and the suits keeps popping up on youtube and GAHHHHHH I'm dead)

last movie watched: The Handmaiden with my friend xD it was so good wowowowowowow

last tv show watched: umumummmm Pokemon Battle Frontier iirc bc my suite mate decided to rope me in on an evening of laughing at Jessie’s antics. If not then Superstore

when did you create your blog: sophomore year HS bc my friend convinced me to go down this rabbit hole.....so wow its almost been 6 years I feel old

what kind of stuff do you post: Exo VIXX BTS and when I see a good Yuri On Ice fan art, that 

when did your blog reach its peak: it hasn't really peaked as much as its a slow burn? since my blog has been so scattered in interest like me xD

do you have any other blogs: a art sideblog lol I haven't had time to sketch anything tho rip 

do you get asks regularly: honestly #tumblrlifegoal

why did you chose your url: my constant struggle of 1. avoiding puns and 2. coming up with a funny pun

following: 1182.....I really need to clean up my dash rip

hogwarts house: Ravenclaw ALL DAY EVERY DAY I EMBRACE MY NERDINESS 

pokémon team: Mystic WOOT WOOT

favorite colors:  pastels, black (which is completely a color excuse me)

lucky numbers: 11

favorite characters: you cruel cruel being making me choose jesus....Hide from Tokyo Ghoul, Yukine from Noragami, Sugawara from Haikyuu...and thats all the ones from the recent stuff I’ve been reading

what are you wearing right now: a pastel pink baseball hat, black jeans, pink hoodie, and white sneakers

how many blankets do you sleep with: 2 bc I like being surrounded by comforters, pillows, and plushes

dream job: programmer of some super niche and cute and Aesthetic website 

dream trip: gastronomical trip around the world.....now if I can pad my bank account with all of the 

I tag: @t0d-oder-freiheit | @see-the-xiububblebutt-twerking | @extraplusordinary | @jongini88 | @exorgy | @pornwoon

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"To spend one more night beneath the stars with my best friends." Gahhhhhh 😭 Terra! Except he's not really there 😢😢😢 Jesus, Aqua has started to hallucinate 😰 Aqua's really been messed up, hasn't she? Spending a decade alone in the realm of darkness alone with inky your thoughts and memories to keep you company? Yeah, I suppose that can really do damage to a person. Why am I even joking about this? It's so depressing. Just watching this scene makes me feel so empty inside.

[jelly-omelette]

fuck

Fuck fuck fuck I’m so fucking mad god dammit every little thing is pissing me off and I’m not having it today or just lately in general. I’m so irritated and it’s really really annoying it makes me more frustrated. Like fuck just leave me alone. Shittttt. I need to let it go. I just need to be alone and have my space. Jesus Christ. I’m irritated because no one takes out the trash and the recyclables. I’m just gonna stop taking them out now because I’m tired of doing everything and people not returning the favor. That’s why I’ve been hanging out with classmates so much and just doing my own thing. I get so grumpy when I don’t have someone who I can just be myself around and vent to them. I’m just pissed and I need an outlet for it but ughhh I think it’s a combination of being sexually frustrated and frustrated that I’m not getting the communication that I expect from others. Just not my week. I also got mad at Aish for changing the plans on how to surprise Preyrna and seriously thinking it’s not even a big deal we’re just trying to celebrate her birthday like why am I getting so fcking heated gahhhhhh. I have my dads temper dammit. I just need to chill and breathe and think about what I say before it comes out of my mouth.

[tumblunni]

ah no its okay! its just the achievement system being weird! You get the achievement for gathering evidence A right after gathering it, but only get the achievement for evidence B during the actual ending for some reason. Phewwww okay! But man its getting a bit annoying replaying the final scene trying to figure out the precise order to possess everyone to get certain endings. Its annoying cos there’s a long cutscene before it, and even though this game has a super fast skip feature you have to keep hitting the button for like a minute each time. Wish it could have at least been something you hold down instead :P oww my wrist ehh I guess I’ll pause here and wait a bit before going for the true ending. I’m gonna look up a guide cos its so frustrating having all the evidence and not knowing the right order to do it in, gahhh! And there’s so many trip ups where itll send you immediately into one of the bad endings, and then if you present too many pieces of evidence you get a bad ending and GAHHHH! How can I leave out half of these evidences and find other ones that say the same thing in less words?? Also it seems I might have to completely replay the final chapter cos the requirement for the golden-failure ending is to get everything for the golden ending except one thing. Its the only ending that cant be gotten after you get all the evidence, you can get all the other bad ones by messing up this final minigame :P gahhhhhh :P

Anyway RAMBLING ABOUT THE BAD ENDINGS SO FAR AND HOW GREAT THEY ARE (by which I mean DEPRESSING):

* Oh godddddd It wasnt ferdinand was it?? I mean if you get that ending then everyone acts as if it was him, but it didnt seem very believeable?? The ending is so quick and weird. Its definately a bad ending. You get it from presenting just one piece of evidence during the final minigame, and then ferdinand never confesses and honestly his alternate suggestion makes a fuckin lotta sense! When Donavan shoots him he confesses that he’s actually a conman that snuck onto the ship with false papers to steal stuff, but then Donavan is like ‘NO. YOU ARE THE KILLER.’ and shoots him dead anyway. And everyone is just like.. ‘umm.. i guess... he was the killer...?’ and it just ends! I really dont think he was the killer, I think he was just a petty criminal instead. or if he WAS the killer, we didnt really prove it here, we didnt find the real truth. That was just executing a scapegoat because we didnt solve the mystery. Tho it would be incredibly ironic if we get the true ending and it turns out he WAS a serial killer! option to actually deduce it was him, option to not deduce anything and just accidentally shoot the right man XD Either way he is a creepy fuck and clearly evil even if he didnt kill anyone. Thats why I can believe that he was a misdirect and he’s just a different criminal who wasnt involved with the main plot. I was suspicious of him for AGES and I was so convinced he was the killer but now I’m really heckin not!

* The ultimate bad ending where you don’t pin anyone as the killer is just so depressing and messed up! Donavan turns into a monster himself in his pursuit of the killer, he’s got his guts hanging out and he knows someone in the room has to be the culprit but he doesnt have time. So he tries to kill EVERYONE just in case! Wow you lost every single one of those badass points you had when I first got to play as you, dude. I was actually happy you didnt die! Now I’m frickin glad to see you shoot yourself after shooting all my friends, you fuck! ‘Hey I avenged one person’s death by killing nine other innocent people but lol I got the criminal’. Godddd, I can see how he got to this point but man its impossible to be sympathetic even if its not like he’s evil. Jeeesus... And if anything its WORSE that he dies before he can finish off every single main character! Paulo survives in this one, along with Xu who feels like she deserved to die. And Paulo is so traumatized by everything that he becomes severely mentally ill and is only capable of repeating words people say at him, he doesnt even recognise anyone anymore and we dont even get to know if he gets treatment or if he could ever recover. We just see everyone huddled together on a lifeboat trying to make him wake up and crying that they deserved to die too... gahhh... WHY PAULO WHY Man, at least its better than how he doesnt even get a single line of dialogue in the other two bad endings, that was weird. I hope he gets an epilogue in the true ending at least! I cared about him the most! Oh and it really fuckin hurt how Quella and Darryl were murdered in reverse order, dear jesus. Darryl was fine with dying, but then Quella jumped in front of him to protect him and all it accomplished was that darryl actually cried for his own death before he got mowed down too. And their bodies were left holding each other! GAHHHHH And its even worse cos the dialogue kinda upgrades their friendship to some cute romantic tension in the bad endings where they survive, that just makes me love them more and then AAAAAA

* Oh and the third bad ending is really sneaky cos it seems like a true ending?? You discover who was behind the human trafficking and he gets a cathartic punishment and really the only clue it isnt the true ending is how ferdinand seems suspicious and it all wraps up a bit too quickly and all. I’m left wondering what on earth could be the extra thing in the true ending, like do we find out someone entirely else was involved in this, or do we get more of a proper reveal of how ferdinand was the serial killer and he gets actual karma instead of just being killed before anyone is even sure he really did it... BUT ANYWAY THIS BAD END THIS CULPRIT NOOOOOOOOOO God, I knew Ferdinand was probably the culprit but even with all the clues together I didnt realise the human trafficking was even happening, let alone who did it! IT WAS GRANDPA IT WAS GRANDPA ALL ALOOOOONG NOOOO I mean.. at least it wasnt the grandpa I liked best. Darryl is totally innocent. But it was the more clearly a grandpa dude, the one you cant even debate is actually fifty. WHY GRANDPA WHY Gah, at least now I have an excuse why for once I didnt like a grandpa character. He always did seem like a bit of a suspicious asshole, even if I also believed a lot of what he said and never thought he’d be THAT evil! like.. god. Even if his sympathetic backstory is true he just fuckin destroyed it by reacting this way to it. Hell, i dont even trust its true though, i feel like it likely his wife divorced him for very good reasons after seeing what his personality really is in this ending. His kids are fuckin lucky theyre never gonna see him again! GAHHHHH The cute grandpa who loves cats and GAHHHH he was drugging and transporting kidnapped tennage girls to be sold into sex slavery. And he justified it by saying ‘oh humans are all animals, my wife was like an animal to me, blablabla its just our base desire to be evil motherfuckers’. And even right to the end he didnt understand why we were all disgusted at him, he was like ‘okay you can stop lying now, you dont REALLY care about these random nameless victims, you just wanna get a cut of the profits! I can make you all fuckin’ rich, we can smooth this all over, right?’ its so fuckin sick cos he was faking concern throughout the whole damn minigame so clearly he DOES understand that some people are good, right? He has to understand what morality is, he’s just excusing himself by pretending all of humanity is inherantly the same as him! GOD it was satisfying to see him shot in the head mid sentence Tho still i wish for an ending where the culprits can go to prison and suffer forever for what they did, and nobody else has to die. Also i want some conclusion for Paulo And a proper goodbye scene for the protagonist instead of them just dissappearing after the last minigame with no fanfare at all :P

* Also wtf was up with the mystery ghost in the bathroom, then? They just ask you random personality quiz type questions once per chapter of the game, and get no conclusion or reveal of who they are. Did they just stay haunting the bathroom forever, unable to solve their own murder like the protagonist did? Thats depressing. I mean i could understand their lack of conclusion if they were just meant to be a tutorial character or something, but paulo does all that! And why do they say all those questions if your choices dont matter...??