#but i guess it's doubt?
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I love Solas, and I love Solavellan, because I find the character and story so compelling, but sometimes I feel like a fake Solavellan
to me Ixchel and Solas has kind of always been about two friends who both suffer from the same affliction and they are the only two people who can ever understand it, the affliction being outside (duty, responsibility, guilt) and inside (inherent fatalism in philosophy, viewing the self as unworthy, haunted by despair) and though
they can't at first forgive themselves or find the strength within them to stay out of their dark spirals, they can do it for the other. and how important that is. that's love. the smooching and everything is on top. the knowing what dark predators haunt the other person's psyche and saying I'll be there with you when the wolves come, we'll survive together. the I know exactly who you are and how ugly it is and I love you for it and I see the beauty still. the I will never get tired of you even if youre never "fixed." that's love right. that's Ixchel and Solas to me.
so like yeah they have been Together for about like 170+ chapters. they're not being tested about being pulled apart by duty or fear anymore, they're testing the strength of that bond in those dark ugly moments that come for us all. and mostly theyre good. mostly they're just on an adventure together.
somehow it feels like I'm a fake Solavellan 🥲 like early dpdf captured something and... getting together, having truths revealed, this *aftermath* is like I left that behind somehow. like it's beyond what Solavellans want. idk. I think about other fics that are post- truth coming out and staying together and they're very different vibes, I think, you know?
I like my action/adventure fic, I like them together, I like having moments where they find that there is still a dark corner they haven't swept out into the light yet and the way it's still scary for someone to want to know those ugly parts of you that they maybe haven't seen yet. I like having them be mostly utterly confident in each others competency. I like them united against the unknown together. but like did everything about them peak in Here Lies the Abyss, you know? or maybe Wycome? I'm so nervous about everything in TBG :'( it's just hard for me RN in my heart idk to feel confident of like. where it Fits into fandom besides "blue loves lore and wants to explore metaphysics with Ixchel (new perspective) and Solas (wise, experienced guide)"
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#personal#this is very disjointed i cant really articulate it but#every couple of months i get a comment on brave guide#usually only one#specifically about the solavellan part of the fic#being not solavellan enough (needs more angst) or being not solavellan enough (needs to be completely healed and angst free)#and they eat at me yknow#lots of things about them eat at me#no matter how much i love them#Hhhhhhhh im going insane im so tired idk what im saying#also im#very keenly aware of what points in the fic friends/commenters stop reading#and it's hard not to feel like that's indicative of quality#even tho fic for me isnt about being the best product#its stream of consciousness sharing the fun scenes in my head and that's it#but still hard not to feel insecure#i see Solavellans on twitter going gaga about each other's fics in a very particular way that i think just#doesnt apply to dpdf after Here Lies The Abyss#and idk it's not jealousy but it's a weird lonely feeling#it's not loneliness either bc i do have loyal readers who Get It and are Here For It and tell me!#a blessing and a joy absolutely#but i guess it's doubt?#idk#delete later#if i remember
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the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself
#lucinda.txt#when i was 20 my theater teacher died and i thought i was also going to die#when i was 23 my childhood cat died and it was awful#all my grandparents are dead. liam payne from one direction has died.#it's like... okay. and you still have to wake up and go to work!#& i guess the idea is one day you'll get better at losing things#one day you just won't CARE that your childhood is over#i guess. but i doubt it.#1k#2k#5k
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wilson would be like "i'm not smart like you but i can hold a conversation with you at least" when house comes to him to bounce ideas off of, not realizing that house thinks of the two of them like this
#house md#james wilson#gregory house#he values wilson's input so much it makes him look stupid. or not i guess. because the epiphanies#wilson doubts his own input more than house ever does frankly#it's just. ouuguuuhhg he's sweet on wilson. that's his person with a weird brain that correlates so nicely with his own
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gripped by fear
my piece for dark waters, an op angst zine
#i love my boy hes so brave and beautiful#usopp#one piece#op fanart#skeletons#horror#i guess?#something about not wanting to be left behind but also fearing your own inability to do something about it#and in turn feeding your own self-doubt and believing that getting involved will only hurt more people etcetc#water 7 enies lobby arc girlies where you at
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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.
[id in alt text]
#legend of zelda#loz#twilight princess#loz tp#i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it#it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy#but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble:#i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way#to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present#link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face#and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up#you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way#the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually?#fan art#my art#project stuff#and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!!#especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them#a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt#i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time
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“How much kissing would there have been? If I’d figured it out sooner?”
#I can guess that: A FREAKING LOT!!!#NO DOUBTS#THEY’D HAVE BEEN THAT COUPLE#(THEY ARE)#Hi besties just some doodles that started as sketches#simon snow#snowbaz#baz pitch#fanart#letraspal#carry on#illustration#book characters#carry on fanart#rainbow rowell
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Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?
thank you so much !!
i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]
and the obligatory bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#fall of x#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#for clarity on of this tag ramble im calling magneto max OK ok#sorry it took me a while to answer- ive been busy this week !#but yah like i said theres a lot of Fall Of X moments i wanna poke at#one i really wanted to doodle around was max's time with the shadow king from Resurrection of Magneto#the third issue is prob my fave in general if im so tbh .... but i wont prattle bout that ill go back to my previous prattle#i dont think i have a comic in mind prob just a doodle with shadow charles....#i mean if im devious enough i can def turn it into a comic but for now i just know i wanna do something with that#honestly even this moment i might revisit when i have more time to draw something. a lil better#i dont hate this its a sound start- but i THINK i wanna draw a smooch. a lil kiss. idk we'll see#cause im cheeky like that. 'will this be the last time i see you' 'girl idk we can kiss about it though' etc etc#god not to get off topic but im so curious what will happen with these two ... but thats for a diff post i guess#honestly if you guys have any runs i should read lemme know !! i just finished way of x and bar that ive just been reading the 60s issues#i have a couple on my list i wanna check out but im always excited to look into recs if yall think theyre worth it !!#but ya. thats all from me for now#my time is so finite this week i hope i can draw these sillies again soon .. i have a lot of ideas i fear#maybe i can sneak in one more doodle tonight ... <- doubtful
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He didn't get the memo...
#ffxiv#Ninira Nira#Estinien#Estinien Wyrmblood#Estinien Varlineau#wolstinien#Y'shtola Rhul#G'raha Tia#woo! managed to finish my haha the gang enjoying chill dawntrail time comic before dawntrail comes out#the comic that I guess maybe could be considered a lore drop lmao#I mentioned this in passing recently and so many people came to scream WHAT at me#teehee :^)#it's okay graha you're not the only one (clearly)#and if I had done this right there would have been a comic before this one actually lmao#but maybe I can make that one happen too (doubt) (hopeful)#technically my brain says there should be a part 3 follow up to this too but we will see#art: mine
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Wasn't the biggest fan of the starting clothes so i figured I'd just sell them off for quick early cash and uh...
i'm starting to get the feeling the perma-underwear you have isn't actually there in-character...
some people approve.
some... don't.
(apparently this is also a naked comment too so count another in the "approve(?)" category I guess)
#coral island#guess that's another one for the games you can be naked in list?#i WAS gonna buy some new clothes soon but now i kinda want to see where this goes#(i doubt it's gonna go anywhere but still) (guess that's gonna be this character's Thing now)
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It really is so true that you never know what someone’s going through behind closed doors. I’ve made being gentle and kind my default bc I’ve had super put together friends disclose the most harrowing time of their lives to me and it’s like oh?? You were going through that???? I would’ve never guessed
#It’s easy to reduce people to side characters or caricatures but you never know. You truly never know what someone’s going through or what#Could push them over the edge. Cruelty will never be worth potentially causing someone permanent damage#I’ve realized this after having a conversation w a friend of mine who sailed straight to med school#Tons of leadership roles#Thriving social life#Yet she just told me her hair was falling out from anxiety. Never in a million years would I have guessed that she was struggling#But she was and lots of people play things close to their chest like that#I really wanna be kind each time I can and to also come from a place of compassion#Bc ik I’ve been misunderstood by people before who reduced me to a caricature or just didn’t know what was happening in my life#I want to actively work on extending the benefit of the doubt to the same people I would want to extend the benefit of the doubt to me
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Pingping is very cute, I wished we got more scene with the "real" her. In chapter 5 she hides and clings onto the Destined One few times and also calls him 好哥哥 (litereally transaltion good big brother).
In my head, with Oz she is the one who freed Pingping in her fox form fangling from the tree while the Destined One was battling. And seeing as there is another girl there, Pingping clings onto Oz and calls her 好姐姐 (big sister), despite Pingping being 500+ years older than Oz.
The Destined One is having none of that :d and that's how the Red Boy figured out his weakness
me too, Pingping, me too
also love how couple seconds before that when Pingping turns around to talk to the Destined One he visibly jumped back LMFAO
#szynkART#I was having major doubts about whether the DO really might be 189 cm tall but seeing those screenshots that might actually be the case#if Pingping was average height idk maybe 155-160cm#then the height difference in the screenshot track#ANYWAY YALL WE GOT A TALL MONKEY KING#in jttw source he is 4 feet tall#normal monkey size I guess#cepheus baskerville#black myth wukong#sun wukong#sun wukong x oc#sun wukong x reader#me crying writing in chinese while I listen to mom's voice memo telling me my chinese is getting worse and worse
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When you need to lie, but you're a good boy.
#Lies of P#lop#neowiz#pinocchio#fanart#comics#interrupting your local d2 art fever for puppet time -- we shall return soon#I'm not done with the game yet so i ain't checking tags#steamrolled this one bc i still wanna do another d2 comic for the weekend#cant lose momentum yet yelp#as i prepare this post i'm stuck on the cathedral boss for two afternoons already#like-- i am having progress with the battle and improving my timing so i guess that's something?#i'm not a souls player -- that's my brother -- but when i doubt myself he pats me and#'nah you are a souls player - you have persistence' and honestly he's not wrong#i'm actually enjoying the learning process of the battle even tho i'm stuck for two afternoons#i mean i spent 37 hours on the demo so at least i am taking my time sdfghjhgfd
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look at this egyptian (80 CE-100 CE) figurine of a cat playing the lyre
#i KNOW it says harp but come on. harps are not square. kind of doubt it is even a lyre actually as the stripes are horizontal. washboard?#ancient egypt#or really more roman egypt i guess? well it's very cute#cats#ancient art#roman egypt#ceramics
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Have you ever noticed how Vessel has never actually said the words "I love you"? Like. He says it many, many times - each breath he takes is a confession - but he has never said it.
It's always "my love is / as (...)", "I'm full of the love you want", "like lovers", "your love", "(...) falling in love with me". The closest we get is "I made loving you (...)". Which still isn't quite the same as saying I love you.
It's almost like he needs to put some sort of barrier between what he feels and what he knows it's the truth to lessen the blow. Because he does love them, and will continue to do so, forevermore. No matter the cost of rain, through death. He's theirs unconditionally, even if it hurts him, right?
But they don't feel the same. He knows that. He begs for it, for them to fall for him, to take a bite, show him what it's like.
Vessel knows that they want his love, companionship, worship, whatever you want to call it, the way a wolf wants its prey. He knows that they keep him around, keep pretending to be falling in love with him, merely as play thing, a means to an end. He knows all of this and keeps loving anyway, knowing that his love doesn't matter.
You don't really love,
you just hate to be alone.
Because hiding behind big, fancy, flourished phrases like "I'll live like I've got missing limbs for you", and "My arms belong around you", and "We go beyond the farthest reaches", and -
And you know I'll be yours Just want to be worth it I will run like the wind till you follow me again
- is much easier than to admit the very simple and pathetic three-worded truth, knowing it is not reciprocated. Not anymore at least (if ever).
If what they say is "Nothing is forever", then what makes love the exception?
#guess who had a bout of insomnia and got hella sad and yearning 👍#augh. friends gather round. we aching together#highly doubt it'll ever happen but if he ever says “i love you” i will exit this plane of existence#Vessel hiding cold simple truths behind layers of sugar coating and vague metaphors will forever be my favourite thing#homeboy looks tough and spooky but really he's just a sad little wet cat quaking in his tabis 🥺#anyways. hi everyone 🙂✌️#sleep token#sleep token lore#darya is unhinged
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FARSCAPE | 1.06 Thank God It's Friday, Again.
#I love this exchange so much specifically because it tells us a lot about how the translator microbes work. I mean. I highly doubt that – at#least at this point – john has ever discussed woodies with Aeryn.#But I can quite easily imagine that he’s at one point looked at some alien thing shuddered and gone ‘ugh. Gives me the willies.’#And since aeryn’s translator microbes picked that up and returned it with woody we can kind of see how they work.#It’s taken willie – a colloquial term for penis – and substituted it with another colloquial term for penis – woody.#The problem is that these terms both have connotations that the microbes don’t pick up on#hence the incorrect substitution.#However they do seem to do okay with homophones#presumably based on context.#It’s like how back in like 2012 if you typed a word into google translate that didn’t translate well#it would give you it’s best guess#and then if you translated it back it would just have a completely different meaning. Essentially translator microbes work probably as well#farscape#aeryn sun#claudia black#syfysource#cinematv#filmtvcentral#chewieblog#smallscreensource#usercreate#userthing#farscapeedit#john crichton#ben browder#farscape gifs#my gifs#claudia black gifs#dailytvwomen#popcultureds
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math's hard
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