#but i dont have a friend to talk to bc if i try to talk or even text i get so worked up i cry

[thesexiestlies]

oh god ok so literally gag me with a spoon rant incoming

ok so boom “friend” of mine right were talking and like they call me the other day to watch the sunset?? right..and right after he keeps trying to trigger me??😭 i mean actually like asking why i havent been out of bed (i am a pre med on spring break if i have a second to sleep and bedrot i will take it i might be a lil lazy but in fact i quite like my peace and quiet, im really comfortable with and love myself and so i really dont mind my nest but theyre like a super overachiever you know.. so shade..) anyways.. i am living with depression and much better now that im medicated so i regard these as normal concerns tho bc theyve seen me when i was pretty low which was last year, so i reassure them im doing really well right now.. but then they start saying its ok if my meds dont work, and like theyve been havjng issues with theirs and it was super random and out of nowhere so im not crazy to think theyre projecting right?? then they start asking me if i told anyone about (the horrors) ?? and just SAID WHAT IT WAS THAT HAPPENED TO ME??😭 and i of course didnt know how to react to that and they doubled down… weird.. and they started sending me all this stuff about how stupid all my hobbies are so i sent back gifs of New York and said this is what life is about and they sent me these paragraphs about how i dont know the meaning of life, so i sent him thosw hilarious fake deep pictures, you know the one with the book giving cpr, and it was captioned “bro when he wakes up an hour earlier than me” and now hes shading me on my story saying “some people think wealth is everything”😭😭😭girl this is i love new york… #paradeinsidemycity…

Sometimes little pleasures in life are loadbearing. Whenever someone is like "If you'd just give up tea and coffee and sugar and--" im like I'll stop you right there. Because if you finish that sentence i am going to kill everyone in this building and then myself. If i have to face the horrors of the world without my little jar of caramel flavoured instant coffee i am going to go full American Psycho. Believe it or not, my main priority in life is not to have perfect teeth or be an Olympic athlete or look like a supermodel, but to actually enjoy living, because I spent far too long not doing that and it royally sucked. And boy, some people don't like hearing that. Particularly dentists

[elainsgirl]

I've seen many people saying that as casual readers they always thought Elriel was endgame and I'd like to add my own experience to this.

I read the books bc my best friend really liked them and we like the same things. I trusted her and went in blind, I just knew it was about a human girl being "kidnapped" by a fae and that my bsf's favorite character was a guy named Rhysand.

We were living together at the time, so we'd often talk about my thoughts while reading. I didn't interact with the fandom to avoid spoilers and I'd ask her if I wanted to see some fanarts of certain characters. But even while she was reading the books before I ever did, she would sometimes use metaphors to describe certain situation so that it wouldn't be a spoiler for me but she would still have someone to talk about it.

And one thing she said was that at a certain point there would be a sort of "love square" instead of a triangle and I was interested ngl. You don't see that every day. I kept that in mind as I read the series, but then I finished ACOSF (shipping elriel, read the BC) and I was really confused bc obviously three of the four people were Elain, Az, and Lucien but I couldn't figure out who was the fourth one. I asked her about it and she was like "oh it's Gwyn, some people ship her with Az, not sure why🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️" (but she doesn't particularly care about elriel or elain and az as characters bc we haven't seen enough of them yet and she's more of a casual reader)

Anyway, all this to say, even after being told about a "love square", I still didn't realize it was Gwyn because there wasn't enough to support it in the books (and this comes from someone who ships people easily). And I mean, there's nothing wrong with shipping Gwynriel, I'm not actually against it. I can see the potential there. But it's the claiming the ship is canon and endgame part that bothers me. Idk why they need it so badly. I ship everyone with everyone else, but it doesn't mean I expect it to be canon and to actually happen in the next book. And tbh? That's the fun part of it

Thanks for sharing your experience anon, ik a lot of people can relate with being confused by this “love square”. A love square can typically acts in 4 ways:

2 people love the same person yet that person loves someone else -> doesnt apply

you have two established couples & one person from each couple wants each other. Again doesnt apply

connection through unreciprocated love. Only applies very loosely to Lucien who wants Elain but she doesn’t want him back. If Gwyn canonically wanted Azriel but he ofc wants elain, it would have also applied to her but again, there is nothing in ACOSF to suggest Gwyn is crushing on Az and wants him romantically

3 people loving the same person - doesn’t apply.

the acotar love square doesn’t fit any of these dyanmics. Gwyn is forcefully being pushed into the established love triangle between Az/Lucien/Elain. Gwyn doesnt want anyone romantically and none of the characters want Gwyn. She’s just there. Her stans are trying to convince themselves gwynriel want each other or at least acosf showed some romantic interest from Gwyns side - but none of that is true. As you mentioned, there’s not a lot (literally nothing) to support it in the books. One thing about Mass, is before the couples’ book - she comfirms they are mutually attracted to each other.

I dont think many people have an issue with others shipping gwynriel: crack ships make up a lot of the fandom and its fun shipping two random characters together and exploring their dynamic/concept but you also have to understand that just bcs YOU like the idea of two characters together, it doesn’t mean they’re set up to be canon within the books. I think the annoying part is Gwynriels expecting everyone else to take their ship seriously and act as though its a ship thats in the same league as elucien/elriel, when its not. And to make their ship seem better, they have to disprove elriel and oftentimes it makes them look ridiculous bcs their arguements are flawed. They need gwynriel so badly as it solves two major “issues” for them. 1) Take Az away from Elain and she will have no choice but to eventually accept her mate and eluciens have convinced themselves this is the only way Lucien can be happy 2) They dont want Az to be with someone like elain, who they’ve deemed boring, useless, plain. They want him with a sassy, badass warrior-> which Gwyn is meant to be.

[thepointofme]

i dont think this will be niche but you know that scene in shadowhunters where jace and simon are about to be suffocated by vines and all the seelie queen asks clary is a kiss bc "only the kiss she most desires will set them free" and clary kisses simon bc they're together but nothing happens and she realizes its bc the kiss she desires the most is jace's.

I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT CHERIK IN THIS SITUATION.

like an au where cherik met and become friends bla bla bla and then divorce bla bla bla we all know how that goes, and after that erik disappears and when they met years later charles finds out he's MARRIED. WITH A HUMAN!!! the point is. erik "moves on" bc he was in love with charles but never told him, and he does love magda in his own way, but when he needs to kiss her to save both her and charles - that's his fucking wife of course her kiss is the one he desires the most - and it doesn't work, he's horrified that maybe all the feelings he shoved down in the deepest corner of his mind were still there. that he didn't really move on after all. that this is the way charles will find out.

erik doesn't know what is worse, the look of hurt-resignation in magda's eyes, telling him to just go with it, or the realization-surprise-chock in charles' eyes.

how erik chokes a "this doesn't mean anything" before kissing charles. how he finally knows the way his old friend tastes. oh my god the passion, the desperation. it was supposed to be a quick kiss but he >>>cant<<< stop, the way charles' tongue feels curled around his own is so so so good, the way he can feel charles melting as the vines slowly slide down his body.

when there's no air left and the vines are knee-high, erik pulls away harshly, turning his back as he takes deep breaths. he can't stand to look at neither of them in the eyes. their way home is really, really awkward.

but the thing is, that unlocks something in charles. even tho he loves erik and knows erik has a special place in his heart, he never really thought about them this way. even if he had heard people's thoughts about him and erik and how they would suspect if there was something more going on between them. he never grasped at the possibility that maybe erik had feelings for him. of having this type of relationship with erik. it was just not something he had put any thought. and after the kiss, it is like he's seeing erik in a new light.

he simply can't stop being aware of erik and how his body reacts when erik is close. he can't stop the way his mouth dries or the fidget of his fingers. erik didn't even give him the chance to talk about what happened, he just asked (almost begged) charles to forget about the kiss and how he hoped it wouldn't change anything between them. charles agreed, because of course he would!! and now they're both walking on eggshells around each other, trying to pretend there's not an astronomical tension between them. until charles can't take this anymore and kisses erik.

erik has the audacity to look surprised. like he can't believe charles would want him.

just think about the slow and sensual make-out session they'd have. charles letting out these tiny noises, almost making love with eriks lips. erik pining charles against the wall. grinding their hips against each other.

someone please write this!!!

[identityquest]

old oc i've never posted, she was once a princess kidnapped by the demon lord but she took his job when he turned his back

[pomribs]

hiii ty for the tag!! im so nosy i love hearing about people and this is such a cute lil game <3

last song: twilight by stray kids, im having a serious kpop moment rn i dont wanna talk abt it

favourite colour: green and purple, although these colours only really became my favourite when everyone in my life started associating me w them so do w that info what u will :^)

last book: this is how you lose the time war! did a very bad job reading it took me way too long for such a short book and i dont think i even finished the last few chapters now its been sitting collecting stains on my table for months now and i havent picked up a book since. erm

last movie: so glad i own a letterboxd or id have no idea, shiva baby!! rachel sennott is so funny guys

last game: minecraft actually, played it again for the first time since literally 2020 and omg my mind is blown. theres so much stuff now??? im on a quest to get all the new wolf variants so thatll keep me occupied for a while lol :3

last show: moral orel AGAIN. it was unintentional but i accidentally got my friend into it and watching her watch it made me miss it so now im rewatching and im probably gonna spiral into sinister mental turmoil but fuck it we ball

relationship: single? ish? and yearning hard next question

sweet/spicy/savoury: sweet till i die i will always have the biggest sweet tooth im actually trying to cut down on chocolate rn bc its getting to be a lot

last internet search: dave portnoy. didnt know who he was so i googled and im still none the wiser. absolutely rancid vibes tho do not trust him at alllllll

Getting To Know You Tag Game - thanks for tagging me @agentnatesewell !!

Last Song: lovesong by the cure! but now im listening to seventeen so. bit of musical whiplash

Favorite Color: YELLOWWW i love yellow. there are very few shades of yellow that i don’t like it’s just the perfect color. but purple, red, and orange are tied for close seconds

Last Book: uhhhhhhh. i really do not know. i think i reread the hobbit last year…that’s the closest one i can remember 😅 i was a major reader as a kid but i lost it as an adult i really gotta get back to that

Last Movie: i watched the taking of deborah logan with my brothers last night….spooky

Last Game: i downloaded the sims 4 last night but didn’t get to play it lol so i think the last one was dragon age origins when i was introducing my little brother to it the other day

Last Show: the last show i watched all the way through was arcane a few months ago but ive jumped around here and there rewatching episodes of shows i loved before like supernatural and ted lasso and the magicians isn’t that such an unfortunate list.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: SWEET my sweet tooth is out of control it has been described as “grotesque” by others in my life. i love all things sweet

Relationship: polycule with me myself and i

Last Internet Search: the list of sims 4 mods i use lol

Tagging: idk who to tag omg sorry if you’ve already done it/been tagged!! no pressure at all to do it!! @tevivinter @serenpedac @lalizah @trebuchet151 @thesecollidinghearts @bizzren @thurs-days and anyone else who wants to!! i love getting to know my mutuals hehe

[oifaaa]

Realising that my idea of what it means to be in a fandom might be a little skewed so help me out here what is your baseline qualification for being part of a fandom

[baeshijima]

u know what would be a cool genshin fic idea? isekai/transmigrated reader, but instead of appearing within the general timeline, you come into the genshin world 500 years prior to the start of the storyline in khaenri'ah.

honestly it could be either a little before the cataclysm, giving enough time to delve into some relationship building + explore some world building with characters like dainsleif, traveller's sibling (which would probably be lumine bc i actually do like her as abyss sibling & aether as traveller), and npcs like halfdan (still crying over him to this day ;w;) and possibly the khaenri'ahn royal guards (assuming you either join them or have a good enough relationship with them), OR it could be you appear during the crisis, completely and utterly lost as to why you were brought amidst the chaos and bloodshed as you watch everything you barely knew about this nation crumble before your very eyes.

either route will still result in reader's existential crises and constant "why am i here? just to suffer?" monologues because really, who would be fine after going through that after coming from /our/ world? and not to mention you've had to endure the next 500 years wandering with no real set path because you don't know this world— this era of teyvat or of genshin. you're merely stuck, unable to die, and forced to live a life of uncertainty with no clear direction for you to go to.

despite it all, you've at least been able to see dain during this course. while your meetings pass far too quickly for your lonesome, and his solemn demeanour is something you're yet to be accustomed to after having been with him before the fall of khaenri'ah (assuming it's the route where you appear before the cataclysm), you're glad to see a familiar face every now and then. after the messy departure with the lumine who left for the abyss order, you've come to appreciate his quiet presence more and more each time.

and then you decide it might be time to settle. you soon realise it's difficult to do so when your lifespan has become far more than that of a human's — of a mortal's — and so you find yourself becoming used to staying in one place for a few years before setting off for the next. rinse and repeat. over and over. it's come to a point where you've witnessed the nations undergo various changes each time you visit. you know change is inevitable, and yet your heart stings each time you witness it; a testament to how the world is ever-changing, yet you're stuck in place as a bystander.

one thing you're grateful for, however, are the bonds you've established amid your back-and-forth over the centuries. from archons like zhongli and venti to long-life beings such as neuvillette and the adepti to regular mortals who have showed you kindness as if one of their own... you've grown to cherish those memories, often reminiscing them when the nights get too long and surroundings too quiet. it was difficult at first, and still is, but you've become used to the inevitable change and the passing of those you once knew.

and after 500 years, you find yourself face-to-face with one you haven't seen since before you appeared in this world; the protagonist of this world, and the one you eventually join in hopes of finally finding a means to an end, aether.

little side notes/extras:

from /our/ world, you would probably know the storyline from up to around current (5.0) or maybe a little after the fontaine aq conclusion. it gives a lot to work with, but you definitely won't remember a lot of the lore after so long other than some main events, especially since most of your knowledge is pretty irrelevant for the next 500 years,,,

i think it would be cool if you had an inteyvat on your person as a little homage of khaenri'ah, which may or may not invoke some opinions from certain characters (*cough* aether immediately being reminded of lumine and having an existential crisis *cough*)

post-cataclysm you would go through a, uhm, long phase of helplessness, wondering why you were even brought to this world so far back if you couldn't even make any contributions. it does eventually morph into a resolution to do what you can to help those you come across if it's within your capabilities, but the nightmares and helplessness come back every now and then as a reminder for what you can't do :D yippee :D

honestly i'm on the fence whether you would have a vision or some other type of abilities (think on the similar lines of aether/lumine's and dain's), but i think having some type of purification mechanic would be a must in your arsenal !! would definitely lead to some moments between you and characters like dain or zhongli who suffer from the erosion as you give them a slight reprieve from what rages within and corrodes them

a little self indulgent, but i'd like to think your first /proper/ meeting with zhongli happens during a lantern rite festival, wherein you're admiring the lanterns in the sky after making a wish of your own and he comes up from behind with "they're beautiful, wouldn't you say so?" and !!

also as for love interests, as much as i would love for human/mortal characters, a part of me feels like this story would be better suited for the immortal/long-life characters as love interests?? idk i feel like considering that 500 years is, well, a long time, the bonds you would have with them compared to characters like, say, alhaitham or diluc would be way too different ?? though i would definitely still add them as love interest bc i am a sucker for so many of the human characters ;w; it would also add to the angst and hurt/comfort ahahha...

anyway thank you for reading this massive brain dump of a fic bc i absolutely would put this as a long term project, and if u made it this far then i would like to say that dain solos—

[bananonbinary]

as a certified Diagnosed Autist(TM) i cannot stress enough that i am not only pro- self-diagnosis, but also pretty anti- legal medical diagnosis. it is, at best, a cruel hoop we have to jump through so privileged people will deign to give us what we need. don't fucking do that shit unless you have to, it was disgustingly expensive, fucking humiliating, infantilizing, and dehumanizing, and would probably actively cause problems in my life if i didn't have some really good allistic (-passing) people in my corner and also wasn't so fucking disabled that it mostly doesn't matter.

literally get that diagnosis if you need it for job/school accessibility shit or SSI or whatever, and otherwise dont tell the government SHIT about yourself. there is zero good reason for them to want that information. that's between you and the people you want in your life.

[puppppppppy]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[milfygerard]

i still posit thered be way less inter-swiftie drama if we all stopped writing conspiracy theories and started making short-form psychoanalytical fiction writing exercises like a normal fucking fandom

[lemongogo]

[reel-fear]

Genuinely so curious who Mike thinks is gonna be buying The Cage or the new DCTL GN bc with the way he tweets as far as he's concerned, it's not gonna be:

The queer people he has actively admitted he will never show any representation of in the games.

2. The POC he has actively fought against representing in his franchise. [Who he also mocked for thinking they would be represented in his franchise]

3. The Bendy fandom which has always been concerned with topics of diversity esp in the sense of queer people since its creation. Who he has responded to really poorly esp in regards to the GN.

4. The fans who critique him. [He blocked me for doing so lol]

5. His fans in general who he tweets about like this currently. [He's being vague about why people were mad at him or sent him 'nasty messages' because if you actually looked into why you'd see he was in the wrong. Either way, a very hateful way to speak abt ur own fanbase.]

Reminder while Mike is trash talking his fans he has always treated them rather poorly. The fans who won the fanart contest for Chapter 5 never got their posters actually in game due to it being rushed. Not only was chapter 5 a big slap to the face story wise, but it was literally so rushed he couldn't be bothered to add in the art his fans gave him for his game FOR FREE. [Meatly blames this on a crazy timeline, reminder him and Mike are the literal ceos of this company. The proposal of future updates here is also pretty cruel considering Mike nowadays happily admits he corrupted Chapter 5's source code and therefore literally can't update it At All currently. Because he is a moron]

At least they got to be in Boris and the dark survival, and by that I mean that was the Only game they got to be in so far, isn't that just treating your fans like you love them? Shoving their hard work into a spin off game almost nobody has played or addresses much. [Hell, who knows if with the Lone Wolf rebrand they'll even stay there. In which case they'll be in None of the games, only in the credits of BATIM]

6. The Bendy fans who just generally disagree with him on stuff. Like the new ink demon design where there is literally a public poll showing people generally prefer the old one.

7. The Bendy fans who can see he is actively lying to them. To their fucking faces.

He says this has always been the case, but screenshots and links to tweets regarding the books being canon prove it was not. Does he really think bendy fans are stupid or something? [Unless he's admitting here he lied to Kress when he told her the books were canon which sounds worse!]

8. Anyone who doesn't like the idea of giving money to a guy who laid off tons of employees then afterwards thought it was a great idea to express his anti-union views! Also brag about how good of an employer he was, according to his employees, he was not!

So in summary; Mike is an awful person who has not learned anything from the awful things he did. I will not be purchasing The Cage because, combined with this and his absolute refusal to take any kind of critique or see any differing interpretation of his franchise, I have no reason to think my problems with the franchise will ever be addressed or fixed. I probably will pirate The Cage along with any future Bendy Products [Including the movie] and will do my best to avoid giving it any kind of monetary support. Unless this changes any time soon, I can't see myself making anymore positive Bendy posts soon.

Mike has just managed to make it so hard to speak positively or optimistically of this franchise when he's so willing to broadcast how little he cares about it or its fans. I'm at the point where I refuse to pull any of my punches with my problems with it. What's the point of trying to play nice with my critique when either way the people creating it don't care?

So with this post, I want to invite anyone who feels similarly about the franchise to tell me, make a post or send an ask talking about how all of this makes you feel. It may not change how things are, but genuinely seeing other people share my feelings of anger makes me feel better. It feels nice to see when other people share our same concerns and worries. I'd also love to know if anyone else thinks they'll be avoiding purchasing Bendy products over this.

I'm not forcing anyone to participate in it nor trying to say anyone who doesn't supports mike but genuinely maybe if we can collectively decide to boycott things like the movie, graphic novel and The Cage... It might at least make the bendy devs acknowledge how much they have destroyed their own fandom's faith and trust in them.

The way Mike tweets about his actions like he had no control over why people were mad at him at least proves to me he takes NONE of it back nor regrets it. If you didn't know about his actions and only went off his tweets, you would be led to believe Mike has been needlessly picked apart by fans over things he couldn't control [or in his own words, had his words twisted and taken out of context]. That is not how you speak about your actions if you have actually learned better from them.

anyway, that has been my bendy dev callout post. This is an open invitation to anyone feeling similarly upset about the way the franchise is going to talk about it. It's genuinely nice to see how people feel about this and the more we talk about the more it's likely the bendy devs are forced to address our concerns. I don't think they will but hey, that's why I'm not gonna support them with my money anymore nor am I gonna be nice to them in any content I make critiquing Bendy. I mean I'm also basically making this post just in case anyone asks me Why I feel this way towards to bendy devs/as a way to respond to anyone who thinks I am too harsh in my critique in the future.

As always, it seems the best part of Bendy isn't actually anything about canon but about what the fan's are creating with the ideas Bendy failed to do anything interesting with.

Also the books, the books slap.

[dartalias]

Kyoshi novels AU but it just providing Kuruk's team two brain cells and the people of Kyoshi's era comunication skills

[tomwambsmilk]

fr tho @staff why are you trying to make tumblr more like other sites why are you destroying your niche in the market please there have got to be ways to make tumblr more accessible to new users without sacrificing the very things that your existing userbase loves

[lelianaslefthand]

while i am having fun there are So many parts of veilguard that are for lack of a better term, cringe, to listen to. like the devs kept saying how they wanted it to be enjoyable for new players but sometimes its like they're catering to people that dont know what a video game is. why are the characters in game repeatedly saying that everyone needs to work through their personal issues before main questlines. every character therapy speaks it feels so out of place. maybe i just miss everyone being unhinged like in da2 (and being aware of their flaws but dealing with them in, my opinion, more realistic ways) idk. everyone is too self aware its very weird to me

[isa-ah]

met a really cool queer stranger today that i thought was just so fucking neat i wanted to talk but if we were playing tennis they were, with the most gentle and earnest voice ive ever heard, shoving the tennis racket down my throat. every compliment or joke i made was turned away but in the sweetest way possible that made me sound like an absolute asshole lunatic. it was so scary.