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I hate the stretch lines in the front of Curly's uniform because that means the devs rushed to make a model in like a month or so and thought "They gotta at least know he has huge knockers, gotta know he's got back pain." Cause like what is the thematic importance of his tits having overhang?
What responsibility is that representing? Breast reduction? It shows an inherent greed in his character due to the excess and heshouldletmeholdone and that he clearly is blinded cause if he tries to look down his damn ladder all he's seeing is his own cleavage.
#this is my curly slander post ig#disclaimer i need you to understand i see all fictional men i like as like butches Curly is no exception#but like they didnt need to add that many polygons to his chest like its unnessary and honestly a little mean he already has so many things#to handle and you expect him to hold those boys up like that just aint right this is like something so stupid but i know you can tell im#having strong feelings about it cause like what was the point why did they survive the fucking crash it has to be a injoke at this point#with the devs it shouldnt make me this mad im turning into a misandrist but only towards large chested men#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#shitpost#suggestive#ig because this is just about his chest but like also they made him objectively pretty for no reason like yeah like ideal man and work ig#but they went over the extra mile like i have a right to be mad they did that much for a model we see canonically for like two seconds its#crazy actually how little we see of curly pre crash because we also lose his physical movements to help characterize him the way we see#body language with the other characters and how it gives way to their struggles and personalities and sentiments in certain moments#like all he does and how he emotes is stifled by the fact we always play as him until the last moments where he takes over to try and save#the ship and crew and even right before that the scene is so wrought with tension we cant tell what that look he gave Jimmy meant due to#the limitations of the models and how stiff Curly is like was it fear acceptance denial we dont know enought about how he acts himself#to tell and then everything else is charaterized by what Jimmy had done to where we dont really just get to see Curly as himself like Anya#and Swansea and Daisuke we have no idea how theyd act in a regular moment outside of a few glimpses and even then it is them doing#their jobs like grrrr we hate an unreliable narrator but also its the fact jimmy clearly does not interact with them or try to outside of#his position as copilot and then captain harkening back to the entire capitlist view of utility and how he views all of them as useless eve#Curly which fandom tangent the fandom also tends to do to Curly as they base every trait on what they think he failed to do as Captain#between Jimmy and Anya when the QnAs kinda make him out to be a rather open and willing person but still someone who isnt like a push over#just thinking of QnA three where it mentions hes very open to trying new things and you need to be an open minded person to open urself up#to failure like that and ig this is just the weird view that Curly needs to learn that or that theres redemption he needs personality wise#verses healing and learning from trauma like idk its the idea that people assume he did abosultely nothing when the games points out direct#and throught parallels he was taking actions its just wasnt enough and an over focus on absolute inaction vs ineffective methods used to#tackle the issues and themes the game grapples with plus wanting someone to take the blame and have to make it up to Anya even tho#i think it would mean nothing from Curly because she saw his efforts and would be disappointed it wasnt enough but the idea she would#disregard the attempts or not acknoweldge Jimmy as the epicenter compared ot Curly is weird and too focused on someone
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i know i said i was happy about how mel's story went, but the more i think about it the less i'm sure about that. this is very much connected to how the themes of classism and wealth disappeared in s2, but mel in the beginning was the epitome of piltover. she wanted to advance piltover to prove herself to her mother. to "put piltoverā" and by extension herself, "āon the map."
she wanted wealth just to have it. and i'm not blaming her for anything that happened, especially with hextech! she, just like jayce and viktor, could not have known what it would lead to. i mean yeah heimerdinger said so but who the hell listens to heimerdinger? but anyway i think mel changed throughout s1, much in thanks to jayce. by the end she's become more cognisant of the mistreatment of zaunites. she's the first to vote for their peace. she was a good person all along but now she knows how to act on it. it's also seen more in s2 act 1. when she covers her painting with gold, it's symbolicāshe won't act according to what her mother might think. she won't let her desire for approval dictate her anymore.
so somehow i wish those themes were. continued, somehow? like again they were dropped not just with mel but the whole show and it makes her story a off to me. there's no meaningful commentary on war or classism or how her ideology stands opposite to her mother's. like some people have said, it feels like she doesn't have much agency, even if she is really cool. and that to me is a shame because agency felt like her thing. "to shape your own destiny" as she says to jayce in s1. i know her collaborating with the black rose (but not fully joining them) and learning magic is supposed to represent becoming independent from her mother, taking her own path, but some other aspects of her character were thrown away... the more i think about it the more i'm thinking they kind of #girlboss-ed her a little bit. maybe to sell another champion. i can't help but feel like even though i enjoyed seeing her on screen, the payoff didn't feel proportionally satisfying compared to her setup in s1.
#mel medarda#her characteristics; the whole point of her dichotomy with her mom;#is that she does not use violence. she fights and controls with words.#with her intelligence. with her knowledge of people and their minds.#so now thinking about it i'm a little :/ that not only#did we not get to see a lot of that in s2#but she just. became another fighter?#i also know there was that whole thing about how mages aren't accepted in noxus but#honestly? kind of stupid. magic violence is still violence.#and i know arcane retcons a lot of things but.#the lore noxus. was not like that iirc. and it feels like a strange thing to just make up.#done in service just to make mel a Cool Badass Mageā¢ while still saying#hey guys! she's still different from her mom don't worry!#also. hey. hey. why is she going back to noxus. can someone to explain that to me#like ok i know it's her only connection left. i kinda understand.#but at the same time...? what. is she gonna do there#i know sevimel is a crackship but i kinda wished she stayed in piltover to help#better things for zaunites. and help sevika on the council#(god knows she needs it)#that might have been a fitting conclusion to her character. to me!#look i cant lie and say i hated watching mel be all badass like. she's awesome.#but character writing wise... kind of let down?#we didn't even get to know more about her past or where she's from.#and yes i know they're prolly going to explain it in the new show because they were noxusbaiting hard.#but man... i don't know...#sorry holy shit that's a lot of words.#if anyone has any opinions would love to hear them. still very conflicted on this whole thing.#it just feels like i'm missing something.#arcane
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the sad thing about hazbin is that its such a good concept but the more and more you think about it the more it falls apart just entirely. cause ive been thinking about the angels and heaven and hell and it just... doesnt make sense. if the angels are 'bad grrrr evil' why do you want to send your people there? who's to say that they won't be treated badly there? what about the people that they'e harmed there? how would they feel about seeing their potential killers/bullies in heaven? isnt the point of heaven knowing that theres no one bad there? the world isnt black and white, they had chances while they were alive to do good right? why should they get a third one after they realize the consequences? isn't that unfair? is there a point where they can't be redeemed any longer? is there a limit to redemption? what about hilter? could he hypothetically be redeemed by the hotel? they cant turn sinners away so theyd have to accept him right? what about valentino? how would angel feel about that? why are we so focused on sera approving the extermination when she was doing it to protect heaven but not lucifer who didnt give a shit about hell until his daughter talked him into it? why does he get a pass? is it because of that one framing with fire in sera's eyes? what if you put that in lucifers eyes? would people try to justify him?
it just... crumbles and i know they didnt have a lot of time but like... come on. i dont hate vivzipop at all in fact i really do like hazbin but i can only like it to a surface level is the problem. if i dig deeper than it crumbles and thats... not fun. i like helluva boss and personally... i think its better than hazbin it has such better writing despite being in the same universe but those concerns dont really apply because guess what? theyre never brought up.
anyways yeah... i hate that i cant truly appreciate hazbin without running into complications
#hazbin hotel#critisism#vivziepop#hazbin#hazbin criticism#vivzipop critical#dont get me wrong#i think shes a good writer#but this is not her best#like at all#i wanna enjoy this so badly but...#its so hard to
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Recently read All New Wolverine #6 and found out Gabby has kids.
And she named them Logan and Wade.
Our boys' legacy will live on forever. She admits that they are huge handfuls and Laura bassically says "what did you expect?"
And I can't stop thinking about how from the day Wade met Gabs, They were quote "Best friends" end quote.
Like this girl is somehow this mans daughter. "Oh because adoption?" Literally no. And this can be taken as "Wade acts childish" OR Iykyk-
Gabby is exactly how Logan would have behaved minus the truama and if he was raised/ accepted with the knowledge of his claws.
Our boy Logan fits with Wade so much because they are so similar it is unreal. So to see Wade so quick to help Gabby and support her through the craziest of ideas (COUGH "dont tell your sister" COUGH) Not because hes "her friend" but because he knows that Logan is stubborn ASF and if someone dosn't go with this little murder munchkin- someones gonna get hurt. And he'll be damned if its her.
This is actually so beautiful too because while they both can heal, you have "Im in pain 24/7 so this is nothing to me." and "I CAN'T feel pain so I need someone to make sure I dont push myself too far"
Everyone says how Laura is copy and paste of Logan (no duh, they were both extremely abused, experimented on, and were raised to be tough) but no one talks about how Gabby literally has Wade's batshit crazy smile. How Wade HANDS her matches and sits to watch the fire with her. How Wade doesn't tattle on her because he wants her to trust him, and he knows he won't let anything happen to her. How Wade GIVES her chloroform(!??) And tells her it would be irresponsible to NOT give her something to knock someone out if she feels introuble?
Logan can have Laura. He can argue with her all he wants. Wade and Gabs are gonna go play paintball and then get ice cream. WITH sprinkles.
This being said, I think Laura struggles to connect with Wade the same way Gabby does. I think Gabby doesn't struggle to connect with Logan, though, because of how instictivly paternal he is and the fact that he can see tiny innocent James inside Gabrielle.
They are all so over protective of Gabby and it makes me feel sorry for when she gets a boyfriend.... can you imagine trying to have a study date with a girl when both her father AND her sister is the fucking Wolverine? And on top of that her other papa is a phycopathic maniac that will infact throw you off a 10 story building if you make his little girl cry, scrape you off the concrete and throw you in a blender, bake you into a pie, and feed you to your parents...
IM SORRY SHE NAMES THEM WADE AND LOGAN!? THATS SO FUCKING ADORABLE!? MY HEART CANT TAKE IT! Also, no idea if they are in the comic or if it shows how they act, but headcannoning that Logan is the batshit crazy one this time and Wade is the more chilled one, purely because that is really funny in my head?
And Wade is like- so good with kids? Noone ever mentions it, but he really is. Yeah, okay, in his own insane Wade Way (that should be a trademark), but Deadpool 2 is literally him helping a kid because he sees this traumatised abused boy that he NEEDS to help. Someone no one else wants to give a chance, and here Wade is, literally taking him under his wing and protecting him every second.
I've seen some of the panels with him and Gabby (I need to actually read the comics but jesus, there are so many?), and he is so so adorable. The fact he just instantly (similar to Russel in the movie, not exactly the same obviously, but ya know) decides "this is my kid now. I will protect them with everything I can. No one will ever hurt them again." is just- so heartwarming and people don't appreciate it enough!!
I think the girls would definitely struggle to connect to Wade alot because I feel like Wade is ALWAYS the funny, happy dad? He wouldn't want his girls to see him hurt or upset or anything else, so he's always making jokes and bring dramatic, while Logan is the more serious one who you can talk to about anything.
Also, Wade being the overly supportive dad is so fitting. He's stood there filming Gabby just doing something EXTREMELY illegal like "you're doing great sweetie!" and after he is getting her any snack she wants to treat her for doing a good job.
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interesting insight op! Iād like to add my two cents:
Would it be possible that okarun and aira both āinheritā the attitudes or personalities of the yokai whose powers they borrow? for instance under acrobatic silkyās influence, aira uses significantly more formal speech and is (at least at first) more settled into her skin, more comfortable with who she is. Iām inclined to believe that airaās ongoing shtick of āi must save the world because Iām a beautiful young girlā stems from the desire to prove herself. She is very assertive and constantly tries to establish her importance in the group (going with okarun to train, calling herself the āleaderā). Even among her social circles at school, prior to chiquitta/loch ness fight, she is the person everyone follows. The mangaka has yet to expand on this quality of hers since sheās gained her powers, but I believe its pretty obvious that aira is very self conscious about how other people see her. Despite her appearances she seems insecure.
On the contrary acrobatic silky seems to refer to herself in a ādiminutiveā way. She refers to okarun as ātakakura-samaā, implying a sort of obedience and subservience to okarun, the object of her affections. This is in stark contrast to the pseudo kiss scene,where she confesses and pushes okarun for an acceptance in a very assertive way.
i theorise that this is due to acrobatic silkyās experience with men and the way she takes a very passive role in her life. From what we glimpse of her, her outward demeanour could not be more different from aira.
Hence: the formal speech. The assured way acrobatic silky aira faces life could also stem from yokai acrobatic silkyās nature as both a mother and a mature woman. I donāt recall any traits in acrobatic silky aira the way okarunās protectiveness of momo is heightened, but i might have just missed something!
Which brings us to okarun. Turbo baba okarun is, as op has already established, nihilistic and pessimistic to a debilitating degree. At the same time he discards all formality and is incredibly protective of what he cherishes: jijiās wish to be friends with the evil eye and of course ayase momo.
Does this not sound similar to yokai turbo baba? Her protectiveness of the girls who died untimely and injust deaths, the kitten she adopts in the outtakes. Turbo baba is abrasive and demeans others, while taking care of them reluctantly in her own way. I could even argue that the land godās loneliness (recall the way it pleas momokarun to give turbo baba back and how it chases them across a city to do so?) amplifies the loneliness okarun already felt in his formative years prior to dandadan, resulting in the āthatās depressing, yoā personality.
so going by acrobatic silky airaās persona acting as a contrast to airaās real personality courtesy of yokai acrobatic silky, the same theory could be applied to turbo baba okarun. They share the trait of being protective of people/things they cherish, but the similarities end there. Okarun has trouble expressing himself but is painfully genuine, while turbo baba hides her feelings not unlike a dragon with its inverse scale. Okarun maintains his boundaries with others by being formal and polite, but turbo baba seeks to intrude that space with insults.
Turbo baba okarun inherits her tendency to impose on otherās comfort zones yet retains his kindness, so he addresses momo and aira more familiarly and affectionately than he would normally. But since they share the same trait of skepticism (in okarunās case, the impression that he is somehow less deserving of momoās friendship than she his) and protectiveness, it turns into pessimism and turbo baba okarun hiding his insecurity behind āIām too tiredā and āi cant do anythingā.
tldr: the personalities and attitudes of yokai are inherited alongside their powers! Which may open another opportunity for examining why their personalities are paired up the way they are and what purpose it serves in developing their powers! And also: why is momo the only one with āinherentā powers?
So a common headcanon/theory Iāve seen floating around is that when Okarun shifts into his yokai form, the personality shift he undergoes is representative of a ātruerā inner self. I can see the line of logic that led to this, but the more thought Iāve put into it, the less Iāve agreed with the premise. And Iāve put so much thought into it at this point that itās had to become its own whole post separated from the analysis it was originally a part of, so strap in.
Disclaimer: if this is your personal headcanon, Iām not here to try to prove you wrong or make you change your mind, Iām more so discussing this from the theory side of things and what I think will happen as the manga continues. Also slight manga spoilers for up to chapter 172 !!
So as the theory goes, the personality that comes out when Okarunās transformed is a more genuine version of himself, where his yokai form removes his anxieties and allows him to act more confidently and openly show the depression and pessimism thatās lived in him the whole time. On a surface level this tracks, as being in this form does make him more confident, blunt, and he completely drops the formal way he speaks to people, going so far as to adopt a cute nickname for Momo.
I donāt think this fully makes sense for a number of reasons, though. Firstly is that throughout all 175 chapters that are currently out, I canāt recall any moments where Okarun ever acts in a way that would hint at his real inner workings reflecting the personality and behavior that come out when he is transformed. I could have missed something, of course, but when so much of Momo and Okarunās relationship is built on them being their genuine selves around the other (more on that in this great video I saw), Iām inclined to believe that there isnāt going to be another shoe to drop nearly 200 chapters in.
To explain my other reasoning, Iām going to have to go into a little bit of a side tangent about Aira, and first I want to establish why I think comparing Okarun to her in this instance makes sense. So up until the cursed diorama arc, the only character that really has comparable yokai related powers to Okarun is Aira. They acquire these powers in different ways, and Seiko says Okarun has Turbo Grannyās āspiritual powerā, whereas Acro-Silky says she gave Aira her āaura.ā Given the contexts of the scenes these are said in I would assume they are meant to be two different concepts, however itās not ever explicitly stated or shown how the difference there affects them or their yokai abilities, so I am treating them as functionally the same thing for this analysis. Regardless, the similarity between them seems to be that in one way or another, they have been left with the spiritual energy of their respective yokai, which allows them to transform in very similar ways. Their transformations affect them both physically in making them taller and stronger, as well as their personalities, with Okraun becoming less formal overall, and Aira becoming more formal in the way she addresses people.
Even though they are affected by their transformations in very similar ways, I havenāt seen any kind of headcanon or theory that the way Aira behaves while transformed is how she truly is or feels, which makes perfect sense considering her first character arc. From when sheās introduced, sheās shown to have a dynamic with Momo, Okarun, and her other peers at school, where even before sheās able to use Acro-Silkyās abilities, sheās pretty two faced. In chapter 51, Momo even says, āThereās our Aira!ā when she and Okarun pull Aira away from her class and she immediately shifts to her more snarky attitude towards Momo. The manga makes it quite clear that the way she acts at school, and on occasion towards Okarun, is an act, and that her genuine personality is a little nasty and rude (which she is loved for! By other characters and audience members of taste). And with that established, of course no one put that much emphasis on how her behavior changes when sheās using Acro-Silkyās powers. Sheās still the same person, her mannerisms and the way she speaks are just altered slightly, which is also pretty much how I feel about Okarunās yokai form.
That being said, I donāt want to fully dismiss that the shifted personality could mean something, and in fact I wouldnāt be surprised if Okarun did still have some repressed feelings and pessimism from his time growing up without any friends, but at the current point in the story Iām not sure if I could see that being shown explicitly tied to his yokai form. As of chapter 165, Okarun gets his final ball back, and as per his end of the deal, he returned Turbo Grannyās spiritual power to her, and she left with them and hasnāt made an appearance since. Okarun no longer has access to his yokai form, but at this point heās surrounded by friends, heās confessed his feelings to Momo, and heās even grown physically strong enough to hold his own in a fight without any powers. As far as what weāve been shown, Okarun has developed and his life has changed so much that he doesnāt really have any of those reasons to be a pessimistic downer that he had before the events of the series. Not to say he has no reasons to be sad, of course, we still havenāt been given even a hint of what his family and home life is like, and I expect something will happen with that eventually. But with where the story has gone so far, I donāt see this theory being true or narratively compelling.
TLDR: Thereās not much evidence going for this theory, and several things against it, so I personally donāt see it going anywhere in the canon series. The way Okarun acts and the feelings he expresses in his yokai form could still potentially mean something, so I won't completely dismiss it, but with where the story is currently I donāt think this theory being true would add much or be a compelling element of the plot.
#Spoilers up to end of kintama arc#my knowledge is also up to kintama arc because i want to wait for pygmy)?) princess arc to finish and read it in one go#so if any character dynamics have changed i apologise for my ignorance!#ddd#i also saw this on momokarun disco hhh look forward to your other analyses!#and thanks to op for putting to words what has been irking me in the dandadan en fandom
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i also donāt want to portray myself as faultless. my work isnāt ai and it isnāt copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isnāt good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.
so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.
never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and donāt remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?
nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.
i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.
my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.
#im going to fking throw up this is the last time i will ever say this#do not come begging to be for another apology i am done#i will never address this issue again okay#i need to say this because no matter what when i see people supporting me now i feel guilty#i recognize it is just because i hate myself#it is because i havent accepted i made mistakes#but i cant accept it because people cant accept it#i cant accept it and i cant move on#and that is why i think its best to leave art#i cant make work i am proud of anymore#i dont want to list names of artists#but i will say that when king chris reposted my work without credit i viewed it the same as when i referenced other artists work#but there was no callout no request even from the comments for credit#and he has millions of followers#i felt like i could not stand up for myself because i have this history#because of this history i can never properly defend myself i feel i must always kneel to it#even though i have changed and realized i was wrong i still have to acknowledge it always
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never change, man !
#phantom of the paradise#potp#swan potp#nightmaretheater#65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp#Look into my beautiful mind boy#Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw#but i had to push a specific look for this piece#hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look#Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan#I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistalā¦. it lead him to be Like That#as awful as he is he desperately needed help#it might seem like vanity on the surface#but i think itsā¦ more than that#long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry#It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again#i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems#he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away#anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal#sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick#i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad#*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha#sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please#adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse#to remind himself what he āāāāreallyāāāā looks like#the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this#sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol
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hot take ??
the only reason people say that "mafuyu and tsukasa have nothing in common" when presented with mafukasa parallels is because they equate mafuyu and tsukasa being similar to "tsukasa has depression" because the fandom equates mafuyu's personality to being depressed and nothing else.
it doesn't help that people (primarily younger people in the fandom) who DO believe in mafukasa parallels end up making the mistake of portraying tsukasa as depressed because as of right now he is not (although it's possible he was in past because of his Very Unclear Middle School Backstory but that's irrelevant)
anyways, mafuyu and tsukasa are narrative foils because their core personalities are built off of the concept of wanting to make the people around themā especially their familiesā happy.
they both developed personalities at a young age based on someone they looked up to. for tsukasa, it was seiichi amami's performance that inspired him to be a starā a hero that could cheer anyone up. for mafuyu, it was her mother taking care of her that inspired her to be a nurseā and you can see the similarities from there.
for mafuyu, her identity would first come into conflict when her mother expressed her want for mafuyu to be a doctorā suddenly, "everyone's" happiness didn't match what she wanted to do, leaving her in a state of disorder and eventual depression.
for tsukasa, his identity was something he nearly forgot in its entirety at the start of the main storyā becoming arrogant and fully absorbed in a hero persona, forgetting the kind person he truly is. furthermore, his current character arc seems to be foreshadowing that what "being a star" to him is going to be called into questionā maybe it is something more than just being the main character that saves everyone.
their insecurities are incredibly similar.
in mafuyu's first mixed, mafuyu feels insecure towards ichika because unlike ichika, she feels as if her lyrics have no genuine meaning to be expressed to other peopleā despite them being her very real feelings. this is brought up again in her second mixed as well.
in tsukasa's third focus event, something similar happens. when watching seiichi's performance, he thinks that his acting is "real" and feels inferior towards him, which is ironic because tsukasa has been method acting this whole time. when tsukasa is acting out rio or bartlett or really anyone at this point in the story, it's not just those charactersā it's a reflection of his traumas.
just like mafuyu, tsukasa undermines his passions he's poured his feelings into because someone else's work is more genuine in his eyes.
now, then, foils have many similarities and parallels (and i could honestly list a lot more), but how i define them is that they usually have some kind of major branching difference that MAKES them foils.
for mafuyu and tsukasa it's pretty straightforward.
mafuyu's people pleasing behavior comes from external expectations and pressuresā her mother's demands.
tsukasa's people pleasing behavior comes internally, from himselfā if he can't meet his own standards, if he can't be the perfect big brother or the perfect star, then he is nothing.
and even then, there's some overlap.
tsukasa's behavior was indirectly encouraged by his mother praising him for being a "good big brother" over the phone instead of asking him if he was okay while home alone.
mafuyu's terrified to be herself around other people because she doesn't want to worry or bother themā she doesn't want to be a burdenā and projects her mother's expectations onto them, not realizing that they would prefer the real mafuyu if they knew the truth.
and the concept of mafukasa being foils is most perfectly and blatantly portrayed in these two cards.
mafuyu, the marionette, sitting limp on the floorā puppeteered by her mother's demands and donning a mask to hide her true self.
tsukasa, the jester, standing above everything elseā puppeteering silenced plushiesā his feelings. he's not being completely honest with himself, and he doesn't even realize it.
mafuyu has cut her strings and ripped her mask in half. she has acknowledged her true feelings and expressed them to her mother, even if she had to run away in the end.
tsukasa has not yet cut his.
#project sekai#colorful stage#prsk#tsukasa tenma#mafuyu asahina#mafukasa#theres also obvious ones im sure you all know. like how theyre the sole sekai creators#or their designs paralleling eachother (color schemes of their eyes and hair)#or how theyre both connected to the moon and bunnies#and how theyre connected by a piano with a moon design thats only shown up in mafuyus 2nd mixed and tsukasas 2nd mixed... where they had#their first mixed events together#or how they both easily overwork theirselves#or how theyre almost always projecting onto other people as if their experiences are the norm#ex: tsukasa with rui in wonder halloween and mafuyu with niigo in main story#I CAN GO ON ABOUT THIS FOR HOURS AS YOU CAN SEE .#EDIT: HERES SOME MORE THAT I DIDNT REMEMBER AT 12 AM LAST NIGHT#theyre both connected to apples! points at tsukasa in fixer 2dmv and points at mafuyu2#literally all of their vocaloids parallel eachother.#wxs and n25 miku have a childlike sense of curiosity#wxs and n25 rin are based off someone that isnt them for the most part (saki and ena)#wxs and n25 len are both anxious and pessimistic (in island panic... wxs len has a conflicting pov from meiko and wants wxs to just stay in#the sekai instead of being stuck out on an island... which is kinda escapist as hell)#wxs and n25 meiluka have conflicts that are very similar. n25 meiluka represents mafuyus inner conflict between isolating herself and#helping everyone because she didnt know what would be better#and wxs meiluka is the conflict between tsukasas ambition and his fatigue#which is why wxs meiko always acts like wxs luka is a burden whenever she falls asleepā tsukasa himself wont rest#not when he thinks it will burden other people#and wxs and n25 kaito are both driving forces in tsukasa and mafuyu accepting their true feelings#(although tsukasa is kinda not where mafuyu is yet i think you get what i mean)#EDIT: 5/22/24 I CANT ADD ANYMORE TAGS FUCK
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to give myself a little bit of luxury of expressing emotions in my own house (blog) LOL
its always a little sobering to remember that the people that joke with you would joke ABOUT you if they knew just that much more or less about you. when you start talkin one way it sets the precedent that its acceptable with you to do the same, when you start makin somethin normal thats when people start repeatin the same thing over and over...!
i see the private jokes, i see the public jokes, i see the tags and the reblogs and the posts where you censor names and teams. what would somebody else see?
would you believe that the things yall make fun of about players are seen by people it also applies to? its because um. i see jokes about things that im not the most confident about, surprise! ^_^ quite a few things even! even if its something that i dont really care about nowadays, it still. makes me sad a little bit. to remember that things i cant change about me are commonly accepted jokes </3
would yall still respect me if you knew what jokes apply to me? would yall still respect me if we didnt share the same interests?
i dont really think its shallow to. care less about the feelings of someone you dont know. i just think its easier to make fun of people youll never really know or the text on a screen than a human that will react to your words in real time LOL i know you know theres a real life person behind everything, its just hard to internalize that reality sometimes
im the ugliest son of a gun you can imagine . i look like the person youre making fun of . i look like you .
please be nice to me <3
lukewarm take of the day
i think that joking about physical traits isnt funny its just mean </3 strabismus (eyes pointing in different directions) isnt ugly or funny some people just got balls in they sockets. spelling out speech impediments (or speech pediments even!) to point out how funny or weird they say it is mean... sayin peoples facial hair looks like the most evocatively ugly visual thing you can think of is making fun of how the hair follicles in their face. are distributed?
even if the people you talkin about probably wont ever see it... these are physical traits anyone can have . these are even... traits people reading your post are going to have? these arent bad or good traits just traits and makin a point that they arent normal no matter how hard the post makes you laugh is kinda mean to everyone thats gotta pass you by
you can say it not about the looks and its just about the personality, you can say you got the same traits!!! but like. people wake up and put the same skin on one leg at a time every day and no one body is truly unique... no matter how specific you try to be youre goin to be cruel to many people
maybe we should... consider keeping judgement of physical traits to ourselves?
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no one told me that the simone-karl plot from why women kill would rip my heart out and stomp it into little itty bitty pieces
#why women kill#im so late to this#but they mean so much to me#people talk about the beth ann plot being the best but like...#"please youre my best friendā... āits not enoughā#turning into#āi want only you hereā... āyou're the love of my lifeā#but still in a plaTONIC WAY#where simone accepts the reality of their love and puts aside her pride and chooses to show up for karl#because hes her favorite person in the whole wide world even if they dont love each other romantically#and she cant imagine life without him#and then ends up...#and her devoting her life to...#bahhhhh im dead#literally deceased#~~like karl~~
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I am once again thinking about the reluctant ruler whose arc justly and correctly includes assuming the throne and taking responsibility for the people set before them
#it's about simba coming back to pride rock it's about aragorn using andĆŗril to fight for middle earth and assuming the throne it's about#hiccup marrying astrid and assuming his role as chief and moses returning to egypt#and it's about irina loving her people so fully that when she claims all of her subjects as hers that chernobog must release them to her!!!#and it's about miryem choosing to stay with the staryk and repair the damage and assume responsibility for the land and people!!!!!#and! it's! about! gen!!!!#it's ALWAYS about gen!!!!#gen who didn't want to be king. who hated being king and only wanted to marry a queen but who obeyed his gods and became a king over kings#who lost his home and half his family and his HAND but who ushered in a new golden age.#and it's about sophos who ran away but who shot the ambassador and took back his kingdom#it's about duty and it's about sacrifice and it's always ALWAYS about doing the right thing even at great personal cost because it's about#submitting to a power higher than your own. of recognizing that the calling on life is one for serving others and having so much more to#answer for than just yourself. it's knowing duty is love is duty#i cant stand stories where the answer is 'give up the throne and reject your duty' because no!!! you dont get it!!!#thats how you get the monsters!!! thats how you get the prince turned into a beast and thats how you get every terrible weak king that#aragorn feared becoming#to accept your throne is to die to self!!! you are no longer you but 'king' or 'queen'#it's like queen mary says to qeii in the crown 'elizabeth mountbatten must die#elizabeth regina must take her place.'#that's terrifying! but it's also everything!!!!#die! to! self! die! to! self!!!!!!#lilac rambles#lilac goes to the movies#lion king#prince of egypt#lotr#spinning silver#the crown#tqt#the queen's thief#httyd
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cannot decide if this moment in my fic drafts is real as fuck or a category twelve she would not fucking say that moment (for context, she's talking to the cairn maiden and projecting HARD in her grief-wracked rage and self-loathing)
#š#she never swears once in canon which is where most of my hangups lie because i think if anything would push her to itd be#a conversation with death. who rejected her twice over and left her prayers to her unanswered many times more.#also in this moment shes very much spewing an amalgamation of all the cruel words people have used to describe her#so i guess it doesnt matter if *VAL* would say that because its a dozen voices speaking through her own#but still. arghghgh.#yes its supposed to be jarring but i cant tell if its jarring in a good way or a dogshit one#VAL siltverses why is your dialogue style so distinctive and difficult to replicate or at least produce an acceptable substitute of
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[id: a set of eight images from Black Sails. The first image shows Mrs. Hudson speaking to Woodes Rogers, with the text "She said you should trust that her commitment to you remains inviolable." The second image shows Flint and Silver together in Madi's house after her presumed death. The third image shows Eleanor in the fort firing on Rogers' ship, with the text "and that this is no betrayal..." The fourth image shows Flint taking the cache ashore on Skeleton Island, viewed through a spyglass. The fifth image shows Eleanor and Rogers talking in bed, with the text "...but an act of love." The sixth image shows Flint's face during the Dragons speech. The seventh image shows Eleanor lying dead in Flint's arms, with the text "An act she is determined to see through to its end." The eighth image shows Silver pointing a pistol at Flint on Skeleton Island. /end id]
#this parallel absolutely fucking destroyed me on the last rewatch#i dont usually pay much attention to eleanor and rogers#because well#i'd rather not#but the way eleanor and flint are both so desperate in the last season#and act in ways that to them demonstrate love and commitment#but the people around them cant see and accept that#for their own reasons#and its not enough#love isn't enough#i'm having a time over here#the way they still feel an affinity for each other even when they're on different sides of the war#there's no hatred there#oh yeah by the way#if anybody makes this about saying silver is the same as rogers i'm fucking coming for you#its not that simple#parallels exist to show contrast as well as similarity#and motivations matter in this show#black sails#james flint#john silver#eleanor guthrie
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People who wonder why Jack is so sensitive about Jokeās constant theft to get his way, even if it is for Jack, forget that one of the main prejudices against economically struggling classes of people is that those from privileged classes look at them with suspicion of crimes like theft literally chronically.
And Jack is the kind of person who is extra hard on himself because of the things he doesnāt have and he wants to escape this āotheringā, this dehumanization of sorts, by using with what he hasā his skills and knowledge, i.e. socially acceptable means.
This aversion to theft is seen even in Tattooās mother when she chastises her son for stealing from Boss despite how much they are literally suffering because of him. To escape prejudice against poor people being inherent thieves, they have to be ten times better than the average person, can't be immoral the same way the rich are, or else their suffering magically becomes "deserved" because they're not "good poor people."
YET, the complexity of this othering is so deep that even wanting to be self-reliant is frowned upon, as you see when Jokeās Dad criticizes Jack for being āpoor but proudā to want to give his grandmother the best medical treatment.
The reality is, the source of this ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½prideā/self-reliance, is literallyā¦ never having anyone who will help you out of your situations. Boss helping his grandmother with medicine was literally a scheme to use her to control Jack. And help for the hospital bills came at the price of his life and identity in the hands of Boss.
The first time Jack got help for his dream was from Joke and it ended in the shattering of his hopes due to betrayal and being almost involved in theftā of all things.
Jack is the amalgamation, of all these expectations from others and from himself. He is simultaneously inclined to be the perfect āvictimā and the saviour who, having lost his own childhood, wants to give all the things he never had to the children. It is going to be a chance for them and a second chance for himself. He formed this idea when he too was just a baby.
#its just so interesting to dissect characters who Dont have a lot of information handed to you directly#i just think to ask jack to accept theft is... strange no matter what#why do you think jack and joker heavily deals with theft and poverty? please think a little more#lot of people pissed me off because yinwar were actually very clear that romance will not be their only or primary focus#This is a social commentary on the way circumstances can make or break people as well as their emotional relationships with others#it is so ironic that people ignoring everything about jacks perspectives because they're all direct social commentaries#you cant analyse jack without analysing the prevalent privileges that You may have but a person like jack may not#which will inevitably effecr everything about him#anyways#jack and joker you steal my heart#jack and joker#i will write about my wife joke too because he too is a victim of prejudice but a veey different one that is once again#overlooked because of other things which is also fair
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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Underwater test!!
today's test subject, Nami Ashengrotto, belongs to @poisoned-pearls !!
its been a while since I did one of these tests Ī£(Ā°ćĀ°) now we're back on track and none of your ocs are safe!!
#i actually tried drawing her on like 3 different occasions#and accepted that my feeble human hands cant recreate someone as ethereal as her#it definitely cant be because i rarely draw women#...anyway#twst#twst fanart#fanart#twisted wonderland#disney twst#twst original character#twst oc#other people's characters#other people's ocs#someone else's oc#disney tw#twisted wonderland original character#oc fanart
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