#but i also think that a LOT of the wish fulfillment thing is being a young woman in the world for the first time
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Holy shit... Just watched the end of my boy Quackity from las Nevadas and there's so many interesting things I've noticed...
For example, no matter how different each Quackity's personality was, their inner wishes and their individual needs are essentially the same:
Every Quackity wishes for a place to belong, someone to confide in... And that's exactly why LN!Q didn't make it in the end. When he woke up he didn't find a place to belong to, or more precisely people who'd NEED him. He finally got to see Charlie and probably felt it was the resolution to his own self. The world had moven on and he was no longer able to fight just to be a part of it.
And I can't help but wonder, what would've happened if instead of Slime, he found someone like Foolish, for example. FG had shown a lot of unwavering support to Q, but ultimately the relationship was all built on manipulation to it's core. In a way, they used eachother. Foolish got the validation that his builds were important and Q got a loyal worker, but no matter how much Foolish had helped him (as we saw in the previous lore stream), something tells me that Q did not see him as his confidant.
So what I'm trying to say is, I think LN!QUACKITY chose this ending for himself, because seeing Charlie depart and having that last goodbye was exactly the peaceful resolution he needed to go without regrets. Had he not gotten that moment of resolve, he might've not gone through with it... that exact day, at least. But he would've also never gotten a confirmation that, in a way, he did achieve one of his wishes! And that is legacy.
To me, the legacy that his character kept talking about was, ultimately, more about the impact he wishes he had, the lasting presence and importance he wishes to be to others, more so than physical proof of himself like buildings and casinos. And he recognises that even when he talks to his alternate selves, he constantly reiterates how important he is to others, to the point of being wished death upon. This is why when he finally hears Charlie say his goodbye, he feels that his purpose was fulfilled.
He taught Slime how to be human.
#quackity#karmaland Quackity#dsmp Quackity#las nevadas#qsmp Quackity?#charlie slimecicle#dapduo#foolish gamers dsmp
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the thing thatâs so frustrating about this is that there ARE sometimes some points being made here that make sense, but then theyâre buried in a sea of nonsense and donât lead anywhere that makes sense. like, yeah, it IS weird that when people draw real life cis men as âcatboysâ theyâre always feminised.. but what the fuck does that have to do with trans men?
and why is it a problem when trans men and transmasculine people who arenât solely or fully men decide to embrace femininity while refusing to deny ourselves the right to be recognised as masculine/male and gendered correctly? when people hate on feminine trans men and transmascs, it only leads me to believe theyâd also hate on butch/masculine trans women and transfems, which is equally fucked up. trans people should be allowed to express ourselves however we want, provided weâre not hurting someone irl, and simply wearing skirts instead of pants or pants instead of skirts hurts no one.
and yeah, sometimes, feminine trans men will make art depicting ourselves as cis femboys, or identify heavily with art of cis femboys, bc it sucks shit to have to choose between expressing yourself how you want and getting gendered correctly, and maybe we wish we had dicks even if itâs just so we could dress like girls and not have transphobes think we are girls. maybe, the reality we live in is fucking tiring and we want a little wish fulfilment. why is that a problem? i wouldnât have an issue with a masc/butch trans woman drawing herself as a cis tomboy, or identifying heavily with art of cis tomboys, because i would understand exactly where sheâs coming from.
transunity is the only way forward. it sucks that so many people, across gender lines in trans spaces, donât see it that way. it sucks even more that some trans people (including some trans men, BTW) have bought into gender essentialism and the idea that trans men, because we are men, arenât (uniquely) oppressed, donât understand what itâs like to be the victim of misogyny (which is fuckin laughable btw, like what planet are you living on if you believe that), or are trying to silence trans women/imply that trans women donât experience unique oppression too (when in reality we just want a turn on the mic + our own oppression to be equally recognised and fought against).
it makes me so sad. part of me doesnât want to blame trans people for this infighting but like.. come ON?? if we all actually talked to each other without getting defensive, a lot of these people would realise we have a lot more in common than they previously allowed themselves to think. itâs SO EASY to tell when someone has never talked to a trans person who isnât the same gender as them, because theyâll say shit like in these screenshots. go to some fuckin irl trans events. find a friend whoâs trans in a different way from you. iâm fucking begging you on my hands and knees here. talk to other trans people. i have binary trans woman friends, and iâm friends with them bc i like them as people, but i make a point to seek out trans women to befriend because i want to understand them. i donât want to be that trans guy who talks about binary trans womanhood and itâs clear heâs never talked to a trans woman before. i think that shit is annoying as fuck. but how come itâs unacceptable to so many people, to be a trans man who doesnât understand transfemininity and speaks on it without knowledge, but it IS acceptable to many of those same people for trans women who donât understand transmasculinity to assert themselves as the authority on it?
think critically. why would cis people treat trans women as more important than trans men? could transphobia and bioessentialism POSSIBLY have something to do with it? could that possibly also be at play, albeit subconsciously, when trans people also treat trans women as more important than trans men?? for fucks sake
"we're a community" until men describe their experiences in a way that parallels womens experiences, then its "cultural appropriation"
(this is about the term 'achillean', the vincian flag, and also about the term 'transandrophobia')
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Found your blog, and must say this: I love it! I adore your ideas and aus so, so much. They scratch the itch I have wanted scratched for a while in the re:zero fandom. I wanted some good, delicious Subaru angst and you have delivered the perfect meal :)
If it is possible, may I ask what exactly has pulled Anastasia towards being so protective of Subaru in both No Refunds and Dogshow? Is it mostly because she has concluded Subaru is mentally disabled? Or has the thought that Emilia has failed in every way as a liege to Subaru helping drive her to want to course correct? It seems to have struck a particular chord with her, and itâs one of my favorite elements of these aus. (And if I can be so bold, but if she shares her theories with others, do others believe she may be on the right track?)
Either way, I love your aus and hope you have a grand day!
Thank you! Iâm glad youâre enjoying it!
The main reason Anastasia is so protective of Subaru is actually pretty simple: her perception of Emiliaâs âfailureâ as a liege lord personally offended her. Anastasia is the kind of character who takes concepts like status and personal responsibility VERY seriously, when it comes to both other people and her own self. Whether Emilia really chose it or not, she IS currently a prospective heir to the kingdom, and as such she has certain responsibilities to those she wishes to rule over, especially when it comes to the people who have already sworn to follow her, and ESPECIALLY when said followers are so few that you could count them on one hand, and also they all live in the same house as her. Anastasia sees this as Emilia both having very important and very easy to fulfill responsibilities that she just watched her completely fall on her ass in front of, and she got OFFENDED by it.
It does not help that Subaru has, honest to god, been trying his best. Heâs not the BEST worker, and heâs got a lot of problems, but by god did Emilia stumble upon someone who would be willing to follow her to the ends of the Earth like a dog, and sheâs SQUANDERING it. Anastasia is probably looking at all of the things Subaru is doing wrong that first day and thinking of all the ways she could train him out of all of those bad habits before they become a real problem, because it probably wouldnât even be that hard. Heâs so easy to read and predict that itâs almost painful, but that means that developing a strategy to actually address it would probably not be hard at all, especially since Subaru WANTS to please Emilia. From Anastasiaâs perspective, it was a combination of Emiliaâs failure to train him and failure to prevent him from getting traumatized by HER OWN STAFF that led to a completely avoidable incident at the Royal Selection that her own knight had to step in and save him from, and then Emilia responded by punishing Subaru for doing exactly as he had unknowingly been trained. And no, it does not help that Subaru does genuinely come across to her as someone who probably has a mental disability preventing him from understanding when heâs in a dangerous situation in the first place, OR that Subaru is the kind of naive, kind-hearted idiot who would be ridiculously easy to take advantage of and therefore could really benefit from someone actually looking out for him (which Anastasia firmly believes really should be Emiliaâs job).
A lot of characters have opinions about Emiliaâs role in this whole situation, but Anastasia is the only one who goes THIS FAR with it. Sheâs also the only one who thinks the Royal Selection Incident was almost entirely Emiliaâs fault, because most of the other characters still do see it as ultimately Subaruâs fault, even if saying that makes them feel uncomfortable because clearly this situation was waaaay more complicated than it initially came off, and so it might have been slightly unreasonable to expect someone like This to react in any other way to that situation. I wanted to have a character reacting to this whole Return By Death situation from the lens of the hierarchical social norms in which Re:Zero takes place, and as someone who is very high status, taking her role VERY seriously, and has a history of impressing the importance of hard work and responsibility onto other characters, Anastasia kind of took up that lens perfectly.
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dinner in america is such a âtake what you want from it and leave the restâ movie for me because i do think itâs very cute and i can buy into some of the wish fulfillment nature of the story but admittedly there are some parts that really donât work for me, there are some parts that fall a little flat either in terms of the characters or humor, and the pacing is a bit of a challenge tbh. but itâs unbelievable what the human brain can overcome by virtue of simply Just Liking That Guy
#idk i just like that guy#obviously iâm a loser girl enjoyer but i have some qualms about how infantilized patty is throughout the script#it must be said i worry how much of the wish fulfillment thing is about guys wanting to date fairly naive young women who donât know things#and who are âinnocentâ and easy to take advantage of etc#but i also think that a LOT of the wish fulfillment thing is being a young woman in the world for the first time#feeling unsure about how you make sense of the world and your place in it#feeling pretty inexperienced wrt intimacy etc#and having someone see you very clearly for who you are and not caring about you figuring your shit out#and just liking you and wanting to be with you and thinking the stuff that makes you a freaky little weirdo is rad af#so like simonâs narrative role ends up being WAY more mpdg than pattyâs and that actually saves the movie for me lol#anyway sorryyyyy for turning into a kyle gallner fan blog. frankly predictable behavior from tumblr user âdevilsskettleâ though tbqh#also this movie is like. if may from may (2002) grew up in a healthy family and found somebody who could match her energy#instead of that asshole poser she gets involved with#so good for her. definitely part of the weird girl cinematic universe#honestly feels like a movie that shouldâve come out in 2002 instead of 2020
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was gonna say smth else but this turned into a vent sorry everyone just ignore. typical weekend post on this blog u know how it is here we gođ
#wild ik so many ppl getting married meanwhile im over here struggling to convince myself my friends even care abt me or want me around#pathetic to admit but i cant even fantasise abt someone loving me bc im too insecure n emotionally unstable#my mind just shoots the idea down like whoa. unrealistic. ur incapable of expressing or receiving affection in any way that matters#no matter how badly u want to... and even if someone did well u wouldnt believe them most of the time#gotta get out of the fucking labyrinth first i couldnt inflict this shit on anyone i cared abt#but it makes me so desperately sad sometimes i dont know how im ever going to get out of this ive been trying for years and years#and im a little better at it snd i dont feel like this all of the time i know it just comes around and itll pass again#but im tired of being in so much emotional pain so frequently. and shouldering it so alone. theres such a disconnect between myself and#others and i dont know how to bridge that i don't know how to stop feeling so isolated and unwanted !!!!!! im trying so hard#it doesnt even bother me w relative strangers in my life like i dont get insecure at all around them i like meeting new ppl#bc theres like. no expectations i guess. like ik they dont care abt me personally and idk them well enough to do that either#and its fun but it doesnt satisfy needs that i have like i need to feel close + connected to ppl i need to care abt them + feel cared for#but as soon as i do start to care abt ppl it gets all tangled and i end up getting rly badly hurt over and over. thru no fault but my own#bc im constantly alienating myself and bc i struggle so much w shit like physical affection which is frustratingly rly critical for me!!!!#it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt like or want affection ik some ppl are fine without i wish it worked like that for me#but nope instead i have to be constantly messed up over my complete fucking inability to express myself in any form#and ik it makes everyone around me so uncomfortable so it just becomes self reinforcing and eventually they drift and leave me behind#and i just do that over and over and over and every time ill tell myself ill do better ill try harder and itll get easier and someone will#and it happens again and right now im at the stage where the abandonment fear is starting to kick in which is awful n paralysing#and usually a precursor to actually being abandoned ehich is always my own fault bc i start behaving so erratically out of fear or defense#its self fulfilling and im trying. im trying so hard not to let it overwhelm me again and not to start acting out and freaking ppl out#and im coping with it okay i think but just hurts me a lot its all internal my rejection sensitivity is gradually ticking up and up#and argh!!!!!!!!! and some days im okay and some days its like this and i dont know what todo when its like this im so tired and in pain#its not even that bad today tbf. once im done typing this to get it out ill be able to do smth else and distract mysrlf for a bit#and then calling friends later too so exposure therapy innit. but itll be fun and i love them but i will probably also feel very bad after#or even possibly during but thats okay ill still manage fine im not going to let it interfere i dont want it controlling my fucking life#i am going to have a nice time and be okay despite it all. even if i do have to fucking battle this every day forever#and even if it stops me living my life to the extent i want and feeling as ok as i want i just have to come to terms with and be ok w it#and im not going to be!!! a fucking asshole abt it!!! i dont want to hurt anyone else thats the most important thing no matter how i feel#thr rest is all secondary and ik i cant help a few little bumps here and there but trying hardest to keep it separate its not negotiable
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Comics Read in 2023:
Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard!? Vol. 1 by Yuu Toyuta (2018)
Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard!? Vol. 2 by Yuu Toyuta (2019)
Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard!? Vol. 3 by Yuu Toyuta (2019)
Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard!? Vol. 4 by Yuu Toyuta (2020)
Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard!? Vol. 5 by Yuu Toyuta (2020)
Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill Vol. 1 by Akagishi K. & Ren Eguchi (2017)
Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill Vol. 2 by Akagishi K. & Ren Eguchi (2018)
Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill Vol. 3 by Akagishi K. & Ren Eguchi (2019)
Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill Vol. 4 by Akagishi K. & Ren Eguchi (2019)
[ID: Covers of aforementioned books. End ID.]
#2023media#cherry magic is fun!#a dude is a virgin so on his thirtieth birthday he gains the ability to hear the thoughts of anyone he touches#and as a result finds out one of his male coworkers has a crush on him#idk why it keeps saying parental warning. they have only kissed#anyway its fun times and i enjoyed it but it does fall into some of the yaoi tropes#theres a side character who is a weirdo fujoshi and every time she shows up im like. can u die actually#but overall its genuinely quite fun and enjoyable and i always love when theres healthy gay manga with fucking. adults.#campfire cooking is a silly isekai about a salaryman whose isekai superpower is being able to order things online#from his usual like japanese online market and have them instantly drop into the fantasy world#he loves to cook and ends up forming a bond with a powerful god-beast who wants to eat his cooking sooooooo much#it's lighthearted wish fulfillment about being able to do what u love and found family#i like cooking manga so!#will prob also read the light novel i think#gigi.txt#i have a few more comics i read but not enough to fill a third post i read a lot this weekend
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#truly no faster way to make me so so ill than the seol and the seolite diaspora DE tag on ao3. not in a bad way not in a good way either#also last week i hung out w a friend i hadn't seen in a while and we joked about diaspora lit bingo a lot#but yeah idk. the way my sister is reconnecting w her asianness through like. kdramas/cdramas and kpop etc#the way i only have about 4 chinese language songs liked on spotify and they're like#one from the CRA soundtrack two bc i looked up an artist whose photos were on tumblr and who i found hot#and one from my white roommate who's learning mandarin#and i wonder if my parents are like. so bummed that we ignored them and made fun of their shows and music and accents as elementary schoole#and now they see her doing this and me. idk. claiming POCness via something i never engaged with in a way i find satisfactory#or idk. the whole immigrant parents being your passports to your language/culture and once they die it's game over#ESP bc you only ever took enough chinese classes to graduate hs or college no more#and kim kitsuragi is suchhhhhhh an interesting look at that bc like. he is an orphan and he does have zero cultural or language ties to seo#like. he would absolutely dannyamericanbornchinese himself if he could#and i want him to reconnect like i imagine him reconnecting w being asian and it causes feelings of comfort and such in me#but like. he shouldn't have to obviously and#one of the notes of a fic in that tag is from a biracial person who says#I flip between wish fulfillment and scrutinizing the degree Kim 'needs' to reclaim his heritage#and like yeah. yeah. that thing#and idk i don't think there's a distinct chinese-american culture the way that chinese-american cuisine is like. A Thing you know#maybe i'd feel better if there was that#and if there was just one other seolite person in disco elysium but i think kim's racial isolation is purposeful#what is there for me but to idk. reread the joy luck club and have another crisis about it#personal
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okkkk but demon king!dungeon lord!laios wherein Something Something happens and laios not only devours the lion inheriting the kingdom................ but perhaps the lions curse manifests differently too....
#dm#i dont know quite concretely what i would want from this but just like#perhaps the lion curses him with the wish granting ability along with the never having desires fulfilled i.e. no matter how happy he makes#everyone else no matter how Valuable and Needed he is its not ever going to be satisfying#to satisfy everyone else#i think it would be an interesting lens to analyze his feelings of alienation#even if he can be everything for everyone he will always feel nothing to no one#also i think this would manifest more as like#alexithymia tbh i.e. he knows what he wantsand needs and he can get it but it never quite scratches the itch#of course i think this would kind of mirror the whole bodhisattva thing he has going on#acceptance of a permanent middle path and whatnot#but also i think as his biggest desire is Not like enlightenment or whatever but much more material and interpersonal desire....#i dont think enlightenment would be something anywhere near his train of thought esp in my scenario#i think it could be an interesting inversion of his typical avoidant strategy instead throwing spaghetti at the wall#i think his thoughts would go something like:#no matter how much i avoid trying to bother [my loved ones]... they always come back around#i dont know why they come back around when they clearly dont think much of me... so clearly theres something i can do for them that they#know about and wont tell me...#*cue obtuse rubber goose green moose guava juice giant snake birthday cake large fries chocolate shake*#also i think it would be like about laios learning to adapt to his curse of course lots of sad and hilarious scenarios here#i.e. Desperate Friendship Appeals#or Wish Bureaucracy#or political secrets and intrigue if perse its a double life scenario#Where do the king and his cohorts go at night? What lurks under the castle? How do our resources never run dry?#marcille would be his biggest enabler i feel <3#he and kabru would be like#kismesises kind of... yknow in a watered down way#he and falin.... i dont think theyd have a great relationship#i think laios would feel a lot of shame#and falin of course would be repelled due do laios' desires being unfulfillable and ik hed love for her to stay around forever
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The Reader gets jealous/upset because Sukuna gets Concubines, with a happy ending though. pleaseeeee
Wish I didnât care
Tags: true form!Sukuna x fem!Reader, king!Sukuna, royal au (?), angst, hurt/comfort, happy ending i promise
An: Ooo, this was such a good idea. Thank you for requesting it from me!! I hope itâs everything you wanted!!
Sukuna never felt the need to give you a title for being in his life. To him, titles were superficial⊠There wasnât a title in the world that could explain or encompass the complexities of his relationship with you.
However, you, coming from the mortal realm, wanted a title. Itâs not that you wanted the power that was associated with being the betrothed of the King of Curses. You just wanted to feel.. irreplaceable to him.
So, to make you happy, you were his wife.
Kings rarely ever are allowed the luxury of marrying for love. Most kings marry daughters of other powerful kings to create allies between nations. However, Sukuna didnât need allies. He didnât need to marry for power when he had more power than he knew what to even do with.
Everything was simply childâs play for him. He even stopped trying to conquer the mortal realm because it was just too damn easy for him. The âsorcerersâ could barely even put up a fight. It was embarrassing.
Life was truly becoming boring for him.
That was, until a female curse was delivered straight to his chamber. He was confused and honestly pissed that Uraume would simply guide this harlot into his chambers without his permission. Only you were granted such luxuries.
He was leisurely splayed in his bed with no cloth to cover himself. He truly appreciated the concept of being completely in his own skin at all times, and he often encouraged you to do the same. Though, he also learned to appreciate your more modest approach. You didnât have to show any skin to get Sukuna riled up.
âState your purpose.â His voice was low and menacing as he spoke to the woman. He slipped his robes on over his shoulders, tying it in the front so he was no longer exposing himself.
âMy father sends his regards. Says that a newly wedded king deserves a âfreshâ concubine.â The girl spoke with no humility towards him.
Sukunaâs face twisted in disgust that her dad would even suggest such a thing. He was even more put off that she described herself as âfreshâ as if she were a type of vegetable in the garden.
âYour father can kindly go fuck himself. Iâm not interested.â He responds coldly, and his large palm grabs onto her shoulder with the intention of throwing her out of his chambers. He knew that if you saw her here, youâd probably be devastated.
âMy lord-â
âI am not your anything. You address me as Lord or King, but make no mistake. I am not your lord.â He rudely cuts her off, not letting her think she has any sort of claim to him.
âOkay, Lord Sukuna, whenâs the last time sheâs fulfilled her wifely duties? I can see sheâs not in here tending to you now, right? Sheâd probably feel grateful that youâre being satisfied around the clock.â The concubineâs voice was like a purr, and she looked up at him with eyes thatâd rival a sirenâs.
And for a split second, Sukuna almost considers her offer.
âYouâll never believe it, Kuna!â Your happy voice fills the air, and the door swings open to reveal you holding a small flower in your hand. âI got a jasmine to bl-â Your eyes fall upon to scene in front of you.
Sukunaâs towering over an unfamiliar woman. His hand is touching her neck and shoulder area, while she has her hand leisurely pressed against his bicep.
âWhoâs.. this?â You quietly ask, and immediately, Sukuna can feel a strange feeling pour into him. It feels like⊠guilt? He regrets even momentarily entertaining the idea about this harlot occupying his bed.
âNobody-â
âOh my lady, itâs nice to meet you. I apologize. Lord Sukuna and I were just getting aquatinted with each other since weâll be seeing each other a lot from now on.â The serpent of a female cuts him off, and he immediately realizes just what this is. Whichever king decided to send her is hoping to ruin his marriage. Sheâs quite literally a snake in his garden, trying to ward his wife away from him.
âI donât⊠understand.â The way your voice sounds so small. The small pout upon your lips. The way the flower you were once carrying with such confidence is now sagging in your hand. Fuck. Sukuna felt like a complete imbecile.
âOh, come on now. You know he has needs that are beyond your abilities. Iâll lay with him when youâre too-â
âEnough.â Sukunaâs voice snaps. His teeth grit together as he practically drags the woman out of his chambers. âGo fuck off for a while. Iâll deal with you later.â The door immediately slams in her face.
After a moment of trying to comprehend what just happened and how it all happened so quickly, Sukuna slowly turns to you. It feels like a gut punch once he sees the tears brimming in your eyes.
âThat wasnâtâŠâ
âYou took up a concubine?â You ask in a sniffle. Your hands are barely even holding the jasmine thatâs you were once so excited to show him. Flowers rarely ever bloom in Sukunaâs desolate kingdom, but with hard work and determination, you had gotten a jasmine to bloom in his kingdom.
âNo, she was sent to me. I didnât seek her out.â He tries to dispel the claims while he slowly approaches you. His chest aches as he watches you take a step back away from him. âDo not cower from me, woman.â
âWas I not good enough? Was I not doing enough for you..? I thought⊠I thought it was good, b-but I can try harder.â Your voice is so shaky, and you wonât even look him in the eye. What has he done?
âSilence. You will not speak of yourself like that to me.â Sukuna orders, and he takes another step forward. You take another step back with another sniffle. Your tears are streaming down your cheeks.
âPleaseâŠâ The word sounds foreign on his tongue. Heâs never ever pleaded for anything in his life. He could simply take what he wants, but he doesnât want to hurt his delicate flower. He wants her to seek out comfort in him. âPlease donât cower. It was not like that. She showed up at my door, spoke of lies and filth, and I was trying to throw her out when you walked in.â
âSo you didnât even con..consider taking her on as a concubine?â You ask while you rub the tears away with the back of your hands. Hopefully, this was all just a poorly timed miscommunication.
Sukuna takes a moment before responding. He has two options. He could tell you a white lie that would instantly comfort you, but it would be a lie. Or he could tell you the truth and face the consequences of his actions.
âIt was one moment of weakness.â He replies carefully.
He instantly wishes he just lied from the way your face immediately twisted in disappointment and pure hurt. The jasmine falls from your hands, and your footsteps trail away from his chambers, leaving him dumbfounded.
Sukuna is immediately on your trail, unable to let you be. He needs to fix this. His dear wife is upset, and itâs all his fault.
A pair of hands slither up his arm as he walks. He already knows whoâs touching him based off the nasty feeling from their contact. âMy lord, let her be. She needs to-â
âDismantle.â The concubineâs body drops to the floor in two, split directly at her waist. He had warned her already about referring to him as her lord. She didnât deserve to speak of you so carelessly, and she didnât deserve to live after causing this rift in his marriage.
Sukuna continues on his hunt for you without another hitch, leaving the harlotâs body right where she once stood for one of the servants to clean up.
He searches for you in all your usual spots: the gardens, the kitchen, the library, the rooftop. Youâre no where to be found. You donât want to be found. He starts to wonder around his perimeter. The longer he goes without finding you; the more his heart starts to race.
Did you leave him? Did he lose you for good?
The thought of not having his delicate flower by his side makes his body feel ill. You mustâve placed some sort of binding curse on him, but he didnât necessarily mind.
Heâs close to waging war when he finally sees your small human body tucked underneath a weeping willow on a bed of grass. His body moves on itâs own: running to you. Whenâs the last time heâs ran like this?
Crouching over you, he can see no visible injuries on your body, but he knows heâs wounded your heart with his foolish actions. How could he ever have a wandering eye when you were the real prize?
His four arms carefully scoop you up and cradle your body as he takes a seat underneath the willow. Your poor cheeks are flushed and tear stained. Your eyes and lips are so puffy. You mustâve tired yourself out from crying.
âIâm sorry, flower.â He whispers softly, even if your eyes are still resting. He pulls your body closer to his chest, and he contemplates when he started becoming so soft for you.
A part of him hates it. That small unconscious voice of his telling him that he shouldnât concern himself with the feelings of a mere mortal, but the bigger part of him knows that he canât just ignore you. He cares far too much for you.
âKuna..?â You murmur as your hands rub your eyes. Youâre immediately met with remembering just why you had fallen asleep. âI do not wish to see you right now.â
Sukuna chuckles quietly from your defiant little comment. It reminds him of when you first arrived to his estate. âThen close your eyes.â He simply states as one of his hands start to comb through your hair. âWoman, tell me what to do to fix this.â
You shift your gaze away from him with a small huff. If he wasnât so much bigger than you, youâd try to wiggle away from him. However, you know it is of no use. âI donât know, Kuna.â Your words are sharp and still so full of emotion. âImagine how youâd feel if I told you I contemplated sleeping with someone else⊠in a moment of weakness.â
The sheer thought of it has Sukunaâs anger burning up like an inferno. Youâre his delicate flower. No one would even know how to take care of you like he can. His arms subtly tighten around your frame. âIâd kill every man you gaze at.â
âWell, men can rest easy because I only have eyes for you.â You mutter while rolling your eyes. âI love you so much that the thought of being with someone else repulses me, and it⊠just really hurts that you donât feel the same.â
âFlower, I took you for granted. It was a brief moment of contemplation, but I instantly decided against it. I did not desire her in the slightest.â Sukuna tries to explain, and his hand gently brushes against your soft cheek.
âYou still donât deny that you donât feel the same for me.â You respond quietly, still not giving him the satisfaction of you looking at him.
âYou are everything to me. I will not lose sight of whatâs important again.â
âKuna.â You finally look up at him, and you frown slightly. Sukuna secretly adores the little nicknames you have adorned him with, but heâd never admit it.
âWhat is it, woman?â He asks, titling his head to the side a bit to get a better look at your face. Youâre so pretty in his lap like this.
âDo you love me?â You quietly ask, even if you can already hear his voice telling you âdo not ask questions you donât want answers toâ⊠because even if heâs the incarnate of evil, Sukuna will not lie. Liars are weak cowards who canât get jobs done by being upfront. Sukuna isnât afraid of what the truth is.
Your husband contemplates your question for a moment. He thinks about how disgusting that wannabe concubine was. He thinks about how you preoccupy his mind majority of the time. He thinks about the weird mix of feelings he has felt today in your absence.
âWhat I feel for you⊠is probably the closest to love that Iâll ever get.â Sukuna responds, carefully choosing his words. âYou, my flower, are the only thing that keeps me grounded to the mortal plains.â
You give him the best smile you can muster despite the disappointment that you feel since he wonât tell you that he loves you. You suppose you have no one to blame other than yourself. Sukuna told you when he married you not to get your hopes up for love, but you still canât help but crave that sort of affection from him.
âI donât like seeing you upset, flower.â He speaks tenderly as his thumb brushes against your bottom lip. âIf I could, Iâd snap my fingers and assure you that I love you whole heartedly. It just not in my genetic code.â
âI know⊠Iâm grateful for your effort at least.â You murmur as you wrap your arms around his neck.
His arms wrap around you, cradling you to his chest. He inhales deeply, savoring your sweet scent that he enjoys so much. âAm I forgiven, woman?â
âMmm, no.â You smile cheekily in his embrace, and Sukuna chuckles heartily.
âOh? Is someone going to use this blunder to her advantage?â When you nod in his shoulder, Sukuna lays back against the soft pillowy grass. âThatâs my girl. Go on. Make me work for your forgiveness.â
On a completely unrelated note, Sukuna had that harlotâs body mailed back to her father as a âthank youâ for sending a whore to his kingdom.
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#thinking a lot about morality and utility versus absolute and picking fights with my father and christian friends about the nature of people#morality sometimes does have to be learned. I was a significantly more shitty individual back in 2015 when I got on tumblr#but I learned that community is important. they violence in defense of others is justified required and admirable#I learned that emotions that are commonly considered negative can always be channeled into something constructive#that tumblr post about a selfish warlord protecting her kingdom because THEY'RE MY PEOPLE AND YOU CANNOT HARM THEM#it sticks with me because the transformation of ânegativeâ emotion into a force that creates and grows and thrives and protects#sure. tumblr is mental illness dot com. but the ones who have lived this long? they turn it into recovery and thrive dot com#tumblr is the hellsite and this volcanic soil is fertile. we grow life out of these ashes.#the ones who haven't killed themselves or been killed are the ones who know what it means to survive.#the ones who found the way out. the ones who are willing to fight to wake up happy. to defend what they know it's precious#I learned that loving people can be a selfish thing#if friendship makes me happy then should I not make friends? if being kind makes me happy should I not then be kind?#I hug a crying person because I care about them but also because it makes me feel better to care.#I feel happy when I am protecting other people. when I am caring for someone.#I feel fulfilled when I drive to a friend's house and get them away from their abusive family for even just one night.#I care about others but I also care about myself. christianity told me to sacrifice myself. to burn myself on a pyre of divinity#tumblr dot edu told me âlove yourself or die tryingâ#I wish I had periods so I could paint with my own blood without having to cut myself open.#I genuinely wanna learn how to draw blood so I can paint with my own blood without resorting to knives#poetry feels so much more meaningful when it's crafted from my own flesh#a thousand words written in meat and bone can never say what my actions will.#I try to describe in a chorus of screams and cries what I can express with a single squeeze of my fingers against your palm#I reach out to hold your hands as you cry and a new wing appears in the Library of Babylon.#you laugh and kiss me gently and bookshelves spring into being to describe the electricity that passes from your heart to mine#I want to love as relentlessly as the ocean. others can be soft like a river. I can only beat like a storm against your windows#how can I discover this ache in my heart? how can I pluck it out and tie it to these pages that I might not feel it throb in my chest
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PAC 18+: how to walk âem like a dog đŠźđđ
âBack to the kitty, âcus she kinda pretty
Couldnât stop lookinâ at her ti-ti-tiâ face!
Me and cat mama rolled into the distant fog
Little did she know, Iâm a nasty dog.â
Pile 1:
Shufflemancy -
Pussy Talk by City Girls ft. Doja Cat
Kehlani by Jordan Adetunji
The Zone by The Weeknd
Ten of Cups, Six of Cups, Five of Swords, Make An Altar, Chanting, Use Your Hands, Camera, Mirror, & The Grim Reaper
Hey pile,1 đ. The person who wishes for you to walk them like a dog admires you so much, they might even over romanticize you in their head, to them, you fulfill their fantasies. They think about you in different positions and wonder how your hands feel on them đźâđš. They get hard/wet just by the thought of you alone. I believe you show that to this person as well, you could tease them often or like to give them a show whenever you walk past them. âP*ssy talented it do cartwheels and he pay cus he like how that part feels, p*ssy give speeches, heart felt, say the p*ssy really talk like it Garfield (it do)â đ
oh god, I think this person is obsessed with the sounds your bodies make during sex, they are heavily infatuated with you. âI like the way your body is, is that too obvious? Okay I like your confidence, oh thatâs what good karma, like kehlani is, bad just like kehlani is.â This person desires to be fair in the bedroom, they want to cum with you, pile 1. This might be someone youâve known since childhood, your first love, or an ex that you met when you were young. You could be playful and mischievous in the bedroom, but also like to take the lead. Switch vibes are prominent in this pile. You and your person like to give and take. You could be a brat and they want to be your brat tamer. If you follow each other, this person has been watching your stories on social media, I feel like you post risquĂ© photos for them and wonder if itâs working đ trust me it has, cus they have been getting it off to your pictures in secret đ€«âŠ This person definitely worships your body and your beauty.
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Pile 2:
Shufflemancy -
Goodies by Ciara ft. Petey Pablo
Slumber Party by Ashnikko ft. Princess Nokia
Bimbo Doll by Tila Tsoli ft. BJ Lips
King of Wands, King of Cups, Knight of Cups, Watch A Movie, Massage, Rest, Talking, Keys on a Ring, & Love Call
I love how hyper feminine my pile 2 is đ! You guys are so popular and have so many options in your dating life. People think that you are so cute but in a tempting way. Do you dress y2k, mcbling, or coquette? Whatever your style might be, people think it looks so hot on you. You could attract both girls and guys with your looks, especially older guys. âYou may look at me and think that Iâm just a young girl but Iâm not just a young girl. Baby this is what Iâm lookin for - sexy, independent, gotta spend it type for gettin his dough. Iâm not being too dramatic thatâs just how I gotta have it. I bet you want the goodies, bet you thought about it.â You know your worth and donât settle for less, despite your sweet appearance you know you give people a run for their money. People even wish to give you their money. Are you a sugar baby? If not, you should become one, youâd be very successful. I have a feeling you have people wrapped around your pretty finger. Others desire to spoil you with gifts and money. Dare I say I see this pile being with both a woman and a man (maybe even at the same time?)đ. âMe and your girlfriend playinâ dress up in my house, I gave your girlfriend c*nnilingus on my couch. She cute, kawaii, hentai boobies that excite me. I think she really likes me, ask politely, can I - woo ooh ooh (slumber party).â Two people wish to initate things with you but you have total control over the situation. Your features really entice people, you could have doe eyes, big lips, nice boobs, and a cute butt. When you talk, this person(s) doesnât know where to focus their eyes, they get so nervous around you and have to control themselves from getting too intense with the conversation. They also really wish to hear you dirty talk to them. Your voice is a a major turn on to this peoples, itâs giving phone sex operator level of skill lol. As I was typing âhearâ, I accidentally spelled âheadâ so they definitely want to see your lips on their d*ck/p*ssy as wellđ.
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Pile 3:
Shufflemancy -
Get On Your Knees by Nicki Minaj ft. Ariana Grande
Distraction by Kehlani
Rocket by Beyoncé
Eight of Pentacles, Seven of Wands (reversed), Nine of Cups, Sex, Abundance Planning, Deep Breathing, The Sword and The Rose, Not Today, & Clock
PHEW đźâđš donât hurt em now, pile 3. This is my dominant pile. You guys know how to take charge in the bedroom. This person wants to be at your mercy. Iâm talking having you on top and riding them as hard as you can or them getting on their knees to beg at your feet. This person actually wants to be walked like a dog lol. They are very submissive and like pain. I feel like you know this as well đ! You have so much control over them and they want you to know you run this relationship. I feel you and this person are already together or have a thing going on, if not I see things progressing sexually pretty fast. This might be a tinder date situation. âGet on your knees, get on your knees, baby just get on your knees. Say pretty please, pretty please, pretty please. Baby just say pretty pleaseâ you could like to use this person as a stress reliever. The sex would be slow and intense. âDo me a favor, pick me up, take me out later. Don't worry about no paper cus I got much stacked up for nights like thisâ I see that youâre a hard working person and donât have time to be in a committed relationship but value trust, loyalty, and honesty. This person provides that safe space for you and allows you to express your flaws in peace. You donât have to be perfect and fake a smile like you usually have to do in professional settings. I see that this person really wishes to be with you in a romantic way but doesnât want to rush or force things on you if they know you have other responsibilities to tend to. Itâs reminding me of Nani and David from Lilo & Stitch. David had a huge crush on Nani but due to her focusing on needing to be there for Lilo and being a provider, she didnât have time to acknowledge his feelings until later she was settled in her career. I see that you are grateful towards this person and attracted to their emotional intelligence.
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Pile 4:
Shufflemancy -
Blah Blah Blah by Kesha ft. 3OH!3
Please me by Cardi B ft. Bruno Mars
Dip It Low by Christina Milian
The Chariot, Seven of Swords, Ten of Wands, Pleasure, Flow Like Water, Hydrate, Addiction, Date, & The Phoenix
Heyyy, pile 4 đ. I see that this person got you down bad lol but not to worry since the feeling is mutual. I feel that you came on to this person before they even did. You could be an extrovert while this person is an introvert. Theyâre very reserved and are careful with how they express themselves. You might flirt with this person while theyâre on the job or when theyâre focusing in class. They like to pretend they are disinterested in your advances to see how much youâre willing to keep going after them. It could stroke their ego a little bit knowing someone as âcuteâ as you likes them (I heard an emphasis on the word âcuteâ). You could be feeling confused on whether or not they like you back and it results in you feeling pouty about the situation. This connection could be relatively new but this person is wanting to explore how things go! This person could want to tease you a lot or perhaps even degrade đ« . They might like to talk shit playfully just to get under your skin. For some reason I feel like this person likes to make you mad đ they can be really annoying. They like when you tell them to shut up or put them in their place. If you yelled at them even and kissed this person the next, they would live for that shit. Theyâre kinda toxic honestly đ. âblah, bl-bl-blah, blah, blah. Coming out'cha mouth with'cha blah, blah, blah. Zip your lip like a padlock (Yeah) and meet me in the back with the Jack at the jukebox (back, back). I don't really care where you live at, just turn around, boy, let me hit that. Don't be a little bitch with your chit chat just show me where your d*ckâs atâ. This person really enjoys your banter and despite being so hard on you they really only have a soft spot for you, I heard âthatâs my babyâ đ„čâșïž. Pile 4, you must have a great ass as well đ. This person looks at your physique when youâre not looking, they really want to know what it feels like to have your body pressed against them. âPlease me, baby. Turn around and just tease me, baby. You know what I want and what I need, baby. (Let me hear you say) Pleaseâ this personâs energy is honestly all over the place đ theyâre just so horny lol. This person wants you *london accent* BAD, man.
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Pile 5:
Shufflemancy -
Lolly by Maejor ft. Justin Bieber & Juicy J
Walk Like This by FLO
Promiscuous by Nelly Furtado ft. Timbaland
Seven of Pentacles, Page of Cups, The Star (reversed), Plan A Meal, Nourish Your Temple, Music, Love, Passion, & Photograph
Ooo wee, pile 5đ«Łđ€, when I say this person has a biiiiig đŠ for you. This person has very masculine energy, almost giving fuckboy/frat guy vibes đ. They could be very fit and muscular with a nice smile, they know theyâre fine and attract a lot of people towards them. There could be a height difference between you and this person. Their attraction to you is because of the stereotypical phrase âidk youâre just differentâ. They donât have the exact reasons why theyâre into you but they do like your creativity, mannerisms, and shy demeanor. This person could have a corruption kink đ. They could want to see you break out of that good girl / good boy routine and try something new and risky. You and this person know of each other but donât seem to be very close, perhaps they are in your friend circle or you guys are just acquaintances. They often have dirty thoughts of you giving them head and seeing how much you can take of them. This person could wine and dine you first before wanting to go down on you. âOrder what you want, girl, it ain't no problem. I'ma tell the waitress that my baby need a bottle. Order what you want, said it ain't no problem. Got a piece of candy and it's all for you. She say she love my lolly. She wanna make it pop. She say she love my lolly. She wanna kiss the topâ. They like sex thatâs really rough and nasty, if itâs not messy and loud theyâre not into it đ. I see that theyâre into positions like 69, cowgirl, and missionary. Theyâre big on seeing your face during sex, they get really cheeky about the good work theyâre doing and would want to pin your hands down so you can beg for more. I do see jewelry and this person wearing chainsđââïž. This person would be more so walking you like a dog but you have them on a leash in the sense you keep them coming back. They could have you walking funny after youâre done đ€ you might be really sore the next day as well. âThere's a reason I walk like this (I walk). My baby, he be lovin' on this (Oh yeah). When he do it, he be workin' that shit (Oh yeah) And every night he got me wantin' more of itâ. You might feel confident and pleased after having sex with this person and can feel a sense of relief.
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Pile 6:
Shufflemancy -
Play With It by Tommy Genesis
Who Am I (What's My Name?) by Snoop Dogg
Girls Need Love by Summer Walker
The Fool (reversed), The Sun, Five of Cups (reversed), Write a Gratitude List, Take a Walk, Clean Your Space, Family, Not Enough, Ax, & Healing Heart
Pile 6, you still not over your ex, huh đ? Itâs ok, no judgment here, baby đ«¶. I see you and your ex still have an attachment together, things might be on and off or you donât really know where the direction of this relationship is headed towards. I see that you are a very caring person and because of miscommunication, you and this person seem to never be on the right foot. Itâs possible some of you who picked this pile have a baby with this person or will get pregnant (please use protection if this isnât what you want!). I see a lot of fertility going on in this pile, you and this person could prefer to make love or have sex as if youâre making a baby lol. This person could have a breeding kink? They get turned on by the idea of you being pregnant with their child. Whenever you wear sundresses that is also sexy to them. I feel like your body is so tea, pile 6. Either youâre really thick and curvy or your body is just gorgeous to people, especially your sp. This person fantasizes about doing it raw while you touch yourself in front of them. âPlay wit' the p*ssy, wanna play wit' the p*ssy. Come get a hooky, baby, come get a hooky. I wanna fuck you, baby, I wanna fuck you. If we not fuckin', baby, come get it poppin'â. This person is scared to fully pursue because you seem to be in a place of healing in your life and doesnât want to add to that. There is another person that is new coming who also wishes to take your exâs spot đ Oop! I feel like this will be their friend who will make passes at you and this will make your sp really jealous lol. In the bedroom, their jealousy could make them more dominant and want to take control. There is a lot about wanting to hear you moan or scream their name. They can be very vocal too i'm getting a lot about hissing so maybe they hiss whenever you get their spot? PHEW- They could want to fuck you doggy style while they spank your ass. âShe want the nigga with the biggest nuts, and guess what? He is I and I am him. Slim with the tilted brim, what's my motherfuckin' name? Snoop Doggy Dogg (The bomb). Snoop Doggy Dogg Snoop Doggy Dogg (The bomb)â they can be really boastful after sex if they get you to cum and you can get annoyed by this lol. You might tell your person âit wasnât even allatđâ and theyâll tease you cus they know it was đ. I see this person providing you with aftercare and massaging your back and feet. Even though you might not be together at the moment, this person really values you as a person and knows their place.
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Pile 7:
Shufflemancy -
Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home) by Usher
JT Coming by JT
Huff n Puff by Red Velvet
Page of Swords, Knight of Wands (reversed), The Emperor, Be Still, Energy Work, Sync with the Moon, The Snake, Lightning, & Separation
Alright this is giving my queer pile đ„°, very androgynous energy all around here đ. Regardless of what your gender might be, both you and this person are independent and like to have things a certain way. You could have met them through a dating app or while on a date with another person (Crazy work but ok đ). I'm getting maybe someone is a bartender or works at some place where they have to socialize a lot. You and your sp are very flirtatious towards the other but someone gets super shy when it comes to compliments. This is for a select few of you but some of you might be transgender? Perhaps you are a trans man/woman and this person is cisgender. You might be nervous to be too flirty with them in case they might reject you but honestly i'm getting go for it baby, life is too short to be worrying about those things (just remember to be safe is all đ«¶đœ). This person will be very polite and respectful towards you so just allow yourself to unwind when you go out with this person. "I ain't gotta do a lot of flexing (Uh-huh). Shorty, you already know what it is. Ha, and girl, tonight we gonna do a lot of sexin', yeah. Can't nobody do your body like this." They could be very forward and direct when it comes to communication they do not like beating around the bush, i'm getting someone likes to man spread a lot or you will notice that they sit with their legs open. Laaaawd when I tell you this person has a big đ or owns one, they will have that shit ready for you LOLLL. This person gives big dick energy they're just very secure with themselves and how they carry on. You might feel insecure about some things and ask them "does this bother you?" or "do you find this attractive?" and they're gonna be like "yah" to everything. THEY MIGHT NOT EVEN GIVE A VERBAL RESPONSE TBH they just might nod their head or whatever and look at you like "is we fuckin' or what đđ¶?". To them, these questions don't make sense like for example they would think "why wouldn't I like hip dips?" or "facial harmony? what the hell does that even mean? I don't care about that, I care about you." So if you are someone who compares themselves to people on the internet truuuust when I say this person is not chronically online to understand any of that shit. They like what they see and they just want to give it to you and more. "It's been a while since you gave, ho, it's time to give it up (Give it up). Like a bitch with a fresh BBL, you can't sit with us (Nah). Fine motherfucker, white boys say I rock (Hah). I gotta stay protected 'cause y'all stay on my c*ck. My new whip beautiful, I call it p*ssy whip. It was a gift, my nigga friends say he p*ssy whipped." Your sp might be older as well or very mature for their age.
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Pile 8:
Shufflemancy -
SHY GUY by Tinashe
Good For You by Selena Gomez ft. A$ap Rocky
Unfold by Alina Baraz
Seven of Swords, Five of Pentacles, The Star, Journal, Look for Fairies, Movement, Hammer, The Dragonfly, & Self-Indulgence
Aww this is my soft pile đ. I see that you guys are very spiritual and dreamy. You might fantasize a lot about this person. For some of you, you might even be manifesting them. I see that the feelings you have towards this person are very tender and loving. I see that this person is very flighty and doesnât wish to have such a big commitment. This person you are interested could have ghosted you or thereâs something wrong with your communication. Maybe you and this person have different time zones or a conflict of schedule. Thereâs something about the person not being there for you. âShy guy, always sayin' it's the wrong time. Even though you know it feels right. Love don't fit into your timeline (La, la, la, la). Shy guy, always sayin' it's the wrong time. Even though you know it feels right. Love don't fit into your timeline. Shy guy (Guy, guy, guy, guy, guy)â I believe you are being too kind to this person and need to detach and allow them to chase you. Focusing on yourself and seeing other people will allow this person to show up for you and be the person that you need. Now is the time for you to be self indulgent and take care of yourself. Some of you should practice healing in the bedroom and should learn about what makes you feel good sexually. Perhaps exploring with new partners will help you find new things that provide pleasure. I see that you are very submissive or lean towards more vanilla. Try to vocalize what makes you feel good to your partner and be more assertive. Your energy reminds me of JhenĂ© Aikoâs song âP*$$y Fairyâ, very sensual but delicate. To this person if you were to show them your new found confidence, they will crumble to their knees and will feel stunned. They might ask you questions like âwhere did you learn this baby???â Or âhave you been having fun without me?â. They really love how you taste đł this sp wants to pull your dress/skirt up or pants off and just go to town. Their favorite thing is when youâre all dolled up and getting ready to go out. âGonna wear that dress you like, skin-tight. Do my hair up real, real nice. And syncopate my skin to your heart beating. Cause I just wanna look good for you, good for you. I just wanna look good for you, good for you. Let me show you how proud I am to be yours.â Iâm seeing that they admire your facial expressions during sex for to them itâs too cute, something about makeup smudging? Things can get really messy đ
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Pile 9:
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Come Alive by Jackson Wang
Earned It by The Weeknd
Swim by Chase Atlantic
Eight of Wands, Death, The Hanged One, Dance, Look to the Stars, Sound Healing, The Grim Reaper, Ascending, & Healthy Choices
When I tell you this pile is NASTYYY. Itâs honestly crazy how much this person wants to match your freak, pile 9. Definitely saved best for last. The sex almost feels cinematic in a way. Something about this person just gives main character vibes that is so seductive you canât turn your eyes away from them. I believe your relationship with this person could have progressed pretty fast. For some of you, you could have kissed or even had sex after the first date. While I also see that this is a friends with benefits situation (does someone have a contract?!). You could find them mysterious or wish to get to know them on a more interpersonal level. You could feel that these things are more surface level in terms of attraction and donât want the intimacy to only be superficial. I see that this sp is charming and prefers to disclose things little by little. âI come alive. You start me up a million times. And I'm terrified. That you could leave me crying.â So this person could be afraid of opening up to you because they are nervous about getting their heart broken. They might have previously gotten out of a relationship and they are learning how to trust in a partner again. Your sp could be afraid of rejection and that's why they are disorganized in terms of how they want to pursue you. Providing this person with assurance will help them gain courage, also pile 9, make sure to do what's healthy for you, try not to overly devote your time to this person. I see that communicating with your partner and talking about how you have been feeling will want to open up more and trust you. Something about wearing lingerie in the bedroom is a major turn on for this person. Taking control and guiding this person will help allow them to let their guard down. "Cause girl, you're perfect (girl, you're perfect). You're always worth it (always worth it). And you deserve it (and you deserve it). The way you work it (the way you work it). 'Cause girl, you earned it, yeah (earned it). Girl, you earned it, yeah". Your sp would be over the moon for you.
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THINGS I WISH I KNEW WHEN I WAS GETTING STARTED WITH THE LAW OF ASSUMPTION (AS SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN MANIFESTING FOR 5 YEARS)
1. the law of assumption is personal. considering how we have different sets of experiences, different environments, different upbringings, and even different languages, we have different assumptions.
because of this, we are affected by teachings and success stories differently. it's important to note this since a lot of manifestation coaches will teach you about the law in a way that worked for them (and the others they may have taught) but it's possible that their advice (even my own) may not be the best for you. even abdullah and neville goddard, two of the people who are known to start this discipline, may have ancient or varied belief systems and techniques. this is normal considering the world they lived in before is different from the world we live in now.
although, you should still read on abdullah and neville because they will teach you the basics and they will help you understand the foundations of the law.
as an example, you might manifest your dream career faster with simple affirmation techniques but a coach may have taught you to focus on visualization techniques.
even the idea that "dominant THOUGHTS manifest" or "what you BELIEVE in manifests" is entirely up to you.
note: notice how i said "may not be the best for you" instead of "may not work for you". any technique can, does, and will work.
how i learned this: when i was learning about the law, i mainly focused on neville's teachings because he was one of the most prominent figures in the practice. and though i liked his practical techniques (especially mental diet and inner conversations), there were some beliefs that i do not agree with e.g. divine timing, appointed hour, avoiding "does not" "is not" "will not".
when i was going through sammy ingrams' takes, she said that it's better to have concise affirmations/short list (non-verbatim) than a long list of 25+ affirmations. but going through affirmations without being specific about them doesn't personally resonate with me and that's just because i'm a detail-oriented person (also a writer).
what i can advise:
learn about different approaches
a. through scientific concepts. e.g. quantum physics, reticular activating system, cognitive reframing, cognitive behavioral therapy, the psychology of placebo effect, the psychology of affirmations, Baader-Meinhof phenomenon (a.k.a. the psychology of self-fulfilling prophecy)
b. through religious and/or spiritual concepts. e.g. passages from the Bible, passages from the Quran, deity work, spells and rituals
c. through self-development. e.g. identity-based habit
start the practice with an identity you like in the present or an identity that you resonate with (learning style, talents, interests, etc.)
examples:
-visual learner = vision boards
-loves writing = scripting
-words of affection love language = affirmations
take teachings with a grain of salt. do not limit yourself and do not allow other people to limit you. experiment with concepts, ideas, and techniques, and have fun with them.
2. techniques are only reminders. you are manifesting either by thinking, feeling, or acting out your desires. you are manifesting every second of the day either with your thoughts, emotions, or by embodying a state. you are only being intentional when you anchor techniques.
note: it is true that your dominant thoughts manifest. it is also true that what you believe in manifests, the same way that your inner knowing manifests. BUT these ideas are meant to empower you. they are meant to remind you that manifestation is as easy as thinking, feeling, acting, believing, understanding, deciding, etc. if an idea doesn't feel good to you, it doesn't have to be an ultimate truth you embrace and carry on with. this is the same with techniques.
what i can advise:
choose one technique and practice it for 7 to 21 days. it can be mental diet, affirmation tapes, sats, mind movies, etc. as long as you can persist with it. give it time. give it time. give it time. in other aspects of the world, you give change some time. when you're calcium deficient and you decide to drink calcium supplements, you realize that it's counterproductive to ask "why am i still calcium deficient?" as soon as you start your regimen because you know your body is changing with the supplement and you put your trust into it. after all, why would you choose a supplement you have no faith on? you just give it time.
note: you can still manifest changes to be instant. you can affirm "i am seeing results now", "results come immediately", "my manifestation is quick". the amount of time you're using a technique does not equate to the amount of time your results will come.
the reason why i encourage you to practice for maximum 21 days is so you can fully explore and master the technique you chose. with the abundance of topics and methods discussed in social media, switching and trying new things is tempting. now, there is nothing wrong with this. it's just that, you wouldn't be able to take a step back and reflect on what worked and what takes more effort when you change techniques every so often.
try a technique that is popularized in the media. a lot of the times, the reason why this technique gained traction is either because it's simple or because it has worked for a lot of people. now, here's the thing: if said technique wasn't for you, at least you can say "oh this is a tiktok/twitter/youtube/old/beginner technique, there are other techniques out there" and you can try another technique with less resistance. but, if it did work, then it did. congratulations.
you can invent your own. here are some techniques that i invented throughout the years.
a. "name is set and solid with the fact that..." - works amazing for sp, getting people to commit, getting people to pursue you
b. "okay! manifestation powers go brrr!" - funny but i do this when I'm spiraling; it also helps me surrender doubts and i think it's because it's so simple and unserious lmao
you can combine them. for example, you want to do sats but you cannot hold a vision for long, what you can do is montage photos or videos that is similar to the vision you want to manifest. you can also have affirmation tapes running in the background.
3. "concept" work can be such a banger. assumptions are basically the conception about the world, about yourself, about the people around you. hence, when you manifest and apply the law of assumption, you change or reinforce a conception.
these can be done through:
self-concept
what it is: your awareness about yourself; the way you perceive yourself.
how you can apply it: there are multiple ways to establish your self-concept but the best way, is to start reinforcing the universal truth: that you are inherently worthy. you deserve money and resources because you are worthy. you deserve love because you are worthy. you deserve ease because you are worthy.
other ways to grow your self-concept is celebrating the identities you have within yourself that you like e.g. that you are strong, you are disciplined, you are beautiful. be careful about strongly tying yourself into these identities though because these are not the reasons why you shall receive. again, you shall receive because you are inherently worthy.
why it works: by having a strong self-concept, you develop ease. you are less likely to rationalize or question the law or why you deserve the things you're asking for. and as you may think, rationalizing may be a form of resistance. questioning may be a form of resistance.
one of the ways i have seen this is when people receive incentives from work, instead of just receiving or saying "thank you", they say things like "what have i done to receive this?", sometimes completely rejecting this gift because of fear that they might lose something when they receive. this can be an example of a weak self-concept. consequently, the company starts questioning "did my employer really do enough to receive this?".
on the other hand, someone with a strong self-concept can take this incentive and buy the things they like because they know they deserve it. they can also take this incentive and say to themselves "oh it's because i worked hard these past few days". it's the knowing and confidence they have within themselves that everything around them has no other option but to recognize.
conception of other things (e.g. of love, of money, of a specific person)
you can work on your conception of other things the same way you work on your self-concept: choosing a narrative that is uplifting to you.
in case you have resistance to a specific object, you can also listen to people's success stories to start shifting to a more positive and desirable perception. one of the ways i do this is by going back to abdullah and neville's story. these two men lived at difficult times, through difficult eras, yet they manifested their desires. they managed to let go of the 3D.
4. practice some distance as you're starting. you were exposed to a different life before the law, it's only normal and human to have doubts or spiral once in a while. however, when you set distance on things that do not help you embody the state, you set distance on things that will feed your doubts and spiraling.
for example, if you're shifting to a state of wealth and you're affirming "i have 1,000 dollars". it's unhelpful and opposing to be constantly surrounded by someone else saying "you only have 10 dollars".
now, i do understand that not everyone can do this right away because of circumstances. but PLEASE do whatever you can to set this distance. find a voice to reinstate your truth.
a personal story, i am an asian girl living with a grandmother who was pessimistic about love because her two children (my mom and my aunt) struggled with it. because of this, she used to constantly remind me of how love is difficult. i didn't know this at the time, but this created a set of beliefs in my head. consequently, as a teenager, i only seeked and allowed love which was difficult because that was all i've ever known. that was all my assumption.
but around the pandemic, i went back to the countryside with my dad where i had a lot of time on my own. this was when i got deep into new-age spirituality and did shadow work. from here, i realized: this is not my assumption about love. before my parents broke up, my assumption was that love is easy. you only have to make the other person laugh. when i was busy in school and would spend most of the time at my friend's house, my assumption was that love is support and light. i started to get these epiphanies that a lot of my pessimistic perception was because of someone i was constantly surrounded with and that i have to build new assumptions.
but around august 2020, i have to go back to the city with my grandmom. i was afraid of the toll i might get into when i got back. however, because i already practiced distance and understood what are the assumptions that serve me, what are the assumptions that i want, i was more at peace. i listed down affirmations about myself, about love, about money, about being "deserving".
after this, every time she told me what love was, i can stop her and say no. i can tell her that it's not the universal truth, and certainly not mine. along the way, i started manifesting that she believes love is easy and supportive. i started manifesting that she believes i deserve love that is soft and tender.
then, when i got into my relationship, she was nothing but happy and supportive.
other ways i have practiced distance while manifesting:
unfollowing content creators who normalized hating men.
unfollowing content creators who were shady and negative about relationships.
unfriending highschool guy friends who do not make me feel safe about men.
unfriending relatives who make unnecessary comments about my looks, my studies, my relationship, and my earnings.
unfollowing girls who made me feel bad about also liking girls.
unfollowing manifestation gurus who romanticize struggles because "the more you struggle, the more you get blessed"
unfollowing manifestation gurus who say stuff like "if you want money, you have to take action to deserve it. not just manifesting"
now, you can totally manifest these people to change and be better, as long as it will make you feel good.
that's all i can share today (since this post is already getting long). i hope you learned a thing or two. thank you so much for reading. i love you and i appreciate you !
xo
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When can you expect to meet your Future Spouse
Hello everybody đ§ Another short PAC on the poll results. I hope you all will enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed doing it for you guys.
Just a warning that this is a general reading and it is only for entertainment purposes. So take what resonates and leave the rest for others.
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Pile 1 ---- Pile 2 ---- Pile 3
Pile 4 ---- Pile 5 ---- Pile 6
Pile 7 ---- Pile 8 ---- Pile 9
Pile 1
You could meet your future spouse in the season of spring. The month of March is significant over here. It could be the month you meet or something significant in this connection will happen in the month of March. When you meet this person you could be actively searching for them. Although I see you are in a hurry. You are being impatient. You could meet them at a celebration. Something to do with family. For a smaller chunk of this pile I am getting an arrange marriage. At this point of time you will feel closer to your loved ones.
Pile 2
You could meet your future spouse in summer time. Maybe near a beach or any other water body. Could be a lake, pond , river or even water park. The month of November could be significant for you. It could be the month you meet or something significant in this connection will happen in the month of November. You will meet your spouse when you are in a phase of disappointment. It could be related to work and might have been a situation which did not turn out as you expected it to leaving you in guilt and disappointment.
Pile 3
You could meet your Future Spouse in the season of spring. August and September could be significant for you. Something important in relation to this connection to develop in the months or it could be someone's birthday month. When you meet your future spouse you will be on a journey of self reflection. You will be trying to find yourself and create a better version and a better sense of value.
Pile 4
September and October are significant for you pile 4. It could be the month where someone's birthday comes. Or something important in relation to this connection will happen. Springtime is also significant for your connection. you might meet them in spring. When you meet your future spouse pile 4 you will be in an adventurous mood there will be a lot of excitement and adventure in your life at that point of time. You will be accomplishing your long term goals and moving towards a successful lifestyle. the kind you have always wanted.
Pile 5
You could meet your Future Spouse in summer time. And June and July are significant for your connection. I am sensing either you or your future spouse is the mind your own business kinda person. Like one of you guys dony't like bullshit and all the other one does is ramble about unnecessary things. very cute play fights I can sense over here. When you meet your future pouse pile 5 at the time you guys will be taking a moment of rest. It is quite possible that you have taken significant steps towards your goal and now it is your time to take some rest or go on a vacation. You might meet your person at that time.
Pile 6
You could meet your future spouse in spring. And the month of August could be significant. I lost my focus and started thinking about another reading which I have to do and as a result I was shuffling for a little while until my focus was shifted back on this reading. The cards fell instantly after that. This could be advice for some of you that focus on whatever you are doing. Don't lose your focus. As you will be meeting your future spouse after a wish fulfilment for which you have to work hard and focus on the process. Why do I get that many of you are procrastinating do not do that. Pile 6 you have to focus on your goals this is like a serious warning and advice from your spirit guides. You will only be able to meet your future spouse after you have achieved this goal. Your guides are telling me that you are forcing them to be strict on you. Try increasing your attention span slowly. Are there any students here? I am getting that energy. Try pomodoro method. And is somebody struggling with history? Or with how to make notes? Search on youtube. You will find your answers.
Pile 7
You could meet your future spouse in autumn and March, April could be significant months for your connection. I am getting fierce and fearless energy over here. One of you could be in your rebellious phase when you meet. I am getting this is more of your energy and you are in this mindset that I want to win at any cost. This is mostly about your work life and I am getting you may meet them in your professional realm. So, it is quite possible for a few of you to have your future spouse working in the same industry as you are. But you are focused on your goals. And you won't stop until and unless you achieve them.
Pile 8
You could meet your future spouse in spring and the months November and December could be significant for your connection. You should be away from your home and it could be a professional work trip or a personal vacation for a family vacation or you shifting to a totally new place. But I see that you will be exploring the world at the time you meet your future spouse. You will be getting out of your comfort zone.
Pile 9
You can meet your person in the month of March , April and May. They could be someone who holds a lot of authority. They could be someone who is ambitious and stubborn. You will be facing a big decision when you meet your future spouse. And you will have to take this decision rationally using your logic and common sense. Maybe this has something to do with your person maybe not. Whatever it is you are advised to think from your head and not feel from your heart in context to this decision.
Thank you Thank you Thank you everyone for reading. Hope to see you in the next one.
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ïžïžâč ! àł Pile 1 ê±
You desire to be yourself at all costs. Iâm getting a bit of a defensive energy from you, youâre not exactly the type to go out there and fight people but if anyone were to mess with you youâd be defensive. Interestingly, youâd defend yourself mentally, as in, youâd not let them get to you. Action wise though, youâre putting yourself first but learning how to still be fairly generous. Youâre being private and secretive, youâre not revealing much of who you are, how you think or what youâre up to to others. You have hope for yourself and the future and you wish to shine in order to become who youâve always wanted to be. In matters of the heart, you seem to have left someone or possibly multiple people, place or situations behind for the best but you still think about it. You also think about how it took for you to walk away if you were unable to walk away right away. You feel like whatever you had to walk away from was stagnant and caused nothing but unnecessary stress and stagnation in your life. When it comes to the soul, youâre putting self love first. Honestly, as much as you desire connection and feel lonely sometimes, you actually want to focus on yourself. Even if youâre someone who in the past was friendly and tried to form connections, at this point even if connections try to fall right onto your lap, you do not exactly want to take them up. You wish to strengthen your bond with yourself and become more controlled within yourself, and your own life first. About the situation that you left behind, it was something with potential but someoneâs ego ended up getting in the way. I feel like it was a person that you had to leave behind (possibly even multiple people) and you were initially confused, you didnât understand why you were being treated so poorly and why they were being so intolerant towards you until you looked deeper into yourself and realised that some things are better not understood. You have a lot ahead of you, you do not even need to think about the past but yes, you were treated poorly and thatâs all there is to it. You may have been sorta obsessed or heavily attached to whatever or whoever this was but it was for the best that you got rid of it. I just heard âitâs not your faultâ. Right now, youâre trying to get back in touch with your more gentle and compassionate side despite being pushed into this self protective and defensive place by circumstances. As much as you may desire connections, by this point, you know that no one will save you. Youâre not even victimising yourself or anything, youâre just trying to take accountability and responsibility for yourself.
You still recognise that some actions you took were shameful and the way youâve started thinking, and being is tainted too, youâre trying to clear yourself of all this so that you can get back to being yourself, completely and wholly. Whatever youâve had to undergo, itâs good that you left it behind because you were meant to do so. Even with a heavy heart, you decided to go forth with self trust. You were left with no choice but to move forward all by yourself is what Iâm getting. What you saw to be emotionally fulfilling, stable, reliable and full of love, a place where you had actually invested so much affection into turned out to be something to heal from. In the beginning, you could almost see no way out of it. You didnât realise when your safe haven had become a trap where you were tied and blindfolded, where you felt so scared and didnât even know what you were supposed to do and not do. However, youâre someone who has excellent thinking abilities so even though you were unsure of what to do going forward, you decided and managed to find a way out of it. The more time that passed, the more you come to realise just how one sided your most fulfilling and deep connections were, and it disheartens you but a part of you is glad to have grown to the point to be able to see and accept the truth as it is. Youâre someone who was often carrying burdens and connections all by yourself, you were taking responsibility for people and connections that were one sided, and wouldnât have done the same for you. Even after things ended, youâve had to carry the load of guilt, pain and healing all by yourself, and youâre doing so. Itâs unfair that you were neglected and theyâre apathetic or seemed to be like it despite the storm that you had to undergo but itâs okay, you are only growing into a more lively and warm version of yourself. The same experiences that have closed you off are giving way to a stronger, wiser, more loving, empathetic, compassionate and refined version of you. Your generosity and sort of naive nature was abused, and you have every right to be disappointed but it wonât do much and you know it. You seem to be doing pretty well for yourself so far, please continue doing so. If youâre yet to walk away from this situation, please do so. In the past, you were trying to manage time well and gave a lot of priority to time management, and quality time. You made a lot of memories in the past and were incredibly kind, giving and loving but it ended in heartbreak, betrayal and disappointed. So in the present, youâre a bit more lonely and isolated, youâve still not gotten over things mostly because youâve been unable to socialise enough or with the right kind of people but youâre breaking free from a lot that had you trapped.
There was a point when you felt victimised and trapped, youâre slowly but surely stepping into your power and have realised that youâre not as powerless as you were made to feel. I keep on hearing the song âlonelyâ by Jonghyun and Taeyeon in my head, I havenât even listened to that song in more than a year I think. Youâre going to build a great deal of stability and achievements for yourself going forward, youâll not have found the right connections yet but youâll be grateful to your birth family, community and your birth place or the place where you grew up in some way. Youâre going to be and feel abundant, and there will be no space for anyone from the past who comes in trying to act as though nothing happened or to âapologiseâ. Youâll follow the philosophy of âsilence is better than explaining sometimesâ and youâll gift them with silence or utmost coldness, and youâll not think twice about it, youâll not regret it, and you shouldnât either! Due to your past experiences, youâve developed a belief that maybe youâre hard to love, maybe youâll never be truly chosen or appreciated. About how you should go about resolving and dealing with these kinds of beliefs is by firstly understanding that your anger towards people and situations is fully valid. When and if youâre not appreciated or treated well, youâre allowed to treat them in a similar manner too. The thing with you is that youâre not that kind of a person, you wish to be respectful and fairly diplomatic at all times. So the only way for you to treat others the way they treat is through silence, avoidance and absence. Look back at everything that has happened, everything that has caused you pain and see what makes you feel like youâre unlovable. Ask yourself if it was your environment (what they said, how they treated you, etc.), you simply picking yourself apart, a sense of lack or insecurity, just make sure to get to the root of it and throw that belief out from its root, then fill that place with positive thoughts and beliefs instead. Be present, be pleasant, be proud. If you have an idea for something, feel free to implement it, if you donât have the resources yet, try to find a way to build those resources because look, if you want to, you will. Put yourself first at all costs but donât close your heart, love people, maybe not interpersonally until you learn that theyâre trustworthy enough but just be a kind person in general. Stop obsessing over such thoughts, let them slip away and reassure yourself when they do come up. Be kind to yourself because how can you feel shitty about possibly never receiving love, being chosen or treated the way you want when youâre not even choosing yourself, when youâre not even treating yourself the way you should be. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
ïžïžâč ! àł Pile 2 ê±
Youâre not exactly that optimistic right now. Iâm getting that you have become sort of defensive but itâs only because you desire to be your authentic self at all costs. Youâve become very self conscious and regretting the choices, and decisions that youâve made in the past, especially in regard to some sort of an uncommitted connection. You experienced a breach of trust and loyalty that led you to a period of just feeling shaken and just turned your life upside down. You still hold anger about this situation because you felt as though you lost everything. There was something that was initially fun and you felt really passionate and excited about. It was probably romantic or just significant, you thought the feelings there were real and mutual but it ended in disappointment instead. Iâm getting that this was something that wasnât the developed yet. As in, things didnât really get anywhere. You felt deceived and insecure about yourself in the end. I think that both parties here acted childlike and childish, there was just some immaturity which led to the connection ending before it even started. You felt rejected and as though the other party was treating you that way with bad intentions. You guys didnât really communicate, you likely overanalysed the situation and are feeling defensive right now. You are unable to make your mind about this person for some reason. You feel like maybe they didnât intend on anything serious after all and had ill intentions or didnât feel much but at the same time, thereâs an odd soft spot. This soft spot is not even soft anymore, youâre going to spit out venom if this soft spot is touched đ. You feel like they tried to sell you some sort of false vision of the future. You lack clarity about the situation and feel stupid to have fallen for whatever this stupid game is. In this reading, youâre going to get the closure that you so desperately seem to need but if you donât want to, youâll still not make your mind up about them and the situation. Youâve grown to be someone independent and wise, youâre also grateful for all that you have and try to carry yourself properly. You know that this situation is over but at the same time, you donât really know. You fear moving on but if they were to come in, due to how theyâve left you feeling so uncertain, youâd not even want to commit and you dislike the fact that you were abandoned but you feel like you donât even have any right to complain either. Your self esteem has lowered, you really need to get it back. You feel like maybe this was not even all that, you just overestimated its significance? Youâve matured significantly and are trying to move forward but something just seems to hold you back, you still havenât been able to get rid of your soft spot for them and the memories you made. However, despite the lack of closure and soft spot, youâve accepted your lot and are trying to move forward. You seem to have kept them deep within yourself though, you think of them when no one is around especially and you like to show as if youâre not thinking about them but theyâre still at the back of your mind. Youâre still pretty confused and also unhappy about how things ended but youâve released a lot of fear and youâre still doing so.
You want to see the truth at this point but youâre keeping everything under wraps. For most of you, others may not know how deep your feelings for them run, they may not even know that they hold such effect on you at all. Youâre just exhausted of everything. Youâre here for the reality check that your soul requires to move forward. I hope you actually make a firm decision to do something with yourself and your mind with the information that Iâm going to channel for you. They feel quite hopeless about this situation too. You make them feel pretty unstable and itâs not like you do anything wrong, itâs just the dynamic between the both of you. Theyâve always had mixed feelings about you and try to be neutral about you. Itâs funny because you make them feel extremes. There is this weird feeling of being deeply connected with one another. However, Iâm not sure if you know about it but maybe they dated someone else after the both of you went no contact so well, they basically did choose someone else and you deserve better than that. They feel held back from you and are acting like they are persistently moving forward in life (which they are) and arenât really doing much towards you. Theyâre focused on refining themself, building their life and trying to create more inner harmony. Maybe if itâs not someone from the past and youâre dealing with someone like this right now and can pick up on odd vibes from them, this is how itâs going to end up but well going forward with the reading, in terms of their intentions, they do not and have not intended anything serious. Theyâre incredibly focused on building a certain life for themself and you do not fit the mold and you shouldnât have to, youâre yourself and thatâs okay. Itâs not like anything is wrong with you, theyâre being cautious, they fear getting hurt too. The feelings here are pretty strong but they choose to maintain this half heartedness and you deserve better than that. Especially if they got with someone else, thatâs your answer right there, you deserve so much better. They feel protective of you and desired to take care of you. They intended on being compassionate with you but the dynamic between you seems to be such that youâre not even sure if youâre friends, foes, strangers or lovers. Itâs confusing to them too. They think that things between you have ended and youâve changed a lot since the last time they saw you. They think that youâre going with the flow and that your connection didnât develop the way it could have. Thereâs this sense of things being left unfinished that you both share. They remember how fun you were and how big your aura, and energy were. They just have the desire to be physically intimate with you, it isnât conscious but they want to touch you in innocent ways too. They could have done that in the past, touching your head, measuring hands or just any excuse to be around you. They also canât deny how much they themself have changed. Deep feelings were involved despite the surface level aggression and lack of progression. Both parties lacked tact. There was a lot of attraction between the both of you and they have not forgotten you either, youâre not easy to forget either, youâre not easy to get over either.
You still deserve so much better, donât let them hold you back anymore. Characterise people by their actions and youâll never be fooled by their words. Oftentimes people do not need to tell you anything, their actions tell you everything that you need to know. Compromise on your feelings for right now so that you can protect them on the long term. Thatâs true self love, respect and protection. About how you should go about healing yourself. Put yourself first at all times, itâs very important. Iâm also hearing that you should enter the world with a new zest. Get moving, go to new places that youâre not familiar with, help those in need and be selfish, as in, understand that youâre valuable and when it comes to interpersonal connections your needs, wants, desires, boundaries and values need to be prioritised just as much as the other personâs. Listen to your inner self and donât forget who you truly are. Youâre still discovering yourself so you do not need to know all about who you are yet, just donât forget your true essence. You were hurt, donât forget that. Be honest with yourself, come clean about anything you might have done unrelated to this person that youâre not proud of (to yourself) and actively decide to do better, and lead a more intentional life. Your past self regardless of any hurt or pain was someone who decided to walk away but it caused you to develop a lack of control and therefore, a need for it. It could have manifested in ways where you wanted to be right in every conversation, where you got angry when things didnât go your way, etc. You were lazy, lacked goals or didnât have it in you to follow through with plans. You were undisciplined and indecisive, and were put at a point where you didnât even know what to do, like legit, you didnât know if you were supposed to laugh or cry. Currently you hold a great hatred or at least dislike for certain things, people or characteristics. You have a lot of rage within you and feel vulnerable at times and also betrayed but you are slowly regaining the strength to become compassionate and loving again. Youâre a charismatic charmer whoâs warm and enjoys fun. Youâre also someone disciplined who likes to consistently work towards what you desire. Your passion is something that canât be taken away from you and Iâm happy about that because youâre still as passionate as ever. Your future holds many achievements for you and also a community, you are going to receive respect and will have developed really thick skin by then. Youâll have become someone who has it in you to undergo any situation and stand firm but will be willing to walk away at the first two signs of disrespect. You will have a life thatâs moving for you and will not be willing to stop your life for anyone. You will have a lot of hope for the future and will become someone whoâs looked up to for inspiration. Youâll conduct yourself with a down to earth humanitarian nature but a part of you will always remain distant and untouched. Youâll be deeply intriguing and I heard a âdream girlâ. Iâm hearing the song âhead over heelsâ in my mind, you might give off the vibes of that song. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
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You donât need to hear anything except that youâre doing well plus some advice. Mentally, you seem to be restricted, guarded and just resisting. Youâre resisting everything thatâs trying to overpower you and rise above it all. You have been through life turning events and have had the rug swept right off your feet yet you choose to hold your ground. You are defensive to a certain extent as in, youâre willing to guard yourself against anything or anyone that tries to stray you away from this knowing that youâre powerful. You have the knowledge that everything is an illusion and that life is in fact what you make it. Youâre also aware that youâre going to spend the majority of your life within your mind so you try to make it a good place to be in. Your thoughts revolve around self control and holding yourself back from guilty pleasures or anything that could cause you harm or pain in the future. Youâre using your inner resources and letting go of all that you know is better let go of. You feel like certain thought patterns and ways donât benefit you so youâre trying to do better than that. Youâve become someone whoâs willing to give up and wonât be all persistent for people, connections and situations that donât show growth. Itâs not like you were not shaken, at some point, you had your world turning upside down and despite trying to hold yourself together, everything was just very hard for you but you still managed to just be intentional and in turn, have those intentions help you out. Are you by any chance into manifesting or at least believe in something magical happening when a human is being authentic to themself and keeping their attention, energy, thoughts and vibrations in the right place? Whether or not you believe in the concept of manifesting as a whole, you believe and understand the importance of intentions, actions, vibrations, mindset, etc. You have a great deal to influence others but you donât want to do it in an influencer manner. When you influence someone, you want it to be because your authentic self was so touching to them that they inevitably were influenced, positively at that. You try to be a positive influence for yourself, trying to be intentional and also with others. You seem to be mindful in general though, Iâve gotta say that your focus on your goals can cause you to be too intentional towards them instead. Youâre still actively trying to cut through anything that is trying to get to you and maintain a balanced judgement about life and people. You do not wish to hate particular groups of people because you were wronged by a few of them or believe that youâll never be loved because some people couldnât love you the way you needed and wanted to be loved.
Instead, you want to maintain an even judgment of what happened and how you, and others played a part in it. Youâre not someone who minds taking accountability but youâve realised that this quality of yours has and can lead you to being used as a scapegoat or to guilt trip you so youâre also trying to be more discerning going forward. You were stuck in situations too long because you might have been trying to see and understand things from the other partyâs perspective but when you felt like it was getting too much, you decided to leave despite things being unresolved so sometimes the past does try to haunt you but you still try to leave it behind. You try to grow emotionally, be active if possible at least to a certain extent and be in the present moment instead. You try to focus on the positives like how there is always something to be grateful for, even if itâs just the little things. Life is not too exciting but youâre still not letting your zest for it die. Keep going, young champ. Iâm hearing those lyrics âeven if you leave, I may fine cause my heart, it has its own designâ, you have developed this understanding that no matter who leaves, you will be fine, you should be fine by this point. It has happened a lot, pretty deeply too, while your heart was still deeply attached to people, things ended or you decided to end them which led to you still being emotionally attached to them, and every time you thought it would get better it didnât, you also really desired and needed a closure but you have decided to give yourself one instead. You understand that emotional cycles for you have either come to an end or are coming to an end with many obstacles and delays. It is a bit sad because you feel like you did waste quite a bit of time mourning, crying or hurting over things that were not that good to begin with or made you feel like you werenât good enough, where someone else was prioritised over you or you were excluded, etc. but you understand that you just wanted to have a community and be loved so youâre choosing to not be too hard on yourself. You understand that for you connections are something celebratory and like family, you desire and need stability, and youâre just firm on that belief. You feel like, you too, did deserve someone who would try to understand you and meet you in the level of depth that you try to meet everyone. You probably really enjoy the found family trope. Right now, youâre focused on winning in every aspect and remaining self disciplined. I wonder if there are any cancer or fourth house placements here. Possibly even capricorn. Currently, youâre using two completely different aspects of your personality to navigate life and emotional matters.
You probably have goals that youâre working on and are truly doing everything in order to live your dream. You also try to make every day mean as much as possible. When it comes to your soul, youâre more focused on yourself and your own path rather than connections. Even if you do desire connections, because you desire deep ones, unless you can find anything that matches up to that, you are focused on making your own name and achieving your goals. Your soul desires to gain recognition and be self sufficient, and abundant within yourself. My piece of advice to you is to add more passion into your life and not be greedy when working towards your goals. There is a lot of knowledge, wisdom and love around if you simply look around, setting the distractions of the human conditions away. Turns out, I didnât really have to give you much advice. You seem to be doing well, be proud of yourself. Iâm rooting for you, from here. Oh yeah, about your past present and future, in the past, you were over giving and people pleasing to a certain extent, donât shame yourself for it because you were conditioned to do so and you also carried everything by yourself, you acted and felt like everything was your fault and responsibility even when it was not. There have been times when youâve had to deal with really one sided connections and in the present, you understand how cold the world is so you try to navigate it strategically, however, youâve not lost your kindness and try to be generous, and spread warmth everywhere you go but you value reciprocity, and donât put your energy into places, people and situations that are undeserving of it. In the future, you might be able to look at your past i.e. your present moment and maybe even your current past as something beautiful. You might go back to your school, university, old workspace, childhood home or spend more time with your family. Iâm getting some reminiscence of childhood taking place. Youâre going to try to build more stability for yourself and have the understanding that everything you need is on the ground. Youâll still be trying to cultivate more wealth though. Youâll have a very ride or die nature and will want people who would stick through with you through anything and everything. People who just have it in them to support you through the various twists and turns of life. You wonât want to closely engage with those whose love for you is not strong enough to stand the issues of life. Youâll believe that âlife happensâ is just an excuse because life is going to continue happening and using that as an excuse to abandon people and connections is just funny to you. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.
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FUTURE SPOUSE : WHAT YOU LOVE ABOUT THEM
(can also apply to long-term committed partner)
This is a general reading meant for multiple people. Take only what resonates and leave out the rest.
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1. Carnelian
The Carnelian stone, which represents this group, looks like a heart with The Moon stone right above it, open, its dark side is exposed, making the impression of a heart broadcasting something. I can see that this person has an open heart. They put their vulnerability on an open platter for you to see. They had been hurt in the past, their heart is full of scars, but they don't hide it. It takes great bravery to do that, and you will love them for it.
They know how to move on from past hurt, from pains, especially in relationships. They didn't become pessimistic because of it. They have learnt the lessons and are ready to do better in the future. You won't see bitterness in them, they're probably the kind that don't talk bad about their ex, even if that ex had hurt them badly. This trait will also be clearly felt when you two have arguments or in conflicts. They may be angry, you may shout at each other, but they will cool down and think rationally about the problem and ready to solve it together with you, no passive-aggressive actions. After that, they won't bring it up again in the future just to make you feel bad.
Part of the reason why they can bravely face the conflict and move on is because they can detach their mind from the conflict, able to see it from many viewpoints. They are fully aware of their emotions, but they don't let them run amok and cloud their mind. They give equal respect to both emotion and rationality. At times, they can even appear a little cold or detached, too logical, but you will still admire that about them or even find it attractive.
They could have a very unique beauty or what is considered classic beauty but put a creative spin to it. The kind that stands out, or at least in your eyes, you will always be able to find them in a crowd. Not exactly because it's so exceptional but because it shows individuality.
I don't think they are a conventional person, something about them is going against the grain of society. They are a free thinker, the way they think and speak is unique and beautiful. It's full of wisdom and maturity. You can learn a lot from them. Their advice is kind and considerate and you will feel their love through it.
Above all, you love their compassion for life. They are a humble person, despite their talents and wisdom, they don't go around lecturing and ordering people. They understand that everyone has their own problems and fears, so even in conflict, they won't go out of their way to demolish the other person. They have the mindset of 'Live and let live'.
Being with them will make you feel peaceful, understood, and free. At times, it will feel like a gentle breeze blowing through your hair in the middle of a field, at other times, it will feel like sinking yourself into the tub, warm water washing away all of your fatigue.
2. Tiger's eye
I get a feel that this person spoils you a lot. They would try to fulfil your every wish, as long as it's in their ability. It could be buying you gifts, cooking your favourite dishes, helping around the house etc. They just know how to make you feel safe and satisfied.
They are generous and dependable. A part of them is very adventurous while another part of them is more traditional and liking structure. This traditional part is likely shown only in close relationships. You can feel that they treat you more specially, more preciously, they put serious intention into the relationship with you.
They could be a little clingy? wanting to be with you at every moment, somehow the old song 'I don't want to miss a thing' by Aerosmith comes to mind. You may complain about it sometimes but I think secretly, you do enjoy that kind of behaviour. It shows loyalty.
They would like to take the more dominant role in the relationship, wanting to lead and plan ahead for both of you. If you are someone more on the passive side, this will make you more at ease. Beware of the tendency for 'laziness' and 'dependency' though, since they take on the more active role and like to do things more.
The way they talk, it's smooth and has a sway to it. They could give you lots of compliments, not the shallow, generic kind but the kind that unique only to you, makes you feel that they pay attention to every small detail about you. They sure know how to flatter your ego a bit and make you feel more confident in yourself.
Whatever darkness is hiding in your closet, they will pull it out for you, gently, persuasively, do a spring cleaning and give you a better perspective on those issues. You may feel resistant at first, but gradually, with time, you will come to appreciate their doing this for you. They could buy you a house but they'd rather help you build your own house.
Another thing you love about them is their passion, it's spontaneous and out of the blue, like electricity. Things are planned in such an unplanned way that you will be surprised every time. Being with them will feel safe but never boring.
You guys may also communicate a lot through dreams or other psychic means. The connection has a strong spiritual side to it. You and them both intuitively know what the other person is thinking without many words spoken. It's a silent understanding, a link between two spirits.
3. Aventurine
I get a sense of candidness from this person. They have a style of expression that is both soft, childlike yet wise and mature at the same time.
They have a dry or wacky sense of humour that you love. It touches other's insecurities in such an odd way that make others feel at ease and safe with them. For example, you guys have to go somewhere dark but you have a fear of the darkness, instead of making fun of you for it, they will act all scared and jumpy and insist on holding your hand to calm them down, even if they don't actually scare of the dark. They can make fun of themselves and bring themselves down a bit to elevate the other person. You would have your fears gradually banished by being with them. They help you to be more courageous.
Even though they act like that, they don't seem to be someone that people can mess with. Maybe they have a very intimidating air about them. The way they deliver the jokes could be very deadpan. But it will make you laugh and make you feel protected.
This person doesn't have a big ego. They're self confident, as in being sure of themselves and that's for them is enough, they don't feel the need to go around imposing their will on other people, advertising their brilliance to get praise. In fact, this person is very down-to-earth, praise actually come naturally to them. Because of their sureness in themselves, they know where they stand in a relationship, what they want from a relationship, where the relationship is going, so they are decisive. They will tell you straightforwardly how they feel and what they want for the relationship. If there's a problem in the relationship, they will address it clearly to you and expect both of you to solve it together. You will love them for their honesty and their way of approaching everything.
They could be the best hugger. You love being hugged by them. Something feels soft and warm, yet sturdy. They may not be a big person but their energy is big. Even if their physique is smaller than you, hugging them will feel like hugging a big tree or a big teddy bear.
They are also very giving. They will share their time, their resources with you without second thought, or for some hidden motives. There could be a boundary issue though, you may sometimes feel that you guys have fused with each other, the boundary of what is yours, and what is theirs will be blurred. Maybe you're someone who likes to be one with your partner, then you could find this to be of no issue.
4. Clear quartz
This person seems like someone who is very good with words. They could be in the publishing, writing, or journalism. Or singing.
They are like a magician, there's magic in their work. They have an expansive inner world. When you get closer to them and take a peek inside their world, you will see its marvels, like a large reservoir, an inner creative power generator. They can translate that power into their works, works that can move many people. It comes with rigorous hard work, though. They are dedicated to whatever they're doing. They want perfection, mastery over it, whatever hard work is needed, they don't mind putting all in. That attitude is what makes dreams come true. And I think you can't help but fall in love with that.
They could seduce you with just words or their voice. The way they talk or sing can speak deep into your soul, pull out your hidden feeling. They could have a healing effect on you that you love. It makes you feel like being cocooned in a velvet blanket.
This person has a sensitive and intense soul. They don't love lightly. Once they are committed to someone, they will be there with that person through thick and thin, always preparing to face the storm together. You will love being loved by them. It's not a common experience. Love is not a common experience, of course. But being in love with them will have a depth that is hard to find with other people. They could make your past relationships feel pale in comparison. This person could show their love for you through physical touch and intimacy. It's when their love will find its rawest expression.
You will love them for for being a humanitarian. They care about the world, society, and people. What they're doing is not just a form of self-expression but also directed towards a bigger goal. They want to contribute to the greater good, to make changes and make people's life better. It may sound like some kind of lofty ideals, but actually they do believe in it. And their faith will be their power. You have fallen in love with a magician, so expect magic and miracles coming out of their hat.
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our little thing
chwe hansol + bickering over which christmas movie is superior wc: 672 warnings: vernon being a cutie, gets a little emotional at the end (i think) author's note: todays exam was shit. this was made in a haste. please bear with me (me for the 23456th time). but i kinda like it a little. also basically i've tweaked the prompt a little i guess. but this was the general idea. hope you like it <33 winter wonderland masterlist
"sol, stop sulking; it's been more than an hour now!"
hansol just huffs once more before crossing his arms across his chest and looking away. you walk over to him to sit beside him.
"it was just a silly debate, non. i didn't even mean it that seriously."
"silly?! you mean to tell me, that movies are silly?!" he mocks a hurt expression before pressing his palm to his chest to drive his point home. you can only roll your eyes at this drama queen of a boyfriend.
two hours ago, vernon posed a question that he explained was 'in the spirit of the holidays'.
"what's your favourite christmas movie?" he asked while you were looking at decoration ideas through pinterest for seungcheol's christmas bash.
you actually had to judge him for that. for asking you that question, when he very well knew the fact that you were: 1) not a movie person, and 2) not a holiday person (two things that emotionally hurts vernon every time you express it, he claims).
so without much thought, you say what could have been the worst answer anyone could ever give to a movie person who likes the holidays:
"i dont know; i never really cared."
vernon swears he heard something break into a million pieces at that moment. if he were half as dramatic as his best friend seungkwan was, he'd have faked a faint and fell to the floor with his hand to the forehead (you say this in detail because this has happened before - when you answered the same way when he asked what your favourite christmas song was).
you thank whoever is up there that your boyfriend is nonchalant.
but this answer was enough for your stoic boyfriend to pout (a pout!! that you has to resist kissing), and move to the other end of the couch, far away from you, with the same worked up expression as right now.
for a whole two hours, he stayed huffing and puffing across from you.
you try to get him to look at you, but when that doesn't work, you climb onto his lap and hold his face between your hands. his face felt cold to the touch, nose a pretty pink and lips still in a pout.
this time, you don't resist your urge to kiss.
you lean in and press a lingering kiss to his lips. you could feel him melt under you, leaning into you while trying to deepen the connection. when you pull away after some time, he rushes to chase your lips. you place a finger to his.
"sol," you take a breath and continue.
"i've never really celebrated the holidays before. i mean, we did have some quality family time during the meals, of course. but we've never shopped for ornaments, or decorated the tree and put up a star. i've never sat down with them to watch christmas movies."
you smile when you notice his nose become even red, and smooch it.
"so, i've never really found the appeal to it. i'm grateful for all the holidays i've had, i really am. but there are just some things i silently wish for at times."
he takes a deep breath and pulls you in for a hug.
"let me fulfill that wish for you. we're a family, you and i. we can make new traditions, you know? i've watched a lot of holiday movies, we can watch them together ever year. make it special with some wine, or some hot chocolate. some caramel popcorn. a warm blanket around us."
he pauses to smile before going on.
"and you'll fall asleep in the middle of it, but i won't wake you up because then i'll get to have your share of the popcorn too. and i can tease you about it till the next year, when we do more things to tease each other about."
vernon presses a chaste kiss to your lips.
"you and i can slowly make it our little thing, just like you've wanted."
prompt by @novelbear divider by @adornedwithlight
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