#but huzzah! words! writing!

[allsassnoclass]

Hey hazel! I've heard you're kind of a legend around these parts, and I had to show my friend Roy. I hope your writing is going well! Ooh, let me do one of these asks. What's the deepest dive you've ever done for fic research? Good luck with whatever you're working on, and happy April fools!

Calum

Hi Mr. Hood! I'm so glad that you and Roy had fun nosing around here on April Fool's Day. I'm sure it was a pleasant experience. Thank you for your well wishes with my writing! As for your question, I think the deepest dive I've ever done for fic research was either just generally diving into 2011-2012 era 5sos history for unmute or the research I did on ballet companies for pas de deux! unmute in general has probably had more research and been more frustrating to research, because at the end of the day I could still make up a lot about pas de deux since i was creating a whole new ballet company, but unmute is confined by realism in a way most of my other fics aren't.

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hoptal

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent-ish things ~

[sugarsnappeases]

they should let me not go to any of my classes and not do any of my essays and still give me my degree i think

[swampstew]

hi !! 💝, 🤍 and 🕯️for your writer ask game, please

helllooooo ~ thanks for dropping in and playing! i've kicked up So Much Dust

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

I was honestly shocked at how positively received KillerCook is! My aim was to create chapters that made you feel like you were scrolling on social media, I wanted you the reader to be excited when you saw that notification go off. People see the vision, they love the perspective, and they also engage with the characters themselves! It feels like I cultivated a real TikTok influencer and I'm like HOW?!?!?! I can't even do that for myself irl XD

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

Thankfully I don't think I've had too many, if any, experiences where I felt like my work was minsinterpreted. I like to think I write a broad range of tropes and tones, well enough, that it doesn't cause confusion. That said, if anyone did want to ask me about my stories because they wanted me to clarify things or explain any misunderstandings, please let me know!

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

Both my OC fics tbh. I wanted to do just fun, sexy stories that I could project myself on to and kiss Eustass Kid, but my writing became a cathartic experience. I've been able to process and deal with my own trauma through the things I've published, and the things I've chosen to keep private. For privacy things are changed obv, but it let me see those things from a different prerspective and it was emotionally challenging. Its part of the reason its taken me two years two write both, and only one is close to being done!

Send me fic questions to save me from dust bunnies :]

[godblooded]

good morning little gay people in my phone.

[e1ectrostatic]

30 Day Fictionkind Challenge Day 14

Q: What are shifts like?

A: Before I begin, I'm strictly speaking about my personal experience here, and in no way does this post serve as a universal definition. Think of this like a diary entry, not an encyclopedia entry.

Anyway, what they're like can vary wildly based on several factors. Two big ones are the kintype in question, and what prompted the shift. Generally though, a shift almost always comes with strong feelings attached, and in its own way, each shift feels like coming home.

Because this blog is for discussing my identity as Luca, I'll focus on that kintype. However, it's a bit hard for me to describe, because more often than not I'm in a Luca shift. I consider it more of a "default" state of being, for lack of a better term.

Anyway, how a Luca shift feels depends on what prompted it. In my personal experience, kinshifts are always prompted by something, and never come randomly.

Most of the time, shifts are prompted by music. Sometimes it's music that resonates with me lyrically — the words metaphorically "bring me back" to my source. Other times, it resonates with me melodically. The sound scratches my brain in a "Luca" way, and/or is a song I would've liked in-source. Sometimes, both the lyrics and the melody take me back.

Other common triggers include (but aren't limited to):

Lore drops (particularly about my backstory or time at the manor)

Any other official drops that I consider relevant to me

Fanart that aligns with my memories/noemata or otherwise touches me in some way

Analysis of my source that aligns with my own perception, or that prompts new introspection

Unrelated creative works that resonate with me from a Luca perspective

Random posts/memes on the internet I find relatable or that cater to my sense of humor

A common denominator among all of these potential triggers is that they are all callbacks to my memories and noemata. For example, my birthday reveal prompted a Luca shift, because it affirmed my suspicions about what my interests, likes, and dislikes were.

Another example of something that has happened to me several times is finding a song that reminds me of someone important to me, so I ruminate on my feelings and memories about that person, which prompts a Luca shift.

A final example I'll give is coming across a post on my dash that I feel captures my "essence" as Luca, so I sit and think about it and any specific memories or noemata it may have reminded me of. Or maybe I just find it relatable (or funny!) without necessarily being reminded of specific aspects of my source. Both cases can prompt a shift.

My response to the shift and how it feels depends on how I feel about the memories and stuff attached to it (positively or negatively). Generally speaking, whether my feelings are positive or negative, I'll probably feel pretty intensely going into it regardless, and spend the next while dwelling on it.

My negative memories/noemata associated with this kintype hold a lot of resentment and anger, so those are the most common emotions I feel during a shift prompted by stuff like that. I may also feel sadness for what I've lost or what I've been through. Or, I can feel frustration at what I didn't know then and don't know now. Feelings like hate, obsession, and grief are no strangers during these shifts.

Shifts fueled by negative emotions can feel like a stab in the chest, or sometimes it can get especially bad and feel like I'm burning from the inside. Either way, I like to make use of outlets so I'm not just stewing in it. Music is my main outlet, but I may also draw, write, or talk it out if I feel up for it. Redirecting my focus to something else entirely also helps.

From the outside, I might appear withdrawn and low-energy so as to not needlessly dump my problems on others, or misdirect my feelings. If it's nothing too serious though, I probably don't seem any different. Just preoccupied at worst.

My positive memories/noemata associated with this kintype...can honestly be few and far between (having a horror source is great /sarcasm). But, they still exist, and can still prompt shifts just like negative noemata can. Most of the time, shifts prompted by positive emotions are fueled by my love for the people I was close to in my canon (or even just amicable acquaintances with). There's not a lot about this source I can be wholeheartedly happy about outside of my cherished interpersonal relationships, so I can't think of any examples of purely positive shifts off the top of my head that don't revolve around my friends and peers. Maybe I'll come back and try to think of some sometime.

Shifts fueled by positive emotions can feel like a flower blossoming in my chest; it feels full, yet ticklish, like the petals are gently brushing against my flesh. It's comparable to the feeling you get when you're about to laugh. It can also feel like a spurt of energy too big to let out all at once, or simply a tranquil, warm fondness. Usually, I don't feel the need to make use of any outlets, and prefer to sit and enjoy the feeling. If I do use any outlets, though, they're the same ones I use to process negative emotions.

From the outside, I have no idea whether or not being preoccupied with positive noemata affects my behavior. I imagine I don't act differently, but if I do, it can't be anything bad. Perhaps the worst that can happen is that I become a bit more chatty.

Then, there's the grey area between positive and negative: nostalgia. It fits there perfectly, like a puzzle piece linking the two together. Nostalgia is a very common trigger for kinshifts for me, and feels like a potent mix of both pleasant and sour emotions. There's no way for me to describe it concisely. It's deserving of its own post, honestly.

I guess it's just a mix of the positive and negative, period. I feel nostalgia when something reminds me of or when I think about the places, people, and things I loved in my canon. Things I took pride in, as well. It's bittersweet, because while the love I hold is still just as strong today, the key difference between then and now is that what I love doesn't exist in this world. Not to mention the things I loved and lost in my canon, not just the things I lost when I began the life I live now.

Both kin and non-kin alike are familiar with nostalgia, so it feels redundant to explain or describe, but for the sake of consistency and archiving my thoughts I'll do it anyway. Shifts brought about by nostalgia feel like something twisting and wrenching in my chest. Like an itch that can never be scratched, or reaching for something that feels so close, but never so much as brushes against your hand. It's a love for something that no longer exists how I knew it. It's either forever altered, or gone altogether.

Nothing stays in perfect stasis for eternity, as much as I like to deny it. Places and times changing and ceasing to exist altogether are inevitable, so it's inevitable that your love will change, too. Don't get me wrong, it brings me great joy to reflect on the things I love, but the longing comes with the love. It's a package deal.

I suppose that's all I can say on the subject for now. I'll ruminate on this a bit more, and see what else I can write about the subject in the future. Hopefully this is coherent to anyone other than me, and isn't too redundant/repetitive.

Honestly, I went on much longer than I expected to. I thought I'd be in and out, but ended up rambling a bunch. It almost made me give up altogether with how long it dragged out for, but I powered through! If you read this long, thank you for taking the time to listen, and if you wish to share your own experience or want to ask me questions, my notes and inbox are always open. Take care!

[marblemoovt]

Ok I'm attempting to make an AU for Berserk based on the idea of Guts and Casca switching roles in the Eclipse (no need to say what we all know there) and instead of the quest being for revenge as Guts does cannonly at first, Casca makes the quest to look for a cure for Guts' mental state, which is that of a child.

Any suggestions really for any key events and such?

Oooh that sounds like a cool premise. I'm not super familiar with what happens after the eclipse as I only watched the anime and have not read the manga. I did look up some stuff on the wiki so I know small bits and pieces of what happens after, but not enough to confidently write anything remotely canon about it.

But here are some of my thoughts about such an AU.

This is all under the assumption that Guts is assaulted instead of Casca. I'm not sure if that's what you meant but that's what I understood from it. Does this have any effect on the child she's carrying? Guts being assaulted implies that the child remains untainted.

Casca still definitely retains some sort of trauma from that. She was betrayed by the man she used to idolize and love, so there's no way she came out of that completely unscathed. She also essentially was starting to move on from him, and her decision to be with Guts is partially the reason Griffith does what he does at the eclipse. So I feel like she might harbour a guilty conscience as a result. Definitely lots of survivor's guilt because many sacrificed themselves to keep her alive and she wasn't able to protect the one person that mattered the most. I think it would be interesting to show how Casca struggles with the after-effects and what she does to deal with them. Ideally, she'll come to terms with it at the end and find peace.

It's really interesting to think about Guts being the one to regress to a child-like mental state. He's a big guy, so how does Casca get him to move around? When they're in a dangerous situation, she can't exactly pick him up and run away. And while I think she's very capable with a sword, I don't believe she would be able to cut down monsters like Guts could. With both of them branded, she has to keep him safe. In canon, I'm not sure how Guts meets his companions after the eclipse, but maybe that can be the answer to how Casca is able to keep him safe in this AU.

Which reminds me. I think Guts leaves Casca alone with someone he trusts for like a year or two while he goes on his revenge campaign??? I don't remember but something like that happens I think. So one important decision would be this: Does Casca leave Guts with someone or does she take him with her? Because as per the previous paragraph, I don't think it's possible for her to protect them by herself, especially since she's carrying a child. The choice that makes the most sense to me is that she takes him with her, but is accompanied by a few other people. Logically as the months pass, Casca will become more and more pregnant. This is assuming she doesn't give birth prematurely. And I've never been pregnant, but I don't think any pregnant ladies could swing a sword or run around enough to avoid enemies.

Another important fact to consider is what triggers Guts? For Casca, it resurfaces when Guts assaults her and begins to touch her sexually. But what about in this AU? Seeing Casca? Their child? However, given the nature of Guts' childhood, it's possible that this only enhances the trauma from the eclipse, i.e. being touched sexually without consent. You could play with the idea that not only was the eclipse traumatizing, but the fact that he's regressed to a child-like mental state also leaves him vulnerable to the terrible things that happened to him when he was a kid.

I'm not sure if you plan to do anything with Griffith, like if he gets reborn and whatnot. Because a lot of that will change depending on whether the child is tainted or not. Yes, Griffith would most likely be reborn anyway, but without the influence of the child, his behaviour would deviate from the manga.

Honestly, there are just so many events to think about if you intend to go over everything. But if you were planning to only focus on Casca finding a cure and having them live happily ever after, then here are some key event suggestions.

There needs to be some sort of conflict. Something has to get in the way between Casca and the cure. There can be multiple, but there has to be a main one and it should be the most difficult.

How does she overcome this conflict? And how does this change herself and everything around her? There should be some sort of character development that occurs as a result of overcoming this giant hurdle in her life.

At any point do either of their traumas resurface? Why and what for? What purpose does it serve to have them relive these experiences?

How do Guts and Casca meet their travelling companions? I think this one is pretty important because I don't believe Casca will be able to achieve her quest alone. She definitely needs help, maybe she also needs to learn how to ask for/accept it?

I think a really sweet moment would be for Guts to validate everything Casca has done up to that point when his mental state heals. How she did a good job. How she did her best. How she's a good mom, etc.

But that also brings up the question of recovery time. How long does it take Guts to recover once his memories are back? Will he be able to look at Casca without losing himself to flashbacks of the eclipse? Or will this take time?

What about Casca? Will she be afraid of getting too close to him in fear or bringing up bad memories? Will she worry about what he'll think of their child? How they can be parents. Basically the issue of what now? Do you want to tie things off or do you want to bring up a new problem they didn't realize until now?

Ideally, Griffith gets his ass kicked at some point, but you could just ignore him.

[beautifulterriblequeen]

This goes for writers too.

Small artists you need to understand that when you see an artist who you think has 'made it' tells you not to worry about the numbers and to not fret about getting more likes than reblogs they are not telling you it because they think you are stupid for caring or because they dont need to network to survive they are very likely telling you that because they have witnessed first hand the way the numbers game tears people to shreds in terms of mental health and motivation

[icewindandboringhorror]

just a few little bits from the past few days

[chymethefirst]

NOTE GAME 💥💥💥💥

I am absolutelʎ verʎ bad no good horrible at getting the motivation to do ANʎTHING decent for mʎself, so while I highlʎ doubt this will be all that popular, I'm gonna trʎ it anʎwaʎs :)

UPDATE: So this ended up causing me quite a bit of stress, so for things I have to do everyday, I will no longer be trying to update them everyday, and for things that are in progress, theʎ maʎ take a WHILE. Sorrʎ about this.

White means we haven't reached the goal ʎet,

Blue means it's in progress,

Orange means I've completed the goal!

Green means the goal involves doing something everʎ daʎ, so I'm doing that.

Pink means the goal will take a WHILE and is not feasible for the foreseeable future, but I am making plans! I am thinking about it!

1 note: I'll drink water right now. First water of the daʎ! Huzzah ✨✨

2 notes: I'll sort through and relocate mʎ dirtʎ laundry. ʎEAH! DID THAT!! Man I'm unorganized :/

5 notes: I'll make a drawing and post it, no matter the outcome. Just posted! Its more of a doodle sheet but yk who caaaares its fiiiiine 🤠👍

10 notes: I'll take 10 minutes out of mʎ daʎ, everʎ daʎ, to get off of mʎ phone and trʎ to be present in real life. Not updating, doing everʎ daʎ though.

15 notes: I'll trʎ to shower everʎ daʎ. Not updating, doing everʎ daʎ though.

20 notes: I'll start watching star trek with mʎ friend. Both of us procrastinate so verʎ much. Wow. BUT we've made plans to watch an episode everʎ sundaʎ (minus this one) so that's something!

30 notes: I'll trʎ to brush mʎ teeth everʎ daʎ. Not updating, doing everʎ daʎ though.

40 notes: I'll trʎ to not be on mʎ phone for at least an hour after I wake up everʎ daʎ. Not updating, doing everʎ daʎ though.

50 notes: I'll wash mʎ sheets and remake mʎ bed. Done! Even though mʎ bed is a pain in the ass to make, I feel real good now :)

60 notes: I'll completelʎ clean and reorganize mʎ desk. It wasn't even as bad as I thought it would be!! Woah!!!

70 notes: I'll start those new books I've been meaning to read. Ooohh ʎaʎ :) It's a war of the worlds graphic novel thing, and a like 800 page book called the priory of the orange tree. No guarantees of finishing them, but I'll try.

80 notes: I'll start actually learning guitar. Making okaʎ-ish progress! Not verʎ far along but heʎ! I'm getting there! And doing things on mʎ own terms!

90 notes: I'll trʎ to work out everʎ daʎ. Not updating, doing everʎ daʎ though.

100 notes: I'll try to take a walk around the neighborhood everʎ daʎ. Not updating, doing everʎ daʎ though.

150 notes: I'll post a fanfic. Maʎ be horrible, no guarantees. Oooohhh so see thing is I was expecting to hit this MONTHS later so I have litterally nothing planned. So. Maʎ take months. I'll get there though I SWEAR!

200 notes: I'll make an intro post. I. Ok. Frankly I don't have anʎ excuses for this i just. Idk man I reallʎ struggle to pin down anʎthing about mʎself nor how to format it in a waʎ that makes sense/is cool SO this will take done soon but don't hold ʎour breath.

250 notes: I'll post the first chapter of the book I'm working on. Verʎ nearly done!! Oouggh I am but a mere. 100 or so words away. So close......auhsghh

300 notes: I'll make a small comic and post it, no matter the outcome. Ghhh it is Not Good At All but ʎou know. It's there. I suppose.

350 notes: I'll write a song and post it here (if I can figure out how to do that lol) HHHH ok so this is another thing that will take FOR. EVER to do. I will update here perhaps but expect to be waiting for months at least. Sorrʎ :/

400 notes: I'll go thrifting. HEY I actually did that before I noticed I got this many notes 😎 I beat ʎ'all to it teehee :3

450 notes: I'll paint the walls of mʎ room. Hmmm...ponder....so mʎ idea is paint them red but paint the area around mʎ bed blue and paint mʎ doors ʎellow. Big fan of vibrant primarʎ colours here.

500 notes: Clean mʎ room again! But take pictures this time so people can see mʎ beautiful collections of various trinkets. I am verʎ organized I promise. ROOM IS CLEAN!! However I am the worst tʎpe of perfectionist so this maʎ take a little longer so I can tidy some stuff up lol :/

550 notes: Actually go around and collect those random bones from the woods and clean them.

600 notes: Start doing a little weeklʎ song recommendation thing perhaps??

660 notes: Make an effort to reach out to other people on tumblr more instead of just lurking. Whʎ do I do that (social anxietʎ).

700 notes: uhh running out of ideas can ʎ'all leave me some in the comments

(Decided to get rid of the "talk to parents about adhd meds" goal because I don't think theʎ would benefit me personallʎ 😀👍)

For everʎ 1 note this gets, I'll write 10 words in the storʎ I'm working on (this maʎ change later).

Okaʎʎʎ folks let's do this 💪💪💪🔥🔥💥💥💥‼️‼️😎😎😎👍👍👍🤘🤘🤘🤘🔥💥💥💥‼️‼️

Onlʎ 15 notes per person please :)

[viasdiary]

PLEASE write boyfriend's roomate luigi

huzzah! more porn with plot!

☆ attention (luigi mangione x reader)

☆ word count: 2.4k

☆ warnings: unprotected sex, infidelity, degradation, choking, hate sex dynamic

☆ lu is convinced you're desperate for his attention so he decides to fuck you on your boyfriend's bed

you go over to your boyfriend’s place while he’s at work to pick up the sweater you forgot last time you slept over. you walk up to the door, the brisk air harsh against your bare legs. in typical fashion, you’ve forgotten your keys, so you knock softly. it’s late, and you don’t want to be too much of a bother.

a few moments later, luigi answers the door, and there he is—shirtless, his toned chest catching the faint glow of the porch light. his dark curls are slightly tousled, like he’s just rolled out of bed, and his grey sweats hang low on his hips, the waistband of his boxers peeking out. a slow grin spreads across his face when he sees you.

“if you’re here to get laid, your little boyfriend’s at work,” he teases. you roll your eyes, brushing past him to step inside. 

“relax, lu, i’m just here for my sweater.”

“oh, sure,” he says, letting the door close with a soft click. “because there’s no way this could’ve waited till morning.”

“i’ll only be a sec,” you say, looking around the living room. “you could at least help me look for it,” you say, turning over the couch cushions. you feel his eyes on you as you bend over, your tiny skirt riding up.

he’s leaning against the wall with his arms crossed against his bare chest, that ever-present smirk tugging at his lips. “pretty sure it’s in his room,” he says, his gaze fixated on you, bent over the couch.

you straighten up, smoothing your skirt and giving him a pointed look. “and you didn’t think to mention that sooner?”

“figured i’d let you look around a little first,” he says with a shrug, that stupid grin still plastered on his face. he’s enjoying this way too much. “can’t say i mind the view.” he adds quietly.

you roll your eyes, ignoring the warmth creeping up your neck. “you’re so annoying”

luigi’s grin deepens, his dark eyes narrowing slightly as he takes a step closer. 

“annoying? please,” he says, voice dripping with mock pity. “you’re the one parading around in these little skirts like you’re dying for attention. and what, you expect me not to notice?”

your head snaps up, heat rushing to your face. “excuse me?”

“oh, come on,” he says, the teasing edge to his tone sharpening. “you don’t think i see it? always showing up like this—wearing your skimpy little outfits just to grab some sweater or whatever excuse you come up with.” he says smugly.  “what is it? boyfriend’s not paying enough attention to you?” 

you narrow your eyes at him. “that’s not true.”

“right,” he drawls, crossing his arms over his chest. his gaze sweeps over you, slow and deliberate. “because you definitely come here at ten o’clock at night in that for him. makes total sense.”

you let out an indignant scoff, folding your arms across your chest. “you’re such an asshole”

“maybe,” he says with a shrug, his smirk unwavering as he gestures toward the hallway. “but anyways. your sweater’s in his room. on the bed. you’re welcome.”

you sigh, brushing past him to head down the hallway, your heart pounding a little too hard. his presence is annoyingly close behind you as you step into the room, the familiar scent of your boyfriend’s cologne hitting you like a reminder of why you’re here in the first place.

sure enough, there it is—your sweater lying rumpled in the middle of the unmade bed. you grab it quickly, smoothing it out between your hands.

“well, would you look at that,” luigi says from the doorway, his tone laced with smug satisfaction. “guess i saved you from tearing apart the whole house, huh?”

“thanks,” you mutter, trying to keep your voice even as you turn back toward him.

you try to brush past luigi, but he doesn't budge from the doorway. his arm blocks your path, and you find yourself suddenly very aware of how close he is.

"what's the rush?" he asks, his voice low and teasing. "you came all this way. might as well stay a little while."

you swallow hard, clutching your sweater to your chest. "i should really get going."

"should you?" luigi leans in closer, his breath warm against your ear. "because i don't think that's what you want at all."

your breath catches in your throat as his hand comes to rest on your hip, his thumb tracing slow circles over the thin fabric of your skirt. you know you should push him away, tell him to stop, but your body betrays you, leaning into his touch.

"lu," you whisper, your voice barely audible. "we can't,"

but even as the words leave your lips, you feel your resolve weakening. luigi's hand slides around to the small of your back, pulling you flush against him. you feel the heat of his bare skin against your body.

"can't we?" he murmurs, his lips brushing against your neck. "tell me you don't want this. tell me to stop."

you know you should. you know this is wrong on so many levels. but as his other hand comes up to cup your face, tilting your chin up to meet his intense gaze, all logical thought flies out the window.

"i-" you start, but the words die in your throat as luigi's thumb traces your bottom lip.

"that's what i fuckin’ thought," he says with a smirk.

your heart races as luigi's lips crash into yours, his kiss hungry and demanding. your sweater falls forgotten to the floor as your hands instinctively reach up to tangle in his dark curls. he pushes you back into the room, laying you down on the bed.

"god, i've wanted this for so long," he whispers against your mouth, his hands roaming your body.

you gasp as he runs his hands beneath your shirt as he kisses at your neck, your legs wrapping around his waist. he has you pinned against the mattress, his hips grinding against yours. you know this is wrong, that you should stop, but he feels so good on top of you.

"lu, wait," you pant, breaking the kiss. "we can't do this. what about-"

"don't," he cuts you off. "don't think about him right now. just you and me."

luigi's words send a shiver down your spine. you know you should resist, but your body betrays you, arching into his touch. his hands slide up your thighs, pushing your skirt higher.

"tell me you want this," he murmurs against your neck.

you hesitate, torn between desire and guilt. but as his fingers trace the edge of your panties, a soft moan escapes your lips.

"i want this," you whisper, your voice trembling.

a grin spreads across his face as he stares down at you. he loves seeing you like this, you’re practically melting into his touch. "that’s it," he says, before capturing your lips in another searing kiss.

his hands push up your shirt, revealing your bare tits. luigi's hands glide over your exposed skin, his touch eliciting shivers. he breaks the kiss to trail his lips down your neck, nipping and sucking as he goes. you arch into him, fingers digging into his shoulders.

"you’re so fuckin’ hot," he murmurs against your collarbone.

his mouth leaves a trail of hot kisses down your neck and chest. you arch your back as his lips close around your nipple, his tongue swirling expertly. a breathy moan escapes you as he kisses and sucks at your bare skin.

luigi's hand slides further up your thigh, pushing your skirt out of the way. his fingers trace along the edge of your panties teasingly.

"you’re fuckin’ soaked" he murmurs against your skin. "this all for me?"

“fuck, yes,” you say breathily.

a moan escapes your lips and you’re beyond words as his fingers finally slip beneath the fabric. he strokes you slowly, building the ache between your legs.

"please," you gasp, rocking your hips against his hand.

"please what?" luigi asks with a smirk, clearly enjoying having you at his mercy.

“tell me what you want, baby,” he says softly.

"just keep touching me," you whisper.

he smirks, his thumb brushing against your clit, and you can't help the moan that escapes your lips.

"like this?" he teases.

"more," you breathe.

"what's the magic word?" he asks with a grin.

"please," you plead, your voice shaking with desire.

he obliges, slipping a finger inside of you, and you can't stop the cry that escapes your lips

"he's not fucking you right, is he?"

"look at you, fuckin' desperate for it," he growls, pushing another finger inside of you.

you shake your head, too far gone for words. he chuckles, pumping his fingers slowly, torturously.

"thought so."

you arch into him, gasping as his thumb presses against your clit.

"god, lu," you whimper, gripping his shoulders tightly.

his fingers curl inside of you, hitting just the right spot, and you can feel yourself teetering on the edge.

"i'm so close," you gasp.

"not yet," he says, withdrawing his fingers.

"what the fuck," you whine.

"i'm not done with you," he says.

before you can protest, he's tugging your skirt and panties off, tossing them aside.

"spread your legs for me, sweetheart."

you obey, parting your legs, and he settles between them. he places soft kisses up your inner thighs, making you shiver.

"so beautiful," he murmurs against your skin.

he trails his tongue up your thigh, his fingers gripping your hips. when his tongue finally touches your pussy, it's pure ecstasy. you cry out, arching into him as his tongue works magic on your clit.

"fuck, lu, yes," you moan, threading your fingers through his hair.

his tongue circles your clit, sending waves of pleasure coursing through your body. he groans, his hands tightening on your hips as he devours you.

"fuck, don't stop," you plead.

you feel the familiar tightness in your stomach, and you know you're close. luigi picks up the pace, his tongue relentless against your clit. the tension in your body reaches a breaking point, and you let go, falling over the edge into a wave of pure bliss.

you cry out, gripping the sheets as your orgasm rips through you. luigi's tongue continues its relentless assault, drawing out your pleasure.

when you finally come down from your high, luigi looks up at you, his dark eyes filled with lust.

"he never makes you sound like that," he says, his voice low.

"fuck, lu," you sigh.

he grins, crawling back up to capture your lips in a heated kiss.

"just let me show you how good i can be," he whispers against your mouth.

you wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him close.

"this isn't gonna happen again," you say, the weight of your guilt hanging heavy in the air.

"sure, it won't" he says, his smirk returning.

he kisses you deeply, and any resistance melts away as his tongue explores your mouth. he trails his lips down your neck, leaving a wet path.

"i'm gonna make you feel so good, baby." he murmurs, his voice thick with desire.

you lose yourself in his touch, all thoughts of your boyfriend far from your mind.

you pull him close, kissing him deeply. might as well make it count. he takes his thick length in his hand and slides it up and down against your pussy, the friction making you gasp.

"god, i've thought about this so much," he breathes, his lips pressed to yours.

he pushes the tip inside you, stretching you.

"fuck," he moans.

you wrap your legs around his waist, urging him deeper. he obliges, filling you completely. 

"fuck, baby, you're so tight."

you gasp, gripping his shoulders.

"you feel so fuckin' good," he groans.

he starts to move, thrusting into you slowly, letting you adjust to his size. he grips your hips, holding you in place as he moves inside of you.

"just fuck me, lu" you whisper.

"you like that, baby?" he asks, picking up the pace.

"mhm" you moan, digging your nails into his back.

his hips snap against yours, his cock hitting just the right spot. you can feel another orgasm building as he pounds into you.

"don't stop," you moan.

"you sound so nice when you're getting fucked properly," he growls. "never heard you say that to him before,"

"shut up," you groan. "you're such a jerk."

"rich coming from you," he grunts, wrapping his hand around your throat. "you're the fuckin' slut getting stretched out on her boyfriend's bed"

you groan, the sensation only heightening your pleasure. his thrusts grow faster and more erratic as he chases his own release.

"i can't fuckin' stand you" you say breathlessly.

"well you're fuckin' soaked for me," he pants.

your body trembles, your orgasm so close.

"i'm gonna cum" you moan.

"let go, baby" he groans, his rhythm faltering.

"oh god," you gasp, the tension inside you reaching a breaking point.

"fuck, yes," he groans, his thrusts growing shallow and frantic.

you grip the sheets, waves of pleasure crashing over you as you come undone. luigi lets out a low groan, burying his cock deep inside you as he follows, spilling himself.

he collapses onto your chest, damp with sweat and breathless.

"that felt so fuckin' good"

you let out a breathless laugh, unable to deny how amazing it felt.

"yeah," you sigh. "but it's never happening again"

"yea, we'll see." he says, chuckling lightly.

[thatdesklamp]

Chapter 22 (2017) out Friday 31st January!

The wait has been long but I think it’ll be worth it. Fingers crossed. I’m currently writing up the very final moments and it’s at 21k words because I have no self control. Remember when I said it’d probably be <15k? Yeah.

Hint about ch22’s contents: the previous chapter added one new tag to IW’s description (the ‘Getting Together’ tag). This new chapter will add one more.

Huzzah!

[leiatalon]

New Year, more story! ETERNAL LIBRARY Public Demo Update and Patreon Early Access

Happy New Year! 🎉

I rang in the New Year by writing and made some excellent progress on The Eternal Library. Enough that I get to put out a New Year's update! 👑 Huzzah! ⚔️

I've updated the public demo with the following:

Expanded scenes in chapter one with Angelina and Gemma.

Added bits of character development with MC's Mother.

Hints that help paint a clearer picture of why clan Tian is oppressed.

An early hint that Collin is displeased with the status quo of how commoners are treated.

And of course I'm always polishing and doing line edits. The more I playtest and receive feedback, the more I tinker with the text to refine it. Thanks to all who have tried the demo and given feedback and encouragement! It's so appreciated!

The Eternal Library Public DEMO

PATREON EARLY ACCESS UPDATE:

An Early Access Update was just released to paid Patreon subscribers and adds another 11,000 words to Chapter Three, so if you're not a paid member yet and have thought about joining, now's a great time!

I'll be sharing some scenes from Collin's POV for tiers Royal Guard and above this month, and probably some maps for Scholars and above, so get your subscription for access to those bonuses! 👑

I hope you enjoy this update! It's a little something to make the New Year brighter right from the start. 💫

[mmmilkweed]

Thank you bundle!

This isn't even the bulk of it - rest assured, I read each and every ask and i appreciate all immensely, i simply do not have the time to answer them :( Second semester started, and I find myself too busy to sit down and write. It's easy on twitter, where the limit is like 20 words and a pat on the back, but here? I like to take my time, I like to chat. Write my nonsense in the fullest. I digress. Truly, thank you for taking the time of the day to write these. It's a nice reminder that every single number (1k of you! Woah!) is a person behind the screen. Insane to think there's so many people noticing my work. (I won't even attempt to envision the 361k views on twitter. I'm sorry, what? No thank you). I appreciate you all immensely. And thank you for worrying about my health! I've taken the last anon's advice and ordered art gloves and borrowed joint cream from my mother. My wrist shall prevail and my daily drawings will aswell! Huzzah

Again, thank you for viewing my work and all the compliments. I know I sound like a broken record, but it really is a honor.