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âËÜstop stalling and admit youâre afraid âËÜ
itâs okay to be scared but you gotta know how to deal with it.
âËÜ ACT I | Admit to yourself youâve been stalling
no youâre not being productive while scripting every single detail, i get that can be satisfying but when are you gonna lock in. Do you feel accomplished when you sit back up for the fifth time âbefore i induce let me script this ONE LAST thingâ, just to wake up in your unfavourable story? again?
Although scripting puts so much joy in creating and shifting awareness to your new story, you need to admit to yourself that spending more time scripting trivial stuff than actually trying to induce pure consciousness can be harmful.
ÜËâ ACT II | Look at the law
at this point we all know the law of assumption tells us to âassume as if to be that which you want to beâ.
so assuming you have your dream life, are you sitting there upset about your circumstances, begging for an instant method of you were there. Would someone whoâs just baked a cake sit there and script what the cake would look like and what flavours it would have, would they cry and get desperate for an instant cake-baking method?
Would someone who has successfully manifested blonde hair be binge watching âi hAvE bLoNdE hAiR â¨â¨â subliminals, or would they spend time gushing over their hair and how beautiful and blonde it is, which is basically reaffirming whatâs true: they have blonde hair.
Instead of stalling and be miserable, gush over your new story, actually apply the new fact that youâre in your dream life, apply he fact that you are a master at inducing the âI AMâ state. Use what you know to reaffirm whatâs true.
ÜâËACT III | Itâs okay to be scared, how do we deal with this?
Sure itâs comforting to reduce yourself to a âfailureâ even after barely trying. You fell asleep one too many times so you run back to stalling, you donât wanna let yourself down again. You âfailedâ and woke up in an undesirable state. You donât want to go through that again so you stall and tell yourself that doomscrolling on tumblr and adding âone more thingâ to the script is way more important, and that youâll âdo it laterâ
But I must warn you, this will lead you down a path where more time is wasted. And although time is a concept do you really want to spend a day more in your unfavourable environment? you couldâve have everything, an hour ago, yesterday, a few minutes ago, IF YOU APPLIED.
âBut itâs not that easyâŚâ according to who? who is assuming the that?
âBut I always fall asleep and fail itâs not that simpleâŚâ according to who? your subconscious doesnât know that so who is perpetuating that assumption over and over again?
âscripting feels so good tho lemme just try tonightâ TRY? the operant power doesnât try! and yes scripting is so fun, but more fun than living the dream?
i thought so.
as you can see you can flip these thoughts, you donât have to be afraid of failure if you know failure doesnât exist for you. you donât have to stall when you succeed at everything you do, thereâs no point in it.
so get off your ass and apply loves, this community is lovely but donât stay here longer than you need to
đ
đ donât be afraid and apply what you know
#salemlunaa#shiftblr#reality shifting#shifting#loa#permashifting#law of assumption#void state#success story#the void#void concept#respawning#void#voidstate#void state tips#the void state#i am state#pure consciousness#shifting awareness#shifting consciousness#desired life#desired reality#loa tumblr#loablr
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Quick Response To Some Nonsense
**Spoilers For All Of Arcane**
Hello all, no fancy lead in today just a response to some recent stances taken on Cait/Vi, in particular their breakup. Of course this is simply my interpretation, but I felt strongly enough seeing it that it was worthy of a refutation. As I am keeping this centered on the stances themselves and my responses I won't be doing my usual laying the groundwork, so if you have any questions feel free to ask or check out my other stuff! Let's dive in!
The primary reason Caitlyn shuts down and does what she does is because Vi took the choice away from her after they had agreed on it. And that Caitlyn had lived a life always struggling to be able to make her own choices because of her parents: Okay, on the surface, totally fair. Yes, they had agreed on a plan as to how this had to go down and Vi stopped Caitlyn from carrying it out. However, there is SO MUCH MORE going on here.
First and foremost, Vi's reasons for stopping Caitlyn at this point are irrelevant. Because of Isha. Listen folks, If you have watched these characters all the way to this point, and you honestly feel that either of them would intentionally do something that risks the life of a child, I just cannot agree with you. Caitlyn has only shown herself to be a kind and caring person ever since we meet her. These folks wanted to use two factors to show that Vi would not have cared about Isha being hurt to prove that it was all about Jinx.
A- Vi doesn't have a particular adverse reaction to Renni's son dying
B- Vi doesn't seem to care about hitting Isha and doesn't stop when she does
A: Renni's Son-
This is the boy killed who is working in the Shimmer lab that Jayce and Vi attack. Jayce accidentally kills him with a blast from his hammer. So regarding the allegation that Vi doesn't seem to particularly care. Context, as always, is our friend folks. Jayce is backing out because of the death when they were quite literally starting their attack on Siloc's entire operation. So what does Vi actually say-
"You've always been a part of this, you just never had to look it in the eye. One dead kid? There's hundreds more where he came from, thanks to Silco. And thanks yo people like you, who stuck their heads in the dirt. "
Jayce leaves, Vi very clearly stands over the body and sighs, her eyes wet with tears. And yes she gets back to business. Because as she said. This is about so much more than one dead kid.
B: Hitting Isha-
Okay, I love Isha to. But this is not the first time she jumps in the middle of an adult situation and gets hurt. But anyway, the allegation here is that Vi really had no issue hitting her and didn't stop because of it. Isha quite literally bites Vi on her wraps. You know, the part of her that is probably in constant pain from months of pit fighting and no self care. Also, Jinx and Vi literally stop at the same time when they realize what happened.
Also, lets not forget this handy-dandy little moment where Vi quite literally throws herself in front of Isha to save her from Vander:
Additionally, to allege that the reason Caitlyn reacts to such an extreme agree is simply that Vi robbed her of her choice is to deny the absolutely crushing trauma Caitlyn has been/is dealing with. She is literally face to face with the monster of her nightmares, and is being denied her revenge. Every fight-or-flight, primal, lizard brain part of her is screaming that Jinx is the most dangerous thing in the world, and the woman Caitlyn loves is standing in front of her. I go more into the signs of Caitlyn's traumatic episode in another document but to suffice it to say, it doesn't seem like Caitlyn was really aware of exactly what all was going on in that chamber. Vi called her repeatedly and all Caitlyn could say was "move! she's not getting away again!" never responding to anything else Vi was saying. Caitlyn fired her rifle twice striking Vi's gauntlet once even and was not deterred. She is NOT doing okay.
2. "I thought you were different.. but your not. It's her blood in your veins"- whoo boy. Okay, The users are more or less defending Caitlyn's anger and her saying this as her realizing that ultimately Vi's loyalty is with Jinx because they believe Vi stopped her because of Jinx, and by extension someone who has done A-Z of fucked up things to Caitlyn. Again I am just about the furthest thing from a Jinx apologist but I don't have time for the list at the moment.
I will repeat, did Vi stop it because she saw Powder in Jinx's face, and because her sister told her she was glad it was her killing her? Entirely possible. But ultimately what it comes down it Caitlyn is enraged because Jinx got away, and Caitlyn's solution to that was to take the shot with a hex tech rifle that had been glitching, and could have killed a child.
No as to what Caitlyn actually said, because one of their points was about Vi's comeback. A few points:
A- Caitlyn knows all of Vi and Jinx history by now including Vi's crushing guilt over what happened
B- Caitlyn knows Vi carries the guilt for her mother's death because Vi asked Caitlyn not to shoot
C- Caitlyn knows what it meant for Vi to put on the uniform and come here with her, and still doubts her
D- Caitlyn literally alleges that Vi is no different than Jinx, who has caused all of this pain and suffering, because her blood is the same, tainted in the same way
3. "Than why are you the one acting like her?"- Essentially here they are just saying that Vi was looking to wound, looking for the low blow, and that not enough attention was given to how fucked up this was to say, especially because Caitlyn had tried to do all of this the right way.
Can I do the right thing for the wrong reason? Is it bad that I'm making friends with my demons, and Living by a couple deadly sins Just to make sure I finish what you began And I ain't afraid to lose a life or ten If it means that I get to win in the end (woo) So I'ma do this on my own, step into the danger zone Pull the pin and watch it blow! (Arcane Hellfire)
I am not saying it wasn't a fucked up thing to say. I am saying Yall are missing the point. Vi was afraid of Caitlyn changing because she saw the violence and darkness in her. Because while yes they are doing everything the right way in the lanes technically, for Caitlyn its all for the wrong reasons. She isn't there to help the undercity, she is on a quest for revenge. And as such is surrendering her morals and values alittle at a time.
4. Caitlyn hit Vi impulsively after Vi realized she overstepped/Cait never learned her strength or how to hold back-
As Caitlyn is walking away and Vi says "why are you the one acting like her?!" she grabs Cait's arm firmly at first then relaxes her grip to a more gentle one. Caitlyn sits and breathes for a solid ten seconds before hitting Vi. That's not exactly a reflexive action. Also, Caitlyn has demonstrated a tremendous proficiency with her rifle and with increasing hand-to-hand combat over the course of the show. She knew what she was doing, and she knew where she hit her. Now was Caitlyn also drowning in the middle of a total emotional overload. Yes indeed. But this was not a shock response strike. She chose to.
Now for a few points outside of the breakup that were mentioned:
Vi was wrong to suggest that Caitlyn did not understand during their conversation about Vi putting on the badge-
Well we can do this simply. Lets compare the two.
A- Vi was standing there in sight of her parents bodies as the people responsible were still there stalking around the smoke. The people responsible all dress the same way and their look is a symbol of their institution. Now she is being asked to dress like them.
B- Caitlyn was however far away and only saw the rocket launched and smash into the building. This of course would still be very traumatic. But for better or worse there is only one Jinx and her look is her look. Unless Vi was asking Cait to put on a half-eaten circus tent, I don't think we are in the same area here.
2. Vi has a tendency to dismiss Caitlyn's trauma when something more viscerally related to her own loss is going on-
The example they provided was the conversation I listed above. Vi has literally stayed there to be there and support Caitlyn even after being yelled at by Tobias. She is supportive of catching jinx and wants to help right up until Cait offers the badge. And even after that blow up, in the wake of the memorial attack Vi shelves her own issues and agrees to be an enforcer anyways.
3. Fandom keeps giving Vi a pass like anyone from Piltover can do no wrong-
The idea of this fandom giving Vi a pass is completely and totally laughable. I'm sorry but it is. There is still a whole legion of us who blame a fifteen year old girl kneeling over her father's body, who just saw her brothers die, who just held off a legion of armed Silco goons and barely survived, for ruining Powder during one bad moment and turning her into jinx. Aside from Caitlyn's commander Arc Vi is probably the least understood character in the entire fandom.
PSSSSSST.. If it helps, they don't do redemption arcs for characters who were never in the wrong in the first place. Have a great day!
#arcane#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane season 1#vi arcane#caitvi#jinx arcane#powder#caitlyn kiramman#arcane vi#vi and jinx
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My Graveyard Song
Chapter 15
[Hey...it's me. I'm not dead! *shows up 8+ months late with coffee from the local stand that runs off of caffeine and chaos* I am chronically slow and no im afraid it probably will not get better. We are getting closer to the end of the story. Love y'all!]
Jason takes care of the bill while Cass let's Barbara know they'll be heading her way. Danny fidgets, food forgotten in his anxiety.
He's kicking himself for not remembering about Jazz. Someone clearly important to Danny and in some sort of trouble the last time that Danny saw her. He doesn't let it slow him down and soon enough he's on his bike with Cass while Danny follows from above.
Babs, bless her soul and praise her endlessly, is all prepared with writing utensils. She has Jasonâs set of programmable buttons which he just realized did not come to his place -she must have redirected it here- and the various programs she uses to find people open on her computer and ready to go.
~â˘~
Since Dannyâs memory is vague, there are a lot of files to go through, and Barbara has given him free reign to poke around her little base of operations.
It gives him a reason to not pace. He takes an old broken laptop and starts deconstructing it meticulously. Keeping his hands busy, keeps the rest of his body still and allows his mind to run over endless possibilities without focusing too closely on the worst case scenarios.
Jason is off in the corner, helmet off, murmuring into his Red Hood phone. Danny is purposely listening to the hum of the many fans and the sound of the massive AC used to help keep the super computer cool. He really doesn't wanna eavesdrop, especially if it's about him.
The last piece comes apart in his fingers and he pauses just long enough to feel the buzz beneath his skin get louder and then promptly starts to reassemble the laptop piece by piece.
Judging by how his soul remains within his body, he's successful at distracting himself from the anxious energy.
"It's just putting it to good use," says a voice from the past. It must be something he's done before. Jazz, his mind supplies.
His hands stop.
Jazz said those words to him. He can feel the way her hair tickles his cheek as she leans over his shoulder in an effort to annoy him into listening to her. The gentle squeeze of fingers on his shoulder which contradicts her other actions.
In every inch of her body language there is, love, love, love...
A hand, gentle but less familiar, landing on his shoulder jerks him out of his head. Something wet hits his hand and he flinches, only just now realizing that it's his own tears. He's crying.
He sucks in air through his teeth harshly. The air shudders it's way back out of his body and with it bursts the dam holding back his emotions.
A sob tears its way from his throat. It physically hurts. The sob and the emotions both.
He barely notices how Jasonâs attention jerks to him and the stilted words he says into the phone.
"Not them, but we are here," Cass murmurs in a low raspy voice. It's her hand on his shoulder. When she goes to remove it, Dannyâs hand snaps up to stop it without thought.
Slowly he pulls her hand across his shoulder, to his face and presses his forehead to meet it part way. He probably looks pathetic like this, clinging to a near-stranger's hand and pressing the back of said hand to his face with such desperation. If he's not careful his ecto might decide that absorbing people is a great new thing to do. It certainly seems to like to do new impossible things every other week.
Or at least it used to. Before...
Will it again? Is he still the same as he was before? He's scared to change back. He's never stayed ghost and gone without air or food or water for so long.
Danny is scared.
He hiccups when Black Bat runs her fingers through his hair. They ghost along his scalp and the familiarity of it has his breath hitching into a sob.
He's a mess. His mind and body twisted and broken in ways he might never be able to repair. He's lost time, so much time... time in which anything could have happened to those he wants to protect. Those he failed to protect.
He barely realizes he's leaning into Black Bat's warmth until her arms circle him. She runs gentle hands in soothing circles along his back. She lets out a sort of chirr from the back of her throat which seems to surprise her.
He needs to know what happened to Jazz. He doesn't want to know what happened. He needs to know how long it's been. He doesn't want to know. He needs to know what's happening now. He doesn't...
His sobbing eventually peeters out into a buzzing whine from his core. Black Bat still holds him. She knows. She knows. She Knows.
She doesn't try to tell him, "It's okay," or any of the useless nonsense many people spout whenever someone around them is in tears. It helps that she knows.
He's not sure how long they stay like that, her crouched next to him, arms looped firmly around each other. Surely she's uncomfortable by now, but she shows no signs of it. He should go back home, with Jason.
(Jason is home now, what a thought that is)
However, whether he's at home or here, he'll be doing the same anxious waiting. At least here, he'll see the information as it comes in. No one can keep it from him in some effort to protect him or something.
(Call him paranoid, but he's pretty certain someone has done something similar in the past.)
His memories are still sparse and unspecific. He'd probably have to sleep in order to retrieve more and he'd really rather not. Sleep feels too much like being trapped again. He thought that was getting better back when he was still a dog, but maybe that's because he was never truly asleep. Even the thought of sleep sends hot jolts through his ice core, an uncomfortable feeling to say the least.
He's thinking too much.
Right before he moves to pull away, Black Bat relaxes her hold and makes it far easier for him to disengage. His core makes a sound not unlike a small stream running over rocks, "thank you, thank you, thank you."
She nods, and grabs the edge of her cape to send it fluttering in a way that she somehow knows conveys, "You're welcome. Safe."
He's not sure how she knows it but that's not all that important to him right now. He turns to the basket of gadgets and electronics to pick out something else to disassemble and cannibalize for parts to add to the partially assembled laptop.
~â˘~
Jasonâs crimelord phone rings not long after they've arrived. Danny is already deconstructing a laptop in a nerve fueled fugue state. Every once in a while his edges do this sort of glitch that's more than a little concerning.
His caller ID says it's Bill. He accepts the call.
"What you got for me, Bill?"
"Ya know that insane amount of footage you asked me to look through for suspicious activity?"
Jason hums an affirmative. Danny doesn't seem to be listening in on Jasonâs conversation. Good.
"Well I was startin' to think you was yanking my chain but I found somethin' you might qualify as suspicious activity. I've sent it over our server."
"What is it?"
"Some out of townie wackos takin' some weird coffin thing into the cemetery real late."
"You said they're from out of town?"
Dannyâs sudden sob distracts him from the call momentarily, so his next words aren't thought through.
Cass waves Jason off. She'll handle it, she can read people and she's worked hard to learn how to put that to use helping people in distress.
"They had an armored white van, hoss," comes the reply, deadpan.
"Fair 'nough."
"Was all very villain lookin' n not the low key kind. Has a logo on the side, maybe you can clean it up n read it."
"Thanks Bill. I think this might be exactly what I was hoping to find. You can expect a nice bonus for this."
"Not a prob, boss."
Jason hung up his phone and shuffled over to the nearest device with server access. There's a series of codes and phrases he has to input before he has access to the server but once he has the file up, he sees the two clips time stamped hours apart. The first is short and shows the duo arriving in their suspicious as hell armored tank/van/motor home. It cuts off after they head into the cemetery with tools.
Jason doesn't want to see the other clip. He knows what is on there and he still doesn't want to see it. He clicks on it before he can chicken out. He watches avidly until the perps unload that horribly familiar metal contraption. It's there that his breath stops and his eyes lose focus. He double checks the date of the footage.
4 months...
Spooky, no, Danny was there 4 months before Jason died, 10 months by the time Jason was resurrected. It's been almost 6 years now...
God, Jason would have gone insane. It's a miracle that Danny is as put together as he is.
He sets his jaw before snapping a screenshot of the van and its logo. He shuffles over to Babs and passes her the tablet with the screenshot pulled up.
Jason glances up to find Danny in the middle of some sort of break down and Cass comforting him. It breaks his heart, but it's probably healthy for Danny.
She's quick to take in the new info and plugs in the tablet to her computer. She's clearing one of the screens and opening her photo cleaning program while the photo finishes uploading.
By the time the photo is cleaned and somewhat readable, Danny is back to reassembling the laptop, although Jason is fairly certain he just saw a piece of a walkie talkie go in there.
A sort of horrified fascination creeps up his spine the longer he watches Danny attach parts together that quite frankly have no physical way to attach to one another and have no business being anywhere near each other.
A tap to his side, finally pulls Jasonâs attentions away from the technological abomination being built just across the room. His gaze jumps first to Babs and then, at her prompting, to one of the smaller screens.
Enlarged and cleaned up, the side of their van shows a very large stylized [f] with more letters tucked along one of the lines.
[Fenton]
Next to it, Babs had pulled up some related searches and specifically clicks on one that shows a family of four, two of whom are wearing bright jumpsuits matching the suspicious pair driving the van. The couple wearing them on this website also match the suspects from the surveillance footage in terms of body type.
Without a word, Babs highlights a specific name in the description underneath.
[Jasmine]
Specifically, Jasmine Fenton, the Fenton couple's daughter. As Jason scans the little "About" paragraph, he has to do a double take upon spotting the name, Danny. Further up their son is referenced as Daniel, but evidently he goes by Danny.
One coincidence is just that, a coincidence. Two coincidences and it's time to start looking closely.
Jason knows it's too early to assume anything, but he has a strong feeling that all answers lie with the Fentons.
Upon closer examination of Danny Fenton, he notes some similarities to Spooky Danny.
He points out the name to Babs and she quickly runs a search only to blanche at the results.
At the top of the list is an article detailing the disappearance and death of 15 year old Danny Fenton.
#dpxdc#dcxdp#my graveyard song#church grim danny#danny the black dog#danny the black dog au#church grim au#y'all when i tell you this chapter fought me...#good news i started the next chapter and its going good so far#bad news that is ZERO guarantee of anything#but as always i shall go at my own pace and drag y'all along for the ride
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Eddie Gluskin Headcanons because I cannot stop thinking about him and im bored
Happy holidays, I usually just am not happy during this time of year so Iâm pushing down my emotions and writing angst. Enjoy. Tw: Self harm, CSA, rape, misogyny, violence, typical outlast stuff.
-Eddie hates bathing and has to be physically restrained if the doctors wish to get him clean. This is mainly due to his CSA, as Eddie was attacked a lot while he was in the shower-but it is also due to him feeling uncomfortable with being nude for long periods of time.
-Eddie hates dogs. His family had a dog that was specifically trained to bite him if he commanded it to. Eddie doesnât own any pets, really, and believes that cats are too âfeminineâ for him.
-During his initial murder spree, Eddie killed around 34 people-men and women, who he all gave the definition of âbrideâ to. He was found not guilty by reason of insanity, and was sent to Mount Massive Asylum. For a time, he actually had a proper psychologist before he was eventually signed up for the Walrider program after he attacked the wrong guard.
-Eddie has diagnosed Schizophrenia, BPD, psychosis, and could possibly qualify for a DID diagnosis.
-Eddie could possibly qualify for DID because he has a few seperate personality states: a younger version of himself, trapped within his childhood, âThe Groom,â the dominant personality states, and a version of himself that is haunted by his trauma, and rather prefers to be alone. Though it is unclear if this is DID or just due to his BPD (he does dissociate from reality quite often, though).
-Eddieâs favorite movie growing up was Sleeping Beauty, and often quotes it to the best of his memory. He believes that Prince Phillip is the perfect depiction of a devoted husband, and Aurora is the most beautiful woman in the world.
-Sketching and tailoring are his favorite hobbies. He most often draws women in goregous dresses, and has a very traditional Disney-like style to his artwork.
-Eddie believes that it is the 1950s and is incapable of perceiving the current year as it is. He writes things like computers, camcorders, and cellphones off as âadvanced space-age technology.â Donât ever ask him to operate a computer because he would have absolutely no idea how to do it.
-If Eddie could comprehend the concept of a trans person, he would for sure be a supporter-due to his psychosis and delusions, however, he couldnât comprehend it even if he tried. He canât even comprehend that he may be gay.
-Eddie may have targeted women before the asylum, but once he was incarcerated, he practically exclusively targeted men-even when there was a female presence in the asylum, he didnât attack them nearly as much as he did the men.
-Eddie is actually a pretty damn good chef. He has to be, considering his only qualification for a good âwifeâ is that âsheâ has to be alive and breathing. (Even thenâŚ)
-Eddie has a love for salted caramels.
-Eddie has a hard time keeping his anger in check, and rarely keeps his hands to himself. He was transferred to an isolation cell after he groped a guard, and he was never really allowed out of maximum security afterwards. This, plus other forms of inhumane treatment at the hands of Murkoff, eventually led to his mental health getting worse and his transfer to the Walrider program once it was deemed that he was âtoo far gone.â
-Eddie may be a charasmatic, boisterous man but deep down, he is suffering from crippling lonliness and deep seated insecurities that will likely never fully go away.
-Eddie did self harm before he was transferred to Mount Massive.
-Eddieâs best friend in the asylum is Frank Manera canonically, but he does have a rather good relationship with many of the Variants, including The Twins and Chris Walker. He and Frank used to have cells right next to one another, and communicated through a hole in the wall.
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Is anyone else sad about Entry #76? Anyone else sad about the way that Alex apologized to Jessica before he tried to shoot her? Anyone else crying about how he spent the entire time telling her that it was going to be ok, he was going to explain everything once they got out of there? Anyone else feel physically ill about how even though Alex was going to kill Jessica and it didnât matter at that point he still warned her to be careful on the rocks? Anyone else sobbing at how Alex made Jessica go on ahead of him, so she wouldnât know what was coming until it was too late? Anyone else emotionally devastated thinking about how Alex looked away right before he was going to shoot her?
The more I think about Entry #76 the sadder I get.
#i swear to god I could write a whole ass essay just tearing apart this entry#I think about this entry wayyyy too much#bc its makes it clear Alex doesnât wanna do what hes doing#but he feels he has to to stop the operator#this and entry 86 make me so sad#proud alex kralie apologist#marble hornets#alex kralie#marble hornets spoilers#mh tim wright#mh brian#mh jay merrick
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Uhh post canon Barney
Man who has not had a break since the rescas and refuses to start now. Alyx and Gordon are hiding his gear as we speak while Kleiner distracts him.
I was sposed to do Alyx too but I blinked and it was 3 am so. Next time
Oh also I forgot to make a note but he does carry a sidearm
#no reposting#ok ramble time because i have some Thoughts#subject to change..#okay so like#Barney is a few things. imo. one he's s good leader and protector. two hes a creature of habit.#Barney has always kind of stuck in one area of work.. from security guard to civil protection officer to white forest sentry#hell even as a field commander during the uprising half of his combat is essentially point defense and backing Gordon up#which like yeah thats just gameplay stuff but this is an intentional reading of his character so just. shh#anyways#Barney never really stops being some kind of guard. the context in which he operates changes of course but its still the same general role#maybe its a subconscious attempt at maintaining normalcy. maybe its just all he feels hes good at. regardless its what he does.#and its what he continues to do.#that's what feels right to him thats whats natural to him so he might as well do it.#i think part of Barney's brain hasn't really caught up to the idea that things really are improving.#like he Knows it and he's happy about it but it doesn't feel natural after spending half of his life under the combine.#his body still thinks hes in danger#okay im eepy#half life fanart#barney calhoun#half life 2#half life furry au#half life
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the switch from worry for sam to appealing.. oh he knows how to fuck him up so perfectly tailored for him
#sam was vulnerable and knowing dean loves him so he doesn't want the demon thing could have cut things a lil more short than#sam knowing dean hates him which leads him to be borderline destructive while the former keeps him grounded#but to give dean his dues he did try every single tactic in the book to try to stop sam: forcing reasoning rationalizing#finding middle ground locking up threatening bargaining pleading#he was on a roller-coaster#we're witnessing the blueprint in swaying sam im seated#ruby should've stuck around to watch how a real sam master manipulator operates#he has sam so wrapped round his finger he told sam he'll kill him (faked voice note) and still managed to have sam choose him over ruby#who coddled up and manipulated sam to hell and back#the genuine concern about sam here is astonishing in how effective it is#violence (panic room) didn't work#so dean resorts to appealing to sam and whether this is authentic or dean's own brand of manipulation that I know he occasionally works up#it's still the most effective method so far. I feel like dean could genuinely have gotten through to sam#if he was just himself and poured his heart out wrt sam since early on but dean most of the time was too prideful to concede#it was an 'im protective and im worried about you' issue (this is half of the actual reason the other half is his own possessiveness)#rather than a 'morality/humanity descend' issue and appealing to angels and god to play on sam's faith.#once again dean tries several mental gymnastics to get his point across when#if he was straightforward it could've worked on sam from the get go because he himself carries weight to sam like no other#samdean#mine#spn meta in tags#sam winchester#dean winchester
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yknow if charles didnât play an instrument during life I feel like heâd have learned something in his 30+ years of being dead. and thank god ghosts probably donât have real breath so his ska enjoyer ass canât choose to try and learn trumpet (for the sake of edwinâs sanity)
#I wanna see him play guitar thatâs why Iâm making this post im not gonna lie#i can just see it so vividlyâŚâŚand beyond ska I feel like a lot of the music heâd listen to would be the kinda thing youâd learn the riffs#for on guitar for funsies and whatnot#but yeah heâd try to go for the trumpet first and either find out soon that he literally canât operate a trumpet Or before that would be#stopped in his tracks by the worlds most threatening death glare from edwin and the words âstep away from the trumpet.â#rambling#charles#he just seems like the kinda guy who has guitar calluses yknow#I may be slightly biased against trumpets because my ex played trumpet. and a trumpet killed my family
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tell me if you think I'm breathing good...
[collaboration with @dxppercxdxver again]
#em draws stuff#flintlock fortress#team fortress 2#a better caption would be 'please sit down for five minutes you literally just got operated on'#as it stands it's lyrics from 'doctor' by gawain and the green knight. love a lyrics-caption in this house.#one of these days I will stop only drawing 3/4 of the polycule but the proportions are most truly driving me up the wall#posing's a bit awkward here but this was an outfit sketchup that got out of hand#also this is a fascinating sort of. step back from your own brain moment for feeling weird about posting something I drew#the rat says 'this is too ...something for tumblr' and the logical mind says 'you drew this man sticking his finger in his own bullet hole'#and Then I got weird about showing his legs and also giving him a little hat? That's really going to be what I got weird about?#the inside of my head is truly a wild place to hang out#anyway Stay Tuned there's going to be writing that goes with this. eventually?#'em shouldn't you write the part that actually happens at the beginning instead of skipping right to the big finish'#ha! that sounds like rule-followers' talk! certainly none of that going on in here!#watch me put ansel through the plinko of horrors live on tumblr dot com. or whatever.#also I desperately needed to take a break and from long years of experience I know that Scrungled Fellow in Shirt is simply Where It's At.#he looks weird and wrong with no glasses but hey so do I!
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also quite the illustration in wags being like "'not asking permission' - wags" and plowing through someone expressing a physical boundary but he was already intending to use physical violence & violation & assumed corresponding distress as a tool to get his way....amidst the typicality, "correctness," permissibility of all that around here like five times an hour
#winston billions#and in all ways like the [oh well but at least it's Not That Bad(tm)] / some theoretical peak lasting physical harm....not that relevant#not unlike how billions didn't need to put all that effort into supposedly not yet going ''yeah prince is the worst ofc'' in s6#like oh he repeatedly took advantage of someone (not a cis man) he's ceo of; early 20s/abt the age of his kids so he could have sex#but then we have to be going ''oh but well at least it's Not That Bad'' like yeah wow & that doesn't matter That Much / make it That Good#it's all operating on the same logic & principles & that is the issue; there'll always be some theoretical worse instance....#and what's it do for what's deemed [worse instances] to then just use that against ''lesser'' instances#rian out here apparently w/no idea abt power but also somehow aware she has to assert Fault for it herself thinking emoticon#but also rian being clueless / continuing not to think abt shit at all / maybe thinking fucking an old man makes her Mature is all like#more stuff that doesn't quite coalesce into anything consistent & instead is all incompletely gestured at as some Explanation Aggregate#sorry i've noticed that this is a leaking bag of gravel labeled ''rian'' and not a character#anyways. and wendy Would do aba & ppl Do already give the organic aba & it's abusive. check the ''not abt ppl's wellbeing'' & the ppl who#get to be In Charge of anyone else & the ''corrected'' ppl Not getting to be treated as people#rian's treatment of winston....all the Aggressive behavior only allowed to Some & that serves to get those people's ways#all the demeaning treatment directed at ppl so that someone can try using them as a stepstool for their feelings / ego#&/or simply to try to get their [being a person] to stop being a roadblock to their existence aligning w/only what you want from them#next episode sure could be about how Actually This Place Is Horrible For Its Own Employees; it has been; it'll continue to be....#like a great time to deal with that. if wendy wants to consider if she's actually not doing anything Good here then like time for that too#might convince everyone else to (a) not quit for their own sakes & maybe even also (b) see wendy to make her feel better. again.#but maybe we still lose winston as the guy who (a) gets to peace out & (b) is just having one of the more miserable times over there#taylor's busier; sometimes in englander; no tmc niche; not close enough to tuk to chat; dollar bill's here; rian won't let him speak....#and whether taylor Themself being unable to convince winston to return gets them thinking abt things & stuff. not like they've been unaware#at all of this Environment being hostile & miserable lol but nobody just kind of matter of factly wanders out w/o Basically being pushed...#& it's been a minute since they were a fellow nonboss employee. & maybe Winston quitting just shakes up assumptions & then why not question#more things & like; even if they suppose they're fine enough for Now & Could be happy w/a billion or their own place or something like#maybe you too can just walk out you can leave w/o having been forced to some Crisis Breaking Point about it#and not spend years more at the sunk cost factory of more problems worse times etc etc....a concept#&/or idk maybe also just pondering like oh also the way people here or anywhere are negatively affected even if you werent paying attention#this is all still operating off the one theory though of course#but also the actual text of this post needs no further canon info or context to be True / about what it is lmao. wags die challenge
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answering a couple questions i got on this post since i realized ppl genuinely wanna know:
tl;dr:
israel lets very, very little aid get into gaza. even the UN can't get in as much as they want to. funding individual families, gazan led initiatives, and mutual aid collectives operating out of gaza ensures gazans can provide for themselves and pay for the extremely expensive aid that is available.
with all the civil infrastructure destroyed by israel, the situation on the ground has devolved into unrestricted capitalism, driving up the price of aid (that should be free!). this makes it more urgent for people to have funding for daily survival.
the post linked above has examples of how donating to individual families can help a lot. if you want to help more than one family at a time, there are many gazan-led initiatives focusing on rebuilding their infrastructure and distributing aid fairly that are worth donating to instead of large charities that already get the majority of donations.
as i mentioned in the last post: @/careforgaza on twitter is a nonprofit started by gazans, it's been endorsed by multiple palestinian journalists.
the sameer project is a collective organized by diaspora palestinians offering emergency shelter to gazans.
ele elna elak is a project aiming to bring water, food, shelter, etc. to gazans and has been promoted by bisan owda.
and the municipality of gaza itself is fundraising to rebuild water infrastructure.
all of these organizations are active inside gaza right now and are being run by gazans. if anyone knows of other gazan-led mutual aid projects, nonprofits or charities feel free to link them in the notes! hope this helped!
long answers under the cut!
if you wanna donate to a charity that's absolutely fine, but the thing is most charities (and even the UN!) are unable to make it into gaza in the first place, leaving aid rotting at the egyptian side of the border or subject to israeli settler attacks
not to mention, charities and nonprofits also maintain a paternalistic colonial relationship with the indigenous people they are trying to help, determining what aid they need for them instead of returning power to them and letting them make their own choices
i'm not here to say that one option is better than the other, just that they achieve different things and are equally legitimate. there's an attitude among people who question the legitimacy of these gofundme campaigns that somehow the people promoting them are telling them not to donate to charities. nobody is stopping you from donating to charities. we are just asking that you do not dehumanize the very real gazans in your inbox just because their method of asking for aid is more direct and risky.
unfortunately that's exactly what has happened. because israel destroyed all of gaza's more formalized infrastructure, it seems that organized crime and rampant inflation has taken its place. aid is supposed to be free, but in order to save for evacuation or the cost of living, people have started selling them at an inflated price. and aid that is truly free attracts intense, large crowds that are dangerous to navigate.
this was posted on abc a few days ago
it's pure, unrestrained capitalism. i've had multiple palestinians describe this situation to me confidence. that's why everything's so expensive now. why people have to rent out tiny plots of land for their tents to sit on, why my friend @siraj2024 still has to buy tarps to cover the broken windows of the overpriced bombed out apartment he rented, and why a bag of flour can cost a thousand bucks in the north.
even before israel closed and then bombed the rafah crossing, the egyptian hala travel agency was only allowing people to cross the border if they paid a hefty $5000 USD per adult / $2500 USD per child bribe. it denies doing this, but the hundreds of stories from palestinians say otherwise.
with regard to the economy, here in america we saw something similar happen in the wake of hurricane helene and milton. the podcaster margaret killjoy describes how she saw dual economies rise after asheville was fully cut off from the rest of the country - some people offered each other supplies for free in a sort of mutual aid honor system, and some people required payment when they lent supplies because they themselves needed to buy stuff for their families. these dual economies exist in gaza too. and this means they all still need money to survive.
#og#palestine#palestine resources#gaza#free palestine#free gaza#gaza strip#save palestine#i stand with palestine#all eyes on palestine#palestine genocide#gaza genocide#donations
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there are some scenes in the light novel i really wished made it to the manhwa. of the ones i liked so far:
-Prince Tyrone trying to fight Lyla by throwing a snow storm at her and Paris stepping in to stop it sheerly because he felt like it. Which then proceeds to him learning Lyla's name and following her, freaking her the hell out as she tries to navigate not gaining his interest, and which then leads him to connecting the dots and sending her to Fian
-Paris apparently fighting off other people from approaching Fian and even going to his father and telling him not to put Fian in with the Kylon Imperial Knights bc he didn't want Fian to be swarmed by humans
-Helene telling Odelia and Tyrone to shut up when they insulted Lyla. I'm so upset these scenes aren't canon (tho obviously it's understandable why they aren't) and i hope Helene in the manhwa gets to protect Lyla like this sometime in the future
-Fian takes Lyla out for a ride during the festival in his dragon form. which was adorably cute
-Helene approaching Lyla and asking her if she was sad about her mother's passing, patting Lyla affectionately and telling her "it's okay to be sad" only to end up crying when she leaves, much to Lyla's shock
-Helene telling Paris that she wants Lyla dead because she doesn't want to look at the girl and remember things she wants to forget but can't erase herself bc apparently memory erasure isn't a thing. This is not a spoiler because it's an AU as fuck thing from the manhwa im 100% sure. but yeah Helene's fucked up as a character and she might not be telling the truth here bc so far the LN is making her feel like she could be a liar but i honestly can't get a read on her in the LN aside from the fact she's probably messed up af
-on that note, Paris kneeling to Helene and pledging loyalty to her was really neat. The actions he took before it though...well let's just say i like the manhwa's take on their talk about Daniel more :>
-Helene being unhinged. God do i enjoy her being unhinged. If you think manhwa her is at all unhinged, oh you don't know the half of it
-also Paris bickering with Helene at the hunting festival banquet by saying "at least i don't try and kill my siblings" after she snarked about how close he was to his cousin was such good use of tension. Im really enjoying that they both feel like they're on their toes around each other in the light novel and that Paris both is fascinated with Helene like in the manhwa but also he tries his best to "nope" out of helping her and her demands
-Helene watched Lyla still the Dragon's Heart Fragment from the Imperial Vault and knew she took the fake. It's all but implied she was the one watching Lyla steal it (tho not much has really come of that funnily enough)
#TME LN#The Mighty Extra#im 45 chapters in (up to the talk Paris has with Helene about Daniel awakening as a dragon) and i have some thoughts LMAO#im ngl i think i prefer the manhwa more because everything feels more cleverly written there than it does in the LN#bc the light novel feels more#disjointed?#disconnected?#something like that#i have a harder time connecting to the characters (and rely heavily on my attachment to the manhwa versions of them to carry me lol)#but i like getting more information about this world and how it operates and more about stuff the manhwa skimps on#such as OG!Helene's relationship with Paris and Fian#or how the Dragon's Heart Fragment and it's association to Helene shouldn't be overlooked whatsoever#i will say that i prefer the manhwa for its plot and character cast/development#but i think i like the light novel more in terms of world-building and how more realistic Lyla feels as a character#like no joke one of my favorite lines of hers is âwhile Helene and Odelia were arguing about politics i was thinking of dinnerâ#like damn Lyla stop being relatable as fuck#tho i wish the story would revolve a little less around her like it does in the manhwa#Paris being more interested in Lyla than Helene for example makes me D:#bc part of what makes Paris so appealing is in the manhwa is that he's the only dragon who doesn't really care about Lyla#which shows that she's not the center of the universe whereas in here that's less the case :/#also btw did you know there's like 180 chapters and each chapter correlates to roughly the same number in the manhwa#so hypothetically by the time the manhwa ends it should have about 180 episodes total#and currently it's only at 82?#wild~
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Suspension Bridge Effect [Logan Howlett]
Summary: You saved one of the younger mutants during a mission, and now he's obsessed with you, much to Logan's dismay
Warnings: mainly Logan POV, jealousy, cuteness, fem!reader WC: 2.6k - MASTERLIST
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Loganâs losing it; his thoughts are spiralling to the point where he wonders if he should be locked up.
At least, thatâs what he thinks is happening as he watches the scene unfold in front of him. Youâre standing near the edge of the mansion's garden, laughing softly as the kidâJohnny, a younger teenage mutantâtries to hand you a bouquet of hastily picked flowers. His face is flushed, eyes wide with admiration, and heâs practically vibrating with nervous energy as he looks up at you.
This punk, this moron, this lovesick blockhead, has been glued to your side ever since you saved him during the last mission.
It was supposed to be a standard run-of-the-mill rescue operation, but when things went south, and he was cornered, you swooped in like the hero you are and got him out unscathed. Now, the kidâs been following you around like a lost puppy, trying to win your attention, your approvalâyour everything. And itâs infuriating.
Logan can feel his hands clench into fists as he watches Johnny offer you the worst attempt at a bouquet he's ever seen, and sees the youngster's face turning a deeper shade of red as he mumbles something the older man canât quite hear. Probably some dumb compliment, he thinks bitterly. The kidâs got no game.
You smile at Johnny. It's that soft, kind smile that always makes Loganâs heart skip a beat. But this time, all it does is fuel the fire raging within. He knows that smile isnât just for him, but damn it, he wishes it were.
He wishes youâd tell the kid to scram, that youâre already spoken for, that you have a lovely boyfriend who could put together a way better bunch of flowers, but instead, you take the flowers with a gentle laugh, thanking the goblin like heâs just handed you a priceless treasure.
And somehow, the torment is never ending, it seems. Because later in the day he findâs himself lurking at the doorway of the mansion library, watching as you and Johnny sit together, heads bent over some book he know knows the little gremlin is just pretending to be interested in. That brat is soaking up every second of your attention, hanging on your every word, and itâs driving Logan up the wall.
âHeâs just a kid,â you keep saying whenever he grumbles about it, but you donât see it. You donât see the way the bastardâs eyes light up whenever you smile at him, or how he leans in just a little too close when youâre explaining something to him. You donât notice the small touchesâthe way his hand lingers on your arm when heâs pulling you somewhere, the way he looks at you like youâre the centre of his universe.
Logan sees it all, because heâs been there before. He knows exactly what Johnnyâs feeling because he felt the same way when he first met you. Still does. It's that intense, all-consuming crush that makes you do stupid things just to be near the person you canât stop thinking about.
âLogan, youâre staring,â Jeanâs voice cuts through his thoughts, and he turns to see her smirking at him from across the hallway.
âIâm not starinâ. Just keepinâ an eye on things,â he mutters, crossing his arms over his chest defensively.
She raises an eyebrow, clearly not buying it. âYouâre jealous.â
He scowls at her. âI ainât jealous of some kid.â
âSure youâre not,â she says, her tone dripping with sarcasm. âWhy donât you just talk to her about it?â
Clenching his jaw, he knows sheâs right but not wanting to admit it. âShe doesnât get it. She thinks itâs cute.â
âMaybe if you told her how youâre feeling, sheâd understand,â Jean suggests gently, though thereâs a knowing look in her eyes.
Huffing and turning away from the library, Logan has decided that heâs had enough of standing on the sidelines. He needs to do something before he loses his mind entirely. But it seems he canât escape this torture, because he canât even get five minutes alone with you.
He tried to get your attention after you finished up teaching your class, but before he could, the little devil ran in front of him and got it first. His eye twitches as he watches Johnny offer you another âgift,â this time a poorly folded paper crane. You take it with a smile, thanking him kindly, and Logan grits his teeth so hard he swears his molars might shatter.
âHey, kid,â He grumbles, stepping forward with a growl in his throat that would send most people running. âDonât you got somewhere else to be?â
Johnny looks up, momentarily startled by the sharp tone, but then just gives a nervous chuckle and scratches the back of his head. âUh, no, sir. I was just, um, hanging out with her.â
âYeah, well, sheâs got things to do. Donât you, darlinâ?â Loganâs eyes flicker to you, hoping youâll catch the hint and send the kid on his way.
But you donât. You just laugh. A musical sound that makes him want to clamp his hand over your mouth because why should that devil's spawn get to hear your beautiful voice? Heâs truly about to lose it.Â
âItâs fine, babe. Johnnyâs just being sweet.â
Sweet. Logan wants to snort. Sweet is one word for it. Obnoxious, irritating, and clingy are a few others that come to mind.
âYou got a crush or somethinâ, boy?â His tone is laced with a dangerous edge as he crosses his arms over his chest, towering over the knucklehead. Heâs trying not to outright scare him, but damn, heâs close to it.
Johnny turns beet red, stammering, âN-no, I just⌠she saved me, and I just wanted to say thank you, thatâs all!â
Narrowing his eyes, a low snarl rumbles from his chest, and Logan takes a deliberate step forward, but before he can do more, you place a hand on his arm, pulling him back.
âLogan, thatâs enough,â you say firmly, giving him a pointed look.Â
Well, there goes another piece of his sanity.
Youâre too kind, too understanding. You just don't get it. To you, itâs just an innocent crush, something harmless, something that makes you smile. You think itâs nothing, and that only makes his blood boil more.
âFine,â he finally mutters, stepping back, though his eyes never leave the teenagerâs. Johnny seems to take that as some kind of begrudging acceptance and gives you another shy smile before scurrying off, likely to find the next token of his gratitude to bring to you.
Once heâs gone, Logan lets out a heavy sigh, rubbing a hand over his face. âThis is drivinâ me nuts, you know that?â
You just chuckle again, stepping closer to him and slipping your arms around his waist. âItâs just a phase, Iâm sure. Heâll get over it.â
Wrapping his arms around you tightly and pulling you in close, he feels a little bit better in your embrace, but his eyes still track where Johnny disappeared into the mansion. âHe better. âCause if he doesnât, I might lose my damn mind.â
You tilt your head up, kissing his jaw softly. âYouâre jealous, arenât you?â
He huffs, not wanting to admit it, but the truth is written all over his face. âMaybe a little.â
Smiling, you lean up to kiss him properly. âYouâve got nothing to worry about.â
Logan kisses you back, a little more possessively than usual, as if to remind himself that youâre his. And even as you melt into him, he canât help but keep one eye open, scanning the garden for any sign of that kid returning. He might be crazy, but heâll be damned if he lets some lovestruck teenager get between him and the woman he loves.
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The next morning, the mansion is buzzing with its usual activity. You and Logan head to the dining hall for breakfast, with him looking a little more relaxed after a night of holding you close. But the moment you step into the room, he spots a certain demon sitting at a table, eyes locked on you as if heâs been waiting for this very moment.
Groaning under his breath, Logan mutters, âNot again,â before guiding you to a table near the windows, hoping Johnny wonât follow.
You take your seat, smiling up at your boyfriend as he pulls out his chair, and for a brief second, he dares to believe that he might actually get to enjoy a quiet breakfast with you. But just as heâs about to sit down beside you, Johnny swoops in out of nowhere, plopping down in Loganâs seat with a grin like heâs just won the lottery.
âMorning!â He chirps, completely oblivious to the thunderous look on the other manâs face.
Freezing in his place, Logan glares at the kid whoâs now sitting where he was supposed to be. He mentally cycles through a list of unflattering nicknamesâUseless Idiot, Captain Obnoxious, Motherfuâbut none of them seem quite strong enough to capture his current feelings. âYouâre in my seat, kid.â
Johnny blinks up at him, feigning innocence. âOh, uh, sorry. I didnât see your name on it.â
You can practically see the self-control it takes for Logan not to pick the kid up and toss him across the room. His fingers twitch at his sides, his claws itching to come out, but he holds back. For your sake, and only your sake.
âJohnny,â you start, trying to keep your voice gentle but firm, âyou do know he is my boyfriend, right? And even if he wasnât, Iâm a bit too, uh, old for you?â
The young mutant's eyes widen, and for a split second, you think you might have gotten through to him. But then he glances over at Logan, his face scrunching up like heâs just eaten something sour.
âYeah, but heâs, like, hella old,â The idiot blurts out, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper as if the mutant standing right there canât hear every word.
Loganâs expression darkens, a storm brewing in his eyes as his jaw tightens to the point where you can almost hear his teeth grinding. Hella old? Is this guy serious?
He's dealt with all kinds of enemiesâmutants, monsters, government assassinsâbut nothing, nothing has tested his patience like this hellspawn has been. âWhat did you just say?â he growls menacingly.
Johnny, either incredibly brave or incredibly stupid, doesnât back down. âI mean, no offense, but youâve got a lot of⌠uh, experience, you know? And youâre like centuries old. Maybe she needs someone closer to her age.â
Thatâs the last straw. Loganâs eyes flash with anger and something elseâsomething more vulnerable that you rarely see. A part of him knows the gremlinâs just talking out of his ass, but the words hit a little too close to home, stirring up old insecurities he usually keeps buried deep.
Without another word, he slams his hand down onto the table, the sound echoing through the dining hall like a gunshot. The room falls into stunned silence as he then storms out, his footsteps heavy and his anger radiating off of him in waves. He doesnât look back, doesnât acknowledge the whispers that follow in his wake. He just needs to get away before he does something heâll regret.
âLogan, waitââ you call after him, but heâs already halfway out the door.
You turn back to Johnny, whoâs now looking a little less confident and a lot more like he might have made a mistake. Sighing, you lean forward with a serious expression. âYou canât just say things like that. Heâs not just my boyfriend. Heâs the person I love.â
Looking down at the table, his face falls, and he begins fiddling with the napkin in his lap. âI didnât mean to make him mad. I just thoughtâYou saved me and I felt somethingâŚI thought maybe youâd feel something for me too.â
You soften, reaching out to pat his hand. âJohnny, youâre a sweet kid, but youâve got to understand that Loganâs the one Iâm with, and no one can replace him.â
He nods slowly, the reality of the situation finally sinking in. âI get it,â he mumbles. âI justâŚâ
A small smile tugs at your lips. âYouâll find someone your own age whoâs perfect for you. But for now, you need to give us some space, okay?â
Johnny nods again, this time more resolutely. âOkay. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs alright. Just⌠try not to instigate anything else. Iâll go talk to him.â You give him one last reassuring smile before heading toward the exit.
When you step out into the hallway, you barely have a second to process your thoughts and decide where to look before youâre suddenly pressed up against the wall. A gasp escapes your lips, but itâs quickly swallowed by Loganâs mouth on yours. The surprise melts away as the intensity of his kiss overtakes your senses, and you instinctively wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him closer.
His kiss is possessive and fierce. You can feel the frustration, the jealousy, the need to claim whatâs his, pouring out of him with every movement of his lips against yours. For a moment, you lose yourself in the heat of it, letting the world around you fade as you focus solely on him.
Then, through the haze of the kiss, the practical part of your brain kicks in. You pull back just enough to murmur against his lips, âLogan⌠weâre gonna get caught.â
He growls softly, his lips trailing down to your jaw, his breath hot against your skin. âLet them see,â he mutters between kisses. âMaybe then that damn dunce will get the hint.â
You laugh, though the sound is cut off as he captures your lips again, his hands gripping your waist as if heâs afraid to let go. âBabe, really,â you whisper, trying to sound serious but failing as your body responds eagerly to his touch. âPeople are gonna seeâŚâ
âI donât care,â he grumbles, his lips brushing against the sensitive spot just below your ear, making you involuntarily shiver against him. âShoulda thrown that little shit out on his ass⌠let him know who you belong to.â
âYouâre jealous of a teenager,â you tease, though the words come out breathless and almost lost in the intensity of the moment.
Logan pulls back just enough to look at you, his eyes dark. âDonât like him sniffinâ around you, thinkinâ heâs got a shot.â
You smile up at him, your fingers threading through his hair as you pull him back down for another kiss. âYou don't need to feel threatened by him. Youâre the only one I want.â
He huffs softly, his lips brushing against yours as he mutters, âDamn right I am.â
âCâmon,â you murmur, gently pushing against his chest. âLetâs go somewhere a little more private, huh?â
He hesitates for a moment, his eyes flickering back toward the dining hall, as if half-expecting Johnny to come barreling out any second. But then he nods, taking your hand and leading you down the hallway, away from prying eyes. His grip on your hand is tight, territorial, and you canât help but smile as you follow him.
As you walk together, you give his hand a squeeze. âLogan?â
âYeah?â He glances over at you, his expression softening slightly.
âI love you, you know that?â You say it with that pretty grin of yours, and the way his eyes warm in response makes your heart flutter.
âYeah,â he replies, his voice quieter now, more sincere. âI love you too.â
The remaining tension melts away, leaving just the two of you walking hand in hand, ready to steal a few more precious moments together.
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A/N: this was really fun to write!
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I've been messaging with a 17yo kid from Gaza, named Nader.
When I asked what he wanted people to know about his family's situation, he immediately answered "the bitter cold".
His other answer was about how incredibly expensive everything is in Gaza right now. Here's context: https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2024/10/16/how-much-does-food-cost-in-gaza
Can you imagine being in this situation? Made homeless where the stores are no longer getting consistent deliveries and might be bombed, the government is barely operating cuz it keeps getting bombed, there's not even charity getting into your besieged area, and most people's jobsâincluding your big brother'sâhave been bombed beyond repair?
Where it's getting so cold and you CAN'T get warm because you're relying on strangers to help you get that coat or blanket, or bc you need the little money that trickles in to just survive??
And can you imagine living this way for OVER A YEAR as a normal teenager who has a little brother and a baby niece with malnutrition to stress about too?
I know people are tired of hearing about Gaza. It's upsetting that this genocide has continued so long with so few powerful people even trying to stop it. But we have a responsibility to our fellow humans, to help them survive persecution.
Nader is seventeen. None of this should be on his shoulders. Please help his family be safe so he can stop feeling like it's his job to make sure his family has what they need.
This campaign was verified as authentic by gazavetters (#4 on this spreadsheet), which I have seen Palestinians I trust cite as a trusted source.
Can you give up one treat this week to help Nader's family have the basics?
If you donate at least $10 and comment on this post with proof, I'll record a silly voice message for you or draw you a post it note doodle!
Please also consider following @abdalsalam1990, the tumblr account this family is using to try to raise funds, as a reminder to yourself to share the campaign or contribute in the future.
Tagging usernames off the top of my head in hopes you'll share this fundraiser; please message me if you don't want to be tagged in things like this, or if I didn't tag you but you DO want to be tagged in posts like this.
Edit edit: thank you @transmutationisms for teaching me how tagging works đ
i've only been on this site 10 years lmao
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#how to help#abdalsalam1990#i think i've just never tried to tag more than 5 ppl before now on here somehow in the 10 years i've been on here
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When Sukuna kisses you, it feels like your heart is being ripped out of your chest.
You started out perched on his lap, but by now he's reduced you to a boneless, panting heap in his grasp. His arms supporting you are the only things keeping you from melting against him like liquid lust. You're desperate for a moment of solid ground to catch your breath, but Sukuna is adamant on continuously taking it away from you. His calloused hands inching their way up your shirt, brushing softly against your sides, over your rib cage, skimming the underside of your breasts, all in mesmerization at how soft your skin is.
"'Kuna..." You try to capture his attention, which has been taken by his fixation on how sensitive your ears were to the scrape of his teeth.
You're surprised when he answers with a distracted hum, "Yes, my little doe?"
"I -I need a second." You stutter, your heart is thumping wildly in your chest, despite how intoxicated and incapacitated you feel at his mercy. You were starting to forget how to breathe in his close proximity and it was becoming increasingly more difficult to keep your head straight with his natural scent acting like a pheromone.
You feel his wicked grin against your neck before you hear it in his voice, "Poor thing. Am I working you too hard? I rarely see you so out of sorts..."Â
Sukuna doesn't even try to disguise his amusement at your complete inebriation with his kisses. His tongue presses against the nape of your throat before he follows a line of sweat up to your ear, leaving behind a cold stripe of his saliva against your burning hot skin. He holds you fast when you violently shiver against him, "It's a good look on you."
âPleaseâŚâ You beg with whatever breath you can conjure for him but it comes out as more of a desperate little whimper. That was Sukunaâs favorite tone of your voice, after all.Â
And desperate you were. Sukuna had been devouring you for so long, sucking and nipping and licking at whatever part of your revealed skin interested him. You could feel your legs forgetting how to operate.
You just needed a moment.Â
Without his permission, you push away from his chest and manage to get to your feet in front of him. Your legs buckle, but you're able to catch yourself before you fall face first back into him. Sukuna is looking up at you, as kiss drunk as you felt, blinking slowly with a satisfied smile.Â
âGive me just one sec-â Youâre about to turn away. And then you see it.Â
Sukuna had you so entranced with him, had your mind so far away from your body, that you hadnât even noticed the fact that you had cleanly soaked through your panties on his lap. And there, on that oh-so-comfortable part of his thigh, that had quickly become one of your happy places, was a dark spot on his jeans from your wetness.Â
All you could do was stare down at it, mortified.Â
Which only has Sukuna following your gaze in momentary curiosity.Â
âI-IâMâŚâ You try to catch his attention again with the sound of your voice before his eyes can settle on the new mark, but Sukuna sees it first.
His grin quickly fades and your heart careens into your throat. You feel embarrassment shoot through you like a shot of adrenaline, coloring your already pink face a bright and rosy red.Â
The clear solution to the undoubtedly awkward situation is to run, right?
âIâll be right back-â But you donât even move an inch before his hand snaps forward and latches onto the front pocket of your (his) hoodie, stopping you in place.Â
Your heartbeat thumps in your red-hot ears and you go against every fiber of your being to meet his eyes.
âWhere the hell do you think youâre going with my dinner?" The playful lilt of his tone has completely vanished and reveals a deep, dark starvation in its place.
"I work hard for my meals, you know?âÂ
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the neediness makes absolutely no sense ἍáĄ
not only is the begging dumb, itâs illogical
inducing the void is one of the easiest things you can, do, easier than breathing
at anytime of the day you relax
heavy breathing
focus on the darkness in your eyes
affirm âI AMâ or let your mind wonder, anything to keep your consciousness away from the 3D
and youâve done it
theres no âiâve tried but-â âbut when i do itâ thereâs is no trial and error for a god, you arenât special, youâre not exempt from the law of assumption. Youâre not the exception, you can do it. Thereâs no trying, just be, itâs so easy that this neediness a lot of you are showing just doesnât make any sense.
And when I say that you might think Iâm crazy. Because some of you need to get out of the life youâre living, you need to escape, you need the void. Kill that mindset immediately, because that need just shows that you donât believe you are the operant power, the void doesnât gift you anything. Itâs just a state of consciousness, you manifest, not the void, so the neediness is completely irrational.
its just a state of consciousness that you are inducing through relaxation and or meditation. Which is why the begging and the neediness makes no sense.
If you are âI AMâ as you say you are, than you are everything. You can do everything. And the law of assumption is that if think it to be true, it has already been. Why are you begging for something that is already happened, if you are a âvoid masterâ why are you still asking the same questions you KNOW the answers to. Stop stalling.
If you order a package, and it arrives, you arenât going to be emailing amazon asking how to get your package and complaining that it hasnât come, because youâll look pretty stupid, wonât you? This neediness doesnât make sense because youâve already induced the void state and you are already a master at the inducing pure consciousness.
Another reason why it doesnât make sense is because itâs so easy. Why are you still here begging for something that is as easy as breathing, itâs illogical. The void state is just a state of consciousness where any intention can be set without resistance, thatâs it. Thatâs all it is. Itâs not magic, and youâll roll your eyes and say âI know itâs not magicâ but why are you still asking for help?
If you knew 100% the simplicity of it, you wouldnât need that subliminal, you wouldnât need someone to give you guidance EVERY step of the way, you wouldnât need to do this 20-step yoga routine, you wouldnât need to shamelessly ask others to âenterâ for you, you wouldnât need external bullshit to do something thatâs internal. You wouldnât need an âinstant methodâ, you wouldnât need to read paragraph on paragraph, post after post trying to make it âclickâ.
If you had a boyfriend you wouldnât need to read post after post telling you how to get one would you. You wouldnât be begging people to help you get a boyfriend if he was right next to you in bed. You wouldnât be reading relationship success stories trying to feel something. Why? because you donât need to. You already have one.
The void is already yours, it has been the second you thought about it because manifestation is instant so this desperation and this feeling of despair makes absolutely no sense
stop the desperation and start standing firm, do i really need to remind you who you are? is the void your bitch or is it the other way around?
đđ stop needing start deciding, itâs so so simple
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