#but frankly I just. do not care rn
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quillandink333 Ā· 2 years ago
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Why does getting validation for my selfship shit feel soā€¦.worthless nowadays? Like am I selfish for thinking itā€™s never enough or just depressed?? Lol
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essektheylyss Ā· 3 months ago
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Okay I'm not normally one to comment publicly on ship portmanteaus but we seem nowhere near a consensus and I've been reading basically nothing but taxonomic theory with a side of organizational management for like seven weeks straight so: why is verleth not the default option. It cannot be because it's too close to vexleth when everyone's been using it next to vaxleth for years. Obviously we could go to keyrin, but a) every other Keyleth ship name is [other person]leth, and b) it's going to be annoying as hell with autocorrect for being one letter off of a real word.
But most critical, we cannot use "thelyss" as Verin's part of the portmanteau, on account of the fact that Verin has been on screen for like three minutes, and his older brother, with whom he does still share a second name, has been on screen for like fifteen hours. I know Essek's ship names usually use his title but Verin ALSO is not the most obvious Task Hand (rip Adeen Tasithar, you probably would've loved being a shady bitch in Vasselheim but honestly, I don't actually know well enough to say).
Think of new fans trying to figure out who the fuck is in this ship. Think of the tag wranglers. Think of me, local taxonomy nerd who will one day just lose it and start yelling on the dash about authority controls and the absolute inadequacy of disambiguation by committee.*
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y3ahwhat3ver Ā· 9 months ago
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Been seeing this over and over and it's sort of been annoying me but. Valentino and Alastor are not even remotely comparable. Like. Look I may be a bit biased bc I like Alastor and don't like Valentino beyond the funny moments he has but like.
Okay. Alastor sucks. Like he's a violent dickhead but part of that is that he's very restrained in his violence. The only times we see him do anything outright violent are when he/the hotel are under attack and then his one moment with Husk. His relationship with Husk gets brought up a lot when people make the comparison but to me like.
Throughout the show you see Husk talk shit to Alastor, literally all of the time. He heavily dislikes him (in my opinion a major part of that is bitterness over losing his own title just to become subservient to Al) but he doesn't ever really seem scared of him, beyond the one moment. He and Alastor have known eachother for years and it's pretty clear to me that Alastor sort of just. Let's him say whatever as long as he doesn't hit A Limit. Alastor's own contract is something he's very clearly sensitive about and Husk bringing that up when he was already in a bad mood. I'm not saying the way he treats Husk in this scene is good, or right but just that it makes sense in context.
I guess what really does it for me is Niffty as well? Like it's so clear she loves Al, quite literally crawling all over him and crowning him. They have a very sweet relationship in the show. She's comfortable enough with him to freely speak about her own feelings ("I really like them Alastor. They let me put on roach puppet shows without booing")
You just get the sense that like. Alastors relationship with his contractee's is. Maybe not the most outright friendly but it's not inherently violent.
And then you compare that to Valentino. Valentino is violent, but worse he's impulsive. And also kind of an idiot. Like the first time we see him it's Velvette calling Vox to come deal with him bc the man is on a rampage and killing her models. He has to be talked down from going to the hotel and killing everyone there. (Already a bad idea image wise but like. With the literal Princess of Hell in that hotel it's like. What was your plan for after that Val. What was your plan for after you attacked the only heir to the throne, the literal daughter of the devil. Christ.)
The difference here is that the only contractee we see him interact with is Angel Dust, and their relationship is fraught with abuse. Physical, sexual, and psychological. Valentino enables his drug addiction because it makes Angel more compliant. Even when he is not being violent towards Angel himself, he's still perpetuating that violence through the work he has Angel do (literally the everything about Poison makes me kind of sick to watch. Tbh, like great song but i cannot watch the mv without getting kind of upset. And look there's a conversation in there about sex work, and specifically SAFE sex work but that's not really what this post is.)
Like. There's literally a line in the show about Angel being WATERBOARDED at work. ("You know, Val, he's into that waterboarding shit now - I don't know, it's a kink." - episode 6 welcome to heaven) And this is JUST Angel's perspective. You don't see Valentino's other contracts but from the way Angel is treated, it's kind of clear that he does shit like this to anyone under his control, and thus anyone who cannot tell him No.
Look. You get the sense that Alastor is a dick, but there's no implication that he takes Niffty and Husk out back and beats them when he's aggravated (with them or otherwise.) We literally watch Valentino assault and threaten Angel because there is someone stronger than him [Valentino] who is trying to get him out of work.
[Edit (June 2nd, 2024): I want to clarify that I do like loser, baby and also Husk as a character and this is more abt my grievances with fandom comparing the two. In series, Angel needed that discussion with Husk and even thought their situations aren't 1:1 or even really that similar, it's still clear that Husks attempt to like. Empathize with him worked for Angel. That is all, thank u and goodnight]
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dewwshi Ā· 1 year ago
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@davekatweek 2023, day 7: "beginnings"
(n.) the point in time or space at which something begins.
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I'm unfortunately still easily affected by Ruki so it's better staying away. However I'm grateful to people who show their love openly to all the members cause it appears to be very much needed.
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startrekin-it Ā· 10 months ago
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Woke up last night with two hypos that i barely had the brain activity to fix, and i no longer own Jelly Babies. Desperately hoping we donā€™t have a repeat performance
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alaskan-wallflower Ā· 6 months ago
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(vent in the tags and under the cut. donā€™t read if you donā€™t want.)
sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. thereā€™s just no point anymore tbh.
#tw sui ideation#its honestly just been going through my head for a while#the past two weeks my parents havenā€™t talked about anything besides my brother#i kinda just feel like iā€™ve been forgotten in a way#i just feel lonely i guess#and i hate it#itā€™s just one of those days where i feel lethargic and just numb frankly#and iā€™m tying to keep posting because itā€™s not fair that others who donā€™t give a shit have to read my vents#but i just canā€™t do this anymore#iā€™m going through a lot rn#between yesterday and my dog being sick and school starting and my grandma getting surgery and having to move in with my family#itā€™s all just a lot rn#and sometimes i just think about it and i just hate it#i hate having dark thoughts like this#iā€™ve been my only therapist because i canā€™t talk to my parents#i canā€™t talk to them about this stuff or theyā€™ll just give me the ā€œyou can be sad but you canā€™t pack up and live thereā€ bullshit#I DIDNT FUCKING ASK FOR THIS#that pisses me off so bad#i didnā€™t fucking ask to have suicidal thoughts?#sometimes iā€™ll just choke myself with my dogā€™s leash as a form of punishment because it just makes me feel good#atp i donā€™t care if i go too far because itā€™s not worth it anymore#it just doesnā€™t feel like lifeā€™s worth living#thereā€™s nothing to enjoy or look forward to atp#i just need a friend#iā€™m so tired of being there for people and then having to turn back to myself when i have an issue because im too cowardly to open up#iā€™m scared#i donā€™t have it bad like i donā€™t know why i feel like this#i have a good life#iā€™m just being a brat#i dunno
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hauntedwoman Ā· 10 months ago
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as badly as i want to avoid my mom she is making it extremely difficult
#i feel really bad that im so angry at her and she doesnt even know it#but my entire living situation is making me miserable right now and its her fault#she charges me $50 in rent every week and shes increasing it to $125 a week at the end of the month#the only reason this is happening is because she FORCED ME to drop out and the only other alternative was that i had to work full time + pa#rent.............. but like at my job even if im working 40 hrs a week ill only be making abt $900 a month#so i will barely have anything leftover for myself after rent#and i cannot get a second job bc i frankly can not handle it at all + what hours would i even work#and my mom refuses to understand that the reason i had to drop out is bc i am so depressed and so suicidal and i just dont want to live#she doesnt acknowledge that im disabled and severely mentally ill#every time i try to talk about my mental health she treats me like im such a burden to her even though i literally never tell her anything#personal anymore bc she just doesnt listen or care#ALSO she FORCED ME to move across the country and transfer schools when i really did not want (hence why i flunked all of my classes bc i d#not care) but like. everything thats wrong in my life rn is bc i do not want ot live where im living and theres no way for me to go back to#texas and also i dont rly wanna live w my dad either#but anyways. this whole situation would be better if my mom was using me paying rent as an actual lesson in adult respinsibility#but it's really just a punishment because i cant function the way she wants me to#and im over it#so fucking over it why am i such a pussy why cant i just die
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widevibratobitch Ā· 3 months ago
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im like if a girl had the worst fucking life ruining relationship with her mother lol
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apocalypticdemon Ā· 8 months ago
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y'know. it really sucks to feel yourself back-sliding, mentally, when you know you've been doing pretty alright for a while
#i can feel it coming scoob. frankly i think it may already be here.#i am always so tired. frustrated. having really fun mood swings.#and my job is deeply taxing and deeply stressful. ao i never get any fucking reprieve.#and i literally don't have the energy to care for myself at home reliably.#so my whole fuckin day got ruined today bc my landlord visited with some people to measure the place.#and i spent hours cleaning. and he ended the call by trlling me my apartment was dirty.#so. i cried. bc i have no emotional resilience anymore on account of the constant stress#and then i cut someone off in traffic today despite trying really hard to Not do that#but despite checking my mirrors and blind spot 4 times i still managed it!#and they sped past me. so i screamed at them from the safety of my car with the windows rolled up.#and then immediately burst into uncontrollable tears that lasted the better part of 30 min#and nearly made me puke.#so now. i am hollowed-out and exhausted. just barely making it through.#and i can feel how close the absolute meltdown is. and i can't fuckin do anything about it bc i can't miss work! fuck!#it's been an exceptionally stressful two weeks and I've had it. but we keep trucking i guess.#idk im sad and frustrated and just going through it rn. and it sucks bc i remember being happy.#and i'm just not anymore.#i ramble#sorry this was long and rambly and unasked for i'm just having a really really bad day#and will be having them every day until at least august!
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sybbi Ā· 9 months ago
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If anybody wants an update on the precariously-close-to-failed democracy of Ohio, the Republican supermajority is attempting to keep the sitting president off of the November ballot on a technicality they created (and have previously bypassed when convenient).
These are the same people that tried everything in their power to keep an abortion initiative off the ballot despite swearing up and down it wouldn't pass anyway because they totally represent the average Ohioan's opinion on this matter so they KNOW Ohioans are against abortion, and when the measure DID get put on the ballot and Ohioans DID vote to protect abortion, they immediately said "This isn't over," because fuck the people's will.
I've said it before and I will continue to scream it until I'm red in the fucking face:
One party isn't perfect, but they have shown they value the most basic tenets of representative democracy.
The other party is pulling out all the stops to ensure we are a "democracy" in theory only.
#btw some of the worst republicans in the nation (tho not the most outrageous) are from ohio#before roe v wade was even being challenged every small town and conservative city#was starting to pass legislation banning it#'in the event' rvw was overturned#some of the shadiest most corrupt conservative politicians outside of texas are in ohio#and they are constantly overlooked bc 'it's ohio who cares'#despite being the 7th most populous state in the country it feels like almost no one ever acknowledges the fucked up shit that happens ther#it is extremely frustrating#i was crying on the phone to my bf once venting abt the shit i was seeing and hearing re:abortion#bc i genuinely believed (and still do) there was no way so many conservatives would start passing such bans#all at the SAME TIME#if they didnt have word that something was going on. that SOMEONE behind closes doors had hinted at something.#and i was told i was being paranoid. there's no way it wld be overturned.#that's what a bunch of blue state motherfuckers kept saying#and look what happened#and now these same blue state motherfuckers say they dont have/want to vote for biden#and it drives me insane#bc the kind of conservatives that have taken over ohio love that rhetoric.#and maybe this is bc im from a red state but i CANNOT STAND you stipid motherfuckers that take shit for granted#voting is the absolute bare minimum#when you dont do it and promote voter apathy#these are the peoppe you're letting win#and frankly giving in to voter apathy bc ur in a 'safe' blue state is despicable to me#bc ur potentially spreading that apathy to states that need voters that ARENT Christian fascists to get out and vote#and the onyl thing keeping some of the more despicable red governments in our country in check rn#WHETHER YOU WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT OR NOT#is Biden's administration#they are NOT equal and if you are genuonely making that argument im not being nice anymore u just have shit for brains#youve spent too much time engaging in rhetoric on the internet and have officially lost touch with reality#im.on mobile so I'm not fixing the typos in my tags fuck you
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shikai-the-storyteller Ā· 2 years ago
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Making dinner and watching Slime's VOD for a few hours then sitting down and opening Tumblr / Twitter makes me feel like someone who survived a bomb strike solely because they wandered into their basement to grab a can of beans
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hunrising Ā· 1 year ago
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h-ypno Ā· 7 months ago
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its nice to know even millipedes get bugs sometimes
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djarinova Ā· 7 months ago
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i hate the whole "girl i aint tryna be mean, but before you there was me" trend on tik tok so fucking much
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wakanai Ā· 1 year ago
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[tw: ed; fat shaming]
#feeling awful rn#Lmao#ā€œJust do it. Stop being unhealthy. You're so fatā€#hahaha lmao yeah you've been reminding me that for like 5 years now#You think it helps??#My gosh.#ā€œI'm saying this because I care for you. I don't want you to look uglyā€#It's been 5 years. I wonder how that's working out lol#If i do get healthier its not because of you its because of me#because frankly your strategy is not at all helping#Like yeah constantly fat shame and criticize someone and call them ugly#and then get shocked when they believe it and get worse#I looked at my old photos#I wasn't even fat back then but I remember they alr called me out on gaining weight#And now here I am. And they're still calling me out on gaining weight. And it's gotten worse#I'm not obese im chubby but like yeah thats not an excuse and i self sabatoge and use eating as a coping mechanism#and i ate sm today#It's funny cause one time i was actually trying and making progress#Then they called me fat again and teased me abt it and my motivation just came cashing down#I hate it sm#ofc ill still continue trying to get better because yk gotta take care of myself and look pretty for myself#but these people are just...#i cant deal w this#one of my fam members came up on me just now and said im becoming obese#ty very much#your fucking criticisms have def helped me reach this point#ā€œi care for you. I won't shut up about it until you lose weightā€#can u just. like. get off my back.#when they're trying to motivate me but their so called motivations include teasing me and berating me and asking me why im fat 24/7#ty for your ā€œmotivationā€
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