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Had a job interview today !!!!!
#getting back in the field for HVAC for now#in a summer or two once i have good savings again im gonna go hard for park ranger#but for now this was the step i needed!#fired in Dec from Radiant and took Jan off to fucking relax after the last hell year working there#tbh it went super well and I'm hoping for a call back/job offer tonight or maybe on monday :0
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I haven't drawn in so long and tf2 comes back with a bat to my brain again after I first got super into it when I was *checks notes* 14 I gotta get my gears wet again and like, rediscover how to draw and I'm wetting my feet again with a heavymedic shit post 😭
------------------- EDIT: The original images contained a text post from someone who did not want that text post spread - So let's have the blank versions instead! Imagine any dialogue in there that you want lol
#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 heavy#tf2 medic#heavymedic#red oktoberfest#man they need a different ship name#its been 11 years on and off being into tf2 and here I am... finally posting for it#you shouldve seen the drawings id made when I was 14 - the shift from anime bishi men to... 30-50 year old comic-style burly men AAA#It was crazy#this is also the media that made me trans LOL#anyways! Im excited to draw for tf2 while im into it for now and am interested in stepping my toes into this fandom proper :)#Im also really glad that Ive grown so much in terms of drawing ability that I can feel comfortable drawing heavy#i didnt even try it when I was 14/15
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wrestling to be the first to greet you (they broke into your house)
#null rot#hantengu#hantengu clones#sekido#karaku#urogi#aizetsu#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#they say it doesnt matter who gets greeted first but then go into a full out brawl to be the first.... they probably break things and then#fight again to be the second who gets greeted and then again for third.. an.d. again for fourth... then one more time for-#GYAHHHHHHHH#LIKE BRO THEY JUST LOOK LIKE THE TYPE TO FIGHT OVER YOU#THEY FIGHT NORMALLY LIKE SIBLINGS BUT THEY RAKE IT A STEP FURTHER CAUSE THEY'RE DEMONS BUT IT'S NORMAL TO THEM#AND WHY IS ZOHA THE STRONGEST???? YOUNGER = STRONGER????? PHYSICALLY?????? IM SEEING IT THAT WAY#IN THAT CASE ITD MAKE SENSE SINCE THE OLDEST IS HANTENGU HIMSELF..... AND HES...... HIM#i always see sekido losing wrestling battles and Aizetsu being the one to win if its pure strength alone#bUT if theyre playing dirty i can see the turning tables...... but maybe thats for another day....#GYAH FUCK THE POWER SCALING BETWEEN THE FOUR BRO I NEED TO KEEP GOING#THESE MFS ARE TESTING MY ABILITIES WITH HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TO KEEP DRAWING THEM...#FOR NOW LOOK HOW MUCH THEYRE DUMBASSES#and yes. the crotch shot to urogi was intentional on aizetsu's part. hes so subtle mean girl coded to me
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sometimes you just need somebody else to point out the obvious. thank goodness for mikey and her gender collecting habit!
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#tmnt#tmnt 2k3#tmnt 2003#tmnt 03#tmnt fancomic#2k3 donatello#2003 mikey#2003 donnie#2k3 michelangelo#tmnt mikey#tmnt donnie#tmnt 2003 donnie#michelangelo splinterson#donatello splinterson#teenage mutant ninja turtles#queer#tmnt 2003 donatello#turtle trek#art#my art#donnie just cant help but see two women share intimate space on screen and feel.....weird#why is that donnie OOH OOH#NOW YOU KNOW YOU DUMMY#its not that important to the conversation but i h/c donnie as a he/him lesbian#the point is more that he knows why he feels strange about his attraction#because his attraction is not that of a straight man cuz hes not that but he does like women and it feels weird to him#and hes been looking into queer genders with mikey (cuz of st) and yet still couldnt figure it out#Mikey dancing around the issue gently as he can making him truly understand each step before going in for the kill#cuz she knows Donnie needs it laid out proper before he’ll get it
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(This post was sponsored by a 1+ hour commute)
#I'm so frustrated how little time and energy i have after a day is done#i didn't win the fight against depression to have lofe ruined by THAT now#lacking time and energy to go on job hunt.. it's all very small steps only#a part time job would be marvellous but what flat can be paid with that#maybe also my anxiety is stopping me from getting a new job. what if i get fired. what if it's horrible there. ahh.. i need more courage#mine capitalism#anti-capitalism#work
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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the real reason tamarack and qiu stopped being friends
#i need step 2 NEOWWWWW#our life#our life now and forever#olnf#our life 2#tamarack baumann#qiu lin#olnf fanart#olnf tamarack#olnf qiu
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This has been an absolutely horrible couple weeks for the Jewish and Israeli community, so I want to throw in at least a tiny bit of hope in here. Amina Hassouna, the Bedouin girl who was severely hurt in Iran’s missile attacks, has been recovering well and seems to be in good condition! She is described as being ‘fully conscious’ and ‘communicating and smiling’. Two bomb shelters have been placed in Al-Fura, the town that she and her family are from, as well.
#ישראבלר#ישראל#jumblr#(I know technically it’s not but I think people will be happy to see this)#also#putting this in the tags— I don’t want to focus on politics because this news is more important right now#but I do truly hope that this will initiate stronger moves towards protecting Bedouin towns and villages#many of them are unrecognised and do not have bomb shelters despite being there for decades#the treatment of Bedouins by the government in general needs to vastly improve#hopefully there will be proper steps in the future towards improving conditions for these towns#like I’m trying to be mild about this because it’s a subject that makes me very upset and I don’t want to go on an angry rant lol#like I said— hopefully things’ll to start change in a few years if the next government can please form a coalition not full of crazy people#if you want to read more about Amina and her family the Times of Israel has quite a few articles btw
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When Steve’s parents announced their divorce, Steve told Eddie he loved him. They weren’t dating at the time, though Steve thought that the feeling was mutual to at least some extent since Eddie always flirted back with him, but he hadn’t been certain.
He had known his parents stopped loving each other years ago. Hell, he didn’t know if they had ever truly loved each other, but in any case, Steve knew.
His parents decided to sell the house, to move away from Hawkins with its cursed misfortune and small town gossip, and there was no talk of either of them taking Steve with them. Which, sure, he was grown, he hadn’t been part of the conversation at all.
Steve was left at a crossroads on what to do. So, distraught at his change in circumstances, he’d gone straight to Eddie’s and confessed his feelings because he had to know if it was at all possible for anyone to want him the way he wanted them.
Luckily enough for Steve, Eddie did!
The Munsons still had a decent amount left over from the government hush money after everything, so Eddie took his share (Wayne tried to get him to take more since all Wayne had lost was physical possessions and the trailer while Eddie almost lost his life, but Eddie would only agree to a 50/50 split) and together he and Steve threw caution to the wind and found a small place to rent together in one of the new complexes being built as part of the town’s rejuvenation project.
Things were going great. They still visited Wayne, who could now stop working such long hours at the plant and who had moved to a small fixer upper on the outskirts of town. He even moved up the ladder at the plant after some of the higher ups were lost in the “earthquakes” (R.I.P.), which offered better pay and benefits.
Wayne even started dating again, which Eddie informed Steve of in such a scandalized tone, but Steve could tell that Eddie was happy for his uncle, ribbing the older man when they had stopped by one morning and the man hadn’t even been home, stumbling back an hour later with lipstick stains on his shirt’s collar.
(Wayne had told him that he was going to call the cops on them for breaking and entering while he was gone, but there was no heat in it as they set chocolate chip pancakes, eggs, and a steaming cup of coffee before him, having made use of the kitchen while he was out.)
Wayne never introduced any of the women he dated to Eddie and Steve, saying that it wasn’t proper to introduce anyone to the kids yet until he was certain that things were serious, never mind that the “kids” were well into their 20s now.
(Steve also felt a warmth at being included as a “kid” of Wayne’s, however, filling a hole in his heart that his parents had left behind, though his mother had recently reached out to him to rekindle their relationship. His father remained radio silent.)
Eventually, however, there was someone Wayne kept seeing repeatedly, someone he’d met while outside of town when he was at some convention for work and her car had broken down outside of his motel room. She hadn’t left the motel room until the next morning, and Wayne was certain it was just a single night of passion, but…
They had really hit it off, it seemed, and though Wayne hadn’t thought such an amazing and sensual—(“Uncle Wayne! For the love of everything holy, unholy, and whatever’s in-between, please don’t say sensual!)—woman would be interested in him, they exchanged numbers. And then, the day after he’d told her he should be home again from the trip, she called him.
Things only progressed from there, and soon enough there were talks of something committed, of something truly serious, and after a while, Wayne broke the news.
“Boys, my partner is going to be moving back to Hawkins and, while we know it’s a giant leap, we decided to move in together.”
As it turns out, apparently the woman is actually from Hawkins too but had left after the earthquakes tore the town apart, so she is someone that they actually knew. Wayne still won’t tell them who it is, however. He seems a little embarrassed by that, actually, but he also tells them that he is the happiest he’s ever been and he was willing to fight to be with her, so what else can they do but accept that?
They are thus excited for him, excited to finally meet her (again?), and the plan is set that they would have a family dinner together once she was in town. Steve and Eddie are, of course, moderately worried given the whole being queer thing, but Wayne assures them that they will be safe. That Wayne had made damned certain that both his boys would be safe.
(Steve again feels that warmth of belonging to someone, of being loved and cared for and supported in a way he’d never known before.)
And then the day arrives. Steve and Eddie show up early, looking pretty damn spiffy they believe, and help Wayne get the dinner ready, though it’s more like a late lunch really. Eventually, they hear the sounds of tires outside of Wayne’s house.
Wayne, smiling and looking absolutely besotted, moves toward the front door to let his girlfriend in without missing a second. Steve and Eddie hear the door open and close from the kitchen, hear quietly murmured words and what disgustingly sounds like kissing, and then there’s footsteps and—
Steve turns around to greet this mysterious woman, a smile on his face, before dropping the bowl of salad in his hands as shock and something very much like horror make itself known to him.
“MOM???!”
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Hostage Hotties: @derythcorvinus @katyawriteswhump @honeii-puff
#cracked treated seriously#rare pair#lmaooooo I’m so sorry I had this random idea and had to write it#the ideas I have while half asleep is2g#dustin: so…does this make you brothers or cousins? 🤨#mike: kind of gross you boinked your own step brother-cousin ngl#max: I know a good therapist if you need one#steve: I’m going to resurrect vecna just so that he can kill me#will: valid#but for real#steve’s mom wants to be a better person and is learning to let herself love and trust again and wants to be a proper mother to steve#and steve’s boyfriend#wayne made certain she wouldn’t cause problems before he even contemplated having any sort of relationship with her#he loves her but his boys’ safety and wellbeing always come first#lmao I’m going to bed now#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#wayne munson#plot thots
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I really don’t care who the stalker is, what I do want to know is who the hell the scum of the earth man who took advantage of and sexually abused him is
#baby reindeer#richard gadd#I see so many desperately looking for her identity when he took so many steps to keep her hidden for a reason did you watch the show?!#now the writer /producer THAT MAN needs to be unveiled bc there’s too many of those sickos already and they all keep prancing around#consequence free from their despicable disgusting behavior and actions#anyways I just finished the series and cried for like 10 minutes so#it’s a good series imo#joey watches
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Blind side (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Sans#Papyrus#Gaster#Sans closing his good eye every once in a while and keeping his blind eye open - obviously he does so in-game as well so it's a style-match#It's just interesting in the context of him being textually-confirmed blind in Handplates hehe#There's a level of vulnerability there! Not more than closing both eyes around someone - and potentially also distrust!#''I'm baring myself blind right now but /you/ don't need to know that'' - it suits him ♪#Especially when he does it around Papyrus! Because obviously Papyrus knows about his partial blindness#But when he's trying to be duplicitous - the way he looks at him sidelong with his blind eye when he's trying to lie unsuccessfully ugh <3#And again-again it being about how much he trusts Papyrus! That he can be a little lazy or spacey and Papyrus will help him!#Also something about his entire right side being impaired - pawing around with his plated hand for something he can't see on that side#The dynamics! Internal and external! Very good like them lots#And then there's Gaster lol ♪ Throw him into the mix I'm sure it won't make a mess at all haha#I guess he's visiting? Just spacing out - he and Sans have a lot on their minds - separately haha#I do love how Sans pushes Gaster to be kind to Papyrus - very deservedly! He wants Papyrus to be happy of course#And he's obviously still angry with Gaster a lot but how might that present itself when Papyrus is Papyrus at Gaster hehe#Even just in that small jokey way of ''you tryin' to step on my turf?'' hehehe#Especially since the comparison wouldn't even come up if he had two functioning eyes hm?? Right Gaster???? Lol#Speaking of that scene and Sans' partial blindness tho ughhughuhg <3 <3 The fact that Sans stands with Gaster to his blind side#It's the vulnerability/distaste/confidence of it all! He's grown up so much it's all right there in how he holds himself#That he either trusts Gaster enough not to attack him - starting to believe him - or that he has enough faith in himself to protect himself#And only looking at him with his peripherals unless he looks directly at him hghhhgh I am Normal about shot composition I swear lol#Also I like how that last panel turned out lol - Sans just appears at the bottom of the steps like how's it going. care to gtfo thx
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warm up doodle of the cutest ppl in the world
#tamarack baumann#qiu lin#olnf#our life now and forever#thiis doesn't need a backstory but i like to ramble sso...#thiis is like step#2-3??#ttheyre fwiends wooo :3#theyre bbeginngi to openly care for each other again wwooo!!!!#my art#aalso funny thing aabout rendering#iis that apparently u juust do rrandom shit until it looks good#i thouugjt rendering wwas like this big scary thing#nnope!!!!
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Bad boys..... Ssave me bad boys..... Oh God oh no.......,,..
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#bandit's doodles#grian#joel smallishbeans#jimmy solidarity#the bad boys#the monthly urge to rewatch the life series is back#I loathe them#i saw a compilation of them last night and I needed more content of them#So I took it into my own hands#I stepped up to the plate and drew my heart out#drawing non-creature Joel was nerve wracking#Hes still kind of a creature though right#i will always wait for the next climbing into conversation episode#limited life was so beautiful#i hope next life series is limited life 2#electric boogaloo#limiteder life#Limited life (now with less time!)#also uh european magpie for bad boy grian anyone#i was gonna add more tags#But I can only say 'drawing this was fun' so many times#Though!i haven't finished a full drawing in a minute#So that's something!#goodnight#And farewell!!
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This one is for all my fellow "My gender is 'I have a job and I can't worry about that right now"'. I see you.
(part 1, part 2)
#fourfold soul#Nobody#Fitch#While it does go counter to the spirit of the main character having no name no gender...I have decided to reveal-#-my placeholder name for to keep a proper tagging system. This was the reason I ended up reading the odyssey by the way.#I needed a placeholder name for our cowboy exorcist and I went with 'Nobody-haha-like-in-the-odyssey-wait-what'.#Project discussion wise this isn't the name we use when talking about this character. *That's* staying a secret.#This comic idea was actually one of the first things I ever sketched for Nobody.#The rhetoric at that point was to show off to my game dev partner the humour in having No Gender for a protag.#None binary with a side of 'I don't have the capacity to think about that right now.'#There was a 4th panel to go along with this but I cut it for time. I'll post it separately later on.#I had to take some steps back to solidify character designs but now I've got them LOCKED DOWN.#WE ARE BACK. I WILL MAKE OUR BELOVED CHARACTER'S KNOWN. THROUGH SILLY COMICS.
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my guy pretty like a girl & he got fight stories to tell; i see both sides like chanel
#death note#horreurart#mello dn#near dn#mihael kheel#nate river#meronia#mellonear#TWO THINGS: 1. here. have a kind of failed attempt but ultimately a step in the right direction re: letting go of art#look how uuuhhhhh i barely even shaded anything <- trying really hard to loosen the grip i have on professionalism and finished illustratio#THE OTHER THING: at this point i feel the need to explain the reason why these anime boys have me by the throat is because me n the bestie#decided to rp them on a whim. and now we are in too deep. this isn't any less embarrassing#but it DOES add context#caption is frank ocean 's chanel. it almost was STEAM BOTH SIDES OF THE L but i refrained because it was too funny and ruined the vibe#<- bravely killed darlings. anyway i listened to chanel a lot drawing this i'd like to think the vibe transfered.#in my mind they feel the same
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Sorry for being such a poopyhead and letting my negative emotions take ahold of me and control my thought process for nearly 3 days guys anyways self-esteem has been recovered (somewhat) and now I'm just doing a colorblind challenge using Caine to test if I can still paint
(I disabled colors on my screens and therefore CANNOT see any of the colors even in this screenshot, I'm relying purely on values and all I can see are black and whites) (EDIT: Okay, I forgot the exception to this challenge was Caine's eyes because I wanted it to be the same as his original palette just in case this attempt's palette was too unrecognizable.)
I also discovered I like cooking as a hobby during those 3 days of self-reflection. I should stop being terminally online more often
#Ziku's insane rambles#life update#personal post#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc caine#caine#art wip#digital art#the last three days were both hellish and eye-opening#so I'm still glad I took that break#turns out it's even what I needed for myself#before I took the break I was having MAD doubts about my artistic skills and very bad thoughts#now I'm back on the saddle again#sometimes all you need is to take a step back#when things feel overwhelming; step away from the keyboard#trust the process :)
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