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ohnomytummy · 3 days ago

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Since I’m in the middle of my work’s giant food drive, I’ve spent most of the day eating odd snacks and drinking espresso. I didn’t actually eat my first real meal until 7pm.

I have a really sensitive trigger on when and how I can be tummy sick in public, so my belly will very often protect me until I can be in private. You can imagine that 5 espresso shots on top of an odd combo of granola bars and pastries would give me a horrid tummy ache. And it did! As soon as I got home 🙃

I immediately stripped off my clothes and turned on the shower, anticipating my tummy would drop any second, and god was I right…I thought I might have to go and within seconds of me sitting down, I felt my bowels gurgle and my mouth fill with saliva. It happened so fast, I threw open my shower curtain and prepared for the worst. Luckily it was just a few urgently nauseous spats into the tub, nothing more.

For nearly half an hour my tummy went rogue. I got through the first bout then thought…maybe? So I got in the shower, and within minutes was crouched down, one hand steadying myself against the wall while the other gripped and pushed my belly, cramps rushing through my gut. I had to hop out as soon as I washed the soap from my hair, moaning and begging to last until I could get to the toilet.

Though after a nap, some good jerking off, and some MORE granola bars, I went shopping and got a package of cannolis to eat after my actual meal (chicken, cheese, broccoli, & peas). Maybe the most inconvenient part of this kink is getting so turned on by your own tummy troubles in the morning, you often make plans to fill yourself sick so it happens again the very next day.

So obviously I’ve just eaten a package of cannolis….and now my stomach is flipping and gurgling once again.

And along with the cannolis I got more coffee. don’t have to be back at the drive till the afternoon. You can guess what my plans are for myself for the next 12 hours…

#bellyache kink #stuffed aftermath #upset belly

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mariju-anas · 1 year ago

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My bingeing has gotten so bad that I’m not even worried on restricting rn, just maintaining. I feel like such a fuckin fraud lmao

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newmsies · 6 months ago

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i think I'm falling apart, water should NOT make my stomach hurt

#like who do you think you are #to be WATER #and trying to make me throw up for DARING to drink it #without eating anything before #''It's probably because you have an empty stomach''#I HAD ALL THREE MEALS TODAY AND A GRANOLA BAR BEFORE I TOOK MY MEDICINE #at this point i think my body just has something against me #like wdym drinking water makes me nauseous #wdym I've been sick for a fucking month #wdym i have back pain so bad i pass out for hours #guys if anyone is a doctor here please tell me if I'm dying 🥰🙏#newmsies

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sovamurka · 15 hours ago

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bad news, I think I developed a serious case of ED, that may have been provoked by my meds

#I don't feel hunger. at all. it scares me. and when I try to eat something my body revolts EVEN IF THAT'S LITERALLY MY FAVOURITE FOOD.#I almost cried from shame today when my plate was full of food and I couldn't eat even 1/4 of it #I don't throw up. I used to feel nauseous for at least 2 weeks but... now I don't feel anything. literally anything.#the only way I know that my body needs food is when I feel something burning a little in my stomach.#I hate this. I can only drink water and tea without feeling like an empty neurotic shell.#I want this to end so badly. I want to enjoy eating food again. I hope I'll make it out this time.#I'm so tired of being on the verge of death for the last two years.#I almost died from pneumonia this year. I still have a damaged lung. and epilepsy on top of that. I don't want to die. I DON'T WANT TO DIE.#sorry. it's just... I'm so tired. I'm so. so tired.

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bo0zey · 2 years ago

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anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞#real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS???#ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

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sevenstevearmy · 11 months ago

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😡🤒

#my step mother might have given me covid. couldn't atay in her fucking room had to cough all over the house #i'm gonna be pissed if she did. i already have asthma and i'm having some trouble breathinh rn #plus my head hurty. i have to miss work and my body aches and i so eepy but laying down makes breathing worse #i have appointment to get tested tomorrow it better say no covid here bc i am not trying to die #i'm literally already disabled come on. and i can't eat but i need to eat. i did get some water into me. i'm so nauseous #and there's nothing i htae more than nausea bc it's one of my fucking PTSD triggers #if i start having an attack i'm going to pass out in this condition. i needed to ho grocery shopping but now i can't #i have nothing i can eat or drink really bc plain water makes me nauseous lucky me. i took some ibuprofen but it's never worked well on me #of course acetaminophen doesn't work on me at all so here we are. i'm absolutely going to cry but that's going to make my head hurt more #she better have given me one of the other three things she got from the kids at schook i don't want covid #i have all my boosters but still. i am an at risk person. and just the amount of disrespect from hanging out in common soaces while sick #this meant i had to keep myself stuck in my room but i still had to eat in the kitchen which she contaminated. i'm pissed

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cottoncandysecretlair · 2 years ago

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tfw u show up to the dr appointment and you haven't eaten in like 48 full hours and they ask you about your eating habits and you say you fast pretty often in accident because your stimulant messes up your hunger response

and they just look you up and down clearly not believing you before starting The Weight Loss Conversation™ and get told that fasting will guarantee you weight loss

#God I wish #I've only ever been able to lose weight on extremely low calories #I can lose a bit of weight per week on a sub 800 calorie diet #I can lose weight at the rate expected of most people if I cut it even more #Like if I literally don't eat every other day on sub 800 #Neither of those are sustainable #And they usually end up with me binging like the fat person people think I am #I'm currently maintaining my weight #I only drink 0 calorie and 0 sugar #I eat one meal a day at around the 1000 calorie mark #And I eat a snack around 100-200 calories around 3pm because otherwise I get nauseous #But I'm fat still so no one believes me #Man I've been fat my whole life #Parents put me on diets and shit from the time I entered kindergarten #When I was in third grade and only gaining weight they decided this wasn't working #And started making me just skip meals #Until I was 12 or 13 they fed me the same size portions I fed the 5 year olds when I worked at a daycare #I remember learning what kind of foods the kids at school hated at the lunch line #So I would have something to eat at lunch #Or I remember scrounging around for quarters so I could actually buy some food #I remember church having pizza parties and catering events #And overeating to the point of vomiting #Only to clean up and eat more because I didn't know how long it would be #Even as a teenager #Parents would order out getting nice steak meals #And not get me anything when there's nothing even at home to eat #Sometimes they'd eat out and they'd come back with like half a chicken breast and a pile of veggies for me #Most of my childhood I barely thought of the weight aspect #I just knew I was hungry and needed to figure out how to get food #As a teen I started eating like they said because I was ashamed and it still didn't make me lose weight

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prozach27 · 2 months ago

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#I think all the stress of everything is taking a really messed up toll #I’m like. no longer experiencing hunger AT ALL #normally I would experience hunger and then become ravenous once a day and have a normal meal #my stomach has shrunk so much that I struggle to even finish a regular McDonald’s meal #but now the hunger is just. never coming.#and I’m kinda enjoying it #which is a little scary #but I haven’t really eaten in two days now #I had a pasta dinner Sunday night that was delicious #and I haven’t eaten since #I was going to order groceries tonight but now I’m thinking that may not be necessary because I’m not hungry anyway #and I mean. I do need to lose weight.#I’m not feeling light headed or anything. I’m shaky? but other than that I’m fine #it’s not like I’m craving food or restricting myself #the thought of eating makes me feel nauseous #I’m honestly only receiving calories from what I drink #but I’m cutting back on all liquor quite a bit since it hits too hard on an empty stomach #and I’ve cut out coffee. I replaced it with sugar free energy drinks but that feels terrible on the stomach #so now I’m doing basic black tea with no additives #I mean… why not just see how this goes #I’ve been meaning to get my eating disorder back for a while now #maybe now’s the time #I miss who I was when I had it

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whump-it-like-its-hot · 2 months ago

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Having my driving exam in three hours and oh. My god my body is NOT cooperating with me

Wasn’t able to sleep at all last night, felt awfully nauseous all throughout. I usually wear a little necklace but the mere feeling of something brushing against my throat makes me feel like I’m suffocating right now. Rationally, I know that my hoodie isn’t trying to strangle me, but yeah no, screw rational thinking right now I guess? Sometimes I think my anxiety isn’t that bad and then I end up in a situation like this

#emeto tw #you see the thing is. I normally never have breakfast #If I don’t eat at the exact right times during the day it throws off my whole rhythm and blood sugar #one day I’d like to know what’s up with that but anyway #rationally I know that I should grab a bite to eat and something to drink. but eating in the morning just makes me #feel sick or get heartburn or makes me super fatigued #so I’d rather rawdog this exam hungry than to risk eating the wrong thing and making things worse #but that’s not a very smart idea either for obvious reasons #I’m stuck. and I feel like I’m being strangled #rationally I also know that I have good chances of passing because my worst fault in the last lesson was going above the speed limit for a #couple seconds #I’m shit scared of parking though #I guess I’m lucky because it’s the Tesla and that has a bajillion cameras but still #I’m scared of not remembering where to turn on the lights in that damn thing #or not signaling properly because this dumb thing has the indicator buttons on the fucking steering wheel so help me WE HAVE ROUNDABOUTS HER #have you ever tried pressing the correct button among ten others on a moving object while doing five other things at the same time #yeah anyway. I’m still nauseous but uhhh I guess let’s do this

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picorimori · 2 months ago

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it is week 5 and every week has been crazy like. give me. a break. please.

#my lab partner two weeks ago had to go to a conference across the country #so he was super busy and meeting up to meet him was exhausting. cause i didnt know what i was doing and he was busy #and the project requirement was wack. we had to alternate tasks it was just easier to meet in person #last week one of my lab partners ALSO had to go to the same conference that my other partner was prepping for #so my prof was like lemme just pair them up. congrats ning you are now in a group of two when everyone else is three #which is like. okay. cool #my lab partner this week had two internships so he was super busy #i am also. super busy. i am fighting the assignments #i am fighting the mental illness. it fucking sucks bro IT FUCKING SUCKS #I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET THINGS DONE WITHOUT HAVING TO FIGHT MY BRAIN #also fighting an infection. i am so fatigued. cant work cause the brain dont work. cant work cause the infection makes me uncomfy and tired #someone confessed to me last week. come the fuck on #so my lab partner. im thinking i need to pick up the slack this week im so glad my partner will probably help me #HE HAS. A FAMILY EMERGENCY #GOD ARE YOU OUT THERE? ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?#im so fucking tired lmao. 5 weeks of this shit.#like i dont blame my lab partners at all. i am also so terribly tired. i hope they are all okay #i think i need to go back to the doctor's. i told my mom and shes like #you feel back because you eat too much salt. you dont drink enough water #ALL I DO IS DRINK WATER!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED THE SALT BECAUSE IM ALWAYS NAUSEOUS. I NEED THE SALT BECAUSE IT MAKES MY BRAIN WORK BETTER #THANKS MOM THANKS MOM THANKS MOM THANKS MOM #THE GUY THAT CONFESSED TO ME? i didnt submit an assignment for two weeks cause the day i met him? i KNEW IT #I KNEW HE WAS INTO ME AND IT BOTHERED ME SO MUCH. I FORGOT TO SUBMIT AN ASSIGNMENT ISPENT HOURS RECORDING #DAYS MULLING OVER. AND DIDNT CATCH THAT I DIDNT SUBMIT IT FOR 2 FUCKING WEEKS #GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK. GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK #shout out to my lab partners. they have all been so very nice when i am dumb as fuck! i hope they find lots of money on the ground #jesus fucking christ i wish i was smart. god i wish my brain fucking worked. i wish my body wasnt trying to keel over #i wish my class tomorrow wasnt at 9am

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genderdog · 6 months ago

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chat is it normal to feel completely desensitized to feeling constantly sick that when you’re actually sick you feel like it’s not enough to warrant it