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needed this 🧡
#mine#calming#future me might regret this#but current me doesn’t#wasn’t going to let this little headcold stop me from being out in the weirdly warm weather today#almost normal now tho huh?#sad lol#when we first got to this area there was fog coming in off the water#was insanely sunny though and my phone/camera wasn’t picking it up right#it’s okay tho#I got that mental image forever now#was nice being by the water#I missed her#sunset#ocean#video
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*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*
Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.
You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah
I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender
…..I made the moodboard….
#chapter 37#of 120 or something#I must be like 90k words in haha#large word count is not an intimidation. It’s an invitation haha#I love the fics that I can’t read in just one hour:)#I gotta say I don’t enjoy the concept of making robots into organic life#it’s just my preference#seeing them as humans or animals or whatever feels so fucking wrong#the concept itself drives me off#like. Strongly#But at the same time. This fic isn’t about them being ‘haha cute organics’#it’s ‘oh god. I was turned into something I’m not’#instead of teeheee they’re fluffy#it’s please free me from this fucking nightmare. please let me be myself again.#idk how to explain. I resonate I guess#it often feels very disturbing but the characters are also disturbed#So now I’m kind of stuck reading this fic because I just can’t stop lol#just politely skipping the parts that make me too uncomfortable#also#the body horror is….damn. Impressive. I didn’t expect to read about grotesque fleshy creature turning itself inside out#it’s not even aesthetic or symbolic#it literally looks like a fucking nightmare. Which is impressive also.#the flesh is g r o s s#the beginning got me struggling and skipping#but the intermission is currently ruining my sleep schedule#oh fuck….I usually send my posts to the authors of the fics I read…..but I feel like I might offend the author of Ninth if do this……..#there’s a tiny chance they’re following me….if it’s true then I wanna tell I’m sorry pls don’t take this seriously#your fic got me waay out of my comfort zone#huge points for writing Ratchet. Drift in this fic is…the grossest fucking thing I could probably imagine but Ratchet doesn’t even hesitate#he helps him and he cares for him. Which is…..imma be real my first instinct would be to set Drift on fire to end his misery
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Attempting to get the beast used to a dental hygiene routine is… well, it’s going.
(She stayed that way for a solid 8 seconds despite hating being held belly up so I think it’s safe to say that Mim is not beating the ‘tiny speaker playing elevator music instead of a brain’ allegations any time soon.)
#cecil blogs her life#my art#digital art#artists on tumblr#Mim the cat#cats on tumblr#cat art#comics#black cats#she’s actually pretty good about it normally - like she doesn’t enjoy it but she lets me do it without too many complaints#ofc I make sure to do it as quickly as possible and give her lots of dental friendly rewards lmao#she’s currently sleeping on top of me so I think I’m forgiven#I don’t believe she has any current dental issues so it’s mostly preventative#esp bc we don’t know exactly how old she is or what her life was like before I adopted her#this is probably seven different kinds of heretical but anyway#shout out to Tom my childhood priest who once told me not to take the bible literally after I asked him where the dinos were supposed to#fit into genesis. incredible. anyway I’m a non believing heathen now so meh#who cares#these tags are a RIDE wtf cecil
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honestly no fucking wonder there’s barely any other twoc on this website anymore people literally do everything in their power to hate you it fucking sucks here
#you have no fucking principles#just read the absolute worst out of everything said and take it out of the extremely important current event context#reexplaining myself in the tags of every post I made except that quick ranty one after the strawman comic pissed me off#god forbid someone doesn’t parse her words perfectly every time and save you the effort of actually trying to understand me#I think coolsville sucks#kvetching
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eldest daughter behavior
#he just like me fr#can you tell that I used to be an osomatsu kinnie#osomatsu san is like an old wound I got from the war that’s healed but still acts up during dubious employment periods#yes I am currently job hunting why do you ask#digital art#my art#osomatsu matsuno#osomatsu san#mr osomatsu#actually no I don’t think he deserves the Mr title there’s too much respect behind that#why do I feel like his English name would be some shit like craig#I’ve only ever cosplayed once in my life and it was this fucker#I still have the bowlcut wig buried deep in my desk and it whispers to me like the green goblin mask#also I bought a surprisingly really high quality hoodie cosplay it’s very good for cold winter days#but it has a giant pine logo smack dab in the middle so it’s like wearing a sign that says bullied in highschool in public#who says watching osmtsan doesn’t do any good?#I watched two episodes the other day and immediately went on indeed and applied for another job thanks king 👍#hello to like the ten other matsuno fans still on here#I’m literally neeting it up at home right now#my friend says I’m doing better than them cuz I got my degree tho so I’m holding on so hard onto that 👊👊👊
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actual life goal is forcing spirkers to acknowledge bones at all
#the number of times i’ve just barely held myself back from going ‘hey u do realise there is a Man inches from them right’#u don’t even need to ship mcspirk i just need u to acknowledge that he exists and he is there and he is spirk’s closest friend#like god y’all see the fucking camping trip and it’s just ‘oh look spirk’ bitch what. what.#anyway current urge is to literally make a museum-style things just showing off Bones but i might actually make an online archive#simply because he gets so terribly ignored and not just by the fandom either#like why does paramount do so much with the fucking GORN but doesn’t touch bones. why do star trek analyses look at spirk#and not at my guy who is there for damn near all of the stories. everyone i speak to irl who knows star trek has at least once looked at me#and asked who tf i was talking about when i said bones was my favourite. how do people not know who he is.#star trek#bones mccoy#leonard mccoy#leonard 'bones' mccoy
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serious question: i’ve romanced emmrich, davrin, lucanis and am now currently romancing neve, but aside from the occasional affectionate “Trouble” from neve, emmrich seems to be the only one who gives rook pet names so far, which i find really odd?
i’ve lost count of how many times i’ve heard “Darling,” “Dearest,” “My dear,” and “My love,” whenever i swing by his quarters (and on one occasion after making a certain choice in a personal quest: “Flame of my heart”), which is beautiful, stunning, 100% putting the romance in necromancy, BUT i’ve not had any of the others do this?? they just look up at rook, give a general greeting 95% of the time and that’s it???
is emmrich really the only exception here who showers rook with pet names when romanced or is my game just bugged? 🤔
#this has literally been keeping me up at night#like it just doesn’t seem right that he’s literally the only LI who will greet rook like that#i know i still have taash harding and bellara to go but i have to admit i’m sceptical based off this current track record#veilguard#dragon age#da:vg#veilguard spoilers#dragon age the veilguard#emmrich volkarin#emmrich#laura plays#.txt
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Landed myself an interview at Starbucks about to fulfill my duty as a they/them and make the best coffee (guys I don’t even like coffee 😭)
#I’m not taking the job if it doesn’t pay me more than my current one#but that’s a low bar because I’m being payed minimum wage#come through for me Starbucks#also fuck Starbucks but it’s the only place I’ve applied to that has actually responded
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The fact that there’s a very real chance that we could get a fully voiced version of ‘Olive Tree’ with Jorge and Anna in an eventual cut saga of EPIC keeps me up at night,,,
WYFILWMA has already destroyed me I don’t think I’ll survive having Olive Tree too (please give it to me I need it more than I need air to breathe PLEASE)
#also we might get royal wisdom burst which could genuinely heal me#having an athena/ody/tele song is everything I’ve ever wanted and needed#like jay has said that olive tree RWB and king were finished songs before he rewrote them into the current saga#eueueueueueu jorge PLEASE#it doesn’t have to be super professional recordings like the other sagas have#I just need more anna as penelope and mico as telemachus eueueue#my post#epic#epic the musical#jorge rivera herrans#epic odysseus#epic penelope#epic odypen#epic the ithaca saga
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i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester
#currently thinking about season four and five. absolutely fuckibg mental#the world literally reshapes itself around him to prove him wrong#its all framed as God. Sam was so stupid and selfish and reckless for drinking demon blood. He just liked the power of it and he chose a#DEMON over DEAN.#but. that’s not the story they tell in s4.#like even aside from every single other complexity. Sam is literally right. he has ZERO WAY of knowing that killing lilith is the final seal#AND DEAN DOESNT KNOW TJAT EITHER. like sam is literally right he can kill lilith and he does kill lilith. dean wants lilith dead just as#much. sam’s cardinal sin is disobeying dean and then the world flips around on him and plot twist sam and dean were both wrong all along and#killing lilith is what will bring back lucifer :)#but. it’s not framed like that either. it’s framed like SAM BROUGHT BACK LUCIFER BY KILLING LILITH WHILE HIGH ON DEMON BLOOD#dean you wanted to kill lilith too?????????#but. doesn’t matter dean despite being mostly motivated by jealous anger is retroactively proven to be Right#and sam is retroactively proven to be Wrong. he is bad#i just. jesus. sam’s not evil ever. he’s hardly even that fucking morally grey#and he still thinks there’s something wrong with him that he’s a freak that he’s inherently evil and needs to be purified#why?? cause of something fucked up that happened to him when he was a baby#and because he’s disobeyed his father and his brother and been angry at awful things that have happened to him#makes me feel fucking insane actually#no wonder narrative frames sam as evil no wonder he’s inherently marked as Bad by the forces in supernatural like even on a meta level#in supernatural gods just another shitty father. embodiment of the familial patriarch. and from sam’s very first moment on the show he’s in#opposition to that he’s ran away from john and he argues with dean. therefore he is evil#i don’t think my words r really making sense right now but. fucking hell#and sam is so swamped in guilt all of season five and he just fucking accepts that everything bad is his fault#and he gets tortured in the cage to save the fucking world and it’s STILL not enough. not to appease his own guilt and not to appease deans#anger at him. dean is still throwing his perceived violations back at him in like season nine!!#and whenever he tries to get out it’s treated as yet another Sin. narrative acts like sam thinking dean was dead and having a life outside#of hunting is The Worst Thing He Ever Did#worst sin sam ever commits in the eyes of the show is disobedience. Absolutely awful actually#spn#sam winchester
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For “Her Special Girl”, I had the thought to introduce the induced lactation on Christmas morning and title the chapter “White Christmas”. And for this I deserve the death penalty.
I was also thinking about breast milk hot chocolate so I think that maybe it’s time I take a break.
#robin rambles#they’re going to put me down like a sick dog#maybe if current career path doesn’t work out I can become the worlds worst comedian
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The fires keeps spreading….please stop spreading 😭😭 winds please stop already 🙏🙏
Being surrounded by fires 😭😔 its getting me stressed and very concerned.
I’m going to stress reblog, if I’m more quiet today…that’s why.
Praying the winds die down and the fires get contained 🙏🙏🙏
#Hana rambles#currently updating my go bag#but the winds and the air conditions are really bad especially for my family#I’m extra worried because mom is 02 dependent and we have 02 tanks in the house#fire and 02??? do not mix 😭😭😭#there’s a fire that’s especially close by that has me edge#and I can feel my asthma already flaring fuck#we have a air purifier so that will help#but really hoping it doesn’t spread enough to evac#winds are supposed to die down tonight#god please please stop the winds 🙏🙏🙏#this is what I hate about my state#why haven’t they prepared for things like this??#why waste money on shit we don’t need or care for#we already lost power and all communications yesterday#won’t be surprised if that happens today too 😭😭😭
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real image of me thinking about jerma’s halloween vampire rp stream that was cancelled hours it was supposed to happen for the millionth time. it’s been months. I will never get over this I fear
#I keep thinking about it and it keeps making me SO SAD#if he didn’t do the name your price show at twitch con afew days prior he wouldn’t have gotten Sick and we would’ve had JERCULA#but he got ILL and we LOST IT ALL. we really did. god#it doesn’t help that my lockscreen is currently a jercula drawing that mic traded with me LMAOO I am mentally ill <333#sorry for ranting I go to bed now#jerma#thing
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I find historians’ obsession with trying to figure out what medical malady King Henry VIII had that made him act like that really strange to be honest with you. This is the guy that broke from the Catholic Church and declared himself head of a brand new church, all so he could invent divorce. He rewrote history to insist he had never actually truly been married to Catherine of Aragon. He killed people and faced no consequences. As King he was surrounded by a bunch of yes men who didn’t just ‘let’ him kill his wives and ppl who displeased him, they actively manufactured ways for him to do so. Is it really so strange that he continued to act in this way? Must we resort to medical explanations for this behavior?
I do wonder if this is an attempt to rationalize and explain despicable behavior, but the truth is we can rationalize and explain anything. That is our gift as human beings! As Frank Bidart said, man is a moral animal / You can get human beings to do anything — IF you convince them it is moral / You can convince human beings anything is moral. Anyone who does a despicable act likely, but not always, does it because they find it correct, even necessary. I find the idea that Henry did all of this to get a son and maintain his grip on power and ensure a peaceful succession much more understandable and likely than people theorizing he had x disease that made him so nuts he started killing his wives indiscriminately.
#currently#I have been sort of mulling this over since reading about Anne Boleyn as an 11 yo#I know the theory that Henry had syphilis has sort of been discounted but the fact we even came up with it in the first place…#he did this because he could! and maybe felt like he had too! why bring mental illness into it#henry viii#wolf hall#edit I say this all as someone who is mentally ill 👍 we don’t have a lock on acting in difficult to understand ways.#it’s ableist to say or imply that to be true.#I also think as soon as you try to litigate the issue of a right mind#you run into the reality that people act irrationally every single day and sanity doesn’t have anything to do with it#maybe I’m being overly literal but like#if you are going to be overly simplistic about illness and sanity then sure I’ll meet you there#a right state of mind? show it to me. what is it and what does it mean to you? define it. and then watch it fall apart#people love to act in irrational ‘insane’ ways that ruin their lives on the regular
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bruce: overstimulated, wanting just 5 minutes by himself
damian: willingly spending time with his father, sitting next to him scrolling through his phone. tik tok playing loudly.
bruce: suffers in silence because this rarely happens
#dc comics#batman#bruce wayne#damian wayne#my current predicament#grateful for my son wanting to spend time with me#but if this boy doesn’t blow his nose and stop sniffling
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I need advice.
I’m a white intern working in a mostly white southern(ish) high school. Students of Color number at under 2%, perhaps even lower. It’s a very white, rural community - I grew up in a fairly mixed, suburban northern community, and part of my family is Black.
Several of my white students say rude things to my Students of Color. I’ve told them to knock it off *as appropriately as I can* but I’m probably one of the few adults that actively discourage that behavior.
I don’t want to let this shit fly under the radar, but I also know that if an adult of authority *who will only be here for a couple more weeks* interferes, and then doesn’t stick around, it could make things worse. Additionally, I know these kids are probably very very very used to this ‘system’ and that making a short-term change could be more harmful than helpful.
I asked one of my senior students after a very racist incident *where she was laughing along with the perpetrator but I told him to stop anyway* that I can move him, or her, so she could be more comfortable (admin either does nothing or slaps wrists, especially for seniors). She said it was fine and that he was always like that.
I must emphasize, I think they were bantering (they talk so much I think they consider each other friends?), but it was also wayyy fucking out of line, especially in a school setting. And the guy says so much out of line shit I’m surprised he isn’t rocking a full set of dentures to replace the teeth he ought to have lost by now.
Another student took me up on my offer to move people, but I ended up moving him, which sucks because he was the victim in this situation. Unfortunately, I have to keep his aggressors in their spots, as they are highly rowdy in all the ways and require a lot more supervision than he did. And the class is really full. These were also all freshmen, so I wouldn’t be surprised if that affected the victim’s reaction.
So I’d really appreciate advice as to whether I should let it be, or continue as is, or step it up even more, from People of Color in largely white, especially rural, communities. Like any advice from current or previous educators, especially Educators of Color would be appreciated, but specifically southern/rural ones would be wonderful. I’m going to talk to my family members about it, but they’ve lived in more Northern settings their entire lives and they may have less … applicable (?) experience to the situation.
Again, I’m an intern, I’m going to only be there until winter break 2024, and I don’t want to fuck things up for these kids in the long run with my northern ally ‘sensibilities’. Thank you!
#education#help#advice#educators of color#students of color#academia#slightly more context: the senior was a Black girl. there are not a lot of Black students but there’s multiple of them from different#families (though I also tutor her little brother). so she may have community to fall back upon and that might feel like enough for her#the freshman boy is mixed Asian and as far as I can tell is the only Asian kid currently in this high school#since we’re in Appalachia of course a lot of people say shit like ‘my great grandmother was Cherokee’ (apologies to the Cherokee community#but I’m quoting these people) but some of my students are much more tan and experience a bit of colorism. again I try to shut that down but#idk how far to take it. the one girl who is definitely Indigenous (I’m not going to specify further because it’s a small community) doesn’t#seem to be treated negatively for it and seems quite proud so I’m glad for her#but she also passes as one of the tan students so idk if she’s just comfortable bringing it up around me and it doesn’t come up near#racist students or what.#more context I forgot to bring up: I’m pretty sure most if not all of the Black students are mixed or have mixed parents. so they may#have white family members that make this system of poor treatment seem okay? or white family members#who help compensate for the racist people in the community?#I really don’t fucking know and I really don’t want to make things worse for anyone#getting ‘aggressive’ protection from a student intern may NOT be helpful#idk#thank you for reading this far
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