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In Defense of Mark S
Post S2E4, Helly is going to be mad at Mark. I can’t see a way around it. He not only didn’t know someone else was “behind the wheel” of her body, he continued romantic pursuing of that person… thinking it was her.
But though Helly has valid reasons to be angry, a) victim blaming isn’t okay and b) I can totally see why Mark didn’t realize something was amiss!
First: impossibility and sheer absurdity. To Mark S, it would be unthinkable for an outie to ever enter the severed floor. That’s a violation of his universal laws, immutable as gravity.
Water is wet. Coffee cups fall down when you knock them off the table. And outies do NOT come down to the severed floor, because the chips are spatially triggered.
And sure, he knows about the OTC and that it’s theoretically possible — but why would any outie want to, and why would Lumon ever LET them? If he ever thought, “Oh, Helly’s acting strange,” Mark’s mind would go through a million different logical steps before landing on something outlandish as that.
Maybe she’s sad she was alone when she woke up during the OTC. Maybe she’s just having a bad week. Maybe she’s acting differently around him because of their first kiss. The idea that she’s being possessed by another being? Never would have occurred to him!
Remember how his outie plays into this as well. Irving B has the subconscious of some kind of anti-Lumon revolutionary with the paranoia that only comes from a military background. (“She’s a mole!”) Of course he clocked her.
But Mark? Mark Scout a) doesn’t know the entire family of his CEO, and b) has the subconscious of a history professor grieving his wife. While Irving’s outie’s knowledge bled through to him in the subconscious of his dream, I wouldn’t be surprised if Mark’s subconscious was actively TRYING to suppress any suspicious thoughts.
Of course it’s Helly. It NEEDS to be Helly. Because Mark’s brain is tired of grieving. His subconscious will shut down any accusations that she’s acting differently and cling to the idea because she CAN’T be gone, right? It’s not happening again… right?
And then we circle back to the first kiss. Mark S is in love — head over heels — with Helly R. He’s trying to find Gemma, sure, but that’s for his outie’s happiness, not his own.
If you’ve had one, do you remember your first crush? Remember the butterflies in your stomach and how much you were laser-focused on your own behavior? “What should I say?” “How do I look?” “Am I being weird? Why is she looking at me like that?” Mark S doesn’t notice Helly R is off because he’s too busy worrying about how he comes across to her. And because he has no idea she’s Helena, he has every reason to believe that’s how she’s thinking about him, too! He thinks they’re both dorks in love trying to figure things out. Irving doesn’t have this disadvantage — he’s on the outside and can see everything play out.
All I’m saying is I get it. I hope Helly at least kind of gets it too. What I’m wondering is, will Mark even tell Helly about his assault? Will he hide it out of some misguided belief that it would make her even more angry? Will she yell at him, not knowing that he’s a victim of someone wearing her own face? Much to think about.
#severance tv#severance season 2#severance#severance apple tv#severance show#severance s2#severance spoilers#mark s#mark scout#mark severance#helly riggs#helly r#helena eagan#irving bailiff#irving b#markhelly#mark x helly
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With full acknowledgement of the general shitty stress of the times, and a very deep appreciation for your steadying words over the last couple of years: I've been somewhat conflicted about volunteering with my local Democratic Party infrastructure; since it feels like at the Federal level, some of those representatives are at best incompetent and/or out of touch; verging on malicious incompetence. Especially with the most recent cycle, for them to sit there and harp on the danger Trump presented and then be caught apparently flatfooted after his inauguration.... is it even worth considering, at this point in time, the responsibility(?) of all parties involved, whether its voters who sat out this cycle, sloppy behavior from the party at various points over the last couple of years, Republicans for being bad actors; or is setting aside that degree of analysis and focusing on just pulling through the next 2-4-6-8 ish years the way to go? Focusing on what can be changed vs. what has come before? If you do not want to answer or don't have the bandwidth, totally understandable. :) Thanks again for all your hard work in this regard.
There are two things I can say here, which is that one, the federal-level Democratic Party kind of makes a habit of being unprepared, behind the eight-ball, pre-emptively cowed, generally disorganized, constantly alarmist followed by crickets, or pretty much anything else you can think of. They have already started the "stop Trump!" fundraising emails, and plenty of us, me included, are like "brother you aren't getting money from me until you POINT OUT what the fuck you're doing and start doing it, this ain't the first rodeo, GET WITH THE PROGRAM."
The second thing to say is that at least the Democrats will respond when you push them and can generally be bullied into doing the right thing eventually, and that there is no way they will learn that, get their heads on straight, or figure out a cohesive stop-Trump action plan unless we help them do that. Some of them are more successful than others; witness Democratic state AGs being blitzingly fast off the blocks and filing a barrage of lawsuits to stop the worst executive orders, while Democratic senators and House reps (at least initially) seemed passive, confused, fearful, or just content, per Chuck Schumer, to just "sit back and wait for Trump to screw up." Like, if that's your big plan to stop fascism after you spent the entire election season telling us (rightly) what a threat to democracy Trump posed, then you deserve to get your complacent ass primaried, Chuckie m'boy. Which someone can in fact do if they want to! If nothing else, it might give them a scare!
The good news is that after the grassroots Democrats started making an enormous stink, the national party woke up somewhat more and started acting more proactively. We understand that they are out of power in all three branches and cannot do anything to substantially stop Trump if all the Republicans continue to march in MAGA lockstep, but they can at least look like they give a shit. Which Senate Democrats did with their all-night opposition to Vought (the Project 2025 guy who got confirmed to OMB). They could not stop him from being confirmed, but they could make a high-profile stink about it and show that they were responsive to people going HEY GUYS SO ARE YOU GOING TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT THIS OR. Which they will need to do, because it will maintain grassroots energy to get the House and hopefully the Senate back in 2026 and put the brakes on any substantial or legislative-related Trump BS.
The point is: the Democrats, especially on the federal level, are often chronically behind the curve and need to be kicked hard to get moving, but once that kicking happens repeatedly, they do generally tend to get the message. And if you want to make the most difference and have an active hand in shaping and discussing that effort and pressuring them to keep going, then yes, you should go ahead and volunteer. As ever, doing something is far, far better than not doing it. So yes.
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Filtered post because IE doesn't want to talk about the subject anymore.
But this is the guy who spent all of Christmas break defending Indian H1Bs from the magahats, is the rank-and-file normie lib really so braindead they think he's a nazi?
IMO, anyone who looks at fractions of a second and thinks it was some sort of coded gesture is probably so deep in the bubble they
a) don't even know about that, or
b) throw it down the memory hole because it doesn't fit the Current Narrative.
We have always been at war with Eastasia.
Cpy: i don't know if he's personally a nazi, but that's not really important--what's most concerning is that he's legitimizing nazism.
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"No, it doesn't matter if he's actually X, as we vocally accused him of. What matters is that we think he's benefiting X, somehow. Even though we're the ones who are making the biggest fuss about his supposed Nazi-like behavior in the first place."
It reminds me of how Trump's detractors made dwindling white supremacists relevant to a Presidential election for the first time in decades, and supported antifa on the grounds that Nazis were a major, immediate threat…then they blamed Trump for the alleged surge of nazis.
if a public figure does a nazi salute (ironic or not)
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i was assuming you were engaging in good faith, but that's apparently not the case-
On top of the classic goalpost move, we have the classic "anyone who disagrees with me must be acting in """""bad faith"""" (lying)".
If you can't imagine anyone honestly having a different opinion than you, then I think the problem's actually on YOUR end.
Especially in a thread where people were clearly discussing a different opinion, and you just…ignored them.
*Also reminds me of feminists who tried to silence discussions of men's issues as inherently misogynist. Up to and including falsely blaming a mass murderer on MRAs because a single mistaken blogger said so with no evidence.
And then men's issues got popular as a subject, and feminists turned around tried to take credit for helping men, and say MRAs were the ones damaging the perception of men's issues. Which was just another silencing tactic.
Especially since feminists also yelled at non-MRAs and even other feminists who tried to help men.
The funny thing is that the attempted silencing totally Streisanded on feminists.
Basically every subreddit is banning links to twitter over Elon's... either very unfortunate wave, or very bad taste joke. But this is the guy who spent all of Christmas break defending Indian H1Bs from the magahats, is the rank-and-file normie lib really so braindead they think he's a nazi?
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I agree I wish people could view things with more neutrality because it would greatly improve the type of gameplay that we see but It feels sometimes like the fandom has these unrealistic borderline double standard expectations for how houseguests should act. There is so much negativity and hate around things like players getting frustrated if someone is making a move that will negatively impact them, or crying when someone they like gets voted out, or venting and shit talking other houseguests who are getting on their nerves. There is anger if players make up lies about their faves but also anger if people in the house get mad about people lying because lying is part of the game. I could go on but I won’t bore you any further lol. but the fandom who isn’t even competing couldn’t stop doing any of those things if their life depended on it so it’s like why then do those same people insist that the ones actually playing the high stress game for a life changing amount of money should are bad and wrong and silly for being emotional when things aren’t going their way.
Omg im so sorry for responding late to this 😭
I am answering this now bc i still think its kinda relevant especially when it comes to how people talk about Cirie or Cory’s game recently.
You can’t appreciate or criticize how either of them play without someone trying to bash them or misinterpreting how they’re playing for the sake of wanting to feel valid for disliking them.
I really like Cirie and Cory as players and people but I’m not gonna act like they’re flawless in every way or that their strategies don’t have issues. They for sure do, Cory’s been cracking a lot recently especially with Jared treating him the way he has. And Cirie and Izzy spiral every hour and change plans constantly, its a disaster in there LMAO
But they’re also just trying to play the game and their moves don’t need to be over analyzed with some deeper motivation behind it bc they’re going after someone or they aren’t working with someone you personally favor.
Full disclosure though, you’re allowed to dislike any houseguest for any reason. It doesn’t have to be this essay of reasons or you searching for evidence so you feel valid about it. That’s kinda the problem with ppl here and on twitter, they wanna feel validated for not vibing with a houseguest so they constantly misinterpret things that arent that big a deal and want ppl to agree with them. And its kinda not necessary imo.
I think we’re just so used to disliking a majority of the hgs that people don’t know what to do with a cast that’s messy all around as people and players but are overall decent (cameron, red, and jared suck tho lemme be clear they are not part of what im talking about), so some people wanna just hate so they reach to the most extremes because that’s what we’ve come to expect. But humans don’t work in such a good or bad way, and i think this season is a reminder that people are messy and complex but aren’t bad.
It’s hard for players to truly play BB and it’s hard as a viewer to talk about gameplay bc of this “this or that” lense ppl watch the game through.
#i just want chaos half the time tbh LMAO#so how players are as players doesnt bother me#bc bb is known for entertainment and gameplay#but very rarely do we have good gameplay#so for me it is what it is#but behavior is a totally different thing#its why i dont like cameron and jared especially#red i have a side eye on too#bc them as people aren’t fun to watch#and that effects their game#also anon pls feel free to always dump your thoughts in my inbox#you are not boring me at all LMAO#this is very insightful and i think should be talked about more#bb25
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Modern Au ViJinx thoughts:
Jinx exists in this universe as opposed to Powder but she's really a truer mix of the two than a direct 1:1 with Arcane's Jinx. She's closer to how Jinx was with Isha I think, still mentally ill but for the most part present and healthy, she has the tools to manage her symptoms for the most part.
She's been on the path of independence for a couple years now and at 19 she's antsy to move out of Vanders place. She's been relying less and less on Vi, Vander and Silco (everyone is alive at this point) as she gets older to the point she's making enough of her own money to save and buy things.
She doesn't have any real job of any kind but she's found under-the-table fix-it jobs for whoever needs it and pays the most. Unfortunately that usually ends up being shadier individuals, and has gotten her in trouble a couple times. She still hangs out with Ekko when they can. She helps him out with his college projects, even if it's his not-so-subtle way of trying to get her interested in going to college with him.
Vi is 23-24 (both the ages they are in the show) and has long since moved out. She's worked her way through an apprenticeship at a mechanics shop and has pretty steady work and income because of it. She tries her hardest to keep up her relationship with Jinx and drops just about everything to make time and space for her. Jinx hasn't asked for any of that in at least a year or two now. She keeps offering up her spare room to Jinx when she moves out but she hasn't gotten a solid answer from her yet.
Nobody has any clue what she does except for Vi, who bailed her out of jail the first and only time she got arrested. It may have been from a DUI she got for a party one of her clients invited her to when she first started working. She's the only one she would ever call if she needed anything at this point in her life even if she doesn't know how to talk with Vi like she used to.
She has her recently realized feelings for her older sister as well, she never really noticed them at all until Vi had moved out. Powder at the time was 15 and Vi was 20. Jinx didn't fully notice WHAT they were until she turned 17 and by then the space and time had changed their relationship. No matter how hard they both tried to keep it up, the fact was they both matured into different people they didn't fully recognize anymore. Neither think it's a bad thing, only that it's different and they don't know each other as well as they feel they used to.
With Vi living on her own and working a full time job, and with Jinx growing up and out into the world, it seemed inevitable. With more steady job leads popping up in the area where Vi had moved to, Jinx is starting to consider her sisters offer a little more seriously about the apartment room. Ultimately, she'd decide to get her own place but not too far away. Luck would have it that there was an apartment opening up in the same complex Vi was living at, a couple units down.
Vi is ecstatic about this and Jinx can't contain her enthusiasm either. The thought of spending time with each other was what both of them needed, they had really missed the other and there isn't anything like spending time in person to regrow lost connections. Vi was a little hurt at first Jinx declined her offer again but with how things worked out she doesn't hold on to that, and Jinx gets her own space while still being within bothering distance of Vi. They spend a stupid amount of their free time with each other, slotting back into each other's lives as if no time had passed at all.
That's about as far as I'm getting tonight but I'd love to explore this a little bit more later. With the flavor and depth and less of the foundation building. Like a detailed scene of Jinx' jail fiasco or some moments between the two when Jinx still lives at Vanders and Vi is in her own apartment. Future moments of them living in the apartment complex together, figuring out that in the process of getting to know each other again after that much time apart, they don't just love each other anymore. To both of their frustration, they're falling IN love with each other, and definitely in lust with each other.
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#vijinx#and they were neighbors#and because they live separate and away from their home town#they can theoretically#pretend like they're not related#and it lends itself to the opportunity for shenanigans#like that one post that was like#jinx in public would shout loudly how vi was a great big sister and give her a big old fat kiss in the lips in front of everyone#they can also fuck nasty and as often as they want in the apt complex a real “your gouse or mine” thing lol#i think vi and Caitlyn would still have a relationship#but i dont think it'd be serious serious yet#and it wouldn't be because Caitlyn would notice the difference in vis behavior how shes happier but also#more distracted#jinx wouldn't hate Caitlyn she probably wouldn't immediately like her because shes with vi but i think they'd be amicable for vi#and like lets be real Caitlyn would take ine analytical look at the both of the and immediately say oh ok yeah a lot of things are making#total sense you guys are#sister fuckers#it was fun vi love you had a great time but we're just staying good friends because I'm not competing with your sister of all people#jinx would respect her for bowing out vi would remain dense as hell#Youtube
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ngl all the "cankle" complaints about the tv show's style or things that are being done differently for g3's continuity is giving off serious "trukk not munky" vibes
#not to stir that talking point up again obviously but come on#cankle complaints still? by people who do not understand stylization for animation no less?#or people not understanding that g1 and g3 are two totally separate things no matter how many times you tell them#speaking as someone who's liked mh since g1 when i see other g1 likers say stuff like that it's like hmmm sounding a lot like tf fans when-#-beast wa.rs first came out or g1 poke.mon fans that only think g1 is the best gen. geewunners behavior that's what that is#like not saying you don't have to like g3 obviously but there's kind of a difference between saying you don't like it and saying stupid cra#-BECAUSE you don't like it#idk that's just me though#im not going to say much about this but ONE more cankle complaint and im gonna lose it lmao#not saying all g1 likers are like this but you know the ones im talking about#monster high#🦴 rattles
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Ohh im obssesed
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#uprooted#uprooted naomi novik#solya#marek#my main playlists dedicated to them :]#idk why they cought my attention in 2018 and since that year they have had a special place in my heart. sometimes throughout my day-#i realise im obssesed with them and they're not just some random characters i like. ive dedicated a lot of time on them#i wonder how my interest in them will be when i get older. i certainly know that i will miss them if i stop thinking about them#you could say they have seen me grow. i knew them BEFORE quarantine. they were with me DURING. and AFTER#they have been through so many phases of my life. its so strange.#they changed so much too...except Marek. he still looks the same I imagined him in 2018. solya is definitely different tho#but i do think i have a different more in depth understanding of both characters#even if the words i read in 2018 are still the same now that i look back at the book. they were so many things unsaid but if u looked-#closely you could understand them. solya and marek as individual characters have so much depth...even if its not explicitly said#or maybe its just me reading between the lines too much. i wish i just knew more about them. this is getting so long-#but I got a bit nostalgic. is crazy how i was just a child and somehow even tho solya was just the total opposite of the type of characters-#i like there was something in him. something that made me look at him. and i think thats actually so in character of him#i think that in the book even if someone didnt like him. it was still hard to look away because he stood out from the rest.#there was definitely something about him that attracted people. or else how would have he gotten so far in his schemes?#I may be overanalyzing it. but i love the Falcon so much. and i do like marek a lot as a character. i find him very interesting. i know he-#did bad. terrible. things i like him as a character. not as a person.#i wish i could have seen what was going on in that damaged mind of his...#analyzing his behavior its so entertaining to me. i love making up scenarios where he is at his worst. im not gonna lie#marek suffering and then finding comfort in not comforting things is one of my favorite headcanons.#his obssesion with his mother is also a very important part of his character (ofc) and i love imagine him doing things related to that#thinking about the ways their personalities connect and make them have a very toxic bond keeps me up at night..they made each other worst#and we actually never see that in depth in the book. everything is so subtle but my crazy brain can find the signs in any part#i will stop this rant here. i feel its so long and if i made any spelling mistake i apologise to my future self (probably my self from-#tomorrow) because i know i won't be able to fix the misspelling and that will stress me SO MUCH.#future self please dont stress about it. just be happy. and enjoy thinking about these insane characters
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I feel like if one wants — and is trying to give themself — a mental disorder by using the label of “transid,” then they are probably already disordered in some other way that they are in denial of; because it‘s more stigmatized, or “less interesting” than the neurotype they’ve chosen to mimic… which is sad because they’re masking in two different directions at that point: one to hide their illness, the other to create an illness… which will lead to more illness. Bleak, to be honest.
#I kind of used to be like that as a kid. I claimed to have “multiple personalities” when I didn’t…#my brain just attaches characters to thoughts as a form of organization; and at that time the different concepts were “warring”#(AKA: I was trying to make logical sense of information when I had zero critical thinking skills because I was raised in a cult)#And I knew I didn’t really have different personalities deep down; but my sense of self was so fractured#that I wanted the different pieces to be different people so I could make the need to think about my issues go away#I simply wanted one “personality” to kill the others so I would imagine long bloody battles between my “selves” in my head#to exorcise my mind of impure thoughts (which never worked because they weren’t real people#and I couldn’t kill them because the people I created symbolized concepts and desires on which my brain perseverated every waking moment)#I was trying to kill off parts of myself to attain everlasting life on a paradise earth; so I could build a real Data and android children#in Paradise#so if I died in Armageddon from bad behavior (watching Markiplier and having fun times in the shower) I’d be killing them too#And the only other kid I saw who claimed to want a disorder (“wanted” to have OCD) wanted it because they wanted to be like a character#and they were later diagnosed with — you guessed it — autism!#Also both of us had an astonishing amount of free time on the internet and were raised essentially as only children in a cult#So I think a lot of it is isolation and just not knowing who you are because you never see yourself react to anything in real life#You don’t know what you would do in situations and therefore have no sense of self from total lack of life experience#And I actually had OCD for awhile as well… I kicked it for the most part. But the whole rumination battle thing was certainly a sign
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every time i so much as think about that scene where light looks at porn magazines while scowling i go into hysterics its genuinely the funniest thing i've ever seen
#the funniest thing is is that i truly believe he thought he was being 100% convincing. that that's normal behavior for a completely straight#completely allosexual man#light is fucking awful and i hate him but also there's nuance to him. and sometimes i can get a little like. oh thinking about his life#before the series. specifically factoring in my headcanons about him being gay aroace and autistic and stuff. ppl have written some rlly#good fics surrounding those topics.... but yeah thats not even canon stuff but i dont care#anyways its not in a way of making excuses for how he is i just think it adds more to his character#hes total garbage but i think theres really interesting stuff with him when it comes to how he's.... VERY disconnected from others#just in general. he's like aware of how to act ''normal'' on like the most textbook surface level without being like. Aware enough to#be able to make it more convincing. and as ridiculous as it is i do see some of myself in him in that sense#also that person who said light and L is just autistic guy who's been masking his entire life vs autistic guy who's never masked in his#entire life. LITERALLY EXACTLY. genuinely perfect way to describe them they are both so similar when it comes to this#but the ways they go about it are very different. light has been playing the part of the perfect son his whole life. L doesnt try to change#himself for anyone and doesnt care when people think hes weird. both of them arent very socially aware and havent had any real friends#their whole lives. its such a fascinating parallel between them#i could go on a whole fucking thing about how light was pretending to be someone he's not around his family and at school and everything#long before he got the death note BUT. i wont. at least not right now#jesus christ how did i go from laughing about him with the magazine to this. my bad#derailed my own damn post. idk swagever#will say rq tho. watched a vid on youtube that pointed out how light expected his family to think nothing of the fact that he's gone to#such drastic measures to hide his diary when making the plan with hiding the death note which is like#that level of dedication would NOT be normal. so the fact that light expects his family to think nothing of it......#i mean you could read that as light just once again being socially unaware. but it could also imply that light's family kind of Knows#he's hiding something and just doesn't address it. (he's gay. im talking about him being gay)#the video also referenced this comic that i didnt rb cause the actual premise of it (lawlight wedding) is um.#not at all my kind of thing. BUT it was light describing himself as a house with a basement when his family sees him as a one story house#and i thought that was such a cool analogy#ANYWAYYYSSSS i need to go to bed. thanks if you read my ramblings#serena.txt#death note posting#infizero.analysis
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i think with the discussion of autism people forget that a lack of social skills also makes you look like a fucking loser sometimes and its still ableist and embarrassing to be made fun of for it. and that its still intrinsically tied to your symptoms. and also it presents as annoying as shit. and also is still a symptom. you know what i mean?
#txt#going to a special ed school was very inreresting because it was like#it made me realize how different 'social ineptitude' can look in different people#and the thing is they cant help it either and i cant help it and sometimes whern you mock that person whos a total loser you ARE mocking#them because of autistic traits that they have. and no matter how many times someone goes 'but its the autism. youre mocking autism'#it like doesnt click bc its still 'loser behavior' to the person. you know? you know?#ive been thinking about it since i saw the autistic sex post. 'what does being autistic have to do with not having sex' well you see the#thing is a lot of allistic people think autistic people are annoying losers who are selfish and bothersome#and a lot of autistic people see their OWN community as the same thing. because a lot of types of autism dont mesh together#so... you know. sometimes the social disability is socially disabling#and ppl think ur lame bc of it
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people can have whatever personal taste they want obviously and this is NOT about whether people like certain themes or motifs personally but
i think it's funny that people latch onto "tropes" that barely exist outside of online gay spaces as being overdone and write up condescending posts like OHH WOOOW DEVOTIONAL CANNIBALISM? WHY DONT YOU THROW IN SOME DOG IMAGERY TOO when it's like name one mainstream piece of media that does this if it's so overdone in actual literature/film/etc. oh you can't name any immediately besides nbc hannibal? almost as if you're just making fun of amateur writers trying to do purple prose on their tumblr blogs? very interesting
#like don't get me wrong as an enjoyer of these motifs it does hurt me to see them done badly#but this is why we have groupchats lol#like publicly mocking people for writing about things they like#kind of sucks actually. kind of is loser behavior to be needlessly mean online if you're above the age of 17#and totally different if we are criticizing published books and media FOR SALE#but that is not what those posts are ever talking about lmao#or to clarify obviously consumption as devotion and dog motifs and the divine etc are established on their own#but i mean the cocktail of ''''tropes''''' these types of posts all lump together in combination#are not usually something you see uh oversaturated in mainstream media#lmfao
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Im being sooooo brave
(*not sending an unhinged email to the professor i was talking to w surety (1x1) abt the hasan m video but now ive changed my mind so i was wrong n he disagreed w my surety if im gauging his reaction right but i didn't get to correct myself in an intelligent way in the moment n now im feeling like like shit)
#im uhhh repeating to myself that its fine to make mistakes that everyone makes them and thats unlikely that a professor would#totally change his view of me based on this ....#and then i rmbr another thing i was wrong abt in class or looked wrong bc imo im p sure i heard the person right but whtvr i owned up to#hearing it wrong in the first place#but the thing is ..my therapist is a white woman and there is a fucking possibility that my visibly neurodivergent known to be moroccan#behavior has a possibility of being gauged differently#collegiate adventures#bringing tht tag back
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feeling just. extremely weary and sad abt people who imo are both wrong and mean in their analysis of oppressive dynamics. also at some level laughing at myself that this is legitimately what's gotten me down. well. also global warming and microplastics.
anyway. not gonna get into specifics bc some of you agree with them, lol, but. i guess i just wish we all focused a little more on staying in our own lanes and articulating our pain in its own context instead of jumping so fucking fast to framing suffering as a zero-sum game and using our own to justify dismissing other people's by comparison.
#i just feel like. for any axis i'm marginalized along#i have zero desire to look at other people and police whether they're less marginalized than me#or decide that people who *are* less marginalized along that axis must therefore have zero ~valid~ pain or difficulty#and it's totally chill for me to talk about them without any empathy#people are almost always dealing with something difficult & anyway i think it's much more useful to discuss the impact of specific behavior#than it is for me to start making sweeping dismissive claims abt someone's identity#or abt more of their experience than i'm actually privy to#that's vague and incoherent bc i'm conflating a bunch of different things that have rubbed me the wrong way recently but like#idk. we're all so fucking traumatized and suspicious and vicious. extremely not healing as an environment and makes me real sad.#like what happened to being careful with one another so we can be powerful as a coalition#anyway. tbd maybe it's just like. you think you're gonna escape yr cisheteronormative nuclear family and Find Community#and then you realize yr cripplingly fucked up and fail to achieve escape velocity and yr ''''community'''' is a bed of pustulent cacti#anyway. time to do some more unfollowing maybe bc a lot of you ARE sweethearts i'm just feeling bruised by some specific discourse
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sometimes i have to stop myself from retelling other peoples funny stories because they live so fondly in my own memory
#george foreman closet story comes to mind any time someone mentions george foreman and i smile and have to not laugh#because george foreman alone isnt supposed to be funny but in my mind its permanently tied to that story and that story always make me laugh#just like when someone brings up DBZ and i fondly remember someone on too much cough syrup telling me they totally understand goku and#can relate to him entirely#fond memories are such a blessing to have and to hold on to lmao#funny stories with and from friends are everything#or walking into the door story with the now ex marine#or the amount of butter in scrambled eggs that makes it good that someone showed me in a dark time#things that stay with me til this day like how much butter goes in eggs is influenced by one person and texture by another and so on#i am a collection of imprints of love in action love as a verb#taking the love and integrating it into my own behavior in a way because love changes you#fond memories and stories are little tokens of love left over#too much death lately making me softer about whats left#i cope with grief actually by completely mentally banishing all memory of thought of the topic into a dissociation mode around it and#its something im actually trying to engage with differently because it doesnt let me have the happier memories either and#the people deserve to be remembered not just the little ways i carry them on through what i picked up from them
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The way conservatives frame being trans as some kind of "social contagion" while literally calling for the erasure of all trans people from public spaces is wild because who the fuck decides to Be Gender because it's so cool politicians are telling you you shouldn't exist on the news?? Like the idea that trans people are deciding to be trans because it's a social media trend akin to the cinnamon challenge or the fuckin ice bucket challenge is an absolutely bonkers argument to make in the middle of "these people shouldn't exist" speeches. Surely at least one of these brainless lumps have taken a half a moment to consider how something could even become a "social contagion" when they're personally railing against the existence of these Very Cool People??
Plus, you know, implying whole swaths of people are too stupid to figure out their own damn genders is uh, deeply insulting to suggest just because they're confused about how being trans works.
#winters ramblings#frankly if anything is a social contagion its being CIS. no one pressures you to be trans but EVERYONE pressures you to be cis#and not JUST cis that's not good enough you have to be cis RIGHT and perform gender CORRECTLY Or Else#and also this is totally natural behavior of course thats why youre policed so heavily for your gender presentation#because gender is natyral and normal and has no cultural assumptions and pressures behind it at all#ill never understand arguing something is natural and then policing it to HELL and back because that 'natural' thing isnt being done 'right'#if it was natural you wouldnt be doing that- no one is policing how my eyes are blue and telling me to make them a better different shade#of blue. probably because its a NATURAL eye color and cant change based on how much im screamed at. unlike gender roles#which have ALWAYS been fluid and changing but like legit though. HOW can you make an argument for 'social contagion'#while ACTIVELY LEVERAGING SYSTEMIC OPPRESSION AGAINST THE GROUP YOU CLAIM ONLY EXISTS AS A TREND??!?!#if it was a social contagion your evidence wouldnt be that you think you should be able to do a genocide on trans people DESANTIS#amd if they want to argue being trans is a social contagion fine. what makes beung straight and cis NOT a social contagion?#oh just that you have no problem with those things and make a pittiful argument around nature despite knowing JACK ALL#about anything to do with nature? well thats convenient isnt it
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Hmm. Maybe my sister isn’t the only one who ended up with bpd…
#like it’s not like I thought I got out totally fine or anything#but our experiences appeared so different from the outside#and it’s not like I’m unaware of my behavior#idk it’s hard to describe#ugh ugh ugh I just want every little thing to stop making me mad it literally doesn’t matter
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