#but also if i have to look at that old drawing one more time im going to throw up
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I’ve read this story three times already today and I’ve been thinking about it again and again because HELLO??!! How comforting, sweet, hot and beautiful it is?! I’m in love with it, Toxy! It’s better than anything I could wish for!! Thank you thank you thank you🥹😭😍❤️❤️❤️
I have a lot to say so I’m sorry in advance! I screamed and moaned so many times while reading the story!!❤️🔥
Let me be nostalgic and sappy but I teared up when MM ‘met’ her at the brothel first. He was the one who brought me to you and his fics were the first of yours I’ve read and yeah, he’s scary but awww I felt at home right away, seeing him there🥹❤️
Baby Vam is the sweetest, the kindest, the most caring man.
"Sorry, I'm Vahh..." his voice trails off as he realizes how strange this situation must be for you already, without knowing his condition. "Vam. You can call me Vam," he decides.
His condition🥹 the way he thinks about her feelings immediately is so sweet❤️
He passes the front of the mansion and no one notices, they're all watching tv together. Something exciting. A couple of them are bickering. Others are glued to the screen. For a moment, vamp wonders if he's missing a watch party, but he's far more intrigued by you.
I love this little mention of the other joelkemons, it made me so happy! Damn, I’d wanna join that watch party too ahah
PS later I realised that reader (me) was so close to Lincoln Joel there and it made me tense lol that man still gives me major creeps😅
He's handsome, too. You're in a daze, but god, he's good looking, and he's got this vibe, you can tell that much. He has a joint behind his ear and his eyes are slightly glassy. The place smells of weed with a hint of patchouli and shaving cream.
MY MANNNNN Im never gonna be normal about him jfc 😭😵💫🧎🏼♀️🧎🏼♀️🧎🏼♀️ I LOVE that reader is immediately attracted to him!!
You feel strangely at ease in the basement. It feels familiar, like a place you've been in your dreams or fantasies, but hadn't fully visualized. At the same time, it feels foreign, like it's a familiar place in a strange location. A little darker, maybe. A little off. But still, the strong sense that you belong somehow.
HELL YEAH!! That’s my happy place forever and ever!!! I DO belong there!! I love this passage so much!!🥹😍😍😍
He calls over to the bathroom, "Hey nightwalks? Draw her a bath while you're in there."
"Do what to the bath?" night walks laughs at the old fashioned term.
"Run a bath, man. C'mon."
I’m just in LOVE with their dynamic and their bromance alone is so comforting and sweet!! NWs jokes at Vamp here and there but it’s never ever mocking or ill spirited, it made me giggle so much! Love it!!
The water starts, and night walks emerges holding a silk, leopard print robe. He lets it hang over his muscular shoulder as he kneels to take your shoes and socks off.
HELL YEAH🐆🐆🐆🐆 also NWs kneeling to take her shoes off AAHHHHHHHHHHH
He begins to take your clothes off, slow and intimate as if he doesn't know how to do it any other way. His warm hands glide over your hips and up your sides as he lifts your thin, wet shirt.
Of course he doesn’t!!! This man is the sexiest person ever plssss🫠🫠🫠🫠
He rubs you from the front and you moan. "Yeah, that's right, sugar." He closes his eyes and tilts his head slightly upward as he touches you, letting himself get absorbed entirely by the feeling of you in his hands.
The smut, Toxy, DAMNNN he’s just too hot😵💫😵💫🥵🥵🥵 his dirty talk ofc is incredible!! His praise is everything!! I felt so special and hot reading it omg🫠🥰🥰🥰
He rubs you from the front and you moan. "Yeah, that's right, sugar." He closes his eyes and tilts his head slightly upward as he touches you, letting himself get absorbed entirely by the feeling of you in his hands.
AAAAAHHHHHHHHH
He shudders and groans, then his hard-on throbs against you and a warm, wet spot spreads through his PJ pants.
FUCK MEEEEEEE🤤🫠😵💫❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
"Just happened, man," night walks says, then squints. "She familiar to you?"
"Uh, YEAH," vamp agrees. "Smells familiar."
Night walks sucks his slick fingers and says, "Tastes familiar."
Asdfghjkl I can’t with these two😭😍🥵
"Room for three?" night walks asks on behalf of his buddy.
NWs is so so amazing for caring for his buddy like that🥹😭 and later when he puts her hand on Vamp’s cock?! First of all, HOT!! Second, so sweet🥹 I love their friendship😍😍😍
"I think you'll be 'roused," night walks chuckles. "But sure, buddy."
He’s so funny😆 everyone is roused when NWs fucks for sure😌😁
Being sandwiched between them in the bath, falling asleep in their bed, it’s just so dreamy ahhh😍🫠 I’m gonna be there with them whenever I need comfort and thank you, Toxy, for this incredible story and for giving these amazing feelings to me! I’m so happy that writing it was comforting for you too!! They’re the best and I love them but I love you more🫂❤️😘💞💞💞
Heyyyy❤️ I’m here for the sleepover and I hope I’m not late😅 I don’t know what I’m asking for, anything honestly, but I’ve been thinking a lot about my man Nightwalks and his friendship with baby Vamp. I love their bromance so much and I’m definitely not opposed to be in that sandwich. So what if my car breaks down and it’s raining and I happen to walk to the brothel to ask for help and Nws and Vamp take me to their room to warm me up and Vamp is sweet and a little shy and Nws is 🥵🫠😵💫 asdfghjkl ya know, does his thing (this scenario brought me comfort when I was sick the last time🥹) I’m not even asking for smut. Just anything about these two will make me happy❤️😍
Love y’all and love you, Toxy💖💖💖
men of the night
After blowing out your tire, you pull into a sprawling, wooded estate. It's a foggy evening, and you get quite a scare. But your luck turns around when a mysterious man carries you to safety.
STARRING: vampire!Joel x f!reader x night walks!joel
LENGTH: 3.6k words
CONTENT: 18+ comfort, smut, minor injury, blood
NOTES: Love you, kate! I'm so happy these two bring you comfort. Ty ALL for your patience and support. Hope y'all enjoy this one. I do. 🩷
Your phone has been dead for a while by the time your tire pops. As your car hobbles along, you have no choice but to turn into the first driveway you see. Two big, steel gates are sitting open enough for you to pull in. Just after dusk, a dense fog has settled over the area.
What is this place?
You drive slowly, looking for signs of life. Someone you can ask for help, or at least to use their phone.
The road is winding. There are woods, lots of woods. When the tread falls off your tire completely, you’re still in a remote part of the complex, but you have no choice but to pull over.
It starts raining.
-
You get out your tire-changing supplies and you’re taking the spare tire out of your trunk when an imposing figure appears in your peripheral vision. You stare at the tire and freeze. Your heart races. You’d know that figure anywhere. That stance. But it must be your imagination. Michael Myers isn’t stalking around some remote old estate waiting for a victim to blow out their tire. It’s probably the property owner. . . or groundskeeper. Huge groundskeeper. By the time you find the courage to look in the hulking figure’s direction, he’s gone. You exhale in relief, but then–are you hearing things, or are there footsteps receding into the forest?
You need a minute. Deep breaths.
Several deep breaths. Eyes closed.
Then, back to the task at hand.
You start using the tire jack and a sharp corner slices a hot line across the heel of your palm. “Shit,” you whisper.
You’re staring at your hand when a gentle voice some distance behind you calls, “Hey, You okay?” You jump and gasp, and he says, “Didn’t mean to scare ya, sorry.”
You look over to see the silhouette of a man in a cape approaching. As his form pushes through the fog, you can see it’s not a cape, it’s a cardigan. He has the face of a kind professor. “Lost?” he asks, and his nose twitches. You stand up to face him, and his eyes fall on your bleeding hand. “Oh, fuck,” he mutters then yanks his eyes back to your face. He swallows and takes a handkerchief out of his cardigan then steps forward and hands it to you. “Here,” he whispers, then backs up and turns away to offer you a private moment, putting his hands back in his pockets.
You thank him.
His adam’s apple bobs with a swallow, then he inhales through his nose and tilts his head up to the sky and mutters “Jesus.” He takes a deep breath through his mouth and composes himself, then forces a chuckle as he looks at you again. “All good?” he asks.
“Yeah,” you confirm.
“Sorry, I’m Vahh....” his voice trails off as he realizes how strange this situation must be for you already, without knowing his condition. “Vam. You can call me Vam,” he decides.
"Vam," you repeat, then share your name in return.
Your face is overcome with horror, but not at him. You're looking just over his shoulder, toward the woods. He turns to see what you’re looking at–who you’re looking at–Michael Myers, towering in a faded navy jumpsuit, mask and all.
“Mike,” Vamp acknowledges the enormous slasher, then turns back to you to explain, “He prob’ly just wants to help.”
You swallow and your eyes gaze over. You’re still staring over Vamp’s shoulder when Michael lifts up a big wrench. Your eyelashes flutter and your knees buckle under you.
“Oh, sweetheart-” Vamp lunges forward and catches you in his arms as you lose consciousness. “Oh boy,” he mutters to himself.
Michael is still standing there.
Vamp tells him, “Yeah–I’ll uh–you take care’a that, I’ll take care’a her.”
Michael gives a single slow nod, then goes to the stripped tire, tools in tow. Vamp holds you securely with one muscular arm, then the other, as he takes his cardigan off and wraps it around you. “There ya go,” he whispers to you in your sleep, then scoops you up. “I’ve got ya, sweetheart.”
It's not a short walk, and vamp does his best to ignore the beautiful scent wafting from your hand. He passes the front of the mansion and no one notices, they're all watching tv together. Something exciting. A couple of them are bickering. Others are glued to the screen. For a moment, vamp wonders if he's missing a watch party, but he's far more intrigued by you.
As the road winds around back and vamp nears the joel mansion’s basement, you wake up in his arms.
He feels your body tense as you lift your head up and ask, “Where am I?”
“My buddy's place, he’s a real good guy, we’ll get ya dry, and warm, get ya back to your car….”
He seems to carry you effortlessly. You can hardly take your eyes away from his face. He’s handsome and familiar. His eyes nearly glow. Is he real? Is any of this? You wrap your hands around his neck to get a better look. He presses his lips together and gives you a shy look, holding you, a stranger, in a bridal carry with his handkerchief wrapped around your sliced hand and his cardigan wrapped around your body. Your hair has gotten misty in the fog and drizzle, and so has his.
“Who are you?” you ask.
He exhales through pursed lips before answering, "I'm Vam, remember?”
Your eyelashes flutter heavily again.
“Hey, you’re okay, sweetheart” he reassures you. “You’re okay.”
In lieu of knocking at the basement door, Joel taps it with his boot a few times. “N-dub,” he whispers, not wanting to disturb you.
As the door opens, a man is saying, “No more edibles, man. You gotta…” but his voice trails off when he sees you in Vamp’s arms, wrapped up in the cardigan. He’s speechless. He steps out of the way.
He’s handsome, too. You’re in a daze, but god, he's good looking, and he's got this vibe, you can tell that much. He has a joint behind his ear and his eyes are slightly glassy. The place smells of weed with a hint of patchouli and shaving cream.
“Shit, man. Where’d you take her from?” the basement owner asks.
“SHH!” Vamp responds. “I didn’t take her. She was stranded in the rain.”
“She okay?”
“Yeah,” you answer for yourself.
“Michael scared her,” Vamp explains.
“Well shit, guess we’ve all been there,” the man with the vibe says and closes the door behind you.
You feel strangely at ease in the basement. It feels familiar, like a place you’ve been in your dreams or fantasies, but hadn’t fully visualized. At the same time, it feels foreign, like it’s a familiar place in a strange location. A little darker, maybe. A little off. But still, the strong sense that you belong somehow.
Vamp sets you down in an easy chair and they both stand there looking at you, then each other.
The pothead steps forward and squats next to the chair to have a better look. He gently nudges your chin to look toward him, and keeps his hand there. His eyes soften and he bites half his bottom lip as he admires your features, then says, “Well, god damn. . .” Then, as his hand leaves your face, his forearm brushes the cardigan and he feels the light misting of rain on it. “Let’s get you dry,” he offers, and nudges the cardigan open.
Hunger overtakes his face as he catches a glimpse of your body in your rain-soaked clothes. He doesn’t bother averting his eyes from your tits until you accidentally cough.
Vamp reacts, “we gotta hurry, she's getting sick,” and goes to check the closet. “Where are all your clothes?” he asks his best friend.
“Laundry day,” the basement dweller answers. “Shit.”
You ask, “You got a robe or something?”
“Uh, yeah,” he retreats to his bathroom.
Vamp takes the opportunity to discreetly tell you, “Hey, I think he’s kinda into you. So if he makes you uncomfortable at all…”
“I can handle it,” you smile, and you get butterflies at the thought. “What’d you call him? Indub?” you ask.
Vamp chuckles. “That's just his initials. It's Night walks,” vamp answers.
“First name ‘knight’?”
“No you say it like one word, nightwalks.”
“Nightwalks and Vam, huh?”
Vamp nods, then asks, “You want a bath to warm up?”
“Uhhh… I am kinda chilly, yeah”
He calls over to the bathroom, “Hey nightwalks? Draw her a bath while you’re in there.”
“Do what to the bath?” night walks laughs at the old fashioned term.
“Run a bath, man. C’mon.”
The water starts, and night walks emerges holding a silk, leopard print robe. He lets it hang over his muscular shoulder as he kneels to take your shoes and socks off.
Vamp leaves to attend to the bath.
You giggle and flinch as your second sock is pulled off.
“Ticklish?” Night walks smiles, eyebrows up.
You shrug demurely.
He prowls up the lazy chair hovering over you, then kinda hugs you, hooking one strong arm under your back. “Let’s get you outta this,” he murmurs.
You stand, and he helps for balance to make sure you’re not too dizzy.
“I’m okay,” you whisper, and he lets you stand on your own two feet.
He nudges the cardigan off your shoulders and it falls behind you. His eyes scan your body then meet your eyes again. You rub your lips together trying not to flirt with him, but there’s a cheeky sparkle behind your eyes. There’s something darker but equally charming behind his.
And there’s a calming energy that seems to waft from him to you. Comfort and desire is thick in the air.
He begins to take your clothes off, slow and intimate as if he doesn’t know how to do it any other way. His warm hands glide over your hips and up your sides as he lifts your thin, wet shirt.
He lets you keep on the undershirt for now. Not that it makes much of a difference.
He stares at your tits, nipples blazing through the damp, thin undershirt. No bra.
“Freeballin’,” he nods in approval. “My kinda’ girl.”
You can’t help but giggle at that.
He adjusts himself, making your loins buzz, then he kneels to unbutton your jeans. As he takes down the zipper, your face heats up as you remember the panties you’re wearing - they’re printed with a she-devil whose tail points down to your cunt.
“Oohh,” He coos nearly under his breath, “We got a bad girl here.”
You cringe at yourself and mutter, “oh, god,”
He looks up and doesn’t laugh. “My kinda girl,” he repeats, locking eyes with yours.
As he takes your pants down, his hands glide down and around your hips and linger on your ass for a squeeze. “God damn,” he whispers.
Once your pants are off, for the first time, he notices the bloody handkerchief in your hand. It had been tighter in the clutches of your fist before.
“Oh, shit,” he comments. “You okay?”
“Yeah, just a little cut,” you answer and glance at it to check. “It's fine, it stopped bleeding.”
He takes the handkerchief from you and discards it on the chair. He inspects your palm. “I dunno if I got any first aid shit,” he mutters to himself.
“It’s fine, really,” you reassure him. He holds your hand, inspecting your palm, then looks at your face again. His eyes fall on your mouth and he seems to forget what he was thinking about. He wets his lips. “God damn, you’re hot,” he murmurs.
“Thanks,” you whisper, thinking the same about him.
He laces his fingers with yours as he steps even closer, then he brings his hands to your waist.
Your head tilts upward, watching him look back and forth between your eyes.
He leans in and your lips meet.
There’s a spark, more of a spark than you’ve ever felt, and he must feel it, too. He slips his tongue into your mouth as his hand meanders and grabs your ass. “Mm,” he hums into your mouth. You put your arms around his neck and he pulls you against him. A warm bulge throbs against you, making you moan into his mouth.
He breaks the kiss to murmur, “There’s my bad girl,” then he kisses you again and crosses his hands behind your back to take off your undershirt.
He takes a long, deep breath as he looks at your tits, then urgently pulls you up against him again, one hand cradling your head as he feeds you his tongue
He grinds against you as you kiss, and your fingers lift the back of his shirt. He takes it off, breathing heavily, then says, “c’mere, baby.” His lips attack your neck as his thumbs hook into your panties and pull them down below your ass cheeks. He gives you a little spank then groans into your neck.
Fuck, he's hot.
His palm slides down your crack and between your legs until his middle finger can feel your dripping hole. “Hell yeah,” he breathes against your neck as he reaches further. Then he breaks away from your neck and wedges his other hand in between the two of you to finger you from the front. The hand in the back palms a cheek, fingers spanning quite a distance on your skin.
He rubs you from the front and you moan. “Yeah, that's right, sugar.” He closes his eyes and tilts his head slightly upward as he touches you, letting himself get absorbed entirely by the feeling of you in his hands.
You're hypnotized by the veins on his neck and the rhythm of his fingers through your slick.
The way he touches you, it’s like he knows exactly what you like. And his hands, they feel so…
“Oh, daddy,” the word slips from your lips and he replies, “Mmm,” and looks down to observe your face of pleasure. He grinds himself against your hip as he fingers you just the way you like. Like he'd done it dozens of times before - to you.
“Yeah, cum for daddy,” he breathes then nudges your forehead with his nose, prompting you to lift your chin for his lips to take yours again.
He moans into your mouth, the shape of his cock stiff against your hip through his PJs, his hand between your legs, and one on your ass.
As his fingers push you over the edge, you break away to moan, then stifle it in his bare shoulder, gently biting.
“Good girl,” he whispers, “fuck yeah.”
You cum in the palm of his hand, and he moans.
“Attagirl,” he breathes, “fuck.”
He shudders and groans, then his hard-on throbs against you and a warm, wet spot spreads through his PJ pants.
“Damn,” he mutters.
A short sigh comes from behind you.
“Hey “ Night walks greets vamp matter of factly as he catches his breath. He looks vamp up and down and vamp casually covers his crotch, prompting a smirk from night walks.
Vamp clears his throat, “Bath’s ready.”
“Thanks,” night walks says. “Now I need one too,” he chuckles, then turns his attention back to you. “You’re real damn hot, you know that?”
He kisses you gently on the mouth then says, “finish this later,” with a wink. He pulls your soaked panties from your thighs down to your feet and helps you into the silk robe.
-
You make your way into the bathroom and Vamp lingers in the living room with night walks. Never judging, he’s simply raising his eyebrows in a question - how did that happen?
“Just happened, man,” night walks says, then squints. “She familiar to you?”
“Uh, YEAH,” vamp agrees. “Smells familiar.”
Night walks sucks his slick fingers and says, "Tastes familiar."
“Nice bathroom,” you announce, and both men file into the room to see if you need anything. “Never seen a bathtub this big,” you add, stretching out your arms, tits on display.
Night walks takes the opportunity to ask, “Want some company?”
“Sure,” you smile, and he takes down his pj pants.
“Room for three?” night walks asks on behalf of his buddy.
“Yeah,” you agree.
Night walks asks, “You wanna be sandwiched or wanna look at his pretty face?” He can’t let vamp sit behind you. Too much neck access.
“I’ll take the extra body heat,” you answer with a flash of your eyebrows.
-
Night walks gets in the bath behind you and settles his legs outside yours. You can feel all of him against your back. He sneaks in a squeeze of both tits as vamp prepares to get in front of you.
Vamp is a solidly built man. Not in a distinctly muscular way. A little softer than night walks, but he’s just so broad. His back flexes as he gets into the tub and rests back on you. His hair smells nice. And your tits feel amazing against his back.
Sandwiched between them, you feel their breathing. You just sit and feel it for you don’t know how long. Your breathing synchronizes. All three of you.
You’re almost lulled asleep--maybe you even are asleep-- until vamp gasps softly.
You look down to see a faint red plume coming from your hand.
“Oh, crap,” you react.
“He can take care’a it,” Night walks murmurs, sounding half asleep. “He’s got ya.”
“How?” you ask.
“Kiss it better, man,” night walks encourages, then sighs with how comfortable he is with you nestled between his legs, laid back on his chest. He gets a waft of your hair and sighs, “Mm.”
“You gonna kiss it better?” you ask vamp with a giggle.
“Sure, I can if ya want,” he offers and holds your wrist. He plants a kiss on the lower end of your wound, letting his lips linger long enough to inhale as much of your scent his nostrils can get.
It’s not just a kiss. To the naked eye, it’s just a kiss, but it feels like more. It feels like healing. It feels almost like...pleasure. He takes his lips away and the part he kissed is no longer bleeding.
“Whoa,” you whisper.
“Pretty cool, huh?” Night walks mutters over your ear.
“You want more?” vamp asks.
“Yeah,” you answer. No brainer.
Night walks takes your un-injured hand around to vamp’s abdomen and rests it on vamp’s thick, semi-hard, uncut cock. The shape under your hand sends a pang of desire down your spine and between your legs.
“might lose a little blood,” vamp warns. “But not much.” He brings your hand to his mouth, kisses your wound again, starting at the top and sliding his lips all the way down it. Then he shifts his lips a bit, and something smooth begins to slowly trace the cut as his lips slide back up the wound. You feel a suction along the cut, and at the same time, his cock stiffens under your palm. You reflexively palm his shaft, holding it against his stomach.
The suction in your palm feels good. Your nipples harden and a rush of pleasure shoots down your chest, then lower.
“Oh, god,” you whisper.
When he reaches the top of the cut, his lips break away with a moan, as you continue to massage him. “More?” he asks breathily.
You nod, “please.”
He repeats the process, ever so slowly, twice. . .and you go from massaging his cock to pumping it, until he’s coming against his stomach underwater, moaning into your hand.
When night walks slips his hand between you and vamp, you realize your hips have been moving, seeking pressure. Night walks finishes you off, and God, you cum hard.
Night walks’s dick is hard against your back, and you’d love to do something for him, but you’re utterly spent. Your palm looks good as new, and you can hardly keep your eyes open. Vamp twists his torso to look back and check in on you. He idly tongues his sharp incisor.
You look at him, eyelashes fluttering and say, “You’re….” He closes his lips and swallows, and he looks away, expecting you to say that word he doesn’t like. But you don’t. . . “Special,” you say, making his heart swell.
“You too,” he whispers as your eyelids fall shut.
Your head lulls back against night walks and he asks vamp, “she okay?”
“Yeah,” vamp answers. “Most people can’t process that kind of pleasure their first time.”
“That’s why she’s passed out? God damn,” night walks says. “We’re the dream team, buddy.”
“Let’s get her to bed,” Vamp says.
—-
“This is all good, right?” vamp asks night walks as they get you situated nude in the bed. All three of you are dried off.
“Yeah, bud,” night walks reassures vamp in a whisper. “We’ve got a duty to act.”
“That’s doctors,” vamp replies, then lowers his whisper more. “Not….men of the night.”
“Shhh,” night walks replies. "we gotta keep her warm."
You stir and let out a sigh. Vamp is wearing silky shorts and night walks is in fresh boxer briefs.
They settle in on either side of you. After a minute, vamp whispers, “hey, n-dub?”
“Yeah?”
“Is she really familiar to you?”
“Yeah,” night walks answers unequivocally.
“Me too,” vamp agrees. “I think she–”
“Let’s talk about it later,” night walks whispers.
“Yeah,” vamp agrees.
“Get some sleep, man,” night walks encourages.
Vamp starts to respond, “I…” then doesn’t bother. “Yeah.”
“Oh. Sorry, bud.”
“It’s okay,” vamp says, then asks, “but hey, if I go in my restful state, will you rouse me if you're gonna fuck her?”
“I think you'll be ‘roused,” night walks chuckles. “But sure, buddy.”
Vamp gets up on his elbow, then hovers over your face. strokes your cheek and plants a kiss on your forehead. “Sweet dreams,” he whispers.
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I sincerely hope y'all enjoyed this as much as I did 💕. Ty kate for the prompt that kinda led me to write a comfort fic for myself too lol.
Note: in English, "woman of the night" is a tame or old fashioned way of saying female sex worker
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One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)
We all start somewhere!
#picked these cause they're in a similar pose lol. i mean not at all. but sort of... more than my other art at least...#oh fuck im so tired im saving this to drafts and coming back later#my anxiety meds wipe me the fuck out so im trying not to take them in the day#and they're like legit borderline a sleeping med for me. i take one and in 30 mins im OUT.#so I'm. i mean i was already only taking 1-2 in the day and then 2-3 at night#anyways it makes me sad when people say they dont have an artistic bone in their body#and especially when they say they could never draw like me :(#dont put yourself down to lift me up! i don't want my art to be used for you to be mean to yourself!!!#lots of experiences of people comparing themselves to me and being mean to themself...#feels bad. it's okay if you're slow it's okay to be learning it's okay!!!#I'm me and you're you and we're here to learn from each other. i just wanna hang out..#y'know what I'm just gonna post without saying anything i WILL forget I made a draft#i have so many things i intend to post and then forget#it's a wonder I post anything#i only do it when i get bored. and run out of stuff to scroll through#like whelp. guess if i want a post I have to make one myself.#also the second one is really good idc that it's a study i still drew it#art growth#this was in 2010 btw#i started highschool in 2011#I've grown a lot and you can too.#also I've never really been one to dislike my old art. like idk I was trying... if it's bad I just won't look at it whatever#like i wouldn't be mean to someone else who made that so i don't get a free pass to be mean just cause it's to me#man my thoughts are bungled. okay sleep time#if my phone made typos you didn't see it
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Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god
#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#self ship#self insert#si x canon#it me#doodles#I got a haircut! so my hair looks different now.. as haircuts tend to do lol#anyway… yeah… I LOVE HIM… GRAHHFJH#the confirmation that he rlly is just sad and lonely and insecure and craving attention and validation#OHH FORD BBY.. WE R THE SAME#like… ghghg i loved him already just w his prickly nerdy outer shell but knowing more about the vulnerable center is GREAT. ITS AWESOME#also hes a smart nerdy guy who can do science and expirements and shit which is ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS FOR A CHARACTER TO DO#u kno im all about scientists….#I couldn’t draw ship art back then 1 cuz I didn’t kno how to draw old men and 2 cuz I was like 13 lol… which would have been wierd#but I’m an ADULT NOW. GET OVER HERE FORD#also it didn’t even rlly cross my mind TO draw that stuff cuz even tho I did love ford#self ship and x reader sorta stuff was not NEARLY as popular back then.. like I specifically remember it like. booming in popularity#at some point. but being pretty rare before that. anyway. thank u passage of time and trends and new gravity falls book for introducing#me back to fictional man I love. so I can now draw myself smooching him and shit#hell yeah.#13 is probably not actually correct I do not remember exactly which year fords reveal was in…#but I was probably older then 13.. but still#the point remains lol.#also omg. the bit in the book w the goth moth. ‘ur probably into this sorta thing right?’#I AM INTO THAT SORTA THING FORD. thank u book of bill for being written specifically @ me. the immersion it’s great.#like ur so right ford I AM edgy and goth how’d u guess that tee hee. eyelash flutter#aLSO PLS IGNORE MY FINGER BEING IN FRAME IN THE LAST PIC. I was drawing in a tiny bound sketchbook#so I had to hold the paper down to keep it flat. and. I didn’t feel like censoring my fucking. pinkie finger out of the image
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Zenos gets to have the terrible realization that he is the only prince with the patience to put up with him anymore.
#ffxiv#sketch#emet selch#solus zos galvus#zenos yae galvus#meanwhile emet gets to mull over all the bullshit that happened between 1.0 to arr#i also get to draw buff arr zenos around old solus for once AND i get to curse myself#because the way I draw old solus will be forever tainted by the sheer amount of time I also have in Hades#i cant help myself im sorry#just another little concept of zenos being well aware of the emperors health even though he notoriously barely remembers things#probably cause hes that one character that is terrifyingly observant purely out of how fuckin bored he always is#(and I also write him caring about his grandpa and being devastated by his death for... several reasons honestly but still)#its hard not to notice looking into his character how varis made zenos' life miserable right after he becomes emperor#i got to draw cute chibis in exchange for being a little sad at the concept#that zenos would worry about- as he continues to ail- his grandfather getting more and more lonely on his deathbed#also from noting that the brief periods he's pulled from his anhedonia is when he's helping other people
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you do it to yourself, you do / and that’s what really hurts
#rick and morty#rick sanchez#artsbotz#lol cry harder old man !!!!!!!#i have no idea if this looks good i feel like im gonna pass out. hopefully its good LOLLL#link is to my c137 playlist. which im also not sure is good ill have to relisten when i can think straight#used my new brush for this which is nearly exactly the same as my old one. but cooler.#maybe ill explain the playlsist tmrw if i remember. sorry its like so hastag angstcore#i literally only ever make misery playslists. theyre more fun. mayeb one day ill make a fun one#IDK WHY I DREWWWW thsi tbfh actaully idk truly. every time i draw smth im like Why did i do that#i forget what i was trying to convey. oh well#hopefully it makes some senseee. mayeb#ok soooo tired gonna pass oht now snzzzzzz
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OH MY GOD MY TWO FAVORITES GUYES WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ?????
#homestuck#john egbert#karkat vantas#johnkat#doodleart#rabble drawing johnkat? more likely than you think#/throws this into johnkat void. hello is this anything. anything at all#im looking thru old fanart bby girl its time to redraw...ooo#also NEW WATERMARK BABYYYYYYY#i have a second one too thats just my name but i thought i'd deck out w/ the space theme
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got asked to draw two of my old wc rp ocs :-) left is cicadahop, right is scallopstar
#my art#wc oc#squints. its been a dogs age since ive posted anything wc oc related#oc#BUT YA!!!! these guys are old. i think i made cicadahop 2018-2019 but i could be wrong/i have no way of checking haha#and scallopstar was made 2020.? i think? both are vaaastly different#if i were to play them today i think id keep a lot of things the same for cicada. shes just a silly girl who wants to make friends and#and be kind. as for scallopstar. i think id change a lot#one reason: ive gotten a lot better (I HOPE) with storytelling now that ive been playing dnd for a well over a year#and since i also run two different campaigns. two: i have more experience writing a character with an arc that turns them into a villain#three: i was really going through it at the time so. erm. LMFAO plus i was like 16 so ANDKJFGNJDFHBGJH#but yeah!!! kinda crazy looking at my old art and seeing how much ive improved#also a weird feeling to draw them again but not a Bad weird feeling. been doing a lot of reminiscing#thank god we can copy/paste tags bc if i had to rewrite this all id be so sad HAHA#the crop was weird so i wanted to fix it before it was too late lol#since these 2 are ocs im not gonna indicate this was a request the same way i will with the other requests lol
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grabbing kanru hua by the collar. where is manual mode kanru. where is she.
#jkjkjk sv2 looking crazy so far with the tiny bit they showed us. im VERY excited about the supposed faster rendering#updated vocals sound great. well the vibratos sound wack. but sv's auto vibratos almost always sound wack#mouth opening is awesome. certain banks have that in vocal modes (astewian <3) but it'll be awesome for everyone to have it#also i like the separate of timbre pitch etc with vocal modes a LOT i think that gives it quite a bit of versatility#they didnt say anything about standard banks but based off what weve seen im assuming theyre getting taken out back LOL#old yellering them.... but thats chill i expected that tbh. as long its relatively easy to keep up sv1 as legacy software <3#pricing i also expected will be paid LOL i understand others are very upset by that but im used to it for version update software#as long as its only the editor and not the voicebanks and as long as its not. tooo expensive im chill. if its more than like i dunno#1.5 the price of sv1 i am gonna flip though <3 <3 <3 <3 also it better be on dlsite i neeeeed those 15% off coupons#it would also be nice if we had a clearer timeline of when to expect more info on this version but thats also whatever#NOW. the one thing i am genuinely very concerned about. where is manual mode. where is it#real time auto pitch is fine but i only use that with rikka. everyone else i either blank out or prerender a subtle autopitch base#that i edit a whole bunch. asterian i hand draw like 80% of his vibratos because im insane#where is she. where is manual mode. what have you done with her kanru. what have you done with herrrrrr#i know theyre reeeeaaaally aiming for industry people and demo artists but pleeeeeease. pleeeeeeeaaaaase where is manual mode
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literally the mere thought of having to draw his old design was enough for me to finish 9 other drawings ive been avoiding for 2 years... and i ended up completely overhauling his design cause i just did not want to draw him that badly lol
#t talks#my art#my ocs#character design#original character#see if you dont want to draw your own character. that bad!#and you should change them. so you want to draw them 1 billion times :)#also sidenote. if i look at my old art for even 3 seconds. i will die#also sorry for posting the same drawing over n over again today#i was just so unhappy with his design for so long now. n even more unhappy cause i couldnt avoid drawing him anymore#and redesigns usually take like 100 tries before i become even slightly happy#so the fact i decided to redesign him today And got a design i loved on the first try??? im big happy bruh#but also if i have to look at that old drawing one more time im going to throw up
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when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING
#cw blood#luckys original content#ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG#also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough....#anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project#FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD#SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS..#idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter#and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do#THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG#i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then#i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that#ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours#so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time#i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly#and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more#but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho#we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange#yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that;#if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but#she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that#i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated#i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others#AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG#IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME.#THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL#LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU#AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU
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OH WAIT I FORGOT TO POST THIS!
I title this: Smoking is cool and all 7 year olds should try it.
My DND OC Violet (shadow monk/rogue) in a baseball pinup sort of vibe, I'm obsessed with her. Heavily inspired by my time in the TF2 fandom and a certain type of scout art.
Violet hits things with a stick until they die too, so it kinda fits lmao. I may do more inspired by other TF2 classes? We will see.
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#dnd#dungeons and dragons#ocs#tf2#illustration#feel free to reblog :)#listen. we dont need to talk about how i never considered baseball sexy poses until i indulged in scout art.#i am a product of my hyperfixations there is no denying that#also you can tell by how i draw Violet that i am an ass man. its hard to have your art tell you that#VERY proud of how the smoke came out; ive never rendered smoke before but it look great IMO#also if it wasn't extremely clear; the phalic imagery was very intentional. she got that metaphorical big dick#i think this is the first time ive drawn her in 'modern' clothes. very funny#ALSO i tried a new trick to make the color more harmonious and i like it. everything is tinged a little blue and it makes everything meld#also; what is she sitting on? fuck you; a nondescript cube#one last thing: ive given up posting to my old art blog; im just gonna post stuff hefe since i draw so infrequently#and reblog to my OC blog when applicable#kay bye like and reblog pls *kisses*
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#shuichi iguchi#shigaraki tomura#mha spinner#bnha spinner#spinaraki#spinneraki#ok now that the tags are out of the way LETS TALK#i was reading a webtoon when female lead did that whole laugh and cover it with your hand thing and i do it sometimes too#and i got to thinking about WHY and why its usually girls depicted as such and i know some people dont like their teeth/smile#and im like well shut the fuck up! im thinking fem spinner!!! like being self conscious about how she looks and developing it on accident#and shigaraki never really noticing until one day she DOES and wow spinner looks really pretty when she laughs and why does she hide it#like damn!!! i have a lot of thoughts about what spinner but female and the changes that would have on the character and why and agdjfkflg#ANYWAYS someone stop me from regressing to the old way i used to do hair bc its too damn time intensive but its so easy to zone out during#fem shigaraki#fem spinner#was going to properly do the background but i got done after forgetting the texture for spinner for the 4th time + went eeeh good enough#also!!!!!! the last “”panel“” made me realize how weird that angle is to draw spinner with his major proportions and also keep the soft 1/2#2/2 smile reading as a smile and agdhfkfl am i adding “looks like a resting bitch face” to my spinner headcanons? maybe.#but imagine spinner trying so hard to look approachable and give a little smile but his face just????? doesnt do that very well (at least#not as easily as more human looking humans) and how that might play into his ostracization and then him leaning into that#as a defense mechanism (like if they think im an ass then I'll look like an ass on purpose) ahdndn he was so grumpy in the bar in the bg#mha jbee
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chnt fandom was so mean to you and for what🙁ur so cool..
i can think of a couple reasons
#the whole transfem elijah situation#saying i related to elijah in some way#everyone either hating elijah or wanting to fuck her#the people who want to fuck her get blocked#so they probably hate me for blocking them over that#the people who hate elijah are so annoying about it so im mean back to them#they hate that shit for some reason#probably dont like the million elijah drawings that much either#someone hates me because i didnt like being accused of an egg laying kink#joke or not dont accuse someone you dont know of an egg laying kink???#that one was weird#couple people on twitter hate me because my ex said something about me i genuinely dont know what i did there but#like my only context was one screenshot of a priv account who was also confused about what i did and man i took that shit to heart#like i was gone for a month that shit sucked worst depressive state i have ever been in um#theres probably a couple people who were mad about me using ai with the homophobic elijah volkov copypasta#there was someone on my strawpage a while back who got mad at me for that so at least one person is#they said “you talk alot of all ai is bad for someone who homophobic elijah volkov” or something like that#which is funny because i havent used ai at all since homophobic elijah volkov#theres probably more i cant be remembering all the shit i did man#most of it is so insanely harmless like ok u hate to see a cute girl winning#also people hate when u ship a “bad” character with a “good” character#example uh rowlijah#so yeah theres a couple reasons i can think of#hated by an entire fandom at only 14 years old what a time to be alive#to be fair most 14 year olds are annoying#this includes me#like man i look back at the shit i said from like march and man i was annoying as fuck!!!! i probably still am!!!!#but idgaf... a boy can be annoying and obnoxious and sometimes thats ok
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@soccerpunching you're genuinely one of the best people I've met here bc you like almost every media I like
Apropos fighting. Remember when Adora jumps on Catra at Prom. Just them rolling on the floor. I wanted to draw that but didn't get round to it. The scene had such an energy
#im so so glad you like those hah#but anyways catradora and feisaru are two v personal and important ships 2 me#would you believe me if I told you I've sorta felt like drawing them in suits again#a few weeks ago#both manspreading#the problem is my head is so full of ideas and i actually suck at drawing and am slow and so my brains fastness overwhelms me sometimes#oh also im sick AGAIN so efficiency goes put the window#i also have a song that i associate w the prom redraws in particular#if i do the manspreads ill bring it up#im a bit conflicted abt the prom redraws. i used to really like them#but theyre over a year old now and its showing#how my drawings looked back then doesn't really resonate w me but the dip stays iconic#BECAUSE#i didn't think about saru's n fei's bodies any different back then. but my brain has this thing#where it distorts my drawings and makes them look broader than they really are in my head? and#then i look at the drawings again after a month and it goes holy shit last time i looked you werent looking like stickmen#but im better than this now#my drawings cause me less eye cancer now#i wanna get that violet suit finally. have wanted it for years#also that one thing where saru gets manhandled. it originally had more blush#man im not rereading im going to sleep
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HAPPY 4 YEARS OF MAIGETHEPLATYPUS57!!!!!!
Four years ago, on May 7, 2020, I made this blog! To celebrate, I found my journal from middle school and compiled all of the drawings I did of my persona over the years, including my most recent one from this year!
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Seeing my improvement over the years is amazing, and I hope that 11-13 yo me would be thrilled at how much both my art and general life has improved over the years.
Happy 4 years, and here's to many years more on this hellsite (affectionate)!
#maige's posts#maige's art#a lil late but its still may 7 somewhere lmao#i didnt do anything for last year so i really wanted to post something this time around#blocked out parts have irl information and my persona's old name lol#also love how i eventually just like. embraced my brown eyes and stopped drawing my character with gray ones LMAO#hair also reflects how its currently dyed lmao. the other ones are a lil more wish fulfillment vs the newest one looking more like me irl#which im super happy abt
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Every now and then I replay the first episode of VLD and I wonder why I thought it be a good show lol
#mostly just the part where Allura is assigning pilots to lions#why lol. the first five people who show up are just perfect fits?? hate it lol#i have no au plot ideas but itd have made more sense to draw out the forming of voltron. like for a longer time. like its the s1 finale#and to be traveling looking for appropriate pilots#or the s2 finale? like what if the original gang somehow stayed in contact despite not being Voltron paladins and they proved being the best#team despite not piloting immediately. i feel like a stronger plot of their forming teamwork outside of being Voltron would have also made#their friendships seem more real too lmao#like what if Lance IS Blue's pilot bit hes the only one for a long time. the other lions couldn't actually *just be* located#*but. not bit. and what if Pidge runs off in a stolen vessel to find her dad and brother. what if Shiro isnt.. so flat as a character and is#desperate to find his old team and runs off with them to help out and free others#Keith could somehow get involved with The Blades a lot sooner#and Hunk finds his footing as a leader in rebellion organization. i hate that he was just the funny guy allll the way thru#also (still not a plot bc my brain is unorganized lol) Allura doesnt die. Shiro actually gets to be gay with a husband. and we either need#to not make Lotor a villain or just go all out on making him the worst. i personally dont want him to be a villain bc it was stupid lol#also PULEEEAASE Lance is bi. Lance “I'm just getting a feel for the stick” *obsessed with his rival who doesnt even know he exists* McClain#i want to see him get over his crush on Allura within like 6 episodes and then see him making out with the mermaids then Keith when everyone#starts reuniting lol. my bicon Lance deserves to kiss mermaids like we all do and then get on when the otp lol#now im nostalgic for s1 VLD vibes. ya know. before hell lol#it really just gets worse after ... s3? everyone feels different. i usually tolerate up to about the end of s3 before i feel like its donezo#aunt posting#vld#voltron: legendary defender
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