#but I don't think I disaprove

[ayakashibackstreet]

Ignore the random pink line please

We should be rant buddies............ also, what bedtime story would you read me, I'm so curious now

[kinloch-warden]

I think this is one of my favorite exchanges with Morrigan and Alistair. She's really challenging him and asking like hey. Who are you really: Alistair the Grey Warden, or Alistair the Templar? Like, she sees straight through to the core of the issue. For all that she doesn't like him, she does understand him in many ways. Because it really is an instance of Alistair giving a knee jerk reaction by spouting his templar training.

But if you (the Warden specifically, because Morrigan just make him defensive) push him on it, you can get him to see past it. Like all it takes for Alistair to agree to let Jowan go (like fully leave Redcliffe even) with no disaproval with a persuasion check of "I can't leave him here to die, can you?" And... he can't. Even though he's a blood mage who literally poisoned his uncle.

I just think this moment with Jowan has the potential to be a real crux point for Alistair and his identity. Its a moment where he has to make a choice- who are you really: a templar, or a Grey Warden? Because the wardens don't forbid blood magic. Templars do. So if Alistair lets Jowan go, its one more step away from the templars and into the Wardens. He has to choose which order he would rather emulate. Which values will he will hold himself to. And if you push him on it, actually make him think about it, he's more of a Warden than a Templar any day.

[tryingtograspctrl]

HOLD ME DOWN: PENELOPE GARCIA X BLACK PLUS SIZE READER

SUMMARY: When your girlfriend hears that you're not feeling well she drops everything to take care of you.

You were on you couch snuggled up under some blankets, barely paying attention to some reality show as it played on the tv.

Over the weekend you started to feel under the weather, initially thinking that it was just a common cold you brushed it off, opting to just sleep in and hoping it would fade on its own but when you returned to work Monday you only began to feel worse.

"You alright?" Emily asked placing a hand on your shoulder, pulling you from your fever induced haze.

"Yeah, just a little tired i'm sure i'll be fine after more coffee." You stood up from your desk making your way toward the break room.

"Hi sweet cheeks, need a recharge too?" Morgan greeted, leaning against the counter.

"You know it." You smiled at him picking up the coffee pot and pouring yourself a big mug full.

Just as you were about to lift the cup to your lips you felt yourself become lightheaded, nearly falling to the floor.

"Whoa are you okay?" Morgan grabbed you, pulling a chair over and sitting you down in it.

"Yeah, yeah i just didn't get much sleep last night, got this cold i can't shake its been keeping me up." You sighed.

"Sweetheart this doesn't seem like a cold, i think we should take you to the hospital." He frowned.

"Morgan i'm okay, there's too much work to do i have no time for a hospital visit." You shook your head.

"Let's see what Garcia has to say about that." He pulled out his phone dialing the woman's number.

You groaned in protest but he just held a hand up, shushing you.

"Hiya babe what can i do for you?" She spoke sweetly on the other line.

"Hey babygirl y/n nearly fainted just a minute ago and she's refusing to go to the hospital, i was hoping you could be of some assistance." He explained.

You frowned is disaproval, crossing your arms.

"Oh my goodness i'm on my way downstairs!" She squeaked, quickly hanging up.

It wasn't long before you heard the sound of clicking heels approaching, Garcia's eyes locking with yours as she entered the break room.

"Penelope i-" You started to protest but she instantly shut you down.

"Nope. I don't want hear it angel we're going, now come on." She grabbed your hand as Morgan helped you stand, leading you out to her car.

She buckled you in and ran over to the driver side starting up the car and peeling out of the parking lot.

The two of you rode in silence, her hand on your thigh stroking it comfortingly.

At the hospital

After what felt like hours you were finally called to the back for a checkup.

Despite how adamant you were on being fine Garcia insisted that some tests be run just to be safe.

"Looks like the flu and dehydration which would explain the fainting." The doctor came back after a while, eyes scanning your chart.

"Baby how much have you had to drink today?" Garcia looked at you, brows furrowed in worry.

"Now that i think about it probably just a cup of coffee, i didn't realize." You frowned eyes glued to your shoes.

"I'll prescribe some oseltamivir for the flu and i recommend that you drink plenty of fluids as well, water and something with plenty of electrolytes." The doctor gave the two of you a nod before walking off.

"Y/n how many times do i have to tell you, you have to make sure you're eating and drinking plenty throughout the day." Garcia grabbed your chin, lifting your face so your eyes could meet hers.

"I know baby and i'm sorry i was just so wrapped up in work that i forgot." You pouted hands resting at her waist.

"I admire how dedicated you are to the job but i don't like how you let it consume you, do you know how hurt i'd be if i ever lost you? How hurt the team would be? You have to start taking care of yourself honey." She whispered.

"I will Penny i promise and if i start to slip up i know you'll keep me in line, that's why i love you." You pecked her lips gently.

"Damn right, i love you too angel face." She pulled you in for another kiss.

A/N: I love Pen so much and i don't see enough fics on here for her. Enjoy this fluffy sick fic. 🌻

[graveyardcuddles]

There's this post I saw on here about how if the player turns Shadowheart over to the Sharans, the rest of the party should all turn on you. I completely agree, and I think they should also mutiny against Tav/Durge if they tell Orin to just go ahead and kill the party member she takes hostage. Act 3 feels like the act where everyone in the group should care about each other the most and yet it's the act where they arguably feel most disconnected from one another. And this is all probably a symptom of the overall lack of reactions and responses to major events in Act 3 from the companions in general.

But another similar example that drives me insane is how, if you ascend Astarion and then immediately turn on him and side with the Gur, ALL of the companions will just be like "Nice work taking out the trash, team. Job well done. Another vampire lord vanquished, " without so much as a hint of emotion after you betray him, gang up on him and KILL HIM?? As if they hadn't spent weeks and possibly months traveling with Astarion, getting to know him, bonding with him, ect. As if they hadn't just all stood there and let him complete the ritual. But the moment Paladin Karen and the Gur show up, they just abandon all that over what? Some vague ideal of "evil is evil black and white no nuace" nonsense? (which is even more ridiculous if some of the other companions are evil like DJ Shadowheart or Minthara).

The only companion with a reasonable reaction is Halsin, who correctly points out you should have tried harder to stop the ascension rather than betray Astarion and kill him after it happened. I understand that not all of the companions have the best relationship with him. And I understand all of them very much disapprove of him ascending. So I don't expect the whole party to mutiny over this particular decision. But the fact that they ALL uniformly turn on him so quickly for these people they don't even know is disappointing. There should have realistically been some pushback/objections. Or at least some guilt and sadness and reflection over the fact that they all just had to kill their former traveling companion/friend that THEY allowed to become this threat they felt warranted putting down.

It feels like it should be an incredibly tragic and cathartic moment, and it just falls spectacularly flat. I tried to rationalize their reactions as just part of the shitty lack of responses the companions all generally have in Act 3. But at least with Shadowheart and the hostage situation with Orin the companions will still be ANGRY at you and express their disaproval. Whereas here it really comes off like they just don't give a shit about Astarion and never really did. It's depressing.

I feel like it unintentionally and very sadly lends validation to the idea that what Astarion says about no one else being like Tav/Durge. No one else will look out for him. No one else will have that same kindness for him. No one has a heart like them. I don't actually agree with this notion. I think based on the good epilogue for his spawn ending he's definitely capable of making friends and genuine human connections. But Tav/Durge HAS to come first. They have to be the example that shows him how.

Also why I can't stop repeatedly romancing him. Astarion needs Tav/Durge arguably more than any other companion. He has nothing and no one else.

[coeluvr]

are the ros that we don't romance going to have opinions on the one we do romance?cause I can totally see fadiya trying to convince mc that vincent Is not worth it 😂 or vincent being suspicious or disaproving of mc romancing helios thinking we're up to something even if our mc doesn't even want revenge 🤣🤣

Yes they will! You're spot on with which people will be the most opionated about it lmao 😭

It's funny how both Fadiya and Vincent are so similar yet so different. If they disliked the same people I think they'd get along for once.

[nox140497]

Sam's Mission

Prompt: No

Request: No

Authors Note: Hi guys. Here's another one for you. You guys seem to like the Sam and Colby content, so here you guys go. Also, please feel free to make requests if you have any.

Also, this >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> means timeskip This<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< means flashback.

Summery: Sam introduces his girlfriend to his friends and family... they don't particularly like her very much. Knowing this, she starts to doubt that Sam will stay with her.

Pairings: Sam Golbach x Female Reader

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Y/N had been dating her boyfriend Sam for almost five months now. She was very happy in her relationship with the very sweet and loving blond boy.

Today was the day she met his family for the first time. To say she was nervous was a massive understatement. She was scared that they would not like her. You see, she had met his friends a couple of weeks ago, and the meeting had gone anything but well. They had not liked her very much, and she was afraid that this meeting with his family would go as teribly as the one with his friends had gone.

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Sam nervously held Y/N's hand as they walked into the living room of the Traphouse to meet his friends. All the boys as well as Devyn were there. Colby greeted them with a hearty laugh and a pat on the back, but the rest eyed Y/N with skepticism.

"I'm so glad you're finally meeting everyone," Sam said, smiling at Y/N. "Hey guys, this is Y/N."

His friends offered polite smiles, but the atmosphere grew tense. "So, Y/N, what do you do for a living?" Colby asked, breaking the silence.

"I'm a YouTuber," Y/N replied. "I love gaming and sometimes exploring abandoned places with Sam when he's not filming for the duo channel."

"Ah, sounds exciting," Corey said, unconvinced.

Later, as they drove to Y/N's apartment, Y/N said, "Your friends don't seem to like me much."

Sam tightened his grip on the steering wheel. "They just need time to get to know you. They'll see how amazing you are."

She had at one point overheard thwm say a couple times that she wasn't good enough for him.

One that hurt the most is when she overheard a conversation between Sam and Colby.

Colby: *grunts* Sam, she's not what I expected.

Sam: What do you mean?

Colby: I don't know, man. She seems... different.

Sam: Different how?

Colby: It's hard to explain. Look, I just think you can do better.

The reason that one affected her so much is that she knew how much Sam valued Colby's opinion.

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Y/N snapped out of her little trip down memory lane when the car stopped and sighed. They still hadn't warmed up to her at all.

Now she was sitting in the car now in front of Sam's childhood home, and she feared his parents would feel the same.

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She had been right to worry. She had not even been in the house ten minutes, and they had already been looking at her with disapproval in their eyes.

They had finally retreated to their bedroom for the night and she could finally relax after hours of sitting awkwardly trying not to burst into tears at the family of the love of her life's disaproval.

She knew that if they made him choose, which they inevitably would, then he would choose them, and she would be alone again.

"I don't want to cause any problems," she confided in Sam after they had both taken a shower and were cuddling in bed together.

"Baby, I love you. Don't let them intimidate you. Let's show them how happy we are together."

"I don't know Sammy... If I'm just going to cause problems between you and your family and friends, maybe we shouldn't be together." She said in a soft voice.

Sam immediately pulled her into his chest and shook his head. "No. I will not lose you because they are being stupid." He said with determination in his voice.

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She really didn't care much for his other friends, but she wanted Colby to like and accept her.

Sam and Colby had been inseparable since they were 14 years old. They shared everything together - from their love for adventure to their quirky sense of humor, and she knew that. She didn't want to be the reason for any tension between the two boys, and she had told Sam as much. She understood the brotherly bond the two shared and absolutely adored it.

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They had always been close. Since that day at band camp, when they were 14 years old, they shared everything from secrets to dreams, and there was nothing they wouldn't do for each other. However, there was one thing that had been bothering Sam lately - Colby had expressed some reservations about his girlfriend, Y/N. Sam couldn't understand why Colby didn't seem to like her as much as he did.

Determined to change this, Sam hatched a plan. He knew that Colby loved ghost hunting, so he suggested they film a video, visiting some of the most haunted places in the city. Sam saw this as the perfect opportunity for Colby to get to know Y/N better and hopefully grow fond of her.

Excitedly, Sam shared his idea with Y/N, who agreed to join them on their ghost hunting adventure. She had always been interested in the supernatural and was thrilled at the thought of exploring haunted locations with her boyfriend and his best friend. Little did Sam know that this trip would change their dynamics in more ways than he could ever imagine.

On the day of the shoot, the trio gathered their equipment and headed to the first haunted spot, an old abandoned asylum. As they roamed the corridors with their camera, searching for evidence of the afterlife, Sam noticed something peculiar - Colby seemed genuinely interested in what Y/N had to say, she had done some research on the place so was telling them and the viewers about what she had found. He asked her about her thoughts and opinions, listening intently and treating her with utmost respect.

Throughout the day, as they visited different locations, the bond between Colby and Y/N grew stronger. They laughed together, shared scary stories, and even pulled pranks on each other. It was during one of those moments, when Y/N pretended to see a ghost lurking in the shadows, that Colby playfully tackled her, shouting, "Gotcha, little sis!"

That statement took Sam by surprise. It seemed that somewhere along the way, Colby had formed a brotherly bond with Y/N. Colby started treating her like his little sister, looking out for her and joking around. Sam couldn't help but feel a mix of emotions - he was thrilled that Colby had grown to like Y/N, but there was also a tiny pang of jealousy, as he had never witnessed this side of his best friend before.

As they reviewed the footage for their video, Sam noticed how Colby's gaze softened whenever Y/N was on screen. It was evident that their friendship had evolved into something special. The viewers started noticing it too, leaving comments about how they shipped "Colby and his little sister Y/N."

Despite the initial purpose of the trip, Sam realized that he had inadvertently given birth to a bond that was both unexpected and beautiful. Instead of being upset, he embraced the change. He couldn't help but admire the connection between Colby and Y/N as they teased each other and shared inside jokes.

With time, Sam understood that his original plan had succeeded beyond his wildest dreams. Colby not only came to like Y/N, but he had accepted her into his heart as family. As for Y/N, she saw Colby not just as Sam's best friend anymore but as a protective brother figure.

And so, what began as a simple attempt to get his best friend to like his girlfriend turned into a heartwarming tale of friendship, love, and newfound relationships. Sam learned that sometimes, the best outcomes happen when you least expect them. As a result, their ghost hunting adventure became a turning point in their lives, forever strengthening the bond between Sam, Colby, and Y/N.

Needless to say, Y/N and Sam were both over the moon. Now, if only his family would come around as well.

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The final hurdle for the couple was getting his family to adore Y/N as much as he did. Sam's big sister, Allison, was always skeptical of his romantic endeavors. She believed that no one could ever be good enough for her beloved little brother. His little brother, Ben, was ever the mischief-maker. He loved to tease Sam about his new girlfriend, often whispering witty remarks that left Sam red-faced. And then there were Sam's parents, Mr. and Mrs. Golbach, who were initially hesitant in accepting Y/N due to her unconventional lifestyle.

Determined to change their minds, Sam decided to embark on a mission to win his family's favor for Y/N. He knew it wouldn't be a straightforward task, but he was not one to give up easily.

First, Sam decided to approach his big sister, Allison. Knowing her love for art, he invited Y/N to a local gallery to experience the mesmerizing strokes of the masterpieces within. Y/N, being an artist herself, effortlessly bonded with Allison over their shared passion. They spent hours discussing colors, techniques, and inspirations. Allison was amazed by Y/N's talent and felt a kinship with her newfound sister-in-law.

Ben was easy to win over as Y/N appealed to his sense of mischief and humor. Much to Sam's horror as he was most often the target of the two's pranks.

Once the siblings were getting along, his parents conceded that she was not so bad. Over time, they could even come to love her as one of their own.

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And to think just a few months ago, she was questioning their relationship.

[eternally-tired-muffin]

au: life was kinder to them (sabito, tsutako and kanae don't die)

rambling under the cut!

Both Shinobu's and Tomioka's personalities changed a lot after their loved ones' deaths, so if that never happened, I think they would act quite different (on top of having different haori). They would also both still become as strong as hashiras but don't achieve the rank due to already having nine hashira.

Sabito would become the water hashira instead as he improves faster than Tomioka so reaches the level first. I can't imagine Tomioka with a different breath style as he was so well suited to water breathing that he managed to create an eleventh form. For Tomioka to achieve the promotion to hashira, they would need to have multiple water pillars, unless Sabito uses a different breath style (I've seen people use ice for him which I think fits really well). This doesn't solve the numbers issue, though.

Tomioka would instead simply not get promoted but be informally known to be as capable as a hashira by those who go on missions with him. I think this could work well as it would lead to his canon self esteem issues as he thinks of himself as lesser than the others because he is literally not of their rank (rather than thinking lesser of himself because of how final selection went). I figure he and Sabito argue about this but make minimal progress. Tsutako doesn't know he feels this way because she and Tomioka don't talk about demon slaying things at all. She disaproves of his choice to join in the first place and wishes he picked up a "normal life" like her (who is happily married to her fiance) but doesn't stop him.

Meanwhile, Shinobu would become Kanae's tsuguko when Kanae is promoted. As Shinbou isn't a hashira, she would be on fewer missions and have more time at the butterfly manshion so she could focus more on poison production. I think she would develop a larger variety of weapons. For example, inspired after meeting Genya, she could make poison filled bullets or other projectiles that give her long range attacks. Maybe she would create long term attacks too but I'm not sure how yet. She would also train Kanao and other demon slayers in poisons. This means that there can be many poison users in the corps which enables lower ranked slayers to defeat stronger demons. This makes her really valuable despite not being a hashira.

With no reason to hide her emotions behind a smile, Shinobu is loud about thinking the "nine hashira only" rule is stupid. It's gotten her on the bad side of a couple of the existing hashiras (Uzui, Sanemi, Iguro), who consider this an insult to Ubuyahsiki. On the other hand, this makes Sabito respect her a lot. He also hates the rule and wants Tomioka to be promoted.

Shinobu and Tomioka would probably first meet in the butterfly mansion when Tomioka gets injured. They also interact quite a lot through mutual friends, such as waiting for a hashira meeting to finish. This sort-of-but-not-really-hashira thing would be something they have in common. There's rumours in the corps about both of them. Tomioka has no idea. Shinobu knows this and thinks it's hilarious.

Tomioka is still very introverted but doesn't avoid others like in canon. I think he would respond to Shinobu's teasing, even if only to complain, so they would become good friends over time (but won't admit it).

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[millaysmaeve]

i'm trying to understand why there is this assumption that bertha will disapprove marian as her daughter in law. i know there's a lot of talk about larian being some kind of romeo and juliet, but even though bertha and agnes dispises each other, bertha never disliked marian actually it was quite the opposite. the only thing that could make bertha disaprove their union is that marian is peniless, but her position in society (coming from a old money family with a lot of conections) is more importan since larry is already rich (also marian is probably ada's heir now she isn't poor anymore). anyway to close this off carrie coon already said recently that bertha even admires marian sense of independency. so we don't know what will happen but until now there's no reason to think that bertha will be against their marrige

[fany-the-bunny]

Dude i just watched a Lily Orchard video and oh christ! Watching these for a few minutes gives you brainrot.

How the hell does someone look at the Pearl and Garnet arc about Pearl lying to her and instantly thinks "rape"? How many braincells do you have? I watched that as a child and understood what that was suppose to be about, how does a grown woman doesn't?

And oh god her takes on My Little Pony are the worst! How the hell you watch a cutesy little episode about two ponies falling in love and marrying despite their families disaproval and all you can think about is "heteronormativity"? And how the f an episode about parent death is grimdark? Parent death is like, one of the most discussed heavy topic by animation, freaking Disney movies have those, why is it weird for Mlp to talk about it?

The thing about Applejack's parents that made people love them so much is because they are a realistic depiction of a healthy couple, they support each other, love each other and share their interests with each other, but many people might not think they are realistic because most people never had a healthy relationship before. And yeah, i don't blame them especially because we are constantly being fed up those awful romance movies and relationships in media where the couple does nothing but fight all the time, but the reality is much different than that, being in a relationship with someone is not some constant fighting or discussion, is calming and relaxing, is like having a best friend that is there to support and love you unconditionally and i guess Lily never had any kind of healthy relationship for thinking that Pear Butter leaving her family and getting with Bright Mac while he doesn't have to do the same is toxic.

No is not, Bright Mac never made her choose between him and her family, that was her dad, just because Bright Mac didn't lost something for their relationship it doesn't mean is instantly toxic and it doesn't mean he wasn't willing to do as well, how dense you gotta be to think that? Not everything have to be cynical or overly realistic, sometimes things are just adorable and cute for the sake of it.

I swear, Lily is one of those people that makes everything edgy and cynical for the sake of it and it shows.

[somethingmissingthiswaycomes]

I keep reading about other trans guys' experiences and feeling like... Oh man... I need to get back on testosterone.

More and more I'm realizing that, while I wasn't ready to go further on HRT when I started it, I do ultimately need to transition more. I need the puberty I never got.

I'm realizing more and more that I have a lot of internalized... androphobia, I suppose, would be the word. My mother understandably taught me to be more wary of men than women, and my emotionally distant father has been the only man in my life since forever. (It's been nice to get to know him for real over the last year or so.) I've internalized the particularly transandrophobic fear that, if I went "too far" with HRT, I would become something I've been taught to fear. If I go "too far," I'll have betrayed something.

Learning that I was trans has also brought me into online spaces with more transfemmes than transmascs, and learning about feminism through these spaces also brought up a lot of anti-man rhetoric that I'm trying to unlearn in a feminist way—rhetoric that came from understandable places, largely either from radfem ideas separated from transphobia or from externalized dysphoria in discussions by trans women in largely feminine spaces. All very understandable, most of it not even hateful so much as vaguely resentful toward the idea of "being a man", but ultimately a harmful environment for me to explore my gender in.

When I got top surgery, I was filled with anxiety because I had little to no positive examples of what my body should or could look like after the fact. Not with my body type, anyway, and largely not without the effects of testosterone beforehand. I knew I wanted to be rid of my breasts, so I went through with it with... probably less information about what to expect at the end than I should have. (Though it was thoroughly necessary, and I don't regret it.)

I think my hesitancy to transition also comes from having managed to internalize transmisogyny—the idea that I could never properly express my womanhood as a genderfluid person if I went "too far" with testosterone. I don't believe this about anyone else, but I suppose the harmful bias is in there. Even as I've wished before that I'd been through an AMAB puberty, as I've wanted to be feminine in ways that celebrate the effects of testosterone, I've still thought... "What if, by the end of it, I feel like those trans women who say they were 'ruined' by it?"

Which I think leads me into the next realization I've had, which is that I've also internalized the (false) idea that trans people who were AFAB are privileged. That, if I made myself appear AMAB to onlookers, maybe I would lose that "privilege." I'm realizing here that I'm scared of losing the "privilege" that being uncomfortable in my own skin has supposedly lent me. But I know that I would never put that on others; of course I'd never say that a trans woman shouldn't risk the "privilege" she'd lose by rejecting the manhood society places on her. But that's how internalizing things works, I suppose. It can make you very hypocritical.

All this, and then sometimes I'll watch a short film about a transmasculine experience, or I'll read an article about a trans man's life, or I'll actually seek out the thoughts and words of guys like me, and... It's triggering, honestly. It makes me yearn. It makes me want but it doesn't eliminate these feelings of fear and self-disgust.

I stopped taking HRT because my arms started looking like my grandfather's arms. The grandfather who brazenly, proudly supports Trump, who went out more often during the peak of COVID, who knows that my sister and I are both trans and sent an envelope with $20 checks "for the girls" for Christmas that included me and excluded her. (I gave her my check out of spite for him.) I stopped taking testosterone because my body started to remind me of the man who had encouraged my sister to join the military, which traumatized her, and who disaproved of my mother's second marriage because she fell in love with a black man.

It is... very hard to accept yourself as a trans man who needs testosterone to be comfortable in your own body when the people your body starts to resemble are hateful and horrible, and when some of the people at the forefront of the movement for your rights project that onto you too, even unintentionally.

But with every story I hear about a trans guy sharing my struggles and doing what they need to, what they want to, and being supported by those they choose to surround themselves with... I feel more emboldened. Sure of myself and what I need.

Keep sharing stories of love and success, and of struggles and fights, and pride.

[cursedvibes]

What are your thoughts on Kenjaku and Yuki Tsukumo? Is there a possiblity they could've come to respect each other's intellect/power, sworn enemies? Friends?

Well, at least from Kenjaku's side that all seems to already be the case. They definitely respect Yuki's intellect and power. While they seem disappointed that she chose to rely on Tengen and wants to steer the world in a direction they disaprove of, they still respect her thought process and are actually happy that she thinks in similar ways they do. She disagrees with them, but Kenjaku appreciates their discussions and I doubt they get many of that calibre ever since Tengen decided to keep to herself, so that makes Yuki special.

She might also be somewhat of a friend to them or she fulfils Kenjaku's requirements for friendship. They see her as an equal both in terms of skill/strength and more importantly intellectually and while I think they think her siding with Tengen and risking her own plans for her is boring, besides that, she does excite them.

It's harder to judge their relationship from Yuki's perspective. She clearly doesn't like Kenjaku (as many do) and finds them irritating (as many do), but I think she still likes talking about her plans and how to change the world with them. They can actually give her pushback, even if their plan is insane. Similar to Kenjaku, I think she appreciates the exchange of ideas. Her talking to Geto in Hidden Inventory shows she likes to receive input from other people and discuss theories. She seems quite desperate for it if she's willing to listen to a teenager going through a mental breakdown for it. Similar to Kenjaku, although I think Kenjaku wouldn't have bothered with Geto's "maybe killing all non-sorcerers will get rid of curses", mainly because it's unrealistic, short-sighted and that isn't Kenjaku's goal or a valuable alternative to it. Either way, since Yuki was an outcast from Jujutsu Tech and seen as a lunatic, I don't think she had many people to have deep discussions with and she missed that exchange. So while she might not have enjoyed the talk with Kenjaku as much as them, I still think she took something valuable away from it. And she respects Kenjaku's intellect/power, simply because they are a real threat.

I honestly wish we had gotten more back-and-forth between them, a real discussion of their principles and plans for the future. It would've also given Yuki a chance to go more into depth on how exactly she plans to make the world break away from cursed energy because as it stands it just sounds like a lofty ideal with nothing to back it up. I wanted to see what steps she had taken to bring that world about. We might find out a little bit more through the book she left behind, but is still very flat and could never cover her full plans, if she had any. Her pushing back against Kenjaku's plan and arguing against them for her own standpoint would have been way more interesting and I think was much needed in their fight to put into perspective what they are actually fighting for here. They have also their experiences with Tengen to bond over. Alas, we didn't get much of that.

[lilisouless]

Inside out headcanons, aka what is the crows´s main emotion

This is mostly brainstorming so i´ll probably change my mind the second i remember more things

-Nina: Anger?

While she is charming by default, she spends a lot of her inner monologue chastising herself, being annoyed by things she considers unfair. Out of the crows she is the most vocal about injustice, who talks the most about other people.

Sure i can make a case for any emotion, the thing that mostly drew me to anger was that as a kid, her drive to use and discover her powers was out of retribution of her bullies

Matthias: disgust? (he is the one i am the most sure about)

Out of all the crows, he is the one that seems more connected to thier (in theory) initial emotion. Most of his inner monologue is disaproving, sure there are a lot of anger but that sort of vanishes when he turns against Jarl Brum, while in general he is very vocal when disliking something or someone to the point there´s one stance where he is not saying anything but the others can still say he is annoyed (aka,when Wylan calls him out for making him write the names)

The most important one,he starts driving himself by his disgust of the grisha but its disgust that actually makes him change his ways, how he is well,disgusted of what happens on the grisha trials.

-Jesper: Joy or Sadness

I actually don't want to use Joy because i actually have it for 4/6 crows but i need to be honest. While Jesper is a bit driven by fear, it was something impossed on him (aka, why not fear) . It´s complicated because tiny Jesper seemed to be a very happy kid until Aditi died. But i think i can make a case for sadness because a lot of his core is constantly worrying how he will be if he stops seeking for pleasure, as if he is avoiding a sense of emptyness. Joy is still a valid guess, his inner monologue does bring out some natural joy.

So. as you already read, the others will be an argument for Joy (sadly since i didn't want to repeat too much but i also don't want to force an argument for the sake of avoiding redundance)

Inej: Joy

Like Riley from the movie, Inej´s default as a child seemed to be actually being happy. Even if you think Inej only remembers those times specifically because they were happy times, that kind of settles down, those memories sort of work as core memories, which are, well, mostly of joy. Not too much to add here, if you bring the Inside out world in the GV you´ll find a lot of characters that probably had a complete change of how their mind work, after a traumatic event.

Kaz: Joy (maybe anger)

Similar to Inej, Kaz´s childhood is mostly centered on pre Jordie´s death moments, that seemed to be fueled by joy. Kaz pretty much brushes aside his father´s death,is told to be exited about meeting a street magician, happily playing with Saskia to the point of treasuring her ribbon. You can think of Kaz as someone who is at his core, mourning the loss of his joy. Anger can be a case too, but he only got it for Rollins, you can see it that after Jordie, his joy gave up and anger took over.

Wylan: Joy (maybe fear)

I honestly just put fear as an alternative because next to Matthias, Wylan was sort of the easiest one. The thing that gave it up to me is when he reflex he doesn't want to think like Kaz says he should (as if always scheming) he likes his own view of the world where he missed a few details because he was focussed on the pretty parts of the house they were going to break in. He has the less of povs and i would consider fear since most of his motivation is self preservation, but that small scene sort of convinced me on joy.

Also some counterpoints against fear: he actually entered his ship and the barrel with not too much fear until he was actually attacked, so this was something imposed instead of innate

[postsfromtheportalfuture]

Earthenby-notpromumordad to nextstephome

Thanks for your posts about Pro parents. As one myself - I'm already seeing one of my kids (professionally) drift away from me. Trying to continue sending supportive messages, trying to not lose them, but... On the bright side, one of my bio kids who went low/no contact has been sending me messages again, and has apparently actually told his partner about my existence! And explained why. Luckily, despite his partner being annoyed at the lie, recent newsie coverage has made it clear why, and they are still together. They don't have a lot of credits - he moved to the frontier - and previously my son told his partner I disaproved of that. I didn't, but it was the cover he used. Maybe I should be angry and hurt about the years I missed, but...they've decided to save up credits to come for a visit. I'm going to get to meet my grandkids!

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I, and all the ProParents out there, are very grateful for your posts in support of us. This is a trying time for us all - and if I'm honest, doesn't even seem real yet. I mean, Earth, part of Alpha Sector? Norms treating us like we exist?

There will be downsides, as you mentioned. We Proparents put everything into caring for our own kids and our adopted kids. We don't get to see them full time, but that doesn't mean we don't love and care for them. To have our kids abandon us for their 'true families' is heartbreaking, I won't pretend it isn't. But it's nice to know we have a community out there who supports us. Sorry, this turned into a bit of a ramble!

nextstephome:

Don't apologize for rambling! I always love getting asks like this. Just knowing that I was able to help make at least one person feel better is more than enough for me.

I'm so so happy for you that your son has gotten back in contact with you! I'm sure it doesn't erase all of the hurt between you, but it's definitely a start, especially knowing that they're planning to come visit you when they can!

I know it's heartbreaking to see your prokids start drifting away from you and you can tell me to nuke off if what I'm about to say is inappropriate, but this is how i think of it:

our current proparent system is broken, and it has been for a very long time. ten prokids for each proparent is just too many to be able to provide the kind of support that these children need.

i think it was wallamcranesarchnemesis who said it best in one of their posts a while back: "We have proparents, but they're only around for 2 hours a week, which means that while they're able to be there for the big things, the ones that we learn the most from actually tend to be the older children in our Homes/Next Steps...We are quite literally a society of children raising other children."

Please don't take this as me criticizing proparents or saying you're not doing enough! You're all massively overworked, and are being asked to do more than is humanly possible.

And as awful as it sounds to say this, those children who are pulling away from you are (hopefully) getting the kind of one-on-one support that a proparent can't provide them, and their absence means that you now have the time and resources to provide more support to your other kids who need you more now than ever. It means you can spend more time with your own families as well!

I know it doesn't make the hurt go away completely, but hopefully this perspective makes it a little easier to deal with?

Much love from me, and keep being amazing!

[rise-my-angel]

Defenses of Rhaegar are always like, "if you just ignore his in text, canonical actions which include abandoning his wife, that had almost died giving him a male heir after he put her through two back to back pregnancies, along with his two babies to be brutally slaughtered....and listen to the words of *checks notes* Jorah the Slaver, Dani, Viserys, Jon Con, Cersei, and Barristan Selmy (all of which either never knew him or were never in his inner circle) than he is a good guy."

Hmmm....it's almost as if GRRM only having the most delusional targ bootlickers that lie to themselves in their POVs and only speak of Rhaegar in the most vague terms being Rhaegar cheerleaders will be a plot point in the later books, should they ever be published lmao. None of these men can give actual examples of Rhaegar's supposed honor or goodness, just the most vague terms being used to describe him. This is basic reading comprehension, 'consider the source 101,' and a lot of the fandom failing concerns me. And even if GRRM intended Rhaegar to be a tragic hero....he has done a piss poor job at actually depicting that in the books, so I don't care. Martin can attempt to spin this however he wants, but readers are a lot more discerning than they were in the 90s.

Jorah didn't know him, Dany only knows what Viserys told her and Viserys was too young to know him, Cersei only remembers him in spite beacuse she had to end up marrying Robert.

Barristan doesn't speak badly about him, but he also takes his job seriously and doesn't even speak badly about Aerys when we know he disaproves of what he did. He seems to prefer to see better of people and he was a Kingsguard not a close friend.

JonCon is the closest we get but it's marred in purposeful subjective opinions. It's very likely he was to some degree, likely in love with Rhaegar and he remembers him in a way that we know is false. We know Rhaegar didn't care about him as much as JonCon still cares about him, but he's been dead for so long and JonCon feels guilt over being exiled and thus feels he failed to save his life. He has a very survivors guilt view of a man he was in love with and it's been so long that JonCon has tricked himself into thinking that his cope is just the truth now. He was never meant to be taken literally, he clearly speaks of Rhaegar from the point of view of someone like Robert does Lyanna.

Robert didn't really know Lyanna, but lost her in a way that was out of his control and thus has obsessions about her decades later that do not correlate with the truth. He feels like he knew Lyanna in a way that he never did, beacuse he feels a guilty loss over not being able to save her. JonCon views Rhaegar in the exact same way. He knew him better, but he clearly is seeing those memories through a lens of lost supressed romantic feelings and trauma of survivors guilt.

Rhaegar when he is brought up in the first book always feels like a blight. Something that correlates directly to trauma, especially with Ned as he only ever thinks of Rhaegar when he is in situations that he can directly connect to him, Robert, and espeically beacuse by that point Ned is struggling with traumatic flashbacks of his sisters death.

The only thing said about him they can quote is the brothels thing but they exclude massive context. That Ned is at a brothel, beacuse he is looking for Roberts bastard children. He thinks of Robert having so many bastards around the city due to his behavior, he correlates it to Lyanna and then it leads him to Rhaegar. Why? Beacuse Ned in my opinion, wonders if Rhaegar visited brothels a lot beacuse he is now wondering, are there more Jon Snow's out there? And he decides that is unlikely. He isn't trying to figure out if Rhaegar not sleeping around a lot was better for Lyanna as a pairing. He's trying to figure out whether or not there are other half Targaryean children out there that haven't been protected the way Ned has raised and protected Jon. He thinks of Robert, leading to Lyanna, leading to Rhaegar beacuse he is surrounded by this mystery of bastard children and it can all be tied into Ned having this innate fear of Jon's secret being found out and whether or not he could still protect his son should it all come out.

Ned doesn't even think badly about Aerys when talking about him despite what he did to his father and brother, and it's beacuse Ned simply internalizes a lot of grief and trauma. It's why being so plauged with flashbacks of Lyanna stands out to him beacuse he's long since developed the ability to push back such painful negative emotions for his own sanity. Something we see with Jon, who internalizes a lot of grief over losing his family so far out of his control.

I just hate that R+L=J has turned into a direct association of it as a love story, when that theory literally only states that Jon's mother is Lyanna by way of Rhaegar. It was never meant to be a theory that it was a love story, only a theory of direct identificaiton of Jon's true parantage. I do not beleive for a second that a character who one of the first things we learn about him, are that everyone beleives he kidnapped and raped Lyanna Stark was always meant to be a good morally upstanding guy.

Most characters who are intrinsically good, do not get introduced with the accusations of kidnapping and rape.

But gods be good maybe I wouldn't feel so strongly about the way they screech about Rhaegar, if they didn't obsessivly attack people who just want to talk with like minded anti Rhaegar people.

I hate Danaerys, but I'm not going onto pro Dany blogs to scream in their asks about how they are totally wrong. No, they prefer to come to me and get mad that they intentionally read a post they knew would make them mad.

If you like Rhaegar that's fine. I don't. And I shouldn't be accused of writing "fanfiction meta" just by stating general opinions of what I think of his canonical behavior.

Every Rhaegar stan are just JonCon's alt accounts, change my mind.

[momentomori24]

Chapter 4 of Rain Code somehow just really made me love Halara than I already do (which says a bunch cuz I love Halara. Like. A lot). They really fleshed out everyone here but I really want to start with them first.

They started off as a logical, cool and collected yet emotionally distant and cut throat individual with no regard for other's struggles and will only lend their aid when the pay is right. In Chapter 1 they literally rejected a poor little kid who's dad was falsely arrested because he (very obviously) didn't have 5 million shien ready and then claimed that those unable to prove their resolve might as well not exist to them. And as a slap in the face threw the ball that boy offered instead because it was his most important item over to Yuma, completely disregarding the sentimental value which came from the fact that he used said ball to play with his almost-as-good-as-dead dad before all that crap went down.

That coldness extends over to Yuma as well. They put him in debt in exchange for their help and up the price for the cake they bought and how much he made them wait. When he reached out his hand to them to activate his Coelescence, they state they have zero intentions of getting friendly with him before violently shutting him down by saying they despise him and the thought of their hands touching makes their skin crawl (that actually hurt btw). They don't just hate Yuma, they hate humanity in general, but surprisingly that didn't stop them from fulfilling their role of assistant in exchange for his payment. They're cold, but not cruel. Even though they expected payment for their services, they didn't press him to hand him the money right away. They didn't think much of Yuma outside of being a trainee, yet were willing to see his potential and put credit were credit is due. Even though they did most of the heavy-lifting during the investigation and figured out the crime before Yuma did, they set up the scene and brought forth the suspects to give him his time to shine. They literally come to the rescue every time he needs help, whether he called on them or not. And most importantly, even with their memories of the Mystery Labyrinth erased and them having no recollection of Yuma solving the case, they still acknowledged him as a detective and stated he should be proud of himself for trying as hard as he did. In Chapter 2, they even defended him against Desuhiko when he was coming at Yuma for not being a real detective, saying that they shouldn't don't descriminate and that he's also one of them. They warm up to him, from praising his decision to take the initiative even in the face of Yakou's disaproval to helping out the group free of cost and billing the expenses to the WDO instead in Chapter 4.

And CHAPTER 4, man. They truly grew as a person and that chapter shows that so well. They're still classic Halara for planning on charging Vivia for his laziness when they make their epic entrance to save the group and telling the peacekeepers that they'll be having their coin back, but honestly I wouldn't have them any other way. And while I loved seeing them kick ass with those legs of pure steel, my favourite scenes were when they were tending to Yakou when he was on death door.

They were trying to keep him alive for as long as possible for everyone's sake. It's those brief yet tense moments where we get to see Halara at their most desperate, where their cool-headed persona starts to crack. We finally see just how much they care about the others. The moment they realize something's off with Yakou they rush to his side to resuscitate him as best as they can. And the worst part is that Yakou was probably already gone at that point.

We heard his voice in the corridor when were conducting the investigation using Spectral Projection before we met with the others. And if that voice was truly his soul seperating from his body, then wouldn't that mean that Yakou was already dead for everything else that happened after? We know he was already dead before Yuma and Vivia got back; they confirmed that themselves. They probably noticed it around the time his heartbeat stopped.

If that's the case, then was Halara just appearing to resuscitate his body for that long? Just to not break Desuhiko and Fubuki's hearts? So that Vivia and Yuma get even the slimest chance of saying goodbye? It's such a complete 180 to how they were at the beginning. Had this been chapter 1, they would've broken the news as soon as they found out. They wouldn't have spent ages giving people hope for a dead person to come back because there's no logic to that-- and yet they do. Because they care about their friends. Where their kindness and support had once come at a cost and as obligatory as their cooperation had been, their relationship with the other detectives has at some point crossed over into genuine care and thoughtfulness over their wellbeing.

I just really love seeing how much they changed over the course of the chapters. They were definitely very selfish and cold and calculating at the start, but they're the furthest from it now-- and I love them for it.

[youroriginalsublimecupcakestuff]

Ranpo join sheep that the plot , thanks for coming to my ted talk.

( as for the timeline i switched it up a little)

But seriously fukuzawa hesitated too much to take in him after meeting ranpo in the cafe and was late in going back to him and goes back to his job .

Ranpo was left alone and no matter how much he tried he couldn't find a job and when he found one, he was always thrown out because he was too smart for his own good.

A bitter and desperate ranpo ended up in suribashi , surviving by doing odd jobs .

Chuuya met him when he was getting beat up by gangs in the area, he saved him but ranpo acted like a smartass which annoyed chuuya, their shooting match stopped when ranpo's stomach started rambling and chuuya gave him the red beans bun that he saved up.

This first encounter wasn't their last and chuuya ended up bringing him in sheep to shirase disaproval, ranpo questioned everything and critisized all their plans they feel like idiots with him.

What solidified chuuya and ranpo relationship is when he hear the others members of the sheep councils asking chuuya to throw ranpo out , he though that he will accept chuuya is very vocal that their his family after all and the both of them bicker most of the time, for him it just solidified his belief that he could trust no one but himself like fukuzawa taught him once, he was a fool to think that this time, it would be different.

So imagine how shocked he was just when he was about to leave when chuuya defended him and argued for him to peoples that he consider family.

It ended with both of them having a fight and a shooting match and ranpo's crying even if if you asked ranpo the last part was a lie and on this day an inseparable bond was formed.

As for fukuzawa he fell guilty for what happened with ranpo, he tried to save yosano but without ranpo he was too late and mori got to her first.

She's too well hidden, the only persons who can get to her was mori, his ability and his young apprentice even the port mafia boss and his executives don't know where she is.

Mori let dazai see Yosano for three reason :

1) even he can admit that he can't stop him if he want to see her.

2) at least dazai-kun is doing something else than pranking him and trying to satisfy his obssession with suicide.

3 ) and the most important reason he noticed that yosano-kun got her spirit back when she's with dazai-kun.

The two of them are siblings and are always together even if they have differents view which can cause fight like about life and death, their biggest fight where when she saw him shot someone multiple times even if he was dead, she couldn't accept when he can't respect life, which wasn't helped when he disrespected colonel death when he tell her about the opportunity to claim his executive seat which she took even worse than chuuya in canon but they we're a good team and dazai will use his silver tongue to get yosano to get out of her cage.

Fukuzawa fell even mori guilty that he couldn't save yosano, once again it was a child that he couldn't save, but he heard rumor about the bandaged kid who is always with mori and he was always determined to save him.

He met dazai when he was alone and while dazai didn't trust him , he will came back and never told of any of this to anyone especially not mori.

Fukuzawa founded the detective agency because even if he's aware that dazai don't trust him , he want him to know that they're a place for him when he'll always be welcome if he want to go out of the chain of the shadows and also because it remind him of the young boy that he failed.

While not joining him when dazai meet oda he trust him enough that instead of taking him to the port mafia to protect him , he ask fukuzawa to meet him to hire him to the detective agency that he told him about.

When he went to where he was espected to meet dazai, he didn't expect to find the infamous young assassin that he meet on the day that he met edogawa ranpo but he accepted this chance of redemption for them both vowing to himself that this time, he wouldn't fail.

Fukuzawa Yukuchi and Oda Sakunosuke founded the armed detective agency, and to dazai careful instigation who was aware how much Yosano was suffering here even if she found silver lining like in her friendship with kouyou and the flags and how much mori-san sickening obssession with her was causing trouble for her mental health refused to see his sister be broken for a second time, he'll rather gladly live forever that let that happen.

But despite fukuzawa, Oda and Yosano fierce disagreement dazai's stayed he was aware how suspicious and paranoiad mori became after the loss of Yosano and stayed for distracting him .

Meanwhile rumors have been known of the twin kings of sheep, one a terrifying genius who could predict everything just by looking at you once and the other with the devastating power to carry every retalation for those who wronged them, both being rumored of being in possession of powerful ability.

They became too dangerous to be left alone , add to that the rumors of the former port mafia boss ressurfacing in suribashi city who particulary interested Mori Ougai, both the port mafia and the armed detective agency went to investigate and needless to say, fukuzawa didn't expect to see Edogawa Ranpo side by side with the petite ginger haired boy.

It was obvious that he haven't forgotten him , Fukuzawa didn't miss the shocked and angry look on ranpo's face when he saw him.

Nakahara and ranpo made a formidable duo which he noticed even more when they helped with the investigation, which surprised them was also how dazai-kun acted around nakahara and how well ranpo and yosano got along.

But if he was sure of it's that no matter what happen he would not let not ranpo nor nakahara fall in with the port mafia.

When it was finished and after helping them and having a long talk with a furious ranpo, he made clear that the door of his agency will always be open to them .