#but I cant do that
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I keep thinking about you. The choice you made. And I want to hate you for it. I want to hate you so badly but I loved you, and I know you loved me too. You made sure I knew that in your last message. I know what you were thinking when you sent it, you didn't want me to blame myself and I dont because I understand so intrinsically why you did it. But I still want to hate you. My whole life I pictured my future, I was either dead or alone and I was ok with that. Until you. You made me picture a future where I was alive and loved and happy. And then you left. And now being alone doesn't feel ok anymore and you did that. I want to hate you but how can I when I understand you so clearly. If i was the one who owned the gun I know I'd do the same. We loved each other and it wasn't enough, now I have to live with that. I want to hate you
#i dont hate you i just wish i could have come with you#now i understand too intimately how it feels when someone u love leaves like that#i want to go with you#but i cant do that#not to the ones i still have#i cant make them feel this#vent post
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Thinking about Keres and his beautiful wife. My poor sad hexblood boy, a wreck of a man, doomed by the narrative, doomed by the actors and the setting and still so hopeful. He pines for his family, though in the same city hes invisible to them.
Art by @filibusterfrog
#crow squawks#oining for my dnd characters#i miss playing him so much#hes like a mid 40s dad who was trying his best to care for a kid that wasnt his#but she was a replacement for his family#he cant be with them as part of his hag pact#and even if he could they wouldnt recognise him#i miss dnd#i miss my friends#i wish I could go back to being friends with them#but I cant do that#its not possible#and also I dont want too#theyre not all good people#Spotify
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Hate this website why am i here
#scrolling scrolling scrolling#hate it all#so tired#so negative#i want to be mean so badly#snap at people and burn bridges#but i cant do that#thats not me
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convinced wuwa was put on this earth to give me the worst fomo of my life
#I JUST WANNA GIVE IT A CHANCE#ive heard mixed things on the story but like i want to go into it completely open#bUT I CANT DO THAT#BECAUSE THE DEVICES IN MY LIFE HATE ME#;sir this is my emotional support cringefail gacha game protagonist. (ooc)
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#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck#just scream cried into a pillow for the first time in a decade#i just picked my ex up from the airport#first time seeing her since we broke up since she was overseas when i did it#and now im kinda maybe regretting it?? idkkkkkkkkkk#so i repeat#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck me#she just had to show up after 18 hours on a plane looking absolutely gorgeous#and smiling at me like she used to like nothings happened#i just wanted to hug her for the next 93 hours straight#but.#thats selfish#because i still dont know if we could have a future together#and she still wants to see the world and travel but im kinda ready to settlw down a little#and i know if i asked her shed abandon all her plans and move to nz permanently l#but i cant do that#so#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck me#sorry for the rant#being single is so simple#was* simple
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Trying to watch something that's only available in it's original language with English Subtitles but ADHD & Dyslexia want you dead
#i rely so much on dubs because#trying to read English Subs makes me soo dizzy#ita bad#and i usually need to be doing something with my hands in order to watch anything#but i cant do that#if i have to read#i have to be in such a specific mood to be able to watch anything subbed#i hate it#anime#music#milligram#mdzs#mdzs donghua#donghua#fandom#english subbed#dyslexic#dyslexia#adhd#neruodivergent#neruodiversity
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i want to run away omg i dont wanna go to school tomorrow im genuinely so fucking sick my temperature is so hot and like ong my HEAD HURTS EVERYTHING HURTS I WAS SICK LIKE LAST MONTH AND I HAVE EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITIES TOMORROW BUT THEN MY AUNT KEEPS INSISTING I SHOULD GO TO SCHOOL I WANT TO CRY

i want to do the image above: RUN AWAY>3
#my head :(#ouch#i was sick like last month can this shit not omg#MY VOICE IS STILL SORE#i want to sing again :(#i want to sing so bad but then my voice omg#IM GONNA#CRY#MIGHT KMS#but i cant do that#twice needs streams#all of my favorite groups and artists#still need streams#i cant hold on but istg
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The problem is I'm fundamentally an unlikable person but I know how to make people think they like me. Like I know I'm manipulating people. I have no emotions I have no desires I still don't even think of myself by my name. I'm shambling through life and when I feel the surge of sadness come in I try to hang on and feel it. But it just fades away. And all I'm left with is that same emptiness.
#me#it sucks knowing whats wrong and why i keep fucking stuff up#and knowing that i cant do much about it right now#like its a waiting game#but i still just wanna off myself#because its one of the only things i know i can still do with my agency as a person#but i cant do that#im too much of a coward#i cant even say this shit to the people i ask to cinfide in me#its disrespectful to them and i hate that i csnt do it unless they ask#so everythings a cry for help#but none of it is either#because ill just lie to get out of the interaction#or their words fall on deaf ears and a still heart because no matter how vulnerable i get it doesnt matter#like theres nothing that pierces through me#i can let down the walls all i want#if youre stabbing into a gelatinous cube youre still not gonna get much except resistance
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💭 - Gojo @ Suguru >:)
Suguru groans with hint of palyfullness in his tone. "I understand your birthday is this week, Satoru--but do you really need to ask the entirety of Jujutsu High to praise you? -Fine. I will entertain you with my honest opinion once again. It's no trouble to me."
Suguru closes his hand into a loose fist, brings it close to his face, and clears his throat. Then, focuses his sight on an object near by as he spoke.
"Gojo Satoru is an arrogant, powerful, and obnoxious man. He is clever and has a habit of challenging traditions and thoughtfully upheld rules. He wants everyone to be at their strongest and doesn't understand why structures are in place to hold talented individuals from 'reaching their full potential.' His flirtatious and occasionally careless behavior puts him in a bind, filling my days with entertainment. There is never a boring day with him and he's a joy to have around. Gojo Satoru is my best friend and the apple of my eye."
Suguru glances at Gojo from the corner of his eye, then turns to face him. He asks, "Did I stroke your ego enough, Satoru?"
#i REALLY wanted to make this gay#and gross#like make it crack!#but i cant do that#maybe on discord#jjk rp#praeteritusmemories#answered
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https://youtu.be/r1Quk-mAA2I
comfort words from txt <3
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this video made me cry my eyes out in a way i haven't done in a while (/pos)
the hugs at the end </3 i completely lost it when tyunnie popped up to hug the camera, i paused and held my phone close to me for like 5 minutes before continuing
#this video healed part of me#their words are so incredibly comforting#and yeonjun#idk how he does it but he always has the best words and ways to comfort#i know yeonjun said that they wish moa love themselves more than they love txt#but i cant do that#and thats not a bad thing#i want to learn to love myself#but i know i'll always love them more#nicciresponds: moon 💗#niccirambles
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so like soobin 👍
#yea that sucked while it lasted#petty petty kaikai youre so petty#but i cant do that#i cant breathe the same air again because things have changed#but that doesnt mean im not ready to breathe this changed and unpredictable air#im just#idk i guess reminiscing somewhat? in some feeling where i thought i was satisfied#but was i really? i dont know#adding yet another marble to the collection i see kaikai#sigh sigh sigh
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'ao3 needs a like and dislike button'
what you need, my algorithm-rotten minded friend, is a grip
#ao3#archive of our own#what.do.you.MEAN#how do these takes still find me#HOW#'but I only want to read the good stuff' THAT MEANS DIFFERENT THINGS TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE#THERE ARE HIDDEN GEMS YOU WONT EVEN FIND#also you know what you TRULY want? fics recs it's called fic recs but hey cant have that if you dont read THE FUCKING FICS first#imagine thinking fanworks are uniquely for your consumption and products to be ranked on a scale#ANYWAY it just boggles the mind
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Did anyone tell Ford (bonus doodles: Family Movie Night, 70s Classics)
#DID ANYONE TELL HIM. DOES MR NERD KNOW THEY MADE LIVE ACTION LORD OF THE RINGS MOVIES#FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING CAME OUT IN 2001 DOES HE KNOW. HAS HE WATCHED THEM#more importantly the HOBBIT came out in december of 2012. meaning Ford came back JUST in time to watch it in theatres#which I choose to believe he and Dipper did do. I'm gonna draw that actually. Those nerds love Tolkien you cant tell me otherwise#stanford pines#ford pines#grunkle ford#dipper pines#mason pines#gravity falls#GF fanart#fan art#fanart#digital art#comic#silly#my art
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if i was a popular minecraft youtuber id just tweet "hey guys stop drawing shipping fanart of me and my friends/coworkers, i only fucked one of them and seeing me paired with anyone else is kinda weird and crosses my boundaries" and then i'd turn my phone off
#hermitcraft#qsmp#and a third server that i wont say the name of but you know#the bee speaks#if u cant stop weirdos from doing IRL shipping id just make it as horrible a process for them as possible
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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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the 'what if you played it a little risky' post literally Changed my life but i cant fujkign find it in my blog because its. a tiktok screenshot
#like literally every time ive hesitated sending a text or complimenting someone or stuff ive thought of it#like youre right. what if i played it a little risky what do i have to lose in doing a nice thing!!!!!! ur so right!!!!!!!!#but its forever lost cos i cant search it with any words cause its an image#misery and pain. you know how it is#my post
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