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just-spacetrash · 11 months ago

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the 'what if you played it a little risky' post literally Changed my life but i cant fujkign find it in my blog because its. a tiktok screenshot

#like literally every time ive hesitated sending a text or complimenting someone or stuff ive thought of it #like youre right. what if i played it a little risky what do i have to lose in doing a nice thing!!!!!! ur so right!!!!!!!!#but its forever lost cos i cant search it with any words cause its an image #misery and pain. you know how it is #my post

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badnew2005 · 2 years ago

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i’ve said it before and better but literally. clip show “now you’re infecting my memory with your memory, and i can’t even remember my own life correctly” . that’s what happens with roller rink. we Know of course that’s not what happened. it’s Them telling the story, there’s some element of they truly believe this happened, that’s how They remember it, but on some level they’re each aware this is all their fantasies. it’s like. remember when i was cool and nice and successful and you all liked me and yeah i do remember that of course i remember that. it’s warmer and softer. they’re almost fifty and still Stuck. it would hurt too much. they were always destined to end up like this. but remember when we weren’t. it was some cruel twist of fate that made us like that do you remember. i remember! life was Good. we both know it wasn’t. and we both know it isn’t now. but that’s what memories do, you can twist them into something more comfortable. something that fits with your current narrative. “you can’t do this. every time you misremember something you like run the risk of altering reality …. i’m saying like how you remember something sort of like, becomes reality …. no it doesn’t change reality. reality is reality i’m just saying it becomes your reality” so let’s make this our reality. let’s play pretend.

#i looooooooove making excuses for rcg #like they’re tv geniuses but they’re NOT they’re stupid they’re annoying they’re just some guys . but like . they’re geniuses #ALSO episode shows how In The Sunny Universe reality and fantasy are interchangeable #this is alsooooooo making me think ab srar. my first born album. soooooo many ties to the gang. misery and pain and loneliness . you can’t #admit it and Everyone Knows BUT YOU CANT ADMIT IR . you can’t admit this is where you are in life . because why the fuck are you Still Here #that’s the gang !!!!!#an album about grief too #rat a tat …… oh ur SO gang coded #iasip #the gang does a clip show #the gang buys a roller rink

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thedeerman · 4 months ago

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guys i’ve written so much angst and sadness for this fucking story arc i’m so ready to write fluff again 😭 i literally have lists of shit i’m gonna include and romantic ass fucking quotes and shit, y’all better be ready for radioapple romance cause as soon as shit finishes hitting the fan you’re gonna fuckin get it 😤

#do you want to know #dywtk #mine #radioapple #hazbin fanfic #i low key hate how fucking long this arc got #literally like ten fucking chapters of misery all around #i swear tho there’s reasons #not just making people in pain i’m setting up so many important fucking plot points y’all have no clue #it’s just that i have to hurt you all and also my own emotions in order to do it #i don’t make the rules i’m sorry #talk to fanfic corporate

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mad-hunts · 5 months ago

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have i ever talked about how barton is genuinely jealous of people who seem happy because he feels so hollow a majority of the time that even when he's 'happy,' he's not really happy? because i just 😭 yeah...

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#yeahhh i'm hitting y'all with the angst now because although i could EASILY talk about how horrible barton is for a while...#he knows that he's horrible and he feels like a monster who exists on the outside of everything that is 'warm' and 'good' sometimes #and although it doesn't haunt barton as NEARLY as much as it should be he does sometimes spend days on end just. In bed and crying #because he feels like he physically CAN'T be normal like everyone else and that he has deserved every terrible thing that has happened-#to him because it he legitimately believes it was too late for him since the beginning. that merely born as part of the mathis family-#had pegged him for misery and causing people pain because that's what his father did as well as his father's father and likely-#even further back. and i just... UGH i am of course allowed to feel sympathy for a fictional character at times but it's such a double-edged #sword with some because even barton has these moments where he is not so bad and maybe even does something kind by another-#person you know? but he is self-destructive and sabotages his relationships + his anger is just. out of control and it's kind of sad #but also like... if you want something to change then you've got to do it for yourself. i don't think barton as a character right now KNOWS-#how to change though and that is honestly tragic in and of itself

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seilon · 8 months ago

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I wish I could tell every young person with a uterus (especially with bad cramps and/or dysphoria and/or depression, etc) that there is a decent chance they just straight up don’t need to live with that. don’t let the stigma surrounding contraceptives and the expectation that you should just ride it out and suffer win. for the love of god if there’s a chance you can lighten or even stop your period and it’s symptoms all-together, unless there’s a legit health concern, your doctor should at least make you aware of that option. I want every young person to know that “birth control” is not just for birth control and it has the potential to make your life infinitely easier to live. do not give in to anti-pill propaganda im serious

#kibumblabs #I remember being in late high school and my doctor suggesting it because of how terrible my dysphoria/related depressive episodes related to #menstrual cycle shit is. and like. im not saying it was a flawless transition but good god im serious it changed my fucking life #not to the extent testosterone would but it was still like. a Big Deal #because I was like. what the fuck. I’ve been suffering through this shit for years. and no one told me this was a thing? we’re all just #expected to suffer? because it’s ‘Normal’????#this whole time I could just. turn the bleeding off. or at least Down. turn off the debilitating breast soreness and swelling. etc.#anyway im not sure why im thinking about this but #i guess every time i hear someone (without any known health issues that’d interfere) like ah time for my monthly Week Of Pain And Misery #i want to shake them by the shoulders like. YOU DONT NEED TO LIVE LIKE THIS. PLEASE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE AWARE OF THIS.#and yes i know it doesn’t work for everyone or sometimes there’s side effects that make it not worth it or what have you #but for a huge huge huge amount of people. they just don’t know it’s an option. because it’s labelled Birth Control. and because there’s #this long-standing quiet fear mongering about it that makes it seem more dangerous and sinister and promiscuous than it is #similar in a lot of ways to other stigmatized hormone treatments. like. well. you know #doesn’t help that when you first get your prescription it comes with the worlds biggest list of Potential Issues (most of which are either #minor temporary or unlikely)#grahhghhhhhhhhh anyway. on a seperate but related note shout out to my fellow tboys who either didn’t have their periods totally stop on t #or (like in my case) they came back after like Years for whatever reason and that had to be dealt with via supplementary contraceptives #cw menstruation

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reikunrei · 2 years ago

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sorry to be a sicko freak, but if they do something like have the rest (or some) of our main crew have their own vecna visions, I kind of really really want some aspect of will’s and/or mike’s to be like. either warped memories or just false visions where they’re especially homophobic and nasty to each other. I want one of them to have a vision that starts off maybe kind of sort of like a confession, and then turns into the other being totally disgusted. I want that horrible dread and fear of being rejected for who you love to be front and center. because oh how good would it be for them to have to face that fear and internalized shame and fight against it, assuring each other that the hatred is all a lie

#I love seeing pain and misery knowing that it’s all going to be okay!!!!!#at first this was just a desire I had for will #but MAN how fucking good would it be for mike as a way to rub salt in the wound that is his internalized homophobia #and to then have will be like no it’s ok listen I don’t hate you. I’m the same #THIS KILLS THE MAN (me)#I say things #stranger things #mostly I just want them to be cut and dry about it #bc like. it’s obvious that will is in love w mike and vice versa #but. come on. give me a ‘steve….’ ‘OH’ moment w them please for the love of GOD #mike wheeler #will byers

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g0ddyke · 2 months ago

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listen i'm gonna be real for a minute and just say that, just because You can't imagine living a fulfilling life in my position doesn't mean it isn't possible, and maybe you should keep how Unbearable you think My reality would be to your fucking self.

#goddyke #aroace #but also #plurality #and also #fibromyalgia #and also since y'all don't know how to fucking behave about masculinity and manhood #ftm #like yeah a lot of this shit sucks. some of it took a long time to figure out.#fibro specifically is something i'm going to be struggling with and grieving for a long time.#but that doesn't mean my life is nothing but pain and misery.#all of this is just part of who i am and its something i'm learning to navigate.#none of this means that my life is unbearable or doomed to Be unbearable.#even as a traumagenic system btw. since y'all Also don't know how to act.#i refuse to define myself by my suffering and frankly so should you !

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anaalnathrakhs · 8 months ago

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i keep fucking remembering when i was talking with my mom that family reunions were very difficult for me and it would be a huge relief when i move out and far away to not have to be present anymore (like ofc i was mincing my words, but i said verbatim it would be way more comfortable for me to not be there anymore) and she was like :) oh dear you'll always gonna be invited :) you're always going to have your place :) FUCKING ASSHOLE

#I DO NOT WANT A PLACE AMONG YOU #KICK ME OUT #OSTRACIZE ME #I DONT WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH YOUR STUPID SHIT #WE'RE NOT COMPATIBLE ITS OKAY I KNOW IM DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH #STOP TRYING TO ACT LIKE IT'S GONNA WORK LIKE A CHARM #WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO KNOW IM ALWAYS EXPECTED AT INCREDIBLY PAINFUL EVENTS I ALREADY FEEL OBLIGATED TO ATTEND #i can mimic everybody else now arent you happy? aren't you happy enough?#why would you want me to keep coming home to experience intense psychic damage for eight hours #I TOLD YOU THIS IS HOW I FEEL WHY DO YOU NOT TAKE THAT INTO ACCOUNT #broadcasting my misery #vent #this is an irrational emotional reaction etc etc i do not believe my mom is out to get me or smth

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bidokja · 1 year ago

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so like. was anyone. was anyone gonna warn me that. the "baekyeon and haero" chapters in mystic prince would just. rip my heart directly out of my chest. and then shred it into pieces right in front of me. was anyone gonna warn me. was anyone gonna-

#i need you all to Hear how broken i am and how i gradually sound more frantic throughout this post #i know i am prone to hyperbole but i am being so real with yall when i say the tears have literally not stopped #even as i type this #AND LIKE. YOU KNOW GOING IN THAT THIS DOESNT END HAPPILY. YOU ALREADY KNOW!!!#and knowing does as much to stop the pain as a piece of paper does to stop a deluge #jesus. CHRIST. holy SHIT #AND I READ IT WITH THE SOUNDTRACK. WHICH MADE IT JUST. 10x WORSE CAUSE ITS PERFECTLY TIMED.#EVERY TIME THERES A SHIFT IN THE MUSIC YOU REACH A MAJOR BEAT/CHANGE IN THE CHAPTER ITS SOOO PERFECT #GOD #PAIN. AGONY. ETERNAL MISERY.#ooohhh goddd #im literally never recovering from this #i have never encountered a more painful and beautifully executed example of dramatic irony. shakespeare take NOTES #im never gonna be able to go back and re-read this series #cause every time i see the emperor smile i'll just fucking. Explode. and die. and cry and sob. in that order.#mystic prince #beso babbles

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termagax · 9 months ago

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like i think to fish theyre just both people who shouldve died a long time ago and now they arent allowed to. because they need each other. and they both crave that and resent it.

#they WANT to be so important to him that he would fall apart without then AND they resent that they cant fall apart without hurting him #they were having a perfectly decent apathetic slide into eternal misery and then he had to go and ruin it with love. whatever.#like they want to be this essential part of his life because they loooove having that power over him they really really do #and theyre mean about it too. but like. they dont like that it goes both ways #they dont like being looked after or cared about because they get too used to it and they feel themselves falling in love w him again and #they run away. and eventually they come back or he comes back to them. and they tell themselves its just transactional like #they have something he needs and he has something they want #animal sir chloe style #but just like that its like. its NOT that. they need him so fucking bad and they feel better when hes around even when they hate his ass #and espeically after they start 'working' for jr with him its like. they really really love him so bad and they hate it.#these stupid assholes making them feel alive again. making them feel FEEELINGS. liek a PERSON. eugh #and i think they hate how scared they get when something happens to roadhog. theyre supposed to know better than that basically #they feel like needing him is vulnerable because it opens the door for him to hurt them again which is why they so enjoy being the one in #control + being the one who leaves #and the one who lashes out and ect ect. but they cant help themself and they hate hirself for it. so like. well the only solution is that #you shouldve killed yourself two decades ago so i couldve wasted away mad at you like i was supposed to and wed be done with it.#fishs got a case of wanting to die in such a way where they wont take any active steps to get there #but they resent being alive and they resent every minute of pain they endure by being alive. hence the very sex booze violence lifestyle #but the frustrating thing about him is that they. most of the time. like being alive with him. so they have to endure more #more pain and heartache and frustration. and they dont want to but they cant do anything else. they cant even leave again at this point #anyways. my fishy #🐟#they have every disease

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9th-nueves · 2 years ago

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@indigo-constellation DUDE a haruspex route utopian ending fic sounds SICK AS HELL. Please do share if you end up posting it! That one is a truly unexplored concept in the fandom but god if it isnt one of the most interesting

#sorry if this isnt the proper way to answer to tags i dont really know how you are meant to...?#Just the pain and misery that could be inflicted <- you get me chief

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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not to be a pain-crazed wild animal. i KNOW i do this every time. but p*riods are so fucking crazy. like my cr*mps are so bad my body is trying to strangle itself but im awake and i need to be at work in 2 hrs and get thru an entire 9 hr workday as if im not in excruciating pain and im gonna bring my heating pad and my p*in r*lief cr*am if you catch my drift (💀) and i’ll need to use them DURING a busy day in which i will not see any other ppl who get periods in person and using them is gonna be a whole awkward thing. like omg. this is not fucking normal lol

#purrs #it is normal obviously. but it’s SO fucking frustrating like omfg the amount of time i lose every single month to being in pain like this #FOR NO REASON and like half the global population has to deal w that and it’s like it’s nothing. idk. despair and suffering and misery #delete later #menstruation tw #the thing that really gets me abt it is how my mom (ik i said i would stop complaining abt her on here but we have been fighting all month #LOL so im giving myself permission) gets so fucking pissed at me and my sister when we’re in too much pain to do chores bc she thinks we’re #being lazy / making excuses and then she compares us to o it brother like.. omg um YOU should know how painful this can be first of all and #second of all why would you even make that comparison when he doesn’t lose a third of his life to his body trying to tear itself apart! lol!#and yes i could work from home or calll out sick but consider: i am mentally illabout not being at work. which * is gonna be on my ass abt w #when they hear me say that bc i know im gonna make a whole awkward big deal abt my heating pad. UGHHHHH embarrassing lmaooooo #like why do people have REGULAR B*DILY F*NCTIONS!!!!! REGULAR!!!!!!! that REGULARLY put them in this amount of pain and we have to just deal #with that like it’s nothing and be discreet about and whatever. ew i sound like um… someone who cares too much abt stuff like this lol but I #im so mad abt it rn like oh my GOD can the pain just not be part of it can we just evolve to get rid of that or put structures in place in a #society for ppl to be more accepting / supporting / whatever of it. please please please please please #(also goes for more than just p*riods btw. like imagine if as a society we had things in place for ppl who are regularly in #chronic pain of any kind 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 what a world that would be 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 wow i sure hope it happens in my lifetime 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍)

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 2 years ago

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if anyone needs me i will be rewatching trigun 98 and tristamp over and over until my brain explodes

#had a bad time in therapy today sigh #first time i cried in front of the new therapist wooooooooo #and we havent even started talking about the painful stuff yet. how tf am i gonna handle that #(spoiler: im not <3 we dont have to talk abt it if i never bring it up)#also being. slammed with nostalgia (/neg) and i cannot get rid of it and it fucking sucks #got a. bad taste in my mouth. from like. everything rn #anyway. if anyone needs me i will be bolting myself into a shitty tin can and sending myself to the bottom of the sea.#not to see the titanic bc im not dumb and full of hubris. but just like. in general #im down there now. i want to fucking explode #sorry bad joke <3 i wanna kms so bad. i wanna wake up tomorrow and be in a universe that is Not This One #aaughrggghrghr. im angry and j dont know what im angry at . i wanna. fling myself into space #so instead i will watch trigun and if i start posting about max in the next day or so well can you blame me.#i hope someone draws him for artfight. specifically. hes rlly cool #i have his page uploaded already but im sooooo bad at making descriptions #oh fuck i also learned how to fucking tag things on artfight now omg. i didnt know that was a thing.#how did i do three years of this shit and not TAG anything. what the fuck #anyway. wish i was a guy covered in blood rn. maybe i should watch hannibal instead #is it time to bring out ol reliable and watch the stab scene from mizumono on a loop again #and perhaps i will listen to sodikken misery meat and people eater. idk. spice it up a little #girls when they say they want to be held: screenshot of the way hannibal holds wills face before gutting him like a fish #im feeling rlly normal rn if you cant tell

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fridayyy-13th · 4 months ago

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i had so many things to do today, but i only wound up doing two. the two simplest things on the list, in fact. putting tabs on my sheet music and writing dates in my planner. no actual homework. (or more accurately, late work.) now a week of three classes' worth of work all has to be done tomorrow, and i already made plans with my friend for that afternoon. it's 1:32 in the morning. what am i doing anymore.

#friday chats #friday vs post-secondary school #tw vent #one of my assignments not actually due monday (from a t/th class) is to write a poem using a technique in one of several poems showed to us #had to pick a poem and technique in class; i hadn't read the textbook excerpt so i picked a poem and talked right out of my ass #i wonder if i could use extensive personification and allusions to human society to describe the mess that is my brain #something something a city with horrible infrastructure where traffic sucks and it's hard to even get from place to place. or something.#bc Good Fucking God #this time around i've been honest about the fact i'm behind when people ask how i'm doing #i thought maybe if i were open for once instead of fibbing that i was on top of everything i'd be met with assistance #but i've just gotten hollow ''oh you'll be okay! you'll catch right back up''s #(y'all online have been lovely. i'm talking about my family)#for God's sake i want HELP. ADVICE. ANYTHING but platitudes #i don't know how to make myself DO this #literally the fucking meme of the drowning person reaching for help and receiving a high five for their troubles #...i need to go to bed. i'm gonna do that. maybe i'll feel less like a sack of pain and misery in the morning.#in the meantime if y'all have any advice for combating still-trying-to-find-the-right-medication-dosage ADHD pls share it #i'm fighting for my life rn. and losing. badly #(though kind words would be nice too i won't lie. it's just the way my family says them makes it sound like they aren't really listening)#or you could just scroll past this post idk. do what you want. it's your dashboard

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puppmeo · 5 months ago

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And the cycle begins anew . As it does every week

#vent continued in tags sorry gang #every fucking monday ma ends up pissed and yelling about SOMETHING #sorry that im taking the meds that actually help and im not miserable and in pain all the time and throwing up all the time and i didn't #hear the baby making a mess at four in the morning . shocker that the meds that knock me out would prevent me from waking up to hear that #and its not like i can even be upset that she's mad . i was mad . i am mad . i did my best to clean it up #and its not like he only got into her shit. he got into my shit too. he ruined and wasted my stuff too.#when he was able to get into my room and destroy things all the time it was always “dont act like that #he doesn't understand . you cant be mad at him #why would you leave it out if you didn't want it destroyed“ as if i had any other fucking option #maybe if i didn't have fuckin . 8 sheets of drywall (?)#two metal floor vents and a fucking DOOR just sitting in my room i'd have space fo put my stuff and i wouldn't bitch about it #he doesn't get into my room anymore because i have a lock that i have to carry the key for around 24/7 #but i do myfucking best to keep him from getting into shit but i CANT DO THAT ALL THE TIME #ESPECIALLY NOT AT FOUR IN THE MORNING WHEN HE IS ACTIVELY BEING SNEAKY AND IM SO KNOCKED OUT I COULD WOULD AND HAVE SLEPT THROUGH TORNADO #SIRENS . SHOCKER THAT HES ABLE TO DESTROY SHIT WHEN IM IN SUCH A STATE . WHO COULD'VE PREDICTED THIS .#im trapped here i can never fucking leave jesus christ #i can never leave. what the hell am i gonna do #i cant do this for the rest of my life . i want to move away so bad but i cant even do that #im too disabled to work like i need to to support myself i cant move to another state but its the only way i'd be able to escape this #unless i move to fuckin . chicago or some shit #god i hate it here i hate myself for not being able to handle it and being upset and being dramatic about it all #and i hate myself for being so tired of it because i dont have any excuse and i hate myself for being so upset that im not able to have #a social life and being jealous of my younger coworkers that talk about hanging out with their friends or like . goin to the fucking park #on a weekday and not being constantly messaged about how bad their baby brother is and how they need to come home asap and #how they aren't wrecked by the guilt of being out even on the weekends and i hate that im so jealous of them #and i hate how embarrassing it is that im the only one of my coworkers who doesn't get asked what they're doing on weekdays anymore because #everybody knows exactly what im doing. im staying at home watching the baby #and i hate how humiliated i am every time one of my friends cancels plans last minute and i hate that i lie to my ma about why plans change #god that got long and obnoxious . sorry gang (me rereading my tags later)#puppmeo misery

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northgazaupdates · 23 days ago

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Little Joan needs surgery!!!

Joan Al-Habil is has been repeatedly hospitalized due to severe gastrointestinal problems and overwhelming fatigue. This poor girl has been to multiple facilities and seen multiple doctors, undergone extensive testing (as extensive as is possible in Gaza’s collapsed medical system), even having to endure an unsedated endoscopy, which I know from personal experience is extremely uncomfortable.

She has now been diagnosed with severe gastritis due to starvation and hazardous living conditions. Remember, she and her family are living on the streets, which are cold and wet due to winter rain. Homelessness, stress, exposure to the elements, her previous injury when the IOF firebombed her tent, and malnutrition all conspire to sap little Joan of her strength.

Her condition is so serious that she now requires surgery. Gastritis very rarely requires surgery to treat, so this is an indication of how dire her situation is. In addition to surgery, she is going to need treatment to manage her symptoms.

The cost of this is very very high. One consultation alone cost $650 USD. Joan’s family is going to need your support to pay for her treatment.

Please, this little girl is in so much pain and misery. Her parents are watching her waste away as her condition worsens daily.

You can help Joan get her surgery and treatment ASAP! Her parents Maha @mahafamily and Ahmed @ahmed-family-1 recreated their GFM after their previous campaign was arbitrarily terminated. You can share this campaign by copy-pasting this link (https://gofund.me/85a1b400) in your own Tumblr posts and all across your social media accounts.

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