#but FUCK it hurts and I am bored

[samuraisharkie]

bored but in incredible wrist pain. I want to do things with my hands but doing things with my hands HURTS I am so under-stimulated

[luobingmeis]

my jgy thoughts have been expanding and adapting and roiling and toiling etc etc etc and all of it is coming down to me affectionately marveling at this character. he’s cut-throat. he’s cunning. his kindness leaves lasting impressions. his mercy is what predates his demise. he’s one of the few cultivators who helps those in need. he will sacrifice them if it benefits him. he loved. it didn’t last. it killed him. it orchestrated his downfall. he’s a genius. he’s paranoid. he compartmentalizes. he splits the world into who he would sacrifice and who he would not. people he loves and people he would sacrifice are not mutually exclusive. he’s filial to a fault. it was all for his mother. he is a study in assimilating to survive. the results vary. he manipulates the herd mentality to his benefit. it is turned against him. he is killed for the one thing he didn’t do by the one person he wouldn’t sacrifice. it is still somehow better than what the hive-mind cultivation world would have done. i love this tragic kaleidoscope of a character.

[abelas]

datv thoughts. mainly me bitching 😮‍💨

anyone else feel like datv’s companions were shallow and a lot of elements of them and the game were sanitized orrrrr

[six-of-cringe]

"haha wylan walks in on jesper kissing the wrong guy" yes funny but moving on, have you ever wondered why Wylan was up there in the first place. Because the last he'd seen of Jesper was him being yelled at by Colm to explain what was going on or Colm would "tan your hide so bad you won't be able to sit down for two weeks". Everyone else finds Jesper getting full government-named very funny, but to Wylan this threat would not seem empty - that is just what happens when sons make mistakes. Consider that he wanted to check on Jesper, to see if he was alright, because though it's not really addressed directly, the story gives us several moments of Wylan not trusting Colm and trying to "protect" Jesper from him. Wylan had been isolated to the point where he only knew one father-son relationship, or even one relationship at all, which was between him and Van Eck. Why would he trust Colm? Maybe he just wandered into the room for a silly plot convenience, but I think he was there to assess the damage and be there for Jesper in case the thing that happens between fathers and their sons happened to him.

[cure-stars]

see, even though i kept singing, i was still crying alone

in the music festival where i danced frantically

are the sounds reaching your ears? lomia, lomia!

i fell in an almost magical love with a sound,

which i had finally met after years of separation,

and i didn't even notice. 🌹

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

[antiadvil]

i'm asking purely out of curiosity, not judging at all! if you already expected flashing lights like at their previous shows, what made you decide to go to the tour anyway? was it the prospect of meeting them?

a few things:

I have tried 3 new migraine preventatives since I bought tickets on June 28th. One I had to stop because of the side effects, one made my migraines WORSE somehow, and one I'm still on and am reasonably happy with because it reduced the severity of my migraines somewhat (though did nothing for the frequency since I'm still having a status migraine) and didn't have any major side effects. I hope to try another before my show in November. Of course I don't know yet if it will work, but I should qualify for far more effective treatment now that I've failed so many other medications. I've known since, like, January, that my migraines are severe and difficult to treat, even for status migraines. But I have/had 4 full months between buying my tickets and going to my show. That's a lot of time. I did not expect to be cured by now. I have never expected to be cured. I know that migraine is incurable. But I had no way of knowing what my health would be like now. I still have no way of knowing what my health will be like in 2 months. It could be a lot better. It could be worse, though I think that's unlikely. This is the fundamental nature of a recently diagnosed and poorly controlled health issue. The next drug you try might work incredibly well. Or it might be awful and you're left waiting another month and a half before you can see your doctor again.

I'm a really big fan. Obviously. I think many people who are really big fans of Dan and Phil would still go to tit if it gave them a migraine. Many people willingly go out drinking with their friends even though they know it might give them a hangover later. It's really not that weird.

In Dan's tweet he said their flash effects are typical of stage shows. This is true! Even if this was just a question of me wanting to leave the house and see a show (which i want to do so bad i'm so bored), it's not easy to find another show I can go to instead that won't have flashing lights. I can't even go outside without seeing flashing lights. They're fucking everywhere. I have made the brave yet controversial decision not to remove myself from public life about it!

My head is going to hurt anyway. Am I really not allowed to have any fun, too??

[chaosinstigator]

100% chance of safety car… bitch where

[consolecadet]

OT used a Graston tool on my forearm and I feel noticeably better. Didn't realize I was having so much consistent pain from tennis elbow...I thought it was just happening when I gripped things or picked them up, but, uh, no, it was/is also constant if mild

[foreverxdaydreaming]

x

[tamagotchikgs]

i hate when i can feel things affecting me but i dont know what to do about it. i dont know what to use 2 counter it

[joyousscamperer]

EPISODE WAS FIRE jonathan ames is the perfect character he's so extremely pathetic and beautiful I'd like to put him into a hamster cage and feed him carrots.

hey also if I asked for this haircut knowing damn well that I have the slouch of the century would it be social suicide usually I keep it shaggy to hide my horrendous posture.......

[mejomonster]

Im watching Only Friends and We Are like back to back and. Wildly different college friend groups

Imagine ur in Peems friend group (ur like Toey or someone) and u go to the Yolo bar, and run into Boston and Top and Ray and u watch that fucking speech Ray gives absolutely roasting the fuck out of his friend's relationships and u make a mental note 'do not Ever bring my lover to this bar'

Dhdhhf

Like I love both shows. And I think theyre both somewhat true to life just like, very different viewpoints as theyre true to life. And depicting very different people (with some overlap). And of course, We Are is going for low stakes comfort slice of life genre, while Only Friends is going for dense analysis of friends in the hookup scene.

[nightmare8-420]

i feel like a part of my soul has been ripped from my chest and i dont know why.

[pinehutch]

In 2018 I fell down some stairs and severely sprained my right ankle and moderately sprained the left one. Didn't rest long enough . Physio. Recovery took a long time and only ever got me back to maybe 80%? I walked less.

Eleven months later, in 2019, I fell down the same stairs (I was going out to buy some shoes with more ankle support obviously) and severely sprained my left ankle and moderately sprained the right one. More physio, eventually. But I walked less.

Nine months later it was March 2020 and we were in first lockdown for ages. I didn't leave my town at all until the next October. I was afraid of crossing paths with people in parks. My immunocompromised (RA) ass hardly went into the office at all for the better part of three years. I walked less.

Last February, I started a sick leave because my mental health was the worst it's ever been in my life. I spent days and days crying. I had to trick myself into eating with prepared foods and snacks. I slept not at all or, after a change in meds, for 16+ hours per day. Needless to say, I walked very little indeed. I started a gradual return to work in June, half days from home.

Last August, I had a super enormous arthritis flare and my knees, especially the left one but actually both of them, were fucked. I couldn't walk without a crutch or cane for several months, and when I say "walk" I mean "even for just a few feet." I walked less.

I've been diligent with physio this time and I can walk for about five minutes without a cane. But the factors that made me extra sedentary all fall and winter, combined with a desk job, mean that my legs and hip muscles are all fucked up. The piriformis is my enemy. I just got a Charley horse so bad that I yelled; I was lying in bed on my stomach, gently flexing my legs at the knee. This is after massage therapy this afternoon and a muscle relaxer before bed.

So anyway it's actually kind of horrifying to watch yourself become progressively more disabled from the feet up over such a long period of time that you forget what it was like before that. It's worrisome that first ankles then knees and now hips and nothing has recovered all the way.

And the weirdest part is that I'm generally feeling better than I have in well over a year. Which means, I think, that 2024 is the year of. pine's incredibly gradual training montage.

[system-of-a-feather]

Oh wow an actual XIV 2.0 Pisser rather than me reverting to XIV 1.0 mindspace for a Pisser, that's new /s

God damn though I forgot how fucking unbearable these states are. It's so fucking hard to enjoy "peace" boredom when you are a part so charged to dominate and destroy. Shit makes my brain feel like its fucking rotting. Ugh.