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Found this bougie ass cardigan at the thrift shop that I'm about to make my entire personality
#bougie old lady ass cardigan#that's now my bougie witch ass cardigan#this#is the kind of thing i dreamed about wearing#when i was a young child#building my entire personality#around Clarissa Explains It All outfits#the best part?#besides it existing#and in my size#is that this isn't just an esthetically bougie cardigan#it is actually bougie#a mix of mostly natural wools in the sweater part#and those scarf sleeves?#100% silk#and it was $7#like damn
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if you’re ever in the position to choose between giving up and accepting defeat, and actually trying to fight the ancient unkillable god that is about to peel apart reality like a string cheese, remember this: scientifically speaking, you might as well give it a shot!
1.there were trees at the beginning of the world! there were trees so long ago that they predate bacteria that causes wood to decay. when a tree fell, it would lie there in stasis and there wasn’t any way of breaking down wood xylem on a molecular level in that way.
2. it seems obvious to say, but wood eating bacteria are literally incapable of comprehending what they’re breaking down. It’s just not information conciously available to a microorganism. they don’t know what they’re deconstructing, where it came from, bacteria have no way to even fathom the existence of a tree as a concept.
3. Regardless of the facts above, the world we live in today is a world where wood inevitably decomposes
it is worth fighting the unkillable god no matter how pointless it seems. it is worth taking the risk even though youre trying to accomplish something impossible. the reality in which you live was also once reality in which trees didn’t rot. You live in a reality that allows for existence before the possibility of destruction. you live in a reality where uncomprehending microbes break down matter that is so far beyond the scope of their comprehension that it feels comical to specify something so obvious. you live in a reality that occasionally allows unshakeable physical truths to be altered with no warning.
It is worth fighting the unkillable god because trees are so old they predate the source of their destruction, and it still did not spare them. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because bacteria rots unthinkingly, because there is room in our cosmos for destruction without comprehension on the part of the destroyer. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because now and then reality retracts the promise of immortality without fanfare, and when that happens there is no mercy for the ancient. the unmaking is not softer for the desecrators ignorance. for all things, existence is endless until the exact point where it ends.
so you might as well try to kill the unkillable god. it doesn’t seem likely, but at the beginning of the world, trees didn’t rot. so you never know! you never know
#bazinga!#I’ve been meaning to add these tags for a minute but it was too funny to keep the original line bazinga tag#if you see this i would appreciate this post not be tagged as wornld building#and if you want to use this concept in your D&D campaign#you don’t need to show this post or anything#but if you would please mention after the plot line ends that the original post was written all at once in a pretty desperate state#i thought about ginkgo trees while walking my dog late that night#and when i found myself hopeless and completely alone at midnight#I opened tumblr and talked to myself#and hit post#and went to bed#then it got 2000 notes and i woke up to the realization that the entire time I had said bacteria#when i fully meant fungus#fuck!!!#u don’t need to say all that just please include the context that this is a very personal post#thank u!#I’m not mad it’s not obvious from the post that i was ranting into the void
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Sometimes our emotions get the better of us. You can say that again.
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#cafeteria scenes my beloved 🥺💖#another day waking up reeling at the thought of meeting a person unconditionally accepting of your entire past present and future#and becoming someone who seeks growth from wanting to offer that back to build an equal partnership for the first time!#the way mobius openly likes and accepts all the things about loki everyone else tried to hide or push down oh i'm so emo ;;;;;#maybe i'm overdoing my emoji use while giffing them this season BUT they haven't looked at each other with anything except heart eyes so#take it up with them and their choices 😂#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#loki s2 spoilers#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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I’m with you, my love The lights shining through on you Yes, I’m with you, my love It’s the morning and just we two
#spike btvs#spuffy#spuffyedit#btvs#btvsedit#buffy the vampire slayer#it's terribly simple#you know you want to dance#injuries cw#bites and chews and gnaws on anyone who says buffy didnt love spike. BITES and CHEWS and GNAWS on them.#like is that not the whole point? of him? of his entire character arc? of his burning to ash as he breaks the sunnydale high school#(AKA buffy's personal cage within the slayer's cage that was sunnydale itself AKA the place where he and buffy first ever fought#and he nearly killed her for the very first time but was foiled by the immense love someone felt for her) as he breaks that place to rubble#in a way also very reminiscent of the first time they slept together and Literally Fucked A Building Down. anyway as he's doing ALL OF THAT#like sure she doesnt HAVE to love him she doesnt owe him anything and even if she did love isnt about obligation. but when buffy says#that she loves him in that scene. theres nothing to indicate that she doesnt feel it. that she isnt telling the truth.#idk man. people take a man who is dying telling someone not to love him as the gospel truth when i feel like its more ... like maybe he's#making a misguided effort to be kind? he's telling her ''dont get too hung up on the vampire thats about to catch on fire#and get your pretty ass out of here while you still can please.''#whatever. WHATEVER. in the perfect btvs that lives in my head most of ats isnt canon but esp the part where spike comes back and doesnt#immediately 1. ASK IF DAWN WAS OKAY 2. upon being told by angel that he cant be put in touch with buffy because [mumbles] misogyny?#go ahead and engage in a flirt campaign at harmony until she breaks down and calls buffy for him. those would be like the FIRST TWO THINGS#that spike did after he came back to unlife. first two things frfr#i'm gonna end the tag rant there. hmm
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Making a birthday cake for a friend tonight (something I haven't done for a while), and I forgot how much I love baking & cake decorating. I'll post pics when I'm done, I'm very excited. 🥰
#archivist talk#the archivist regrets starting nursing school#the archivist#the archivist is a tad stressed but also this fun thing is happening so that's just dandy#i think i might have to give up on the kitchen being a place where one can sit and eat#i never use it for that personally#not because i don't want to#it just lacks the space for it and i don't have a real dining room#(my kitchen is long and narrow)#if i can figure out a good reasonable way to re-arrange the living room such that i can have both a living room AND a small dining corner#i may do that#however given the amount of bookshelves i've got going on & all my other lusts i imagine this won't happen#le sigh#i love my apartment so much#i think if i had a small dining area/dining room that would make the kitchen perfect#and if i had a den that i could put my desk/file cabinet/all adulting work in#that would free up my bedroom to be even more coquettish & focused#and also entirely comfortable#that would change a lot actually goddamn#but alas this building is not going to change#so maybe if one day i could afford a 2 bedroom that had a den .... bonus points if it has wood floors#and those arched doorways that i so love#i would be in heaven#i have to finish nursing school so i can pay for things with less stres#and also help my siblings more#and then maybe so i can get a nice home that would be super cool#but for now i must simply chill as they say
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Persona
#persona art#do you ever just have a persona that you kinda build up on#then it just manifests into another oc#like oh this is a different person entirely now#art for my pfp#last time im changing my pfp lol#digital art#my art#nomi arts
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Idia and his late-night gaming sessions.
#fanart#twisted wonderland#twst fanart#twst#I love Idia but my goodness his hair is hard to draw#idia shroud#Lillia's the kind of person to have no base build and sleep in random holes he's dug#Idia would either have a dirt hovel or a full sized completely accurate replica of a location from his favorite anime#Either way these two would build an entire castle and village below it only to never use it#Thank you for coming to my ted talk
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Some sillay doodles!! Qinterwatcher + trans jade-winglet doodles <3 I tend to do these silly (very off model & probably real out of character) jade winglet doodles as warm ups & cool downs after bigger drawings !! They’re fun to do
#(also when I say off-model i mean of my personal designs for them . canon designs mean nothing to me lmao)#it’s taken me weeks to build the confidence (?) to post these i do not know why#i did most of these during artfight 👍 theres a lot more but its mainly just little doodles of them standin around#either way I headcanon the entire jade winglet as trans in some way <3 you can put your own headcanons onto that as you please but my#personal headcanons are -#winter (trans man) Turtle (transfem) Moon (transmasc / nonbinary) Kinkajou (genderfluid is the best descriptor maybe) Qibli (nonbinary)#Peril (nonbinary) !! that first ‘’’’comic’’’’ w/ winter is him just tellin everyone because he transitioned before they met & he was comfy#enough with them all to let them know thar part of his identity :0) !!!!!! or at least thats how I interpret it#doodle#winter#qibli#moonwatcher#qinterwatcher#<- is that they’re ship name ?? Im not really sure#turtle#kinkajou#peril#hopefully ill post the other doodles maybe !!!! dunno why im so scared to post art online rn pghj so many artfight attacks …. never posted..#TideArt
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watching the valeria interrogation again and when alejandro says, “you disgrace the army”, rudy steps forward but when alejandro looks over his shoulder at him and says, “and your brothers, no?” he steps back again, almost like he’s trying to pull himself out of the conversation
alejandro leans in close to her and rudy reacts like he wants to pull him away, to protect him from her and from her words, but when he brings up that valeria hurt him too, betrayed him too, rudy retreats like he doesn't want to be reminded of it
it's alejandro who keeps valeria talking about the past, who prompts her to say more when simply saying she's ex-military would've been enough. they bait each other, valeria far more successfully than alejandro; she’s essentially running the interrogation
this speaks volumes of rudy’s interjection of, “he (the son of la areña) was supposed to go to prison”. he’s getting short; cutting off valeria and her excuses, not to redirect them back to the point of the interrogation but bc he’s done with her. rudy’s terser with her, more obviously angry, than he is with an actual terrorist
alejandro can't get past their history; let's himself get pulled off track and compromised but not be he's more upset than rudy. rudy has just repressed the hell out of it; if he doesn't think about it then it didn't happen
but now, he's suddenly being confronted with it head on
"you disgrace the army," is generalised; valeria didn't just hurt rudy, she hurt all of them. it's easier to take
"and your brothers," calls rudy out directly for his pain; pain alejandro wants retribution for and he doesn't want to face it, doesn't want to admit to it bc he doesn’t want to have to feel it
#what up its analysis of micro expressions and blurry body language time#deadass rudy is completely out of focus and in the background and im still like i can make something out of this#if i never believed all three of them were together before i sure as hell do now#ive said before that rudy has a slow anger and a very interesting personality#alejandro brings him alone to take down a terrorist and an unknown number of hostiles#he then sends him ahead (again by himself) to clear the target building and secure the target#so hes clearly a highly competent soldier#this then implies when rudy plans to storm the black site prison hes not being entirely rash#hes not just trying to go on a suicide mission he genuinely thinks he’ll be able to do it successfully and free los vaqueros#rudy can clearly compartmentalise#hes been betrayed all of his people have been detained he doesnt know where his best friend is#yet hes completely calm and levelheaded#he demeanour only changes when wails on a shadow and when he says ‘he was supposed to go to prison’ and that makes me insane#hes angerier with valeria and who she was to him than to Actual Terrorist#god i love rudy#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#alerudy#rodolfo parra#rudy parra#rudy cod#alejandro vargas#alejandro cod#valeria garza#valeria cod#cod mw2#modern warefare ii#alejandro/valeria#talk meta to me#save post
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I have one more thing I want to work on before I get back into updating 2AL regularly, but until then......
#I was going to do a poptart mindscape introduction comic next but like#idk how necessary that is???#I am assuming by this point we all know how the mindscape works right?#> can share memories#> can manipulate what you look like#> and can manipulate surroundings/summon whatever you want at will#I am assuming we know these things????? yeah?#2 arms left#and like! ah#gosh that animation project is scary#the last 2 options are build up comics for it that I am *probably* going to have to make at some point anyways#another part of me entirely is debating scrapping the animation project and just doing that update in comic form instead of animated form#YKNOW LIKE A NORMAL PERSON#idk#rambling#I am at a really weird part of the storyline for 2al where I know what happens next#but its going to be hard to visualize it? if that makes sense?#what do you MEAN these story points cant just get#beamed out of my head and into everyone elses heads#anyways hello thanks for reading this far into the tags#augh ive been very busy!#to whatever wins this poll I may not get to it till the end of the month#or after since the rest of this month is going to be pretty stressful#this is also assuming the animation option doesnt win#I dont know how long thats going to take me......#assuming I even have the guts to finish it
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I will not apologise for having thick hair and features that mark me as Not European or White and I also won't apologise for existing
#antisemites can die mad#i love my life and ive put a lot of time and effort into cultivating hobbies and friends that i cherish#so whike theyre out there making racism their entire personality i am building heirlooms which will last longer than they will#and thats a fucking treat for me to know#i love my life and they can never take that away from me so it kinda sucks to be them tbh
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assassin's creed 2 is the best game on earth (lets me hug leonardo da vinci)
#ARE YOU SERIOUSSSSSSSSS THIS GAME IS SOO CATERED TO ME SPECIFICALLY IT'S UNREAL#i literally spend like 90% of it kicking my feet and giggling any time i see anything era relevant#the way they describe all the people and buildings in detail and the amount of#attention they paid to making the cities accurate is soooooOOOOOOOO#ALSO DA VINCI?? MY PRINCESS?? AND THE MEDICIS AND THE BORGIAS AND THE SFORZAS OKAYYYYY#like it's unrealll......they're feeding me personally#there's still some inaccuracies w the cities but you wouldn't notice them unless you were genuinely insane (me)#and i understand sacrificing accuracy for game design#da vinky is EASILY one of my top 3 fav historical figures ever and the renaissance is my fav era especially firenze LIKE. MADE FOR ME...#anyway.............its doing horrible things to my brain the entire world feels like Video Game but that happens no matter what i play so#assassin's creed#assassin's creed 2
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saw someone in a fic compare scully to a well-worn well-loved teddy bear and now it's all I can think of
mulder clutching onto his emotional support stuffed teddy scully like a child, lonely and in need of comfort. he crushes her little paw in his grip because she's his only tether ��� what helps him rest and relax and come back down when he loses himself. he drags her around and she gets dirty and banged up and damaged but it's all through love, because of love, because he refuses to have it without her. her soft red hair becomes more and more matted and has to be cut shorter and shorter the longer he has her and he thinks she's still just as perfect anyway because he could never not. he cannot stand the sight of her hurt no matter how often it happens, and he rails against the world every single time because she means too much to him to have to need stitches woven across her polyester fur
#:(((#btw I'm thinking like build-a-bear type teddy with the little beady eyes and the heart on the paw#like the ones you can dress in different little costumes and YES she had a red wig idc what u say or think#I personally got the puppy with the white spot over its eye but she's a little bear to me#I WISH I COULD ACTUALLY DRAW THEM UGHH#I have this entire thing is such a specific art style in my head but I don't have the skill </3333#msr#fox mulder#dana scully#x-files#the x files#txf
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i know it’s been years and it’s basically irrelevant now but i genuinely love the green ninja prophecy if only for how much it must have tortured wu and garmadon. how long have they known it!! how did they find it, this script dooming them to forever be on opposing sides!! by the time morro rolls around, wu's spent most of his adult life with this looming over his head - this threat that there's some great evil out there that even their father didn't prevent, and then his brother leaves and adopts the very title that the prophecy foretold against. and then a ridiculously powerful elemental practically falls into his lap, with an uncanny command of his element without even unlocking his true potential, and with another threat already on the horizon (the serpentine) and the rest scattered (not to be brought together until years later), that was all he could do. it's been at minimum decades, at most centuries of the two of them having to carry this burden over their heads - of garmadon succumbing and of this unknown dark lord attacking. when do you think they made the connection. the wrong connection sure, but it makes sense. and it makes sense that years later, after wu is proven wrong and his brother returns to him and his son leaves him, and after his brother threatens to leave him again, he'd work backwards. collect the elementals, rebuild what he can of an alliance, and hope he's proven wrong again. and then kai steals his bag by accident and the rest is history.
#text✨#ninjago#is normal (is thinking about ninjago season one in TWENTY TWENTY THREE)#sorry yeah this is just building on/restating the last post i just made however: wu is fascinating#and these brothers are SO fucked up i love exploring it. this is w/o my personal hcs for how this whole thing shaked out bc THOSE#are being saved for a fic for my spinjitzu bros collection.#hot damn do i need to read those books. they torment me (the brothers spinjitzu doomed from unknown mystical creation)#whether or not the prophecy is well used or makes sense in hindsight i love it as a plot device. hell yeah hang over those demigods heads#like a noose. hell yeah tragically shape the entire narrative and the lives of entire families just bc people don't know how to reach. just#bc they made the wrong assumption and got their child killed. just bc they wanted so badly to be important and almost got their#soon-to-be brother killed. this thing is a fire hazard
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number of sunday race wins per title winner this century (wins/number of races)
2001: 11/16
2002: 11/16
2003: 9/16
2004: 9/16
2005: 11/17
2006: 2/17
2007: 10/18
2008: 9/18
2009: 6/17
2010: 9/18
2011: 10/17
2012: 6/18
2013: 6/18
2014: 13/18
2015: 7/18
2016: 5/18
2017: 6/18
2018: 9/18
2019: 12/19
2020: 1/14
2021: 5/18
2022: 7/20
2023: 7/20
current wins of title contenders this season (out of 9 races, another 10-11 to go): bagnaia - 6; martin - 2
#i don't actually like counting race wins because i'm FAR more about consistency metrics when evaluating seasons#but i had a moment this morning where i was like... hang on. pecco is on SIX wins this season?? six??#he's already matched valentino's tally for one of his seasons. he's outstripped one of marc's titles and matched another two#currently on 2/3 win rate. i know he isn't the biggest flyaway guy and i imagine he'd like to build up a buffer before then but#even if he loses this title it's definitely an impressive run#//#brr brr#if anyone says a WORD about joan then i will personally bite you. tread carefully#i don't love just doing the maths without sprint races because that's just not how anything works#like the sunday races wouldn't be the same if they hadn't had done the saturday races. you can't just separate that out so simply#BUT i do have a spreasheet for this just out of idle curiosity and unsurprisingly pecco leads a lot more comfortably on just sunday numbers#42 point lead#here's my mean stat: do you know how often valentino crashed out of the lead from 2001 to 2009? you want to know the total?#he did it ONCE. once! donington 2009 in the rain where he recovered to fifth. that's it!! his entire prime. nine seasons and it's ONCE#i'm not 100% certain but just looking at his results and mentally categorising them.... is his premier class career total two??#surely not... it's certainly very low though#pecco must exhaust him sometimes good lord#current tag
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fun fact guys i talked to one of my new uni friends about interests and they turned out to be into asoiaf and they lurk on tumblr AND they know about this blog its legit so over like u r not safe out there u meet someone at uni and they mightve seen u talk about ilyn rawdogging jaime without knowing it was u
#sending me still like this is kinda surreal to me 😭😭😭#anyways laura hello#like what is crazy to me is that how did i manage to sit next to the one person in the entire building who shares my interests#like wtf#this sounds like im making it up but imbeing fr#and they were shocked by me having a tumblr to begin with so imagine my shock at them knowing this blog specifically#like this does not happen 😭
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