#bucktommy thoughts

[theotherbuckley]

bucktommy thoughts - part one

+ bonus

[screamlet]

my favorite part of the bucktommy breakup fic explosion is seeing each writer focus on THE thing that bugs them most about this breakup and/or breakups in general. is it tommy running? is it buck jumping the gun and suffocating him? is it unpacking The Lore of past relationships that led them there? the miscommunication? the lack of closure? the denial? the suppressed anger? the opportunities for spite-fucking? one thousand other things??? it's like a beautiful diamond made of agony!!!! they're all precious to me

[demonvampire180writes]

A thinky thought about the hospital scene in 8.05.

I am... torn about it. Why, you may ask? (You probably aren't.) Because the part of me that experiences somewhat extreme rejection sensitivity, even perceived rejection, watches Tommy burst out in laughter at Buck, who IS being pretty ridiculous, without ever saying anything to... I dunno... soothe him? Assuage his fears of looking stupid? And I look at Buck’s face and kind of see the hurt because he expected Tommy to understand.

The other part of me, the logical, adult, "mature" part of my brain, understands that if you're there for you partner 90% of the time, then it's okay to laugh at them once in awhile. It's okay to poke fun at them. It's okay to not agree on certain things, or to believe in different parts of the spiritual or supernatural world., if one of them believes at all. And Tommy definitely does that more often than not

I think it's just hard for me to understand poking fun in that kind of way, laughing at something someone clearly believes with their whole heart. Especially coming from a friend or a loved one, and the belief doesn't harm anyone. (The same way it made me uncomfortable when Chimney called Buck stupid in an affectionate way, because my brothers and I don't operate that way.)

[bekolxeram]

Boyfriend vs Best friend

When you accidentally traumatized 15 kids with a real corpse

When you're spiraling over a stupid curse

When you have boils all over your face

But at the end of the day,

They care for you

They show up for you

And they laugh at you... just a little bit

[nqueso-emergency]

Buck: "Tommy is bubbling me right now, finally! ... They went away. I don't get it. Why would he type, type, type, and then not send anything?"

Meanwhile, at Harbor:

[achilles-rage]

NO WAIT

you know how people with adhd tend to bump into corners and walls and stuff more often?

i’m imagining tommy noticing that buck does that constantly around the house. like constantly running into the corner of the kitchen island and table. so tommy takes it upon himself to block the corners if he’s in the kitchen so instead of the corner hitting buck’s side, the blow is cushioned by his hand, or better yet, his whole body. if he sees buck in his own little world as he rambles about his day, or something new he learned as he sets the table, he’ll take a few steps over, pretending to grab something as he cooks dinner, putting his body between buck and the corner. a soft smile on his face as buck apologizes quickly, before going back to his rambling.

AND

you know that video of the guy reaching over to block the corner of the table when the girl leans down to pick something up? tommy does that too. maybe they’re out for dinner with hen and karen, and buck drops his knife. tommy’s voice doesn’t even falter as he leans over to block the corner of the table, continuing to tell hen and karen a story. and it doesn’t go unnoticed by henren, who give each other a knowing look at his actions. it’s second nature to him, and he doesn’t even realize he’s doing it most of the time. anything to keep buck safe, even if it is from something as insignificant as the corner of a table<3

[universescreaming]

Something about even when Tommy is taking care of Buck there being this distance between them, Tommy is on the couch and turning off the lights while Buck is still trying to talk, Tommy is in the foreground of Buck having another “who are you without your family” moment in a graveyard, Tommy in the hospital, wearing a visitor badge, close but never touching, there but never there.

Something about Tommy being all over this episode and still barely there at all. He is in Buck- Evan’s- life but he’s not in it, he’s on the outside, always behind this invisible fence

Something about “Buck. The people who know me, call me Buck”

Something about Buck telling Tommy- his BOYFRIEND- Tommy all about this curse and this story, but it’s Eddie who has to explain the holes in the story Buck doesn’t know he’s leaving

Something about Tommy being in the room with him when he wakes up with boils but Eddie is the one who checks him out and makes sure he’s okay

Something about Buck being the one we’re shown to get Hens text about Denny, signally everyone else in that room, that family, who got that text except for Tommy, Tommy having to ask what had happened, having to be explained that everything was going to be okay

He is there but he is not, he’s in the room but he’s not apart of it

Something about only dreaming about finding a love like that, something about “you don’t find it son, you make it”

Something about Buck constantly trying to make it work with people, trying to force it to work with people because that what he thinks he meant, because love is work right? It’s something you make work

Something about him always misunderstanding the assignment

Something about the last time Buck was in a graveyard he was shoulder to shoulder with Eddie, talking about how a girl he just met sees him, all the while leaning on Eddie in the aftermath of his death he has accepted but never understood

Something about him telling Tommy that the night they met being the most fun he’s had since dying, something about how he connects Tommy and Natalia to an event neither where there for, as two people who can never understand the horror of those 3 minutes and 17 seconds

Something about Buck throwing himself into danger and adrenaline time after time and chasing relationships that feel like that because that’s love right? Something that feels like being struck by lightening and surviving and non of the side effects

Something about Buck not being able to sleep after his death until he sits on Eddie’s couch, Eddie is the person he comes too for when he’s restless, for the calm after the storm

Something about “it’s about how she makes me feel” “like you’re flying high” “like I’m standing on solid ground”

Something about Tommy being jealous of the 118 and the family they’ve built because he’s not apart of it, and a part of him knows he never will be

Because the roles have all been filled and the family has already been made and he is trying to build something with Buck- Evan- thats already been built

[lover-of-mine]

“Do not take ibuprofen by mouth or apply it to your skin if you have ever had an allergic reaction or symptoms like wheezing, runny nose or skin reactions after taking aspirin, ibuprofen or other non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) such as naproxen.”

4x05 “Buck Begins” -> 6x11 “In Another Life” -> 8x05 “Masks”

Inspired by @stagefoureddiediaz and @bewitchedbewilderedbisexual

[macaronimars]

last night some ppl in the kinley discord were talking about how tommy would probably find taking intentionally bad pictures of buck really funny and then. this happened. i just think buck's love language is going my boyfriend is a god and tommy's love language is going you're an absolute mess but i love you anyway

[theoncologistof911dispatch]

Tommy asking Buck out by saying, "You still owe me that beer." Only for him to pay for their entire date. An entire gentleman.

[theotherbuckley]

bucktommy thoughts pt 7/?

[louferrignojrofficial]

lou is liking bucktommy art on twitter… i’m gonna cry

[diazsdimples]

We all agree that Tommy calls Buck "baby" but what do we think happened the very first time Tommy used that name? Were they doing something simple and mundane, like the dishes, and Tommy said "baby, where does this spatula go?" and Buck is so taken aback that he drops the plate he's holding? Were they mid-sex, Buck riding Tommy's cock like he's getting paid for it and Tommy gasps out "God, baby, you're so fucking good for me" and Buck came on the spot from the name alone? Or had Tommy received a frantic call from Eddie to "get here right fucking now," and turns up to the hospital to find Buck barely conscious, covered in blood after having fallen from the ladder truck, and he falls to his knees beside Buck's bed, taking his hand and whispering "stay with me, baby, please, I need you to be okay," and that's the thing that Buck clings onto through his surgeries because he couldn't leave Tommy all on his own?

[magniloquent-raven]

is it just me or is it giving

buck has chicken pox, i've solved it

[sad-girl-hours23]

[cjlouwho]

Tommy never had a birthday cake growing up because his dad was against sweets in the house, so his mom would take him to a local bakery for a birthday cookie from ages 4-10. She died before he turned 11 but he walked himself to the bakery after school, got as far as the door, and couldn’t go inside. His dad wasn’t a fan of birthday celebrations at all, so there was nothing after that, then he joined the army, and the closest to a cake he got was an MRE vanilla poundcake with a match sticking out of it that one of his commanding officers gave him and, while it did make his heart swell a bit, he never got to eat it because they were alerted to an attack on base.

After the army he didn’t really care to celebrate his birthday at all, and he felt dumb buying himself a cake, so he never did. He bought cake for other occasions though, just because cake was delicious and it was like he could feel his dad getting angry every time he took a bite. He got a cake when he left the 118 and he smiled every time he opened his fridge and saw the leftovers. He even put some in his freezer and kept it there for a couple years because it actually meant so much to him.

And maybe he should’ve realized with dating Evan that he was definitely going to have a birthday cake, but the thought truly never crossed his mind until it was on the table in front of him. All their friends gathered around the table while he stared at this cake like there is no way it’s real. He doesn’t realize he’s been staring so long until they’ve finished singing happy birthday and the candles are still burning and Evan places a hand on his back and nervously asks if he’s okay.

He’s nervous because he made the cake himself and it was his first time making a chocolate/vanilla marble cake with buttercream frosting and he’s not great at writing on cakes or decorating so it looks a little funky but Tommy mumbles out mid Evan-rant that he’s never had a birthday cake before and the room falls silent.

There’s tears in his eyes when he turns and takes Evan’s head in his hands and pulls him in for a kiss. Tells him the cake is beautiful. No, it’s perfect, and asks if they can take some pictures before they eat it.

Evan nods, says of course, blinks his own tears away and says they have to put new candles on now cause the other ones already completely melted.

Howie yells for him to make a wish before he blows the candles out but he doesn’t even know what to wish for because for the first time in his life he feels like he has everything.