#brb i am crying

[tired-biscuit]

I love you and your blog and the way you write, I am too chicken to come off on anon but your posts always have me either cracking up or wanting to scream in the best way possible.

Truly you make tumblr a better place and I’m glad to have followed you and the fact that you share your writing with us means we’re all lucky to read your masterpieces, I’m not good with compliments because I sound strange lol

But seriously you are one of the best writers on this platform and one of my favorite blogs too, I really enjoy the way you write and are able to bring the vision to live.

Anyway have a good day/evening and get some rest ❤️

please excuse me while i step into a corner and ugly cry for literal ages.

OH MY GOD, you are the sweetest and kindest little anon!! thank you so, so, SO much for sending me such an endearing message; i will literally fucking sob cos of it????? i’m so emotional and smiley and just UGH…….. i showed ur ask to my bf and he started to laugh cos i was literally obsessing over it while vacuuming the apartment, probs looking like an unhinged woman while at it. i was all over the place, nearly bouncing off the walls istg!!!!

i love you and i wish i could give you the tightest hug ever (if you like hugs ofc) so that i can swing you from side to side for all eternity or at least until you get a little bit woozy ahdhdhdhd <3

and ofc, you can always count on yours truly; creamy biscuit promises to write all about your favourite’s 2D cock being milked dry to the very last drop!!!!!! 🫡 this has gives me loads of motivation!!!!!

HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST DAY/NIGHT AS WELL!!

[cocoabell]

A bitter reminder 🥀

[be-a-snake-stab-your-brother]

OKAY BUT THE CALLBACK TO THE THE FIRST THOR MOVIE

Anyone remember the theme the first time we had a broken bridge and Loki? Death and destruction.

And now? Life and creation.

[sophsun1]

#Tommy's face being 🥺 when buck is praising him and admitting he just wanted to get closer to him.

[greenleaf4stuff]

The tragedy that is Adar mourning each of his fallen children, crying tears grief and sorrow, giving them a farewell when nobody else did, whereas he himself died without being given any of that – neither by his children, nor by other characters, nor the narrative/the show itself.

He stood by them when nobody else did, only for nobody to stand by *him* when he needed it most.

Oof.

[gummieturtle]

the way I started tweaking out cuz the fanfic I've spent the last 2 days reading ended on a cliffhanger, not even like a "the main story is complete here's a lil taste of a possible sequel" cliffhanger, but a "we just got to the climax wtf do you mean it's ending here??" type cliffhanger, IT WAS MARKED AS COMPLETE??😭😭 WHY??😭😭 *sinks into the floor in despair* gonna go slam my head into a wall brb

update: it does in fact have a sequel but I think this post is funny so imma just keep it up, don't mind me reacting way too quick lmao

[doctorsiren]

this is why you don’t let me have caffeine before bed

[syncogon]

[LCLA TL] Farewell to He Xu, from the one who was once him

He Xu's actor, Liu Chang, wrote a post to celebrate the finale of the Link Click Live Action.

Translation below. Full show spoilers!

Hui feng he chang, nuan yang he xu. Warm sun and pleasant breeze. 

From an objective point of view, no matter how you look at it, He Xu is not a good person: he deceived his friends and teacher, broke the rules of this world… He is despicable, and deserves to be fast-forwarded. But I was once him, so it’s difficult to be objective. 

At a time when sunlight should have shone upon his world, it was instead dark clouds that blocked the sky. Without the love of a father or mother, he grew up in an orphanage, but it was alright, his elder sister carried fire to bring him the warmth that he deserved, perhaps even beyond what ordinary family could provide. So he did not become ashen, and still loved this world that had his sister in it. But it was as though this world did not want him, and so let his sister depart. 

If you were He Xu, would you let go of the chance to save your sister? To be honest, I’m extremely reluctant to discuss the trolley problem. Morality and ego will always be in conflict. But when the only person who loves you is about to perish, how could you so easily bear to lose them. 

You couldn’t, and nor could He Xu. 

He only wanted his sister not to lose her life in the accident. If possible, he certainly wouldn’t want to harm anyone else. But when the two options were placed in front of him, he selfishly chose to not leave any regrets. Perhaps this selfishness is something we can all understand. 

But no matter what, we must return to the objective point of view.

He Xu was too extreme. Not only did his obsession lead him into the abyss, it also led his sister to immense pain. Let alone those innocent bystanders who were dragged in.

I can’t bear to criticize him, his regrets are too sorrowful. But he was wrong to let himself become hateful. 

If there could be another timeline, I hope that he and his sister could find happiness, and happily finish that Christmas dinner. In that timeline, every day is one of warm sun and pleasant breeze.

Finally, as an actor, to be able to meet this kind of deep character is my fortune. Added to the fact that this is an IP that I like, a team that I like, this doesn’t come easy. So I performed to the very best of my ability. I hope that everyone enjoys the show, I hope that everyone doesn’t hate He Xu too much. The power of Link Click allows viewers to ask themselves: If you could return to the past, where in time would you want to go? And I ask myself this question, but the answer is unknown, or maybe I don’t want to return to the past at all. What, if I redid these experiences that I’ve already had, I would like them more? So, why not instead archive our experiences upon the timeline, and bring them along as we continue to slowly go forward. 

Past or future, let them be. 

I hope that everyone’s days are both peaceful and richly colorful.

Aside: I’ve been to Time Photo Studio, yay!

Also, I didn’t lie to you guys, really crying to death 🧎

[ecstarry]

[audennix]

sickening

[6hellish6rebuke6]

Something happened in the House of Hope...

This is a huge thing that I feel like I have to post here as well.

I recently had the incredible privilege to interview THE Andrew Wincott and ask him all about his work as the Devil we know: Raphael (and Haarlep 🤭) in BG3, voice acting, Shakespeare, travelling, movies, etc. 🥹🎉

This has been a big dream of mine and man, he's just such a lovely guy to talk to and I've already admired him and his talent a whole lot beforehand, but after our 3 hour talk, I absolutely adored him!

The full interview will be uploaded on my YouTube channel soon, so keep an eye out and do subscribe, if you're interested!

▶️🎬 -> LenaKingsleigh 👀

I hope you can soon join us in the House of Hope 🔥

[crimsoncrocuta]

That's what you want, isn't it? To lose yourself in me?

I love/hate how sad he looks when he asks you this.

The confident mask slips as he wonders who exactly you'll be getting lost in because even he doesn't know who he is... and he thinks about all the poor wretches before you, lost in him before being lost to his master. He thinks about how you'll leave a piece of yourself and take a piece in exchange, just like every Sebastian before you. A small price to pay for the protection he thinks he has to buy. Once you figure out how empty he is, how used up and rotted, surely you won't want him anymore but by then he'll have gripped you by the heartstrings. Just like all the others, countless thousands before you. A simple plan. Business as usual. Right?

What is left of the man you were? What parts of you haven't been dragged away, piece by piece, with each soul pulled through you? Are there fragments that remember a father beaming with pride at his clever son? Would he still be proud, to see your sharp fangs snarling back at him? How much of your mother's gentle little boy is left beneath those hungry red eyes? Would she recognize you, bloodstained and hollow? Did your friends carry you to the morgue on the wooden stretcher you use as a bed? Who wrapped you in the blanket that you still cling to? Was it to shield your bruised cheeks from the cold earth as they said goodbye? Did a sister mourn her darling baby brother, were hers the first tears to water the flowers near your empty grave? Did she share your white curls? Or was she a golden sun to your silvery moon? What color were her eyes?

Who's memories am I haunting when I am lost in you?

[tamsinbeybey-she-no-porcupine]

When you want to tell a man that you love him but you're both soldiers surrounded by other soldiers, it's 1945 and he's dying in front of you

so instead you tenderly say his first name and look at him like this

so that in a sea of unfriendly faces the last face he will ever see is the friendly face of the person he loves.

[greenleaf4stuff]

Me, towards the TROP showrunners: Please sir may I have some more Adar in season 3?

[crystallizsch]

I DIDNT THINK THE COLOR-MY-TREE MESSAGES WOULD BE OPEN FOR EVERYONE AT ONCE— IT’S NOT THE 25TH FOR ME YET-

oughhhhhghh anyways very long all-over-the-place, one-thought-leads-to-another sappy message below. read it or not, it’s up to you hdbjss (and don’t worry i’m not putting any messages on blast they were private for a reason 😭) it’s morning for me so i’m just AGH

i wanted to write a general thank-you message but as soon as i started typing all the words i wanted to properly say left my cranium and said “hey let’s be vulnerable” and so here we are.

anyways HI HELLO HI every message means A LOT💥💥💥, thank you to everyone who took time to write one for me. from the simple greetings, the silly messages, and the sweet and vulnerable ones. i will forever remember you all and i’ll keep you in my heart safe and sound. 💖

HARD PIVOT this small part can be skipped but i think i’ve only vaguely and briefly touched on this on my main but christmas eve especially is extremely rough for me. it’s not christmas or the holidays’ fault necessarily, but it’s because one of my parents passed away unexpectedly. so uh not a good memory to put it lightly. i only turned 18 that time, but as the oldest kid, i was already expected to “stay strong” and be the second parent. i felt the overbearing pressure because my family is not really in a “privileged” enough position to even be given the time to grieve + i was in the middle of starting uni so fuck that LMAO.

(something something that’s prob why i relate to jamil a lot HFJDJS but that’s a topic for another day maybe) (anyways just some. necessary??? background context i suppose.)

so uh backstory time. i was there for twst en when it came out but stopped and only got reintroduced to it last year because of an irl friend. i’ve been hooked into it for months BEFORE i started posting at the beginning of this year.

(shoutout yuuna for being my first yuu and shoutout yuusha for taking over my blog, she was never meant to be dragged out of the basement).

i thought this tumblr thing was just gonna be a way for me to distract myself from grief and pressure and the constant thoughts of ending it all. i NEVER would have imagined that i’d be part of community.

i really thought i’d just post art and leave and that’s it. i never thought i’d have people encouraging my creative fixations. i never thought i’d start talking to people. i never thought i’d genuinely make new close friends online. i never thought i’d have impact(???) on people.

i’ve always wanted this blog to just be a fun time where i don’t have to take anything seriously without any pressure. (i’ve definitely gotten more comfy posting whatever and that really feels more freeing).

i never expected to make so many connections because genuinely i only interact without expecting anything back. and the fact people even reciprocated is SUCH a genuine surprise for me. all my experiences thus far is so unbelievable to me even to this day still.

from the bottom of my heart i am trying my best to be a good person, because i don’t think i am. which is why i try to be as kind to myself the way i refer to myself and my work, and that i try to uplift others whenever i can and make sure whatever they do or make will be worth it. i know this sounds so vain of me but if it helps people out and it makes me feel better, i think that’s enough.

also it honestly feels so dumb to realize and admit that technically-speaking, if it weren’t for twst and the following experiences it brought me, i wouldnt be alive rn hdhdj

so to the people who told me i’ve made their days a little brighter. to the people that told me that i’m one of their reasons for getting the courage to start posting/putting themselves out there. to the people who are just so kind and funny to me. and to the people in general who just decided that i’m worth it.

happy holidays!! i love you all, and thank you for being a part of my life no matter who you are 💜💝

[birchbeersandbentleys]

one more week until i am emotionally destroyed