#bpd is borderline personality disorder. CPTSD is complex post traumatic stress disorder ..
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#traumatic childhood#child abuse#my childhood#complex post traumatic stress disorder#emotionally abused#narcissistic parents#borderline personality disorder#actually bpd#borderline problems#bpd problems#being borderline#actually borderline#bpd#bpdprobs#actuallymentallyill#bpd feels#c ptsd#complex ptsd#ptsd#living with ptsd#actually ptsd#post traumatic stress disorder#complex dissociative disorder#dissociative identity disorder#it's probably structural dissociation not psychosis....#structural dissociation#actually dissociative#dissociation#physical abuse#cptsd
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This image changed my life so I need more people to see it
I knew people with did before coming across this, and still I never in a million billion years would have guessed or imagined I might have it too.
I had figured out Iām autistic which explained a lot, but I was still constantly feeling broken and out of place in autistic spaces. I was still constantly feeling like I was having a way harder time than other late-diagnosed autistics.
Until I found this image and felt so attacked by almost every single symptom listed. I stared at it for hours. I stayed up for two days straight, just researching. I had to look up a lot of the included words and terms. But every time I did it was āoh my god thatās not normal? thereās a word for that??ā
As a result Iāve been able to get help and accommodate things I didnāt even know were issues. Now that I understand that Iām plural, autistic accommodations work better. Adhd accommodations work better. Systems and routines in my life are easier to optimize. Iāve started learning who tf I am and for the first time. I started learning how to have values and goals and how to want things. I know that sounds weird but, well, did is in fact pretty weird.
Anyway this image isnāt mine and Iāve had it saved on my laptop for years so Iām not sure where it came from, but its one of the most empowering things thats ever happened to me tbh. thank you to whoever made it.
#late diagnosed autistic#audhd problems#audhd creature#neurodiversity#traumagenic#did osdd#complex trauma#cptsd healing#cptsd recovery#trauma recovery#personality disorders#borderline personality disorder#audhd#bpd#adhd autistic#csa survivor#childhood trauma#trauma survivor#complex post traumatic stress disorder#adverse childhood experiences#mental health rant#mental health diagnosis#mental health help#depression anxiety#trauma disorders#post traumatic stress disorder#actually traumatized#comorbidities#comorbid conditions#dissociative identity disorder
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listen guys. supporting your partner when they're going through something hard and being emotionally vulnerable with you is not necessarily emotional labor. emotional labor entails an inherent imbalance and lack of cooperation. its one thing if your partner is consistently relying on you to do this for them and shuts you out when you try to rely on them, but a lot of people in supposedly healthy relationships are claiming that they don't have to be there for their partners because that's emotional labor and I need them to know that they're the ones who are being toxic
#ptsd#cptsd#complex ptsd#complex post traumatic stress disorder#did#didosdd#osdid#osdd1#osdd1a#osdd 1a#osdd#osdd 1b#osdd1b#dissociative identity disorder#otherwise specified dissociative disorder#npd#narcissistic personality disorder#actually narcissistic#bpd#borderline personality disorder#actually borderline#actually npd#actually bpd#actually aspd#antisocial personality disorder#aspd#actually antisocial#complex dissociative identity disorder#complex did
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I am about to infodump about why steven universe has BPD (and cptsd but thats canon)
later in the series and in SU future is when all the trauma has already happened and hes finally safe is when it manifests itself heavier. hes very people pleasing, putting other peoples needs ahead of himself, even if the other person is in the wrong, his emotions spiral so out of control that he becomes corrupted or goes "pink mode", he has identity issues (bc of constantly being told hes his mother) to the point where he cant tell if he is her, if he is himself, if hes a he, if hes a she, if hes a gem or if hes a human, good or evil, etc.
has bursts of intense anger and feelings of guilt, would go to any length to keep people in his life (connie for example) and when she rejected his proposal his symptoms spiraled out of control, which is typically what happens w bpd, its triggered, his symptoms started presenting when he hit 16 / SU future. as for the ptsd though thats actually canon, there is an episode where he visits the doctor and she doesnt directly call it ptsd but shes asking him about his trauma and how far back it stems from (and he begins recalling traumatic events starting all the way from the beginning of the series to the middle of the series before connies mom interrupts him and tells him that he p much has c-ptsd) and steven starts having intense flashbacks and then falls into an episode when he is reminded of connie rejecting his proposal, his body starts physically reacting to it as if its happening again. (which by the way the proposal was very impulsive and spontaneous and mainly based in fear of abandonment, and solidified when garnet agreed. very bpd like.)
he views small issues as life threatening, which is seen in ptsd and bpd. hes been in a constant state of trauma since childhood, never knew his mom and constantly i n peril fighting monsters he doesnt even know the origin of protecting himself from a battle his mother forced him into, bpd and ptsd are inherently traumagenic. he changes himself and overextends himself to fit other people's perception of what he should be or to fit his own idea of perfection, hes terrified of being alone and will go to any lengths to keep his loved ones around him.
when people offer him support he pushes it away because he doesnt want to burden his loved ones with his problems or intense emotions or trauma. in fact, he bottles it up SO much that he falls into an episode where he starts fixing other peoples problems to distract himself from his own, as if fixing other people will in turn fix himself, which only makes it worse and worse until he explodes. he talks about how hes worthless, how hes a bad person, how he doesnt deserve his loved ones, and then becomes corrupted when the trauma become too much for him gem to handle anymore. (Him splitting on himself after bottling his feelings up for so long)
this was only soothed when his loved ones reminded him how much he was loved and cared for. he lacked a voice his whole life and once jasper taught him to fight and defend himself and he became all big and strong his personality changed completely and he ended up becoming aggressive in the same way jasper was and literally purposely and v violently shattered her because of it (which is obviously very out of character for steven who has healing powers)
he also takes control of and attempts to shatter white diamond when he has trauma flashbacks to her almost killing him despite working through those issues previous
he has a "the grass is greener on the other side" mindset
He has bouts of uncontrollable rage because he has no form of grasp of his emotions due to alienating them.
He creates narratives sticks to them then he is unable to change these thought processes.
after shattering jasper he has an intense panic attack, thinking he is a violent killer or bad person, his guilt spirals and he makes a very desperate and emotional attempt at bringing her back.
he also takes control of and attempts to shatter white diamond when he has trauma flashbacks to her almost killing him despite working through those issues previous.
he has a "the grass is greener on the other side" mindset
He has bouts of uncontrollable rage because he has no form of grasp of his emotions due to alienating them.
He creates narratives sticks to them then he is unable to change these thought processes.
He creates a happily ever after in his mind and then when the outcome isn't perfect or what he imagined he freaks out.
he has frequent flashbacks to issues from his past and tends to block the thoughts out when they show up or dissociate himself from them, or, alternatively, he hyper-fixates on them so much that it takes over every aspect of his waking life. he also thinks in black and white a lot, with things being either all good or all bad, and becomes paranoid about other peoples intentions or the way they perceive him. he also is CONSTANTLY on edge expecting bad things to happen and prepares himself for danger that might not even come.
Also throwback to the time where he crashed the car and split on his dad when he realized his dad got the childhood he always wanted and that he was neglected, he quickly went from idealizing his dad to feeling spiteful toward him and putting their own lives in danger.
also the time when he realized all of his friends were moving on without him and subconsciously trapped them in a giant bubble that he had no control over
oh and the NIGHTMARES!!!
- sincerely, a Steven kinnie with BPD and C-PTSD. (Cross-Posted)
#steven#steven quartz universe#steven universe#steven universe future#su#suf#bpd#borderline#borderline personality disorder#cptsd#complex post traumatic stress disorder#complex ptsd#headcanon#headcanons#theory#cross posted
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happy disability pride month. they have things wrong with them
feel free to ask questions abt my ocs <3 i would love to talk about them
#pinemartart#oc: khaasi kuzrax#oc: xieggi zeaggi#oc: phikiz suthox#oc: craycr vencah#oc: ruskat aqqair#oc: ozlilu fruzai#almost all of them ..... giggle#get oc blasted bitches#once again they og came from a fandom... but it's so far removed so. not tagging it#do i need to tag this as something?? like for the illnesses#also i do tag my ocs in order they are in the picture#smiles smile#anyways. they're all so fucked up#their expressions don't mean much besides like. idk i wanted to draw them distressed to show they r abnormal#asd is autism spectrum disorder. rsd is rejection sensetive disorder. um#bpd is borderline personality disorder. CPTSD is complex post traumatic stress disorder ..#errr pcs is post concussion syndrome and tbi is traumatic brain injury. smile
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@jadementalhealthcoach
#mental health#healing#recovery#bpd#cptsd#dealing with emotions#emotional dysregulation#self compassion#borderline personality disorder#complex post traumatic stress disorder
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05.14.2024 11:15
#american gothic#rural gothic#appalachian gothic#southern gothic#deep south#horror#mood board#goth#goth subculture#morose#macabre#dark grunge#grunge#severe mental illness#mental illness#mentally ill#depression#major depressive disorder#schizophrenia#schizophrenic#bpd#borderline#borderline personality disorder#PTSD#post traumatic stress disorder#cptsd#complex post traumatic stress disorder#trauma#traumatized#dark forest
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*in the voice of old Gregg* ive got The Funk
#bpd#actually borderline#borderlinepersonalitydisorder#cptsd#c ptsd#complex post traumatic stress disorder#trauma#mental illness#personal#mine#bpd problems
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I'm so thankful that my therapist encourages me to write letters to my abusers, even if I'll never send them.
#trauma recovery#post traumatic#complex post traumatic stress disorder#c ptsd#tw cptsd#traumatized#post traumatic stress disorder#trauma#my childhood#borderline personality disorder#actually bpd#borderline problems#bpd problems#being borderline#actually borderline#bpd#bpdprobs#actuallymentallyill#bpd feels#traumatic childhood#trauma therapy#therapy#vent#let the healing begin#healing my inner child#fuck you ptsd#ptsd recovery#complex ptsd#ptsd#actually ptsd
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growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma growing up undiagnosed is complex trauma
#mental health#mental health education#cptsd#late diagnosis#late diagnosed autistic#late diagnosed adhd#mental health diagnosis#mental illness representation#complex trauma#audhd#bpd#borderline personality disorder#neurodiversity#adhd autistic#anxiety creature#mental#mental illness#complex post traumatic stress disorder
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iām so tired of living life on a surface level. i want to be loved beyond that. i want someone to see me and want to know the ins and outs of who i am; how and why i feel and think the things i do. show me iām actually worth being cared about on a deeper level.
#im so tired#i want to be to be loved so badly#bpd#borderline#borderline personality disorder#quiet borderline#quiet bpd#actually bpd#actually borderline#actually cptsd#cptsd#actually neurodivergent#complex post traumatic stress disorder#living with bpd#living with borderline#living with mental illness#living with cptsd#mental illness#personality disorder#cluster b#neurodivergent#bpd thoughts#masking#personal#vent#vent blog#traumatized#adhd#actually adhd#living with adhd
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I'd like to hear ADHD + OCD people's thoughts on this because I often think constantly about the acronyms of a neurodivergent diagnosis in relation to Autism. ASD refers to Autism Spectrum Disorder and is less pronounced as compared to solely 'Autism' or even 'Asbergers', both with a dauntingly capital 'A'. While these groups both share their struggles, there's something more casual in the language of an acronymed diagnosis, and perhaps a bit more culturally articulated. ADHD is abbreviated for Attention Deficet Hyperactive Disorder. Okay, clear cut. Understood. We know what attention means. What deficet means. What hyperactive and disorder means. As a neurotypical or allistic person, you at least have a base-line understanding of an ADHD person's disorder. It's a similar case with OCD - Obssesive Compulsive Disorder.
But Autism? What the hell does that mean? How else can you use Autism in a sentence other than to discuss or degrade the disorder? People with ADHD or OCD say they "have" ADHD or OCD, but Autism is something you "are". I am Autistic. On a linguistic level, this is another reason why Autism is so misunderstood because, unlike other disorders, we don't understand it by its symptoms or idiocyncrasises, so it becomes this terrifying, unpredictable monster in neurotypical minds.
What is Autism? What can it be?
#obviously disorders can overlap and i encourage discussion for that as well#but does anyone else think about this??#also not discounting allistic neurodivergent people i just want to hear your thoughts on this#adhd#attention deficit hyperactivity disorder#ocd#obssesive compulsive disorder#did#dissociative identity disorder#borderline personality disorder#bpd#depression#bipolar disorder#anxiety#ptsd#cptsd#post traumatic stress disorder#complex post traumatic stress disorder#schizophrenia#mental health#mental illness#asd#autism#autism spectrum disorder
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soong-type trust issues
it is weird how childhood trauma can take away your ability to form basic trust in people, just like that. people are able to take away part of your personhood, just like that.
#mentally ill#mental illness#bpd#borderline#borderline personality disorder#cptsd#ptsd#trauma#post traumatic stress disorder#complex ptsd#complex post traumatic stress disorder#mental health#mentalvariant#mentalvariance#disabled#disability#neurodivergence#neurodivergent
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Ppl who say because CPTSD is actually similar to BPD therefore everyone with CPTSD are actually borderline and then proceed to call ppl with BPD inherently abusive....instead of realizing you're calling a huge amount of childhood trauma survivors inherently abusive. And that maybe these diagnostic criteria are fucked and ppl need compassion.
(they are also said that real trauma/CPTSD only come from war)
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05.14.2024 11:52
#deep emotion#sorrow#anguish#suffering#heartbreak#heartbroken#severe mental illness#mental illness#mentally ill#depression#depressed#major depressive disorder#depressive episode#pills#psychiatric#psychotic#psychosis#schizophrenic#schizophrenia#bpd#borderline personality disorder#borderline#PTSD#cptsd#complex post traumatic stress disorder#post traumatic stress disorder#suicidal ideation#suicidal thoughts
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Family always tries to excuse what my dad did.
āThink about how he grew upā
#art#artwork#drawing#digital art#digital artwork#drawings#digital media#furry art#furry#vent art#borderline personality disorder#actually borderline#bpd feels#bpd#cptsd#ptsd#trauma#traumatized#complex post traumatic stress disorder#post traumatic stress disorder
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