#black and disabled

[midnight-soulless-system]

Being disabled and a person of color is so different to being disabled and white. There's so much extra stigma and prejudice and just shit that us PoC have to go through with doctors and friends and just the world to get what we need and want.

Idk, I just don't see a lot of posts talking about what it's like being a person of color and disabled (especially when you're more dependent upon others) so, feel free to share you stories.

[800-dick-pics]

Help Me Get New Mobility Aids!!!

Happy Disability Pride Month! I initially wasnt going to make a post to try to get new mobility aids/tools, but I really need them, so what the hell.

I am a multiply disabled Black lesbian and I have been without proper supportive mobility since the start of the pandemic. I had many of my things broken or thrown away during this time period, and I thought I could go without but its been so long and I really cant anymore.

I need smart/ergonomic forearm crutches because regular forearm crutches wreck my fragile hypermobile wrists, I need braces for both legs and ankles, a shower bench and detachable showerhead. All of this combined is a bit over $550.

I REALLY need this, esp the crutches! My mobility and bodily autonomy would be GREATLY increased If I was able to get these items. I

CA: $sleepyhen

VN: wildwotko

Dm for P@ypal

TLDR?: Disabled Black Lesbian needs new mobility aids for increased mobility and autonomy.

[rebelwheelsnycpoetry]

And The Papers Said

TW: ABLEISM & EUGENICS by Michele Sommerstein

Part One And the papers said Michael Hickson, a black disabled man. And the papers said Hospital. Texas. COVID. Infection And the papers said Killed. For his doctor did not feel And the papers said that a… quadriplegic could possibly have a quality, of life. And the papers said and thus was not worth saving And the papers said (was not saved) disabled people are not of worth message repeating and… sent.

And the papers said the doctor had the audacity to say And the papers said it's not personal, to Hickson's wife, And the papers said There are set criteria from the state And the papers said As to who will live and who they let die And the papers said Michael Hickson. a black disabled body, that did not comply

Once again, reunited Eugenics & Capitalism America's not so secret friends fucking each other furiously for the sake of mindless fucking, like machines wallowing in their own stains, covered in their own blood and filth, crimes. unclean Disgusted? You should be.

Part Two Shortages! Hospitals! Ventilators! Low! This, that was avoidable & created by the vulture capitalists who see death… elated - pandemic as an opportunity! Cha-ching! Soulless! Shortages! Created by, the powers that be Like when, Cuomo – the hero praised at times for merely being, better than Trump! (Raise the bar! This drinks on me) cut funding, healthcare. home care. hospitals (before and during the pandemic) Shortages! So the billionaires would be spared from paying their fair, share, of… taxes Shortages! While marginalized people are blamed for, “costing too much” the audacity of austerity…

Shortages created when patients, infected knowingly sent to nursing homes, locked up. death traps, unleashing COVID on the people in places where social distancing was never, even, an option.

Part Three There are those, who will hear these words, shrug and nonchalant they will say things like Well, these things happen, what can you do? Those who are complacent, able bodied, complicit, still living but numb. They will repeat, their response so casually even to the face of those visibly disabled, as if it's nothing in a tone used to discuss sweaters and their… plans for lunch as if we as a society can't do better? (We can. We must.)

Who taught you about disability? Who lied to you saying disabled people are less than, undeserving? That we are better off dead?

Part Four And the papers said… His wife implored, insisting, knowing he lived a full life. And the papers said for in her eyes, in her heart, her love's life was worth saving. And the papers said, doctors withheld treatment including hydration… nutrition read: starving him for six. days Michael Hickson. a black disabled body that did not comply. “Michael Hickson, [a black disabled man] died leaving, his wife and five children, behind.“

About the poem: I originally wrote this poem because, so often as a disabled person, you read these headlines and it’s absorbed into you, but there's not always an outlet to really express the emotional toll.

So often, I'd read the headlines and somewhat shut down because I can’t feel every time I read something like this, but it’s still in you. Michael Hickson was the first time I read an article that actually included a name when they were discussing “state criterias' and the pandemic. The conversation between the doctor and Hickson’s wife was recorded and when I heard it, it just hit me on a deeper level and I had to write something.

That said, to learn more about the intersections of ableism & racism, I suggest checking out the following peoples: @Imani_Barbarin , @VilissaThompson , @BlackDisability & @powernotpity on Twitter.

You can read more about Michael Hickson’s story here: https://notdeadyet.org/2020/06/adapt-of-texas-protests-hospital-killing-of-michael-hickson-a- black-disabled-man.html

[oceanic-vampire]

oh and especially happy disability pride month to black disabled people diagnosed or not we're a whole different level of neglected and its fuckin hard out here man

[intentkitten]

PayPal is in my name but I directly transfer all donations for M directly to M because she does not have PayPal and not everyone has venmo or cashapp either.

[izukuleeyoung]

I need to make 350 each day over the next four days.

I'm trying to add two shirts to the site today. But if you want readings let me know. I have to do everything and anything.

If I could make 350 every day until the end of the month I could square away so much ish.

Please tag people. 🙏🏽

Folks were doing those follow trains but I really need help and need to actually get more done.

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[doriandreamzwrites]

Body is Suck (And So is Brain)

          By

Dorian Snow

Maybe it’s all in your schizo head, little Kitzo

It’s all made up, you crazy silly child

Brain and Body singing in unison, blood and pus singing a sickly tune

Pain, beautiful and glorious Pain, joins the Choir of Filth

Oh Kitzo, you poor schizo, you could have never beaten me

The cards were stacked against you from the start, your body is wrong

People that look like you, are never believed

You didn’t have the grit

You’ve left nothing but, Broken Promises and friendships gathering dust

You left everyone one read, Oh, oh! Remember when you used to read? 

What happened to their smart, smart girl? 

Oh that’s right, We killed that fucking bitch

She has long since decayed, while only her husk survives

We’ll never let you go, you belong to us, and we are such joyful sadists

[singsongraptor]

You ever have a moment where you realize you belong to a community you didn't think you were part of before? That was me last night struggling with my listening practice for Japanese. I didn't really think I was HoH before, but this year got me fucked up frfr I can't hear shit.

It's hard to claim a spot when my hearing test keeps coming back normal, but I really struggle to hear. It's auditory processing disorder & compression on my auditory nerve, so not really anything that can be treated with hearing aids, nevermind that my test is always in range.

But, I am constantly "huh/what/say that again" *turns every source of extraneous noise I possibly can off, move closer, replay replay replay replay, more volume*, "are my headphones in right?"

And I know these words from my test! I just cannot separate them from other words! Now in two languages! Idk what to do about it, I wasn't tryna do live interpreting anyway, but it's still annoying and difficult. It's hindering my speech skills indirectly too, but it's not a problem that's recordable yet! Cuz hearing tests don't measure real world ability! Anyway, y'all got tips?

Feeling like I need to learn two sign languages now lolsob not that that's a bad thing, I just got limited time and energy and even less money to pay people to teach me.

[dating--while--disabled]

I absolutely fucking hate how Medical Facilities think that if they smile and give you baby talk that somehow the lack of Quality Care will be overlooked. You don't have to be an obvious asshole to have clear discriminatory medical practices.

[soullessjack]

Hello sorry for tagging. I am very sick, my asthma is at its maximum level, my nose freezes, I have no medicine or food. I am in bad shape financially, I am a black disabled, who uses multiple medications, I pay for my food and lodging

Unfortunately I do not have all the resources to keep me safe, that is why I need your help, whatever you can contribute to me will be of great help.

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[magicalblerdpenn]

So I need to get something off my chest. I'm 33 and I've had a few invisible disabilities for several years now, but I'm reluctant to call myself disabled. One reason why is due to internalized ableism and trauma; I experienced ableist bullying in school and emotional abuse at home that made me ashamed to talk about and acknowledge my invisible disabilities until last year.

The other reason is that I'm a queer person of color and a caregiver. Disabled people of color are rarely acknowledged, both inside and outside the outside the disability community. I've also rarely seen disabled folks acknowledged in the LGBTQ community. I already feel invisible sometimes as a queer person of color and until recently, trying to acknowledge my invisible disabilities just made me feel more out of place.

There is also a strained relationship between disabled folks and caregivers because there is a long documented history of some caregivers murdering disabled folks. I'm a caregiver to a parent who I have a complicated relationship with and I've been a caregiver since the age of 22. If I had the choice and the finances, I wouldn't be her caregiver at all. However, I don't and my ability to caregive is also affected by my invisible disabilities, which include depression, anxiety, neurodivergence, and being hard of hearing. Unfortunately, these disabilities aren't visiblity severe enough for me to be considered disabled by anyone.

I don't want to talk over visibly disabled folks but I'm also tired of having certain needs unmet because either I or someone else won't acknowledge my invisible disabilities. I'm a queer disabled person of color and a caregiver and I demand to be seen and heard.

[forsapphics]

Happy Disability Pride Month! 🩶💚❤️🤍💛💙🩶🌈 (x)

[intentkitten]

Yesterday (June 29,2023), one of my girlfriend's children passed after spending 2 months in the hospital. In addition to everything else happening, she is now having to plan a funeral for a child.

I made this graphic yesterday which is why it still says "today".

We need your help.

We need money.

[izukuleeyoung]

ATTN: I am going all-in on working on my content and designs, and fortifying my online store.

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I am trying to gain steady income while getting my health together, and readings and streaming has been helping a lot with not being lonely and getting my things done.

Join me for Drawing, writing, organizing, cleaning, cooking and more about my life 💚

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[jesterraconteuse]

You don't understand there's a part of me that wants Alfred Pennyworth to never age but there's another part that's like

As Alfred grows older his body grows tired and everyone notices. And for Bruce that's his surrogate father. For everyone else that's Grandpa. Immediately there's a secret boot camp in the Batcave for everyone to start learning how to better care for themselves. Selina Kyle assisting of course.

There's already disability accommodations for Barbara so they just need to tweak and add some stuff. They've learned from her needs and start researching on how to care for the elderly for Alfred specifically.

On paper he's still a butler but really everyone (who lives or stays for a long time in Wayne manor) makes sure they learn how to do the hardwork for themselves. Most of his job is just to be there for them honestly. They insist on doing things for themselves.

But Alfred is Alfred. So he knows what's going on. And he's so deeply proud of them. He doesn't let him do anything he insists he can or wants do himself. He's still his own person after all, and they gradually learn his boundaries and patterns.

Bruce keeps paying him but not in a way you'd pay a butler usually. More in a way where you'd send money to your retired parents.

Do you see my vision?

[doriandreamzwrites]

HELP! My Best Friend is KILLING Me!

       By

Dorian Snow

(Rating: PG/PG-13)

Hi, it’s me, your bestest friend,

Most toxic friend, leech, moocher,

Weighing you down, rocks in your pockets

I am the devil in your blood, constricting your veins

I’ll leave you broken and diseased, lingering long after, to admire my work

You’ll be left friendless, jobless, your family all gone

Pathetic little girl, stomach so full, even when empty

What’s this? You’re bloated after a sip of water? Stomach twisting and turning?

That’s me, love, the demon in your guts, inviting my sickly friends, to infect and leave you disorientated 

I am your body, your brain, your blood

That pain in your stomach?

That’s me my dear, reminding you of my love

(DON’T YOU TAKE THAT FUCKING MEDICINE!! I’LL FUCKING KILL YOU BITCH)

Oh dear, let me compose myself, I didn’t mean to yell, I’m sorry I scared you

Of course, you can take that pill, I swear I’ll never be back 

(Unless it’s really funny)

I won’t come back, to watch the tears stream down your face, my favorite sight

Don’t forget, my darling, I was here, when no one else was, no one will ever love you, not the way I do

I embraced you, when no one else would touch your putrid flesh

I am selfish, don’t forget, if I can’t have you… No one else will