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okay so i have, like. a lot of msa doodles that i just haven't posted anywhere,, mostly of aus i've barely talked about, if at all,,, and like. i've mostly been waiting on posting some of them until i writes lil smth 'bout 'em,, since i have a habit of sharing art for aus and then never doing anything with them again,,, but like. haven't been in the mood to write for a while 👍. so i might as well share 'em now instead of letting them rot,, dkdjsks. so here's a peek at what goes on inside my mind!
(the last doodle was colored by sap @/pinesented my good friend sap)
#my art#mystery skulls animated#msa arthur#arthur kingsmen#msa lewis#lewis pepper#msa vivi#vivi yukino#msa mystery#yes that first drawing is a cinderella au. no i'm not elaborating.#also that lone mystery doodle isn't for an au. i just wanted to draw him.#msa body swap au#<- like three of these are for this au#sorry for not posting anything 'bout it since the comic; i ran out of energy 😔#still need to plan things out further before i feel comfy writing smth for it#also that second drawing is the first thing i ever made for this au. not too happy with it personally; but i figured i'd still share it!#also not too happy with how i did the fifth one either; tbh#was trying smth experimental w/ the style(friend was playing pm ttyd and i got inspired);; but uhh. could have gone better;; dmdndkd#also i made him orange instead of ourple. woops#beyond that tho it's fine
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#art#digital art#my art#it's man-made horrors beyond your comprehension time#i'm sure it's fine tho#flesh and meat and such#angels#computers#gore#?#machines
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Makima, devils and self-fulfillment
Dumping some Makima and CSM thoughts after a part 1 binge bc I think about her forever and ever. I’m sure I’m forgetting some devil lore, feel free to correct what i get wrong/what’s been confirmed. On the table of contents there’s why & how Makima got fixated on Chainsaw, her revealing liking for the country mouse and discussion of her nature & emotions & desires. Was the scorpion doomed to be a scorpion?
The most of this post was thought of during a conversation with @saccharineomens and I don’t think it makes sense to jump into the spiral it sent me on without first laying down the interesting groundwork theorizing she did:
"Thinking about how makima herself wants to be deified. I wonder whether she recognizes the difference between Love As Worship and the love that Aki, Power, and Denji had. She says she wants to help humanity by having Chainsawman eat the “bad” devils, but why does she want to help humans? Because she was ordered to by the Prime Minister? No, her drive seems much more personal than that, it seems like she teamed up with the PM for contractual reasons. (In the most recent chapters we see governmental members wanting certain devils to be eaten, too. What was Makima’s relationship with them? She’s too independent to just follow THEIR orders, she’s Control.)
So is she wanting to better humanity for the accolades, or out of the goodness of her heart? She sees the big picture. She sees any small sacrifice as worth it for the end result, and she’s ruthless. Perhaps she thinks that a more sedate human race would be easier to control? But Makima doesn’t loathe humanity. She never acts like she sees all humans as lesser. She loves humanity’s creations, like good food and movies. She just wants Good Things all the time
She says she prefers the country mouse BUT adds a story where she helps exterminate country mice like vermin. She likes the simplicity yet rejects the idea of being simple. Makima the complex individual you are"
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The story itself seems to prefr the country mouse. Well- it strikes a balance, shows that a risk to live good & fully can be very worth it, but still that stability over ambition is preferable, proning having a simple happy life over fame, a simple job instead of a dangerous one, etc etc. And I do find Makima’s answer on this so so interesting, she prefers the country mouse, but this preference isn’t out of affection or sympathy but because of how relaxing it feels to exterminate them when they cause problems.
Order satisfies her. Her order satisfies her. She likes the action of rooting out disorder. Maybe this is the devil part, like how Power especially wants blood and drinking it, I feel there’s an itch to every devil, and for Makima it’s a very rigid world view/morality/standards & making things follow her rules and submit to her order.
And maybe this is why she’s attached to humans too, why she felt it was worth it to stick with the government- because devils are chaotic by nature (it’s a whole plot point that hell is essentially a free-for-all battleground for example), meanwhile humans are the species that universally rule Earth with systems they invented and instilled. They made then enforced rules, complex and intricate webs of them. She feels alienated amongst devils but she understands the humans’ need for an orderly organised society, and now she wants to be part of it. Control and conquest require social dynamics after all, requires civilizations or groups. War is chaotic while peace is, well, peaceful— Makima resents her sisters for being death, famine and war, things that throw the world in such chaos. She wants a world of perfect order, no matter how much collateral damage there will be if the end result is control.
This is even more interesting if you consider that yes, Makima is untouchable of her own design, she deifies herself with her omnipresent amount of control and the sway over others that she seeks and encourages— There is this urge to dehumanize her for it, that yes, she is the devil of control and that means she was never going to be any different, have any more feeling be any less uncanny. And I love part 2 so much for this, because it shows us the war devil and the famine devil and we see how frankly uncharismatic with poor self-discipline they are, Nayuta too, and it helps us realize just how much Makima’s success was self-made.
She admires Chainsaw Devil, the Hero of Hell, because he had his own code and his own rules and he made Hell, the chaos pit, submit to them unfailingly. Wherever he goes he decides what he does and what happens to the people he encounters but does so consistently, he has his mechanism and his rules that he always obeys, and he fulfills them every time. It’s still a mystery the why of Chainsaw Devil’s behavior back then and how it works exactly, maybe Pochita left hell because he was tired of these rules he lived by like chains, but still, he was a servant to his code. Makima would have been glad being killed and eaten by Chainsaw Devil because it’d have been becoming part of his design, his conquest, his domination, she’d have been part of that —his— order. Through her death she would be shaping his world and be part of a conqueror’s making history. Like how she appreciates the country mice that die for the sake of order. Like how sacrifices must be made to herself, like listing the name of every person whose life was lost to the Gun Devil— All for the ~greater good~, for her vision for the world. Conquest always thinks its reasons are justified.
And she does mention with the country mice thing that she goes out to a friend’s farm every year! She has a human friend?? That she visits yearly and she genuinely likes it?? Ultimately she lives a busy city life because of her goal and drive and her urge & satisfaction with overseeing shaping the world herself, but part of her, like so many characters including Angel and Aki and Reze, wishes she could live a slow peaceful country life. Moviegoing and dogs and mice in a farm- Wouldn’t it be so much simpler if Makima could find fulfillment and happiness in being a farmer, in keeping control of her own farm, getting satisfaction from exterminating vermin and expertly getting everything right, the right crops grown at the right time on the right soil? Here, too, in a way it’s trying to have full control of an ecosystem, but her goals would be easier to achieve and better, without ceaseless sacrifice or much pressure. But Makima wants grandiosity and her goal does matter to her on a fundamental and moral level, she does think she knows what’s best for the world, and with the power to change it why wouldn’t she strive to? Visiting the farm is just a break, just something she does in fall to help out and just in time to see the vermin extermination. It calms her, then it’s back to actual work.
In capitalism, even the one at the very top of the ladder is ultimately alienated from others and often unsatisfied by their lifestyle, always wanting more and more power because surely that’s the extra edge they must be missing to be content— like how Makima thinks she wants to dominate Chainsaw Devil instead of being his equal. And she says it herself too, she likes humans the way humans like dogs…….. And she keeps so many dogs :( Makima prefers the country mice because they’re calming to root out, maybe because she usually mainly deals with city mice. It’s very easy to equate humans to the mice in this allegory because it’s pretty direct and she’s already likened humans to lesser animals compared to her. She’s self-isolating by design for her design but she still craves relationships and contentment, and the dogs are the embodiment or her want for bonds and occasional simplicity because there is no possible ulterior motive, no way they tie back into her wider plan. They’re her personal life— something that feels so alien when speaking about Makima. Personality and individuality and likes and preferences and friends they visit every year. She likes how easily she can train a dog and how they become putty in her hands, at her beck and call, how much they love her and how much she enjoys their love. How simple and straightforward and easy it is. She keeps them because she likes being loved by them and loving them, and she’s gotten and raised so many. A conqueror always wants more and more and more, is never satisfied.
Devils and agency
Like Power the blood devil wanting blood and having a fixation on drinking it like with Denji’s, or how it was shocking that the violence devil was pretty tame and nice and how he himself theorized it was because he was a fiend and possessing a human body… There’s something to be said about nature vs nurture with the devils. The way they reincarnate and always embody their fear makes it seem categorically like nature, that they always always end up fulfilling the role they were named after and born to fill… Outside influence they’re helpless but to conform with. Like the humans accepting their spot in the social ladder and the shittiness of their living conditions and job under capitalism. Makima craved being equals with someone despite being the control/conquest devil, Angel Devil despite claiming to be a devil who likes to see humans dying was haunted by their deaths and wanted to avoid ones like Aki’s. The Ghost Devil being ironically haunted by Himeno, seemingly helping Aki in her memory out of… Lasting affection? Or maybe it was less about being haunted itself and more about it recognizing how Himeno haunted Aki, and acknowledging that, with the memento, paying her respect to the ghost of her. It’s Angel Devil’s devil nature that makes him like human suffering, so then is it his angel nature too to still care about their deaths? Is there truth to this or is that just personality, just our confirmation bias haunting every part of their identity like it might in their own view of themselves too? We do know different reincarnations of devils do have different personalities after all.
Yoru, war devil, is the most interesting one when talking about the nature vs nurture debate with devils. There is how through her we see the perhaps the most the consequences of a devil stopping being feared— we see a horseman for a concept as universal and horrifying as war be reduced to some bird who needs a contract with a human to have any power even just on the situation when meeting Asa. And through the story we get to know her better, and it becomes clear that her goal is fueled in good part by simply wanting to be remembered and respected through fear. Liked, validated, seen a powerful. But what is more isolating than war? Or control? We also see Nayuta accepting others’ house rules. If part 1 shows perhaps the futility of running away from the truth, with Denji’s memory, with escapist coping mechanisms, with passivity and denial under a corrupt system and with abusive relationships- running away from your own feelings and from the reality of things and from all that you are, more complex than simply human or devil or both or neither— part 2 builds upon the theme of cult of personalities, the chainsaw church, etc. The apocalypse is coming, but this celebrity superhero might save us all, or doom us all uh, dunno. The hero of hell reliving the cycle of pressure from responsibilities and expectations, maybe the part will end with Denji running away like Pochita did~
But yes, on the reverse, I think Famine is a very interesting example of how a devil’s namesake may be more innate than coerced by circumstances. One would think that a famine devil would only like inflicting famine upon others, not being famished itself, but Famine has a bottomless stomach that can never, ever be satisfied, sated. I struggle to find a psychological explanation for this, except that maybe instead of her being hungry it’s her feeling empty when she’s not eating, tasting and having that high sensory experience that releases serotonin in humans, sort of like drugs? But I do take this as a step towards the compulsion theory overall, feels like a reach in the consistency otherwise. And compulsion does not mean it’s something that they like nor that it’s something that they fight against, pretty neutral, just a nature that nudges you towards one path. Maybe it’s even just their go-to for entertainment. Maybe it’s the only thing that makes them feel right and whole. But still the debate remains, what is it, a compulsion or an urge or an itch or an active desire or a conscious chosen want? Does it change anything in practice?
And because of all of this earlier, devils being self-fulfilling prophecies with their role is not in unsignificant part nurture, because doing their atrocities is how they stay remembered— feared, powerful, known— hell and devils are a very isolating place and breed after all, and we do see devils can want companionship. Existentially, it’s their purpose and how they justify their place in the world, in the terrifyingly vast and unknowable cosmos.
We still know so little of what makes Chainsaw Devil so special, why his carnage is so self-controlled. Despite a chainsaw maybe being possibly one of the most "nature" thing you can be— a tool to cut things, a human tool that can be helpful for many things, something to be wielding by another at their judgement on what they decide, but mainly something to cut, a tool suited for carnage, to hurt and to destroy. A blade with a toothed chain, spinning around and around and around endlessly on the same road at the same pace. Such a…. Innately circular concept. And yet the Chainsaw Devil is his own, not driven by an urge or by chaos but his very own brand of order, his own unique assigned purpose, a "if you call i’ll come running to help" policy equalizing everyone. He chooses to withhold his destruction and interference otherwise, and then he chooses to be used. If it’s a choice, of course.
Maybe this is what inspired Makima so much, that Chainsaw Devil could decide what to make of himself despite expectations or innate role. Because even Hell he decided & managed to subjugate under his will and whim, with a precise vision and process. When Chainsaw Devil acts like Denji or is defeated, Makima clicks her tongue and loses her admiration and respect. Makima admired and liked Chainsaw Devil, but only as long as he matched her great image of him in her mind, as long as he followed he rules for what she thinks he should be like. She admired him for his unrivaled self-made success, but once he stepped out of that to truly embody self-fulfillment and agency, disappearing from hell to live on his own road at the beat of his own drum… Well. Surely that was a mistake she has to correct. However their second battle ends, the better conqueror will have prevailed and she’s happy about that, all in the spirit of domination and subjugation.
Imo Makima’s biggest tool, similarly capitalism’s most helpful effect for its own purposes, is complacency. Resignation and passivity helps uphold the system and go along the flow of the will of the people in power. Aki and Reze go along with orders even when knowing their job is trash, etc. In Angel Devil especially we see him go along with the flow uncaring about anyhing, and we discover it was in part due to Makima taking away memories that motivated him. If every devil decides this is just how things are and how things should be that’s what they’ll continue to be and do mindlessly, not pursuing a better life like Chainsaw Devil and Denj and not seeking to change the world like Makima. I think even Makima veils herself to a lot of things, she doesn’t like to think deeply about some things, like her desire for connection, or how making bad movies disappear is strenuous and unsustainable and requiring sacrifices at best— how her judgement is as subjective as anyone else. How liking the country mouse and her friend back at the farm and her dogs could be not devoid of sentimality. Wanting bad movies erased is her one biggest show of selfishness, of pettiness and individuality, it’s about her tastes, simple as. About how she can have tastes, and cry seeing a scene of people hug, and want things that aren’t logical, her ideology and mind twisted into a pretzel to avoid acknowledging that she doesn’t live and breathe purely for the mission she���s made a single-minded robot out of herself to accomplish. Nayuta is assertive and selfish and loud, Makima is manipulative and strategically both for her goals and for coping hollow.
Everything in her plans and goals she says is for the greater good, necessary evil, manufactured happiness the way she’ll have decided for people— and that’s the thing isn’t it, like with War, it’s the crack that shows it was all truly about herself after all. Her self-made deification still had the flaw that a self made it. Makima is not omniscient, and it’s not Chainsaw Devil the not-so-fellow-kindred-soul conqueror who gets the best of her, but a city mouse, a dog, someone she would have never thought to respect, Denji.
#Fumi rambles#Chainsaw man#makima#analysis#meta#The goal is moreso me dropping thoughts than being flawless on every aspect of the lore so if and when i get things wrong b merciful….#Maybe her liking of control is why she remembers the ww2 authoritarian fascists. I don’t want to say the word jic for tumblr search#Pity is never a factor When mercy is a sign of a talentless actor#And as you grow its hold on your throat starts to falter And once you go beyond pure humanity's border#You will come back like a dooooog 😭#This’d be a different topic but. I don’t think makima likes denji as much as one of her dogs. If so i’d say it was in the moments where#she brought him to movies but even then….. i think she has more fondness for her dogs bc w denji it was indifference and derision#I love you please humiliate me / strip my dignity and laugh my honey#God. God i’m fine. I’m so okay about csm#Makima has a cryptic but strong sense of morals?? That doesn’t align with ours obvi but#‘Someone like you has no right to wish for a normal life do they?’ What do you meannn what do you meannnnn#What is this contempt for denji. Does she see herself as moral or part of those that are city mice bc they’re undeserving of a calm life???#Maybe famine only feels fed on humans and their blood 🤔 or their fear. man idk idk idk idk but i wanna see more of her quirks#And before someone says ‘but every demon likes to drink blood’ power is especially fixated on it tho cmannnn#Did Angel lie when he said he liked seeing humans die?? Did his haunting thing become worse after meeting Aki?? Did he suppress it#because he feels like he doesn’t belong as a devil??? bc he’s suppressing his memories of the villagers he cared about??#Has he just been trying so hard not to care for so long. Passive bc he thought that’s all he could or should be#AGHHHHH#Spoilers#There’s a lot more i’d have liked to touch on like the popular theory that Makima was *raised* by the government#and i’ve seen a take that the ‘my friend at a farm’ thing is all euphemism from makima about her troublesome human killing job ykyk#but i think the phrasing is too literal and natural for that. The snow and soil talk everything. It’s a perfect allegory but it can be both
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Hey Fray!! Been following you for a bit (love your art it’s so CRUNCHY I wanna EAT IT) and I started drawing your vampire oc a bit ago! Wanted to make fanart of her as a Christmas gift :]
But just now I saw she’s your persona and I was wondering if it’s okay for me to go on?? It’s slightly suggestive and I really don’t wanna make you feel uncomfortable or anything. Like yeah, you draw suggestive art of her but idk how you feel about others doing it, and I wanna make sure.
Here’s the sketch just so you can have an idea of the vision I had:
WHAT THA HELLLLL FANART WAAOUGGHHHHH ?????????? CHRISTMAS GIFT ?????????? THANK YOU SM ?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!??!!??!!?!?!?! MERY CHRYSTLER QUISMOIS CHRISMIS WOWOWOWOOWOWOW !??!?!?! THIS IS SO COOL WHAT THE EL ????????????
#as for the concerns its ok !#i mulled it over and i think slightly suggestive is fine ! just nothing beyond that pls unless i know u / were mutuals or smthn#bc that kinda feels weird 2 me#THIS IS SO COOL THO TYVM !!!!!!!!!! MERRY CHRISMOIUSSSSSSS EARLY CHRISMIS FOR MREE#WOWOWOOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWIEEE#not my art#franswers
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cat!jmart :3
...these two are from a horror podcast. in canon
...continues drawing them as cute cats on pastel and rainbow backgrounds anyways
(cropped pfp-adjacent versions made for my own amusement lol)
#this art unleashed terrible knowledge upon me about the specifics of the weird color issues this monitor has#WHY THE HECK DO THE FILE'S THUMBNAILS HAVE THE CORRECT COLORS BUT ANY ACTUAL IMAGE DISPLAYER WASHES THEM OUT???#even my dad was beyond baffled and deemed it cursed and incurable#luckily it doesn't seem to actually be effecting the colors of the files on export tho so. guess it's fine ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#tma cats#cat!jon#cat!martin#cat!jmart#jmart fanart#jonmartin fanart#tma fanart#my art#my digital art#my tma art
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Your noir!mj is everything. She deserved so much more than Just love interest laser beam. Like there's so much she could add to the story and I love her
I know!!! It’s insane to just reduce her to only a love interest when she’s such a compelling character. Idk why fun characters who can have agency and will to shape the world and narrative are just never given the chance. It makes for a better story??? But whatever. I have no clue what happens behind the scenes of comic stuff so I don’t even know who to point a finger at LMAO
#criiitteeerrrrrre :’’’’)#thank u!!!#glad u like her meep#I haven’t read anything beyond EWOAF in forever but I feel like even tho she gets a bit more panel time (I THINK??) she just gets screwed#over 😭😭😭😭#noir writers please… there r themes and motifs here that could be bolstered by 1 fine young woman#think before we publish god bless#I’m even less familiar w Spider-Man’s more current runs but I think I heard she hasn’t been treated the best either??????#idk idk#all I know is.. everytime they change her passion away from acting another Angel loses its wings#also bring back Gayle Watson 2024#tragic sisters… THE TIME IS NOW🤺🤺‼️‼️‼️#asks#lactoseintolerantswag
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Day 239 | id in alt
Girl proceeded to get it together and then talk to Maki in the same 30 seconds.
#dailykugisaki#jjk#kugisaki nobara#fushiguro megumi#she aint finna get caught lacking when Maki is right there. the fact shes just straight up fine in seconds flat#then she proceeds to immediately talk about Maki and say theyre doing this for Maki GIRL YOY ARE BEYOND NOT SLICK#why does Fushiguro look like that ewww#i fucked him up even tho idgaf#whatever
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Hi I've never sent in an ask before sorry but I wanted to point out the thing fueling my copium for Professor X in Rivals is that, sure, Charles died in Magneto's Rivals lore but also if u read Magneto's first lore story technically his Wanda died too, but Wanda in the game because she's from another timeline where Erik died and she became Sorceress Supreme (presumably because Strange died in her timeline as well) SO TECHNICALLY BECAUSE THE GAME'S LORE PREMISE THAT MULTIPLE TIMELINES ARE CONVERGING DUE TO THE DOOMS' BEEF WITH EACHOTHER WE COULD GET CHARLES FROM ANOTHER TIMELINE and i think the cherik nation can cook with this ☝️ -poro anon
i need charles from an alt timeline in rivals and i need him and erik to make out sloppy style while crying in front of everyone during their reunion
#snap chats#like you know that scene from scrubs. that but a lot more wet. 'snap thats fucking disgusting' OK AM I WRONG???? im not.#@ the first ask tho. hi hello so happy to hear from you poro anon welcome to the family 🥰#SECOND OF ALL idk ... im still iffy on how distant charles is from erik's lore bits bar that one line#like not even a reminiscing on what happened to him or why cerebro's destroyed ... ANYTHING .... its just weird to me#not even mentionin carrying on charles' dream in krakoa in his lore desc .. like did they just not make krakoa in eriks timeline... doubt..#and that isnt me being like 'charles is dead in this timeline' it just feels like rivals doesent want to mention him too much#so i have little hope he'll actually be in the game beyond those two mentions#but i could be wrong- i will give the benefit of the doubt and say theres no reason to mention charles. FINE. ill take it#i would just like another mention of him 😔#anyway i hope erik skips and cheers if charles come back and his bones rattle like a maraca
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I wish Hazbin had more than 8 episodes this season bc 1) the pacing is all over the place (outside of episode 4) and 2) it would’ve been so nice to actually see when and why Alastor started to genuinely care about the hotel.
The pilot and the first episode of the show characterize him as sticking around for the entertainment because of how silly the idea of redeeming a sinner is to him but then episode 5 has him fully backing up Charlie’s wishes for the hotel and even tells Mimzy she’s welcomed to stay if she actually wants to try redemption and was upset she had put the hotel in danger with her presence.
I think that turnaround in Alastor’s perspective is so interesting but when did that happen? Why did that happen? How did that happen? What made him care?
He clearly still has ulterior motives, there’s 0 denying that given his scene with Husk in the same episode, but he does seem to actually care about Charlie and her hotel. Which can be connected to the leash Husk claimed Alastor is bound by but Alastor is also the most distant from the cast.
We never see him around everyone for more than a few minutes at a time. Everyone went out to the club in episode 6 but Alastor is nowhere to be found in the entire episode.
That bond with anyone in the hotel, even Charlie, that would explain Alastor’s sudden support in the hotel has not been shown on screen and I really wish the show had more time to do that.
That’s really what Hazbin lacks. Time. Time to slow down and just let the characters breathe. Everything is moving so fast because they probably didn’t know a second season was coming until later which I can understand but that also means the plot takes priority over the characters and a majority of the cast is suffering from it.
Angel’s the only character who’s gotten an episode solely about him and exploring, expanding, and developing his character and his bonds in the hotel are what we see the most. This makes sense given he’s the main guest in the hotel but no other character has been able to have their own character and arc be explored the way Angel has.
The show needed more episodes like Masquerade to explore the cast before diving headfirst into the Heaven vs. Hell redemption conflict. That was always going to be the direction the show went in but they needed so much more time to do it because there are so many characters to juggle and so much is happening. Big moments that are supposed to matter don’t hit as hard as they should bc the cast is overstuffed and everyone is fighting for screen time.
This isn’t the teams fault, they’re doing a decent job with the limit time they were given but 8 episodes is not enough time for a show this ambitious with everything it’s trying to do. Doubling the episode count to 16 would’ve done wonders for the pacing and the show could slow down and take its time.
A lot of what Hazbin presents are good ideas. It’s all interesting but none of it is given enough time because the big Heaven and Hell plot has to take a majority of the shows focus. I do hope season 2 fixes this but that’s also gonna depend where the show is going after season 1 is over. We’ll see next week.
My main wish for the show going forward is each character gets their chance to be explored just as Angel has.
#hazbin has the millie problem of helluva boss but like everyone is millie#you understand who they are on a basic level but that’s kinda it#there’s not enough depth beyond what little we know#the show tries especially with Vaggie and Charlie#and i think Charlie is handled better than most of the cast outside of Angel#but oof Vaggie#i see what they wanted to do with her but again the pacing of it is a mess#everyone else in the hotel has their moments for sure#i utterly love husk and i wanna see more of him#but he needs his own episode that explores him and his whole deal with alastor#which would in turn explain some of alastor’s stuff#ik he’s supposed to be a mystery and that’s fine#but we can still learn more about him as a person without knowing all of his past y’know#anyway all I thought as i wrote this post was wow i’d get jumped on twitter for saying this#just wanted to talk about thisss#i love hazbin and helluva but they are never beating the pacing issue allegations#helluva’s pacing is actually more annoying for different reasons tho#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers
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something extremely funny about watching the first warden die TWICE and rook just going :/
#da posting#she says ‘sorrows sorrows prayers’#effie de riva#she was BORN to be a hater and I live by that#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#datv#dragon age: the veilguard#also effie got a haircut everyone say ‘beautiful haircut effie’!!!!!!!!!!#also tho quest spoilers beyond this tag so BEWARE and BE AWARE ->#historically I’ve been like ‘I don’t really care if they’re referencing prior media the vague retcons are fine’#and yet every moment I’m in the profane city I’m like ‘and where the FUCK is the architect’#like YES isseya I’ve had several extremely fun + cool moments as a da novel reader where I said ‘oh I’ll bet that’s….’ and been correct#but also like….. bring back my most literate yet extremely stupid arcane horror
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oh lullaby promo photos of angel in the middle of a rainstorm cradling his newborn son wrapped up in his leather jacket because they had nothing else to wrap him in we're really in it now
#feeling emotions beyond comprehension about angel and connor again. it's fine tho 👍#buffyverse#angel the series#ifer rambles
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kicks rocks ..
#I honest to God don’t know how to speak to anyone on here ..#not even on here only I mean in general#it’s fine it’s fine I’m ok on my lonesome IT IS OK !#<- convincing myself. I’m such a liar tho#why do I have to reach out first 24/7 like am I not interesting enough ??#I actually feel sick this is genuinely sickening.#SO beyond sickening.#like I swear I don’t complain 24/7 ?? but like when the only thing that happens to u is negative and ur only surrounded by negativity no#matter what positive thing you try what else do I have#I don’t understand why has it been my whole life I have to pander and give give give 24/7 to even be considered a distant friend#I always used to get ppl gifts I always made gifts too and used to get ppl snacks and try to be overly empathetic#in fact a girl said I’m better than her psychologists#and now I bring my coworkers snacks too all the time and delivered the sandwiches my mum made for them#I feel stupid. stupid and used. and pathetic.#I know for a fact I’d be thrown away so quick if I didn’t do those things. and I do them bc I care for the person I’m not actively like#oh I’ll do this so they like me no .. I do that bc I genuinely adore the person but I’m not stupid ..#ik when it’s like ppl are only there bc they just tolerate me or they like what I can give#but I want to take only for once .. just once. Ik I’ll hate taking and whenever someone offers I blatantly refuse always#but it’s the thought .. the thought means the entire world and beyond to me#it just all bottles down to the fact I am insanely replaceable and forgettable and not noticeable. that’s about it.#I’m not back. and yea that’s a stupid thing to even put as a note bc there is zero chance anyone even noticed lol 😭 ! but yea ..#sigh I privated practically my whole blog again yay#fnsoalsm the reason I say coworkers instead of friends (bc we are actually super close so I should be calling them friends but ..) is bc I#refuse to call anyone my friend anymore. I just#give up. I’m so tired .. so so tired of these surface level lies I don’t think I’ll ever have friends and that is ok.#anyways on a positive note I was watching arcane and words cannot describe how much jinx means to me. actually they can give you an idea ..#she is actually soooo adorable to me and my heart hurts for her too sobsss#her and I are getting married fr LOOLLL (cover your ears Kaveh)#Ik for a fact she’s gonna get screwed over in season two I haven’t rlly watched it yet tho but I’ve seen spoilers
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I read the epilogue chapter, and yeah, there is A LOT of misinformation and it's definitely not that bad. My biggest issues with it is that it was framed really poorly, esp on Ochako's storyline, and it's something beyond shipping.
my biggest problem with the ending as a whole has remained pacing, and the lack of some scenes we all assumed would for sure be coming. I think this chapter is overall fine and follows (more or less) the expected route, but how small the entire epilogue was make it stick out weirdly.
#i for one think ochako's storyline could have been handled significantly worse and that for a canonization of a m/f pairing in the last#chapter it's like. largely okay. but again i was predicting “hey kacchan we called our children himiko and tenko will you be my best man”#so like#and maybe im settling? or maybe im just good at and really enjoy filling in the blanks?#there are things i genuinely did not like beyond the pacing but i just dont like shitting on a story i like so much and an author i like so#much like these things dont ruin anything for me and i understand if they do for others but i do actually like the canon we have#(even if im going to be writing a few fix its lmao)#the only thing is i do think katsuki and izuku should've maybe had another talk but thats within the realm of there clearly wasn't enough#time slash space#i think izuku refusing katsuki's place at his agency is like. fine. because its a way to show they're not too codependent or whatever which#fits that whole avoiding drama thing horikoshi said 431 does#in general i think every single choice horikoshi has made could've been received better and in general /been/ better if he had more space t#develop it#and i think the reason why im fine with all of it is because it doesn't bother me to fill in the gaps with whatever i want#ask//#by the way i think everyone should in fact remember that thing about 429 being the epilogue and 430 being the curtain call#not necessarily as a way to see 431 as non canon (if it makes you sleep better tho do that) but as a way to remember that the ending#that is clearly intended to be read as the real ending is 430. what with all the wrap around moments and the final words etc#just. 430 is the ending that is called my hero academia etc. to me 431 is exactly what it's called: more. canon#but not the ending. extras.
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its kind of serendipitous that after my brain ordering a halt on 90% new media the past 3-ish years, it FINALLY lets up and i'm allowed to start in on the stack of books i bought two ENTIRE years ago. i looked up the series and the next book is out this august.
i finished book 3 in two days, now i'm on book 4. Pretty sure I can do it and 6 plus the short story anthology in plenty of time to grab that when it comes out.
book 4 is a little harder to engage with bc it's a departure from the rest of the series so far, and the two protagonists are 9, if very VERY smart 9 yer olds.
#each book covers a pretty short amount of time tbh so even tho the first book was written in 2012 in universe it's been less than a year#this would be the elfhome series by wen spencer#i loved the first two books when i first got them years ago#and book 3 is FANTASTIC#and 4 is interesting i'm just reading the nonsense these two BABIES are about to get up to and going oh NO#to say nothing of the way the bad guys in this series are frankly about six steps beyond horrible#i'm sure it will be fine#me#my life#books
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does one ever truly stop being suicidal or do you just get better at ignoring it. i dont know
#personal#sui mention#idk how im meant to live like this. id rather not frankly even with the few good things in my life it all seems far too heavy to deal with#whatever i just keep ignoring it maybe one day ill convince myself im fine and not someone who is broken beyond repair#its not true tho i dont think im a person at all really but no one seems to understand i think under my skin is hiding something wrong idk#i should stare at the wall and maybe ill find some answers one day. or in my research i will find something someday#i cant die before i have answers so i stay alive. but i keep thinking that maybe dying would give me the answers? bothersome#today isnt the day i know tho. ill know if there ever is the day but its not today. i WILL know
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SethYugi meets in the Afterlife when Yugi went there to Save Kaiba (DSOD ending) is the concept that got me interested in them- sure, the main Appealing Point is obviously to reel up Kaiba in Rival setting, but it made me start seeing SethYugi as one of the Interesting Yugi ship too.
Seth's older, more relaxed, with more freedom to express himself. He got Power, he got Love, he's easy to talk to and can/will take care of you. In this setting he had no more "baggage" to carry from the living world, free & relaxed he literally lives in Paradise- he got a Wife and had dragon children. In Kaiba's pov he's the most perfect version of himself that he never realizes he dreamed of- kinda similar to how Yugi sees Atem
Seth and Yugi never actually meet but I like to think he already knows Yugi, because he's Atem's destinied Vessel- Seth should've at least Known abt him. has watched him from his world and got fascinated, would probably enjoy teasing him once they meet too (I feel like he gonna start a Fight with Yugi the first time they meet and taking advantage in how desperate Yugi was to save Kaiba that he would accept anything Seth told him 😂😂)
The most delicious part is exploring Kaiba's Feelings because he can see (a reflection of) Himself through Seth and it would hurt much harder
#rivalshipping#linkshipping#thanks for coming to this ted talk#even tho this doesnt make sense#i think sethyugi is very fine#also sethkisa still going on in this setting#but their bonds go beyond mere jealousy and stuff that only applies to the Living#they are Free they literally in Paradise#seth swoops in to kiss him and yugi panics 'but your wife!!'#and seth just shrugs 'we aren't bind to those rules and our love go beyond that. she doesnt mind this.'#'she can even join us if you want' and yugi splutters 'NO'
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