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I want a comic that shows how the batfam’s disabilities and/or health issues limit their efficacy and the frustration that brings. Give me all of Bab’s monitors going out, her sitting in the dark as her family fights against an unexpected or unknown weapon, and let me see the barely restrained panic. Let her stew in her helplessness, and let her rage at the inconvenience and unfairness of it all. Let her healing be nonlinear, because her incredible feats as Oracle don’t change the fact that she could rush to them right now as Batgirl.
Let Tim feel the proverbial leash of only being able to go so far for so long, because there’s a limit to how many doses of antibiotics he can carry with him. He’s blatantly defied almost every single authority figure he’s ever had, and this is what he has to obey? Let it interrupt his work, and let him obsessively wonder how much more productive he’d be if he didn’t have to spend the time counting and refilling his medications. Let Bruce coming back from a deep space mission be a reminder that there’s an extra step for him to be able to do the same. Let Tim feel the horrible, complicated, conflicting cocktail of gratitude and fury and appreciation and love and guilt when he finds out that each family member carries extra doses on them just in case they get sucked into a portal of some kind on Gotham’s whacked streets.
Let Cass feel the mosquito-bite hurt of not being able to read mission reports as quickly as her family of detectives and geniuses. Let the suggestion of a word-to-text program be offensive before it’s appreciated, because knowing something will be helpful doesn’t always mean she’s ready to accept it. Let her feel trapped by an inability to fully vent what she’s feeling because she doesn’t know the right words. Let her feel the hurt of some people not caring about what she’s trying to say because she can’t always communicate her ideas quickly or concisely enough. Let her hurt turn to rage, because if those people don’t matter then why is she so upset at their decision to disregard her? Why is there a niggling need to prove her worth and intelligence?
I’d just really love to see more of this in fics, comics, etc, because sometimes it’s hurtful even when it shouldn’t be, and sometimes it sucks in ways you never thought it would. Sometimes a disability or health issue actively impedes progress and makes you an inconvenience, and seeing these heroes deal with that would be so helpful in dealing with it.
#let me know of fics where they struggle and try#and continue to struggle and try#because sometimes you can’t fix it#but you can grow and live with it#I’m aware tim doesn’t canonically take antibiotics for asplenia#and that technically it may not be an issue in the new 52#but welcome to the newest episode of ‘canon conflicts with itself so expecting me to care will be disappointing for you’#it’s more impactful this way#and the other members have issues too#these were just what I remembered off the top of my head#dc#tim drake#batman#dc comics#batfam#barbara gordon#cassandra wayne#cassandra cain#red robin#oracle#batgirl#orphan#black bat#batfamily
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why do you hate Joshua Graham or Honest Hearts so much?
This DLC and character represents a bigger issue with fandom spaces I have but particularly fallout fandom in general.
Fallout tends to tackle a lot of topics controversial and not. The first two games it’s heavy cause they are the most satirical and direct with how anti-war, nationalism and etc… they are. 3 loses this as it’s very clear once you play or learn about all the games that Todd and a bunch of guys at Bethesda just liked the 50s post apocalyptic aesthetic and refuse to actually critique the ideals of the time period like the earlier titles.
New Vegas is the game that really gets back into it a degree it almost seems like it’s taking too much on. There are things done exceedingly well while other things are done horribly wrong . I’ve made posts about it before and plan to make a big series of posts (it’s a lot of writing) but my biggest gripe is with Honest Hearts and all the gross and white savior esque depictions it has of indigenous peoples. The entirety if FNV does not do the injustices faced by indigenous people correctly on any count. My two biggest complaints are with the Khans and the tribes in Zion but I’ll talk about the former on a different post.
Both characters of Daniel and Joshua are the most accurate depiction of white saviors I’ve seen and I hate how the DLC tries to justify and defend them. The DLC treats Joshua like this man who has repented for his past actions when he is just retracing his steps after his cruelty bit him in the ass. He was one of the worst parts of the Legion and it is all but explicitly stated that if you don’t force him to be non-violent he will turn the tribes of Zion into the legion 2.0. The Dead Horses and the Sorrows are horribly infantilized by both Daniel and Joshua who both use them for self serving purposes guised by religious duty. The White Legs are the horrible stereotype of violent and savage indigenous and I personally think a lot of their interlinking with Ulysses, his hair and Ulysses character in general are distasteful and very telling of how BIPOC or POC where involved.
But outside of the game it’s the weird obsession people have with these characters ideologies and trying to make them seem more interesting/philosophical than they are. Tumblr is an echo chamber and many fans of Fallout are not the people on this site. Many people are not educated in the issues these characters convey and how poorly they do or used these characters as a poor introduction for their takes. Contrary to what a lot of people believe in, fallout has a prediomeny white cis male fanbase. More importantly a large portion of the fanbase is white.
You can joke how FNV made you trans or see the numbers on post/fics or diverse headcanons but these are kiddy numbers compared to the millions that consume the franchise and aren’t in those more aware spaces or don’t engage in the spaces the same way someone like me does/has to. Their views shape a lot more than people realize and it’s exhausting to be in a space where people don’t correct the more subtle yet toxic aspects of it but also adopt them into some weird quirky view point on the characters or issues. Some people don’t realize and some people don’t care.
My main issue is just the idolizing of these sort of thing in this fandom space and people try to acts like a game like fallout whose tagline is “War never changes” and has never had a game not revolve around political or militaristic factions issues isn’t that deep or doesn’t relate to real issues. I think it’s mainly caused by how over powered you can become and how you can strong arm your way past these learning moments as majority of people who play this game do play it as a power fantasy where they can do so as they please (which of course, go ahead it’s fun) but never take in parallels or lessons in the story as if it was just another first person shooter.
Also like another personal gripe is Cazadores spawn like hell whenever I’m there and I have not found a mod that works to mod them out so I have to play Indigenous Racism the DLC while getting jumped by giant wasps WHILE helping Mormons. Like I cannot catch a break.
#I’m mostly silly or character headcanon focused on this blog#but sometimes I forget some people literally have never interacted with someone slightly outside of their ideologies or don’t learn about#philosophies that don’t pertain to their view point and actively block them out#and so I have like a meltdown and occasionally post about it cause like I see more people hate Danse for regurgitating BoS teachings than#hate Joshua Graham who helped found the legion participated in their practices and still has this weird bloodlust#like make it make sense why do you like this white man genuinly like outside of his aesthetic#I can say silly shit about them hit it’s always I think it’s surreal they even exist while others genuinely wish they did so they could fix#them and some of all don’t realize how quickly jokes lead people down rabbit holes and pipe lines cause ur not gonna see posts even pitying#that man in here#like when I defend Danse it is through the signs and events in game that show he is not stuck in his ways and possibly only adopted those#beliefs because of his tramatic events with super mutants and the bos being very anti anything not human#their are affinity reaction that concern this while Joshua like moans yes when killing the white legs and is always polishing his gun goon#pile like I’ve learned too much about him the Mormon faith and that dlc to be told I’m playing favorites he is not fixable or repentent#this fandom has one of the worst issues of he’s my fave so he can’t do wrong when some of this characters are literal unapologetic rapist#racists or individuals who condone or perpetuate like ideas and concepts like obviously I’m gonna not like them????!#like I still think it’s interest to dissect them and I try so hard to not be a hypocrite but sometimes it’s like the whole this is just a#fun thing for you but like be aware of what you are taking in and reflect like is so important fiction can slowly seep into your morals#I’m rambling and losing track of shit so imma stop here before I reach the tag limit but again dm and ask cause this is the stuff I will#blab about#horrible at normal conversation tho#fallout#fallout new vegas#joshua graham#honest hearts#ask#anon#fallout 3
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man i love yakuya, i really do, i think their dynamic can be really sexy and fun, but i also think it would incredibly easy for kuya to push yakumo too much in a bad way because of yakumo’s eagerness to be good. there needs to be a lot of communication of boundaries and i feel like that wouldn’t happen at first, not until kuya pushes too far and yakumo, despite his non confrontational personality and dislike for seeming selfish, feels he has no choice but but to say something.
because eiden always told him sex should be fun. it should be enjoyable. it definitely shouldn’t make him feel hurt, or scared. and kuya, to his credit, understands how timid and sensitive yakumo can be. he doesn’t actually want to hurt the poor boy. so he listens carefully to any concern yakumo has, and while he doesn’t quite apologize, far too prideful to do such a thing, he does treat yakumo with the softness and patience he needs, making a promise to himself to never push the serpent too far again.
#kuya may be old but sometimes he forgets it’s important to talk about kinks before you just go at it!!#especially when he’s dealing with an unfamiliar partner!!#and yakumo is definitely not into like. the whole hot and cold routine#he can’t stand negligence even as a joke#because the idea that he did something wrong but he has no idea what and he can’t fix it??#his partner is just disappointed in him and he doesn’t know why??#i think that would destroy him tbh#it’s definitely a bumpy road but they get there eventually#nu carnival#yakumo ♡#kuya#yakuya#minors dni#mouser muses
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Keeping my thoughts short as I find trying to write about my emotions just makes me feel them longer as I continue feeling them while writing about them. Do you ever find yourself wishing something upon yourself that would objectively make your life harder because “then it would be easier to make things make sense”. Like, no brain, having more symptoms of neurodivergence wouldn’t make things better except for in the very specific situation of diagnosis. It would just make our life harder the rest of the time. No dysphoria isn’t something to want either. Yes it would make it easier to parse out what the gender situation actually is. In both fronts we just have to be ok with never investigating and never getting an answer, because investigating is miserable due to how unhappy it makes me and without investigating I can’t get an answer. Now please stop thinking about myself and stop feeling the stomach void TM plus nausea.
#my post#Hi there irls I know you are probably not seeing this#I know it’s a running gag that I should see a psychiatrist and get diagnosed. I don’t meet enough criteria#I can’t give exact details as true to what I’ve mentioned I’ve banned myself from looking at the dsm for myself because it makes me miserab#There aren’t enough things to say I’m neurodivergent and something is… off about me or whatever that people can seem to clock there is#Something is but there isn’t enough and I’m going fucking insane about this again#Just sometimes my brain decides it can’t be a girl. That I need to fix it now. I have a binder. Put it on now. It screams as I am busy#And my binder is at home because I’m fucking fine most of the time. My current binder makes my chest too flat. I should get a shittier bind#It says. I don’t have opinions on pronouns except for when I do#oh hey they changed again.#Is my gender fluid? Do I just have dysphoria sometimes and not others? Why is my default state “idgaf” which is so hard to read#Pick a fucking lane me. Stop standing there#Except fucking moving means making myself miserable in the investigation process to pick a side#And so the easiest place to live is on the line between the lanes. I only get clipped by mirrors occasionally. It’ll take months of misery#To try to move again. So here I live.#In between.#I failed at keeping this short. I feel worse than when I started#Why do I bother writing out my emotions at all. It seems like distraction and then bed is always the best option.#Have a good (time of day)
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#going into a tag for a book/movie (not saying which) and seeing ppl talking abt how it should’ve had a ‘and it was all a dream’ ending#so that the characters could have a happy ending and none of the trauma happened and no one died on the end#as if the entire point of the story isn’t about how the world is fucking terrible for people and sometimes you go through the worst#experiences anyone can possibly imagine and you just have to keep surviving and keep going#because by the virtue of the life you live you can’t escape the traumatic aspects of your life#and sometimes that means people die and families splinter and you can’t close your eyes without seeing the worst night of you life#the point is that there is no happy ending and you can’t fix stuff and you have to just keep going on#the ppl who are saying this shit have the literary comprehension of a dead mouse who just want to write abt fucking the characters#anywayyyyyyyyyyyy. moving on.
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I had a performance review today. It wasn’t even that bad; just some areas for improvement. But ever since I have been spiraling HARD down the self-recrimination vortex.
#when you want to say ‘sometimes life sucks’ but you can’t because it objectively doesn’t and all the badness is just living in your head#performance review#work#insecurity#I want man’s approval#and by man I mean the two other gals in charge of me#struggling to fix my mind on things above#I need to anchor my self worth in something other than my personal performance#I think I’m getting dehydrated
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My tradition for when I start a new obscure anime is to always go on ao3 to see if there’s a tag and the reaction from me is always one of three things:
“Oh wow this tag actually has surprisingly decent amount of stuff even if it hasn’t been updated much as of late. Still not 100 fics or anything but good to see about 20 that aren’t crossovers.”
“Oh there’s like- one fic in this tag huh. And it was years ago… And everything else is crossovers for some god foresaken reason. I’m gonna have to write something for this eventually.”
“Why the FUCK does this not have a tag do I really have to do this myself?!”
And the only reason I’m not writing more fics for everything I watch since they tend to fall under the second and third option or even if they don’t I end up liking what I watched a lot is because a red robot looms in my mind preventing me to write anything else- Also I’d get really exhausted from carrying so many fandoms when getter already drags me oml.
#meg text#fanfic rambles#fanfic struggles#ao3#niche fandom#I’m glad for a lot of these it’s been the first option but the second two are the more common#also with the first one it’s usually just one person writing all the fics which AHAAHAH (relates to the pain too well)#also I say fanfic/fanart is always the true measure of how obscure something is over actual post discussing it#discussion is great but if something hardly has fanart or fanfics that’s when you truly know NOBODY knows wtf this is#of course with anime especially older ones it really depends on what language circles your around#because Japan has mecha engrained into their culture unlike here sadly so they’ll know more things#but also they had their fair share of flops and oh boy has that happened to me a lot!#I still can’t get over- how bad shin jeeg did- and how there wasn’t a fucking tag for it#am I truly the carry of the getter fandom when I made the first jeeg fic ever? Think about that#also Kikaider also has NOTHING or at least not for the anime somehow and I need to fix that#I just haven’t because AGAIN I’m stuck to one series and it’s hard to write anything else#even if I feel bad for it sometimes but autism be damned I have the most ideas
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//Venting in Tags:: TW Sewerslide and shit like that
#dude seriously sometimes I think I’d be better off dead. and the people around me would be better off if I wasn’t around#I know they love me they say it all the time but at the same time in the back of my head there’s just this little voice telling me like#telling me its all fake. telling me theyre only staying out of pity for me or something like that#theres so many things wrong with me and if it’s not on the inside or how I act its how Im presented#I hear it all the time ‘you need to lose weight’ or ‘your face looks bad (acne)’ or literally anything#even small shit like I got told I was feminine and it hit me like a truck#I never EVER liked myself#I cant remember a time when I did#even when I was little I knew there was something wrong with me#I genuinely cant remember a single time when I was happy with myself and my life#I love my friends more than anything#and I have family members I would do anything for#but I know damn well what a disappointment I must be. Im not productive I don’t talk to anybody irl I don’t do anything irl I’m just#lazy and gross and depressed and stupid#I hate myself I always have and I don’t think I’ll ever stop hating myself#I have a fucking suicide note written and everything because I know one of these days somethings going to happen#and I won’t be able to stand it#and I’ll do something idiotic#and I’ll find the one permanent solution to a possibly temporary problem#I don’t want to be this way but I can’t bring myself to fix anything#it’s like my mind and body won’t let me get better. maybe i was just destined to be this gross fucking thing#maybe that’s it#maybe I don’t have a purpose. maybe I was just born to suffer#who knows. maybe Im overthinking everything. maybe im fine. maybe it’s gonna be ok. but I don’t know#I just don’t know anymore#I don’t know what to do
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girl help I’m experiencing that common yet elusive late night motivation to get my life together knowing it will fall apart in the morning </3 girl fucking help me
#I hate ittt#I’m always like ‘I’m gonna start doing this’ or ‘I’m gonna finally try and get myself in a place where I can maybe take college classes’#and ‘I’m really gonna try and fix my sleep schedule and stop getting distracted instead of getting something accomplished’#and then in the morning evil me is back and they hate me and everything else#and would sell the world to hell for five more minutes of sleep#and my executive dysfunction has its claws in me again#man it sucks being so behind. I don’t want to like complain and make it sound like I’m worthless bc I’m not but man it’s hard#it’s hard watching ppl younger than you achieve your dreams of learning and getting better and breaking through that mental fog#they’re not always much younger either just like. two years is enough to make me wonder what would have happened if I was there#I know it’s not all in my control why I’m here either— there’s a lot of factors at play#but one of them IS that growing up I couldn’t never beat that executive dysfunction plus mental fog and procrastination#and then I shot myself in the foot by saying I waited to long and shouldn’t even try#and now I’m realizing I could but the years I spent fighting with myself weigh me down now and then#I can’t let it get to me because if I let myself get weighed down by it all I pull others down with me#but sometimes it does make me sad. and frustrated. when I feel this motivation when im lying in bed tired at some ungodly hour#suddenly struck with wanting to change my life and not having the daylight nor the physical/mental ability to get it done right then#not to mention the privacy. if I chose to get up at the buttcheeks of midnight and morning I would be not only destroying my own schedule#but disturbing a bunch of others too#anyway this wasn’t supposed to turn into a rant sorry#I haven’t talked a lot lately so it’s all bubbling inside I guess
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kind of an unpopular take but
damn i love my mom so much
#i don’t know what i would do without her#there were a few years where she went batshit insane and abused me a lot#but she got better#its hard to forgive sometimes but i think its worth it in this case#she got so much better and im so glad because i missed her so much#and even though she was my worst nightmare when i needed her most#she’s at least here now#and the way she got so much better and the way we fixed our relationship generally gives me so much hope for the world#and im really thankful for this#my dad still sucks the same amount as ever tho lol you can’t have everything
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Gotta love googling a symptom you’re experiencing and the top result being like “ways of coping with endometriosis”
#the thing is i don’t even think i Have endometriosis#like how would i know if the pain i experience is extreme? i have no idea how to measure that because idk what other people#are going through#hook me up to one of those period cramp simulators and dial it up to 10 and if what i regularly experience is worse then yeah#i’ll get concerned#but it’s just like.. i hear about people throwing up from the pain and that’s not me? sometimes i get super nauseated but i don’t throw up#that being said i never throw up anyway. since i was 12 i’ve thrown up literally thrice. food poisoning; alcohol poisoning & covid#i will say the pain is often so bad i can’t do anything. can’t even think. but idk if that’s because i’m wimpy#the specific symptom i googled is stabbing pains in my ovaries because i don’t think that’s normal lmao#but most of the other stuff just doesn’t happen to me. i have a pretty light period now#i’ve known 3 people with endometriosis and none of them had a light period#i just don’t know what to do. when i had irregular periods (which i’ll admit have been fixed by the iron tablets and being a little more#active) my doctor was just kind of like ‘what do you want me to do about it’ 🤪#so i really doubt they’d care about my pains#i also suspect rocking up saying ‘can you check me for endometriosis’ and then not having half of the symptoms of endometriosis is not#the way to get taken seriously#i’m just going to have to continue to live like this i guess#personal
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Tearing up because that’s me.
I can’t stop (couldn’t stop) all the pain & struggles & trauma in my life or the lives of literally any other person in this galaxy, but I can write worlds where things get better, where people actually talk about their issues, where people save the day. Or maybe sometimes they don’t, maybe sometimes they’re seconds too late and they still have gut-wrenching grief and trauma, but other people are there for them in exactly the way they need. They say exactly the right things. They hug them and kiss their foreheads and provide a safe, warm, soft space for my characters to actually let out ALL the tears instead of holding them back—something I’m still figuring out how to do for myself.
My stories are all about going through terrible things and figuring out/receiving the things they need to heal. It’s about *humanity* in all its beauty and ugliness and pain and wonder and joy and grief and hatred and love and suffering and comfort and all the things that we go through in our own lives, because I think it’s important to see how even fictional people can survive those things. Because it helps us feel like we can, too.
a comic about fix-it fanfics
#also on a less serious note I can’t help but notice the little things that would fix issues in stories#because sometimes it’s so obviously a plot convenience#why didn’t they just do this#oh well then there wouldn’t be a story#YES THERE WOULD BE YOU JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO WRITE IT#if you as a writer can’t come up with a reason for why the characters didn’t do a certain thing that would have easily resolved the conflict#other than just “for the sake of the plot#then you’ve got more work to do#think about allllll the angles#is it hard#hell yes#I get stuck in that brainstorming stage a lot#but I do truly believe my stories are better and more realistic that way#and maybe it’s the autism#but I really care about my stories and characters being realistic#and when other books or movies have something that feels unrealistic and plot convenient#it takes me out of the story#I’m not saying everything needs to have a happy ending and there can be zero conflict#not unless that’s the story you’re writing in which case carry on#but if your conflict hinges on ignoring a simple solution uggggh it irks me#and what if they DO resolve the conflict and stop the bad guy in time#what is there’s a BIGGER conflict or issue that arises because of that#see what I mean#there’s still a story#you just have to find it
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There’s this guy in town who owns this little house, and a while back he rescued a street dog that was going to get put down. Turned out she was pregnant.
Problem is, he has mental health & drug issues and couldn’t afford to get them all spayed & neutered, so now there are 6 grown bitches with 15 puppies total, and they’ve dug under his fence in multiple places but he can’t afford to fix it so they go roaming all around town. (When I say can’t afford it, I mean his house is currently running on a generator because he can’t afford his electric bill.) He’s also a day laborer so he cannot take multiple full days off work to take them to the vet an hour away. He’s in a really rough spot.
He’s not a bad person. He’s just overwhelmed.
And this little conservative town with 6 churches for 300 people, have they tried to help their neighbor? Have they adopted the puppies he’s been trying to give away? Have they offered resources?
NOPE! All they wanna do is talk shit about him and complain about the dogs but never lift a finger of their own. And they come to his house to yell at him and cuss him out about the dogs, which does not exactly engender in him a cooperative attitude, as you might imagine.
So after a while of this going on, my mom gets fed up with all the NIMBY bullshit and starts talking to the guy, because she’s done animal rescue for 20-odd years and has Connections. He’s resistant at first, but when he realizes she’s not being an asshole to him on account of his addiction or the dogs, he decides to let her help.
She gets to work organizing and networking. Finds a non-profit that will cover vaccinations, spay/neuter, and flea treatments for all the dogs. Talks the next-door neighbor into paying for materials to fix the fence, since this guy can do the work of it himself. Gets him in touch with another non-profit that will adopt out the adult dogs.
Less than 2 weeks after she decided to do something, all puppies have been to the vet, 10 puppies and 4 adult dogs have been adopted out, and the second non-profit is coming by next week to pick up the remaining 7 dogs to ship them out for adoption.
I’ve learned a lot of things from my mom—some good, some bad—but I think the most important positive message she lives as an example of is this: sometimes, when something needs done and no one else is willing, you gotta stand up and say “I’ll do it.”
#dogs#animal rescue#liveblogging the texas hill country#pets#d’ye like dagss#true story#blog together queue alone
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like it’s not about all the little things that i keep saying are pissing me off. it’s the fact that i continuously feel like an afterthought in my own relationship because she’s too wrapped up in her own thoughts in her own head to notice the world around her and act like she isn’t the only one in it.
#i know i should just break up with her bc i keep making myself angrier and angrier and angrier at her#but i want to keep trying bc i know i’m mostly responsible for this#i’ve held in any and all reservations and negative (albeit possibly constructive in some cases) feedback#because she’s more skittish than a horse and she apologizes for so much as looking at me wrong when i haven’t said or done anything#i feel like i’m walking on eggshells trying not to make HER walk on eggshells#like she’s so fucking anxious around me that sometimes i worry that she’s afraid of me#i get that her S E V E R E anxiety is a her problem that i can’t fix#but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST don’t make me feel like i’ll send you into a panic attack for so much as breathing in your general direction#again this is kind of on me in that i knew she had severe anxiety and freaks out about everything LONG before we started dating#i just ignored it and thought with my stupid gay heart as it emerged from its cage for the first time in years#and now i’m facing the consequences of having not communicated any of my frustrations sooner#even though those frustrations were small and easy to shrug off#and i love her so i wanted to be able to shrug them off#i don’t want to give up on something when i feel like i haven’t even tried#i don’t want to give up just because it’s suddenly and FINALLY gotten hard#flower
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Ouuu why do I gotta be blind and need glasses that are fucked up and won’t fix no matter how much you adjust them
#vent#cryin bout the glasses again cus I’m soo cooool and normal#uhhhggggg these ones are NEW REPLACEMENTS for the last NEW ONES I got cus they were FUCKED UP#and the spring hinge DIDNT WORK so now I got NEW new ones where the hinges work#but SIKE they’re STILL fucked up. now you get them slightly wonky on your face and still tight!! :)#oh and also you are annoying everyone around you because you’ve gotten glasses adjusted like 5 times in less than a month#and no matter HOW they are adjusted whether they’re WIDE or WHATEVER THE FUCK ELSE. they are Always#too tight on your face BUT they still slide sometimes and you want to throw yourself off of the roof so you don’t have to deal with it#fcking fuxk ugh bullshit stupid ass glasses I need to see so my eyes won’t hurt but the trade off is my head hurting and people getting upse#at me for continuously needing adjustments cus I TOTALLY just want to keep going back over and over again and sit there for a long ass time#as they heat the damn things and make adjustments that LOOK like they’d do something yet they DONT FUCKIBG FO ANYYYTHIBG IM SO PISSED OFFFFF#ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY I CANT DEAL WITH IT I CANT FUCKING DO IT. AGHHHGGGGGGF FUCJKXKXKTF WHYY#I LITERALLY!! ALREADY HAVE THE SAME PAIR !!! ALL THAT CHANGED WAS MY LEFT EYE!!!!!!!! BUT APPARENTLY WE CANT JUST SWAP THE LENSES OR SOME BU#BULLSHIT CUS!! FUCK ME I GUESS ITS NOT LIKE IM THE ONE WHO HAS TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT!! I was so excited to get my new prescription so my#eye wouldnt hurt but I’m just not allowed nice things ig. these ones are worse than the last ones I just. I don’t fucking know what the deal#is or how to fix it like if they were just slippy? that’s fine I can work with that but they’re TIGHT and can’t fucking DEALL. AGAGGGAGGGGGG
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[image description: a tweet from Tig Notaro (blue check) @/TigNotaro that says: Chronic pain is your body is screaming “im in pain” and you are like ok what’s wrong and your body’s like “that part is actually a secret”
The tweet is dated August 26, 2022. End image description.]
#chronic pain#disability#yeah#sometimes it’s not even a secret either but it’s like.#‘oh the weather changed’ thanks body you dumbfuck what am I supposed to do about that#I do not control the atmospheric pressure. why does that hurt use anyway.#sometimes I’ll get pain#and then that pain causes more different pain#and then the second pain causes a third pain#which then makes the first pain flare up#and so on#eg: currently I’m dealing with my neck shoulders back hamstrings and calves all fucking each other up#I work on one and minimum two of the others flip out and immediately start trying to fuck it up worse than it started#so I’m trying to work on a second thing because I can’t finish fixing the first until I do but the first is now being attackedon all fronts#my body has fucking crab bucket syndrome#meanwhile my knee is like ‘hey remember when you broke me like ten years ago? I don’t think you to. swelling time.’ in what appears to be#a totally unrelated temper tantrum#that fucking WILL NOT go away despite anywhere from 1000-3000mg of ibuprofen a day ffjbdxjnsf#I can only ice for so long and so often will you please let me fucking live for TEN MINUTES#I’m dying squirtle#this is fine
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