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#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind#And thinks about how she could have done better. like ‘if i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3’#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person#while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms#oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like ‘i dont think ppl will recognize them’.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gang’s deaths#okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid#samus aran#loneart#metroid dread#metroid prime#super metroid#metroid series#i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough#hall of fame#gray voice
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Sorry not sorry, anytime I see someone say Peeta's childhood crush as obessive/creepy, I can tell they're reaching so hard or projecting. Because Peeta's crush on Katniss is literally so normal. He never acts on it until they're placed in a life or death situation and he only weaponizes it as a tool to keep HER alive. Peeta's affection for Katniss, is and has always been unconditional and innocent. It's so ick when people twist it into something it's not to perpetuate their narrative.
When he realizes that Katniss doesn't reciprocate his affections and may feel burdened by his affections, he put so much distance between him and Katniss that she admits to missing him and HE gets criticized by most of the fandom for freezing her out.
He has always been respectful to Katniss’s autonomy and respects her boundaries. Is he overly self-sacrificing and have little self worth? Yes, but in comparison to red flags in a partner, this is barely one at all. He’s not abusive at his own volition. Doesn’t guilt her for not liking him back or continuing their lover’s facade to keep their families safe. His flaw is workable and it’s never something that can harm Katniss physically or mentally (at least for the most part). And this is not to mention that Katniss shares these flaws as well.
At the same time, these examples of his self-sacrificing nature are placed within contexts where once again, Katniss and Peeta are planning to die for each other again. Where Peeta is doing the ruthless calculus of war and knowing in the grand scheme of things, his death will have less repercussions than Katniss’. He doesn’t have people relying on him to live. He’s not the one the rebellion is using as a symbol.
“Oh, but he used to watch her go home everyday-“ no. That’s what the movie said in that abysmal cave scene. Even if that were the case, it’s not like he’s stalking her- they go to the same school?? Some people act and cling to this instance as if he’s following her home and stealing her panties. All he’s ever done is watch her (and saved her life) and guess what??? Katniss was watching him too? She’s been taking sneak peeks at him too (oh, he can lift heavy bags of flour so easy, he came in second in the wrestling tournament. 🤨 Giirrrrrl) so I guess their both creepy and obsessive for each other. Match made in heaven 🤷♀️
#I’ve been seeing this sentiment for the past few days on Reddit and tumblr and it’s like 🤨#it’s not been a ship thing I swear#I just hate it because Peeta’s affection for Katniss is such a comfort and a crutch to her narratively#and their relationship is literally the heart of the series#cause his affection and love is a privilege that Katniss can’t afford#but she SHOULD be allowed to want and have it despite Panem saying no#and when she does loose it#it breaks something in her that even she didn’t realize she had until it was too late#I wish people wouldn’t put down/dismiss love because it’s love#when it’s done right#it’s a beautiful and healing thing#it’s worth fighting for#it’s worth living for#anyway I’m tempting to start blocking people 🙃#everlark#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#the hunger games
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ok but the real tragedy of assassin's creed will always be the spiralling domino effect that underlies the series and that every protagonist is fundamentally just a pawn in a bigger game they'll never see and that they'll never be able to change because they are just a single piece of a puzzle which also means that every single tragedy that had happened to them doesn't matter to the predetermind bigger picture because it always had to happen the trauma was just collateral you can't escape it. altair watched his family die just so he could pass on a key. ezio's watched his family die so he could deliver one message that wasn't even meant for him. kassandra watched centuries rise and pass and empires crumble because she was only needed to pass on the staff to someone else.
#assassin's creed#i get back into assassin's creed#i start having a existential crisis#nothing messed me up more than the entirety of assassin's creed 2 happening because the alien gid people had one short message for desmond#and then they were done with ezio the universe was done with him he wasn't needed anymore he just decided to stick around anyway#or eivor going to that cave in America but refusing to go any further because she KNOWS deep down its just for somebody else
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I wonder where the Trailblazer could be 🤔
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#my art#tw blood#kafhime#honkai star rail#hsr#kafka#himeko#dont mind the style slowly devolving into simplicity as it goes on#definately because of the tone shift to a little more lighthearted#and not done out of laziness#for sure#anyways i just think it’s so funny when kafka flirts and himeko just looks annoyed#himeko won because she had that Mom Rage#she thought kafka had kidnapped stelle
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MiqoMarch Day 29 - Smile
Just imagine what's around the bend~
ft. @eriyu @nhaneh @improvised-finish @quicksilver-ink @zylphiacrowley & @khajiitclaws
#ffxiv#ffxivgpose#miqomarch#miqomarch2025#Arsay nun#Kea Lurvis#Ehryu Raav#Lehon'a Nhavareh#X'vahl Tia#Sori Salbari#Nanariya wuwuriya#mira nun#motek nun#koana ffxiv#wuk lamat#okay this is the most gramphic design is my passion type layout ive ever done but I kinda just wanted to experiment a little?? idk#I actually read the lyrics to this song and it made me very emotional lol its just very heartwarming i really like the song#like the first verse feels very arsay and the second feels almost like her going through ultima thul tbh#and some of it feels like the ancients singing to her tho i know its meant to be from the voices of the lost turali people#anyways thank you to those who let me borrow your wol <3I had a few crowd shots in mind at first and realized I had room to throw a few bud#I really did want to go around and ask for a few more but I had to stop before I let myself get overwhelmed ^^'#We got Ehryu and Kea singing as they love to do (Arsay got pulled into swaying around with Ehryu which she is happy to do but shes not#-going to ruin the mood by singing herself LOL)#Lehon'a is clapping along to the beat (I recall her being a very good percussionist !) and Nanariya and cheering and clapping as he eats#stuck the au kid retainers in there because I love them. Maybe they just came back from a venture and caught Arsay mid meal#Then I wanted X'vahl to be walking beside Erenville because ErenVahl brings such joy to me#I imagine they are considering lunch before they head off back to Xak Tural#Sori Urianger and Thancred are just coming back from Kozama'uka. I remember seeing that Sori dislikes crowds so having a group of mamool ja#and scions running towards her might get her a little startled!
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me when I see the hundredth post or comment from team green stans about how much of an evil bitch Rhaenyra is in the show 🥱

#I wish she was actually as evil in the show as these people seem to believe she is#They'll say she's evil but then also complain that the show refuses to portray her negatively#Rhaenyra is a better woman than me fr because after Luke's death I would have had every dragonrider go burn down King's Landing with me lol#Team green stans acting like most of us aren't over here longing for her to behave more like her book version anyways#Give me bitchy spoiled quick to anger Rhaenyra who never forgot a slight against her and I'll condone everything she does#house of the dragon#house targaryen#rhaenyra targaryen#queen rhaenyra#house of the dragon season 2#pro rhaenyra targaryen#hotd#anti team green#pro team black#hotd spoilers#hotd s2#Has this meme been done before in this context?#Anti team green stans#team black
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day 345
soooo guess who has ADHD
the state of Nebraska and its arcane policies have once again laid me low
#day 345#year 5#it me#now dont get me wrong. i am Very Very Psyched to have these meds on board.#but i am also. just a wee bit salty. that i could potentially have had them on board for the last NINE YEARS if this psychiatrist had like#simply used a little critical thinking about the assessment technique she was using#but also she looked at me and didnt figure out i was autistic so like theres only so much that can be done for her i think#anyway even though it is pretty rough you can tell im medicated because i did a Fucking Twelve Panel Comic
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i feel like reading Ashley’s crying fits as emotional manipulation falls into either misunderstanding or a bad faith reading of her personality. especially flashback childhood scenes. Ashley legitimately feels like if Andrew is not on board with her he hates her and wants nothing to do with her- look at her social life, the way her mother treats her. sure its not logical but her past experience with people would guide her to that conclusion. *person* doesn’t like something i do/say = i end up alone again. to hear these kinds of words come out of a child’s mouth, a responsible and mentally stable adult’s response would be to hold her hand and guide her through these feelings, and explain to her that the world does not operate in the black and white lenses she views them from…. now when is Ashley ever surrounded by someone of this description. this explanation would need to come from a parental figure, or a role model in the child’s life, somebody the child trusts and looks to for guidance. who is this person for Ashley??? Andrew. another child. not a well rounded, stable, emotionally mature adult with the past experiences to prove these thought patterns wrong. and how does he respond? by giving in. his little sister is crying, upset, and mom and dad don’t like dealing with her and explicitly tell him its his responsibility to placate her and make sure she’s taken care of and listening to them- whenever they decide they’re going to attempt at parenting that is. they never tell him how to do this, all they want is for their daughter to shut up and leave them alone. in this moment, his little sister is crying and that is unacceptable. based on his past experiences, the fastest (and only) way to solve this problem that nobody else wants to deal with is to do what she wants to do. give in. let her have her way. even in the most extreme of circumstances, because neither of them have reliable responsible role models. as they grow up, Andrew builds resentment towards his sister for this, he’s always doing whatever she wants and they’re acting on her whims because they never learned otherwise. misdirected anger that should have been angled at their parents.. so why isn’t it? because their mother was a hostile, volatile person, who punished him for straying an inch out of line. follow orders and keep up appearances, or else. make sure she does the same, or else. expressing any sort of resentment or anger towards anyone but Ashley would have resulted in an outburst from their mother. there is a line, though. Renee may not have given him any sound examples or advice to follow but she did tell him what not to do: resort to physical violence. she knows it’s not a solution to behavior, we can assume she has experience with this because of her reaction to Andrew trying it out on his sister. and in light of their parents deaths, what does Andrew resort to? physical violence. why? because he’s learned that while it may not change Ashley’s behavior (like their mother said), it makes her listen in the moment. and it feels good, to finally let out his frustrations and he won’t be punished for it. this is him ‘acting out’. he finally has the chance to act without punishment and he uses it to do the only thing that he was explicitly told not to do. why does Ashley act the way she does? because she has 2 decades of experience telling her that what she does effects everyone but herself. she has never dealt with punishment, or consequences, in her entire 20 years of life. she has never had to keep up appearances, or stay in line, because she was never given a reason to. Andrew was. soo.. Andrew’s girlfriend breaks up with him, they kill their parents, they’ve been socially isolated and starved for months with the threat of death right around the corner and then they’re both given a chance to take advantage of an object that ultimately would relieve them of consequences.. but what’s the catch? there doesn’t seem to be one, but Andrew knows better. At least in this instance.
#🔪#apparently there’s a text limit lmao so anyway i also wanna say#the only time in her life that Ashley was threatened with consequences was during their starvation. ‘listen or dont eat’#AND EVEN THEN. the threat didnt mean shit. the warden was never going to help them either way.#so Ashley’s one and only experience with the threat of consequence ended with ‘it doesnt matter what i do im gonna die’#so she had no reason to not continue on doing whatever she wanted.#and when Andrew finally gets to experience what’s its like to not have to deal with consequences he’s proven to be just as impulsive#he’s just suppressed it for 20 years. ‘doing what im not supposed to feels good and nothings gonna happen to me.. unless my sister decides#to kill me. but i know how to make her stay in line’ *violence ensues* and Ashley has NEVER seen this before. she doesn’t know#what to do in this situation but turn to the only thing that can continue to relieve her of consequences (dying at her brothers hand)#The Entity. The Trinket. Feeding into her brother’s substance abuse issues and chaining him to a radiator. etc etc#when Andrew hits her in the car & she starts crying it’s not ‘soo Leyley of her to resort to emotional manipulation’ thats a terrified kid#who doesn’t know what she did wrong because she’s never done anything wrong. she’s never had a consequence.#she plays games and she just wants her brother to stick around.#tcoaal#ashley graves#andrew graves
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and THEN I got bit by a bug that said "Chicago house?" What if I could contrive a situation such that Edward and Bella could get married in Chicago? In a little old church just a few blocks from the house he grew up in. That he inherits from himself every few years. Which would be kept in good order and have minor updates made but stay true to the time period in which it was originally. And what if he had it fully furnished and decorated and stocked and they spent the night there before leaving on their honeymoon. And what if they lived there while Bella was human for a few years. What if it was restorative and healing for Edward to do that. What if he took this house that he had owned and not known what to do with or why he kept it. And what if he began to restore it as he fell in love hardly knowing what he was doing. What if the house was a metaphor for the humanity inside him brought back to life by the power of Bella's love for him?
#twilight#the twilight saga#tts#edward cullen#anyway I can see it! I could draw you a map of this house#and I've already decided that in this version of the story they get married in october#and bella's dress is an ivory linen overlaid with sheer ivory#which has natural motif embroidery done on the hem and the edges of the sleeves#which are long and the dress is A-line#and her ring is set with a topaz gem and her gets her long gold earrings#with simple topaz gems on the end to match#and it's all of course very expensive and bespoke#BUT it's also rather simple looking which pleases bella so long as she doesn't dwell on the price#but she just can't say no because edward looks so ludicrously happy every time they move one step#closer to the wedding#and in the end it makes her happy too#and then after the wedding and after the years of bliss in the house that is now a home#they end up dying tragically because didn't you know they're love was doomed from the start?#it was still worth and it was still right and it was still beautiful#but the tragedy of the world catches up with them in the end#anyway#samantha.txt#(and also I promise I'm done for now I just had to get that all out)
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I wanted to make some kilt hose for the Highland Games but could only manage a single ho 😔


Guess I could hop.
#actually checked the weather and it’s going to be in the ninties so no wool socks for me#pretty pictures come after the socks are both done#wouldn’t have been able to wear them anyway though because I’ve just remembered my plaid skirt is in the darning hoop#knitblr#knit socks#knit kilt hose#kilt hose#Highland Schottische Kilt Hose#Nancy bush#I have very thick calves and ankles and the cuff is too tight. thinking I might rip it out and reknit it on 3 mms#i remember being 8 and my friend telling me how gross it was someone she knew had ‘kankles’. didn’t know what they were but thought it was#stupid to care what your ankles look like. promptly gave me a complex about them and I ended up having ‘kankles’ anyway#it is stupid to care what your ankles look like although it’s annoying not to fit knit sock patterns 😭
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MerMay ft my wind deity OC Ananza (because I drew the water deity last year and then didn't draw any other Mermadeities)
Her tail inspired by the lionfish type spikes (also possibly because of some being turkeyfish and turkey = bird and she's wind which makes more sense than lion = cat for ... not wind) but it's just loosely inspired. Since Ananza isn't actually a hostile deity and really wants freedom and calmness above all I decided four spikes is plenty to get the point across.
And! Her tail has the slightly seaweed resemblance with the green fins.
Thank you.
#my characters#i do not know how to draw mermaids which is a huge crime considering i go by the name salmon#and the fact that the little mermaid is one of my favorite movies and i have no memory of the instances but#my mom told me when i was a child i would walk into target and vanish and then she would find me over at the barbie mermaids#like i had some kinda radar for mermaids#and also i suspect that i might have become a sleeping bag enjoyer because it could be like a mermaid tail#flapping against the bed lmao#which if you didnt know i sleep in a sleeping bag and have done so for as long as i can recall#i have slept on beds in a bag and now i have a couch where i sleep in a bag#the couch is my bed but its a couch - like its not even folded out its just Couch#with the heat currently its been soooo rough having a bag i cant sleep in and then no blankets really to lay on at the ready#anyway all that to say i should learn to actually draw mermaids at some point but here we go im tired and melting
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probably wont color this all the way but them again, now in grey scale <3
#art tag#doodles#ivy laidir#bellara lutare#cyberpunk au#as always im going to ramble in tags because i must. i must scream and shout#one of the main things i do when i think of this au is boot up the game and drive around and look at places for inspiration on like scenes#or scnearios that could possibly happen. this#and i had the idea in mind of ivy and bellara waiting for something/someone and as i was outside the japantown apartment i was just like#wait . this is perfect. bexause in the au thats ivys apartment and since im#playing as ivy i always go back there . and so this was born#it isnt by the book there are some things i missed but im still proud of it ahsjdjaj#today is very much a monochrome kind of day in terms of coloring. i just love this so much#also drew one of ivys outfits from tbe game!! literally a favorte of mine i didn’t include the bandana in the hair though because i already#drew their hair but its there in spirit.#anyways side tracking over they ste waiting for neve to pick them up <3 bellara is on the holo with her . idk if i swid before but in this#neve is essentially the crews fixer while also her own boss/private investigator on the side. she gets the job done!#i literally have like . it all filled out where everyone is from in this and its so fun… i drive around NC like oh neve lives in this area.
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Unless Chris coming to LA was preplanned (which it wasn’t) after the fight with Buck, Eddie called his parents and told them what? I need Chris to get on a plane to LA right now? Gods I know they would have kicked up a fuss at that. What reasoning did he give them? Oh because I was a dick to Buck and I need to cheer him up? The fuck no he didn’t, so what was it!?!?? I need to be a fly on the wall for the phone call. Also totally possible Eddie just told Chris to get an Uber to the airport and he’ll pick him up on the other side.
#I first though Pepa had also been in Texas and so she flew with Chris because someone need to - that is a child#don’t come at me I flew alone from NZ to London when I was 16 and that was fucking terrifying#the only reason I did it was because I done it like 2-3 times beforehand#also flew into LA and they fucked up because I was supposed to have someone to guide me as I was a CHILD#I did not#anyways back to 911 - I just need this convo#or Buck to ask what his parent had thought about Chris’s spontaneous trip to LA#buddie#9-1-1#eddie diaz#evan buckley#911 spoilers
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Our non-marine heroine Karleeen McQueen
You know what, you already know lots of stuff about Ahti II, I’m now going to tell you about Karleeen the spidergirl, Ahti’s best friend and the protagonist of a story I’m writing! A quick information sheet:
(+ Art reference)
Karleeen (with three e’s)… well, who doesn’t know about Karleeen! Probably not by looks, but you could read all about her on the papers some years back. It’s been a while, you'd hardly recognise her if you saw her now! Especially among the other jolly beachgoers, joggers, shoppers and summertime tourists; Karleeen lives in Naantali after all, with her single father on the coast of southwest Finland. In the summer it's busy, in the winter it's very quiet, all year round it's a very appropriate place for Karleeen, she thinks.
Now in her mid-teens (the Sirpaverse “starting point” is 2021), Karleeen is a most open and jolly girl! She loves socialising and chats with just about anybody she has a chance to interact with for more than five minutes. She’s always planning outings and looking to spend time with her best friends, too! She enjoys being silly, making wordplay and coming up with puns with ridiculous set-ups. Karleeen is a sensitive soul, she feels all of her emotions very strongly and shows them strongly, too. She sometimes has trouble regulating her emotional reactions and has a tendency to spiral. It's very difficult for Karleeen to lie, her feelings will be very clear from her facial expressions and body language no matter how hard she may pretend to feel otherwise. Not that she'd even lie! It would make her feel too bad.
Karleeen has loved nothing more her whole life than making "thingamajigs" — you know, machines, things that move, little inventions! It's so fascinating to her, how pieces that are little more than scrap on their own weave together into intricate creations that are far more than the sum of their parts. When she was a young kid she'd make things out of twigs and rocks and rope, but in her teens she's now moved onto more sophisticated methods, legos and actual robot-building sets. She's also dipping her toes into coding, so far it seems fun and it offers an additional medium for making things (only digitally this time). Karleeen would love to study mechanical engineering when she's old enough to go to a university, but it'll be a while until then! Besides for robotics Karleeen enjoys hiking in the outdoors, climbing trees, basking, collecting fun and/or useless trinkets of various kinds and strawberry-themed items, playing platformers and action-adventure games and doodling.
Karleeen’s a smart girl, but she struggles a lot with languages. Or, well, don’t let me entirely misrepresent her: she does have the achievement of knowing some ASL signs. Still, Finnish is the only language she speaks fluently and it’s her own mother tongue! She can’t quite get anything else stuck to her brain, speaking Swedish or Surish or even simple English feels like a chore. Like stated above Karleeen’s body language is very clear, one of the more common actions Karleeen does when she’s nervous, scared or sad is holding her hands and arms close to her chest.
Karleeen's favourite genre of music is classical, but she can't listen to it casually because it makes her very emotional. She likes pop, rock and soundtracks when it comes to just playing music in the car or with friends. Her favourite animals are elephants, and her favourite fish is the electric eel. Her favourite meal is minute beef steak with seasoned butter and chanterelles, but her actual favorite singular food item in general and favourite snack is wild strawberries. Her favourite drink is tap water. Her favourite flower is fireweed.
(Nowhere else to really mention this but Karleeen is also asexual and biromantic, it took a long while for her to figure out because her relationship with having human connections is rather complicated and unusual but she’s comfortable in that identity and doesn’t really overthink it, she has a lot of love in her heart for so many things so it’s only natural she would have a lot of love for many people too, she thinks)
#i want to point out that karleeen knows a little bit asl for a specific reason and not just because thats a sign language#apparently some people are under the impression that every deaf or hoh person in the world knows asl only?????#it is a specific feature that is unusual in her situation of being a finnish girl who does not interact with deaf people on a regular basis#and it is very intentional!#anyway. i love this girl and may you love this girl also when i actually finish my wips lol#karleeen is one of those few characters who came to me fully ready in a dream — even with a name!#karleen is also like an actual name which is crazy to me because i had no clue. im also coincidentally more used to the misspelled version#now having called karleeen that for years lmaoooo but thats how she was called in the dream UU#baby girl wonderful girl she has never done anything wrong in her life trust :]#karleeen#art#my art#sirpaverse#not fish
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my 4 year old niece is really enjoying fmab 😭
#don’t worry u guys#I’m shielding her from the violent parts#we left the room for Nina/alexander 💀#my mom was in DISTRESS though#she said “why didn’t you take me out of the room with jade”#and said she was gonna have nightmares 😭 I’m sorry mom. it had to be done. you needed to see it#anyways#my niece finds the comedy hysterical#and i love the way she drew alphonse 😭#she wanted to draw him with cats because she saw my figurine of him w/ cats#fma#fmab#Fullmetal alchemist#Fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#Edward Elric#alphonse Elric#text post#mine
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"mepad should be fine!! cobs would've only pierced his battery!! all they have to do is replace it-" WRONG! thermal runaway attack
#this post was brought to you by my 3DS battery that i had to get replaced because it started swelling last year#i do think the stabbing couldve been maybe something else Less reversible to the audience in order to match its impact#but to be honest stabbing a lithium ion battery is deadly enough and it lowkey worries me that people don't realize that LMFAOOOO#BUT UH YEAH. ITS FAIRLY(?) LIKELY MEPAD ENDED UP BURSTING INTO FLAMES SHORTLY AFTER.#TEST TUBE HAS DONE AMAZING THINGS YES#BUT I DONT THINK SHE CAN GIRLBOSS US OUT OF BURNT INTERNALS.#not saying people cant have their fix-its cus i LOVE undo undo#its just. guys lithium ion batteries are not that harmless 😭 i hope you understand that please be careful with your devices#anyways sorry i just saw another tiktok claim something along these lines#mossball.txt#inanimate insanity#ii mepad
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