#because of being visibly autistic

[big-boah]

The only thing I have to say about the autism support needs & masking discourse:

There are people who haven't been talked to like a baby by a stranger in real life, and it shows.

[xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx]

i hate that whenever i feel strong emotions i start shaking like a fucking leaf 😭😭 at least i can pretend it's because it's super cold at the moment

[a-5-m-0-d-3-u-5]

Please don't read this

[opuntiafruit]

the more time has passed the more I use 'Ash' exclusively as an internet pseudonym and idk, I like my birth name used in my day-to-day especially as I become a much more visibly trans person. Yeah my name is [VERY FEMININE NAME] yes I use he/him pronouns and yes I'm a lesbian and yes I grow facial hair and have a deeper voice. Cope

[a-hollow-forest]

i think i cracked my discomfort with the whole idea of 'do no harm' and it is not that i believe some people need or deserve to be harmed, more that some people will willingly harm themselves or put themselves in harm's way in order to stop us from making progress

i do actually believe, yes, that many exclusionists are harmed by inclusion. for example. but their harm is used to keep people out of community, to harm others in turn, they wield it as both weapon and shield. rather than say, learning to cope with the feelings it brings about to see people having a different and personally incomprehensible experience from their own

similarly, fear is a perfectly valid emotion to feel, and something that people shouldn't have to feel, but it is taken as a defense to do horrendous things to minorities. talk to practically any man (and plenty of mascs of other varieties) that isn't completely cishet, white and abled and you'll have stories of cishet white women who have treated them as a threat in such a way that excludes them from spaces meant for them or put them in outright physical danger with the excuse that they are a man

wielding your own harm as a weapon can be oppressive and/or laterally aggressive, is i guess what i'm trying to say. just because you are harmed does not mean everyone else has to harm themselves to keep you 'safe'

idk maybe i'm just tired of having to shove myself into smaller and smaller boxes (with very real and actively worsening physical and mental impacts) just because other people can't handle my existence without being afraid, or hurt, or whatever. 'your feelings are valid' and all that but i'm slowly killing myself with the effort of masking

[herder-of-gnorbus]

being autistic with relatively high social awareness is just a constant stream of mortifying moments of social incompetence. Like I don't understand I'm doing/saying something inappropriate until I see other people's reactions and then it haunts my soul for eternity🫠

[gender-luster]

thinking about that fictional traumatized autistic middle-aged man again

[eisthenameofme]

embracing the vampire autism i have going on apparently means combing through 500 vtm books and making notes on the lore and contradictions in the lore and potential implications and what was intended to be taken from some things vs things that actually make sense in context/with better research and sorting through what was included for mechanical gameplay vs worldbuilding reasons and combining all of this + the information intentionally left vague so i can form my own ideas into an amalgam of schrodingers canon with which to try to figure out what i personally tend to view as canon in-universe and then still figuring out how to insert the contradictory information/alternate interpretations in as like. character opinion/intentional misinformation/etc.

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

my mum's staying for the weekend pray for me

[monadolaguz]

I am literally so mad that like, two of my coworkers consistently refer to Warp as my "girl". Like, how much more fucking obvious do I have to make it that I'm a huge fag???? Do I have to wear a shirt that says I AM A FAGGOT TRANNY on it to get it through their heads?

[mars-ipan]

honestly i don’t really think any mental illnesses have been like “destigmatized”- not fully at least. i think the stigma has just changed from demonization to “that’s not a real problem get over it god”

[mangocaticecream]

its so hard liking characters that a majority of a fandom hates. cant go a day without seeing someone hating .. painful

[liefdesleven]

this is also just partially because i got rsd this afternoon from the guy im seeing but also im right and i should get to kill

[leesalchemybook]

2020-2021

GTA RP characters! characters of other roleplayers that I drew for them, from a server I used to play on.

the top 4 are characters from the group my main character was part of. the bottom two are also those characters but in a cute style. the middle one is commission done as part of a fundraiser for st jude streams someone from our rp server was hosting. i donated a commission as one of the auction items :3

[ileftherbackhome]

fyi, if you refer to me as "low supports needs" or "less visibly autistic," i will block you.

just because i can communicate verbally doesn't mean I can function without help nor does it mean that my autism is not visibly present.

am i less visibly autistic or can you just not recognize the autism in me?

[the-trans-dragon]

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