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“‘Cause if it gets you through the night. Well then hey, hey it’s your night, and that’s your right, it ain’t my business” — The Paper Chase
#EVERYONE SHUT THE HELL UP HE IS HAPPY HE IS GOD HE IS KIRA AND HE IS HAPPY BECAUSE HE WON#if you think Light didn’t throw up and scream-cry-laugh for hours after killing L you are WRONG#per my convos with the wonderful dykelawlight#this one goes out to u xoxo#Real Tags:#death note#lawlight#light yagami#l lawliet#my art#death note fanart#deathnote#anywayyyy#As Monica and Isa and Myself have said Light is Roman Roy coded as fuck#he can not handle funerals at ALL#you all wait and watch out for when I give you the ‘is he in there can we get him out’ Light at Soichiro’ s funeral moment#Until then#for now you get Light’s horrific Pyrrhic victory
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I don’t even need to say it do I……
#obikin#at first awkward and horrible because the date definitely ended in sex#(sex where I’m torn between anakin calling him daddy and obi-wan nutting instantly#OR obi-wan being a very slutty crying eager bottom as soon as anakin gets his cock in him)#either way it’s embarrassing to think about in the light of day#especially because anakin is in his friend’s bridal party#so he’s standing up there for the ceremony and obi-wan is giving the groom away or something#and then he turns to sit and spends#half the wedding trying not to watch anakin and the other half tearing up at the ceremony l#while also not trying to watch anakin also tear up probably
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Another thing that makes kaladin so painfully relatable is how much his mental illness hides his personality, because between depressive episodes and trauma he's this sarcastic little shit that smiles a lot at his friends and then the depression gets to him and all that disappears
#I'm dreading book 4 so much#my depression got worse while reading it the first time 😭#also I don't remember exactly what but multiple times he says stuff that i think too often and having a fictional character say that l#ridiculous stuff caused by mental illness made me feel even worse#it helped! because it hit me how stupid it is and that i should avoid that type of thinking at all costs! but didn't i feel like shit for a#while#now i almost finished book 1 and book 2 has Shallan's past 😬😬😬😬😬#can't wait to read again about her horrible childhood locked home with a violent father that take out his rage at her on others#that won't make me feel horrible at all!#it's not like i wasn't almost crying just at her getting an anxiety attack at the beginning#....these books feels awfully aimed at me fjskdks#the stormlight archive#cosmere
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I just finished reading bk6 and I have to be honest, this was not the dynamic I was expecting between Xie Lian and White No-Face
#tgcf#heaven official's blessing#xie lian#white no face#bai wuxiang#tgcf spoilers#i had to draw something silly because it was that or just keep crying over the ending of that book#xie lian's backstory is going to k i l l me#if any of you spoil what tf is going on with white no face i'll never forgive you so keep that out of the tags please and thank you#my art
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I've been watching Hazbin Hotel in prime. Just watched episode 5 and I gotta ask
Why, oh, WHY DON'T I SEE MORE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT "MORE THAN ANYTHING" WHEN TALKING ABOUT THE HAZBIN HOTEL MUSIC???
Like I get it, the song before it "Hell's Greatest Dad" Is a bop reminiscent of other music from the era its parodying. I loved it.
BUT why are you only putting clips of that song when this MASTERPIECE comes a few minutes after
I honestly don't even know where to begin with this song. The visuals are beautiful, especially when we get moments like this where you can just see the absolute LOVE this man has for her daughter is so sweet and Heartwarming I just-
The voices are fenomenal but what else can you expect from the broadway talents of Erika Henningsen and Jeremy Jordan.
There is also the whole Symbolism with passing the baton to the next generation and stuff. I- I can't even get into the specifics right now Im too emotional.
But above all else THE LYRICS
ESPECIALLY THAT LAST ONE
"I'M GRATEFUL YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER/FATHER MORE THAN ANYTHING"
DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY?? CAUSE I AM. I AM BAWLING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW.
It's just so fucking beautiful man. Probably the best song I will hear all year. Obviously my favorite from Hazbin.
#Call me Sir Pentious cause Im crying like a baby over here.#WHY HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS GEM FROM ME. THIS ABSOLUTE DIAMOND#I didnt even mention lyrics like “I've been dying to find out who you are. looks like the apple doesnt fall far.”#“You are a part of who I am” “you are the only thing worth fighting for” that just BREAK ME#but oh well#BTW of course I was gonna watch and become obsessed with Hazbin Hotel. I am a theater kid that loves animation. It was like meant for me#could do with a little less obsenities but thats alright its a staple of the show#On another note I almost went insane when I found out lucifer was Jeremy Jordan.#Like its insane how that man always ends up in my obsessions. Newsies. Tangled the series. The Death Note Musical#(Im team L btw in death note but GOD Jeremy's singing made me reconsider for a milisecond in Where's the justice he is just THAT GOOD)#Erika I knew from the mean girls musical which I also deeply enjoy#its Insane the Talent this show brought in. my theater kid heart is ELATED#Last thing is I gotta say I LOVED Lucifer#Like I thought I was gonna hate him because everyone was talking about charlie's daddy issues#I thought he was gonna be neglectful and manipulative#BUT NO. He is a silly (little) father who just loves his daughter but doesnt know how to show it#And had DREAMS and AMBITION and fate in humanity. And he is just such a fun character to follow I had such a riot with this episode#Hazbin Hotel#charlie morningstar#lucifer morningstar#charlotte morningstar
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#Astarion#Baldur's Gate 3#Baldur's Gate III#*mine#*gifs#*BG3tag#I couldn't sleep and I remember that he did that little lip upquirk and I was like man you are a big fucking stinker and I would like to te#l you that you are very handsome and very evil but also very soft and very broken and I have a lot of feelings about you but tumblr won't l#t me type anymore because apparently there's a word limit for tags so I keep having to stop and now I'm just going to cry! bye!
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i love sapphic people so much we’re all so beautiful and deserve so much love i love you i love you i love you
#hiiii!#it is emotion time for me#listened to some of my favorite songs after midnight#im very emotional#i love you so much#i hate how many people interact with this blog#because i want to grab your faces and tell you how much i hope you’re happy#and how badly i hope you feel loved#i hope you read my posts and feel the love in them#it’s for you#i wrapped it up in all my silly little words and hit post l#and now i just get to live hoping someone could feel it#because i desperately hope they do#because you’re just like me and im just like you and we both deserve SO much from this world#@ future me u can delete this but i hope you’re still this in love with the world when u do#@ people who read all these tags srry it’s late and im having a cry sesh and a lot of emotions#pls ignore me
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A dance before we forget
Yk I've been thinking if we name this pair as partyjoker 🤔
#garten of banban#gobb#banban#digital art#fanart#bittergiggle#banban fanart#jesterban#bittergiggle x banban#banban x bittergiggle#my art#my artstyle#practice#listening to romantic songs#because#im a loser#and i will never be special for someone#l bozo#if this flops i will cry#kms#nahh#random tags#artists on tumblr#bitteban
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the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)
but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.
the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore
#talkys#my dad scaring me but also giving me no advice on what to do instead only saying if i do this it will be the wrong choice leading#to more wrong choices well yep you got me i am scared. i am inept. i fear regret and punishment for wrong decisions.#i struggle to make decisions because i cant go back on them.#''ill never have savings again'' and ''you cant value friends over family they'll abandon you''#and ''living here is only a problem for you because you dont communicate. there is a way to work things out''#i wish i could work it out and stay i dont know why i cant work it out ! and what do i want#to leave so badly for... to continue to never have stable housing#never have savings again? be alone and in danger?#to be able to wear whatever i want and...buy things? really? that doesnt seem very worth it#nothing seems very worth it#im miserable here but maybe i'd be more miserable away...it is true#well at least the chances to leave are very slim. and will continue to get slimmer the more time passes.#but maybe its fine i dont want to ruin my life or be even more of a burden or reason for distress in someone else's#moving out wouldnt fix anything. wherever you go there you are.#my friend said i have to be a little selfish (positive) to push myself to leave. bt i dont want to be selfish. im ashamed of that as a trai#delete later#even now i feel immense guilt and stress when my dad does things that hurt or bother me bc i know ill miss him when he's gone.#(and ill have nobody after all of that. due to the being kept in a cage)#that sucks. why does everyone else always win. why am i always the weakest pliable one. i wish i had no emotions#my surgery is the only decision in my life ive been 100% sure on for years#and even then my parent's words had me crying and rapidly changing emotions daily until the day came#im not strong enough or sure enough about anything else to withstand More of that#<- and i know that tomorrow im gonna be like actually you know what who cares lets try to leave#and the next day ill be resigned to staying here forever#and the next day ill be like actually you know what who cares l
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L. Lawliet is a gifted photographer who believes he has understood the light and its secrets. Light Yagami is a young, unstable and slightly crooked model. Together, they kill time.
I had a bookcover design assignment so obviously I chose @devilinthebox's literary masterpiece of a fanfic Our Bodies, Possessed by Light
#I actually hate this already but its mostly because nothing I could ever draw couldnt even begin to describe the beauty of this fic#The way this fic is EVERYTHING to me#It literally tore me to pieces split in my face made me cry then cradled me and gave me a forehead kiss then threw me into cold water#over and over again#I could talk about it for hours#I love every single character so so much#my favorite portrayal of naomi EVER#also the fact that Beyond is turkish and speaks of his turkish mother missing İstanbul so dearly#literally made me cry#I love him so much#sorry Beyond is canonically turkish now and its my whole personality#anyway maybe I'll ramble more about how much I love this fic on another post sometime later#the photos on the wall are mostly my old art#I thought about doing an A portrait but I have no idea what she looks like#anyway yea#my art#lawlight#l lawliet#light yagami#our bodies possessed by light#obpl#lawlight fic#lawlight fanart
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QB ADHD test is crazy for autists bc tell me why you’re gonna strap this super uncomfortable headband to my head and also have the lights bright in the room bright af and then have the laptop flash images at me too
Like????????
#sillyposting#adhd#I asked if they could turn down the lights and it was soooooo haha funny to them#how quirky haha hehe no one’s ever asked for that before!#and then they turn the light off and it’s pitch black and the laptop brightness is still way too bright#I was going to be overstimulated either way probably#but still#I tried to make it a neutral environment for the best results it just didn’t work out#how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions#can you blame a girl for having a very cutesy very demure meltdown at the psych’s office#but anyway I did absolute shit on the test#I feel like it’s not even fully accurate because I was crying half the time :/#I couldn’t remember anything esp not with the sensory hell#but then again I already know I would have been shit at it without the meltdown too#and the nurse tried to comfort me when I said sorry for crying#and she’s like no it’s okay we’re all special in our own way!#Ma’am I don’t need your autism speaks pep talk I need all the lights in my vicinity to be turned off#at least if they say I don’t have adhd I have even more validation for the autism#because who else has a meltdown over l i g h t s#very neurotypical reaction I’m so normal actually#I’m fine I’m at home and I’m gonna chill in my room don’t worry
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(slight 5.1 spoilers ahead!!)
i think one of my biggest critiques about the natlan archon quest so far is that mauvika feels very one dimensional, which sucks because there is so much there that would be so interesting to expand on and explore but we just, aren’t?
and considering that before her was furina, who is probably one of the best written characters in the game, it feels slightly disappointing. cause there’s such an interesting part of mauvika’s character that the other immortal beings don’t have, and that is her not being immortal. sure we get tiny reminders about her being from 500 years ago, but give me more of the impact of waking up 500 years in the future had on her. we see the impact that pretending to be an archon had on furina, why can’t we have more of that with mauvika?? it would be so easy considering that she literally wants to befriend us- like i want so much more with her character than we’re getting?? and those scenes of her walking through the past is her just, kinda standing there?? she knows she’ll have to die give me more of a reaction from her???
we get more depth from ororon and xilonen (wdym forging an ancient name takes some of the forgers life span. (also give me more citlali content im in love with her.))
like as much as capitano confused me for majority of the archon quest, at least he some dimension. give me that with mauvika please. don’t make her another ei where all her depth only exists within her story quests.
#genshin impact#genshin 5.1 spoilers#archon quest#mauvika#i do genuinely think there is so much there that could be explored but we just aren’t??#like the scene where we come back to the room in the speakers chambers and realize she had to use the energy in all of the items stored#GIVE ME MORE OF HER REACTION THAN HER JUST SHRUGGING IT OFF#omfg#also in relation to ei’s sq#i do think they give her a lot more dimension because they are (in my opinion) an exploration on grief#which i think ei in general is a good exploration of grief and how it can affect someone (esp her second sq)#but i want that depth from the archon quest#i want to get teary eyed like i did with the rukkhadevata scene at the end of sumeru#i wanna feel the same pain i did with furina when she didn’t even realize she was crying in the flashback#give me more of those scene with mauvika p l e a s e
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AHA thank u i was mostly just. frantically pulling the "no hetero" card bc farcille is super super always endgame for me and the "marcille has two hands" thing is absolutely not for me and my personal characterization of marcille
i like. can't find it anymore for some reason but there was a farcille fic set just after the shuro confrontation where laios reaches over to hold marcille's hand and ask her if she likes him or if she's just tolerating him too and it was so. the vulnerability. the puppyness.
that safety and security he must feel in knowing that she wears her heart on her sleeve and he will always know when she's unhappy with him because she will absolutely let it be known. the way that falin's first revival was the turning point for the way he felt about her because, for the first time in his life, protecting falin wasn't something he had to shoulder alone. there was finally someone else who cared about her as much as he did (in his eyes, resenting his parents for failing to protect her) and would stop at nothing to save her. the way it must have been proof for him that, not only was falin not alone anymore, he wasn't alone anymore.
idk why i like rather than dislike the fact that his only framework for parsing how he feels about "the first girl other than his sister that he's ever cared this much about" is a comphet romantic lens. like he would have the autism moment of fully assuming that he's in love with her for a while and just like. not? doing anything about it? because he doesn't feel the urge to, nor is he sad that he knows marcille would mostly likely never "feel the same way" about him?
like. he "figures out" that he's "in love with marcille" with all the passion of printing out a label and sticking it onto a favourite scrapbook for organizational purposes. he's equally happy to be her husband or brother-in-law so long as it means she stays close and is part of his family.
i know logically i should hate it but it's sooo crunchy to me. my comphet besties ever. designated plus one and dance partner to all fancy and formal occasions. having actual real chemistry but the "romantic" part of it is some weird shapeshifter smokescreen. augh
#asks#tunnel anon#screencapped so it doesn't show up in the l*imar tag#anyway don't read these tags if lesbian marcille is your truth. you're real for that and i would never oppose that#but i guess im in the bisexual marcille camp for a couple of reasons (first and foremost being that ryoko kui is like.#a fabulous incredibly likely bisexual and marcille is clearly her Specialest Little Guy so it feels only fair)#so technically laios and marcille “dating” is a possibility in my head but such an insanely depressing one that i don't give it much though#like yeah sure marcille is capable of being attracted to him and even having feelings for him if he pursued her intensely enough#but that's the paradox. he wouldn't.#once again. equally happy to be her husband or brother in law bc he doesn't understand being attracted to women#and dearest marcille needs more than that.#little neurotic dragoness bunny who needs to be desired and wanted with an all-consuming passion#hopeless romantic freakassishly monogamous cringe darling who needs to be “the one” for her partner in order to thrive in a relationship#because she wants to be given as good as she's giving and nothing less (and boy does she give!! she gives her everything!!)#so i vastly prefer her never developing feelings for him bc he never decides to pursue her in a way she can't ignore#over them getting together and her self-esteem taking hit after hit as he demonstrates no romantic passion for her#like yes it's toxic and ridiculous. but let's be so real. if someone blatantly flirted with her and he did nothing and felt nothing#she'd be crying herself to sleep feeling unwanted and unessential and “not even worth getting jealous abt” bc she's Like That.#while he starts to hate himself more and more for not being able to give her what she needs#kissing them on the head and tucking them safely into my personal canon. i could never do that to them.#also marcille being the first and foremost thing that laios and falin “fight” over in a way where falin is finally able to assert herself i#yknow??
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wow what a piece of shit i don't think this guy can get any worse-
he got worse
I fucking hate Jiriaya why does anyone like this character
#naruto#manga screenshots#jiraiya#konan#yahiko#jiraiya is a fucking creep lol!!1!#screaming#the children are crying because they are literally being abandoned out of the blue#better hit on the girl and tell the boy to stop being a coward#they are c h i l d r e n
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Can I ask what was your first impression of TGCF and if it turned out wrong or right?
My first impression of TGCF was "this goof continuously ascends to -- and gets kicked out of -- heaven, this is going to be clown town isn't it?"
And honestly I stand by that one, I think I was completely correct**
(**barring the fact that this goof will then go on to experience ever conceivable horror known to man but honestly I mostly expected it after MDZS)
#tgcf#heaven official's blessing#xie lian#hua cheng#hualian#honestly i was pretty spot on with my tonal assumptions for TGCF which is why i didn't include it in the previous post#after getting my shit rocked by MDZS i was feeling a bit more accustomed to mxtx's tendency to mix humour and tragedy#so i expected things to Go Bad sooner or later#that being said i was WILDLY unprepared for book 6 the post-banishment arc nearly k i l l e d me#straight up took me 4 calendar months to read bk6 because i'd read about 3 pages and then need to crawl away and cry for a bit#it intrigues me how with both MDZS and TGCF the backstory stuff is AGONIZING#and there can be some reckoning with that in the present#but as a general rule the present day plot is were the comedy and whimsy and romance lives & the backstory is where PAIN AND SUFFERING live#i'm not sure why i was so startled by SVSSS's vibe since it's fairly similar to the other two#the stuff i saw on my dash led me to think it was mostly humour/fluff though and i was admittedly VERY biased against isekai#very very pleasantly surprised by SVSSS i'm enjoying it alot#i'm amused and humbled by the new followers i've recently collected#i assume it's mostly svsss's fans that know A Storm Is Coming and are sitting back with popcorn to watch me suffer in real time - if so#cheers#my art
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I think one of my least favorite things on social media is when a woman films her boyfriend/husband getting an emotional gift and she has the audacity to say, in laughter, “why are you crying”
#WOULD YOU SHUT UP#another day another reason to hate social media#99% of everything on social media is fake and fabricated#and I’m not saying a man crying at getting a picture of a deceased family member or a recreated dead pet#is fake#but sometimes when a video seems sweet like that and then that has to happen#it’s infuriating. you filming this is one thing. but GENUINELY laughing while he’s emotional is another.#can things just stop being filmed. get him a gift because you love him. sit in the moments with him.#stop putting everything on socials jusf so you can get a view comments that boost your dopamine!!!#real life is so much better than social media!! enjoy it!!#since tiktok it’s gotten so much worse. reels. shorts. all of it. what happened to us#nobody’s listening L
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