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Okay, so here I am being a little gay boy on the internet and listening to little gay songs while writing little gay stories and I NOTICE SOMETHING IN THE BACKGROUND OF "Just Look My Way" so HERE'S A NEW HEAD CANON TO SHOVE DOWN YOUR THROATS
I can definitely see Stolas as the kind of kid who kept a diary full of shit from happy little "Mai buttler toke me 2 tha zoo 4 mai 6nd birtdai :D <3" to edgy teen shit "I hate my life and everything is meaningless."
Maybe one day he's looking for something and stumbles across his old diary and abandons his task to read through it and reminisce. Maybe he starts writing in it again, talking about the divorce, how big Octavia has gotten, his friends, and of course how MADLY in LOVE he his with Blitzo.
MAYBE during a usual fuck sesh, Stolas is asleep or goes to the bathroom or something and Blitz, being the little cock weasel he is, finds the book in his nightstand and reads it.
and Maybe, JUST MAYBE Stolas actually loving Blitzo and not just wanting a friends-with-benefits relationship with him actually gets put into perspective.
#fanfic#fanfiction#someone write this#or i will#helluva boss#helluva boss stolas#helluva boss blitzo#stolas x blitz#blitzo#stolitz#helluva blitzo#helluva stolas#i tag a lot#because im desperate for attention
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#bitts posts#my pics#nsft#ns/fw#sometimes i repost an old pic simple because im desperately h*rny and need attention. this is that#me
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As much as I joke, I should note that I don't actually see Bill as a sweet little innocent baby who couldn't do no harm.
It's hard to explain but: Do I still feel bad that I now know he didn't intend to destroy his dimension and carries that grief, and that truly he's a desperate person trying to find him and his friends a home to stay in so they don't disintegrate when the edge of the world approaches them? Yeah. Does that mean id be totally fine if he had taken over earth and turned it into the nightmare realm? HELL NO! Get that dorito bastard away from my dirt!!!
Do I feel bad that he's suffering in theraprism? Kinda, yeah. Do I find it hilarious that he's suffering in theraprism. Absolutely. Is that a question? That's fucking awesome. These coexist simultaneously in my mind.
#gravity falls#bill cipher#book of bill#book of bill spoilers#its hard to say he got what he deserved because#he was kinda a victim of circumstance?#like I wanna say “he didn't have to try and show his dimension his visions”#but as someone who relates to characters who desperately feel they have to prove the world they see to others#i cant say his actions are *entire* selfish and that hes awful for that#and then from that moment on hes on the run#looking at it that way you can see all the justifications he made to himself#“if im being chased by the law anyway why not break a few more interdimentional laws?”#“well if we stay here were gonna die so i might as well steal the home of SOME dimension right?”#“im just a guy trying to survive out here. i gotta make a living somehow”#yet still. knowing hes kinda a victim of circumstances he still chose to be cruel#i still judge him for destroying what never belonged to him in a desperate attempt for attention and control#which is kinda why a second chance and therapy is great for him#finally he wont have those circumstances and hes being forced to learn from his actions and change#...still hilarious though HJRBDJJYG#hes so upset in therapy its so funny omg
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“why are you always only ever talking about, like, spider-man 2099’s childhood and mental health issues instead of posting panels of him Biting People” uh. because... spider-man 2099 the comic book... also does this.?
#talking tag#spider-man 2099#spiderman 2099#miguel o'hara#xina kwan#marvel#comics#comic panels#i earnestly am not trying 2 gatekeep here lol i Desperately Want people to read spider-man 2099 and ALSO Like The Thing I Really Really Like#but. (deeply bitter) The Internet Does As The Internet Is i guess.#plus i Already Have posted every single panel of him Biting People that currently exists. and then ppl left viscerally uncomfortable tags.#..well. Viscerally Uncomfortable for Me. obv the people Leaving those additions seemed pleased as punch to publicly puke em onto my lap.#urgh woof i Know it's a Bad Idea 2 bring attention 2 it bcuz this specific breed of Pest thrives on Attention but like. i am so Tired#like one of those panels was an instance of the main character rebuffing an attempted assault Put Your Pants On And Quit Moaning. Christ.#this is My Personal Blog. i post abt this comic because im autistic and it's been my special interest for going on like 10yrs.#if i decide i want to Stop Posting about it then i will just Stop Posting About It. and i will tell people Why if it is for any reason.#but i just. /jesus/ yall. go be intolerably Straight somewhere else. my house isnt the place for that i just Block Creeps.
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Hey, I remember you mentioning on your IG something about two types of popular artists and one being good at social media and the other being good at art or something like that (I can't really remember lol). But it got me thinking, any tips for how to be good at social media? Cuz I'm certainly not even after posting art for six years lol
Heya!
What I meant by that is that there are traits that allow you to grow on social media, and traits that determine what a highly skilled artist is, and those traits do not always necessarily overlap.
I've seen so many amazing artists that post artwork that blow my head off, and yet they don't have many likes. On the other hand, some artists at the same skill level who draw more popular things will get way more attention.
That is not to say that either is the correct way to create art, but there is definitely a formula to social media that is in play.
There are a lot of posts about how to grow a social media account, particularly on TikTok, YouTube and Instagram art spheres, and imo you really need to examine what you want from your art before jumping into social media mode
The stuff you create to pander to social media might not be art that you want to create at all - I'm lucky, because I am less artist more storyteller, and what I enjoy is telling jokes and silly stories to liven up people's moods :] this, of course, conveniently does well on social media. On a personal note, I have a history of being a recluse and not connecting well with people, and art is my way of trying to communicate my feelings, one way or another.
So of course, if you draw for any reason other than my own, my approach to art and it's relation to social media might be inappropriate for you.
All that being said, if u take a look at those "get big on social media" videos they always cite the same few points... And you can look into that, for sure, but this video sums up how I feel about all that.
I spent like 20 minutes drafting words after the above paragraph, but I really ended up regurgitating sentiments from the video... So really don't listen to me, listen to that video
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I just realised I didnt actually answer the question with my anecdotal experience, so here's a list of things I did
1. Posted like 3 doodles a day on social media
I did this for 6 months on a side account on Twitter recently and got the account to 11k followers... And I did this for 3 months on Instagram a few years ago and I think got 3.5k followers. Of course, do not spam maliciously and make sure your art is still of good quality, but for those artworks I posted quickly, I did not colour, and mostly did clean sketches. This also trains you in the matter of line confidence haha. Again, this worked for me because of my set of circumstances (love for the media, want to tell stories, simple art style)
2. Focus on my favourite aspects of media
This helps with respect to burnout - kinda hard to burnout when you love what you're making! For me, it's character interactions and comics. I want to see my blorbos kiss and if I'm not the one drawing it who will?!
3. Interact with people
People eat up work that they can interact with. A choose your own story situation, one of those like/rt to strip a character 😭 those do numbers for a reason.
Additionally, if you post stuff people love, people will respond to it with comments, maybe their own headcanons, adding on to the work... I've gone into long looong Twitter thread conversations with people who added onto my ideas that I threw up onto the screen and I think it's also a nice thing to do to respond to positive comments haha... I'm not very good at this (read: bad at communication)
I think that's the key points... Hope this helps!
#people who are good at social media are good at marketing basically#theyre their own hype man who has something cool to show#and would like to show everyone that cool thing!#its not purely about art its also about charisma and trying to get people to be convinced that youre cool as well#thats why there are social media influencers#people who vlog and get popular because of the way they present themselves#me i am very much my own hype man#not really because im particularly good at art (im not) but because i have so many thoughts in my head that i want to share#and i need people to also be poisoned by these thoughts so i enthusiastically promote it#side eyes the blood soup comic i dedicated like 20 pages to#on my end it comes from the love of media and my desire to build upon the established canon#but i understand that not everyone is so intensely passionate about their own work... but yknow#you need to love your own art in order for it to succeed#just like you need to love yourself before you can grow as a person#its easy for me to say because i do have social media attention though#i remember so desperately chasing social media validation when i was 16#so really i cant really say much regarding that haha#but do watch the video and hopefully it helps!#i wrote so many words...#heph answered
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#so i posted earlier saying i wish i could ask people what makes me so dislikable#and i was referring to a situation which happened to me in the past#and how i wish i could say to these people like what about me is so dislikable that you had to react the way you did#(i would like to clarify i was not in the wrong in this situation i have asked multiple people#and they agree i wasnt in the wrong so im not just saying it)#and an anon decides to send me an ask saying#ngl its the desperation for validation but i think youre cool#and it made me so upset because its such a fucking back handed compliment#because like i am aware of the fact im a people pleaser and i want to be liked by people#like i know its a huge flaw and i am trying to do better and not worry about what other people think about me#but its not something that is going to happen overnight#and so to point that out when im already aware of it and then follow it up with a backhanded compliment#is honestly really hurtful and just kinda really upset me#also saying that i'm desperate for validation like is just so#idk it just was so unnecessary for them to say that and phrase it that way#anyway im sure no one is gonna read this and if they do it probably makes no sense or it just sounds like#im being a whiny bitch and probably more anons are gonna come call me attention seeking or#say im looking for validation#but i just wanted to rant about it bc like there's ways to say things nicely to people and that was not one of them#esp when its a flaw im already aware of and would like to work on more#but again its not gonna disappear overnight!#butter’s thoughts
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what's crazy to me is multiple times i've received encouragement to start drawing again, even when i mention that the only reason i've considered drawing again is as a desperate ploy for attention
but whenever i talk about my writing i either get ignored or told to "write for yourself"
like just tell me you don't value writing as an art form. it'll be easier than having to dance through whatever the fuck this is
#One's Notebook#me: yeah i think i might draw again specifically because i know people are more supportive of something that requires less power on their#part to consume and im really desperate for attention because despite participating in fandom for a decade i've never found a community#and i really would like to make some friends so i'm not alone all the time#someone: oh that's such a great reason to start drawing you should draw i support everyone learning how to draw!#me: hey i wrote this fic and i know it's not necessarily your favorite ship but i'd really appreciate if you read it/left a comment#someone: lol what kind of a fucking freak are you? i'm not going to waste my time reading something that isn't within my immediate interest#write for yourself how dare you even think to ask people to support your WRITING#venting#i'll probably delete this#it's just crazy to me how much people don't value writing at all but they won't admit it#i actually hate the “write for yourself” rhetoric now because it's only ever used to tear writers down#or for writers to tear themselves down before anyone else can#or worse#for writers to feel superior to other writers who are desperate little freaks who dared to want to share their creation
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If Robin were a boy she'd be everyone's favorite character but since she's a girl she only gets to be Steve's gay best friend.
#from the simple fact that male!Robin from alternate dimension would certainly be a gay man#automatically shipped with Steve because Of Course#like of course that's how it'd go. and everyone would accuse the show of queerbaiting because obviously a queer man can't come out to a#male straight friend if it doesn't have some supposed ''romantic subtext'' there#the shipwars among h4rringrove and st3ddie and m/m!St0bin would drive me insane#what really drives me up the walls is people so desperate for canon queer rep they need to make up queerness in characters when it isn't#there. and im not talking abt headcanons or shipping i'm talking about people who wholeheartedly believe byl3r is going to be canon#like beyond it being a theory like these people actually believe mike is gay in canon and was intentionally written that way#it wouldn't bother me if it wasn't so painfully clear the female queer character we got isn't enough.#like idc if people have different opinions from me. if you're a byl3r endgame truther it doesn't affect me you do you#but byl3r and st3ddie being so fucking MASSIVE just shows you how male characters are priorized over female characters. like i get people#liking those ships and characters. i'm just shocked to see the NUMBERS.#and knowing Robin isn't as appreciated as them just because she's a girl#like sometimes i feel almost guilty to fixate on her when she's not like one of the main MAIN characters and she barely has an arc and gets#little attention from the story. but then i remember the eddie/st3ddie fandom exists#idk i just wish i could find robin content in robin tags but it seems like tags such as ''robin buckley internalized homophobia'' (my guilty#pleasure when it comes to angst) is dominated by straight boys steve and eddie. which is ironic
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hi, who's the funniest celebrity to be eaten by a sphinx?
I live under a rock and needed Taylor Swift explained to me a few months ago so I only know the ones who are like, political inconveniences. and death by sphinx is a very Specific way to go that's too grand and dramatic to be actually funny for most of them.
#like first thought was musk because of how smart he thinks he is. but 'killed by a royal sphinx' is too Big to be funny for#a dude whos got such a desperate need for attention#drump is out for similar reason His greed is what most would characterize him by but hes too bumbling for Sphinx death to thematically work#Anyways theyre a pixelated gore blob in this comic. its just the last name i need so im Definitely over thinking this#but every frame is a chance for a joke tou know how it is
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Every night I get home from work and put on the Jaws soundtrack to relax and then I cuddle up to my IKEA shark plushie and go honk shoo honk shoo honk shoo
#and im not even lying#sorry for sharkposting#this is what happens when i rewatch fundamental movies in my life#putting this in the main tags because im desperately trying to get the attention of other jaws enjoyers#jaws#jaws 1975
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experimenting with brushes + stumbling on the linear burn metamy
#happy holidays i have secret santas queued up soon so srry for the inevitable spams#my art#my ocs#my sketches#dnd#dungeons and dragons#oh wait none of the other players are here for once OK . complicated explanation:#< you are the only person my age in this very isolated village so im wildly desperate for your attention (may still be?) and-#-friendship. now that we’re older im envious of the fact you have a choice to stay here/your#-greater calling to outgrow this place and i hate you for that so now i have to antagonize you and craft a narrative where i always#always hated you because it’s easier to scapegoat you more than anything else. coughs out a breath >#‘and it’s just like goob?’ Its literally just like goob.
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brooo these fucking TIME DIFFERENCES are PISSING ME OFF 😭😭😭 i took a nap here and checked the clock app to see what time it was in America and i saw 12 and i was like oh alright sure i can post because im past my usual time anyways. and then i wake up from anothe nap and check the time in america and it turns it was actually 12 AM when i checked. AM. not PM. because im not there and my usual schedule is messed up!!!!!! i hate leaving the country it ruins me. and also i dont have universal service so everywhere sucks just keep me in my state ill be satisified
#whoops i say as i desperately scramble to find a way to unpost a post#ugh...... whats done js done. im not goig through all that effort to repost a post#the killer art is gonna get like no attention but its ok its ok i dont do it for the attention (for the most part)#anyways it looks good anyways and i completed 2/3 of the jk trio so mentally im satisfied#satisfied enough not to chase that high of attention ‼️‼️ me when i have basic restraint#yeah i'll admit i like seeing the attention. im not prideful enough to LIE about that#but im also not prideful enough to go after it too much. only post at specific time because then itll get likely to be seen#and then thats IT!!!! no mlre...#i may be a person who's never experienced any sort of internet attention before tumblr#but im also a lazy uncreative fuck who cannot be bothered to do anything until its really late#it'll get my minimum proudness of a post note count of 20 in like a month anyways so its ok#god i cant believe im actually posting my srt. i would NEVER last year at all#i do not have a lot of pride in my art i should probably fix that. im trying. boom there fixed!#im simply not good enough i MUST improve more ‼️‼️ i MUST be better i MUST be more flexible i must be A BETTER ARTIST!!!!!!!!#im a not good enough artist in my eye until i can draw a good everything in every style. i must be a jack of all trades#an admirable goal i know i know im very focuses on that. i say as i make no effort to improve aside from baby steps#i think this is more real tricule than tricule rant. this has naught to do with mtt#real tricule
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Ngl y'all. I feel the crashing out starting to begin.
Might end up just writing a bunch of vents or something. I'm so drained and upset that I don't even have it in me today.
TW
because I just need to vent this out because I literally feel it building in me. It's hard to explain really but I just feel like disappearing all over again.
#crash out#crashing#art block#i cant do this#please commission me#like please#writing commissions#art commissions#commissions#writing comms open#art comms open#writerscommunity#artist community#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fandom#im losing my mind#thought about sh yesterday because honestly i just cant anymore. like this is such a huge waste of fucking time.#fanfic#fandom#i will write almost anythin#ill DRAW anything at this point.#money needed#need help#the crashout of 2024#desperately tryin not to relapse#give me attention#giving up ngl#writers on tumblr#writers of tumblr#x reader
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my best friend's MOTHER called me to scold me about being depressed and self isolating lol what has life even come to
#she was like. kya hua why won't you meet her she's saying you're busy do you have exams or something#and she knows too much about me so she's like beta exam toh agli saal hai na#it was more like pyaar se scolding ki mil liya karo usse acche lagega she's very sad she misses you#i was like. hmph. what??? she certainly hasn't said that to me#im kinda sick and tired of begging people to make me a priority pay attention to me tbh. i did ask to meet but she was like you come to my#house only i won't come to your house. even tho last few months ive been to her house soooo many times because of her parental drama#i don't want to go anymore im trying to study consistently and we don't sleep at all during nighout and i don't even want to waste a single#day. plus dad is being so weird and involved these days i can't even just sneak out. i mean if she came to my home atleast i wouldn't be so#tired that id waste the whole next day. but she doesn't wanna and she doesn't even have a reason so i just let it be i gave up#but aunty made me feel so guilty so whatever i texted like hey u wanna meet#tbh i don't want to sit and listen to her boyfriend drama all night. she never wants to do stuff together anymore we used to watch movies#we used to dance to songs we used to have so much fun. we were even planning on drinking but she keeps cancelling. now it's just endless#talk about how she feels so lonely and how she misses the guys so fuckinh much and howshe can't stop talking to them and how she needs them#to fill the gap the empty space#well fuck you!!! i feel the same and you don't give a fuck. you blow me off constantly don't hangout for a month even when we're in the#same city !! so we fuck you go to your boys and go your cousin ill be on my fucking own then always on my own desperately#trying everything to fix myself enough to move forward so my life doesn't fall apart and comes to a crashing halt#okay im definitely pmsing but whatever
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Jokes on you I'm already a piece of shit and I'm still going to specifically refer to him as Colter
God. You are such a sad person.
#is this why people didnt like me?#god its been so long since ive interacted with someone this stubborn#“im going to do it just because you dont like it” is so childish#desperate attention seeking#thats what my therapist would say i think#getting off on making people miserable. even i dont do that
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watched frozen and was possessed. i dont know hwat this is. i just kept imagining evan in elsa's dress and it made me laugh but i didnt have a reference so. this.
#my art#not tagging this i genuinely was piecing together an entire au#i was so sleep deprived bruh#i have tyo change a lot#and i erased all romance#bc i hate romance#if its not clear evan is elsa#liz is anna#william is hans#and michael is kristoff#but take out all romance and instead of liz being desperate for love#shes looking for attention#IM RAMBLING IN TAGS BECAUSE IM SHY DONT LOOK AT ME
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