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eugh.
#seraph's ravings#I often fear that everyone else is going to go off and get into romantic and queerplatonic relationships without me#and they're all going to be happy and joyous without me and I'm just going to be Some Guy#who will never be the most important person in someone's life#because i can't be a partner.#i love being aromantic very very much but i really wish I lived in a universe where everyone is non-partnering#so it doesn't feel like I'm at the bottom of some metaphorical hierarchical pit because i'm not interested in that sort of thing
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there's a stranger who sleeps at the foot of your bed
#rotating the first few nights that loop is in the party in my head. argued into sharing a room because its a downpour outside.#only accepts a bedroll. not a bed. (because they don't deserve a bed) because stars don't really need to sleep! it would be silly!#who is this person. who are they to your partner. why do they look at you like that. at him like that. you can't tell what theyre thinking#isat fanart#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat isabeau#isiloop#sloopis#lucabyteart#sifloop#isafrin#isaloop#(help me god thats so many ship tags. have fun interpreting this post your chosen way guys.)#but yeah. had to torment that man again sorry isabeau its just the way it goes. i need to unsettle you as hard as possible thanks#>be me >be 2 months into my relationship at best >still havent kissed the guy >the fucking babadook shows up >tfw
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Chuuya's reaction to Dazai getting hurt during the Lovecraft fight has always been so interesting to me...

Because it's the kind of worry you'd never expect from a character as gruff as Chuuya, who had displayed nothing but hostility towards Dazai so far. Usually, characters that are labelled as "angry" or "anger issues" (which Chuuya is much more complex than that but you get my point) act more as a tsundere type of way when the one they "don't care about" gets hurt. And show their care in very, very subtle ways (ex. their eyes widen, their mouth parts and closes again, etc) before putting up their front once more.
Chuuya, however, is open, and vocal about it. His worry is clear not only to us, but to Dazai himself, the one he shouldn't be displaying the concern to (as per the cliche). Shouldn't it be some sort of secret that Chuuya does care? Isn't that what skk's dynamic has been shaping up to be until now?
I'm telling you- the way my mind blanked when Chuuya just casually.... showed concern not once, but twice, was a sight to see.


Besides, the context makes it much more confusing, because Dazai isn't some rookie, and Chuuya knows that more than anybody. He was the youngest executive in Port Mafia's history, of course he can handle a hit or two. Of course he'd seen him handle a hit or two, sometimes without batting an eye.
Heck, Chuuya himself was hurling Dazai like a ragdoll in their reunion, which was their last meeting. And you could argue that he was going easy on him, but Dazai has mostly withstood the same damage (as far as I could see), and Chuuya was as bitter as ever.
So that kind of contradicts both what we knew of Chuuya so far, and how their dynamic was shaped to be. I mean, that just makes Chuuya a hypocrite, yeah? What makes him care now, all of a sudden? What makes him care at all?
Well, to me, this backasswards reaction implies one (or more) of the following:
- Dazai rarely got physically hurt during their partnership and thus this is an unexpected thing for him to see (during a mission).
- The four years of separation made Chuuya unsure of how much Dazai can withstand physically now. Also the fact that he isn't in the mafia anymore, aka fighting enemy organizations on the weekly, would naturally make Dazai lose his touch in a way, what prompts Chuuya's reaction.
- Dazai getting taken off guard took him off guard which led to panic. Especially since the situation was (momentarily) out of their depth. Seriously wtf even was Lovecraft?
- During the dungeon scene Dazai was an enemy, while in the Lovecraft fight he was as an ally. The difference might be significant to Chuuya.
- This has always been Chuuya's reaction to Dazai getting hurt regardless of the situation.
- "Only I can hurt him like that" ahh logic
- Asagiri was still experimenting with their dynamic and thus there are some inconsistencies.
This scenario didn't play out again (after their reunion) for me to exactly determine which one is more plausible, but it is 100% canon for Chuuya to shamelessly show his concern and run to Dazai to check on him before properly dealing with their opponent, which I find to be such an appealing layer to their dynamic, and a good spin on the type of character he gets stereotyped as.
Bonus: Dazai also becomes a softy when Chuuya's hurt, especially post corruption. Dead Apple alone displays that multiple times.



All in all, Skk are doing a terrible job at maintaining their 'hostile' and 'antagonistic' relationship post their reunion. Freaks.
#I was too lazy to scour throgh SB and 15 and find Chuuya getting worried again which might prove the last points#tho I think they're the most unlikely#I love them displaying these sort of things openly#for Chuuya it's just natural to be concerned#it's natural to say 'because I trusted you'#and while Dazai isn't as expressive with his care#he never cowers away from calling Chuuya 'partner' after 4 years#or express that how he saved him was 'beautiful'#these things come so easily for them you wonder why they're even labelled as rivals at all#you *can't* give a clear label on their relationship#friends? they hate each other. Rivals? they care about each other. Partners? they haven't been for 4 years.#each one you put on gets contradicted at one point#and that's the beauty and fun of it#thanks for coming to my TED talk#bsd#bungou stray dogs#chuuya nakahara#dazai osamu#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai#skk#soukoku#bsd analysis#bsd headcanon#bsd headcanons#skk analysis#bsd meta#J's post#J's writing ✍🏽
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Can you draw something with Doom Patrol!Edwin and Netflix!Edwin?
Maybe something about Dp!Edwin talking about his feelings for Charles with N!Edwin?
It's just something I've been thinking of, make it a little angsty?<3



Glad you asked
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#ask ask ask#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#doom patrol#dead patrol#cw homophobia#i know there are a couple of people who enjoy my rambly tags so these are for u#first of all anon i'm sorry i used your request to continue my story lol#most of my comics are meant to be standalones BUT#the doom patrol and dead girl detectives are all happening in the same universe#and there is indeed series of events here!#this particular one is happening after dp!edwin's feelings were exposed but before they met the girls#with that out of the way#i know this is not as funny as most of my stuff#but dp!edwin's internalized homophobia is an important thign that can't just go away because his charles loves him back#and he does love him back! in this verse#dp!charles is the only one not struggling with his feelings for his partner#dbd!charles and charlotte still have ways to go#also dbd!edwin is in no way an expert in self-acceptance but he has learned some things#i considered having him mention simon but i decided it wasn't his place to out him#(even though he's dead u know)#so yeah what he says here isn't... great#he's still putting himself down and he's still not sure if his feelings for charles are actually a good thing#but he knows HE is glad he feels this way#because fuck it it's not like he'll go to hell for it#and even if he did... he would crawl his way out
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It's interesting how Buck's love interests are all written in a way that ends because of the reason they meet/happen in the first place and then of course, we have Eddie.
Abby, who changes Buck's view of a healthy relationship but then turns around and ghosts him, making him wait for months on end and letting him realize she's not coming back on his own.
Ali, who meets Buck during a dangerous situation in his line of work and then leaves him for how dangerous his work is.
Taylor, who lashes out at Buck for using her as a fake date and saying she thought she could trust Buck to be a friend who then ends up using him for her career and chose to put his friends in danger.
Natalia, who's there to help him embrace and deal with his temporary death but it leads to their break up because of the constant talk surrounding death when Buck's not comfortable with it.
We can't confirm for Tommy till it ends but it's important to note how he offers to get Buck into his interests like flying and muay thai yet doesn't show effort with Buck's interests like dressing up according to the bachelor party theme despite Buck being stressed about it. And we also have the fact that the entire reason they got together was due to Buck's jealousy for Eddie which he then claims to be was for Tommy. Makes me think they are either going to end because of differing interests OR because of the jealousy issue popping up again.
Funnily enough, every scene above has an Eddie parallel:
Eddie co-parents with Buck and not only does this not stop after a dangerous event but Eddie also has Buck down as a legal guardian (healthy relationship - Abby).
Eddie is in the same dangerous line of work and they have each other's backs. This happens right off the bat too.(dangerous job - Ali).
The Lawsuit era and The Dispatch era - both where they "betray" each other but manage to work through it (betrayal/lie - Taylor).
Eddie doesn't pressure Buck to talk about his temporary death until Buck's ready and is more focused about him living than in his death (death doula - Natalia).
Eddie who has different interests than Buck (poker, basketball and UFC/MMA) but also manages to show interest and actively takes part in whatever Buck comes up with; he suggests their outfit for the themed party AND ends up staying there for Buck even when others leave (different hobbies & showing interest/taking part - Tommy).
Absolutely fascinating when you start noticing that Buck's relationships keep failing for one reason or another and then we have him and Eddie who face the same sort of situations but they still come out of it stronger together.
It's clear that there's a reason Buck is able to overcome anything when it comes to Eddie (that conversation with Maddie about being there for each other even at their worst 👀) and we've already established that everything Eddie looks for in a partner is already something he has found in Buck. So really, all that's left is for them to realize that hey, the one I'm looking for is right in front of me! 🤷🏽
And yes, it's been said to death (hah) but you don't find it son you make it. And Buck and Eddie have already made it.
#character meta#relationship meta#think whatever you want it's up to you#but narratively tommy is a plot device#there's no if's or but's about it#I'm saying it like it is#the parallels between Buck's LIs and Eddie is insane#i just thought about making one about it since we mostly talk about how Buck fills all the things Eddie needs in a partner#this is my interpretation of how they've basically written themselves into a corner and the only possible way to go forward is with Buddie#doing anything else is a disservice to the characters and narrative so far#as Tim said#it's only natural and this is it#buck and eddie just naturally embody the ideal partner for each other#tim minear if you make me go through another destiel i will actually personally come and eat your kneecaps i can't do it anymore bro#it's literally all there!!#it's a masterpiece#i don't trust you enough but in Oliver ryan and jlh i trust#buddie#911 abc#eddie diaz#evan buckley#evan buck buckley#911 spoilers#I'm too lazy to tag all the characters because they're unimportant#the entire point of the post is Buck's LI vs Eddie anyways#so there
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I might've started a small jayvik comic because the brainrot is still going extremely strong
#they're not leaving me gang#it's a very cute one very similar to the lokius one I made a while ago#cos I love some casual affection between partners#anyways#it's 3am#this time not because of jayvik fanfiction but because of a kdrama i can't stop watching#goodnight
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I was just THINKING OF HOW ANNOYING Sebek is, H O N E S T .
#and something just FLIPPED in me fshdsh I JUST LOVE SHIP DYNAMIC WHERE BOTH ENDS CAN JUST YELL AT EACH OTHER NONSTOP FHSDHSD IT'S TOO FUN tO#DRAW and then EVERYTHING JUST WENT SO FAST AFTER THAT FHSHSDHS just when she said she was gonna be a spectator only fssh gomen everyone fhs#twisted wonderland#twst#sebek zigvolt#twst yuu#twst mc#malleus draconia#deuce spade#twst grim#ace trappola#mozus trein#fanart#glorious masquerade#FSDHS I EVEN CONSIDERED SEBEK THE MOST UNPOPULAR ONE FROM EVERY BOIS ON TWST FSHDSDH#AND HERE I AM BECAUSE HE FITS MY YUU IF HE JJUST SNAPPED OUT HIS MALLEUS OBSESSION FOR JUST A LITTLE BIT#I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW FUN THIS IS TO DRAW FHSDHSD#I am not kidding WHEN SEBEK IS ASSIGNED AS MANDATORY PARTNER ON MATERIAL BATTLE#i was like N O HE IS SO UNPOPULAR NO ONE IS SETTING HIM AS MAIN FHSDH#I'M DYING#WHY DID I END UP WITH SEBEK#FSHDSHD#THE UNPOPULAR ONE is just TOO FUN TO MESS UP SOMETIMES#BUT SERIOUSLY#HOW DARE HE KEEPS SAYING HUMAN THIS HUMAN THAT IT'S PUSHING MY NERVE THIS GUY FFHSD HDSDSJ#in waht way is he evil#HE IS JUST ABSOLUTELY HIGH IS ALL#STOP HIM FSHD#HE IS EVEN WORSE THAN IDIA IN TERM OF OTAKUNESS FSJDSHDHS
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I mean I hate to be wholesome on your good smut blog but honestly in regards to your Soap is too close to Ghost and doesn’t see the problem with it (by my personal definition of cheating anyway) it isn’t cheating and I do think nothing is wrong with it. If we’re in a monogamous relationship and him and Ghost really aren’t doing anything physical then yeah I don’t think that a single romantic relationship should be the end all be all for interpersonal fulfillment. Hell these guys have been in multiple life or death situations together and clearly are attached at the hip in work environments. I’d be so happy to see that someone cares so deeply about him. Flattering though it might be I wouldn’t want him to be lonely and miserable just because I can’t be around 24/7. Probably start including Ghost in events I’m planning with mine and Soaps civy friend group. Or if he’s not into that I’d back off and let them have their one on one time. Now to be less wholesome; why would I be jealous when I know he’ll choose coming back to our home and our bed to get his back blown out by me no matter how close he is with anyone else? He’s my good boy after all. ;)
“I hate to be wholesome on your good smut blog” is killing me 😭 but anyway, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me! i totally see where you're coming from, and i would also be thrilled to know that he has someone else he can lean on, especially in his line of work.
although i was leaning more towards soap wanting to start something with ghost (and not actually because they have their reasons), your take on it has inspired me to think about the more wholesome idea of johnny holding simon and reader in his hands like dolls and trying to make them kiss.
like johnny takes you to meet his lieutenant, and something in you dies a little when you realise just how bright johnny shines when he's with his moon. it's to be expected; they experience life together in a way you'll never have to face, and the bond they've built is so strong you couldn't untangle one man from the other even if you spent meticulous effort to undo the knots. it makes you wonder why johnny's even with you in the first place and not with the man who's practically looking at him with hearts in his eyes. despite how much he tries to mask it, you recognise the look he wears perfectly; it's the same one you sport around your boyfriend.
simon, on the other hand, is immediately enamoured with you. how did this bastard find someone so lovely? you don't seem to be bothered by his whole getup or lack of social skills in the slightest, choosing to keep the conversation light with random topics you think might interest him (he'll let the fact that you favour liverpool slide simply because he likes the way your eyes sparkle when you talk about your team). you're so sweet and funny, and simon has a painful realisation that while johnny won't ever truly be his, he wouldn't want anyone else but this charming little bird in his place.
meanwhile, johnny's about to melt in his seat because his two favourite people are finally together, actually interacting and looking at each other, and it's like his biggest wet dream ever. now, he just has to figure out a way to get you two more acquainted...
#yk regarding the og post i don't think i would be too bothered if i were in reader's place#especially if they haven't done anything physically#but also it's ghoap and i can't ever imagine them being normal about anything#and that includes forming a more deeper and personal bond that exceeds any romantic partner#so you might as well Take The L because ghost can only be patient for so long#ghoap#ghoap x reader#ghostsoap x reader#ghost#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley x reader#soap#john soap mctavish x reader#john mactavish x reader#rainwrites 𐙚#rainbles 𐙚#inbox 𐙚
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dts just outing their relationship as deeper than being best friends or simple colleagues because who the fuck shares that with his "rival"???
#these gays... 🚬#thought immediately of that interview lando did after carlos' move to williams was announced#and he was like#'yeah of course i know i wish he went to audi'#because okay???? yall literally talked about this throughout#like lando's imput was crucial for the decision#like partners...#yk the whole#best friends collegues rivals anything But lOVERS#yeahhhh sure sure#everything i learn about them is against my will (i literally live through them)#crazy stuff gays#i mean guys#carlos sainz jr#lando norris#landino#carlitos#carlando#drive to survive#also i will be only watching whatever clip comes out of this because for god's sake you can't pay me enough to watch dts#not that im surprised btw#WE BEEN KNEW#but everytime my delusions get confirmed as something even worse#i win
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the mind is willing
#elesh norn#mtg#magic the gathering#wotc#fanart#monster girl#she's a monster girl. yes. wow she is#doodles#march of the machine#prompted by my partner. who works for. card kingdom#i haven't been drawing much lately because i can't stop working on h&h but#i'm figuring out h&h so its time to start drawing again :- )#insert quarter
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Random Jason Todd fan once said: "Jason doesn't need a love interest, his (potential) bromance with Dick is enough."
So, basically... Jason should be emotionally fulfilled and connected with Dick in place of a love interest?
As someone who shipped Jason with Dick, I 100% agree.
#dickjay#jaydick#dick grayson#jason todd#ah yes let's make jason emotionally dependent on dick#also make them partners for life and raise kids together#it's not like anyone is going to be weird about it because they are brothers duh#please you can't be serious#it would be funny if dc did that though#they will literally say 'i love you' in the most romantic scene possible#and deniers will say it's just brotherly love because they didn't kiss#anything is free game as long as they didn't kiss or fuck
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my brainrot about these two can be measured in liters
#dreamworks trolls#trolls#ex bandmates#trolls oc#hed#les#my art#this drawing is very old already but i really wanted to write a oneshot to go with it#because i have story in my mind that led to this particular moment#but ALAS. no motivation for writing#lets just say he had a shit class meeting about their end of elementary school prom where he got singled out and everyone collectively...#...decided that he can't participate in the traditional dance because he's too short (unless. an asshole classmate proposed. he finds...#..a dancing partner in like the 2nd grade. and the class teacher looked thoughtful instead of reprimanding that student.)#basically no one not even his friends stood up for him and it made him feel like a class nuisance they were trying to sweep under the rug#living in vibe city made him such an outcast in general. he did a lot of crying over wanting to be a funk troll and fit in :((#and of course les would blame himself for every one of his problems#ughuguguhugh#i have shed physical tears thinking about these two idiots who can't let go of resentment for each other but also love each other so so muc#fuck i'm crying again#someone put me out of my misery#hedley#leslie
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From my Star Trek 'scrapbook' thing S02E01 Amok Time
I'll transcribe everything into regular text as best as I can because I know my handwriting is a hot mess. ✨ It's mostly descriptions of my favourite things, things I noticed, or my favourite quotes etc. And there's pleeeenty I love about this episode, but man, I could only fit so much in the book per episode. 🥲
[Page 1]
[1] Amok Time
First episode I saw! ❤️
McCoy being the first to notice something is wrong.
"Very impressive. Very diplomatic."
Kirk pleading with spock to tell him what's going on so he can help in some way. He tells Spock how much he cares for him and needs him without directly saying it. It's so tense and beautiful...
Spock resists telling him but eventually breaks town and tells him about the secret Vulcan "Pon Farr — the time of mating."
This episode is basically 98% gay sexual tension. 🌈
"Why must he die? ... Why MUST he die?!"
"I owe him my life a dozen times over. Isn't that worth a career? He's my friend."
This episode originated the 'fuck or die' trope, apparently.
So much tense eye contact and physicality.
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Kirk gentle, but firm. Spock can barely speak.
"How do Vulcans choose their mates? Haven't you wondered?"
Kirk wondering if he's being propositioned:
So much tension
"...Biology." "What kind of biology?" "VULCAN biology." "You mean the biology... of Vulcans? 'Biology' — as in — reproduction?" "..." "...There's no need to be embarrassed about it, Mister Spock..."
One of my favourite shots in the whole show. [Picture of Kirk and Spock close together, but not too close; Spock with his head bowed and his hands in his lap, ashamed for admitting what he has; and Kirk feeling many emotions, including worry.] ((Shame, guilt, tension, yearning, admission, forbidden.))
The way Spock begs: "Captain— lock me away. I do not wish to be seen. No Vulcan could explain further." "I'm trying to help you, Spock."
Spock's wanting/having speech to T'Pring at the end.
The slashed shirt is Iconique
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Kirk reassuring Spock (and admitting) that he's into his 'madness'. Spock surprised McCoy tired of their endless, shameless flirting.
Spock asking Kirk and McCoy to join him for the ceremony
Everyone watching the boys roll around and fight in the sand
Rolling and basically dry-humping as they fight
Poor Spock's mortified face when he thinks he's killed Kirk
The sand has glitter in it
"CAPTAIN!!"
"J I M !!"
Spock grabs Kirk's shoulders and spins him around ❤️
Look at how happy Kirk is ❤️ McCoy and Chapel happy too
Close up of Kirk not believing Spock's hetero-explanation. ("You're gay for me — we'll figure it out later.")
#star trek#star trek tos#my art#my nonsense book#spock#s'chn t'gai spock#kirk#james t kirk#mccoy#leonard mccoy#leonard nimoy#william shatner#deforest kelley#S02E01 Amok Time#no one was ever meant to see this#it was just for me#but my partner encouraged me to post any of the book in the first place because I liked making it so much and thought others might also#this is the only episode with three pages in the book#and who can guess why#some may say 'what a waste of time'; doing this at all but then re-doing it digitally sort of#but oh well I love gel pens and stickers and glitter and tangible things#and anyway what what's the point of living if you can't fawn over pretty boys being in love#k/s#kirk/spock#the premise#spirk
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STAR WARS: THE BAD BATCH 3.12 JUGGERNAUT
#I DONT KNOW WHO TO TAG SORRY#it's first and foremost a self indulgent post for me and my partner because we enjoy rampart a normal amount#and his dynamic with crosshair......... i GUESS#edmon rampart#EDMON#anyway#crosshair#can't believe i'm making crosshair gifs...in the year of our lord 2024#the bad batch#tbbedit#swedit#**#*gffa#*tbb#*rampart
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Poor Neo- "Wait a Second...."
#I thought I was the problem and at fault initially#and thought I needed to be better#be more. You can't make someone cheat though#certainly not saying I was perfect#I'm sure I had my quirks. It's just interesting to me how things played out#:D now i struggle not knowing if I'm overbearing and gonna drive people away!#i shouldn't feel guilty for sharing what happened to me#but i still do. this happened to me and i should be allowed to share it!#also this is NOT about “”being poly=cheating“”#I ASKED about poly relationships. THEY didnt like poly. i said ok. THEY cheated. they wanted monogamy and cheated.#very annoyed how many people commented on my art saying how their partner cheated on them and wanted poly#or saying shit bad about poly#THIS IS ABOUT CHEATERS GONNA CHEAT#i only included the poly thing because it was a connection i made that i thought was particular#furry#digital art#neo#digital drawing#drawing#furry art
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This may be a reach, but there's a potential subtle shift in Soyona that comes after Brooklynn saves her life: she starts almost exclusively using her right hand.
Perhaps it's just because she's right-handed, and anyone would do that, but I like to think that it's a subtle note of respect: she sees herself and Brooklynn as partners now, and subtly adjusts herself to do nothing that might make Brooklynn envious or self-conscious. If Brooklynn can only use her right hand, then Soyona can only use her right hand.
But there are a few notable exceptions...
When she blows up the lab--which may, or may not, have Brooklynn's friends inside--she uses her left hand. She's already mocking Brooklynn here, what with the "boom" quip. The limb advantage doesn't matter. She's possibly, maybe, potentially, murdering Brooklynn's friends here. Ableism isn't exactly a moral event horizon. She knows Brooklynn assured her that she didn't care about her friends anymore, and she knows they're in the lab, and by now she knows that Brooklynn knows they're there...it's her final, ultimate sign of superiority. Because she's Evil.
But the other example is...far more sinister:
Soyona sees Brooklynn's friends on the screen, checks to see if she's seen, realizes she hasn't...and then turns the camera off with her left hand. She can subtly show Brooklynn all the respect she wants to her face, but when her back is turned, if Soyona can gain an advantage...she will discard that respect.
#soyona santos#brooklynn#jwct#chaos theory#jurassic world: chaos theory#brokelynn#lab partners#the fun thing about them is that soyona is Very Much Evil but you can apply just a dash of admiration and yearning#a pinch of jealousy and fear of losing her new protege#it's also not so much a “bringing myself down to your level” thing I don't think she's that kind of ableist#it's a “I'm not going to make you feel envious by doing something you can't”#she's not going to start juggling if she doesn't have to#the hand-offer is also funny because she's then leading brooklynn with her left hand#so she takes brooklynn's hand then swaps the suitcase and the hand after pulling her into the hall
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