#because i am. omg im so normal .

[miusato]

Whatever happened to "I ain't holding back anymore?" Huh???

[robotsafari]

that fucken mouse that i love

[adhderall]

well as you can see besides being ugly as all fuck I'm also extremely bitter so that doesn't help at all in making me appealing. but it also comes with the territory you see, being treated as a hideous freak of nature for your whole life kind of does things to your psyche.

also going into shit in the tags as an extreeeemely jaded individual who's been on every side of the discourse and KNOWS it all VERY PERSONALLY so I know many people will find all sorts of different reasons to hate me (if they want ig) because I'm ~politically homeless~ at this point because I'm sick and tired of everything but whatever

(also fuck I ran out of space in the tags so another post maybe idk. )

[harmoniouseclipse]

For those wondering what happened after my Arlejean rant from like last year. Mental illness took over. I am cooking.

[jaylynx1412]

(had to edit this because it was showing up on the sh@d@my tag and i felt really bad abt it sorry guys)

i just saw an account I followed reblog sh@dow x @my... day ruined. crying. I have just this unnatural hatred for this ship ever since i discovered it in primary school it just made me upset to think about

like obviously absolutely no hate to anybody who ships this I'm just an asshole who can't bear it when others like different things than me.

[perenlop]

i feel like with cana, people are probably either gonna go “omg he’s got a sad backstory so what he did to quinn wasnt THAT bad and he and atlas NEED to repair their relationship or else it sucks! quinn is the worst character ever for splitting up such a great duo!” or “why is cana getting a special episode and a backstory… smh this is getting into abuse apologist territory………he should die and suffer forever” and i trust my followers to try and do nuance but if this breaks containment… hoo boy

(that being said i’ll be more pissed at the first one LMAO)

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

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[hecksupremechips]

Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

[pepprs]

hm. i think i am going to stop going to counseling. he does not understand me. he pathologizes things that are not pathological.

[artemisbarnowl]

Having a totally normal one* after waking from a dream where I just relive life with my ex. It was so normal and fine and we did things such as lay around in bed and make plans for the day, go to the Korean supermarket on the corner, go to a friend's house together.

[spidey-bie]

Hi hi hi! I do have extra development on Moxie. That little possibly 1k message? The basic fucking surface to be scratched. I have not been normal about Moxie since the second movie came out. I'm telling you, I probably would be hyperfixating on spider-verse harder right now if Moxie wasn't just so goddamn intriguing and scratching the right parts of brain rn. Absolutely fucking enamoured, with Moxie rn. Loosing my absolute shit and full neck deep into writing Moxie at this point in time. My favorite part of them is honestly the writing challenge.

My typical writing style for doing most stories is this almost grim-dark realism, and yeah that has it's place and it's weight and it's a good vehicle for world building and everything to use real world examples as a jumping off point into getting into something more fluid and concrete, but sometimes you need a story that breaks all of your own rules so that you can focus solely on being creative, and that's what Moxie is for me.

Moxie's ideas came from slapstick black and white cartoons of the 1930s and later. This almost fluidity of motion itself and the expression of emotion without words itself. Originally, they were going to be about a world of black and beige, the only colour being organics (people, animals, flowers, organic matter) but because of how concrete their city and world is, there is no colour. Cities and companies paint exclusively in black with beige light to illuminate. It was going to be a message about anger, (hence Moxie's name) about punkness in the most concrete definition of the word (not the musical scene, about the movement of punk) and what happens to that frog when you slowly boil them. My typical writing style, and it was a really interesting concept that I will be frogging (recycling ideas for something else) but it was hard as hell to write and emotionally taxing to think about how we're fucking up and all that. Moxie was always meant to be the brightest, most colourful thing in the room because they started and lead the rebellion against climate change.

Moxie's story is about how care can be an act of rebellion. The rules of life is that you have to be cold and jaded, that the world is cruel but Moxie sees the world differently. They see the world in the eyes of someone who didn't get to experience childhood wonder rediscovering it long into "adulthood" where they're supposed to be this serious and callused and good at shit but they aren't. You're supposed to be interested in all these things, but Moxie's just interested in painting these bluejays. Moxie's only love is wonder. I love them so much for it. It sounds so simple when I put it like that, but how the fuck do you write a world for a character to belong in when they're so different from it, not only visually being that the setting Moxie takes place in is dark, cold, wet and dreary with not alot of money with Moxie's contrast being so bright and colourful; It's how the fuck do you explain to people how this isn't just cold and wet? It's a world rooted in perspective. That bat that you just put away into a container didn't really disappear into a void, but because it looked like it did, suddenly it can and items can mary poppins themselves out of even the weirdest of places if you try hard enough. It's a cartoon in written form, with emotional forefront being so integral to bringing everything together. Anger, is a crucial theme, with many of their "villains" being people who take different ideas of how anger can be worked through and how it challenges people. It's a narrative that says there's too many different perspectives out there to have villains.

Yes, I love Moxie very much, and I'm so fucking glad that spider-verse exists and with the amazing creative minds that it did, because let me fucking tell you, This is changing my entire view of being a writer and storyteller just by writing this little dickens. I have not shut up at all about them to anyone who will hear me speak, I am FOAMING at the mouth.

Writing Moxie has also given me a new perspective on comic hobie, and how many more flaws he has and ways he could've been fleshed out that they just fucking didn't that I could also talk about. There's also the thing about the edge of spider-geddon that has it's own issues I feel need to be addressed on a larger scale but, not time not place.

I refuse to be normal about this little shit at any point. XD  

I'm physically vibrating with this ask.

I love how we're playing with the mediums here. Like that's so interesting of a concept.

No but I have a similar issue because my writing always seems to veer in a more dark and tragic type of writing too. (I tried to make it more positive but after reading this ask I started brainstorming and it got like 70 shades darker 😔.)

Okay but the layers. The way they just burst through and defy everything that's considered the "normal". They exist outside the gender binary area, they refuse to let the world make them bitter, and they literally exist outside the norm of the world regarding its medium. I ju- UGHHHHHHHH DESPITE IT ALL THEY CHOOSE TO BE CARING. (Literally holding back tears at this point ngl)

That bat that you just put away into a container didn't really disappear into a void, but because it looked like it did, suddenly it can and items can mary poppins themselves out of even the weirdest of places if you try hard enough.

OKAY BUT THAT'S SO COOL OF AN IDEA. I don't know if you meant in a literal way or a metaphorical sense or both. But either way that's ju- ASDFGSJXJDJDKKD.

Nonononono continue with that rant in that last paragraph about how they could've expanded on Hobie's character. <-Person who hasn't read the comics.

BUT FR LIKE KEEP FILLING ME IN ON MOXIE.

[ironmanstan]

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[crescentfool]

New Ryomina fic, Lizz!!

THREE WEEKS LATE TO THIS ASK BUT THANK U ANON!! honestly when i got this inbox i was like. tearing up. im like. "oh my god. people still think of me when they see ryomina. thank you so much. that means a lot to me. im so glad people want to share the joy of ryomina with me."

i assume that this is probably about "i alone await you," since the ask came around that time (two people possibly notifying me about this! crazy! this is positive. do not take that the wrong way), and i want to say that i've read it and am going to be insufferable about it for the forseeable future.

and if it is not about that fic than oops. give me clown makeup. i will happily put that on (my true form is that of a clown). i hope to read some more ryominas, it's been awhile since i've sat down to read the tag and. god. did you know? im so normal about them. anyways, thank you anon! 💛💙

[burningcomputerpersona]

also how is it that spanish love songs has such good merch??? i don't think I've ever been to a show before where I had to struggle so hard to pick just one thing, like in a lot of cases there's only really one thing that appeals to me or I just get something bc i love the band and need to have them on me regardless of what the design looks like. but i was spending ages just staring at the merch stand trying to pick one out of alllll the things i wanted

[themindelectricdemo4]

u know I will be mad if when I was just looking for someone to talk to during processing shit that happened gets turned into drama -_- after talking to people who really hated me & were completely against me (not even entirely unjustified in disliking me so thats not da problem) I was like ok I want to hear from someone who was hurt too to hear their experiences........& then I just mention like ok don't make this a thing pls...don't make this a thing. Pls. Pls don't. No I don't even want to be anonymous I just don't want this to be a thing. I don't even think ppl deserve a dang callout post I just needed someone to relate to when I felt really shit to be able to throw myself into different views before I would finally start to settle on my actual rational opinion (yay bpd) butttttttnoooo...sigigigggghhh!!!!! Ok I don't care about this other person blah blah idk these people. Whatever. Can you leave me alone u served the purpose in my lfiw

[thewispsings]

stupid appendix | oscar piastri

pairing: oscar piastri x reader

summary; oscar piastri biggest fan (his girlfriend) goes crazy when he wins his first grand prix, and she isn’t there to see it.

liked by oscarpiastri, maxverstappen1, and 761,305 others!

yourusername: it’s race week again, except i’m praying oscar doesn’t win because i’m getting my appendix taken out and if he wins, and im not there, i will go fucking ballistic. 

view comments below!

oscarpiastri: wow, thanks for all the support! 🥰

yourusername: i love you with my whole heart octopus, but if you win and im not there? i will never forgive you.

oscarpiastri: and what am i supposed to do if i start leading?

yourusername: stop, and let everyone pass you!

oscarpiastri: so i won’t be doing that! lovely conversation 👊

yourusername: YOU NEVER LOVED ME

user1: why’d she just call oscar octopus?

yourusername; that’s his name?

user1: no..his name is oscar?

yourusername; he was born octopus jack piastri, but got bullied a lot, so he changed his name to oscar when he was 16 😓

user1: really?

yourusername: yeah, and i would know!

user1: ig…LOL who names their kid octopus?

yourusername: RIGHT??

oscarpiastri: STOP TELLING PEOPLE I CHANGED MY NAME. MY NAME WAS NOT OCTOPUS.

user1: oh…well now i’m embarrassed

user2: don’t be, she’s done this to at least 30 fans now

maxverstappen1: don’t worry, i’ll make sure he doesn’t win 😏

yourusername: thank you max! you’re my only REAL friend <3

landonorris: excuse me?

yourusername; tell me lando, would you throw oscar into the grandstands to prevent him from winning this race?

landonorris: no?

yourusername: FAKE

landonorris: okay, you know what, it’s not MY fault that you decided to take your appendix out THAT DAY.

yourusername: I DIDNT DECIDE IT. IT WAS FORCED UPON ME.

landonorris: RESCHEDULE THE SURGERY FOR THE NEXT DAY! 

yourusername: wait.

oscarpiastri: NO. you will be having that surgery on sunday. and you will not being rescheduling.

yourusername: I HATE YOU OCTOPUS

oscarpiastri: you can hate me all you want, you’re still getting that surgery.

user3: on one hand i want oscar to win, on the other i dont think yn will recover if she isn’t there to witness it

charles_leclerc: i would try to stop him from winning but i don’t think i have a fast enough car for that

yourusername: it’s okay charles! i’m sure ferrari will bounce back in no time :)

charles_lelcerc: really?

yourusername; no…

charles_leclerc: nice talk! :(

user4: when you want to comfort your friend but you can’t lie for shit

user5: normally i pray that oscar will win a race, but today, ill do the opposite, just for you yn 💕

yourusername: thank you!!

user6: she is dead serious. she honestly doesn’t want oscar to win.

yourusername: i’ve never been so serious in my LIFE.

user7: no i get it, imagine going to every single on of your bfs races and the ONE time you don’t go he wins???

user8: i’d start to believe i’m back luck

carlossainz55: imagine having to get your appendix out 🤣🫵

yourusername: right? that’s so embarrassing 🤣

user9: you two are the LAST people too be talking

user10: oscar piastri does NOT win the hungary gp 🕯️ oscar piastri does NOT win the hungary gp 🕯️oscar piastri does NOT win the hungary gp 🕯️oscar piastri does NOT win the hungary 🕯️

user11: AMEN

user12: LOUDER

user13: preach!

oscarpiastri: @/yourusername, you see what you’ve done?

yourusername: beautiful work guys! oscar piastri does NOT win the hungary gp 🕯️

oscarpiastri: 😐

— race day!

— post race interview!

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liked by mclaren, lewishamilton, landonorris, and 719,014 others!

oscarpiastri: first grand prix win. incredible 🧡

view comments below!

carlossainz55: congrats oscar 👍

estebanocon: great job mate, first of many 👏

user14: oh i’m crying

user15: omg i am too, the tears just won’t stop

user16: first it was him winning, then it was him apologizing for winning, and now it’s yn not being there for him 💔

landonorris: congrats bro!

user17: OH OSCAR PIASTRI, OH OSCAR PIASTRI, OH OSCAR PIASTRI

user18: waiting for yn to wake up and raise hell

user19: she’s going to wake up from anesthesia and this is going to be the first thing she sees 

yourusername: what was the one thing i asked you not to do?

oscarpiastri: baby you just woke up, stop making your mom write for you, and rest

yourusername: ONE THING OSCAR. I ASKED FOR ONE THING.

oscarpiastri: stop making your mom write for you, she probably feels very uncomfortable right now

yourusername: i do - the mom

yorusername: STOP CHANGING THE SUBJECT OSCAR JACK PIASTRI. YOU ARE SOOO NOT INVITES TO MY OSCAR FIRST WIN PARTY

user20: i know that anesthesia is hitting real hard 

user21: i want to go to oscar’s first win party

yourusername: @/maxverstappen1 AND YOU. I TOLD YOU NOT TO LET HIM WIN

maxverstappen1: i’m sorry yn. i have failed you.

yourusername: …its okay max, you’ll get him next time

maxverstappen1: thank you yn ❤️

oscarpiastri: WHOS SIDE ARE YOU ON??

yourusername: NOT YOURS.

yourusername: stupid appendix.

carlossainz55: me and my homies all hate our appendix’s

user22: you don’t have one?

carlossainz55: 😐

liked by oscarpiastri, maxverstappen1, charles_leclerc, 691,047 others!

yourusername: absolutely gutted to have not been there for his first win, nonetheless OCTOPUS JACK PIASTRI IS A FUCKING RACE WINNER

view comments below!

oscarpiastri: you will see me win in person love, i know it 🧡

yourusername: i love you octopus

oscarpiastri: i love you more

user22: he’s not fighting the octopus?? softie

user23: maybe she’s dying and wants her too be happy in her last moments… OMG YN ARE YOU DYING???

yourusername: NO??? i’m perfectly fine, the surgery went perfect!

user23: oh, then yeah he’s a softie

user24: worst maiden win ever

user25: SPEAK ON IT

user26: it would’ve been so much better if yn was there :(

charles_leclerc: glad your surgery went well yn!!

yourusername: thank you charles 👊 congrats on p4, your getting up there!!

charles_leclerc; thankfully! i could not handle any other bad week in the car 😞

user27: none of us could charles. none of us could.

maxverstappen1: can i congratulate oscar now?

yourusername: i guess 😒

maxverstappen1: YAY OSCAR 🥳🥳

user28: why is he acting like he wasn’t one of the first to congratulate him in person?

maxverstappen1: SHHHH YN DOESNT KNOW THAT

user29: “her health comes first.” oscar jack piastri you SOFTIE

user28: i desperately need a video of yn waking up from surgery and finding out oscar won.

oscarpiastri: i have one, there was lots of cussing, snot, and tears

yourusername; SHUT UP OCTOPUS YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT

user29: SHE HAS BEEN THERE FOR ALL HIS BIG WINS, AND THE ONE TIME—THE ONE TIME HE WINS IN FORUMLA FUCKING ONE. SHE ISNT THERE. GOD I CANT TAKE TJIS

yourusername: see, you get it 😞

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notes; my post on oscar’s win!!! super super super proud of him <33