#because honestly i think a lot of people were expecting more of the ‘haha future star thing’

[karamell-sweetz]

so. tsukasa fes huh?

[somewhereincairparavel]

🐚 Daughter of Neptune headcanons list... 🌊 part three

Note: ahhh finally done with this unexpected series. Also, this is twice as long as the previous two parts, I got soo carried away haha, well you can't blame me, writing is so fun! This is the last part of this headcanon series, I had so much fun writing this?? Even though I had like a mini writer's block at first, I swear I started typing this part out having no idea what I was doing, but it all turned out better than I expected. This part is not just Jason x reader but it also includes so much platonic stuff with the others of the seven + Reyna + Nico. It's just so fluffy omgg. Happy reading! Thank you sm for all the notes you guys have given me for the previous two parts! Tell me if you guys enjoyed it, do you think I should consider writing more of these headcanon stuff in the future?

Part one: https://www.tumblr.com/somewhereinhogsmeade/746404816602972160/daughter-of-neptune-headcanons?source=share

Part two: https://www.tumblr.com/somewhereinhogsmeade/746489087922520064/daughter-of-neptune-headcanons-list-part-two?source=share

•After Jason woke up on the bus, he'd actually remember your eyes and voice VERY clearly. Because those were his two favorite things about you. But Hera had whacked him on the head pretty badly, so he couldn't remember ALL the details about you in the beginning, like Percy did. (I honestly wanted to make him remember you fully even after Hera wiped his memory off, but that would be too similar to Percy and Annabeth lol so I didn't want it to be cliche sorry)

•Now you guys may be wondering, what about Piper and Jason? Okay Piper would admit her feelings for him, but Jason would turn her down, albeit politely though, because it felt utterly wrong. He knew about this special person in his forgotten life, even though her figure was wispy and blurry. He never had any attraction towards Piper, she was a good friend, sure, and it didn't matter how pretty people thought Piper was, because those black Obsidian eyes of the mystery girl he was so familiar with, was alone prettier by every means. (We all love a loyal whipped Jason who thinks that a pair of eyes are more beautiful than a daughter of Aphrodite)

•He knew you were special. He knew that he didn't belong there, in the wilderness school. He knew that he was miles away from home. His real home. But the name of that home never came to him. •the moment he looked at his SPQR tattoo, though, it would bring him vigorous flashes of you and him sparring in a training room.

•Aeolus the wind god, would remind Jason of the time you and him stayed at his palace to slay Trojan the sea monster. Well, of course you went, how can you go to slay a sea monster without taking a sea child with you? Right? That was the last quest you and Jason went on before he disappeared.

Aeolus would trigger that one memory in Jason. Thank the gods for Aeolus. That one memory trigger is what made everything gush back to Jason like a tide.

•He’d remember your name, finally. His Best friend. His crush. His maybe girlfriend. He'd remember his friends from his home. Camp Jupiter. Gosh. He felt such a burst of energy simply by saying that name. Now, he felt homesick.

So you could imagine the excitement he felt, when Leo was building the argo ii. He'd practically gush about you to Leo, and even Piper would be super cool with it. Over the course of the months, Piper realized that Jason and her were not romantically compatible at all, it was all Hera’s mist. She didn't even know what she was thinking, crushing on someone who was so different from her on every level. So now Piper and Jason were like homie coded.

You were super worried after Percy told you that the new, Greek ship, the argo ii would land today. Which was pretty weird, since it meant that Jason was coming back to you. Why were you worried?

•Well, for lots of reasons, what if Jason didn't remember you anymore, what if he lost his feelings for you, what if he found someone else? The stress was real.

•Without even realizing it, you poured your thoughts out to Percy, whom you initially refused to tell about your’s and Jason's.. er.. situationship.

•Percy, would surprisingly be chill about it?? Like you were expecting some panicking now that he knew his sister was romantically involved with someone.

•Percy would calmly tell you that Jason wouldn't stop loving you, proudly pointing to himself as an example, that he never stopped loving annabeth even after the Hera Fiasco. Well. He had a point. That boy was still whipped for his girl.

•So when you locked eyes with Jason, and saw the familiar gleam in his eyes, you knew, he didn't forget. You forgot how piercing his blue eyed gaze was,because it made you feel stuff erupting from your stomach lol (blud is the definition of 🧿👄🧿)

•Without even caring about what your fellow Romans thought, Jason and you would just lunge onto each other tbh. Its canon that Jason is the best hugger ever, so it would be a rib crushing kinda hug.

•You would be SO relieved that he'd remember you and he'd be so relieved that you didn't move on.

•You guys wouldn't kiss, not yet. You still haven't exactly acknowledged your relationship status, BUTTT you do the cheesy af forehead touch thing (you could have sworn percy fake-gagged LOL)That's when Jason noticed your praetor badge, he’d be stunned, and would ask you for details, you’d simply point to the golden eagle perched at the end of the senate house and tell him that you and percy got elected after you both returned the eagle together.

He’d fall in love all over again omgg the heart eyes he’d give youuu. He knew that you were downplaying your achievements tho, so he’d secretly ask Reyna for the full details lol. (Reyna was a proud mom, so she’d give Jason ALLL the deets)

•okay so when Annabeth judo flips percy, you'd be SO taken aback lol, you’d even get a lil uncomfortable bc well that's YOUR brother getting attacked by a random girl- so initially you’d be ready af to throw hands.But after Percy starts laughing you’d realize that THAT'S annabeth. Like Percy's Annabeth. Dam, your brother was with a fierce girl.ANYWAYS, Percy would introduce Annabeth to you proudly, like “THIS is MY sister” (so dramatic and for what reason)

Annabeth would initially be very nervous around you, because, one, she didn't know that Poseidon had ANOTHER kid, gods know what havoc you and percy would cause together, two, you meant a lot to percy and she could clearly see that, an idiot could deny how much love your brother had for you, so she was determined to not mess up her reputation around you, ESPECIALLY after she the look on your face when she flipped Percy (you had a hot temper, need i mention, so without even realizing it, you had directed a very fierce glare at her, oopsie).

Octavian would again, not give up in trying remove your’s and percy’s praetorship by going “Oh there cant be four praetors its against the rules” blah blah that's where percy intervenes with his legendary “we all outrank you loser” lol

So after the group’s lunch scene where they discuss the prophecies and stuff. You, Reyna and Jason would actually talk amongst yourselves, after you guys came to the conclusion that you will have to join the gang in the argo ii. Jason would secretly be overjoyed that he doesn't need to separate from you anymore but you guys would still be sad that Reyna wouldn't be able to come.

This also meant that you would have to give your praetorship up. Gosh your positions in camp Jupiter somehow never stuck permanently, you'd even joke about that. And Reyna would have to handle Camp Jupiter by herself now that all three of you left, But Reyna assured you that it wasn't your fault.

Okay enough with the plot yapping I did. Bc if I continue it would go on for ages. The main reason you're here is because of reader x jason and I'm kinda deviating from that a little.

It would actually take so long till you and Jason get alone time on the argo ii because of group discussions and coach Hedge lol But you both would meet at the deck at like 2 AM (this kinda reminded you both of the times you and he would sneak out to explore New Rome at night.) That's where you both could feel the tension in the air lol. So many unresolved and unrequited feelings on both ends, how would you approach that?

But thankfully, being best friends first gave you guys an upper hand to moving forward in the relationship very quickly. You'd just start off talking about each other's respective journeys in your respective camps. He'd tell you about the quest with Leo and Piper, and you'd tell him about what went on in Camp Jupiter while he was gone.

That's when you realize that Jason looked a little different than when he left. His hair was Messier, a little longer, no more neatly cropped, his azure eyes sparkled when he spoke of Camp half blood, and the war games they had, how different it was from Camp Jupiter, etc.

But instead of feeling upset about how much Jason enjoyed the other camp, you'd feel relief. Relieved that Jason no longer looked stressed anymore, he'd always held this fatigue in his eyes, while he was at camp Jupiter , it was no wonder, considering the politics he'd had to engage in to prove the worth of the twelfth legion, his leader duties + vigorous training had tired him out, but now, some of the fatigue his eyes held had vanished.

Camp half blood seemed to be the place for him. Now you were itching to go to this mystery camp your maybe boyfriend AND your brother seemed to love so much.

Jason would be super nervous to tell you that he liked it better at camp half blood, and that he secretly wanted you to come and stay with him there though. Because he felt like he was betraying his Roman life. He felt like he was betraying your past.

So when he'd tell you, he'd just yap and yap about it out of nervousness. That's when it happened. That's when you kissed him. You would just pull him in. Period.

He'd be super flustered at first, neck reddening and all, but he'd just lean in and be so into it (he's a neck grabber, fight me) You'd think that as a military dude, the guy would be a bad kisser. Hell no. His dad's the chief of getting all the bitches, he ain't letting his son embarrass him by having no charm lol

OH OH and speaking of the old man, The moment your's and Jason's lips met, you would hear a clasp of thunder and see huge steaks of lightning explode in the sky.

You had to admit, the thought of your dad's watching as you both kissed made you feel weird lol

But if Zeus had hated you so much, he would've zapped you to electrons by now, and if Poseidon had hated jason so much, he would've drowned him. But thankfully, neither happened.

After lots of long deep conversations (and kissing)You both would reach the decision that after the whole gaia situation is over, you'd both stay at Camp half blood, but, you'd both return to settle in New Rome as you grew up. I mean, it's Camp Jupiter that you both dislike staying in, not the city itself. The city is paradise for demigods.

But the fates ruined it, so despite gaia’s defeat (No leo is alive and well here okay) after Jason took up the responsibility of building shrines for minor gods, he had to go back and forth between both the camps.

But you, Reyna, Hazel and Frank would help Jason with the minor gods in Rome, While Jason took care of the Greeks. This made his job a tad easier.So the downside was that you kinda had to do long distance for a while AND you hadn't even visited camp half blood yet (Which got on Percy's nerves, the poor boy wanted to show you around his Camp and cabin SO badly, but the fates never left you or Jason alone. The Romans always had duties in front of them.)

But because you, Reyna, Frank, Hazel, Annabeth, and even Leo helped Jason with the shrine stuff. The job got done a lot quicker.

You both were finally at peace.So as a celebration to finishing the shrine project, Percy and Jason DRAGGED you to camp half blood and had the whole day spent with all of the 7 (including Reyna and Nico).

When I tell you, you've never had THIS much fun ALL your life omg.

You never got to bond with Leo, Piper or Annabeth properly because of the war, and stuff. But today? It was like you guys have been friends since forever.

You played capture the flag, You and Percy used up your water shenanigans to put on the most dramatic fountain show EVER (Annabeth was right in her judgment, you both were completely chaotic together) she realized how fun you actually were, not even half as grumpy as you looked. After you and Percy caused a huge avalanche that almost turned into a hail storm (which was prevented by wind boy Jason) Leo told you guys to stop flexing your fancy shmancy weather powers.

Piper taught you guys how to surf, which only ended in You and Percy somehow splattering water on each other and you aggressively tackling him into the bottom of the ocean, WHICH ended in a chaotic “who can swim faster?’’ competition between you both, You both were SO dedicated that you created a huge bubble to bring everyone into the bottom of the ocean to spectate (Frank turned into a sea urchin though lol)

You and Percy ended up in an argument over who won. Mind you, if you read part one, you'd know that Percy and you have this ability to telepathically converse with each other underwater, but only you both understand, so it would end up looking like you're making strangled fish noises to the others. Nico, Piper, and Leo were absolutely hysterical. Jason was amused but so clueless. Hazel was mortified, while Annabeth and Reyna hoped you and Percy didn't kill each other. And Frank? He was still an urchin.

Also, since You, Jason, Percy, Annabeth, Hazel and Frank would all go to New Rome College together, you guys would have SO many double dates together omgg.

I forgot to mention, you met Tyson and Percy's new little sister Estelle, so now your sibling group has expanded even more.

did i mention that percy and you would have matching dolphin plushies? yeah. he'd have the blue and you'd have the grey

Tyson would love you sm omg :( he'd keep making you stuff every time you showed up in camp half blood.

Also, Sometimes when Percy and Annabeth would be busy, You and jason would so babysit Estelle (which Sally would adore) Jason would so take Estelle flying.

can I just take this moment to emphasize how much Sally would care about Jason?? Like after hearing jason’s erm tragic past, Sally would get so protective of him and give him sm food and everything :( Jason would get a little emotional too. Like you can just see his eyes tearing up whenever Sally hugs him :(((

Even though Reyna joined the hunters, You and Jason would make it a point to see her at least Every two weeks. She'd be so proud of how far you and Jason had come, even after the long break that temporarily had your relationship on hold. Now Reyna could sleep peacefully lol since the poor girl had seen you both hopelessly pining for eachother since you were like 9 lol

She had listened to you telling her that you weren't good enough for Jason to like you back, AND him telling her that he wasn't good enough for you, after all.

Okay after you guys got older, because of the amount of services you and Jason had done for Camp Jupiter, you guys would end up receiving such a cool house in New Rome as a gift (it's like the least you deserved for all that you've been through lol) It would have a fancy Roman bath and everything. and even better, it was not far from where percy and Annabeth were living. So it was a win win.

You and Jason would totally iris message Nico at least once a week, you both were basically proud parents when you see Nico all lovey dovey in a relationship with Will. (Is this how Reyna felt seeing you and Jason? Maybe, yes)

Also, you and Thalia met not long after she came to Rome to check out the minor god's shrines. She loved you, like almost immediately, Jason iris messaged her atleast twice a week, so he told her all about you. So Thalia would be SO happy that someone was treating her lil bro right. He deserved that.

Speaking of family, Zeus had just grudgingly accepted that you were his son's girlfriend lol Poseidon would actually be a little chill about it. He wasn't as judgemental as his brother. But just because you and Jason were dating didn't mean that your dad's didn't stop having a go at each other lol

But you both would make it a point to start aggressively kissing eachother whenever you spot statues of your dad's placed next to eachother. Simply to piss them off. And it works. Every. Single. Time.

You would hear a clasp of thunder each time you do this. You and Jason would just look at eachother and burst into giggles. It was a tradition now between you both.

Sometimes Jason would still look at you like you were made of stardust, and vice versa.

In the end, you and Jason were what people called “Childhood Sweethearts”

[greenfiend]

hello! your theories are absolutely crazy and i love them- i’m truly convinced that the one with hopper is accurate. however, i was wondering if you had a favorite theory? one that you think is more likely than others? (i know most of them go hand in hand, but i wanted to ask anyway)

Thank you thank you!!! I honestly feel like I’m Joyce Byers sometimes trying to explain these theories. 😅 Because, anon, I *know* people will think I’m insane and reaching but… I see the plausibility. I also just like to look outside the box, and expect the unexpected. Remember how difficult it would have been to predict Vecna during seasons 1-3? It’d be nearly impossible (but there were clues…)

Regarding my favourite and the most likely- flayed Hopper without a doubt. That theory still drives me insane! While watching season 3, I can now pinpoint when David Harbour is playing flayed Hopper and regular Hopper! His expressions are over-the-top and his voice is less deep while flayed. Regular Hopper? He’s more calm and stoic (but he has his moments too). During one of the regular Hopper scenes, the Major makes a comment: “why so serious?” 🧐

(Side note, I *get* why David Harbour is so giddy about Byler- he literally plays Will at times. Lmao).

The concept of flayed Hopper (and others) is clever on grander scale too.

Because, think about it:

- Season 2 featured Will being flayed by the mind flayer. Season 3 featured Will doing the flaying. It’s the reverse!

- Textually, we see the other William (Billy) going around “flaying” others in season 3. While, subtextually we see our favourite William (Will) doing his own flaying too. Of course, Will’s “flaying” is a lot less sinister, and a lot more funny/adorable.

- Will says he’s “not gonna fall in love”- yet he LOVES love. He’s going around playing Cupid with not just Hopper/Joyce but the other couples too; he’s living vicariously through them. (Notice how Will suddenly appears in the shot below when Lucas says the “right” thing to Max.)

(If anyone is interested, I’ll elaborate more on how Will is the love guru in season 3.)

But yeah, I also just have SO many questions about flayed Hopper too. Is Will aware he’s doing this? Is this ST3 Will doing the flaying or a future Will? Is ST3 a whole ass simulation created by Will? Is it just Will’s world and everyone is living in it?

“Welcome to my world” - Will Byers

(Look at this little guy playing with his “pawns”.)

I could go on but I’ll stop for now. Haha.

Thank you for your ask!!!

Also- anon (and anyone else), if you’re interested in joining my theory community group just message me and I’ll invite you!

[bowandcurtsey]

Hello, I saw your requests were open

If you don't mind id like to request headcanons of nozel falling for a commoner squadmate s/o? She's very sweet, kind and lovely and has healing magic and she always takes care of him when he's overworking himself or heals him after a tough mission and he was suspicious of her at first but then he understood that her kindness was genuine and he fell in love?

You guys are really quick to make requests, haha! I love it, thank you for making me feel that I'm still relevant. (≧◡≦) I was afraid that I would be forgotten since I'm not as active in writing.

Also, I'm kinda high from alcohol so bear with me if there's a lot of errors.

I miss this grumpy royal so much

Characters: Nozel Silva x f! reader tw: unchecked works , soft and fluffy uwu

Nozel silva has a gigantic wall up around his heart. So he really doesn't trust anyone easily.

He doesn't despise commoners, it's just that he feels that commoners can't really get what it's like to be a royal. Not in a bad way, but like a lot of commoners think that royals have it easy and they have it tough.

Which is not true. Royals have certain stress to go through and certain things to uphold.

So when he met you, he had his guard high up in the skies. He doesn't like opening up because he felt vulnerable and he doesn't really like feeling weak.

At the start, you were just a healer to him. Like any other healers, just doing your job of healing people. He doesn't look down on you, in fact, he's appreciative and grateful for people like you.

He thought that you were just another commoner that wouldn't understand the difficulties of being a captain and a royal.

Until you told him "thank you for you hard work".

He was puzzled honestly, since you were the one doing him a favour by healing him.

But you said that your job was easy, and he had it tough, having to fight on the front lines so that commoners like you could be safe.

He had a good impression on you.

And then the next time, he met you on a battle field. You and your team were there as an emergency rescue mission because the fight was too chaotic and there were too many injured.

You healed him and you were really upset and worried for him. You cared for him and even went the extra mile, bringing him something to drink and some essence to drink.

You told him to "come home safe" and that you'll be waiting for him.

Nobody has done that before; telling him that they'll be waiting for him.

He was a little suspicious, wondering if you were trying to hit on him because he was a royal and a captain. But when he saw that this was how you treated everyone, he felt remorseful for thinking that way.

Compared to you, he was a sinner.

Slowly, he found himself wanting to be around you more. He looked for you all the time to heal himself.

He loved it when you fussed and worried for him.

And what made him realise he was in love was when he felt jealous when you cared for someone else. You fussed about Fuegoleon's injury, saying how it must have hurt and that he needed to be more careful.

It was then that he realised he wanted you to himself. It was a strange feeling for him, being so concerned about someone else that wasn't his family or squad.

It took him some time to accept his feelings and taking the first step to court you. He didn't know how actually, he was worried about what you might like or dislike, or if you might feel that he was too overwhelming.

This royal had tons of insecurity about himself.

He found himself wanting to talk to you and pour out his worries and anxiety.

But you always cared for him and gave him a sense of security. You told him not to overwork himself and to take good care of himself more.

Which not many have done so; people always wanted more and more out of him and they always expected perfection from him.

But with you, he felt at ease, and he felt like he could relax and throw all his worries out the window.

He knew that he couldn't see his future without you in it anymore.

He finally asked you out on a date and nothing in the world has ever felt so right for him. It was the best night of his life and he was the happiest he had been in awhile.

"do I have the honour of asking you to be mine?" he asked you on your third date. He wanted to ask you since the second date but he chickened out.

Of course you liked him too. You felt that everyone only saw the cold and ruthless side of Nozel, but you saw more than that; you saw that this royal was soft and kind inside and that he needed someone to love him and care for him and you had this strong urge to be his everything.

You saw how hardworking he was and how he always put the country and others before himself and it made you want to give him your all and be the one to protect him instead.

From then on, you never looked back. You wanted to give your all to take care of him and make him feel happy.

And he let you into his heart, baring his true self to you. And when Nozel Silva loves, he loves whole heartedly and made sure he would give everything in his power to make you the happiest lady on earth.

[dreadnotau]

Happy three years everybody! As always, there’s a lot to say on the occasion, so pop in at the end of the post for the tl;dr if you don’t have time for my detailed diatribes, haha

Boy, time flies, huh? Feels like the second anniversary was just yesterday, but maybe that’s just the several long hiatuses getting to me. I’ve been scarce on uploading anything anywhere for a while now, even though I promised I’d actually pick up the slack this time around. What gives? Well…

For one, college hell, and for two, a lot of unfounded anxiety about putting my art out there. Allow me some theatrics for a moment and I’ll actually get back to the comic at hand… I’ve never had an exceptionally supportive environment for making art. It wasn’t suppressive, not in the slightest, but it also wasn’t… encouraging. It was always treated as a hobby or a distraction rather than something I was allowed to be fully proud of, especially because a lot of my art focused on more cartoon-y and fantasy ideas, rather than still life studies and painting (which people generally outside of the art sphere tend to value more, arbitrarily). Couple that with a childhood full of being bullied over minute shit you hadn’t even considered could be an issue before, and you get a teenager hellbent on never sharing his interests or ideas with anyone, mostly due to the fear of rejection.

I’ve grown, thankfully, but that paranoia and fear doesn’t go away overnight. As I’m sure you all know, Meowchela was the one who originally encouraged me to post this comic, and the only reason she succeeded was because she was the first person in a long time who listened and engaged with my interests and my art in a meaningful way. It’s kind of obvious her friendship had a profound impact on me, and I’d cite her as one of the reasons I was even hopeful enough to apply to an art college in the first place! This comic, and that bond with another person, proved that maybe these things I’m so passionate about weren’t duds, and weren’t something I had to keep to myself.

So, fast forward a few years. About three years, in fact.

During one of my classes, right before this hellish two weeks of exams started, one of the class assistants talked me into showing my comic pages to one of my professors. He’s generally a pretty open guy when it comes to new mediums, but I’m always… apprehensive about showing my less “traditional art”-y things to professors, but, he ended up being genuinely proud of it. Specifically, I showed him pages 85-87 (because they’re my favourites) and, he didn’t read the text, just the visuals were enough for him to say “good job, keep it up” (which is HIGH praise from that guy). When I mentioned I’ve been meaning to simplify the visuals because I didn’t have time to work on the comic very often because of college and classes, he dismissed it on principle. I was honestly caught off guard. Heavily paraphrasing, he suggested that worsening the visuals for an arbitrary deadline was counterproductive to making something that’s Good™.

That’s kinda stuck with me. For a good few years now I was more focused on optimisation rather than visual improvement for the comic, and though it HAS contributed to better visuals in some ways (cutting corners sometimes makes for a less pointy and jagged end result), it’s kind of weird I’m treating an art project that way, isn’t it? I set a lot of… arbitrary deadlines and standards for myself, in the form of expectations and what I “should” or “shouldn’t” be doing at certain stages in my life. I’ve thought of Dread Not as a passion project second and a stepping stone first, if I’m being honest. As if it was too… fandom-y and derivative to be treated with more gravity than that, like it’s an immature project because I was still a child when I came up with it. As if it was something I’m making to Build Up to Something Else, something Bigger and Cooler and More Important, and… the more I think about the future of Dread Not, and even my future career options, the more I realised that’s, ironically, a really immature way to think about it.

If there’s one thing going to this art college has taught me, is that there’s no “right” way to make art, and there’s no “right” way to success as an artist. There’s no clear-cut paths, just more commonly treaded roads, but even those are heavily overgrown. Why should I try to box myself into thinking I have to make things from complete scratch to be taken seriously? What’s so bad about Dread Not as a story and as a comic that’s caused me to vaguely keep it under wraps when conversing with people in my day-to-day life? Why wouldn’t I put all these skills I’ve acquired to improve and expand this project that’s Right There, WAITING for me to finally get off my ass and get pages out there again?

I wish I could say I’ve used all this time away in a particularly clever way, but I really haven’t - at least, it feels like I haven’t. My art has undoubtedly improved over time (though admittedly the art for this post was Very rushed, fuckin exams), and while I’ve been working on projects in the background, chipping away at them in a VERY disorganised way, I haven’t been posting that progress anywhere, and I haven’t made any good progress on my biggest project, Dread Not, because of the other ones. And, honestly? Admitting that kinda stings. This comic means a lot to me, and I wish I actually gave it the time and attention it deserves instead of letting it sit out hiatus after hiatus because I keep failing at structuring my time.

So, my new plan is a little more abstract: find a way to work Dread Not into my school schedule, and slowly build a habit of working on it more often. No clue how long that’ll take, but I think it’ll be worth it to consider it as an option, and hopefully finally end these long, drawn out hiatuses with short bursts of uploads in-between. HOPEFULLY. Building habits was never my strong suit, so please bear with me while I figure this out in what will probably be the most hectic upload schedule in this comics history, which is: no schedule at all.

From now on (until the end of Act 1), I’ll upload pages when they’re ready, and depending on how the weeks go and how complex the page is, they could be weeks or days apart from one another. Hell, some might even take a month to finish if school stuff gets REALLY hectic (god knows Hellish Exam Week number 1 and number 2 won’t be giving me much time to work on the comic), but I’m determined to do this. I want to be able to put my all into this project again!!

(And hopefully finish Act 1 by the end of this semester…)

TL;DR: College is giving me life lessons I didn’t expect, and because of them I’ve decided to give myself a non-existent upload schedule for Dread Not: Pages will be posted when they’re ready, and the spacing between pages could wildly vary depending on circumstances and the actual complexity of the page itself.

As always, thank you for being here, thank you for reading, and thank you for being patient!

If all goes well, there will be new content very, very soon.

[pynkhues]

I really wasn't expecting any nominations for the show, so I'm thrilled that it was nominated for Best Drama and for Sam, that's just so lovely. I know awards aren't the measure of quality, but hey, they're nice, both just in and of themselves and for the show's future, and it's exciting to feel like more people are discovering the show.

I am bummed about Jacob just because, I know awards are subjective, but he just really really deserves a nomination for this, for all the reasons you said. Honestly, if I had to pick, if someone were to force me, Sam is giving probably my favorite performance on TV right now, and he's brilliant. But Jacob should be nominated. And it's not comfortable to feel like I don't know why, not for sure. Because, is it racism? Is it critics being less likely to reward black actors, so there aren't *no* black actors, but there are fewer than there should be? Is it just that lead actor is a very competitive category, crowded with big names, so even someone like Gary Oldman doesn't get a nomination for his show? There's maybe a reason that actors will often go supporting rather than lead if they have that option. And is it partly that Louis can be a pretty interior role, less flashy than some of the other leads get to be? Some combination? Because I'm not sure that I think it's totally down to racism--after all, Margot Robbie didn't get nominated for Barbie and Ryan Gosling did, so sometimes it happens that a show/movie will get nominated and the lead won't. But racism is obviously still a general industry problem, so it's hard not to think that it may play a role, however subtly.

Or maybe it's really the supporting vs. lead thing and next year Jacob will get a supporting nom and Sam will also be skipped for lead.

You're right that awards aren't a measure of quality necessarily, but they do still mean something for networks, creatives and actors in a lot of different ways. AMC having a show nominated for Best Drama Series is really good for the network and becomes something that they can report on to stakeholders and can also help them secure advertisers and sell the series internationally, just as Rolin having a series nominated further legitimises him as a showrunner and gives him greater leverage in creative negotiatons, and Sam's nomination potentially opens doors for him professionally. So yeah, I mean, it doesn't mean anything necessarily for the show itself, but it does help with the security of the show and the people who work on it.

And yeah, I'm bummed that Jacob didn't get nominated too, because he absolutely deserved to be. I think it's probably a combination of all the factors you've mentioned, from the fact that these awards shows are often pretty racist, to the fact that the role of Lestat is a much louder one than Louis, to the fact that Best Actor has a lot of industry veterans in it this year. Best Actor categories are often regarded too as more heavyweight and prestigious than Supporting Actor (you talk about the 'big four' awards at the Oscars for instance as being Best Picture, Best Director, Best Actor and Best Actress, with Best Suporting being usually at the top of the night and generally seen as less competitive / important), and that also often is reflected in the age of nominees.

Best Actor awards notoriously tend to skew older in both film and TV, while Best Actress awards tend to skew younger. There's always a conversation with award show pundits (like me, haha) that Hollywood rewards female ingenues and hates male ones - it's why it took so long for Leonardo DiCaprio to win an Oscar - women are rewarded for youth and beauty and punished for age and experience, and it's basically the inverse for men. They're punished for being young and beautiful, and rewarded for aging and gaining experience. I think a lot of that comes down to male jealousy, funnily enough, but men are absolutely seen as needing to 'earn' the Best Actor accolade in a very different way to women.

Like even if you look at the nominees, Ncuti Gatwa's the outlier being 32. Eddie Redmayne is 42, Antony Starr 49, Hiroyuki Sanada (who realistically has this on lock) is 57 and Jeff Bridges is 75. If you average that out, the average age of the nominees is 53, which is pretty typical of Best Actor nominees, so yeah, I do think in that sense Jacob's age has probably worked against him too, especially if Ncuti was the one (1) young actor they chose to acknowledge.

I think there's a good chance that you're right that Jacob will be more likely to be acknowledged next year if he's put in Supporting (although I don't think he will be, given the way Rolin's talked about keeping him as a lead), and if he is, it'll probably be an award for the series, not just the season.

[harus-simp]

Secret location

-Kamden x reader-

Warning:none, just fluff <3

Requested: Would u be able to write something fluffy and soft and cute for kamden, idk if u saw some of the clips from his fanmeet, specifically the vcr and like him confessing. Thank you (Anonymous)

Could u write a fic of Kamden confessing? Please and thank u (Anonymous)

Author's note: hey there anons, I decided to combine these two asks because they were kinda similar so I hope you don't mind

Hope you enjoy it :))

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Being too different from one another felt like it was impossible to approach you in kamden's eyes. But who would have thought that a place would have made you connect so much?

Ah, young love,some times easy, some times confusing and difficult. But what can we expect from this early life stage honestly.

Today we'll take the case of Na Kamden, a high school student that was utterly in love with one of his classmates, y/l y/n.

It was complicated for kamden to even strike up a normal conversation to even cross his mind to confess to you.

He was more on the quiet side, an introverted who enjoyed simple things such as flowers and nature, the chirping of birds, to name but a few.

You on the other side were one of the most popular girls on school,quite an extrovert that loved to be surrounded by nice people and that enjoyed going out a lot.

You were opposite to each other, not that similar, so someone could think that your paths wouldn't cross at all. But maybe those voices didn't know actually nothing about your future.

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Another day were our silent pou was just admiring you from afar. In spite of being on the same classroom you two were complete strangers to each other, at least that is what kamden thought.

You did know who he was, you knew all your classmates. But you hadn't interacted properly before.

He always sat on the same row as you but on a corner, were he could appreciate your features and all your little actions.

Kamden wasn't the most out going person, but he did have friends. However his breaks were spent alone on what he liked to call his personal save space. On the school gardens there was a place that wasn't known by anyone, so he went there to spend some time with nature.

This day however, was different from the rest. He went there as always and placed himself near the little lake to eat something. Everything normal, nothing new.

What was new to him was the sound of footsteps getting closer. How did someone found this place? More important, who was the one approximating?

When he turned around his curiosity was soon replaced by nerves when he realised that someone was you.

"Oh, sorry I didn't knew someone was here, should I leave? I didn't want to disturb you"you said in the gentlest voice he had ever heard.

"Oh n-no don't worry, you can be here if you want"

Shit. Not only did he stuttered but his voice also got progressively lower, almost like a whisper.

"Oh thank you so much, I really needed a place that brought me at peace"

He nodded while letting you settle down next to him, but still keeping certain distance between both of you.

"Ahm, kamden right? We are from the same class, I don't know if you recognise me hehe. Y/n"you said while extending your hand

On the other hand, kamden was freaking out because fuck you knew who he was, how was that possible?

He stared at your hand hesitating at first but finally shaking it softly.

"Yes, I know who you are y/n, I mean everyone knows it"

"Oh, right haha"

But that awkward laugh made him realise that something was wrong. If he learned something from being quiet it was to be observant.

"Is... is something bothering you?"

You didn't know what came to you but seeing how he looked concerned for you gave him an image of a reliable person, someone that saw you for who you were. So you decided to tell him, what was the worst thing that could happen?

"It's just...I'm actually tired of being the center of attention. And I know that may sound like I'm being too eccentric but I genuinely don't like this lifestyle"

You took a breath and continued.

"I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my sister, I know that, but she was much better with popularity than I am and I just didn't want to disappoint her".

Kamden listened to you attentively and as he saw how you were starting to get sad, with a lot of courage he tried to comfort you.

"I don't think you could disappoint her y/n, if she's your sister she would support you no matter what path you choose. And taking into account your own feelings is not eccentric in my opinion"

You looked back at him while he was speaking and couldn't help but get captivated by him, by his way of talking and how he was trying to comfort you (which you found adorable btw).

"Thank you kamden, I really needed to hear that. Do you come here frequently?"

"Yes, on every break"

"Oh, I see. Then I hope we can see each other more often, bye"

And just like that you left him there feeling all fuzzy and flustered.

And since then you had started to talk more to him on classes and going almost every day to your now secret location to spend time together.

Slowly but yet firmly you had started to enjoy a lot his company and to fall little by little for him.

There was this specific day when you were playing with each other and you just randomly decided to take of his glasses. Best decision you had ever made.

You could actually notice how attractive he was, his long lashes, his soft plump lips, his silky black hair, his...

Omg. Why had no one talked about him yet? He was literally stunning.

"You are really handsome kam"you blurted out taking him by surprise.

"Oh um, thanks. You are also really pretty"

"Thanks"you answered giggling at his antics.

Yeah, that's were you caught feelings for him, moments like this literally made you feel so happy and he made you feel special que like you really mattered. You felt at ease and comfortable around him, you felt...YOU.

Oh, how you would love this instant lasted forever.

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After lots and lots of thinking and basically insisting from his friends he made his decision, he was gonna confess to you. Everytime you looked at him with those sparkly eyes or you brushed your hands with his made it impossible for him to keep all his emotions well hidden. He felt incredibly overwhelming by you, he needed to let everything out.

Now, did he know how was he gonna confess? Absolutely not. But that's were his friends were helping him.

On a Saturday he asked you to hang out together on the same hidden spot although school was closed, but taking into account the meaning of that place for both of you he knew he just had to say it there.

And the hangout went on smoothly and without any major problems, but it was getting late and he knew that it was time to go home, so this was the moment to finally speak what was on his mind.

"Um, y/n, can I tell you something?"

You looked at him curiously.

"Yeah sure"

"Okay, I don't know if you'll get mad at me or maybe things get awkward between us but I need to get this off my chest. I- I've been having a crush on you for a while now, even before you approached me here and I just needed to let you know"

At the lack of response and the look of shock on your face he seemed to start retreating from his words.

"I'm sorry if that seems weird, um you can forget I said it if you wa-"

He was interrupted by your lips giving him a sweet and long peck making him melt instantly and grab your waist delicately.

You smiled onto the kiss and separated from him smiling softly at him.

"I like you too silly"

Those words made kamden smile nervously at you and just his his head on your shoulder to not let you see the redness on his cheeks (you saw it either way lol)

"Thank God, I don't know what I would have done if you hated me or something"

"Well you don't have to worry about it anymore pretty boy"you said carrasing his hair

And just with that simple confession your love story together started and you could finally get away from your life as the center of the room. You could finally enjoy the little things you so much wanted hand in hand with your new lover ❤️

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[m1ckeyb3rry]

LMAOOO nah dw abt embarrassing me it must be done….Id rather you see it than have me send it to someone who doesn’t match my freak and have them think im insane

Omg Karasu in the lead?? Guys…….Mira you’ve fr cultivated Karasu nation LMAOO but no you’re so right I remember seeing a poll awhile ago from someone and ofc there were the fan faves like Nagi Reo Kaiser as options and I was shocked to see Karasu there?? Ofc he was dead last in the results but not unexpected ig….also BAROU THIRD GUYS!!!! Barouism rising too??

No seriously Isagi would be sooo cooked if Nagi wasn’t there….trust I know that Nagi goal in u20 is gonna make him skyrocket I’m imagining all the edits to it now LMAO

It’s just the miraverse of content….new genre it’s called “would Mira watch this?” The parallels do go hard though I wasn’t expecting to find so many LOL

HAAHA SHIDOU lowk that’d be really funny….imagine like a 200k wc fic of Shidou shenanigans and sus quotes

Maybe I’ve been too desensitized because when you said too extreme I was expecting a lot more violence LMAO you got the perfect amount though I think when you said extreme I was thinking of Shidou level oops

NO FR?? Like he’s not gonna ever take the top spot but lowk I’ve grown to appreciate him….youre so right though LOLL closeted sweetheart >>> closeted asshole bro wait the grape candy scene was so cute I forgot to mention….its so funny how he kinda just gives it to her without saying anything about it like how people would do secret deals or something but no it’s just grape candy LMAOOO

THREE bro….the aura is crazy…to the dude who wanted your insta you should’ve been like “if you buy me a $50 cupcake I’ll give it to you” /j lowk investing in a bodyguard does not sound like a bad idea tho

OOOOOOH very excited for everything….also the whole masterlist layout for the oaeu>>>>>>>> the visuals look so CLEAN omg but guys look it’s aiku on Mira’s blog!!!! I saw the poll and have not touched it like wdym I’m supposed to choose???? Let’s see if I can be decisive for once but just know I was debating between tabieitaken and barou….speaking of im kinda curious to see which idea of mine will spark inspiration first LMAO take ur time tho im being so well fed with everything in the lineup so far

Im also laughing missing the cutoff is so funny to me because (unless I didn’t read something) it’s like if you didn’t safely get something in before the impending arrival of aiku you’re in for the long ride LMAOOOO

Ok actually real time update I just put them into a random generator to pick and voted LOL because there’s no way I’m deciding in time but I needed to show some opinion somehow….ok but anyways the main point I came back for was why is Nagi tied with your vote tracking option LMFAOOOOO I’m ngl I’ve never set up a poll here what’s the purpose of that…I just know that people aren’t supposed to pick it but I’m crying why does it have more votes than otoya and yuki

- Karasu anon

HAHA okay that is fair i will def keep you posted on any future typos 🤩 honestly they add to the experience though i mean what is a translator without occasional goofs (/j but also as someone who read a 1.5 million word novel translated online from korean #orv i am very used to wading through odd phrasing to get to the heart of a story so ngl sometimes my mind just skips over typos entirely and i don’t even notice)

unfortunately karasu nation has fallen…he’s in second now (w barou as a very close third) because SAE ITOSHI has a healthy lead 😭 honestly it was expected that man just has too many fans 😓 and most of the other characters on there aren’t AS popular (i’m sure there would’ve been more of a split if rin kaiser or isagi were included but honestly none of them were screaming oaeu to me…sae is kinda in the same category as them for me but he had strong oaeu potential hence why he’s included despite not being a miraverse all star like nagi karasu and barou)

I AM SOOO HYPE FOR THE EDITS PLSSS karasu and otoya edits from third selection?? nagi edits from the u20 game?? BAROU EDITS FROM THE U20 GAME 🤤⁉️ AHHH it’s going to be so good i just know those editors are going to cook up so many delicious concepts i’m actually hype (barely one more month we’re so close!!) and LMAOO no literally iirc nagi scored like four of the five goals against barou and naruhaya or something like if he hadn’t done that isagi would’ve had the naruhaya treatment and been out for good 😭 tik tok fans forgetting who the og goat of bllk was 😢 okay but honestly that’s why i love having nagi AND barou as my favs because one or the other is always up!! truly no losing there (and bllk bros automatically respect anyone who loves barou because most of them are barou glazers as if barou is ANYTHING like them 😒)

i guess part of it is also probably just kaneshiro using typical character archetypes too?? like girly dude white haired dude flirty dude etc etc the nagi dragon art was insane work though like what was the reason for that except to cater to us specifically

nah because yk i’d cook even for shidou 😭 but he would not be my first choice (or my second, or third, so on and so forth) HAHA he’s just a bit too chaotic plus like we’ve mentioned i don’t really find him too attractive even though ik some people do?? LMAOO omg idt i could ever write a character as violent as him especially not kiyora…like he’s chill for the most part just not hesitant to punch someone if needed i guess is how i interpreted it?? whereas shidou would just do it for funsies

I HAD FUN WRITING THE GRAPE CANDY SCENE IT JUST FELT SO HIM like the way he gives her a piece after she successfully swallows a pill as if she’s a dog or smth it’s just so innocent 😭 meanwhile reader is like “wow our tongues will match 😏” FBXJFKDS and him writing his number on the empty box so he doesn’t have to throw it away OR actually give her his number in person for fear of rejection…kiyora my underrated goat fr 🥹

JFNFJDDJSJ PLSSS just drop a quick “erm have i known you since you were four years old?? yeah i didn’t THINK so!!” and move on…i fear writing has made my standards very high hence why i’ve never been in a relationship but you’ll never catch me settling fr 🥱 if they’re not like bfb karasu or peregrine nagi or white butterfly hiori I DON’T WANT THEM 🤣 or ig someone like seabird sae would work too HAHA i’ll sacrifice the pining for a man w money and a sense of humor 🤩

OMG YAYYY I’M GLAD YOU LIKE IT i was inspired by those dollar store self help books as well as rom com movie covers when i was making it and i think it turned out well!! and then i saw one of the graphics accounts i follow had posted the green and purple hearts divider and i was like holy shit this is PERFECT it matches so so well w his entire aesthetic…also peep oliver and aiku being diff colors like his heterchromia 😮 LMAOO genuinely this is probably aiku’s first appearance on my blog (besides his cameo in the last part of fwtkac) but ahhh i’m trying to figure out which req to do next myself!! i have a few to choose from so there’s def a bit of variety…i’m thinking of your requests i’ll probably do chigiri?? because barou is part of the oaeu and idk if i feel connected enough to bachira to write for him yet 🙂‍↕️

NFJDBXSNK no because that’s literally what it is…after the gagamaru req my inbox was pretty stagnant in terms of new reqs so i was like ok let me just get these ones cleared out and then i’ll go back to posting my own things again as well 😭 literally the two hiori requests are from my 500 follower event so from back in JUNE like i need to wrap these up and post them 😭 but idm making the newer ones wait like they can go on the crazy oaeu ride w all of us in the meantime 😩

OMG WHO DID YOU END UP VOTING FOR (unless you want to keep it a secret because if so i understand 🫡) also omg that annoys me sm like fr a pet peeve…basically no one can see the results of a poll until they vote but that includes the creator of the poll?? so if you don’t want to skew the results you just make another option so you can keep track of the poll while it’s still open 🤩 but i absolutely HATE when people pick that option like are you seriously that desperate to know the answer that you pick the option that literally says it’s only for me?? it doesn’t matter what you put people will vote on it but it’s so annoying ughhhh i can’t stop putting it because i’m nosy and like to know what’s going on with the poll in real time but it fr irritates me that people pick it like literally just choose a random option if it’s that deep 😒 i think part of what annoys me is like it so clearly says don’t pick it…and then people still pick it…like were you all dropped on the heads as children or smth…ANYWAYS sorry i feel like i’m so chill normally but there’s random things that genuinely make me crash out for no reason 😭 ALSO POOR YUKI AND OTOYA they’re still behind the FOR MIRA ONLY OPTION (me rn: 🤬😡) atp i’m not going to do polls anymore…like damn sorry i tried to get you all involved why are you being stupid and illiterate rn

actually tbh it’s not that deep idk why it enrages me sm 😰 but uhhh i fear it does for some reason

[aceofnace]

I'm honestly expecting the worst and the best from the final 3 episodes. On the one hand I'm thinking there is no way they're giving Nancy a soulmate that's not ace even if they thought there was a fifth season, he's some version of ace or something similar, they can't just not give us nace soulmates after they hinted at it, and there are some signs there is some sort of connection btw ace and Tristan, the writers know how much we love nace and they also seem to love them. On the other hand I think I'm being delusional and I'm going to get my hopes crushed and there is no way they're going to do two supernatural secrets related to nace what with the black door also coming into play???? Idk idk 😐😐😐😐 I'm kind of spiraling out of my mind

First of all, your thinking is correct: they're not giving Nancy a soulmate who is not Ace, especially not a character who was introduced this season and has only been in 4 episodes (2 of which he was only seen in minimally at best). One could claim, "well, but they didn't know it was the last season, so maybe they had bigger plans for Tristan for future seasons" but I really don't think that's the case. The writers have known for a long time now that Nace is where it's at for this show. A majority of the show's vocal fans online ship them. Nace is even one of the main reasons why a lot of people have started checking out the show in the last couple of years. The chances that the writers decided in the 11th hour, "screw those Nace shippers, we're gonna make some rando the love of Nancy's life!" are very, very slim. I know some people don't trust these writers for whatever reason, but I do. I at least trust them to give us the Nace endgame they've been working toward since early season 2.

Now, on the off chance they did make Tristan Nancy's soulmate, I think maybe he'd just be one of her soulmates (remember Nancy's "maybe we get more than one" comment to Carson in 3x13), and Ace would be another one. And she'll choose Ace. Nancy always chooses Ace. Not only in this lifetime, but in probably every lifetime before. But again, I'm not sure Tristan will turn out to be a soulmate. Because I still have my suspicions on exactly who/what Tristan actually is. And now some people are starting to look into the lyrics of songs that have played during Nancy and Tristan scenes and it's making them question his role in the story even more.

I don't think you're being delusional at all. You say "there is no way they're going to do two supernatural secrets related to Nace", but why not? We all thought there was no way they would keep giving us steamy Nace scenes that turned out to be dreamscapes/nightmares/hallucinations, yet they did (as frustrating as that was, haha). And the fact that this curse and them getting together has been dragged out until the series finale means that their love is a big, important part of the overall story. No ship with some new, random character is going usurp what has been built up with Nace for ultimately 4 seasons now.

Believe me when I say I've never felt more confident in my life that two characters were going to be endgame. And not only endgame but futuregame as well. I think the series will end with us knowing unequivocally that Nancy and Ace are madly in love and always will be. And that once they are together, that's it. There will never be anyone else for either one of them ever again. I believe that is what all of this is leading up to. And some people will complain (and rightfully so) that we didn't get enough sweet, romantic, domestic moments with them as a couple, but it is what it is. The show could've been canceled after 3x13 and we would've been left with the knowledge that Nancy and Ace were cursed for eternity and would never get the chance to live a happy life together. On 8/23, we're at least going to finally see them happy and together, and I will cherish that no matter how brief it may be.

[nonranghaes]

your sweet svt drabbles are such an inspiration to me. I've been getting into writing fics slowly by writing just short ones off a single scenario, and i have too many prompts and ideas coming from my head (which is great !) that i already had laid out but i just couldn't find thee tempo to start. Soo I'm trying to get more inspo by reading around tumblr and to my luck i landed here! i found your writing style an exemplar to how i wanted to write (bonus if you'd like to give some writing tips? 🥹). Your drabbles looked effortlessly written, they're simple yet so expressive and visually evocative. Reading them makes me feel like it's easy to just get the idea off my head and picture it in words OK I'LL STOP HASJB it's literally midnight o clock (when the strong urge to give one of my prompts a shot kicks in)

aaaaaAAA AND IF I START CRYIN????

honestly i dont rly know if i have any solid writing tips haha i like reading a lot since it can teach me a lot abt what i like in writing and what i dislike!! + reading helps u pick up on how other ppl describe things and how their writing flow. idk if that makes sense though. like... book i just finished (a death in tokyo) is very to the point and practical with its writing. it was written in a way that i could clearly envision a lot of things and my mind would fill in the holes since its set in a real world setting. other stuff i read might take care in describing things in more detail, but reading higashino's work kinda made me understand further how just plainly stating things can have its own power and paint a picture just as well--just depends on what you're writing and what kind of vibe it should have, yknow?

like. i wouldn't expect a thriller to have the same writing flow as a romance novel, but the gritty details can still have importance depending on what the topic is. little things like that. genuinely, imo, the best writers are those who read a lot and my advice is rly just to kinda read everything u feel safe w reading!!!

also i think ive said this a lot on wooahaes but ive also been writing since i was like. 11. if not younger lol so ive had a looooootta time to practice and refine and get to where i am now and i'll still be improving into the future hopefully!!!

other than that... hmm...

i'll admit this one isn't something everyone can do (and obvs no shame to ppl who can't!) but i always try to envision the space i'm writing and the people within it.

i think for me personally, i care a lot about the physicality of whoever i'm writing? if they're nervous, are they acting shifty? are they wringing their hands? is this a situation they want to get out of, or are they nervous because they're kinda excited for what's to come? how are they vocally, too? are they the kind of person who rambles when they're nervous, or do they get really quiet? is it obvious, or will it seem normal if they're quiet/chatty?

like... with the mark lee drabble where he's nervously dragging out the question of "what if we kissed?" it was kinda important to me to just kinda have him dragging it out because once he says it, there's no way to take it back, and once he says it, the nerves take over in a "and now i must ramble, lets talk about anything but what i just said, so the aquarium-" where even though we don't SEE mark, we still can tell he's a nervous wreck over it all. its little things like that that just kinda stick out to me?

mmm but for my drabbles specifically... i think i kinda function off the fact that i'm not writing an actual fic here? if i wanted to write something longer, i'd put it on wooahaes (and sometimes i do! i've had a couple fics now i was gonna just post as a drabble but then they kinda ran away from me). i've deleted parts of drabbles before because i felt like they were getting too irrelevant. the point of a drabble, to me personally, is to just kinda give somewhat a quick snapshot of a moment. i think my stuff usually takes place in a single place as far i can remember, because changing scenes makes it feel like a bigger thing (barring stuff where there was a short flashback).

i think it can help to have an idea of what you want to capture if you're writing a short drabble. reader/seungkwan caring for one another, minho teasing reader over the cats, reader trying to get one over on joshua (ft seungkwan). occasionally the more fantasy-ish stuff is like "merfolk reader in love w jisung" and "merfolk reader saving minho" or "android!shua being saved from the facility by reader" comes to me, too. i just kinda write purely by vibes and what i wanna write. idk if this helps but i usually do try to have some idea of what exactly i wanna do!! the times i have opened a post and closed it again bc i had nothing..................................... yeah

(obvs no shame in those moments ksdhfds i just always end up sitting there like. what was i doing again.)

ummm idk what else to say!! i can always try to give advice on other stuff if u ever have specific questions but this is all ive got rn <3 good luck!!!!! i believe in u!!!!!!!!

[styrmwb]

Beat FFXVI last night (spoilers and lots of rambling ahead)

"I liked it, but" is pretty much how I felt about the game. It had very high highs, there were a lot of things about it I liked, but something about it soured it for me. And I think the fact that I was so excited for it, but it didn't fully land made that feel worse overall. I also think the game didn't come out at a good time for Me Specifically, because it is a very intense, pay full attention and give all your energy to game. I can't really chill with it after work or do other things while playing it, and honestly I haven't really been wanting to play action games much recently. I do think in the future I'll be able to look back at it more fondly than now.

Things that I liked: visually, holy shit. Every Eikon Battle, every zone, they fucking killed it. If this was just like, a show? Oh my god amazing beautiful 10/10. The Bahamut battle and the final boss were two standouts to me especially. Fuck. It's so cool.

The characters. While I wish some got a little better treatment (More Benedikta and Barnabas, maybe like, solo Jill sections where you play as her?), overall I cared so much about the whole cast. Clive and Joshua together was one of my favorite relationships cause you can tell that they cared for and loved each other so much and goddammit they deserved to be happy together. Even the characters that I thought were just gonna be on the side, like Gav or Byron (I did not expect them to be so prominent but fuck yes) or really anyone in the hideout, I really did appreciate everything about them. The game felt like it had a party despite only Clive being playable.

The music. I mean, of fucking course the music. Soken and his team can do no wrong. I was originally scared it was gonna be... generic? But my fears were unfounded. Find the Flame; banger. Into the Mire? Might be my favorite song tbh they went so hard for the First Dungeon. The ENTIRE Titan fight? God DAMN

Eikon abilities. When I really got them going, I was having a lot of fun in combat. I ended up running Phoenix (Gouge, Rising Flames); Bahamut (Ice Age, Upheaval); Titan (Raging Fists, Flames of Rebirth). I would dodge up to raise Megaflare level, then go crazy go stupid with all of the other abilities, looking super cool and exploding everything around me. Felt fucking awesome.

Finally, story. It was definitely a more generic FF story, gather all the crystals (by smashing them), get the summons, kill god, but I liked it. But I think if the super cool big moments weren't as cool and I didn't care about the characters as much, it wouldn't be anything special. Those parts of it were so stellar though.

Uhhhh haha now the part I'm still struggling with. What didn't I like. What soured this experience specifically. One thing I know didn't help (that I'm sure people are sick of hearing about) was the lack of exploration and open world. I wish there was more side bits, I wish there was like, FFXI/XII/XIV style zone transitions. I wish it was closer to XII/XV, or if it went full action and was more like Stranger of Paradise. Instead, it just feels like a sad middle ground that doesn't quite excel at the world or the levels.

Side quests. Again, common complaint. But they were just... a slog. I appreciated what they did for the world. I appreciate the characters they gave us. But they were just... so common, and so boring. It felt like a chore, "goddammit I gotta clear out 5 sidequests let's waste 2 hours woooooo" agh. XIV does the same thing where they are quests purely for world building, but actually doing them kinda sucks. Makes sense, same team.

Combat outside of Eikon Abilities. There's nothing particularly wrong with it? I think the reason I didn't really care for it was more on my end, I didn't want to play an action game. I can't dock this against the game, but I can say it was part of the reason I didn't enjoy it as much.

I'm sure there's more, but I'm struggling to quite pinpoint what it is. There's not much about the game I didn't like, but what I did was so heavy that it made the game almost... a chore to pick up. I would usually be fine once I got into the groove, but the fact that I felt that feels so shitty.

I think if I had to rate this game in my imaginary FF tier list that I haven't made fully yet cause I can't pick between some of my children, I think I liked it a little more than XIII (stronger highs), and a little less than XV (weaker gameplay). Didn't match the hype, but I did Get Hyped.

[whatudowhennooneseesyou]

Hellooooo~

Ooh that's amazing! Do you have any careers in that field that have you a bit interested?

Please the amount of tears this love triangle situation had me shed and I just finished crying once more over A (let's just say I found my ideal man) 🤡

Guy B isn't toxic actually at least I think 💭 he basically said he needs to find self love before even thinking of a relationship but he still craves for the affection. He's very respectful and honest but very hurt from life 🥲 but we aren't a match especially since I want to build a family in the future and he's not on the same page.

Guy A though... he's perfection 😭 I am living vicariously through my bestie and if a guy treats her well he instantly gets extra points cause she's like my little sister 🩷

They met yesterday to clarify my situation with B and he was very understanding (he's so mature and gentle as a person 😭). They didn't have the time to go through everything I wanted him to know but he's aware of my traumatic relationship (which has been triggered and I'm getting beaten by my thoughts 🤡) and he knows I don't date for fun and it's important for the guy I'll date to have family prospects. He found it funny I had 6 pages of notes for him and found it endearing 😭 He also said I looked cute cause she showed him a pic she took of me yesterday 🙈 and overall he is still very interested in pursuing me but he wants to see if I can wait (he and my bestie agreed on patience not being my forte). He basically has a lot on his plate and he explained what exactly is going on. He doesn't feel ready to drag me in all that so he wants me to be patient a bit until things are less hectic.

I'm all about waiting but I also am scared. Because he doesn't know anything about me and a year has almost gone by and he's still into me? He's a gem, like the guy is respectful, a gentleman, loving towards his family (he has the sweetest bond with his mother and little sisters 😭💕), responsible, mature, you name it. I'm not that great, I'm average looking, effed up by trauma, just trying to swim along the stormy sea that life is. So I'm scared to say I'll get to meet and be with him. Cause he's surrounded by so many people, he certainly has crossed paths with much better women than me. So I'm kinda planning to do the waiting but without expecting much from his side so I don't get hurt if I find out he found someone else who's better 💭

-🐇

I'll be honest right now and admit I don't really know what to respond to this but I'm more than happy to just hold space for you.

I would love to enter into audio journalism or documentaries in the future? But we'll see where the road goes.

6 PAGES OF NOTES?? WHAT IS IN THOSE NOTES?

I've never written that many notes about someone, not even when I write smut haha.

It sounds like your heart is really with Person A and you're dedicated to him, I mean if he's interested in you after a year then clearly you've touched his heart in some way.

If it were me, I don't know about 'waiting' per say but it's a green flag that he is being honest with you about his current circumstances.

I'd be honestly frustrated with having to wait and would just let him go and see if he comes back.

You've met person A in person right? I want to know what he looks and acts like? Can you compare him to a kpop idol?

[psychewritesbs]

It's the JJK writing ask one here! I really like reading your thoughts on the matter and truly give me a lot of great insight. I did want a little more of hakari during his fight when i saw your hakari panel insert (hehe i love him) but he's very entertaining. I honestly believe I will always adore the story despite my own personal issues with it because although I want to see its ending, I have enjoyed reading it when I started it. I really like what you said about failing and I agreed immensely with that. This is more personal, but I do believe that failure leads to growth and I'm curious to see what he can do in the future. I can try and imagine his reasoning for going the way he did with cg but spending that time doing that just seems kind of pointless when the manga is still ongoing. I do try to balance my negatives with my positives and take the story as it is. After all, we won't be certain if the cg was more than he could chew or not until the story is probably done. But, yes, wanting the destination has been a thought I like to selfishly indulge in and I'm terribly impatient I must say haha! Despite my own personal frustrations, I can't say I like having too many expectations, especially regarding jjk. Whether it's intentional or not, gege kind of keeps me on my toes and it can be pretty fun after a while whether I end up liking it or not Authors can be really spontaneous when it comes to their stories and we don't really know what changes they undergo especially as people or in a mangakas case how harsh they take the industry in general and how it affects their choices when it comes to their story. My optimism is not always up to 100%, but i do believe that while criticism is natural and i encourage it to have really rich dicsussions, a constant state of negativity for any series isn't all that beneficial. Anyway, I still love thinking about JJK and thank you for reading all my word vomits, I really appreciate it and you. If it's no trouble I might have another ask in regards to hana/yuji/megumi.

HOLA HOLA!

Yessssss for insights! 

Hiding the word vomit under the cut :)

So glad we both vomit words like there’s no tomorrow 🤮dfkjsd ;bgs.

“This is more personal, but I do believe that failure leads to growth”

Honestly? This is one of the things I struggle with the most. Sometimes I have such a hard time just allowing myself to not be perfect and giving myself the grace of being a flawed human.

GASP WHAT IF I FAIL AND OTHERS CAN SEE HOW HUMAN I AM?!

The irony is that I am such a romantic about fictional characters that are depicted as “flawed humans”.

Also. Don't let me fool you tho. I'm totally such a shit talker 😂.

I recently finished a Gundam Seed re-watch that left me perplexed. 

I’ve come to the conclusion that the writers were both REALLY GOOD because they wrote the kind of melodramatic masterpiece that only a melodramatic teenage girl would love, but also REALLY BAD because they wrote the kind of melodramatic masterpiece that only a melodramatic teenage girl would love.

But to go back to my point of “what is good enough for you?” and finding reasons to love a story... while I won’t be watching Gundam Seed any time soon (or quite possibly ever again unless it’s in fast forward or in gifsets), the re-watch was totally worth it because the show has one of my OG anime crushes and OG OTPs. 

In my opinion, both Athrun as an individual, Cagalli as an individual, and the pairing itself actually happen to have some of the best writing in the series--I seriously think these two carry the show on their shoulders in terms of writing ability.

Shameless Athrun and Cagalli plug because I have been looking for an excuse to use this gif because it’s one of my favorite scenes with them. Also, did I mention they make me fangirl like a melodramatic teenage girl?

Point being, I’ve been vocal about the writing being bad in Gundam Seed and I think all 15 people still engaging in the fandom have probably blocked me by now bahaha.

So... yeah: 

“I do believe that while criticism is natural and i encourage it to have really rich dicsussions, a constant state of negativity for any series isn't all that beneficial”

I totally agree with you and love how you put it :)

“Despite my own personal frustrations, I can't say I like having too many expectations, especially regarding jjk. Whether it's intentional or not, gege kind of keeps me on my toes and it can be pretty fun after a while whether I end up liking it or not”

Yessssss. This is what I’ve always loved about JJK.

Unpredictable story-telling my beloved. 

I think another thing that’s helped me stay with JJK a lot is that I can self-insert my psyche into Megumi’s character. I simply adore Megumi.

Have I mentioned that before? Yes? Ok. No worries I’ll probably say it again a bunch more times lol.

I simply adore Megumi and think he’s stupidly beautifully written.

“If it's no trouble I might have another ask in regards to hana/yuji/megumi.”

Awesome, I’ll do my best to answer if if you do get around to sending it!

Good talk good talk!

Thanks again for vomiting words with me, Recurring Anon :)

[minniepetals]

BRO I DID NOT KNOW YOU POSTED ANYTHING AFTER CHAPTER 18. Please tag me if you do (I beg)

The whole Nari thing I was on the edge and with that yoongi reveal and apology? Damn.

I literally love your writing so fucking much I cannot even begin to articulate it. I am wondering if you will you create an apology scenario with all then barring namjoon of course cause I want him on his knees begging too. So wanna hit him dude I cannot

But also for a second (in ch. 21) I was like maybe Y/N will just straight up be like “my father killed him. From now on you’re nothing to me” and just leave and I legit cackled at the thought of it

Can’t wait for more chapters dude. I’m straight up vibrating right now cause I read four chapters together so like I’m the happiest person alive right now

haha that's a good thing about missing updates, you get to read a few of them in a row lmao. the thing about creating a taglist is that it's a bit of a nuisance honestly and in the previous years, there was a rule with tumblr that you can only tag up to 50 people otherwise it won't work. idk how it is now, i haven't caught up to tumblr and their crappy system but for now, maybe just put on a push notification for my blog? maybe that can help when you're wondering about new updates.

i can't tell you too much about how things will go down between y/n and the boys and how their relationship will mend and if namjoon will go on his knees because that's just straight up spoilers lmao, but you can count on the fact that i will try my best to make it all worth it in a way that won't feel forced or leave you wishing they could have done better to earn that forgiveness (i'll try my best to live up to the expectations lmao).

and regarding that "my father killed him. from now on you're nothing to me" lmaoo that's a nice scenario to think about but y/n isn't a complete villainess here. in the time she and namjoon were wed, they were really close and namjoon shared lots of stuff about his lost brother to her, so she understands just how much mister butler means to him, hence the truth behind jungwon's death is something that she doesn't want to hide from him forever. she also knows that namjoon won't be willing to leave her alone until she can give him the story of what happened, since she's the only person who knows the truth, and the fact that he's stating that he's willing to wait on it shows to her his sincerity and willingness to stop being so blind to everything that's been given to him. her accepting the new contract was because she knows namjoon deserves to know the truth, and the fact that she needs his strength and power for the people she has to face in the future.

why reject something that will help her and make this whole revenge thing go faster? she knows this whole thing has taken quite a toll on her, especially after leehyun, so having bangtan on her side is the stepping stool she needs to have this all done and over with.

my girl is tired

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

Honestly, it’s alright. It’s not your fault. You don't have to answer this, some of us are just worried about you a bit, and want to let you know you are not alone. Pretty much everyone in the sah fandom (until they ran out of people around April) has received variations of the ‘you disgusting foreigners are plotting against me/act so strange when [people from their country] want to get to the heart of the person if they say no and demand an answer change’ rants if we said no/please stop, refused to hand over control/include them in our AU projects, weren’t online when your ‘friend’ demanded we be online everyday, or interacted with someone other than who they said to interact with.

You were not the first and certainly not the last. Your ‘ex friend’ is a serial manipulator who has gone through fandoms, making most of the same threats and rants with everyone (more intense if you had a project), so we understand. But we also know you don't really want to talk about it.

They do have a few alts where they pretend to be other people arguing for them or threatening lawsuits, but there are a few people who encourage the behavior because they think it’s funny, but again, it’s not your fault. That person knows how to work the ‘no one will ever believe you’ angle very well. Frog in a slowly warming pot analogy and all that.

If anything, you are actually doing a lot better than a few of us on handling this.

I assure you, we are paying attention to your posts. They are very good! But I think people are afraid to upset you if you decide to change something and delete it. I won't say 'have confidence in yourself,' since that doesn't work with some of us as you probably know, but it does get better!

First off, I was not expecting this in my inbox at all. I have my notifications for Tumblr turned off, so it came as a surprise to see this.

Also, I am aware that I am not the only victim. I know others have been hurt as well. I have two reasons I don't talk about this:

I feel like compared to others. I did not suffer as much. Honestly, I feel like it was so silly that if I were to come out to talk about my experience it would be insulting to those who truly suffered. I don't want to be looked down upon.

I am also just not wanting to bring drama either? Like I don't know if they would try to come back to talk me me. They haven't.

So while I do sometimes want to talk about it, I think I should just move on. I hope for the best to you and for other victims of his person. I do apologize for being vague here since I originally wrote something really long before shortening it and removing my story about the person.

Now onto the very last part of this.

I guess it nice that y'all are paying attention? I am actually not too sure how to respond to that part haha. I thought I was in my own little world. And thanks for saying that it's good, but umm...

You kind of made me feel worse?

"...I think people are afraid to upset you if you decide to change something and delete it"

Like, maybe it's just me being autistic and missing something here but: do I really come off as childish and immature???? I am so sorry if I came off as someone like that.

I delete things because I no longer feel satisfied about the post, I lost interest, or simply didn't know what I was doing or what I would do in the future. It's really just a decision I make to make myself feel better since I can just forget and move on. So, umm... yeah...

Thank you either ways for the kind words and reassurance.

Originally, I was hella confused why any of y'all were worried. But, my mom explained to me why why would be worried about me even if I am only a stranger online.

[neerons]

👋 Hi. Love what you do !! Do you think Kazuomi's stories from MK are getting stale? Like season 4 just restarted his character growth. Like they are not offering anything new for him

Hi! Thank you so much! ❤️ This ask is so interesting and my reply is so long. I apologize, I don’t know how to shut up 😂

I completely understand where you’re coming from, as I used to think the same thing too. After doing a lot of thinking, I came to see things differently, so now I personally don’t think Kazuomi’s stories are getting stale even with the plot from season 4, but I know some people would disagree with this. I think it’s too early to say anything yet about his route getting stale, since this development could lead to a bigger one next. However, it’s possible that Voltage will try to handle his route like they do for Eisuke (since they’re both popular). I honestly think the 4th season is kind of a reminder about who Kazuomi and MC really are. I wasn’t expecting this development as well, but I think we’d have to see how this goes in the future to see if it’s really getting stale. I think them going back to how their relationship previously worked has reasons here, so I’m not that bothered by it.

About the situation from Kazuomi’s season 4, I think the part about how they don’t need trust was highlighted to explain that their relationship is not a conventional one (since being a couple is linked to trusting your partner in many aspects). This season showed again that he and the MC are frenemies due to their positions within the society. It’s like they are two people who deeply love each other but their circumstances, that they choose themselves, don’t make them compatible with everything. They will be enemies just as they should be (due to MC’s work, and Kazuomi’s potential shady doings) but will share each other’s company while forgetting about everything else when they’re in lovers mode. It’s the first time for me that I get to read a story like that, and I can’t say I don’t love this type of story, but I really don’t know how this route will be handled for them to be together like a regular couple. I find the rest of the route unpredictable because of that, and I don’t dislike it. It’s actually pretty exciting.

I think it all comes to whether or not this is going to be a conventional relationship, or not. For now, and as it’s actually always been, it’s not. Like I said, I think season 4 is more of a reminder of who Kazuomi and MC really are deep down. They don’t want to abandon who they are for their lover, even if that love is precious to them. They just realized they were going in a direction that didn’t make them happy. It’s true that we already knew they were not a regular couple, yet this season broke my heart at times when I read the parts where they both think they don’t belong together. I’m glad that these idiots came to realize they love each other too much haha

I’ve actually always wondered since the beginning of the route if their relationship could even lead to a marriage like most Voltage characters that are fully developed, and if kids would even be an option for them in the future. I have to say that even after creating sprites for the MK men’s imaginary children, I really find it hard to picture Kazuomi, or even MC, settling down after getting married and having children 🥹 It’s not impossible, but as things have been for now, it’s just hard for me to picture it, and the MC said she can’t picture marrying Kazuomi herself as well. I think he would be an amazing father though, I really hope to see it. For now, the only ones I can totally see marrying MC and having kids are Yuzuru and the Boss.

MK is really good at surprising its readers, so I think we should wait to see how this goes in the future. The issue about them not needing trust made me question life for a few days though 😂 I’d like to say I know the answer to how things could develop for them in the future, but I have no idea at all. This season left me thinking the rest of his route will be unpredictable. I don’t know how many seasons will be written for him... but I hope we’ll get to a natural and good development.

With season 4 throwing such a bomb on us, some changes would have to happen for them to be able to live together completely. Although, who knows, maybe they’ll still be frenemies while being married and raising kids, that could be an original plot too 🤣

Thank you for the ask!