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[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

Just started thinking:

With the previous post, there’s actually a movie about John O’Reilly. But it’s really inaccurate from what I have read about. The part that irks me is the love interest. Why?

Because why do historical fictions always have to have a damn love interest? Like don’t get me wrong, I do like romance stories. And I understand it’s historical fiction. But, it’s just so inaccurate and makes no sense. It doesn’t even add anything to the plot at all. Like, for the movie I mentioned, it legitimately doesn’t make sense. The movie is about O’Reilly and his charge of the Batallón de San Patricios. It’s a film about war and politics. That female character added nothing to the plot. If she did, then I wouldn’t even care. But she was just there to add tension and drama.

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Based on the drawing I got for the Secret Santa makes me want to rework on that story again.

I am sure y'all are aware since I did make some posts with drawings for that fandom before. But, I was in the Hetalia fandom. The story was going to a historical fiction about the St. Patrick's Battalion/Batallón de San Patricio. It was a battalion made up of mostly Irish people (with other groups of people in it) who fought for Mexico in the Mexican-American War.

Since I had shipped Ireland and Mexico when I was younger, the story was also gonna have romantic undertones to it as well.

Am I actually going to rework on it? Perhaps, but I would need to do some serious studying again. I would most likely only need to study about the Potato Famine, Immgration process on Ellis island, the social status of the Irish in the US and US army, the battles that the St. Patrick's battalion were involved with, and the aftermath of the Battle of Churubusco (the last battle the Batalion were involved with). I even remembered my story was going to end with two Mexican presidents quotes about the battalion while the characters see each other for the first time after many years. Something cheesy like that.

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Oh, I wasn’t being patient at that point. After the first two times was when they started describing what they did to the person who yelled at them, how they managed to do it, and would end it with the statement that they weren’t going to do that to me, because I was going to do as they said/wasn’t going to block them. Which I’m pretty sure was a threat?

Like I said I don’t read situations very well, so I genuinely don’t know if it was a threat or a ‘haha look what I did to these losers and no one will ever believe them!’ Type discussion. I assumed it was a threat at least but sometimes I wonder. Either way I was kind of stuck, which is when I shut down and just did the whole play polite thing, which really made the ex friend upset because I know I was no longer reacting the way they wanted, so they kept doing it to people for some reason?

Haha yeah that’s fine! I’m the same way when I’ve just woken up or are tired. I know one of the newer people who was not the ex friend had an OC backstory that was similar to one of yours, and had a post about them, but was making a lot of changes around the character anyway. Personally, I think it’s fine since there’s no way to mistake the two and also the AUs were vastly different.

Since when was liking dinosaurs and rocks a boy thing? Carnegie Hall has a giant brontosaurus skeleton in the lobby from what I remember, as well as statues outside. There’s a huge Diplodocus statue named Dippy that the locals liked to dress in a scarf when it was cold or there was a game on. It was like a scavenger hunt for us kids to find the multi colored triceratops though.

They also had excavations for kids in a sandbox, and we would have to use a real chisel and mallet to slowly chip away at something more or less cemented in the ground.

We also went to a lot of water treatment plants and water restoration projects because of what the coal mines did to the local rivers and creeks. It should mostly be cleaned up at this point.

A lot of us have rock driveways so we can still find nice rocks if we look. We used to find shells in the creeks, but I’d suspect those were planted. The rules on sea glass vary by area since some places consider them trash while others they make up a lot of the beach.

EekoWorld sounds pretty interesting! Did the other game happen to have anthropomorphic animals where you had to go to your grandmother’s house (skateboarding was involved) and if you talked to a stranger it was instant game over?

Holy shit, that souds like a threat. Like I have mentioned before, I am also not good at reading situations either and it would take me a while to understand. It seems like they truly believed you were 100% on their side if they trusted to tell you the truth. That is actually terrifying. I am glad you got away from them because damn. The way I am seeing this (w/o needed context, but I don't think I want it), they were saying "Look what I have done. I can do the same to you and no one would believe you because no one believes my other victims". Maybe I am being a bit more pessimistic with my interpertation since my anxiety causes me to think the worst things of a situation.

This time I am wide awake. And I truly don't know anything about that person nor their post haha. I am also not sure which AU this would be about? Because I am now realizing I have been referencing an old AU as an AU though I have seperated that one from the fandom (but I am considering bringing it back because I care about those characters). Or if the AU is referencing to the one on my other account that I have dubbed as "Of the Flowing Petals". It could be the former one since I had only as of recent removed the older one from this account and you mentioned this blog specifically (if I remember correctly). I do have them saved onto another account. Also, I don't really care if someone as a similar idea. There's a difference between ideas being similar and straight up copying, which I highly doubt they did considering they are making changes. I would never accuse someone of copying. In the case of the ex-friend, it is so obvious but perhaps my anger towards them is warping my perception of it. I would ask someone to confirm, but I am not going to do that. As I mentioned, I don't want to drag this out more than it needs to. .

The whole thing was back in 2010-2011 and we were like 9-10 years old. I am not sure why my classmate thought liking dinosaurs was a boy thing. Also, the way I gasped when you mentioned a Brontosaurus skeleton! I am not sure if the museum I went to had it, so I would love to see it in person. I haven't heard of Diplodocus before, but I wanna see that too! I remember loving dinosaurs so much as a kid. I even had two books about them. Well, one was more about evolution and fossils. I lost both of them, so I am actually sad since it was really good. I read it even thought I had no idea what the words meant! Now that you dug up that memory, I now have two books to try to find (the second is not related to the dinosaur book mentioned earlier). The one book about the fossils is going to be hard to find since I don't remember the title, author, or cover. The cover was legit just orange. All I know is that it's an older book. Had to be a book from before 2009.

Ah, the museum I went to only had sandboxes. No chisel or mallet for me! Some people in my grade also went to water treatment plants or sanitation places since I live in a city that relies on factories. I personally never went to one. There is a local creek near my middle school where we would try to catch a turtle/tortoise. It was really cool and I loved going into the creek (even though I got scared to slip and drown). Depending where that river was, perhaps there could be shells but that would be rare to find and most likely fossils rather than what you would find on the beach.

Hmm, no anthropomorphic animals. Here's a sketch from what I can personally remember. It was just a house. There was no traveling from place to place. I can't exactly remember the setting too well like funitures. I don’t even know if I got the colors right. But the game would require you to do chores in the house. One of the tasks was the close the blinds. And a text box with options would show up. It wasn’t black or anything like I drew, it was just an example.

Edit: I FOUND THE GAME! It's called "You're in Charge" and it's was not on PBSKids. It was on a different website associated to it called "It's my life". I removed the drawings. I was 100% wrong on it lmao. According to someone, apparently the game and website was removed somewhere in 2013. It’s no wonder I couldn’t remember the game nor find it after a while. I did find it and the first level is available. But it doesn’t let you move onto the second one which is sad, but I at least found it. So that’s something good.

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I am fluent in one language.

I have a decent amount of fluency with Spanish

And I know some words in Welsh.

I don’t know why Welsh. Well I did have an obsession with that country in middle school

Helô, Chío dw i. Sut dych chi? Dw i wedi blino.

That’s legit almost all of words I know in Welsh. And idk if I’m even right with it. I want to learn more, but I should focus on Spanish.

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I saw my gift for the Secret Santa event on Amino. And I love it. It’s so beautiful. But idk if I could upload it on here to show y’all. After all, it isn’t my art. Sure it was a gift, but that doesn’t mean the artist would be comfortable. And I know I can always link it back to the original creator but even then some artist have a “don’t repost at all even with credit” policy.

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I took French once when I was in middle school. And so did my sister. We can still remember one song

Alouette, gentille Alouette

I hate and like the song. I wasn’t too interested in French. So it wasn’t a wonder I failed the class.

Ok to be fair, I did horrible in all subjects because I was hella depressed that year and grades didn’t matter to me as much. I don’t even know what happened. 7th grade I was a straight A student and the next few after that I was barely passing (I still had some Bs). It was only in the last two years I picked up my grades.

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Ok, so the other post that I said was for the Secret Santa isn’t accurate anymore. I decided to redo it because the last one was kinda cringe in my opinion. The drawing was ok, but ehhh…

So I quickly drew this! There are some mistakes here and there. But it turned out really good! Wasn’t expecting it too.

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Honestly if anything it was self inflicted at that point. The ex friend would send certain types of content to people who had DNI for that type of content, and then try to argue that they were forced to like it due to some reason or another, and insist that the other person should enjoy the content as well. Then they would come screaming and sobbing to me when the person blocked them. This just kept happening despite explaining constantly why they shouldn’t do that, and it usually happened when I had done something they didn’t like, like not cancel a weekend trip to hang out with them, or start a new medication they didn’t want me to take (which I should not have told them about anyway but I didn’t want to lose someone who occasionally acted like a friend). So it really feels like it was deliberate sometimes, considering if they did have this other friend, they should have stopped that if they didn’t think it was funny to allow such drama to happen.

I’m a little confused by the third paragraph. I know one person has child OCs, and I know the ex friend has child OCs unrelated to that. I’m assuming the rest of the paragraph is about the ex friend, because the other person has been known to throw OC and AU ideas into the wind sometimes and wander off, and they are also newer (like I know they had a similar OC with a similar backstory to yours by accident, but I also know they were changing things around after finding your blog so they could change it to be vastly different, but they haven’t posted the full changes yet so I’m not telling anyone those details).

Honestly, I thought the ex friend was doing an AU copied off of the first guy they were obsessed with, along with the other one I thought was something else. The name of the group is also extremely similar to his.

I figure it’s fine to tell people where I used to live if I don’t live there anymore, but I wouldn’t be telling people the state I live in, either. I wouldn’t dox myself like that either.

We used to go on field trips to coal mines. Those were pretty interesting! They would give us geodes at the end. I don’t remember a gift shop, the workers would just hand us the stones and we had to find somewhere to crack them open. I still have some, they make for really nice and pretty decor!

The actual museum was also the natural history museum, so the minerals and gems and such were in the same building as the Egyptian museum I mentioned earlier, along with other history displays, dinosaur bones, and Paleolithic animal bones/displays. I did start a rock collection from their gift shop there, partially inspired from the geode. I still pick up pretty rocks I find. Sometimes even sea glass, although I didn’t know it was illegal in some areas.

I think the prettiest sea glass comes from Lake Erie. It’s such a pretty shade of blue! Or at least, whatever glass was thrown in there was some shade of blue. Takes a very long time to make in there.

I’m guessing it’s not the old Captain Planet game you are thinking off? Although I would be interested in knowing what game that was since I like looking at old ones.

I don’t look great in swimsuits either, for the same reason, but I just use a giant cover up top thing.

I was just vibing when it kicked in. I think the idea was that if I drank some alcohol I’d stop being affected by alcohol and medication as much and build up a tolerance.

Oh my, that is awful. I personally don't have a DNI list since I don't even interact with people much and stuff that I do like that perhaps may go into that territory is something I keep to myself. And the fact you have to explain again and again about the same thing? You are very patient because even I think I would have gotten so annoyed with them. And I consider myself somewhat patient of the person if not the most patient in my family (barely though).

Onto the second paragraph:

Ok, so I got confused as well. I think I got things mixed up because I was extremely sleepy when I saw this message and started my reply. I ended up falling asleep again and woke up later to finish my reply. I never ended up rereading what I wrote orignally for the first half of the reply. I am so sorry for that. So, when I read what I wrote, even I got confused. I must have been thinking about something else with the child OCs thing and simply accidentally thought I knew what you were talking about. I can't remember since I can't remember what I was thinking. The wonders of what happens when you are too sleepy to even realize what you are even typing about haha

The rest of that paragraph was about the ex-friend. I am actually not even aware of the second person you seem to be referencing about. Since I have never heard of someone who had an AU that was similar to my own. But that could be that it was spoken about in DMs and never was posted. The ex-friend, however, did post it which is why I am aware of it. I ended up just saving screenshots of it. The copy thing was specifically only towards that one OC. Not the AU as a whole. I am so sorry that I made things confusing. At this rate, I don't even know what I am saying. If you are still confused then I am not sure how to explain. (note to myself: please for the love of everything do not write something when you don't even know you're awake or not).

Oh wow, you sound like you had an amazing school trip! I am from a more smaller urban area, so my trips were just to local areas of town or the city nearby. One trip was even to the mall lmao. It would have been cool, but I was forced to stick with my classmates for obvious reasons. I am more of a private person, so I wouldn't even mention previous places unless it's been a while. I still live in my hometown, so it will be a long while before I ever mention anything.

Now, you're making want to visit that museum. I had a dinosaur phase when I was a kid. It was so well known that a classmate asked me why I liked boyish stuff (since I also liked the color green). Tbf, all of that was when I was 9. But I did cry haha. I don't pick up rocks since the rocks are all the same in my area. The rock collection is all I have. I should post about it one day. I never knew it could be illegal to pick up sea glass, but since you said it takes a long time then I can understand that. Since a lot of places with sea glass are tourist areas and they'd lose business if people kept taking it away.

And no, it wasn't Captain Planet. I can see why you guessed that since it is an older show before my time. I actually ended up finding the game! It was called EekoWorld. But for some reason, I remember a different game as well. But the other game I mentioned was directly about making good decisions. And that is going to be hard to find. I would need to use the wayback machine or ask somewhere else on the Internet. One thing I remember was a knock would be on the door and you had to decide to whether you should open it or not. The whole premise was that you were home alone. I'll find it one day.

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Yeah, I got yelled at a lot about the other person that called them names. Honestly, I think that person could have handled it better, but considering the ex friend admitted to perpetrating actual legitimate cybercrimes, they have the right to be upset. I kind of tried to make the ex friend feel better since I mistook the entire situation as a college friend group (they said they skipped high school to go to college, and you do that at 12/13 years old where I come from, so I thought they were younger for months and you have to be nice to kids and help them, you know? Not the first time someone had me thinking they were a kid when they were really older, though. I’ll still keep being nice to kids) where the older guy they were obsessed with chose the other person to date, and I think that made the ex friend think I was sympathetic to everything. I definitely gave them what they wanted there by accident.

In hindsight, they probably left me alone when I finally blocked them because they confessed some things to me that other people would love to know about, or have been searching to find proof for. I’m not dropping that stuff in public, though, I know better.

Yeah, they really did get weirdly obsessed with other people’s OCs. I’m afraid I came in too late to know which character, so I’m not going to ask. They argued multiple times about different people and how unfair it was that the person was mad and them, and how unfair it was that they couldn’t use their OCs even if they changed the names and stuff like that. Most of it was in DM screenshots that I scrolled past, so I don’t know which individual characters they were talking about. I assumed it was a character from the original guy they were obsessed with. I know one person who changed some OCs to children to get them to back off on the demands. Personally, I thought the ex friend was emulating the 2018 The New Legends of Monkey tv show.

I really do need to drive back over to Pittsburgh someday. The Carnegie Museum of Natural History has the Hillman Hall of Minerals and Gems, which has a massive collection that’s over a century old. There is also the Wertz Gallery. For some reason I thought they had the Hope Diamond, but that piece is actually in the Smithsonian. Which means my memories could be mixing Carnegie and the Smithsonian, but I definitely remember Carnegie being more theatrical with their displays. I haven’t traveled to either of those states in a while.

Carnegie had a darker room, which I think was to help preserve the minerals and gems, while the Smithsonian was brighter. I think the confusion came from the Hope Diamond being in a separate case while a lot of the other displays had a larger amount of gems in the same case, while Carnegie kept each one separate.

MiSide seems pretty interesting! I looked at part one, and it reminds me a lot of a game called ‘There Is No Game: Wrong Dimension,’ where the player character has to do some puzzles to get to the updated version of the game to continue. There are some nice songs in Wrong Dimension as well.

Yeah, the kids are fine, it’s the parents that are the problem. I think it’s been getting more difficult as it’s getting to the point of both parents having to work longer and longer hours to make ends meet, so they don’t have time for the kids. I don’t see a good future for education in most of the US, either, to be honest, but I could also just be cynical on that since a lot of people on Tumblr have nothing good to say about it, and that could be skewing perception.

The brightness was less of an annoyance to me than the fact that there are now different strength and length of swiping down that determine if your flashlight comes up, or if it’s just your notifications or anything else.

There is a brand named Aqua Green that makes some really cute one piece bathing suits! Some of them even have a little bit of a skirt if you like that as well. They have other colors, aqua green is just the brand name.

People laughed at me as well on the medication front. It kicked in one and my neighbor sang ~somebody’s getting sleepy~ and another time a coworker told me she needed to take me out clubbing to gain some sort of tolerance for things like that. I’m just glad to know it works if I need it.

I choked on water the other night a few times. The next day my chest really hurt and I kept coughing. I had to do it in secret since pneumonia has been going around.

I would agree with that. That person didn't handle the situation well either. Though, now I can see why they were so frustrated and understand why they acted like that. It still isn't right, but giving the fact that the ex-friend was genuinely trouble then I dont know what was the right way to handle it. And I can see why you were too nice since you assumed they were much younger. Kids make mistakes and if we older people can give some guidance why shouldn't we? As adults, we have to show courtesy to kids because they are still learning. So, I tried to be nice too. I don't think any of went through, which makes me sad considering I was even sharing advice my mom had given me. Those advices always worked with others, but I guess if your hellbent on removing all blame on yourself it would not work. I had no idea they skipped grades, since in my state that isn't allowed. So I never thought they were much younger than what they had on their bio (if I remember correctly I am at least 2-3 years older).

And yeah, they definitely left you alone because of that. I woudn't go around sharing it either. Considering the way they act and send people to harass others. While it would be nice to help the other, it would also cause to many issues for you. Heck, if you remember me saying this, just following them and commenting once made them all pissed off. And that was barely anything. Sharing that would cause even worse consequences that I wouldn't want you to face any of it. You've had enough for a lifetime.

About the OC thing, I believe they also told me about needing to change the OC to children to get the other to back off. I know one person had told them they couldn't give away the OC. In my case, it was an OC they created for my AU. They had "given" the OCs to me, but I refused to use them. Because I wasn't stupid nor mean like that. And I say I wasn't stupid because when I introduces characters that filled in the gap of their OC, their friend basically commented that there was someone else on my project and a different character. I knew damn well they would have used those OCs to force me to accept them in my AU or face backlash. Now, they use the OC for their own story with the same backstory that is just straight up about my characters -_-''

I would talk about the museum I went to, but it only exists in my home state and I am not about to dox myself. I also did go to another one, but that would dox what state of MX my family is from. And I am NOT doing that! Perhaps I should visit the museum you are talking about. I love minerals and gems! Though, I have never been to the Northern parts of the country. I only been around my region. Either way, going to a museum with minerals and gems would be amazing! I will have to do some research on it. It would be nice to see all what they have. I even have a rock collection given to me by a school counselor. I have sedimentary, igneous, and metamorphic rocks. I know that isn't the same as minerals or gems, but since I found those prettier then it would definitely be cool to see. I do have one gemstone which is the Tiger's eye.

There is No Game: Wrong dimension brought back a lot of memories! I remember people playing the game. I never personally played it myself. I never played much games other than the ones on PBSKids website. I played one cool game for the show Electric Company and some games for the Wild Kratts series. My favorite was Webonauts (or something like that) and another game for an older series where you had to make decisions (the show seemed to air and end before I was born). I think there was also a game about the environment where it taught you to save energy and stuff, but I can't remember it.

I prefer just wearing light and bigger clothers to swim. I am not into swim suits at all. I look pregnant whenever I wear them. You will never catch me wearing a one piece. Plus, my skin is really sensitive. So, the tight fabric can be an issue for me since it would cause friction with my skin triggering it. Also, I can't swim. So you wouldn't even catch me swimming in the first place. I already almost drowed once and that scared 8-year-old me to never swim again. Even 14 years later I refuse to swim.

Aww, what the heck? I am not sure on how you handled it, but if my neighbor did that I would die from embarassment. Though, I am interested on how clubbing builds tolerance to it. Not sure on how that would work. I am not into that sort of things at all, so perhaps there is something that works?

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I love Banana pudding. I normally buy it from one place once in a while since it's outside of my town. However, this time, it was meh. Half of the damn container was whip cream. I don't even like whip cream. I normally try to mix it with the banana pudding to get rid of it. But this time that trick barely work. There was barely banana or vanilla wafers in it. Most disappointing banana pudding. I still ate all of the 24oz. Just now... Ok, I have an issue that needs to be dealt with.

I am just glad I can eat normally again since my throat was a bitch a few days ago. Though, I am somewhat losing my voice. Hopefully me needing to force water out of my throat won't make me lose my voice. Still cannot believe I had to cough it out onto my floor. That will be th weirdest thing I have ever done.

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Yeah, I figure I know better than to just tell people that the ex friend was sending their DMs to me (and everyone they were dating, or that that one person who had access to Twitter). They did mention someone they called ‘Rosa’ (not Rose) a few times, but I thought it was someone else.

I think the first one, where they send the DMs of someone who blocked them, was a trap to gauge our reactions to be honest. I’m guessing you didn’t react much, because I tried to help them understand with the first few thinking the confusion was genuine and perhaps a language barrier. It very quickly turned into them sending me the entire contents of DMs of other people and yelling about how upset they were about the person who blocked them, and how those people were horrible pieces of trash plotting against them and ‘here was the proof,’ and that included most of the original people (other than the one person). Not that I was reading the actual contents after the first one or two out of sheer confusion.

I don’t know why they were obsessed with the guy to the point of freaking out if someone else followed them, either. They are in a whole dating polycule, you would think that would be enough attention if that was what they wanted, but I have a feeling they weren’t getting what they wanted from that group either. Maybe that one guy was just the first mutual they made in the fandom, but I’m not about to go around asking.

I also got tons of screenshots of my name showing up in the follow list or in the notes of old posts and got called a traitor a lot for liking or following people in the past.

I went to a museum in Pittsburgh a few times that had whole exhibits in our local museum that doubled as some kind of children’s play areas? Like us kids could crawl through rock and stone and come up to find the jars and the mummies with placards describing what they were. It was very spooky, and I think finding images on Google may have been better than popping up like a meerkat exhibit to see a screaming mummified face in real life inches away. I think they expanded it to 125 mummies at this point a few years ago. I’ll have to go visit it again sometime to revisit my childhood nightmares in there.

In hindsight it was really nice engagement!

I don’t like playing puzzle games that much either. I’d prefer to watch playthroughs as well, although that can also get irritating if it’s too complicated, like We Were Here Forever. That game was painful despite how entertaining it was. I’m still going to watch the new ocean version though.

movie versions of puzzle games are fun, but sometimes change too much about the characters.

I don’t think being a teacher is a great idea either, given the horror stories I’ve heard. But, then again, we mostly hear the bad side of it, while the good side doesn’t say much because they are busy doing something they find rewarding, but that would require a lot of looking into. It might not actually be that bad in some areas.

I wanted to be a writer or history teacher, but that didn’t seem like a good idea career wise if I wanted to be financially comfortable. But it’s not all bad in some areas of the US, I hear. I think there are some jobs in education where you don’t have to work too closely with other people or kids.

Definitely going to have to get used to the update. I don’t like the take photo and photo library being different buttons, it’s too confusing there as well. It’s really kind of hard to get my flashlight to show up on my lock screen now, which is really annoying. At least the update doesn’t drain batteries like a previous one did that they had to fix.

I think the L is fine, it’s the capital Q that usually gets people.

Sleep medication is an ass. I’ve done the blank staring thing as well, and it has scared people, especially my BF. My whole family doesn’t like using sleep or pain medications since we tend to be lightweights.

I don’t like wearing bikinis either, it feels vulnerable and a bit gross, so I think I might understand the actress a bit.

This couldn't come at a better time since I just choked on water a few minutes before this was sent in :D

They had called me Rosa before, though I believe it was a translation error. Since Rose seems to be exclusively English in spelling.

I also got sent something similar. And you're right. I didn't react to it as much. I ended up telling them that the person who blocked them as the right to do so. That they were allowed to chose who they wanted in their life. It was something my mom told me and I agree with her. Though, they also talked about someone else who apparently called them names. I didn't respond to tha either. I also got told about people trying to lie about them, but no screenshots. So I just kinda ignored it? I never pressed on it thought.

And about the dating thing, I was not aware of it at all. Nor do I think I want to for obvious reasons.

They never mentioned me after everything in posts. So, I guess I wasn't important to them. Fine by me. Though, I do see some elements of my AU in their own story which makes me a bit uncomfortable, but oh well (well, it's actually straight up still connecting it to my story since they are still connecting that OC to my characters). I am just going to ignore it.

I don't live anywhere with large museums (other than the state capital). The only one was solely for science. Which was so much fun and I loved visiting it when I was 12 (school trip). I found some pretty rocks there and fossils in sandbox. I used to be obsessed with rocks and minerals. And I find myself still interested in it. But not like I used to be. Seeing what you wrote, I say go back! It could be fun to see all the new additions to that musuem! It's so cool that you got to see mummies.

I love watching playthroughs! I mostly watch Ace Attorney though. I did watch the crossover between Phoenix Wright and Professor Layton. Both are good. I don't watch playthroughs as often and the most recent was MiSide. A game that was so cool to watch! Itscared me at times, but it was entertaining. I have never heard of "We Were Here Forever". So, I'll check it out before I head back to class.

The issue for me about being a teacher is mostly on parents. Like, I get kids are going to be kids. Sometimes, kids are bad because they want to be. But, parents have the responsibilities to discipline and raise their childre at home. Some don't do that and the teachers get blamed for it. I have heard stories of parents expecting teachers to raise their children?? Another issue is that the state I live in don't say teachers enough. I would rather move to a different country to be a teacher than be one in the United States. Maybe I am being a bit cynical here, but I don't see a good future for education in the states. But, who knows. Maybe I am the one in the wrong. I would also be a history teacher. World history to be exact. My favorite and hardest class was definitely for Chinese History. Probably my favorite because of the professor who was so kind to me. The saddest class I took was on the Holocaust. I am almost done with my program so, I am going to finish it. And I switched from history to what I am doing now for the same reason: financial security.

My phone is new, so I didn't notice the battery issue. The flashlight is indeed odd. I don't have issue accessing it. But it was confusing on how to the brightness go up or down. I miss the old version since it made the phone move or something. I am missing the older version of the iPhone. I hope the next update makes the photo library go back to normal. That is the only update I want at this point.

With the sleep medication, I told my friend about it and she couldn't stop laughing. TBF, I was telling it in a humorous manner. I find it funny now since it's been a while. But, never will I take sleep medication unless I have to. I refuse to be in that same state of mind again. I don't need to worry my family. Which luckily, they didn't see since I stayed in my room.

I also don't wear bikinis. As you said, it's too vulnerable. I also have bit of a belly so I don't want people seeing that. I actively avoid tight clothings as well. The actress, who does have a name actually, hates anything revealing due to her past. Ironically told myself I wouldn't work on developing stories, but here I am working on her and Hyejin. I don't think I will ever fully flesh them out. But I do like them and I have made sketches on how they look.

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

I wonder if I should post that one story I made where I was so fucking out of it. Like it was bad. And it was all thanks to a nightmare I don’t remember.

Reminds me of what I told my friend about something that happened

My therapist, at the time, gave me medications. One was for my anxiety and the other was for sleep. My ass took the one to sleep. And I was just so fucking out of it. I would go on YouTube and just watched the screen. Like I didn’t even watch the video. I was only staring. I couldn’t think. It was like I wasn’t in my body or even awake. My brain went blank. I was so drugged out and it felt too weird that I refused to take it after that night. Cause ain’t no way I’m experiencing that again. Though I will say my mind was cleared and I felt calm. But I felt anxious again after it wore off wondering if I did something stupid in the state of mind I was in.

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

Remember this post? How I was in an Amino DnD game. Well, one of the challenges was to write a letter to Santa (one of the characters of the series is heavily associated to Christmas).

If you can’t read it;

Dear Santa,

I will admit that I have done wrong.

I am not the best at writing sentences, there I will make a list of my bad deeds instead.

1. For being a bad artist -> I will learn to draw

2. For writing terrible fanfictions -> I will learn how to write

3. Being the reasons why my friends and I got locked out of the school -> will never do again.

4. For being a sassy child (according to my sister)

And finally:

5. For burning the tortillas which I shouldn’t have done since I didn’t know how to cook at that moment.

Sincerely,

Rose

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Rose is my English name. I don’t go by this name online anymore.

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

Note: Again, no editing was done or revising. This contains the same characters as my previous "Randomly Writing" post. This one is really short.

Hyejin watched as thre actress groaned. She wondered what she was going to complain now. The actress turned to Hyejin.

"I know that as a model, I need to wear some clothes, but this?" The actres said as she held up the picture. It was an image of a bikini. Hyejin could only look away. "I don't want to wear this!"

"Should I call to call off the photo shoot?" Hyejin asked. The actress nodded.

"I wasn't aware that they wanted me to dress like a slut," the actress hissed and looked back at the photo. Hyejin was surprised. She didn't expect the actress to say that. It was actually harsh. Hyejin also didn't like bikinis, but she wouldn't say someone looked like a slut for wearing on.

"I will call them for you. Will there be anything else I can do?" Hyejin asked. The actress looked up.

"Hmm, let's just go to a restaurant. I'm hungry," the actress said. Hyejin sighed.

"Miss Kim, you should be avoiding too many public appearances. I will order the food so that you can eat it here." The actress put her hand onto her knees and looked right at Hyejin.

"Why don't you ever call me by my name. I have told you when you first started working for me that you don't have to be formal," the actess asked. Hyejin looked away. She couldn't tell her the truth.

"I will place the phone call now. Please text me what you would like to eat," Hyejin said as she left the room. But before she left, she noticed something flashed in the actress' eyes before she smiled and nodded.

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

I actually had/have multiple extremely similarly worded posts in my drafts about the situation before I found your blog, probably written in the same state of mind.

They had already told me about the friends and the possible retribution (the things they have been accused of publicly, they admitted they did it and told me how they did it), and had already proven that they were willing to spread lies and send screenshots of private DMs to other people. They openly said they were not sending any of your conversations (not that I was reading any of the others because why would I do that? That's just disgusting thinking about it.) to anyone, not even the friends or people they were dating, and I can believe them on that one. Probably being too honest there but sometimes late at night I wonder if I should tell people about that.

Cuervolyx is just the name they used and they were strangely frantic about the idea of me blocking you.

They wanted me to block everyone except for them. They also wanted to use my blog for advertisement purposes for their own blog, so I'm not sure how blocking everyone would have helped with that.

Honestly those comments from you mean a lot to me. So at least I have to thank you for that! It's been a long journey to trust people on here.

I don't think it sounds rude at all! I don't follow all the members either. I just keep links to their blogs and occasionally go in and see what they are up to outside of the sah fandom if I am not too interested in what other fandoms they are in.

Well, as I remember someone on Tumblr saying, 'that egyptology book was too golden and shiny to resist. Everyone had that phase. Almost tempted to suggest Professor Layton if you still like puzzles.

Personally, I like Irish and Celtic music, although I haven't listened to them in a while. There is a rich history in there.

Yeah, that photo app update is terrible. It is so hard to find things in photos (or send photos now), it's annoying!

I can read the cursive, and I think it looks fine! I really like the eyes and how they are shaded behind the hair.

I know they at least sent what my sister wrote to them to someone else. Though, I wouldn't know if they truly had not sent anything else. This time, I have no theories why they chose to just leave me alone after I had finished my conversation with them and their friend. I should just be grateful that the worst for me in the aftermath was them telling others to block me.

I know they also sent at least one person's conversation to me. But it was mostly because they felt horrible that the person blocked them. And I know they sent lies and rumors about someone. It was actually kind of weird how they seemed obsessed with them. It was to the point where when I followed them, their friend accused me of being their friend and backstabbing the ex-friend. Had to explain what mutual following was.

And with the whole "if you should tell others", considering that they are mostly gone for the most part. I say leave it alone. You know like not to reopen would wounds. If someone asks then yeah sure. But, I wouldn't say anything on it. Though, I am not good with people. So, this probaby is not the best advice.

Yes, many of us as that phase. I still remember seeing a bit more graphic stuff about it. But, luckily, it is way tamer compared to what I saw when I was 13. To this day, will never understand how I ended up on that side of the Internet. Wait, I do know how. I... umm... just ignored the whole "Do not search this up on Google". Should have listened because damn that stuff made me so paranoid.

Also, I am not too fond on playing puzzle games. I mean, I do have a couple of puzzle games on my phone. But I rather solve it then go through an entire story to get the answers. I don't have the patience for it. I don't play games a lot either. I tend to stick to reading and watching things. I like history a lot used to study it in school before deciding pursuing a degree in history wouldn't help me. At most I could be a teacher, but I am terrible with people. And considering how the American education is doing, it is not something I want to be a part of.

That photo update has to be the worst part of this update and past updates. Other than not lettting the home screen and lock screen be different. There is also one thing that is odd, but idk what you call it. It's not too bad, but it's a bit confusing. I guess I should be happy the update didn't ruin too many things.

Oh that's good to hear. I remember my teacher once telling my mom that I was struggling with the letter L.

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

That probably explains things a bit, because with everyone else it was wild accusations that I didn't bother to read because it was straight up trash talking everyone, but with you it was just multiple pages of demands to 'block cuervolyx block cuervolyx don't bother to look you have to block cuervolyx nownownow,' sometime near the middle/end of February 2024. Except I had never heard of you (and they couldn't seem to figure out what to call you. They just kept switching between different names beginning with the letter L, and muttering about 'whatever you called yourself'), because they would go ballistic if they even thought I was looking at someone else's blog, so I didn't bother looking around, so I had to have a look this time.

Honestly I think your pinned post saved my own ass, since it pretty much described what was happening to me, so I have always wanted to thank you for that! The behavior definitely did escalate near the beginning of February 2024 and into March. It did give me the courage to ask for help from a mutual that I do actually trust. and then we figured stuff out together. I know it has helped out at least one other person.

I still get freaked out by new people though, but I have a bit of a support system now (I mean I almost did give them my blog just to make them stop screaming at me until one mutual I hadn't talked to in a while started asking questions at one point which stopped me) to check them out first. I think my own sister might make things worse and start dropping screenshots of what the ex friend said to me if they ever tried something with them though, which is counterproductive.

I figure it is normal to wait a while, so I think it's fine to every now and then pop onto the blog of someone who occasionally posts something in a fandom I like to see what else they are interested in. Half the people in the sah fandom are also in other fandoms, so they may take a while to update in one when they are focused on another, so I figured out sah was one of the fandoms where you should be patient and wait, and that's fine. We are a very small fandom, haha.

We didn't really have tv as a kid, so I have seen bits and pieces of House of Anubis at friends' houses and elsewhere. I always did wonder why it had a boarding school uniform look to it though! Honestly I think a House of Anubis and Wild Kratts AU crossover could work very well if the main characters are focusing on Egyptian animals and the villains accidentally hit a hidden messenger during a scheme and it becomes a cursed amulet/helmet or one of the items in the show. Alternatively, the boys turn into animals and learn about the plot from local Egyptian animals, which could go many different ways. But idk much about either show other than surface information.

At the very least, it would be fun to hear about how the Egyptians viewed different animals and the myths involved. But I think I can just watch OSP on that. Or just drop the animal transformation part and have them go to a regular school for once and have to do some research on Egyptology themselves to figure out the puzzles.

Haha, yeah, one of the other fixes was in fact to update your iphone, although I may have assumed yours was already up to date since mine updates automatically.

I really like the way you draw characters, the lines are really smooth and the proportions are just right with the limbs. Honestly I kind of wanted to draw fanart but I was worried it would not look as good as yours. I still have a collection of my own I'll be posting when I get around to it.

I am shocked that my pinned post ended up helping someone. I never expected that post I made while going through an anxiety attack would help someone. It was just a post I made out of fear because that was when someone else started to try to push me into a corner. I could go on about it, but meh. I don't care about it though it does bug me a bit now thinking about it. About the name thing, yeah I just kept switching my names up online. So they just didn't know what to call me. Never expected someone to just tell others to block me though? Never gonna understand that. Also it’s been a while since anyone referred to me as “Cuervolyx” so I’m surprised you brining it up.

And I want to say, you don't need to thank me. It was all you. You made the decision to read what I wrote and to contact someone you trusted. You did that all on your own. Even if my post was the final push you needed, you still made that decision all on your own. You are stronger than you think. I am proud that you got help and are building a support system for yourself. I hope that you are doing better now and healing. So again, don't thank me. Thank yourself for mustering up the strength and courage to ask for help. I hope one day you can be able to be ok with new people, but that takes time. It doesn't matter how long it takes as long as you are doing it on your pace.

I am aware that people in the SaH fandoms are in a lot of other fandoms. That is probably why I don't follow a lot of other members since they post about things I am not interested in. Hopefully that doesn't sound rude. Scratch that it does sound rude, but idk how to rephrase it to not make it sound rude.

I would definitely not make an AU with HoA and WK. It is way too complicated and I have little interest in both series. Both series have so much details that I don't wanna ruin it. Though when I was a kid, the setting was focused on the house for the most part and puzzle solving. I think at the time was just too obsessed on Egyptian mythology. Nowadays, I keep looking into British and Irish history. I am particularly interested in Irish history. Just finished watching a movie about Michael Collins and I keep listening to Irish rebel songs (like "Foggy Dew", "Easter Lily", and "Get Out Ye Black and Tans").

I hate updating my phone. iPhone updates are always weird and rn, I hate what they did to the Photo app. I want my albums on top again and I don't want to see a collage of photos. It's too strange. I am simply a hater of iPhone updates lmao. Once I waited so long to update that my phone just stopped working and I was forced to update.

And aww, thanks for the compliment. I am always self-conscious on how I draw, but this makes me feel happy. I worked too hard to study on line art in the past so that paid off! And I keep thinking my art style is bad. I would also say something about your art, but I have no idea who you are. Though, I have nicknamed you "Honest Anon" because you kept beginning your asks with "Honestly". I almost did not realize this ask was from you since it did not have that word first.

Also, I don't care how your art would look if you drew fan art. I apperciate the thought behind it more than the piece itself. Though, idk which characters you would draw. So, that will be a surprise in the far future or so.

Here:

It says: "My art style when I was 11 yrs old (lmao it looks bad)". I wrote in cursive for some reason and I am not the best at it.

[tokkiyuna-rabbit]

Honestly, I would say we are about the same. I think it is the third time this type of situation has happened to me, so either I'm kind of dumb or just an easy target people like that can spot. I was new, and they were the only person regularly talking to me, so I put up with ignoring the fact that they were trying to explain that I was 'clearly' autistic (there is no proof of that for me despite the family history), and therefore they would take care of me, and thus it was 'only fair' I should hand over control of my blog and projects to them, as well as all the trash talk about everyone else. I was kind of just desperate to talk to someone, and I am a brick wall at understanding things not said outright on a good day, so I kind of missed a lot of red flags.

Except I didn't really understand what they wanted me to do at all, even beforehand, so they resorted to threats, which I really didn't respond to in the way they wanted either because how am I supposed to respond to that other than shut down and play nice and polite for a while? They did not like this...

Which almost exactly what happened the other times, so you would think I would learn lmao. I usually just wind up running away from the fandom, but I don't think I'm going to do it this time.

If it helps, you would be the only person they never shit-talked (figured out very quickly to ignore that), but I am fairly certain that is because they thought they still had a chance with you.

I didn't feel hurt at all, it is more of a 'whoops I think that came out wrong again' so I just felt the need to explain a bit more on what I meant. I was more concerned about if I had hurt you. Although I think Tumblr might be one of the more accepting places when it comes to people misunderstanding each other like that, it can be easier to work it out. People aren't getting as mad on here about asking for clarification.

I figure switching around an entire AU, creating a few new OCs, and then writing a few stories is tiring, and one should maybe rest for a little bit after doing something like that. Otherwise you can burn out and not want to go back.

But it is good to take a break and look at other fandoms. I've seen a few good AUs and short fanfictions (I'll have to find the cheetah anxiety one again some time, it was really cute!) for Wild Kratts before, so sometimes I hang around the edge and see what certain people are up to. The way they draw animals in the show has some really pretty designs, especially the otters and the way they sit in the water (saying the red panda is adorable is cheating, I think, but I just kind of like how it is animated from what I have seen). I think you can still play the old games on Flashpoint or one of those sites, although I haven't fully jumped into the series.

It is possible the Xiaohongshu app is not fully available in your region, although it may be because your phone has not updated recently. I don't think the VPN fix will help since there is a chance of the app sensing the VPN and restricting certain content. It might depend on what type of phone you have, on if you are using iphone or Android.

I'm assuming you don't want to go the route of giving it your cell phone number? There are ways to download or buy an internet google phone number, such as Google Voice, so I have heard. Apparently you get the messages through a separate number on your gmail (or a separate gmail account not connected to your original) instead of using your cell phone number, so that could be a method to try if you don't want it connected to your phone or don't want to download WeChat.

Personally, there are some really good Douyin (the more video focused version of Xiaohongshu) creators on Tumblr, such as the ones Rongzhi collects, but Xiaohongshu sounds like it could fun as well since it has other types of media!

They had nothing on me. I was never too close to them to share anything going on in my life except for one time. Which they didn't even help me in the end and still tried to use that against me -_-. So, they couldn't say much on me. What could they say? Honestly, they could have spread nasty rumors on me and no one would have been the wiser. I had no contact with other members of the fandom at that time (or even now. I only really comment on one person's post but that's it). Their words could have been believed, though they also had kinda screwed up their own reputatin too. I guess they did think I would go back. However, I quickly opened up the situation on my end. So, perhaps it would be hard to go against my words since it was the truth.

And look, I don't think you are dumb. People can get manipulated easily and it is hard to get out of that nasty cycle. It's not easy to escape such things. I think there was one thing that may seperate us on this:

My older sister. Now, the ex-friend and their friend knows my sister. They know that she is not an easy target since they don't have direct contact to her and plus she is not someone who can be fooled easily. The first time I had issues with the ex-friend, my sister stepped in and told them to basically fuck off and to leave me alone or else. She even revealed she is studying something where you have to be able to see through people's lies and manipulation. Which adds on to her not being someone they can win against.

I still laugh on how the friend of the ex-friend's had to switch tactics. They switched twice. First time because I was stubborn with a certain question and the second because of me bringing up my sister. They even admitted that they knew how things would end if my sister got involved. They knew my sister would just tell them to go away and for me to cut contact, the ending they did not want.

So, that is something that may make our situations different. And my sister has no idea that her stepping in the first time saved my ass the second time.

Onto the rest of the message:

Ah, I see. I also worry on hurting people. And while for a bit the comment did hurt, I got the clarification needed so I am a-okay! And don't worry about getting sentences wrong. It happens to the best of us.

Currently, I am a break from all fandoms to be honest. Need to recharge my creativeness. Currently, I am working on two characters of my own. But, I don't plan to get too attached in case I back out. I was working on other characters, but it became too complicated and I forgot what I was doing. Plus, I lost something from it.

I want to eventually get back to the SaH fandom since some people might be wondering where I am. Though, I know some may be aware that I am active still with this account. At this rate, idk if anyone in that fandom thinks I'm dead or something. I haven't posted since November and only said Happy New Years on that blog. Actually now that I think of it: you mentioned that "some of us" in your first anon ask... so I guess to y'all I am alive and not dead.

Did you know? I had a whole ass AU of the Wild Kratts when I was in the 3rd grade? I don't remember what it was about since it has been about 13 years since I was in the 3rd grade. But I know it was with the House of Anubis (a show I love! And I am referring to the one Nickolodean made the one set in the UK with the American protagonist). I also enjoy that series, but I am not interested in animals like I used to be. I actually am not too fond on animals now.

And about Xiaohongshu...

I use an iPhone. I just updated my phone and the app is working. Lmao, I always forget to update my phone. I am all good on that front now! But my phone took forever to update. But it did and everything works. Now, I am just going to look around. I do like the art style that I see people draw on it. But I also kinda want to avoid copying it too. So, let's see what happens.