#bc im going bonkers

[taeiris]

take me to church

churchgate has invaded my brain

[gaytor-golf]

A sleepy afternoon on the Sunny :)

I'm churning out art so fucking fast rn jeez anyway Mother Robin and the two teenagers that she accidentally adopted peep the panda ref

[chronologically-challenged]

I think that the party's communication issues can be summed up as "man, is it awkward to tell someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with them if you've only know them for a few months? Probably."

[appystruda]

There's an au in my head that's currently spinning like a thousand miles an hour and its preventing me from sleeping

[moeblob]

Like a normal person, I get crumbs of a guy and go feral. I then spend almost the entire day drawing a comic out of immense love for a guy.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ON THE SUBJECT OF A MARCH 1ST UPDATE LIVESTREAM.

so due to newly-employed circumstances, i most likely won't be able to stream my exploration of the update until the Sunday after it drops - March 3rd, likely around 10 am pst.

im not gonna ask anyone to wait because that's unreasonable and absurd, However! I am curious:

[mamawasatesttube]

do you ever think about how kon got drugged to the point of inability to think clearly and then enslaved for Two Fucking Months and then we just never mentioned that again? that is, except for when he went back to visit and help out the guys who enslaved and drugged him because he was lonely enough to befriend them after they said oh sowwy we didn't know you were a person uwu. i think about this a normal amount

[dnpbeats]

I do think they're probably hard launching/get married but I don't think that's what they're teasing. I think that's going to happen IN ADDITION to whatever they're teasing bc dnp like to do big projects at the same time as major life events for some reason. Idt they would hype up a wedding or hard launch like this. They've definitely been dropping hints, but I think that has more to do with them liking to ease into big scary life changes rather than jumping in headfirst. I think that they'll either hard launch before the tour announcement or right after so there isn't that elephant in the room when they meet fans and do promo. then they'll rebrand the gaming channel to "dan and phil" and continue to make the content they were before with little to no changes. I'm definitely wrong about all of this but maybe not! We'll see lol

okok you're right that they wouldn't tease a hard launch like this but listen hear me out this is why a doc or something retrospective would make sense... they could hard launch through it in a way that they get to control the narrative, say what they want to say, etc. but like they wouldnt just be giving us details for the sake of airing their personal lives yk they'd be talking about it in a way that it's them finally being able to tell their story on their own terms... so that comes along with a channel rebrand ("since we've built not just our lives but also a career together, we want a joint channel that will be reflective of more types of content than just gaming" some shit like that right). then after that + ppl have calmed down is when they go on tour do u see the vision

[xamaxenta]

Sabo shipped off to work on an oil rig, the ? Managing director? quartermaster?

Idk what jobs there are on oil rigs but whoever is in charge, a rough sea dog kindly in that isolated sort of way kind of man named Marco takes him in and tells him the rig shapes you, best, leave what it lures you alone

Which is fine, sabos no stranger to seeing beyond what one is supposed to but on the rig he hears voices and thats fine too because its not uncommon out at sea

Its also not uncommon to see nothing at all durinf the dark pitch black nights

What is uncommon is to see his husband sitting on the railings of the rusty salt eroded rig, radiant and with a smile that lances through his ribs because he misses him so much

Further uncommon is Ace died one summer that feels so fresh it couldve been yesterday, an aching wound from five years past

Sabo ran to the sea to escape him, Ace, fraught with the concept that sabo may forget him, chases after him

Cosmic psychological horror haunting by your deceased lover and seeking the comfort in the arms of the only other soul on deck— marco

Perhaps hes fucking crazy, Marco doesnt feel real either

[willbee-1]

"No one gets out alive" being Isla- right as their dancing

She knew no matter what way out of this, this being Fable's terror with striking down kingdoms, she knew with maybe at least marrying him would at least stop him with her kingdom bc in the words of Enderian (when she told Rae ab Isla) "Morningstar was ⏃ kingdom built on research, science and invention, not battle"

And Fable helped her start efforts in the overworld to help it get better but then it all gets crushed when she fully knows who he is

She knew later what he was doing, that he was a god raging war on the other gods-

"Everyday is do or die" being Fable

This line right here- mhmmmm especially bc it's at their wedding

Everyday for him literally was, trying to win and whoever they face, either join him or end up losing their life about it-

He was looking for gods and their powers and in doing so started ⏃ war where every day was do what ⟟ say or end up dying along the way

Also the "how did you love" from both of them

Isla's being out of full I'm pretty sure out maybe not full out anger but being upset and going off at him

Fable's being also looking like- anger or upset but however, also being probably manipulative, trying to get her to feel bad, like he did with Rae-

[shineaxee]

trust exercise...

[sweetshire]

denethor is said to have been greatly affected by finduilas’ death, right. and i know their marriage was a political one but i like to believe that they still loved each other. not in the ‘traditional sense’ i guess but they loved each other’s spirits, their souls. the duty (as they viewed it) to protect their people & the willpower to do it, they both shared. and so i think that more precious than love, they understood each other perfectly. as no one else could, or did. i can’t stop thinking about denethor’s grief at losing her. to love someone, and to have them understand you, but to lose them so abruptly… no wonder denethor became embittered by her death. i think he became sad too. closed-off. built even more walls around him, not wanting to be seen as vulnerable by anyone. but his anger, at what (or whom), exactly? he already broke up with god when he was young. at the universe? at his fate? to have lost her so unfairly.

i came here to talk about their love & somewhere in the middle lost myself in his grief lol. never mind, bc what is grief if not love persevering????? they loved each other. i can’t. i CAN’T get over this simple truth. the love was there. it wouldn’t have been this tragic if there’s wasn’t. the love was there. and isn’t that enough (it isn’t. but it is. IT IS). the love was there. THE LOVE WAS. THERE. sobbing. truly sobbing DON’T TOUCH ME

[cerealmonster15]

haikaveh... save me haikaveh...

i KNOW it's been talked about to death but. the haikaveh research project. it literally haunts my mind. i cannot get over the implications. alhaitham going through his school life as someone that most people dont even really know about because he keeps to himself and doesn't socialize, with kaveh being the one exception to that, finding his way into his life as his Best Friend, and then leading to alhaithams one and only time he participated in a research topic. his bio says he only ever did ONE joint project!!! one!!! the one with kaveh his best friend and i think also his only friend at the time!!!! and then it ended in not only the project falling apart but also alhaithams only friendship. kavehs best friendship. they were each others closest person. they had no family around - alhaithams parents having died when he was young and his grandmother dying before he joined the akademiya, and kaveh's dad dying when he was young and his mom having moved to fontaine. like even if you dont look at it through a romantic lens it's still undeniable how important they were [and are] to each other..........

i'm getting off track but my point is very specifically for alhaitham, the one time he got close to someone, made a friend, even agreed to join one(1) group project ever, it ended in disaster. it led him into a fight so bad that his one and only friend said he regretted that friendship!!!! it was so bad alhaitham left the project and he and kaveh didnt speak for ages until they just happened to run into each other again at the tavern!!!!! like obviously it has to be incredibly awful for both of them but i just think how this probably had alhaitham in the cynical mindset that friendships and collaborations like that might just never work out for him because the one time he let someone into his life, it blew up on him and he was all alone again. even though alhaitham never seems to care much if people dont like him, that clearly cant still apply to someone he was exceptionally close to. like if he didnt care he woudlnt have been the one to take his name off the project and mutually not speak to kaveh...... kavehs words are the ones that hit the most significantly to alhaitham.......... kaveh is said/implied to have had at least some other friends while at school / people knew who he was, but not so much alhaitham. people didnt know him and the ones that did just knew he didnt socialize/he was not easy to get along with. he only had kaveh and then, for a while, he lost him too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[carcarrot]

its important to go see a low stakes concert sometimes

[bubba-draws]

So yeah I may or may not have made an entire au bc I wanted to animate Hollow dancing this song

Radiance: "i can fix them" well i CAN make them worse, i can give them the voice they crave, to scream bloody murder against those who imprisoned (me) them

[boyswanna-be-her]

The dog I've been sitting for in the haunted house is the most neurotic dog I've dealt with, which is really saying something. She's not bad but she IS completely bonkers. And she's not a rescue! Same owners her whole life. How do people fuck up an animal's brain this hard?

The only thing I've seen even close was a rescue dog adopted during covid lockdown who then didn't understand what other dogs are and had crazy separation anxiety.