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#csa // victim blaming tw#bc i just want to rant abt this on the internet one time#abt how my stupid ass uncle has me so fucked up this week#this dumb fuck equated trauma bonding to me ''being in love with'' abuser#and also said he could see why my abuser chose me to abuse as if it were a compliment#(like ''ur so pretty ofc he would choose u''was the implication)#also said i have a nice butt after i bent over to get a water bottle from the cooler#he said some other things i can't remember but even our fucking neighbor who went with us#was abt to say smth to him bc he was being such a creep#he knows the trauma i've been through like what the fuck#also this gross fuck cheated on my aunt and after being separated for a few years are reconciling#and this sick bastard wazs hitting on me while she was asleep#my emotions have been on roller coaster mode his comments really fucked me up#and now it's affecting my feelings towards other situations and just has me so fucking triggered this week#that piece of shit#that utter piece of shit uGH#and my dumb ass mom upon me telling her was like#''if i had heard him i would have said something''#like 1) no u wouldn't bc ur a little bitch#and 2) you still could say smth bc ur a little bitch!!!#and god forbid i make a deal out of it bc you know these sick fucks would all blame me#this family's need to protect men even when it comes to fucking incest makes me wanna barf#this man watched me grow up as a child what the fuck#anyway fuck men fuck women who defend men fuck all this shit i fucking hate everything rn
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fallen prey to saying stupid shit on the internet without thinking and coming off as incredibly rude and insensitive. i feel sick to my stomach. never commenting on anything else ever again. deserve to be squashed under someone’s shoe and ground into powder. in all seriousness this has shocked me so much that i am quitting every platform but tumblr for however long it takes for me to get some sense knocked into my dumb fucking skull
#actually considering deleting the clock app rn#what i said was so so bad and it could’ve been avoided if i’d fucking READ WHAT I WROTE and thought abt it FOR ONE GODDAMN MINUTE#i genuinely feel like i’m going to throw up being seen (fairly. justifiably) as mean is like the worst thing#and i don’t deserve to be wining abt this bc i’m the one who hurt someone but good god#PLEASE make sure that when you say something online you would SAY IT TO THEIR FACE#ive gotten to used to this brusque rude dark humor on the internet that i don’t relaizw using that humor INDISCRIMINATELY WITH STRANGERS is#Not okay#they made a video on it but the video got taken down so i deleted the comment. which might have been more selfish. i don’t know what’s best#-to do in that situation? i’m going to change my fucking username and pfp atp and go off the app entirely because i’m so fucking adhd ames#**ashamed don’t know why is autocorrected to that#ok just deleted the app ‘and all of its data’ so idk if that means my videos (edits) too but atp whatever#maybe it’s impulsive but at least this way i will not know what’s going on ! and never hurt anyone again hopefully. i really hope he saw my#-comments before his response was deleted because i want them to know it was not intentional and i am truly so so sorry#i don’t know how i’m going to function for the rest of the day. i’m going to think about this when i go to sleep for the rest of my life#i feel sick#i’m evil#and being evil isn’t fun silly times it literally makes me want to throw up from how bad i am#too much ranting in the tags and i deserve to be fucking shot in the mouth#but i need somewhere to put this that no one will see this but that is also public so that someone might see and know how sorry i am#feel like fucking bojack horseman#unironically how am i supposed to go on living. how can i live knowing i’m so bad. if i don’t kill myself im being selfish because i’m mak-#-omg everyone deal with my presence and live with a bad person.#i think i’m going too social media entirely except for tumblr maybe bc i can’t or don’t rly talk to anyone on here#i need someone to like give me a good meaning but not in a cathartic way in a way that it genuinely hurts so bad and makes me feel the full#suffering i deserve
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You know what? Fuck it
DC x DP prompt #3
I think at least lmao.
Anyway! Jason starts making videos on YouTube for one reason or another (is really stressed, no one listens to his rants Abt books who cares). His content is mostly bad books he read or really really really long rants Abt pride and prejudice. Like 3 hours on one tiny detail he noticed on his 214th read through.
He's kinda popular, mostly bc his terrible books videos. He talks Abt the ones that made him the most mad, which coincidentally are mostly romance and supernatural. Like he's one of the well known figures in the supernatural romance critique group (whcih is pretty small, but well). (Also he doesn't show his face on camera, bc secret identity and stuff, it's just his voice over a video of something mundane, like the sky or a room in which is a fly or something)
And now this can go two ways, that i can think of (w dead on main in mind at least)
1) one day Jason finds a book which is supernatural romance and is actually good. It has a kidna cliche system for the supernatural stuff, but with a refreshing twist. The characters have depts and flaws, yet are still very likable. The plot is actually interesting and overall the story's theme is death, not belonging anywhere and overall stuff that is very close to Jason's heart. The story doesn't shy away from violence and it is suprisingly accurate.
(I'm.gonna reblog this w pretty long idea of what this book could be Abt, bc i don't wanna annoy ppl lol)
Anyway Jason kinda falls in love w it, and it becomes famous for being the first novel Jason rated positively or something.
Meanwhile Danny, who was told by jazz writing is good way to get his feeling out, and just wanted to make a quick buck, is really fucking confused how tf did his book become so popular and who tf is this nerd who rates books for a living.
(basically big fan Jason and suspicious/awkward Danny lmao)
2) there is a famous series on Jason profile. It's the worst fucking series he ever read and it's just fucking awful. All the characters are fucking terrible, always going on and on about one thing, the romance sucks in a way that isnt even funny. Jason would love to believe some wrote this as a joke, if it wasn't for the absolute cringefest this was, and it wasn't a whole ass series!! Like who writes 12 books for a joke?
Danny ducking Fenton that's who. Dude was so ducking annoyed at his rogues, he threatened them w writing a terrible romance novels abt them. The ghosts, knowing his terrible grade in literature backed off for a moment, before someone crossed the line. And write Danny did. It was the worst thing he had ever written, the love interest was perfect caricature yet still faithfully go the original. And Danny, because fuck them he lost sommuch sleep over that one prank, decided to publish it. (The book was pretty thin so it didn't take that much time writing it). Unfortunately it became immensely popular in the infinite realm. So the ghosts started crossing lines on purpose. Before Danny figured it out, he had already published his fifth book and was writing another three. After some bargaining, getting a book written Abt them as a piece of shit love interest became a reward.
And while yeah, he had to say his writing was terrible and the books sucked, some small part of him was kinda proud y'know? Like a mother of her twelve ugly as fuck toddlers.
So when he saw some nerd on the internet not only shit talk his book, but also get money of it?
Danny decided to haunt him (just like his books did him, now that everyone knew Abt them thanks to this guy)
(enemies (sorta it's not that serious tho) to lovers ala terrible writer Danny who hates his books and kinda famous YouTuber hasn't who also hates Danny's books)
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Fuck this is way too long wtf. Anyway imma reblog this w 1) book idea. Might add whatever i think the twelve books could be Abt. Pls if u want to add anything to this pls do!!
#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#crossover#dcxdp#dp x dc writing prompt#jason todd#danny fenton#writing prompt#dead on main#youtuber jason#jason the youtuber lmao#writer danny#they r so dumb wtf#also i imagine batfam doesnt know and they find out by either jason crying abt how good this book is and how he needs to meet the author#and how he needs to make a video abt it or 2) the same thing but hes pissed off bc he juzt spend his time to read that abomination and#just wants to kill danny lmao#im not sorry#ghost zone#also i imagine the first one to get a book abt them is kitty w johny 13 as a guest and its just romeo ajd juliet parody#in jasons words the bike has the most personality lmao#zucchinicurses
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“i love all 7 not just one” yet ur so dismissive abt a certain member which clearly isn’t loving all 7 goofy ass. no wonder ur friends with ninona 🤣 both y’all r ot6ers
me when i’m onto nothing the fact you can sit and assume you know how i genuinely feel about ot7 riize is crazy to me. you can continue to think what you want to because i can assure you both ninona and i do not gaf !! im far past the point of caring if people think i negatively of me over the situation with seunghan !! i know i love seunghan ! my friends know it too ! i do not gaf if random people on the internet think differently bc frankly why should i ? i run a smut blog girl im just here to talk about cock 99% of the time 😭
if i’m being completely honest here. i feel like people seem to struggle to grasp the concept that people handle things in their own ways. i’m a very sensitive and emotional person and over the years ive been trying to deal with that in a way where i don’t get hurt so easily. i’ve been dealing with severe anxiety for years i have chronic depression if i sat and thought about seunghan’s hiatus every day i would be completely miserable and worried and that’s not how i want to be i want to be okay i want to feel okay.
grief has never been something i ever get too emotional over it just doesn’t happen, of course it’s sad to not see him there but the way i handle things doesn’t mean i dislike him in anyway shape or form and i’m frankly quite tired of having to explain myself about this. at the end of the day, if seunghan returns it’ll be one of the best things to happen, it’ll make me incredibly happy, i don’t talk about my emotions often but if you want the truth there it is. if he, god forbid, ends up being removed from riize then it will hurt me and i will be upset. i’d rather spend his hiatus in a middle group of knowing there’s realistically a 50/50 chance of him returning and him not rather than sitting and getting my hopes up only to be hurt and upset after.
the way i deal with this hiatus is for my own benefit and my own sanity, i don’t want to be sad all the time, i just barely made it out of a depressive episode and i know if i sat and dwelled on him being on hiatus then i probably wouldn’t have made it out of it. the way i treat the other 6 members is the same way i treat seunghan, i feel the same way about them all, it’s just not as simple to show that when he’s not in gifs or videos or photos.
writing about him is not as easy because i haven’t seen him for months and as time has gone by the other 6 have become more visibly comfortable and free on camera and we never got to see that with him. i love writing for him, his porn plot fic is one of my favourite fics ive written and im always happy to write for him. i just tend to write more for sungchan and eunseok because those are the members i am more sexually attracted to, im a slut man idk what you want me to say. people rarely send asks about seunghan, they’re mainly about sungchan and anton and there’s nothing i can do about that. if people send asks about him, i answer them? if they don’t then i dont, i can’t answer something that isn’t there.
i don’t mean to post such a long rant but frankly i’m just tired of having to say the same thing over and over. no, i don’t care if you think badly of me over it, i don’t care for people who think they know how i feel about something and act as if their opinion is the be all end all. so thank you for sending this so i could freely express my feelings about this.
and DAWG leave ninona out of this as well !!! she expressed why she doesn’t write for him and i touched on my own feelings about writing for seunghan. i never once viewed her in a negative way, she’s one of the funniest people ive had the pleasure of befriending and no, she doesn’t hate seunghan either !
#✧ melody answers#✧ anon#it reminds me of the why don’t you answer asks about seugnhan asks#when no one sends them like 😭#idk what you want from me i don’t talk about him bc you people don’t send asks about him#90% of my posts are about 01z bc im basically an animal about them#the way i handle the seunghan hiatus situation is purely for my own emotional well being#having severe anxiety and sitting and worrying about it every day would not be healthy for me at all#i feel like
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cartman did absolutely nothing wrong in season 20 (FROM THE VAULT [2020])
Honestly I feel like I’m the only one who felt bad for Cartman after everyone broke his stuff for no reason. Like ik Cartman has done a lot of shitty stuff in the past, but he didn’t do anything to deserve that. He was trying his best to make changes & become a better person in that season in his own stupid way even tho he doesn’t rlly know how to do that but at least A for effort. I really feel like the only reason why they had Cartman go through that dramatic character change that season was so they could show how shitty Kyle has gotten in comparison LMAO. Kyle is rlly becoming just as toxic as Cartman, he’s the one that falsely accused Cartman of being the troll and got everyone in the school all worked up and riled up over it (he’s always been the one that’s trying to turn all his classmates against Cartman) so that they’d break his stuff. Kyle vowed to take down the troll no matter what, but stopped caring about it once he found out Cartman didn’t do it even though his OWN DAD was the one who was the troll, like how could he be so clueless about that. It didn’t even take him until like one of the last episodes of the season to figure that out bc all he was focused on was Cartman. Heidi sucks, but I get why Cartman fell for Heidi in s20, and why he felt like he was losing Kyle. Cartman made some really good points to Kyle about how much he had changed, and how he wasn’t acting like himself. Heidi was very similar to Kyle, she was just as smart, and she actually did care about finding out who the troll was and making positive changes and all that shit. While Kyle on the other hand was just being a hypocrite, he was just acting like he cared about this shit when really all he wanted was an excuse to fight with Cartman. That’s why he was so petty & jealous over Cartman & Heidi’s relationship and couldn’t just accept that they were together. Even when they were doing good things together, like trying to track down the troll, which is something Kyle should support bc he allegedly cares about this stuff he still decided to be an asshole and threatened to share Cartman’s entire internet history. That’s why even when he was AGAINST the wieners out stuff before, and wanted to support the girls, he pulled a 180 and then joined Butters bc Cartman wouldn’t help him take down Butters, & he saw Cartman & Heidi together. Kyle was NOT acting like himself at all in s20, he was completely sexually confused abt his feeling for Cartman and the first 2 episodes of s20 set it up perfectly by calling Kyle a little gay boy and then having him cry over Cartman.
update 2024: ok i feel like this rant was wayy ahead of its time bc i was like one of the first people to point out how kyle was starting to become more toxic than cartman, yet the normies didn’t start to notice it too until all the kyle bullshit that happened in s24 lol.
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been watching creepcast more or less since the first/second episode and after latest i keep wanting to talk to ppl abt my thoughts and im tired of trying to engage with other youtube comments / i dont wanna keep bothering my spouse with this plus id want to talk to other ppl who are viewers but dhkdhfk im gonna rant behind the cut; tw animal death/violence, child abuse
gonna rant assuming readers is also a viewer cause too tired to explain, sorry. this is just “stuff id want to chat with fellow fans of the poscast but i dont have friends who watch it, and the youtube comments suck for the most part and id rather be turned inside out than login to reddit”, like i did end up using rhe comment section way toomuch already, jm tired and its like 3% normal ppl and 97% dicks and assholes with bully disorder
like it was a big enlightening to just properly label things last night at last and process the feelings and situation. this is jsut a podcast with isaiah bullying his cohost hunter (“as a joke”) and the fans at large are people who enjoying bullying snd find it funny, and try to bully commenters who disrupt their “fun”, trting to discret and demean them as friendless parasocial losers for not playing along the theater of mockery and treating it as socially acceptable.
like its one thing to tease between friends and make dark jokes, its another thing to repeatedly, insistently, laugh at your friend for being traumatized as a child by violent animal death? like. its like i get that initially he was just really baffled at the event like haha oh my god did that happened thats so fucked up (which is annoyingly normie in its own way like yeah dude, none of us have control over fucked up shit happening to us as children, like he makes such a spectacle about it like its this earth shattering thing). like its tragic and a big deal but like wrt trauma its usually safe to be on the level that the person with the trauma is setting, if theyre talkinf about it really intensely it makes sense to match up to that tone or lower. instead hunter is trting to move on while isaiah is just obsessed fascinated with it like its fiction almsot. idk just . uggghhhhhhh
i could kust make a collage fo commwnts that made me like lose hope for humanity each time but i dontw anna dwell on annoying bullshit and commit it more to memory. like people are jusr… like there is some dark humor inherent to like calljng your mom as an adult on your show to have her back you up only for it to turn out it was way worse, but like the way isaiah kept laughing about it for so long.. like hecan laugh and joke like that at his Own traumas if he has them. just. idk. tgisn podcast like just. ugh its making me irritated tot hink abt explaining whats happening in it to people like go watch it with adblock on, im gonnaskip explainjng more and jsut say some feelings to the void that id rather like scream at someone about. i was gonna say scream at assholes in the commmebts but i actually want their internet connection destroted and for them to be forced to dismantle their phones and pcs and set them on fire so they can never speak again.
isaiah is coming off like such a monster. like, “””as a joke””” acting like an asshole is still acting like an asshole, i dont care anymore that hes actually probably rly well intentioned and ncie bc he jsut needs to stop being fucking rancid and a shitty cohost and friend. an honestly i cant even believe the “hes actually nice” shit anymore. starting tj feel hes been an ashsole all along and just pretends to be a good guy. like he takes too much joy out of excessive bullying to be a good person. like genuine just bullying, with no consequences. ppl are like “oh hunters fine with it bc hes putting up with it” like as if every single person alive Never has to put up and laugh along shit that bothers them. specially on what is essentially their Job. hunter barely appears comfortable and he does not dish back nearly as viciously- and we jnow hes capable of rly dark humor and banter too, on his own channel tje vibe is completely different but he has none or that edge with isaiah. while isaiah is literally like i wnan dox you please fans m*lest hunter in the meet and greet, i want this guy dead; isaiah literlaly makea such a huge deal every time hunter had a disagreeing opinion irs clear hes started to just not weight in when he doesnt like something, itd be one thing to make these super intense mean comments if hunter did them back but every time isaiah would not take or tolerate it when it was towards himself,; and honestly all of the stuff before had been like accumulating to be pretty bad but rhe latest ep with the dog story eallyi guess like crosses a line of like, this is just genuinely wrong and i dont care how mcuh the comments say its ‘parasocial’to have basic human empathy! youre watchint a guy talk abt having the family dog shot in the back of the head in front of him by his grandfather, only to then find out on air feom his mother the shooting had been intentional and his grandfatehr was actuallt a monster instead of a disabled man traumatizinf you by accident. like the ironic tragedy of him calling his mom to back him up on that ‘its not a big deal’ only for her to contradict him is funny on a cosmic sense, but like it is iust. not that funny dude. like isaiah kept bursting into laughter just thinking about it. oh is it too absurd for you to take seriously? do yoh just not give a fuck about how tour friend might feel? dude didnt even fucking ask. he didnt eveb show a sliver of care , sympathy empathy anything. he literally says “ill never let you live this down”. LIVE WHAT DOWN???? having his grandfather intentionally shoot his dog in front of him as a 7 year old child? like what the actual fuck is wrong with him??!! have like even a shred of respect for your cohost, like its all ‘as a joke’ but if you consistently ‘as a joke’ act like a cruel manipulative bullying person, im just gonna choose to believe youre actually just that person using “humor” as a shield to excuse your behavior.
like wtf. i was actually a fan of isaiahs chanel first and i didnt rly vibe with hunter that much and i wouldnt have expected, bc i woildnt enjoy watching an asshole, that isaiah wouldve turned out to be such a self centered horrible person. like its all funny TO HIM, i dont get the sense its enjoyable at all to be in that room when isaiah is getting all giddy and having a kick out of treating hunter like a punching back. yeah he probably doesnt mean to be actually hurtful but it doesnt look like the thought even crosses his satan spawn eyes that someone could have a different reaction than the one he was intends there to be. like i dont know hunter and idk if id even like him if i talked to him in person but it sucks qnr is horrible to watch anyone be treated that way consistently. like i wish creepcaet juet actually ended or isaiah learned how to not be shitty. i dont care if its not in his nature to not be awful he should just try to pretend to be a decent person for once. like i feel bad for hunter becuase it comes across like hes more stuck in the podcast than enjoying it and i empathise with struggling to leave “friends” who treat you like shit. and its like work too, i have no idea how much of a monetary and reputation loss it would be to leave. ppl are like “theyre adults they surely worked within themselves” yeah bc no adult ever has struggled or been stuck in a situation thats hard to get out of. honestly like yeah this is just a shitty podcast with shitty fans who just enjoy watching a bigger guy get bullied for no reason because they are probably mostly awful bullies in their own lives too hurting the people around them and i dont need to convern myself over what people who get a kick out of hurting others think.
i guess obligatory like. insane and unwarranted comment to the hosts bc no one is readingnthis let alone either of them but its like what if they read it and like felt x or y way in reaction. maube writing this will give me some semblance of peace
@ hunter: you seem cool and youre a really talented artist and naturally funny on camera/audio. i relate to having memories from childhood warped like that, and im sure/i would imagine that was the story told because it was far from the actual worst one. i think you deserve to respect yourself more, im sure being bullied is no skin of your back, im fat and ive been derided bc of it my whole life, from since i was 70kg and im 100kg now. its smth you get used to and it feels like not a big deal but on a fundamental level i thibk everyone deserves to respect themselves at least enough to not let friends treat you like shit to this extent. like i know banter and teasing is normal, butlike. its so excessive dude. it comes across like youre just stuck there and idk your financials and maybe you coulr be, ive heard of stories like that wrt youtube projects, and subversive animations arent loved by youtube’s revenue. heavy condolences if this turns out to be the case and hoping things can change. im sure it would be hard to quit anyway bc ppl would make such a big deal abt it. but if you are free to leave at anytime and you have freedom and are safe with isaiah,thank god thats great, get the FUCK out of there or get isaiah to stop treatiny you like shit cause you deserve better. if somehow you iust love beint berated like that i guess like each to his own too, i just hope youre doing ok juwt oj the basis of beint a fellow human being who appears to be in a legitimately shitty situation. if you are ajd im insane, thats fine too, id rather be insane than someone be suffering.
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@ isaiah: i really liked your youtube vids. you seemed like a decent enougu guy. ofc like i dont actualyl Know either of tou, injust am human and relating on basic emotional levels based on the behavior you choose to display online. man. what the hell is wrong with you? if i expected you to actually read this i would be more polite but i dont expect a single soul to read this, really. like, man… i want to believe theres capacity of good and kindness in every person so surely you must have it, and if you do.. why are you acting like that. is being mean That funny? i love dark humor but ive never taken joy out of actively bullying people so i cant really relate but like, surely you can find otuer ways to have fun with your friend? im sure you think its all fine bc hunter wont throw a tantrum like you do but some people are actually way more inwards with their emotions and like you coild try to be a little more interested in how someone else feels when you bully them. “as a joke”. like maybe its not as funny as you think itnis, or they migut not be enjoying it like you do. i know its hard to stop when you want to talk but please try to stop interrupting hunter repeatedly after you clewrly mustve heard him adter the call delay? honestly, i thought you were a fine guy but now its like maybe youre just on a power trip, havint someone hostage to validate your opinions on horror and to bully for fun who wont talk back to you in a way thats actually challenging. since you love the sounf of your own voice so much you could do a solo podcast, you dont need hunter to be there as a punching bag in order to make a podcast. if you lvoe and care about hunter as a friend sincerely and iust have been totally by accident actint like a major piece of shit, id like want to hope for you to improve as a person in how you act and id want to believe thats very possible, but episode after episode its just.. like i dont give a shit abt dark mean humor i dont care if you call us in the audience pieces of shit or freaks or whatever, we’re not there talking to you, but hunter Is hearing what youre saying and is actually there.like id say for a christian you are extremely cruel but that is just ao on brand for open christians to behave that way that i honestly wanted to believe you would subvert that expectation, but it seems i was wrong. you know like i dont get this being mean as a joke thinf and neber have, i would say if hunter died tomorrow would you not have rather spent time with him in a positive way where he was loved instead of berated, but youd most likely “joke” that youre glad hes dead and that you didnt bully him enough. im not christian and i dont believe in heaven or hell but i know for you that youre most likely not seeing the pearly gates until you learn to pretend to be a good person to your friends. its probably not even smth you genuinely want to do or care to do but you could make that sacrifice of being nicer so the world is a better place while it has to have you here.
big sigh this isjsut hggggghhhhhh like a shame bc i love horror and i had enjoyed isaiahs youtube vids but , man this is such a disappointment. obviously i dont rly wana watch the podcast anymore butni like hunter reading and his voice and i would just hope for the best for him going forward, and the insane in my brain is like i gotta check it out maybe isaiah apologizes and acts like normal and nice without being rancid for once. even tho i know that wont be true bc it hasnt been for weeks since i started watching, i guess ill tune in for the next and if he foesnt shape up i’ll quit it. find a diff horror podcast or smth. makes me sad imagining hunter stuck in there. kike idk if hes even a good person like hes edgy on his own channel too but in general like he comes across like isaiah used to , lile someone who just seems fine and i havent heard anything saying theres smth horribly wrong with him. just on a basic human level it sucks to see people struggle and suffer. speciallt when its situations i relate and have been to. its been at least (uhh math…) damn 10 years or smth since an event that really stuck with me, where i was kust telling soem school friend abt my life at home bc we were just talking, and i relayed one of the ways my parents would beat me and how i was so scary, and she burst our cackling in my face. its a feeling that took a long time to stop having it sting in my head. she wasnt intending to laugh At me, or bc she thought beating children was genuinely good or funny, but to her the situation was so absurd it was funny. i can understand that on a detached level like if it wasnt real there would be some comedy timing to it. but instead i iust felt like a joke. like i was stupid, like it was this really funny ass thing, and i tried to play along, and it was like the fear trauma and pain that resulted from those events was a joke too. like i was stupid for having my life warped ny the abuse and it affecting me, because it was just so absurd and funny! like damn, i shouldve been abused as a child in a less absurd and funny way so people wouldnt mock me to my face about it. i guess i deserve it and its natural to be treated this way. until i met someoje who actually respected and gave a fuck about me and wouldnt make me feel that way i thoight it was normal and like i was fine with it too. i used to get bullied communally by my entire classroom for half of middle school and i thought those people were called friends too because id never been treated any better by anyone.
hgggghj i think its helped a bit to get it off my chest, maybe. man this sucks. i wish people would iust be nicer to eachother. life is so short, and some people cant even have the courtesy to not be tormented by people they call friends
#.talk#creepcast criticism#tagging for the poor flowers that will get pissy if they see someoje not validate their enjoyment of bullying
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hi! hope ur doing well! i just wanna rant a lil in ur inbox if that's okay. i saw thebutchtheory post u rbed abt tmascs needing to "read theory" before we engage in discussions regarding transandrophobia and i cannot believe ppl still say that. like the first time i heard that it was 2020 and i was watching vaush (annoying leftist streamer, did some odd shit and is in general has a white savior complex). he would say that whenever he was annoyed with a leftist for not agreeing with him. that what "just read theory" has meant to me. go off and read theory until you come back and agree with me. if you read theory and don't agree with me, it just means you read it wrong! simple. either way, the person that "needs to read theory" is stupid and wrong. the problem with telling someone to read theory is that 1. not everyone has easy access to books (and before someone mentions e books/pdfs, not every book has a digital version of itself and also not every pdf is created equal some are hard to read), 2. not everyone is able read , illiteracy is still a common thing in america (not to mention intellectual disabilities), 3. not everyone likes read which is perfectly fine! no one should be forced to read if they don't want to, and 4. even if you make it past all that, sometimes the theory ur reading is hard to understand! like genuinely sometimes it can feel like ur reading abt quantum physics. also, have we considered that just bc it got published doesn't mean it's right? like it is perfectly fine to read theory and still go "hmm idk i think this guys wrong" also, authors have to cut out parts of their books due to publisher interference all the time! ofc im not saying that happens to every political author, but i wouldn't be surprised if many were forced to tone themselves down to get published. the only thing that differentiates tumblr theory and book theory is where its being said and legitimacy given to it by everyone else due to its environment.
love u velvet nation, ❤️
Love you anon. <3 It's completely absurd that it gets bandied about this way and has nearly made the word lsoe all meaning. There's no coherent definition of "theory" because you can't place them all in one single narrative tradition, it's literally just people getting their ideas out there prior to the spread of the internet at which point we stopped needing a publishing contract to do so.
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hi hello i just wanted to let you know that i just binge-read your butcher!Taylor story and holy crap. wow. i'm amazed by how relatable you've managed to make the Butcher personalities—many of them, specially Firecracker, Nemean, Anchorage and Tactical, make me feel a bit like "and there, but for the grace of God, go I"—if it weren't for my heaps of sheer dumb luck (and the fact that this is isn't Earth Bet, obviously), that could have been me. it makes the entire story super interesting, and makes me kinda hope for the time Amy manages to get those letters to their destination—i really hope they get some closure, and not just Flinch's family. This last chapter—aside from making me despair about the cliffhanger—was really sweet: i loved the Amy interaction and I agree with Anchorage's Grandmaw that good food heals all, and helps always. I also really loved the Sophia, Taylor and mall guards interaction as well—Taylor was right in calling those fuckers out, and idk whether or not you're white, but you get internet cookies for that. I'm also a fan of Danny and Taylor rebuilding their relationship, Danny visibly getting better, and how despite Taylor gaining a newfound confidence bc of the Butcher's memories & life experiences, she isn't magically over what the Trio did to her—they still affect her, even if she's better equipped to dealing with them. It makes her more believable as a character. I'm also deeply curious about T—I'm hoping for an interlude from his POV eventually. He's been right there through a lot of it, and he's stuck by Taylor, and we don't really know what's up with him—there are some hints about helicopter parents who are overly supportive, but it sure stands out how he hasn't really told them he's a cape, which makes me think they're more overbearing than supportive, but I don't know. The way in which he covers himself in metal sure feels like burrito-ing in a security blanket, times 10. My heart goes to Vicky too—what she's going through sucks, hard. And I really appreciate how you've made an effort to make Brandish come across as a total bitch who has her reasons—she's not totally irrational, just differently rational. Really comes across how she's very obviously talking from a place of trauma and not casual cruelty. Also loving how you humanized Manpower—made it real clear even the "well-adjusted" capes are a lil fucked in the head (/non-pejorative—so am i, frankly). And I *really* love your Assault. I'm kinda hoping he breaks lines and has some words w Elpis, off the record—just because I really like him, and as someone who also has some misgivings abt the Gov, I'd like to see what Assault is thinking—that bit where they referenced Assault's past as Madcap as his "misspent youth" really made me grind my teeth.
This has been enough ranting I wager but anyways, the point is: awesome story, I love it, tahnk you for writing it!!!
Holy shit, this is, by a wide margin, the longest ask or message I've ever got. Thank you so much! I'm working on the next chapter as we speak, and it's going to be a big one!
I did aim to try and make the point that the Butchers, like a lot of villains, did not just decide to turn to a life of crime for shits and giggles. Many of them were forced into it by circumstance and spiralled down to stay alive. In the right environment, they'd have thrived.
The letters too- those will play a part, showing the Butcher's human connections and emphasising that they are human themselves. Even if they are currently disembodied voices in the head of a tenage girl.
Tarquin is... honestly, thinking some things about myself, I think he's got elements of myself in him. My parents aren't so hovering, but I do get the idea of putting up a facade to hide your vulnerabilities.
Characterisation is important in fanfiction, and maintaining nuance can make or break a story. Sometimes it's fun to exaggerate a character's personality, but I wanted to stick close to canon, so it's very encouraging to hear you approve of how I've written Vicky and Brandish and Manpower and a lot of other tricky characters.
Anyway, I'm glad you enjoy Here Comes The New Boss! The next chapter's coming out sometime this week, but if you can't wait until then, you can try my spin-off Hostile Takeover for a bit of fun.
#my stuff#ask#fanfiction#parahumans#worm#here comes the new boss#my writing#i'm so goddamn flattered
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The canvases aren’t even safe 😭 they used the Boroque era as reference for their search engines. Like I’m losing my shit constantly over ai art so bad. Like this is totally gonna be a rant so forgive me but it’s driving up the WALLS. Ai art being readily available is killing the incentive for people to be creative. I cannot tell you how many times I think I’ve found a really cool fellow artist on tiktok and then see #midjourney. I take psychic damage every time that happens to me. And I’m starting to see it infiltrating business too where they generate ai images instead of hire photographers. I also saw someone selling tshirts with ai art on it at my local farmers market. MOTHERFUCKER THE FARMERS MARKET??? HAVE YOU NO SHAME????
NAW PREACH IT cause its become a nagging issue for me for a while that i simply try to not think about and dwell on but dear FUCKING god is it everywhere and it's painfully obvious too! just about every ad takes me 3 seconds to find damning evidence that its ai and im 99% ready to just delete facebook bc #1 i dont give a fuck abt anyone on there anymore and #2 Literally every other post is the most deplorable ai shit ive ever seen that everyone is carelessly oblivious to i mean total abominations that don't make any sense as an image but ppl share bc its the most bottom of the barrel ''relatable'' shit and that's just the sad reality of it is most people don't even give a shit what they're looking at as long as it looks pretty to their eyes for 3 seconds they don't give a damn
and that's just on basic everyday world shit like u said there's so many mfs i think are decent artists where i legitimately cant tell its ai until i read their fuckshit bio or somethin, like that midjourney i didnt even know it was an ai program i would've just thought it was the name of a video game or some shit! like I feel like I'm kinda turning my back on the whole art community involuntarily bc i just dont trust any image i see most of the time and its fukkin sad i ESPECIALLY feel for the real artists prior to this shitshow who have art styles that now look so much like ai that they basically hijacked to feed the machine like I couldn't imagine spending thousands of dollars on an art college and hours of practice just for your art style to be The Blueprint for empty soulless photos cranked out at inhuman rates by any stupid fucking lazy ass clown like Fuck Man it all sucks so much and the worst part is I just feel like it's one of those things where it will not stop until Something caves and i honestly dont know which one it will be but i just know its only going to get worse idk i try to remember that i can pick up a paintbrush or even whatever the hell i want and make something beautiful while 98% of these ai sacks of shit are just limited to stealing other peoples art on the internet and they couldn't even paint a damn flower if their lives depended on it and if i was stuck on a deserted island I'd probably still find ways to make art with whatever tools and resources i have cause that's an artist baybay but as far as The Internet and its grasp it has on the world and trying to make it as a digital artist and trying to make money from your homemade artwork is very grim man and dont even get me started on art and artists in just about every job field rn my heart goes out to them
#me painting hammers at work using spray paint and a pen tip : ai mfs could never#its been irking me for a while and itll only irk me more its soOOOO#like i just draw for funsies atm and get anxious when money is involved but i am planning to start making money off of my art but with this#ai shit its gunna be fukkin hard i dread
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Hii ! It's Internet stranger anon!
In my last ask i talked abt my bsf (whom I am in love with) but there's updates (kinda?) and I need advice bcs idk what to do. (Beware, I'm a yapper, this is gonna be long)
So, for context, one night in April i had invited 3 of my friends for a sleepover for my birthday. She was there and one of the two others dared us to kiss. So we did. And then when we all went to sleep (me, my bsf who i'm gonna call L and one other friend were gonna sleep in one big bed and my guy friend in a lil one in the corner). When both my guyfriend and the one that was sleeping with us fell asleep, idk how but we ended up kissing. Like a lot. And we cuddled too and we joked and it wasn't even awkward it was just so amazing. And then in the morning she asked for it to stay a secret and like a taboo thing. Which literally broke my heart because I've had a crush on her since September, but I acted like it was fine.
Since then, even though she asked herself for it to be a taboo, she's joked about it several times (which made me go slightly crazy bcs wtf) She has always been very clear that she thinks dating while still in middle school was useless (we're both 15 btw). She makes fun of couples in school and stuff cuz she just thinks it's dumb to date, so I know very well that even if she liked me she'll never say yes to dating me, or at least not until high school.
But here's the update (srry for the v v long context rant, I needed to get it out of my chest): yesterday we went out to the skate park to hang out, we had fun and stuff, and since we're not going to see each other for the rest of the summer break, she gifted me a fucking necklace. With a heart on it. And she said that it was for me to not forget her during the summer. She bought me a fucking heart necklace bcs she wanted me to think of her! And then I apologised for not having bought her anything and she said "it's fine I'll think abt you anyways" ! I'm going insane. Then I messaged her other best friend (who had known her for longer than I have and is closer to her) and L didn't gift her anything even though they're not going to see each other either!
You can ignore my rant if you want, I hope you have a good day/night anyway <3
Hi hon!
Ugh.
I think it's hard because she clearly has feelings, but she might not be ready to be open about them. Which isn't necessarily good, but it is what it is. She's not really being fair by still flirting with and kissing you, you know? She's got a right to her feelings, but it makes it hard for you to get mixed messages.
The thing is, at your age, some people are ready to be open about those things, and some aren't. Also, I forget your gender- if this is a queer relationship, there's that factor as well.
I'm sorry that she's putting you through those mixed signals, but maybe it makes you feel a bit busy to know that from an outsider perspective, it's definitely not YOU. She's got her own shit to work through.
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wanted to rant abt this lil idea i had bc ur monster feeder find are so addictive:
there’s this anime — campfire cooking in another world — and basically it’s about this legendary beast known as fenrir, a giant beast of a wolf (i presume) venturing alongside an isekai’d chef. they eat otherworldly foods along with foods of the world he’s been reincarnated into. the food in question are really greasy and fatty, and it got me thinking: how are they not… fat? if not fat, then just slightly chubby because surely eating all these foods deep fried, marinated, all kinds of high calorie add ons nd whatnot would surely be a threat to both his familiar (the fenrir) and him. obviously, they’d be unhealthy.
i find it so intriguing bc not only hat but the fenrir is supposed to be this fabled legend that would spar with dragons yet he was reduced to a fluffy ball of lard. it also occurred to me that the goddesses of that world would also balloon up because they request otherworldly sweets in exchange for blessings and demand them quite often. since their bodies would react differently to the chemicals and artificial flavoring in our foods, what if they fatten up quicker because of that? there are four goddesses: wind, water, earth, and fire. though i find it weird that one of them (the water goddess) is… those weird l*li tropes.
I've seen this anime a few times on tiktok and I'm glad someone from our side of the internet is investigating it to see if it holds any feedist merit lol sounds like the best stuff is coming from viewer headcanons, I love the idea of a big powerful beast ending up cute lazy and fat and immortals reacting differently to mortal food
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Monthly Reminder bc I got recommended a very recent video of another rant abt Wish even tho ppl need to get over themselves by now:
Wish wasn’t that bad and it is overhated.
Star wasn’t meant to be a love interest. He was meant to be Asha’s Sabino and her platonic soulmate.
A romance doesn’t automatically mean it would make the film better (didn’t y’all get mad when Disney kept having romance anyway??).
Y’all would rather ship Asha with a star clone of Jack Frost and not even ship Asha with Dahlia or one of her friends?? AT ALL??? Wtf????
(Side rant: Suuuure yeahhhh okay the inhuman ball of gas that’s a clone of Frost is way better than any of the CANON POC characters Asha is with. And some of y’all said Star was enby… where is it???? WHERES THE QUEER STAR STUFF???? And if you’re gonna keep the lame ass Asha x Star shit (bc apparently romance is more important than Asha’s love for her friends and family) at least make him a POC??? Why does Asha need a white presented love interest?
Anyway Asha is dating her entire friend group💕Poly gang)
“At All Costs” represents ALL TYPES OF LOVE, as Julia Michaels has said. It wasn’t meant to be a love song between Star and Asha, WHERE DID YOU EVEN GET THAT FROM???
The songs aren’t that bad. There’s been worse. And y’all complain after saying Lin should stop writing Disney music so WHICH IS IT?? Maybe y’all just want something to complain about??
The animation and style really isn’t bad now I know y’all doing to much
Was Wish perfect? No. Was it BAD? Fuck no and I’m dying on the hill. Y’all just riding on a stupid bandwagon. I can’t fucking go through tags of this film without complaints after complaints (THE MOVIE CAME OUT ON NOVEMBER SHUT UP ALREADY!!) and Starboy (again… Jack Frost clone. Bleh.) and rewrites that don’t feel fun to look at bc it feels angry and hateful. I fucking hate the Internet.
Sorry for my passion, I have autism and often times I am very passionate in my interests.
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Time-Master Sword anon
Also Nate grey is referred to as Silly Boy here
ok so disclaimer I haven’t read all of his comics yet (THERES 75 😭) but if I may I would like to rant to you abt this silly little goober with images I stole off the internet 😍/j
Ok so the comic starts out with the little guy coming out of his little fucking test tube 😍 and bro comes out and is confronted with Mr. Sinister which ima call Mr.Silly bc I’m not spelling that out. And bro just takes his hand is like your all good but then notices he’s shivering and gives him (what he calls) “A sensory weave 🤓🤓👆👆” It’s fucking clothes btw anyways it looks like this
Nate grey a Pkmn fan confirmed 🤨🤨🤨.
anyways Mr. Silly is a fucking Narc and names him after himself (Mr sillies real name is Nathaniel Essex) and then gets a call from an evil Hank McCoy who is literally a grey beast but whatever
Anyways silly boy wanders around the orphanage/school/church whatever (ok a bit of context for his powers bro is like as strong as the Phoenix force at base level and um he can also like feel the leftover emotions of an object that someone last touched there’s a lot more as well but I’m lazy 😍) So he goes into a classroom that his dad (bio) was last in when he was younger and Mr Silly notices hes missing and gets really fucking pissed anyways Mr silly find him in the cafeteria after he’s abt to blow the place up and silly boy just says
And takes him back to the lab where Mr silly is like “Our world is fucking fucked”and shows him images of the outside world and then goes “this is why you can’t leave” but silly boy sees some mutants abt to get imprisoned and teleports their astral plane selves over there and stops one of the faires momentarily from taking this girls aunt before the teleported back (Mr silly installed a fail safe just in case silly boy did that) and silly boy is like “wtf dude I was just abt to help them 👹👹” And Mr silly is like “HE CAN THINK FOR HIMSELF!!????” But dw guys he gets Silly boy a fucking teddy bear (which is a really wholesome moment) and all is well
(IM SORRY FOR THE PHOTO DUML BUT LOOK AT HIM HES SMILING!!!) (also eyelash routine drop when little bro)
Anyways Mr silly is Like “Get in ur fucking bath so you can get older in a few weeks”
And then he says good night to Nathan and Nathan being the silly boy who has already developed his powers at like what? 6? Says goodnight to him in his head
Anyways I’ll rant abt him again but this is just the first comic 😍😍 also don’t be fooled Mr silly is terrible father 0/10
also take this shitty picture I drew bc it makes me laugh
sorry it took so long i wanted to make sure i actually had the time to read this
CALLIN HIM MR SILLY TOOK ME OUT, GOOD LORD ALSKKDKD
i love that he gets him a bear
THE ART AT THE END KILLED ME ALDKDKS
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i apologize if this sounds insane because frankly it does. on deviantart, there's a sub-sect of fandom people that make posts of like, a fictional character angrily ranting at another fictional character in a giant PARAGRAPH of text explaining what they did wrong and telling them they should be ashamed of themself. that is legit what comes to mind whenever i see the six trillionth post in the tag about "OMG WHY DOESN'T BH TALK TO EACH OTHER!"
do not worry anon, I am extremely internet poisoned and have a vast knowledge of weird fandom habits. Idk if i've even seen that kind of post exactly, but I have certainly witnessed variations of the idea or the feelings behind it in many places across many fandoms. for all i roll my eyes abt excessive posting abt how good one is at Understanding Media i DO agree that getting mad at the characters and lecturing them for having flaws and doing the wrong thing is like, the lamest and least interesting way to discuss stories. its very boring when characters do not do these things!
i understand the impulse; stories are meant to make us feel things, including anger and frustration, and there are plenty of times characters i love have done stuff that, in the moment, genuinely upset me (and not on a meta, 'bad writing' level, which is different). i just think it's good to take that reaction, appreciate how it made you feel, and the fact that the writing or performance or story evoked a reaction from you, but to not let that be the end or even necessarily the beginning of your analysis of the hows and whys and thens of the situation.
there's a lot of things happening with the "why won't the hells talk to each other!" thing. ppl struggling, mentally and/or emotionally, with the extreme time dilation is a big one. i also think part of it is people approaching this one-camera improv show the way they would a scripted tv show, and possibly attributing more intentionality and significance to certain actions or reactions than the players did, or attributing decisions that may have been influenced by out-of-game factors exclusively to the hells. i get the frustration, bc i too want them to talk more often, but i think ppl getting outraged that the hells don't immediately follow up on every questionable action or percieved offense is. unserious. they're a little busy at the moment.
#crposting#ask#anonymous#long post /#answering this gave me a brain blast re: ppl analyzing cr through the lens of a scripted series. bc that tracks with some trends in fandom
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i’m another new leafs fan, and wanted to say how much i enjoy your commentary :)
it’s been disappointing to see all the hate from proclaimed fans after their exit. do you have any thoughts about how sports (historically) have a predominantly male fan base, and how that contributes to the negativity?
anyway, just wanted to say thank you for posting and sharing your thoughts :)💗
fjlksjfkls it truly warms me that anyone cares enough about what i have to say to check my blog, but thank you for the sweet words 😭🫶 hope you're enjoying the leafs.
those same people hating will be back in october (or just stay all summer and simmer over their fake trade proposals) and then proclaim they're in a toxic relationship with their sports team instead of just taking responsibility for their own life and doing something that makes them ACTUALLY happy, but i digress. i think a lot of these men are loners who don't get the social interaction irl and have gravitated online, and i can't even talk shit about THAT aspect of it bc here i am too lol, but also. like. they never seemed to learn to regulate their emotions about things. it's one thing to be so invested that you get upset when your team loses, but like... they're not attached to the team conceptually or any of the players in the same way a lot of the time, so i don't understand what they ARE attached to. they're chasing sentimentality from their youth or community of rooting for your local teams, but it SEEMS like they're miserable doing it and just don't know how to escape the cycle of it, and that's something i will never understand. i've gone through PLENTY of obsessions and hyperfixations over the years, and when things start to negatively impact my life, i have to actively step back and fall out of it or remind myself there's a real life. like you don't earn moral points for sticking through something that makes you miserable so you can say you've always been a real fan. no one gives a shit if you've been there 30 years or 30 seconds. some of these people don't know how to remove themselves from it though... and maybe i care too much about the negativity myself, but it really does just seem to take over the spaces i inhabited all year just fine. i'll take a break in a bit and get back to optimism but lol
in the end, no i don't have some grand thesis. it's all the same takes i assume men who care intensely irl and yell at clouds just put to the internet instead to find common ground with other shitheads, but they seem to think THEY'RE the majority, which is hilarious. i think the majority of fans are probably casual fans in the gta and ontario in general and don't hold opinions as intensely negative as they do, but who knows... what i DO know is that all the women i've met through sports enjoy it in a much more fun and hilarious way than most men so ljdlsfjklsf. being able to prioritize fun over just WINNING (esp when u dont care.. abt the individual players themselves like? what do u even want them to win for???? what is motivating u.. i don't understand men lmao) makes for a way better time and a healthier fandom. anywya, thanks for giving me yet more opportunities to rant here, LOL.
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im literally kicking myself in the foot for not doing something more worthwhile with my existance... i never knew of manifesting until recent years and while society likes to say its never too late sometimes it feels like that is it too late cause to learn any skill you have to have already learnt the techniques then have good practice abilities on top of it, like you cant just waltz into a sport for instance and take a gold medal you have to do it step by step but to do that again im fucking regretting so much rn cant i just bash my head into a wall and slowly die? or music for instance cant just pick an instrument and be good at it right off the bat again shouldve just fucking picked something and stuck with it
also i never had the likes of tiktok or anything internet for entertainment when i was a kid so in a way it shouldve been perfect chance to really do smth but as always situations got in the way and im regretting existing a lot rn. like why so many ppl so good at their niches or whatever it is they choose to do and theres so much more available now than there was back then but i cant seem to pick a single damned thing that i could realistically do at my age and still feel accomplished bc id just end up feeling behind or regretting not doing it sooner
sorry for ranting abt myself there just if only there was time machine or a literal realistic way of shifting to another damned reality cause this aint it like why im wasting so much of it doing fck all? it should be shameful honestly but like at the same time its kind of impossible with current economy being so crappy
for instance if u want to own a business (which i would do if i could even afford one with my own money but then u got to ha e the job and the know how on running it) seriously my ancestors had so many more things that were successful in their lives and some did have businesses bc shops were affordable back then, education used to be affordable too and housing etc etc. id be more inclinced to then have a family of my own if that were the case but it is not soooooooooooooo then its like even if you want a bog standard job it can still take months just to get something basic. i once did manage to manifest a free bus ride and my teacher not coming to college for a few days but thats abt it. other than that lifes kinda average sadly its not the 1950s and elvis is still dead asf.............. not fair
the other thing that puzzles me and sorry for making this so long but if we are supposed to have had past lives a) why havent we known about it before now and b) how come some celebs dont reincarnate or do the celebs that pass away just get a free pass to heaven and decide to stay put? (in which case i wont blame them but its also not fair that i have to still exist... or fail to exist i should say)
My dude, I understand where you’re coming from and I have been where you are. But you say you wish there was a way to travel back in time or shift realities - there IS a way to shift realities, travel back in time, and live whatever kind of life you want. Seriously. That is the whole reason I created this blog!! So please read through all the information I’ve collected instead of just complaining ok? 😭
All of that stuff you mentioned about your current reality is an illusion. Time is an illusion. It does not matter what you’ve done in the past. The economy does not matter. Your present circumstances do not matter. Past lives only exist if you believe they do.
Look around tumblr at void, loa and shifting success stories. I have shared many of my favorites. People in very difficult circumstances have regularly completely change their lives overnight, wake up in new houses, shift to alternate realities, change their genders, change their ages, bring people back from the dead, to say the very least.
None of it matters because we live in the literal matrix - a VR simulation - and you can have anything you want NOW.
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