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bonefall · 2 years ago

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can we have some random trivia for HeatherHareBreeze? Im weirdly attached to that ship now tbh

Behold. The thems. A summary of the Hare/Heather/Breeze polycule.

Something overlooked about canon is that Breezepaw begged Crowfeather to let him say goodbye "to his friends" and was shot down

So I have interpreted this to mean that Breeze is actually a total ride or die little fella for his buddies

That was the reason why so many WindClan cats were in the Dark Forest. He was the RINGLEADER

By the way-- I am writing Breezepelt with BPD in mind. Him, Cinderheart, and Squirrelflight. He often sorts people into broad, unhealthy categories-- BAD or GOOD

But anyway I could talk about BB!Breezy-P all day

Bottom line is, these three were TIGHT. They're the three warrior apprentices of Lake WindClan in Po3 and were always getting in trouble together

Heatherpaw got them into digging holes. Normal stupid teenager shit "let's make the deepest hole ever"

Harepaw got buried OOPS. Get tunnel'd idiot

Brushblaze was nearby enough to hear someone scream and helped pull Hare out

After three sets of teary eyes BEGGED him to not tell Onestar, he made them promise to come get him when they were digging deep enough that they couldn't dig back up.

He's an ex-solver from BloodClan and can help them make sure they don't make an unstable hole

Bottom line is, the three of them go back a very long time, but I don't imagine it was even romantic back then. It was Heather And The Boys.

The Dark Forest drove a wedge between Heather and the boys, as she quickly realized that they may not have started with bad intentions, but cats like Mudclaw, Tigerstar, and Hawkfrost were BAD news and they were going to drag them all down too.

It wasn't worth it. Training with a REAL tunneler was the bait to lure her in like Tunnelbun crumbs for a hunted bird.

The wedge between Heather and the Boys became a wedge between the Boys when they all got their Dishonor Titles. Harespring --Darkseeker-- was working to atone. This meant disavowing his training, focusing on how he could help people, and seeking the things he could learn in his own Clan.

Breezepelt --Dodderheart--, took that badly. How dare Darkseeker start pretending like there was something to disavow! Onestar sucks! Crowfeather sucks! StarClan sucks! He'll do whatever it takes to get power and change things around here, get the respect he wants, but Breezepelt didn't learn his lesson at all

Darkseeker lost his Dishonor Title first, back to Harespring. Rottenheart decided he wasn't his friend anymore, just like Heathertail.

Dodderheart: "Everyone hates me except Furzepelt and Sunstrike! I'll bet they're all sitting around plotting against me right now!!"

Harespring: "aw this tunnelbun has a grumpy face like breezepelt lol"

Heather: "lol"

And so, as soon as he learned The Kin was looking for any cats who felt like the Clans had wronged them, misfits and rejects, he brought himself and his two supporters there. BIG mistake.

Mistake he spends the rest of his life regretting

Heather rightfully calls him on this when she ends up joining the Kin to learn more about her brother Darktail. "This is all garbage you put in your head! Crowfeather is a dick, and so is my dad, but you shoved me, and Hare, and even your stupid half siblings or whatever into some ridiculous narrative about how evil and hated you are! We LOVE you, can't you see that?!"

"YOU'RE the one who's blind! I killed Firestar, I tried to kill them, and only now with Darktail am I finally-"

"Being used AGAIN. He's using you. Just like Tigerstar when he wanted to get rid of Firestar."

"...thats not true you're l-lying"

"You're always being used, Breezepelt."

"No I'm not! Darktail's my friend and my leader! He sees the value in me, he says I'm going to do a lot for him, and without me the Kin wouldn't..."

Heather stares, unimpressed, before shrugging, "I'll still be here when you realize it. Will he?"

In the big breakout, Harespring is there to secure a tunnel for them all to escape with

I think it makes a good idea that it was a backup plan Heather had all along, and Hare was entrusted with making sure it was done by this day. Just in case Darktail turned out to be the lunatic they expected him to be

Brushblaze is going to go out here, too, collapsing the tunnel so they can't be followed. It's a really good end for him.

When Breezepelt comes back to WindClan, it is on their grace. Hare and Heather are both vouching on their honor that they will he responsible for his actions.

I imagine Harespring looked Onestar in the eyes when he did this. FULLY expecting to have to defend himself for working on a secret tunnel, losing Brushblaze, possibly losing his deputyship for LITERALLY undermining

But... Heathertail was saved. Breezepelt looks bedraggled and humbled, unlike what happened just about a year ago. Brushblaze made the ultimate sacrifice. Now is not the time to discuss this.

AVOS is just about to hit its climax; where Onestar steals Breezepelt's plan to drown killing Darktail.

But anyway, enough of the plot of Better Bones AVOS. Fluffy trivia time

Harestar eats his tunnelbuns like a beast. He bites clean through them, Heather and Breeze are always screaming about this

Harespring's personality is very mild, level headed, and thoughtful. He moves slowly when he's not in a hurry.

He can be pushed around under stress though. He doesn't like being under pressure for that reason, and tries to minimize situations where he's put on the spot.

In Clanmew his name is "Hare Will-Jump Up", it's a hare that thinks before it leaps.

Breezepelt appreciates how Harespring will reword things for him, when they work on communication together.

If Hare worded something in a way that set Breeze off, Breeze can just ask what he meant and Hare will say it a different way

When Harespring becomes Harestar, I like to think there are cats in the Clan who feel like Breeze is only here because of his wife and husband. And maybe he is, what're you gonna do about it? Cry?

Heather has an honest, curious personality. She likes to be respected for her intelligence and insight, being a smart person is something she values about herself.

She is not easily tricked and can be cutting if she smells bullshit. She will be rude if she thinks you're lying to her.

"Did you eat, Breep?" "Ye-" "no you fucking didn't go get food"

I don't see her as "nurturing" like others think, she's a militant carer and outgoing about what she believes to be the right thing

She's definitely the head of one of the patrols, probably Construction.

When kits come through in TBC, Breeze is the primary parent. Villain to mom pipeline

He doesn't hold a high rank in WindClan because he spent the majority of his life Being Breezepelt, and is accepting that he probably never will

And that's okay because he's currently the loyal Kitchen Head of MeadowClan and the kits have just gotten back from the harrowing death of Honeysucklestar but it's lunchtime

"Honeysucklestar too, being a corpse doesn't make you stop being hungry. Come on, up up up" Woodkit jumps up from her deathbed

Turns out he's better at caring for others than he is at caring for himself

He doesn't feel like he deserves this. Like love and happiness isn't something he should have, after everything he did and the people who are not here because of him

Yet, he persists. He's still here and, somehow, people think he's worth saving.

And maybe that's what matters. Making life better from this point forward, for everyone. In the ways he can.

#better bones au #Hareheatherbreeze #Bb!avos

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tesseract-s · 10 months ago

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NEED to know all ur thoughts on prelude to ecstasy!!

ok here are All My Thoughts, i reacted to every song lol

prelude to ecstasy Official Reaction TM

prelude:

ok i knew there was an orchestral intro but this is even more extra than i could have ever expected and a genuinely beautiful full orchestral piece!!!!

burn alive -

ok again the instrumental intro is beautiful when it’s not on a grainy youtube video. this is one of my favorites lyrically too, love the anger in this one on top of the writing. spent like half an hour on this one’s genius lyrics the other day. it’s just sooooo powerful and full and what music should be

caesar -

this is my favorite of the singles to sing and is just soooo fun 10/10 no notes (i wanted to skip it to listen to the new songs but when it got into the chorus i physically couldn’t) as someone who feels like they need to be loved and seen this song is for meeeee

the feminine urge -

ooh new voice! i wasn’t sure if they’d have abi do everyone else’s vocal parts. PROMETHEUS MENTIONED! and the title being a tumblr meme >>>>

genuinely abigail morris you deserve to go down in history. also this is my kind of talking about womanhood i definitely vibe with the eternal urge to give in to generational trauma 😜

on your side:

genuinely what can i say. if i found this song in august i would genuinely break into pieces. love georgia’s bass in this. the outtro is sooo interesting now that it transitions into BB and not sinner? very gentle and interesting as an album piece

beautiful boy:

FLUTE my beloved (played it for 4 years) also Relatable. eating the harmonies at the super quiet section before the build

gjuha:

love the meaning of this one it’s relatable lol. and auroras voice is sooooooo incredible!!!!! love the guitar in this too it’s so pretty and the shimmery acoustic really shines… YES the drop to sinner??? obsessed

sinner & MLOM

my favorite singles. i’ve never been religious why do religious trauma songs go soooo hard to me personally

portrait

beautiful driving piano line. abi sounds just like florence in this one. they’re sooo good at songs which change from section to section and this one is doing it!! i think i need to really dig into the lyrics for this one. tldp only people allowed to romanticize toxic relationships from now on!!

nothing matters

it wasn’t my favorite single but it is the worlds best choice of debut single and is rightfully a banger. unpopular opinion the verses are better than the chorus they’re genuinely perfect

mirror

IM NO GOOD UNTIL I CRY??!!?? REAL.. i think i like the more musically surprising ones but this is absolutely gorgeous and a great final track and this song about self sacrificing and feeling that you only exist for other people is um. really getting to me

ending this giant performance album with “i fade away” without your gaze is fascinating

OH MY GOD the outtro someone come get me…aurora nischevi the woman that you are someone get her composing a symphony

#the last dinner party #music #tess writes #ask #will maybe write a better reaction review thing idk

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akaakeis · 3 months ago

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literally going to kms i wrote a huge ask and it got deleted BUT IRS VERY IMPORTANT SO IM WRITINF IT AGAIN so first of all i want u to know that i am shameless and will double and triple and quadruple text u bcuz i love u

onto the main course!! i read this one fic and a reblog said something like "this is peaceful, peaceful is good" and it reminded me of u. like,, your writing is like that AND IN A GOOD WAY LEMME REPHRASE. so like! most fics have like,, something in them. explosions fireworks love hatred confessions misunderstandings u get what i mean

but urs are like. so not explosions,, so peaceful in comparison. like, reconnecting with old friends. sorry, we haven't talked in a bit. dancing in the rain. coming home. and they are like completely normal things that normal people experience and that i have experienced but for some reason you make them so special and magical ! somehow the peacefulness of it all makes it sm better. NOT SAYING THAT IF U WRITE EXPLOSIONS ILL FEEL ANY DIFFERENT AB UR WRITING IN GENERAL. but i mean your writing is familiar and warm and it's just... nothing special happens,, there's nothing life-changing going on,, and it's still so perfect and extraordinary.

um ill use my most favourite fic of all time here as an example ! The Iwa One. its less than 1k words and its just,,,,, a friend u havent seen in a long while, and u finally talk and u talk ab ur day and thats literally just it. AND SOMEHOW ITS LIKE SO

IDK GOOD?????? like idk man im fr tweaking rn but. like. your writing's about little things,,, nothing huge in the long run, just a talk with an old friend. AND YOU STILL MANAGE TO MAKE IT SO SIGNIFICANT AND SO FULL OF LOVE AND JOY AND WARMTH likr bro!!!!! ive always liked that one quote that goes,, love is in the little things but i think ur writing has given me a new perspective of it and now i love it (ur writing, the quote) even more now!!!!

erm that's all ily mwah mwah

NOOO THE LONG ASK 😞😞 sorry bb that sucks i hate when that happens but IM SO HONORED that you're literally rewriting all of that for ME?? i may cry thanks i love u

alina im literally staring at this ask like :( WHAT IF I GENUINELY CRY OVER THIS OH MY GOD!! like im so happy that it gives off that vibe because that's truly what i try to go for! im not trying to do anything particularly special? i just want to be able to give comfort through my fics <3

i genuinely want to keep this in my inbox forever and ever so that i can reread it but you at least deserve a reply from me for sending the sweetest thing ever :( like lately ive been kinda iffy abt how i feel regarding my writing but this really does make me feel better!! because knowing that someone like you (who i deem as an important voice on my writing) really likes my writing, it just makes me want to continue for you <3 im so glad i can provide u with writing to enjoy and i hope i can continue to in the long run <3 xx

thank u for this alina ily!!

#asks!!#alina ily alina #when i'm sad...#<- new tag for posts and asks i want to reread when im sad BC OF YOU!!!#my platonic soulmate literally written in the stars honeypie loml sugarplum!!

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wegonbealright-09 · 1 year ago

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ur very much a hater lmao 😭. and last anon was right, yoongi was the one who said the bb hot 100 thing, jk has neverrr said anything about his goals on that chart, even as a group, only celebrated their success after the fact, so not sure where you're getting this "sudden obsession" from. as a matter of fact, jimin has talked more ab his goals for bb than him. and he should ! theres nothing wrong with explicitly stating your goals especially when you make fire ass music that deserves to be number one, its called manifestation and putting their wants into the world. your issue is that you see the 10% of the member's lives that they choose to show us and come up with these narratives to feed your own delusions about how you feel about them and their personalities. bitter ab yoongi going on tour like it has anything to do with his enlistment ? HUH 😭😭? 2+2= fish in your head too ig. and you saying joon being bitter bc he wants to be acknowledged for the work he does... ??? see im typing this out and its just not making sense. he's always done that before they even got instagram, AS HE SHOULD because it's HIS work and if he wants to make a post ab writing some lyrics then he can and you saying he's bitter for doing that is extremely odd. as for tae, be fucking fr lol. u sound like the type to get mad if a member didnt make a happy birthday post like they dont have each others literal phone numbers and addresses. and tae did support jimin's solo songs multiple times on weverse, but you ignore that bc it doesnt fit your narrative. get out your mind, take a walk outside, and come to the realization that you dont know these people and making up these negative narratives ab their personalities is oddball behaviour to say the least. and lastly, joon and suga have nothing to be bitter about. theyre part of the biggest group in the world. their albums are critically acclaimed. this second chapter of bts has brought out the worst in people like you because you constantly try to make it a competition between the members, and theyre not letting you do that bc they actually support each other and congratulate each other in their accomplishments, whether they post it online for fans to see or not. at the end of the day bts trumps all, which is what all 7 members have said and have been saying🤷🏾‍♀️and people like you are just gonna have to suck it up or unstan bc the negativity and d! ck measuring contests are not it and goes against anything bts have ever said about each other.

Anon I should let you write my history essays you know, :⁠-⁠)

Me a hater? Excuse me?

You anon you are the type that goes to posts about jimin stans and qrt " jimin would hate y'all, he's die for his members and put you on fire" every time they trust to address the injustice but okay.

Jk has talked about the billboard he's not even manifesting he knows it it'll lend on his lap because scooter has made sure if that. That man doesn't even shit about his upcoming album he doesn't know shit he's just going to accept it and move on like he did with seven. And lmfao. I'm not obsessed with jk, I've had this blog for such a long time but i didn't post anything I only followed people and interacted in post you can click to see which posts I've liked and who do I follow. But anon I got tired of everyone here acting ignorant like they don't see what's going on, like " yhea we've got some jikook crumbs let's not address the payola and fraud that is going on". I'm not obsessed far from it, this dude lately just pops up in feed and annoys the fuvk out of me, something he's never did before. And also jk is chart obsessed lately even some of his fans can see you don't fine by me.

Jimin never talked about his BB goals like what do you mean. That man wanted to release face as a free album on sound cloud because he felt like this is his story and he wants fans, and everyone to be able to hear it and relate and see the world from his point of view, so you tell me anon you tell me. Jimin didn't even think that like crazy was going to number on he was impressed with how well smf pt2 did because guess what he didn't expect that as well. So idk what you tryna say anon.

I agree I don't know what's going on with their lives. I didn't say I'm telling the truth here or some like that my posts are based on my opinions and observations. If me not agreeing with what most of y'all think is being called delusional girl I've been delulu i still think jimin is going to release and album with Bruno Mars as a featured artist or him and Bruno are going to pay homage to MJ someday so yhea I am delulu.

Birthdays are no big deals I myself I don't celebrate my own birthday and just like jimin I give zero fucks about my birthday. Okay anon I admit I was wrong it's okay for ones best friend to not congratulate him on social media platforms when he had just did the impossible and made history and decides to do so privately only when it comes to them, it's totally okay.

I'm not even going to talk about yoongi and Joon because this I've said what I've said. I'm not backtracking you can go throw yourself off a cliff idc

I thought you said everyone's entitled to their own opinion but now that I'm expressing mine I must touch some grass and take a walk. How about you snap back to reality huh? As I've said if when you see BTS you see rainbows sunshine's and clouds that's okay but I don't and I'm not tryna force my opinions on people I'm just saying what I think and feel and I might be wrong idc it's just how I feel.

Anon I'm not laughing I swear. You know I'm not a hater I've said that in the second chapter there's been a shift in the group's energy and I'm standing on that. Your last sentences wooo anon you're the one to say what I'm doing goes against what bts have said to each other. So is what's jk is going with the fraud and payola but I don't see you ranting and calling him out, he's going against everything that BTS has ever believed in, the legacy they've created, the image they've built. For what? A few records that some western artist is going to break again with more payola than him. If you look as scooters old interviews about Gangnam Style and all. Jk is just a puppet to his show, he hates jimin more than he's ever did because he has a break through in the western market as soloist without his help, he sis what he could do with Gangnam even after all that promotion on his own with little to no promotion

But hey this is just my opinion I don't want to sound" obsessed" so this is the last time I'm talking about jk.

Anon neither you know what's going on behind closed doors but if you like to act ignorant fine by me my opinion and yours are different anyway thank you for visiting my blog and having the nerve to tell me to touch some grass on my own blog smh

#jm #jimin #jk #jeon jungkook #bts

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thefreshprinceofjunes · 2 years ago

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well since today is apparently a RANT POST kind of day, im gonna type up some thoughts ive had on vanitas ive wanted to get out of my system (i dont like him)

i realize expending energy on smth negative doesnt help anyone, but its the sort of thing ive had eating at my brain, and im hoping writing it down will allow me to stop thinking about it so much lol (luv having ocd alongside being autistic)

i do not understand the love for vanitas. i really dont.

and im not talking about fans who like him bc hes edgy sora. theyre villain fuckers. i get that.

i mean i dont understand how many people legitimately think hes a sympathetic character with more depth than just, like, being an asshole.

and before anyone says anything, yes, i know the bbs novel goes into his backstory, and makes it really tragic.

but kh3 did absolutely no job whatsover of incorporating any of that into his scenes in the game. he just comes off as the same big asshole that caused nothing but pain and suffering for the wayfinder trio in bbs

like all of the members of the real organization had some sort of redeeming moment before they died again, except for him. to me it felt like he just flipped off ven and sora and went, ‘haha fuck you guys i LOVE being darkness and i LOVE being evil see yall fucking later’, even as sora was trying to reach out to him

(yes i realize theres smth involving the translation of this scene, but im just gonna go off the english dub rn)

and. it sounds really petty. and a sign i might take shipping too seriously.

but i keep thinking about this shit because tumblr keeps recommending an artist on here that draws so/vani + vani/ku + so/ri/vani

and i cannot wrap my mind around those ships at ALL

even besides vanitas having soras face, why in gods name would a pure, sweet, innocent boy like him want to date just. the biggest douchebag??

and riku??? the one desperately in love with sora???? THAT riku??? dating a boy who looks like sora but is the exact opposite of him in terms of personality???????

its like. doing a disservice to both of their characters to have them involved with him IMO. like why would they ever. theyre so much better than him. they DESERVE better.

again. i know its just shipping and i know ppl are having fun. i recognize theyre not hurting anyone. and they often make up aus specifically to fit their ships. but i just.

i do not get it, man. vanitas sucks.

(its worth mentioning i am bitter also bc i always see ppl call xion [my fav female character and like second or third fav character overall] the most pointless/shoehorned character in kh. and i just wanna be like. excuse me, have you SEEN vanitas???)

#this is 100% me just venting and ranting #just let me have this okay #honestly i just get uncomfortable seeing anyone besides sora shipped with riku at this point lmao #which is silly i know but. brain do that

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peaceeandcoolestvibes · 25 days ago

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Seriously why are any of yall even dating scorpios like if I find out someone’s a scorpion I don’t want them around and I certainly wouldn’t touch them with a stick LMFAO rams don’t waste time

Fr nobody likes them 🙌🏾 if you do you’re probably as insecure and shallow as they are

There was one in class the past year or so and she thought I was mad that I wasn’t invited to her bday party when I didn’t even talked to her

I made friends and she wasn’t even in my circle and then she came back crawling and started to get closer or talk and hug and ask for help and it was like

Girl ion care or even wanna be friends, stay awesome. Like I get invited EVERYWHERE LMAO, chill and get over yourself (she later on confessed) (didn’t even wish her a happy bday, like isn’t it clear that I don’t care lol)

They think they’re the center of everyone’s universe and ofc I ignored her 99% of the time 🥴 I was not surprised when she said she had like 2 friends ,, no wonder bbs

A colleague said oh well we get along great idk (this chick is a sag but it’s like YALL sags are kinda dumb sometimes bc you excel @ things and almost everyone is clearly taking advantage of you and you’re happy and feel like a savior bc of that??? Like where’s the pair of balls yall are supposed to have. Sags have big flaws and one of them is people taking advantage and them being happy about it like uM pls love yourselves #SelfEsteemIssues- thank god she didn’t say they were friends bc I would’ve been like SHUT UP) and I said out loud every time how much I don’t like her,,, it’s the vibes and shit 🩷 like more than one time she asked me which pic should she post on instagram and I didn’t even follow her

Shallow as hell 💯

#WeAreNotCompatibleStopTrynnaMakeItHappen

Like Pisces and cancer are also a big no but cancer women and men always befriend me and as long as I don’t date them it’s ‘fine’. Same w Pisces. If someone asks me out and I find out they’re a water sign after my first ex I CAREFULLY analyze my options :) which means No

If I’m not mistaken, a professor I also don’t like was a Scorpio and she was the laziest sis I’ve ever seen. Not wanting to do the classes, skipping them with dumb ass reasons and also wanting me to date his buddy, aka another professor dropping dumb ass hints (we’re all around the same age) bc well I’m awesome and he’s unable to utter a word in my presence and them being just embarrassing together like im- #YallWeird

She also had the worst personality ever (legit it made me throw up), dictator like and while I liked her in the beginning bc they all like me and want me to do shit and represent them and whatever dumb shit,, the personality was a big turn off and I ended up ignoring her and not even saying hi when I was supposed to say it back like I literally don’t like yall scorpios and I hope yall understand the message here lmao,, I even complained about her openly like one thing about us Aries is we’re very open about our opinions NADHKAJSSK we don’t care and we’ll say out loud what everyone is thinking (even went to this guy who wants to date me bc his main issue is his arrogance and his niceness only towards me and a couple of other people,, to the rest he’s a rude ass idiot so I told him and he felt embarrassed and tried to give me excuses like I legit said

I complained about this girl but what about you? You rude ass bitch, the way u talk to people is unacceptable 🤨🤨

He went mute

PERIODT

Another professor apologized for his behavior,, in the end that’s and seems a hella toxic workplace and you get infected bc I really really liked him last year,, (mi prima trabaja allí y ya os confirmo q es TÓXICO el ambiente laboral porque llevaba tiempo sin verla y la vi demacrada y quemada y mira q Cris es siempre el alma de la fiesta. Ella y mi primo leo 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 Cristina, no es por nada pero lo da mil vueltas a todos los profes de allí porque lo sé obviamente jUASS y por como es y luego mi prima Ceci! Que siempre está allí 🎈🎈🎈 siempre nos trae regalos 🎁 ella y mi madre parecen gemelas) in fact he was one of my favourites. In the end u end up not liking any of them DUE TO THEIR BEHAVIOR (one thing after another) but mad respect bc he apologized. Thing he was the only one. He was your typical Aquarius (male Aquarius I’ve met are intelectual humble and v v nice,, as a teenager I hardcore liked one so yeah). I sometimes really like them esp dudes but girls? Nah they’re usually very very detached from life and pretty much horrible people. I have a couple of friends but we’re friends bc they’re different than these types

No judgment towards humans but when u don’t like someone for xyz reasons and then u find out they’re a Scorpio, it’s like a 2x1 deal,,, they’re unbearable, they ALWAYS take advantage of people and think they’re powerful when Aries is the powerful one 💯

Luego oH ES QUE SHARI NI ME MIRA NI ME HABLA LADJSI COMO COÑO OS VOY A HABLAR SI APENAS OS RESPETO POR VUESTRO COMPORTAMIENTO DE NIÑO PEQUEÑO O NIÑA PEQUEÑA Y SUS RESPECTIVAS PATALETAS QKFKSLDKSIDSINCOMO SI TUVIÉRAMOS AQUÍ 3 AÑOS MENTALES

#only Scorpio I like is leris #she fabulous #I end up ghosting any Scorpio I unfortunately have to be around #like some try to befriend u but they’re fake as shit #like I don’t even care tbh so I ghost #they somehow end up reaching out but I literally never wanna be friends #doesn’t happen with the other 11 signs so there’s that #I actually laughed at this post MANDALDBSNDBSNSDJ #other thing I wanna say is if someone ghosts you it doesn’t mean they love you they’re a coward or unevolved #it means they don’t wanna waste any time and they obviously don’t care about you #🤙🏾#confidence is knowing when to say NO

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sapphictigress · 11 days ago

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Episode 8

Really Lukas? gonna write down all the stairs???

Harper you really do be such a liar

I'm about to be the worlds biggest Kiss ass to everyone

Harper what the fuck why you gotta be so snarky like dude whadda hell

I honestly do like the nod to old minceraft minigames, sad theres no TNT Run u-u

Im out here stabbing bitches

Ope, Sorry Ivor, Bye

Bye Ivor... (l8r loserrrs)

Oh Petra.. Didnt mean to... drop in on top of you like this....

shut up about your bitchass tim

YEAH WELL WHAT WAS THE PLAN HARPER >:|

Hi Nell, Sorry for stabbing youuuu

i wanna talk to- PEBRA! Pebra.. Hii~ Heh... You dont need to sweet talk me .////.

IM SORRY FOR MAKING YOU WORRY BEBE I LOVE YOU I JUST WANTED A NICE STORY

I JUST,, I REALLY WANTED THAT CLIMACTIC FIGHT QMQ

YIPPIEE

Its Snowing

Leave me the fuck alone fuckass

Love you queen

C'mon bb gurl lets go

I suck at this

Reminds me of the Grinder days eh? Heh Grinder Days- Im sorry

MY BODDYYYYYY!

MY QUEEN NO

She's got that sexy diamond pickaxe on her thooooo Wait is that the Lapis Lazuli that Ivor gave her though?? ALSO I love that she has sticks in her inventory :333333

My babyyygirl

Sorry pal, im busy kissing ass for Lukas's book

Its smelly because you're in there man (Sorry not sorry)

wheres my girlfriend @

Im sorry for disappointing you peptra....

Gotta get shit in writing yo

Y'all i suck ass at charisma checks (I did it fine i just have no confidence behind my choices)

A dummy Idiot

Hi Nell

Honestly dont got commentary for the fight lol

The Cheesiest shit ever... I couldnt have done it without Petra... and Lukas... Ivor was okay too

#sapphy speaks #MCSM LiveBlog #Sapphy Rambles about Petra: 20 Hour Edition

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thank u for your advice clari about my paper and my professor. i actually did end up emailing him the night it was due (so yesterday lol) just telling him it was gonna be late bc of new issues. i didn’t mention an extension or a late penalty bc honestly that was less important to me than his opinion of me as a student and a peer. he was very nice and asked for me to check in and although i did have a mini meltdown 😭😭 i finished the paper and turned it in today and i saw him at a school event and we talked and it was very normal and fun still and he said he wanted to keep in contact as we both move on from my school (im graduating lol) so thank u 😭😭 it’s so funny that u had a similar experience bc i was worried about my concerns sounding silly so thank u for sharing :)) you’re right one paper doesn’t determine my worth and reaching out is so much more rewarding than internalizing stuff and shutting down 🫶🏼 ty ty

aw i am so proud of you bb!!! that’s so awesome, i hope you feel proud of yourself as well, for being brave and pushing through the fear!!! <3 no oh my gosh i would never ever think your concerns are silly!! i completely understand valuing your school, your work, your education and the esteemed opinion of people who matter to you!!! listen, you want to hear silly??? i had a full breakdown over getting a 75 on an assignment in my third year of uni LMAOOO (i wish i was exaggerating) >.<

oh my gosh!!!!!! star anon!!!!!!! please i am tearing up it is such a treat to hear from you again (despite the circumstances!)!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ you will always hold an extra special place in my heart, because you were my first named anon ever. you have been here since the very start—thank you so much for sticking with me, even if it’s just dropping by to occasionally check on me!!! that means the whole world to me, and i am so happy to have you by my side <3 i love u sm!!!!

#this blog holds such a special place in my heart so!!!#and you know i just genuinely love writing so so so much #and being able to share my work with everyone <33 and offer people some entertainment or fun or comfort through my work!!!#aaaah i'm getting SO sappy waaaah >.<#ily ily ily #i hope your weekend is going well!!! <33 #go drink some water for me okay? <3 #star anon #clari gets mail #star.anon #i can't remember which tag i used hahaha

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pinkadork · 1 year ago

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Tw; abuse, breakup rant, emotions:

I love you even if you're right in hating me. I fucked off hard. Either never being "there" in the day to day or worse being there, and being mad from jumping to conclusions all the time. My sarcasm would end up more spiteful than i cared to correct and even got mad when called out on. Alot of situations i never feel like i "snap" wheyer thats true or not. This has just been me. Everyday either intoxicated, aggravated, or devastated. When it did get physical because im yelling my head off and now I've made you unsafe, instead of realizing or seeing that i caused it, i just end up responding like you ARE trying to kill me. I'm not thinking about how much bigger i am, or againnthe fact that this is another situation i brought on myself and by association you, its like all i can think about is you not hitting me. Then i used to feel like me not hitting you back was me being the right even when what I'd do instead end up worse(who'd of thought trying to restrain a person in panic wouldn't go well/s).

It never mattered where we started to me because if how it ended and after awhile i felt the same way post breakup. I didn't wanna lose any and all ties i had to you. So whenever we would talk for especially how we talked it felt like we were working it out, maybe it skewed how i thought you felt about how things played out and not just that day but the entirety of your 3 years here. I did think we could've made it, still do to the smallest inkling but like, and im sorry if im just still an ass atp, you used to irritate my soul to the point it'd feel intentional. It felt like after a certain point you got off on it, just to shame me when it crossed into a point of unsexy jealousy. Some things we argued about felt like you wanted to argue for the sake of justifying leaving. Wheter true or not there were and technically more recently have been times where you're clearly mad at me and either wont say anything snd just be passive aggressive or you empty the clip like you were holding back every bad feeling youve ever had about me back and then make it my fault you did that. By the end of our relationship you told everyone you got out of an abusive relationship and lowkey paraded around like a DV survivor. I showed my ass mentally and then surprise surprise, i had to get medicated on more than weed and get in therapy because yeah i am big reason my relationship ended even if i dont agree with the reasons said. Yeah i tried sfter getting in therapy to shoot my shot and it didnt work. Just because im stuck in my lovey dovey shit didnt mean you had to for shit. Im so over the story that i just kept begging for you to come back when even when i was in my most "i miss you bb and think we should work it out" the thought of living with you again so soon makes my skin crawl and much rather have did visits and vc and also i felt i needed to figure more personal shit out to not be ass mad all the time or present that thats what i was.

I was fine loving you from afar while i worked on myself and did whatever needed to be done and could be done to make everything not like it was but not fucking dog shit.

After the last time we talked, i ended just mad at myself for being mad at you then. I could feel how much i thought you thought you were "slick" or "really thought you was cute with that one" like i understand youre angry and how you feel even if again i know we dont and probably wont ever agree on that shit. I understood it. So when youre out here clearly trying to hurt me because you're hurt and tired of me atp why was that even a concern of mine?

The real reason i dont try firing back isnt because i truly beilieve that yes im an abuser and just satan himself, but really because theres no denying theres been too many times i acted and reacted without much thought or consideration and i feel thats worse. Abusers go out there way to do whatever but whatever the fuck i am can just like happen. I still think im abusive.

Its hard not too at this point. At base level im a hothead that yells alot, i overreact to minor grievances, and max i kick holes in walls and sit on my partner.

I could explain that again but like would the explanation make the outcome different?

I dont know what this was whatever

Im sorry

#pinkadorkdiaries #bpd vent #breakup vent

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punkscowardschampions · 1 year ago

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Cali & Marly & Group Chat & Barly

Ali: [Private to Carly, probably the day after the Johnny kiss and leave drama because you’re needing the rest of the day to try and process that]

Ali: I’ve made [some kind of diet treat Carly’s mother would approve of, probably vaguely alcoholic, full hun behaviour, you know the drill] to say thank you to [said mother] I’ll drop them on my route, if that’s cool

Carly: its grand she’ll be 😁🥰🤗 but you know u didnt need to worry yourself saying nothing 💛👼🌟🧚‍♀️✨🐝🌞💛🌻 she loves u its never no bother

Ali: ah this was no bother neither, besides, it was properly short notice yesterday and I wasn’t feeling the 🌞

Carly: 🥺☔️😢🌈

Carly: Im here if you wanna talk about the 🌞💛 going

Ali: I should’ve prepared for it, I thought I had

Ali: he was okay, better than that, even but it still was hard to see, you know?

Carly: I dont reckon theres no preparing for some things baby, much as I hate it for u

Ali: I reckon you’re right 🐇

Ali: and maybe I’m just being judgmental, sure, is he any more out his head than we get when we want or need?

Ali: Just looks different in a hospital

Carly: I shouldve put aside the fear theyd lock me up & come w you, I’m sorry

Carly: Im being a bad friend of late like

Ali: You never are, there’s been lots going on in your 🌍 too

Carly: nothing that matters like you reconnecting w your brother its massive & 🌍🌱

Ali: It should be

Ali: and it is, one of those things you thought would feel bigger and 💗 though, I think

Ali: I’m going to go see him regularly now so

Carly: ah sure it was only the 1st visit though you’ve to give it time for your magic to work is what mine’s saying 💙🔮💜

Ali: I’ll be ready next time, you’re right 🎯

Carly: & I’m serious about coming if youve need of it, phobia or no, ILY more than I could ever be scared

Ali: You’ll make me cry, in my fragile state

Ali: I wish your mum liked better baked goods so you could enjoy them more too now 🥺🥺

Carly: I cant be risking myself going to shit for 🍩🥧🍪🧁 physical state of me is as fragile as your emotional 😅

Ali: You’re perfect, I hope Moses is reminding you

Carly: you’ll make me 😳🍨

Carly: only u cos u know hes not saying things to me like how you are

Ali: but he makes you feel it, or as close to it as any of us do

Carly: he makes me feel alive

Carly: maybe cos hes after killing me most the time ❤️💜💙 idk but still

Ali: We like alive

Ali: 💀💀💀 only in the good ways

Carly: hes pure class @ them ways, give the lad that

Ali: And he’s still looking after you, how we said, yeah?

Carly: ive not been 🔥💀👻 yet

Ali: Did you tell your ma what was said, what did she reckon about it all?

Carly: sure look we all reckon bb’s full of it 👶😭 she says he’ll calm if go for him next 💚

Ali: I don’t wanna 🌍☄️ but I had heard talking that it might be a bit more serious than that, could be

Carly: nobody grown’s talking, never are or [her mum] would be 🔥💀👻 donkey’s back for her carry on 😅

Carly: its yer man there cos I’ll not tell him hes a ride & I love him

Ali: What if it is about her carry on too, like it’s all being counted now

Carly: my da’s to be counted for us not having been moved on, his 👻 & her craic for what a decent non gorja fella he were 🙃 its k

Ali: Do the elders buy it, like 🌹✨

Carly: ah no but long as he no shows to claim hes true some fella working down the kebab or the like, what are they to say?

Carly: if she don’t have the knowing herself who he is they cant tell her who he isnt

Ali: You’ve a point 🤞

Carly: he could be a traveller sure as not 🌹✨ I like to think its so

Ali: He’s left it sos he could be anyone to you

Carly: if only for the wind up of em lads I deserve it

Ali: Serious

Carly: will we talk about yours?

Ali: My daddy?

Ali: I’m not sure I like where that’s going 😆

Carly: you’re gas but u know well I mean your boy there who was after taking you for joe til he wasnt

Ali: I don’t know what to say about it, or him

Carly: you could start yourself on whats the meaning of the one way cos you didnt walk to [the name of the place where the psych ward is]

Ali: We got that far, like

Ali: can’t make much chit-chat on a bike going [whatever ‘cos undoubtedly you’re speeding, not meant to be on it anyhow at your age]

Carly: & he got himself 😤😠 over what when yous came off for being there?

Ali: God, nothing more tragic than recounting your failed attempts at flirting, is there? 😶💀

Ali: That was before, then we left it, he said he’d still take us but he shouldn’t of

Carly: I’m sorry he dont know you’re perfect or how 🐇🍀🌠 hes youve an eye for him out of everyone u could have your pick of

Ali: I know it’s stupid, how much he hates us but he doesn’t stick to it, my head is still spinning

Carly: hes ✂️ from same cloth as mosey to be sure, my god that boy hates me til he dont I feel 😵‍💫 its work making him like me at all

Ali: at least you’ve found a way, I feel clueless now

Carly: your body isnt gonna be the thing for johno, well it is but he wont say thats as true as it is for any lad, he’ll act hes 😤😠 if you send him pics or throw yourself his way

Ali: He threw his self at me

Ali: then he was really 😤😠

Carly: oh now theres sense

Ali: Shall we just run away and never think about them again?

Carly: away w ye for 💭 youll let him win

Carly: hows he to get what he wants & not you? I reckon not, baby, we’ll be staying 🌼🌻

Ali: 😣

Ali: Ack, it was so good

Carly: I know, I felt your 😣 before u put it there

Ali: He’s after being good, doing what he needs to do

Carly: ah, it’s a con, hes allowed to fuck gorja girls morning to night, theyre all allowed to do as they please from cradle to grave its only the girls who cant

Ali: Then he’s just not after me 😒🤕

Carly: its that hes after stopping the others being w me & he cant if hes on you

Carly: its my fault im sorry

Ali: He shouldn’t be so concerned with telling them their business, that’s him, not you

Carly: hes always reckoned im a manky wagon idk, that’s on [her mum] maybe, but she’d be sorry for it to u too if she had the knowing

Ali: Please don’t, this has got to stay between us only 🔒

Carly: 😶🤞💛 id never say a word to hurt u or stand against something youre after

Carly: id rid myself of my 👅 1st & ive much need of it

Ali: I can’t have that

Ali: ✂️ away, it’s all his loss, not ours

Carly: what are we to do then?

Ali: 💭☁️👻🦷🤍

Ali: Party

Carly: grand ive caught the 🌞 enough to look unreal in 🤍

Ali: I don’t mind looking ghostly and fading into the background

Carly: oh please you could never fade & yer man john boy isnt gonna have you reckoning its so

Ali: if he’s a 🐺 Ro is like, a husky

Carly: hes a 🐜 sorry

Ali: ☹️ ughhh

Carly: you can pick what moses is to 🌻😁🌞💛 yourself some idc

Ali: 🦟 is the only suitably rude comparative

Carly: I love it 😅

Carly: he does make me 🩸🍓❤️ sure enough

Ali: Are we to be ashamed of our awful taste 👅

Ali: I’m all scuffed and scraped and I just want to see him again so badly

Carly: Shames for folk like your poor daddy who’ve no say being born to it & keeping it in em 💔🙏📿⛪️💔 you’re wild & free 🐅🧡

Carly: we’ll get him for u 💜🔮💙 he wants it as bad theres no for proper y not

Ali: I don’t know but being wild and free will help me get over it otherwise 🐅🧡

Ali: don’t need to force it 🧘‍♀️

Carly: ive known the boy forever I know what he likes its why he hates me this much

Ali: We’re the same, in his 👀🌍

Carly: he wishes but he cant 👀 u like that cos we’re not & hes 😤😠😡

Ali: You’re great, he’s an idiot

Carly: hes not wrong for that 💭

Carly: I’m 🌚 to your 🌞

Ali: 🌇🌃

Ali: Can I stay when I swing by? I’m doing nothing here except over💭

Carly: u dont ever need to be asking

Ali: Usually but I’m 😣😖 rn

Carly: its k ill 💭 how to calm you down

Ali: 🍃💚

Carly: on your 🚲 w ye 🧚🏼‍♀️💚

Ali: 💨💨

Carly: [just putting a note here that we’re doing a timeskip so it’s some time before Ronan’s bday not immediately after the convo we just did or when we read it back in the future we’ll be like ?? what]

Carly: u @ work still?

Moses: thereabouts

Carly: 🥺 til when?

Moses: Don’t know, not like wes work to a schedule or to anyone’s pockets but our own

Carly: yea k true

Moses: then we’re going out, it’s [some club night, idk]

Carly: wes being only the lads is it?

Moses: Not the elders, like

Moses: except for [the cringe uncle, we all know the vibes]

Moses: You wouldn’t get in anyway

Carly: i’m not after the - craic from [cringe uncle] you’re grand 😅

Moses: That I am 👍

Carly: later then like

Moses: Don’t wait up

Carly: tell your mammy that one there

Moses: I don’t still live with mine

Carly: mine would get us in

Moses: I’m after her craic just as much

Carly: i got you, boy unless weve 💪🍆 youre not after us coming

Moses: No one is after taking lasses to the club, just taking ‘em home

Carly: how I said ⬆️ ive worked out what the craic is

Moses: Your mam ain’t it

Carly: she’ll be 💔🥺💔😢💔😭💔 youre her fave

Moses: Like you, she don’t have them

Carly: ah sure u know youre mine too

Moses: Give over

Carly: why are u giving out about it? u like it

Moses: That’s not what we are, let’s not play that game

Carly: idk why u want what we are is to be us not liking each other

Moses: we like each other for what we need to

Carly: yea & youre giving me what I need so youre my fave

Moses: When I’ve got nothing or no one better on, ‘course

Carly: k no its your turn to give over cos i drop what I’ve on for you all the time

Moses: yeah and you wanna, not asking you more than once

Carly: yea I wanna cos I like you y are u 😤😠 @ me for it today?

Moses: I’m busy

Carly: sorry ill ��💙 til youre less 🌺🐝🍯

Moses: [just don’t respond rudely]

Carly: [he’s a charmer, go have your own fun girl either with Ali or with Drew and Caleb or all of the above, you’ll be posting about it making him mad but not to make him mad, not even for his benefit really cos we’re trying to be chill about this and keep busy too]

Moses: [when you always do the wrong thing, god bless girl, love that for you]

Carly: [hope you’re FUMING sir, couldn’t be more deserved]

Moses: [setting up the lovely atmosphere for this party nicely mwahaha]

Carly: [poor Ronan, between Moses and Johnny that’s half these lads that don’t wanna be at his bday]

Moses: [I imagine this is standard, someone’s always got beef with someone, you just don’t know why until Moses just tells you he’s bored of Carly and throws her at you]

Carly: [clearly these boys are always kicking off at each other about something the way these type will]

Moses: [mhmm, god bless the mess, constant source of drama]

Moses: [anyway, hi groupchat at Ronan’s party, here we go]

Moses: Birthday boy, where are you 🎁

Ronan: [Wherever he is], me and Ali…

Ronan: should I be legging it from this 🎁 of yours?

Moses: Best get rid of her, you’ll like it but you won’t want the audience

Ronan: Do I even like the sound of it?

Moses: Come on, you can’t be a baby about it now, big man

Ronan: Ah, what’s going on, to be sure I don’t know what you’re giving a lash here

Moses: Presents are meant to be surprises, play the game

Ronan: Yeah, true enough, I’ll play

Moses: Go on over to my trailer, everyone’s been booted ‘cept 1

Ronan: [when he is just gonna go because bless this boy he’s a bit slow on the uptake here]

Moses: [me like God I hope you went alone]

Ronan: [I feel like he would’ve because he was told to, oh boy I’m so soz that this is occurring, like you could say no, Carly isn’t gonna force you THAT hard but still]

Moses: [you know if you walked out immediately that he’d know/Lord knows who else would know you hadn’t done it and this is peer pressure as we can all see here]

Moses: You’re welcome, brother

Ronan: [also he wouldn’t wanna reject Carly like that cos they are friends and she was his first kiss when they were younger as Carly said so walking out immediately like ew no would be brutal, and yeah, the peer pressure and pisstaking would feel worse and last longer than just getting this over with from his POV]

Ronan: Thanks a million, Mosey boy

Carly: no need to say it to me too & make yourself 😳

Moses: As you can see, you’ve done us a massive favour too 👌👌

Carly: wow 😍🥰😘

Carly: thanks I get from u there boy

Moses: You got yours

Carly: yea, your brother is glad of my massive favours idk how hes been raised better than you 😅

Moses: Give him chance to go get something better, he’s had five minutes 🍒

Ronan: Come on, give over will yous

Carly: im sorry ro, mosey has no party spirit idk where hes left it like

Moses: Don’t be speaking for me

Moses: You enjoy your party, kid

Carly: ❤️😶💙 then you can stop being after falling out w me both of yous

Ronan: I’m not, Carls

Moses: There you go

Carly: there I go, yea 🥳🎀🎊✨🎉🎆🎇

Moses: s’good thing you’re not kept around for your brain

Carly: whats the damage w yours?

Moses: How off her face was you mam whilst you were inside her, it’s genuinely not possible to be this thick and not a little special with it, Christ

Carly: go & ask her as youre on one to ruin the party so bad

Moses: I’d sooner pluck my eyes out than talk to that woman

Carly: 🙄 & you tell me I lay it on thick

Moses: If anyone at this party liked either of yous, they’d send you both home

Ronan: Quit this carry on, can’t yous both? As a favour to me

Carly: do you want me away home, ro?

Ronan: You’re grand where you are, but what’s the need to be giving it out & slagging each other, eh?

Carly: I’m sorry for proper, its your bday & this is - craic

Moses: Because she is one, and that’s the only reason she’s ever been tolerated anywhere

Moses: I’m not here to play pretend but you use her ‘til it’s boring, that was the 🎁

Bartley: [Private to Carly after this group chat of delight]

Bartley: Did you go home?

Carly: go on & tell me yourself too I was waiting for it

Bartley: was just going to tell you I saw them driving off in [one of the older lad]’s van

Bartley: so, you don’t have to, if you don’t want

Carly: whats to stay for ive been opened thats all any of yous want

Bartley: Not everyone, don’t be such a bighead about it, like

Carly: johno dont count & its everyone but that lad

Bartley: not everyone was in that group chat and not everyone wants to ride you

Carly: k there I am told again

Bartley: God, I’m just trying to help

Carly: why

Bartley: That was pretty embarrassing

Carly: you know ive no shame, I’ll be grand

Bartley: It’s not optional, you always say it like it is

Carly: wasnt optional for a girl like me to have none, what they say

Bartley: my point exactly

Bartley: Anyway, Ronan did say you could stay, even if he didn’t stand up for you

Carly: yea, what I’ve no got in shame I make up for in other shit

Bartley: I don’t want to hear about it

Carly: sure, you didn’t open your mouth neither

Bartley: and say what?

Bartley: You did do it, he’s the one you did it with, it should be him if it’s anyone

Carly: sure look idk youre here saying u wanna help me now when it dont matter

Bartley: I was just telling you you didn’t have to go hide and cry

Carly: you would say that

Bartley: what are you on about?

Carly: your go next, we can do it rn if you want

Bartley: I told you not everyone wants you, shut up

Bartley: sure, isn’t Ro your boyfriend now

Carly: come on, none of yous can be my bf even if he was after it being like that & hes not

Bartley: That doesn’t mean you have to act out like that

Carly: everyones forgot w how theyre acting but its a party 🥳🎀🎊✨🎉🎆🎇

Bartley: and you’re not a gift

Carly: youre not opening me, youve said

Bartley: Why would you let them do that

Carly: its his bday

Carly: ali not dont mean he should stay 🍒 if he dont want

Bartley: so you just, be what he says you are, that’s your grand scheme to get out of feeling a giant eejit over it all

Carly: I’m not sorry unless ro wants me to be & says it

Carly: i was his first kiss why shouldnt i be his first for this too

Bartley: ‘cos you didn’t want him to be your first, he’s not as stupid as he looks

Carly: nor am I but ali dont want him to be hers

Carly: he couldve waited it werent like I held him down, how am I to when hes least twice the size of me?

Carly: but no, wes friends so he did it, best me over some random girl moses decides instead

Bartley: How, how’s it better it’s you?

Bartley: It’s been how long and you’re already moving on, trying to, why would anyone want it to be you when you’re like that

Carly: he trusts me, no need for you to bother yourself with doing

Carly: that lad knows I’ll never say nothing about what we did or didnt do, he can say what he likes & be the big man for it or whoever else he’s after people reckoning he is

Bartley: ‘Cept it weren’t your decision, Moses told you to do it and then told everyone the exact time and location it happened so

Bartley: already proved not true but why would you take any responsibility for that when you can just blame him

Carly: I wouldntve done it only on his say

Carly: I did it cos I like ro how I told you before I like all of yous

Bartley: You act stupid so blame can go the same way as shame

Carly: blame for what? whatve I done so wrong

Bartley: Just let Moses treat Ro like a little bitch, for tonight

Bartley: it is meant to be a party, haven’t got the rest to write you a list

Carly: I cant get between ro & mosey, none of yous

Carly: idk what would happen to me but itd be no party

Bartley: Aren’t you though?

Carly: how

Bartley: Come on

Bartley: you’ve literally got under them both, how’d you work out that’s a safe and good idea then?

Carly: Moses is done w me & now I’m not safe

Carly: the good ideas to give ro what he wants for his bday hes a decent lad

Bartley: He was never gonna keep you safe

Carly: he said he would, travellers keep to their word, no?

Bartley: sure and what reason would he have to lie

Bartley: A ‘nice’ stereotype is still just that, like sure all black lads LOVE how you’re obsessed with what’s going on in their pants

Carly: sure I know one who does but hey

Carly: you rub your salt in boy idc it already hurts

Bartley: I’m just being honest

Carly: & I was being stupid, no need to worry yourself with the telling of me

Bartley: Someone should

Carly: everyone is, its enough to knock a girl 🤢🤮

Bartley: but not enough to make a girl listen, like

Carly: I can hear you loud & clear

Bartley: hearing ain’t always hearing though

Carly: I’m sorry I’m not a good traveller girl how you & johno wish

Carly: or a gorja girl who’ll go away

Bartley: trust me, no one wants you to be one of us

Bartley: least of all him

Bartley: Just don’t be a bad person, not much to ask of anyone, surely

Carly: I didnt know I was a bad person until yous all started saying

Bartley: I never said you was the only one I know

Carly: least however alone I feel tonight im sure in good company there now

Bartley: Come on now

Bartley: sites full

Carly: but I wasnt supposed to join em even if I couldnt for proper beat em, not for the crime of liking people

Bartley: Have you ever had a friend? You know this isn’t what you do with them, yeah

Carly: theres no sense in that youre to have fun w your friends, make them 😁

Carly: give em gifts on their bday

Bartley: Friends do not fuck

Carly: fwb has it there 1st letter

Bartley: This isn’t America, or a romcom

Carly: k he isnt my friend, you 😁?

Bartley: He is though

Carly: yea

Carly: what am I to say? I was trying to help him

Bartley: right…

Carly: you think I’m full of it, I know, like

Bartley: He wasn’t about to die

Carly: it didnt feel life or death before moses started his gobbing off, it was just a fuck

Carly: havent you done it?

Bartley: I don’t put my business about like that for a reason

Carly: I’m not gonna shout it about to nobody, no friends to if you dont believe us for no other reason

Bartley: Why would I tell you, or anyone?

Bartley: it’s meant to be private, my point

Carly: I’d keep it private, mine 😶💚

Carly: but I’m only asking to ask if you loved every girl you did it with

Bartley: Why, you think that’s impossible?

Carly: no but you’d be the 1st Ive met

Carly: Id have to get you a present, something proper good not me offered up again

Bartley: not going to convince me but a good attempt there

Carly: if you dont want it i dont, I said, I’m not forcing nobody

Bartley: Okay, okay

Bartley: I didn’t accuse you of nothing proper

Carly: still loads of time, have your fun bb

Bartley: Quit your crying yet?

Carly: my business & youd hate me to put it about

Bartley: Ha ha, funny girl

Carly: 🤡

Bartley: You don’t look that shocking

Carly: u cant see how I look 👀🩸❤️

Bartley: true enough

Bartley: Hope you can wash your face wherever you’re hiding

Carly: idc everyone knows I’m 👿💔

Bartley: Oh right

Bartley: sympathy drinks

Carly: I might or I might b off home when I can see

Bartley: not got far to go

Bartley: nor no motor to be driving into anything

Carly: 🌳🚗 s’bit much unless ronan hates me as much himself

Bartley: Of course he doesn’t, calm down

Carly: then I’ll live to be whoring another day

Bartley: Least whores get paid, think on

Carly: i get paid in 😍🥰😘 catch yourself on

Bartley: is it now?

Carly: can’t tell you its private

Bartley: Group chat will have to find something else to be about

Carly: yea, if youve ideas 👂💚

Bartley: Someone’ll do something worse before night is over, no worries

Carly: id feel bad 🙏

Carly: for loads of reasons, before you get in there to say it about us 1st

Bartley: I was 😶

Bartley: Your guilty conscience, obviously

Carly: 😶 myself on the state of any part of me

Bartley: What’ve you done?

Carly: I’m grand

Bartley: Definitely not

Carly: grand enough for home

Bartley: Are you going to make your ma go with?

Carly: k not that grand, sorry

Bartley: Fine, your pal then, where’s she?

Carly: idk

Bartley: I can find herr

Carly: ro probably has again let em be

Bartley: He should be looking for you

Carly: how you 👀🌎💭 is cute, boy

Bartley: Whatever, I’ll tell him you’re crying and he’ll feel bad

Carly: ah dont you be doing it, hes not to feel bad

Bartley: Why not?

Carly: he isnt in the wrong

Bartley: I’ve already told you that’s you

Bartley: but idk why I bother

Carly: yea then y would you be after making him feel bad

Bartley: I’m not but he’d come find you if he did, idiot

Carly: idc i dont want him to like

Bartley: you was after letting him inside you and now you can’t talk to him?

Carly: & say what?

Bartley: Assumedly he’s going to have some shit to say, if you’re in the state you said you were

Carly: he can when Im in less of one if hes bothered

Carly: its not what tonight is about

Bartley: fucking suit yourself then

Carly: quit having sense, I’m not used to it from you 😵‍💫

Bartley: Ha

Bartley: so who’s gonna believe you

Carly: nobody never

Bartley: Charming

Carly: sorry, I meant cos of it coming from me

Bartley: Ah, well, ‘course

Carly: 😶💚

Bartley: That’d be the day, like

Carly: u talked to me im never starting it

Bartley: so

Bartley: I just wanted to take the piss, who wouldn’t after that group chat

Carly: k 💚

Bartley: Shut it

Carly: more like it

Bartley: You take everything too far

Carly: where else am I to take it for a party?

Bartley: It’s Ronan’s 12th, it’s not [a more dramatic and special event, idk but you know the vibe lol]

Carly: summers almost over

Bartley: and you’re back to school, little girl

Carly: sure, you’re no older than us 👶

Bartley: Old enough not to bother with that, and I am, a bit

Carly: old enough not to make the most 🌞🌚 has u acting up like youre some old fella down the pub 🍻😅

Bartley: just ‘cos you’re upset Mosey would rather be there than with you

Carly: more if u dont have the knowing life’s magic

Bartley: It ain’t, yours especially isn’t

Carly: 👴🍺🚬

Bartley: You think you’re amazing

Bartley: any of them have 10x the sense you have

Carly: sure look, I know what you think

Bartley: You reckon

Carly: u tell us your opinion of me every time we talk

Bartley: I ain’t allowed to have one, is it?

Carly: just idk why youve to keep on @ me w it

Bartley: stop being so dumb and I won’t have to, girl

Carly: stop troubling yourself about me

Bartley: I don’t

Bartley: not all of us think acting like we don’t care about anything will make us cool and everyone will want us around

Carly: care about things, but u know I’m not worth being one

Bartley: yep

Carly: k well later 💚

Ali: [Private at Carly]

Ali: Where is he

Carly: ro? idk I 💭 he was w you

Ali: No, Moses, I’ve been looking all over

Carly: off in [that lad’s]s van

Carly: he had his fun @ this party

Ali: Fucking pussy

Ali: Jesus

Ali: how are you, I’m sorry, that’s what I should have been asking first

Carly: he’ll be after staying out of johno’s way when he hears

Carly: ah sure ive had my fun too im home

Ali: He must not have his phone on him, I only just found mine and it’s near 💀 as per

Ali: Do you want to be alone?

Carly: charge your phone if you want but the bday boy shouldnt be

Ali: He’s not, despite his absolute cunt of a brother bailing, there’s still loads of people here

Carly: youre his fave though you cant be taking yourself off too

Ali: You’re important too, and no I’m not, he likes you too

Ali: are you okay?

Carly: ive only now quit my 😢😭 youll have us going again if youre nice to me

Ali: That’s why I was going to deal with him instead but he’s run away

Ali: I can’t be mean to you

Carly: leave it to johno I cant let you get hurt cos of me & moses

Carly: youre too important yourself

Ali: I won’t get hurt, don’t worry

Carly: no I am, I know what hes like

Ali: Okay, I won’t go find him

Ali: but he’s an absolute disgrace

Carly: you’re not to go near him, promise

Ali: I promise, entirely for your sake, not mine and definitely not his

Carly: I can’t 💭 about it rn i’ll 🤢🤮 again too

Ali: No, don’t, it’s not worth it

Ali: nothing is going to be made sense of now

Carly: ive no sense

Ali: It was just cruel

Carly: I knew it was coming him being done w me idk why I listened to him about this

Carly: to my way of thinking it was a decent 🎁 for the boy before they all got in my head for it

Ali: Do you want me to check on Ro

Ali: without him knowing I am, obviously

Carly: yea maybe idk

Carly: I didnt force him but moses & the to be a big man of it all was to get in his head too

Ali: Who would do that to their brother, it’s so wrong

Carly: he only cares for himself

Carly: but Im almost as bad

Ali: Come now

Ali: no you’re not, you didn’t force him, of course you didn’t

Ali: Moses manipulated you into thinking it was a good idea though

Carly: we said he werent ready to do it, I knew that & i went for it still

Ali: but was he?

Carly: he did but I take everything too far hows he to tell me no

Ali: I’m gonna talk to him, okay

Ali: and I bet he’ll say it was alright

Carly: he would say that hes not after hurting me

Ali: I can get to the truth though

Carly: its your magic

Ali: It will be okay

Ali: I’ll talk to him and I’ll make sure it is

Ali: and I’ll make sure Johnny beats him up super hard for everyone, yeah

Carly: theyll kill each other

Carly: & ill have to lay myself proper low

Ali: it’s clear whose idea it was, neither of them can act the fool on that

Ali: Moses was too drunk or too thick to think that one through when he was running his mouth

Carly: too proud of himself

Carly: but Johno already hated me before this idk whats to happen

Ali: Just stay home

Ali: I’m going to find one of them, eventually

Carly: k 💛

Ali: Trust me?

Carly: yea

Carly: if friends dont fuck youre my only one

Ali: who said that one?

Carly: 1 guess

Carly: who always needs his say about me

Ali: Oh Bart…

Ali: he knows it’s less than nothing to do with him

Carly: he was almost nice to me though 😵‍💫

Ali: He only pretends nasty sometimes, usually he just misses the mark with the joke though

Ali: I’m glad someone is being nice

Carly: he might find you, I said no but he dont listen the best to nobody & not to me ever, sorry

Ali: he can help me look

Ali: he’s not being avoided as hard as I am

Carly: what a party, like

Ali: Boys, right 🙄

Carly: 👶😭

Ali: I’ll come see you later, check in

Carly: if you see [her mum] avoid bringing her with, I can’t tonight

Ali: 👻 promise

Carly: 💛👼💙

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good morning/day/evening, my lovely angel!! youre soso sweet and cute i cant TT 'i was bummed out i couldnt write' its ok dont worry about me! your comfort is the thing that matters the most! give yourself time. 'i havent written in 2 days' its ok. i cant state but do you think it may be burning out? bc you work really hard and have lots of work beside writing. you really owe nothing to anyone. ill repeat it as many times as i need. bc you do great, you study, do covers, you do a lot. thats more than great! you still worth the world and let down noone. and if anyone have the guts to say otherwise, i can have their tongue. you are the priority. if you dont feel like writing, maybe you shouldnt force yourself to do it to even lessen your minds ability to do it rn. give yourself time. tumblrs nothing when it comes to your mental powers. i dont remember if you say smth about 'kiss it better' later but id talk abt it here. i hope things will get better for you. hope your manifest works really well and ability to do creative things cutie. its very comforting. hope you enjoyed writing it. also the whole concept made me remember the song 'guard you' by young k. its just the most comforting song for me. its released on my bday but for some reason i ignored it for months? ill never forgive this. its really good to have someone to take care of you and 'guard you'. even if im not next to you, remember im always here for you and will always support you. 'i have to keep making art. i cant stop' its great if you cant and feel like it. but please dont force and overwork yourself. you are still you if you currently dont have strength to make art. 'i do love his name' your love for masc feminine names is so adorable TT hes not completely CRINGE meme but not a kind(?) meme either. its difficult to explain esp with how humor here is but yes. 'why didnt you put an episode number' i watched it like.. 2 years ago. you think i remember? im a grandcat myself. i need to do a research for it. maybe at weekends (basically its saturday even here rn but nvm). first epp with matt smith is pretty touching esp with karen gillah and a little drama they have but i also like peter capaldis doctor. esp the beginning of his era. well see. and i never watched davids seasons TT im sorry but its true, cant help you here. 'if i cant write this rn' and hows it? 'poor bb girl witch' nooo she shouldnt feel like it TT the point is she loves her love more than she loves the very daemon. 'sounds tiring' reasonable. ig it can be said abt all my ideas. btw, wfal isnt tiring you? or like a burden? ik you dont like writing long things so im kinds worried now. 'i need a cleanse fic' is it kiss it better? anyway do wild girl! 'but i’ll listen to it later' did you listen to it?... im not making you, just interested ghdjfj. also! ive only learnt abt 'Running up That Hill' by Kate Bush (in another witchy playlist...) and 1) i LOVE it sm her voice and the way of singing is so enchanting? 2) it gives me waiting for a lifetime vibes.. yeah its origin meaning isnt exactly abt it but its the magic of art isnt it? the opportunity to interpret it however you want. and the deal with god pretty much reminds me of the au. 'you’ve got such a beautiful brain' thanks TT take it after my catmom. ive got lots of things to do for the exams but my mental state has only allowed me to watch videos with kitties, cry cats and dogs and listen to this song of kate for the past week. theres the one i cried hardest over (subjectively) and theres the one i cried hardest (objectively). theyre just cute if you ever feel like it. and HEs so tiny i SCREAMED. thats it. just cute vids to bring your mood up. how are you? whats the weather like? hope you are or will soon do great. have a nice day/evening/night! ill try to find an episode and write down some ideas, maybe youll find some inspiration in them. good luck with all the hw and assignments! take care! love you<з *freezy kisses for you to not burn in your weather*

hello my love <3 <3 <3

meow meow muning <3

good morning/day/evening, my lovely angel!! youre soso sweet and cute i cant TT

wait why am i so sweet? what did i do?

anyway LOOOK I GOT A NEW OUTFIT FOR LISA!!!

here she is normally

that's all.

'i was bummed out i couldnt write' its ok dont worry about me! your comfort is the thing that matters the most! give yourself time.

T_T but i love you

'i havent written in 2 days' its ok. i cant state but do you think it may be burning out?

T_T ... i think youre right. T_T

bc you work really hard and have lots of work beside writing. you really owe nothing to anyone. ill repeat it as many times as i need. bc you do great, you study, do covers, you do a lot. thats more than great! you still worth the world and let down noone. and if anyone have the guts to say otherwise, i can have their tongue. you are the priority. if you dont feel like writing, maybe you shouldnt force yourself to do it to even lessen your minds ability to do it rn. give yourself time. tumblrs nothing when it comes to your mental powers.

thank you. this means a lot to me to hear this. you dont know how very much your words mean to me.

i want to write. but i cant. i want to write ideas outside my reqs but also i want to make reqs but also i cant. i dont know

i dont remember if you say smth about 'kiss it better' later but id talk abt it here. i hope things will get better for you. hope your manifest works really well and ability to do creative things cutie. its very comforting. hope you enjoyed writing it.

i dont know if i enjoyed writing it but while rereading it i was like 'damn im really good at writing' i hope i get out of this hitch T_T

also the whole concept made me remember the song 'guard you' by young k. its just the most comforting song for me. its released on my bday but for some reason i ignored it for months? ill never forgive this. its really good to have someone to take care of you and 'guard you'. even if im not next to you, remember im always here for you and will always support you.

omg this was yonks parting gift before enlisting. (i call young-k yonk cos thats what it reads like yonk HAHHAH) im so touched that you feel this way towards me T_T i feel the same for you. lol its so funny you ignored it but ended up loving it HAHAH. i want a hug from you for real i want to cry.

'i have to keep making art. i cant stop' its great if you cant and feel like it. but please dont force and overwork yourself. you are still you if you currently dont have strength to make art.

T_T i want a hug. i dont know if im forcing myself but maybe youre right i should stop T_T

'i do love his name' your love for masc feminine names is so adorable TT hes not completely CRINGE meme but not a kind(?) meme either. its difficult to explain esp with how humor here is but yes.

i have nothing else to say about him so heres him with a dog <3 i love the dog dog <3

'why didnt you put an episode number' i watched it like.. 2 years ago. you think i remember? im a grandcat myself. i need to do a research for it. maybe at weekends (basically its saturday even here rn but nvm).

grandcat T_T it ok i just assumed you had an episode in mind. you dont have to research

first epp with matt smith is pretty touching esp with karen gillah and a little drama they have

i'll watch that!

but i also like peter capaldis doctor. esp the beginning of his era.

ive seen crack edits of jenna coleman and him and i kinda wanna watch his too

well see. and i never watched davids seasons TT im sorry but its true, cant help you here.

LOL HAHHAH thats fine thank you anyway i love you

'if i cant write this rn' and hows it?

T_T i cant write it im sorry

'poor bb girl witch' nooo she shouldnt feel like it TT the point is she loves her love more than she loves the very daemon.

She loves her love for daemon more than daemon himself? or daemon lovers her more than daemon ???

'sounds tiring' reasonable. ig it can be said abt all my ideas.

its not your idea that tiring its the idea of writing that tires me. baby i love your ideas T_T please stop exploding on yourself

btw, wfal isnt tiring you? or like a burden? ik you dont like writing long things so im kinds worried now.

🙄 gee. i literally make mood boards for it, i wonder if its tiring. well ok enough sarcasm, it is very much laborious but its a labor of love. i have not enjoyed writing a... series in a long time. its not a burden. i promise you i will stop writing that fic once i feel like im done with it. i was partially joking about ending i at p5 but i do hope i manage to keep it short T_T asfhs/flhsd

'i need a cleanse fic' is it kiss it better? anyway do wild girl!

it was. but idk if i was cleansed

'but i’ll listen to it later' did you listen to it?... im not making you, just interested ghdjfj.

i listened to the first part of the first song and i ejected i dont remember why but i guess i didnt like the vibe T_T

also! ive only learnt abt 'Running up That Hill' by Kate Bush (in another witchy playlist...) and 1) i LOVE it sm her voice and the way of singing is so enchanting? 2) it gives me waiting for a lifetime vibes.. yeah its origin meaning isnt exactly abt it but its the magic of art isnt it? the opportunity to interpret it however you want. and the deal with god pretty much reminds me of the au.

ive listened to this song before. she does have a very strong and enchanting voice. im honored that my fic reminds you things T_T thats so sweet and so nice of you. im honored to have such an impact on you <3

'you’ve got such a beautiful brain' thanks TT take it after my catmom. ive got lots of things to do for the exams but my mental state has only allowed me to watch videos with kitties, cry cats and dogs and listen to this song of kate for the past week.

you and i are so same. our mental capacities are overloaded. i think i might really just stop writing for a while T_T idk ive got these ideas i want to get out of my brain though

theres the one i cried hardest over (subjectively)

T_T PUMA PUMA <3

and theres the one i cried hardest (objectively).

LOOONG BABY FLOOF <3

theyre just cute if you ever feel like it. and HEs so tiny i SCREAMED.

ive seen this before T_T theyre SO tiny i squishhhhh

thats it. just cute vids to bring your mood up.

thank you they mean so much <3 this post is really cute too. im luv

how are you?

im currently in class not listening because id rather reply to you. dw its a concept ive studied before. my head hurts and im hungry. i also want to pee so badly but i cant leave my desk. i want to read fics to badly

whats the weather like?

its so hot my head hurts

hope you are or will soon do great.

me too i hope you are also well.

have a nice day/evening/night!

i love you i hope you have a nice day too <3

ill try to find an episode and write down some ideas, maybe youll find some inspiration in them.

thank you so much <3 the fact you care enough to do that. T_T thank you.

good luck with all the hw and assignments! take care! love you<з

me too T_T i want to graduate. i dont want to fail. i cant fail. T_T i feel dumb sometimes even though i know deep down im not T_T

*freezy kisses for you to not burn in your weather*

thank you <3 i love you

i also wanted to share this video about wolves. i love it so much. it makes me love nature so much. it makes you realize how important it is to allow animals to stay in their habitats.

also this tiger series. i used to watch this so much. i love tiggers love love love

i love you bye bye my love

xxx

#slavyanskiyahui cutie #anon ask #my beloved anons #modern!daemon anon #ask #modern!daemon nonnie

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THE AMOUNT OF FEELS IM GETTING FROM THIS 😭

every now and then, you wonder how he's doing, wonder if he thinks of you too. PLEASE THE PINING 🥺 EEEE

immediately, you think of your poe, wondering if he's still alive, if he'd be there or off world somewhere. BABE IM CRYING 😩

you can tell he's trying to work out how much of a threat you are, whether he should take you back to his camp or just kill you where you stand. He wouldn't, would he???

ok how about this:

with how intently the blaster digs into your neck, you're sure he's going to kill you. you squeeze your eyes shut, preparing yourself for the shot.

but it never comes.

"just do it already!" you don't mean to yell, but you can't take the anticipation anymore. you're ready for it -- as ready as you'll ever be-- but he's just holding the blaster against you, brows furrowed with anxiety.

"i-i can't." his grip softens, almost letting you go as he backs away from you. you catch his blaster before he could lower it, keeping it right on the slope of your throat.

your eyes beg him, "poe, please."

"i'm taking you back with me."

---

poe doesn't restrain you when you walk to the ship, doesn't even tug at your arm. in fact, he doesn't even look at you as he guides you to the hanger. you follow him silently, ready to meet your fate, internally wishing he would've ended it in the alley like you wanted.

the millenium falcon is bigger in person. it could fit a whole village if needed, but there are only a few passengers on the ship to greet you. there's a wookie, who intimidates you as soon as he opened the blast door, an orange BB-unit, who beeps happily when he sees poe, and FN-2187, the stormtrooper you met all those moons ago, who immediately recgonizes you and is surprisingly...smiling?

"it's you." the former storm trooper rushes over, eyes searching your face in disbelief. "you're the one that helped us escape!"

you looked in poe's direction, but he's completely avoiding the interaction, already making his way into the cockpit.

"i..." you didn't know what to say.

"did you escape too?"

"...yes, just a number of cycles ago."

"and you're here to help the resistance."

it's not a question, but you can't help but correct him.

"no, i just wanted to get away."

"well you're here with us now, we'll keep you safe. after all, you're the reason i'm out of there."

FN-2187, or finn as he's referred to now, continues to talk to you the whole trip, updating you on everything he's been up to and how the resistance has a super power now: a force user.

you listen with a fake smile, nodding occasionally as you hold back a cringe at all the confidential information that he's blabbering to a first order commander. you're so tired you can't even dismiss his enthusiasm.

poe takes you back to the resistance base, far from the location you once tortured out of him. it's busy there, everyone seems in a hurry to do something. ships are flying in and out of the area, delivering cargo, sending out soldiers, or returning from missions.

you're immediately led to the general.

"she's from the first order -- like finn was. a high ranking pilot that risked everything to help us escape. i didn't mention anything before because i didn't want to give her up. she could've been executed."

"nice to meet another fighter." general amidala gives you a witty smile, welcoming you to the resistance. "i'm sure you have a lot to share with us.."

this wasn't how it was supposed to go. they were supposed to take you into an interrogation room, torture you for information, then dispose you body. why are you being embraced by the enemy? what's the catch?

after everything, why hadn't poe told finn, or anyone anything?

---

it's evening now, the summer bugs chirp in the deep forest of the planet all around the base, filling the calm silence of the night.

the resistance set you up in your own room, it's nothing like the sleek ultra-technical rooms from the first order (which you hated), it's cozy. the bed is soft, the food was warm, and your clothes are comfortable, but you can't sleep.

you walked around a bit, puzzled that there were no guards outside you room, or really anyone outside at all. even in the first order there was the constant presence of surveillance cameras and stormtroopers around.

you noticed a light, blooming a warm glow in the corner of the flight hanger. so someone is up. you're curious so you walk towards it.

you recognize the ship immediately. the soft orange panels, the blue detailing, the scuffed nose. it's the ship you've been chasing since the beginning of your career. and right under it is the man that's conquered your thoughts these past months.

poe scoots out from under it when he hears your footsteps falter. he didn't think anyone would be awake right now.

you can't tell if he's surprised to see you or not because he's acting so casual, not just now, but since he made the decision to not kill you. casual about bumping into you, about bring you here, about finn and the general taking a liking to you, about you staying.

you don't get it. how can he see you, barely visible with the minimal light of the hanger, wandering around the base without any supervision, and not be suspicious. not be afraid that you'd do what you did again?

he gets up slowly, wiping his hands on a black-stained rag, acting like this is a daily occurrence between the two of you.

"you planning on escaping?"

you raise a brow at his teasing tone, "wouldn't get too far with you chasing after me."

he chuckles, "no you wouldn't."

you both look at the ship that sits stoically between the two of you. a soft silence resting around you. it irks you.

"why are you being so...nice to me?" you can't help but ask.

"you're the one that got us out, yeah?"

your face flushes, "i-i just didn't want to get caught becasue then we would've both died." it's a made up excuse and he can see right through it.

"i don't believe you."

"you should. i'm not a good person."

"you were just doing your job." he shrugs off.

how can he be so...okay with this? you violated him -- used him.

"t-that was not my job. i shouldn't have--"

"i'm still here and i'm still fighting. " he interrupts, "and you're here now. that's all that matters."

"it was wrong."

"what's right?" he leans in closer, "if liking that and liking you is wrong, then i don't want to be right."

"you liked that? liked me?"

"like."

---

THIS COULD BE SO OOC BUT IDK

i'm so sorry this took A FUCKING LONG ASS TIME FOR ME TO RESPONd 😭 idk if this is how you wanted it to go (if it isn't, pretend like it didn't happen lol)

it's been too long since i've sent something debilitatingly horny to you, so here:

edit: im sorry its so long and plot-y 😭 i've never written for poe and got too excited.

imagine being a first order commander in charge of coaxing information from poe dameron. the first batch of interrogators (a couple stormtroopers) couldn't get a thing out of him so you were called in as back up.

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you've had a few interactions with poe (as you're both renowned pilots), but you've never actually seen his face. you've only communicated through radios -- well, communicated is a strong word, you've taunted and growled at each other from a distance...

needless to say, you were intrigued to finally meet this 'poe dameron' that you've been chasing around since you became a flight officer.

you're shocked when you see him, not because he's battered and barely conscious, but because he's prettier than you expected.

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of course, he's fucking pretty. he's the resistance's flyboy, the general's favorite, complete with a cut jawline, pouty lips and perfect curls.

it enrages you.

long dark lashes frame half-lidded eyes as you approach him. his body is strapped tight to a chair, but he doesn't seem bothered by it. he's so unbothered, in fact, that he immediately greets you with one of his annoying quips:

"you the good cop?" you're sure it would've sounded better if his voice wasn't so hoarse and broken -- not that you didn't enjoy that sound. there's something about a ruined man that immediately sparks a flame inside of you.

"no, they were the good cops." you refer to the storm troopers that left him this way. "i'm the bad cop, and i like to do things a bit differently..."

you can see it on his face: he recognizes you, or your voice, but he doesn't know from where.

"can't fly away anymore, can you, dameron?"

it finally dawns on him, "you." he almost looks...happy about the revelation.

"yeah, me." his stare is intense and interested, and he's not trying to hide it at all.

cocky bastard.

"y'now i didn't expect such a bea--"

you roll your eyes, "ok, let's stop with all this chatter."

there's a piece of paper sticking out of the breast pocket of his leather jacket, folded several times to fit securely in the space.

"you got something for me?" you coo, voice sickly sweet all of the sudden.

you reach out, gliding your hand from his shoulder to his chest, feeling the smooth leather rise and lower under your fingers as he starts to breathe harder. he pushes against your touch like he's touch deprived, like he's been waiting for this moment all his life.

oh, he's easy.

you snicker as you pluck the paper out, taking a second to wag it tauntingly in front of his face.

"what're you...HEY! THAT'S MINE."

bingo

you open it up, satisfied by how fluidly this interrogation is going. once you deliver this to ren, you're sure to get a promotion.

when you see what's inside, you glower: it's just a worn photo of some BB-droid.

"really?" you give him an unimpressed look. "what, is this your pet or something?"

"he's my driod! my little buddy!"

"ok...so we'll do this the hard way."

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it starts with pain, but it never seems to be enough. he's -- laughing! he's taunting you, groaning out "is that all you got" or whispering a hoarse "i could do this all day".

you realize you're methods will have to be a bit...unconventional to get your point across. you saw how he reacted to your touch, how he looks at you, even when you're punching him in the face.

you know what you need to do, you're just not sure that you could take it.

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you take the step -- blurring the line between pain and pleasure.

it's for the first order, you tell yourself, but you're enjoying it.

you're breathing almost as hard as he is -- you need it just as much as he does.

you've been edging him about an hour now. he whines when you slow your hand again, leaving him right at the brink of release. metal clangs and groans as he pulls against his restraints.

"please, please, please..."

"you know what i need." you squeeze him, not tightly, but just enough to drive him wild. "just one word -- the planet -- and i'll give it to you. i'll let you cum all over yourself."

"c-can't."

"can't? or won't?" you swipe your thumb over his leaking tip. he's literally pulsing in your hold.

"fuck!" he yells out a name, one you immediately memorize, desperate voice and all.

;dlfsl;dfgk oh oh oh ohhhhhhh my goddddddddddddd

no but like, the fact that poe was also kind of into the whole thing though?? him arching into your touch, shooting you heated glances even when you're torturing him, like he likes being at your mercy?????? please send help 🫠🫠🫠

(**WARNING: here there be smut and it could potentially be considered dub-con so read at your own risk**)

if you thought he was pretty before, it's nothing compared to how he looks when he comes--his jaw slack, head thrown back, baring his glorious neck (a neck you just wanna bite), his sweaty curls deliciously mussed, eyes closed in ecstasy as he makes a mess of himself and your hand.

heavenly, you think. the sight is heavenly.

unable to resist, you kiss him softly, so contradictory to the rough way you'd been handling him. he sighs, sagging against his restraints as he kisses you back, his breath fanning across your cheek. you tell him he's a good boy when you pull away and he whines, trying to follow your lips, his mouth gaping, pupils blown wide with lust. he's so drunk on you, on the pleasure you've given him, he'd probably give you whatever you wanted right now; the knowledge fills you with glee. you smile, running a hand down his chest before tucking him back in his trousers.

he comes back to himself when you move to leave, his eyes growing a little harder, jaw clenching as you tell him that you look forward to working with him again.

unfortunately, ren isn't around for you to give him the intel poe gave you, so you hold onto it, intent on telling him when he returns. that night though, you can't sleep, can't stop thinking about poe's breathy whines and whimpers and how pretty he looked begging you to let him come. it's all you can think about, the urge to go to him so strong. so you go, shooing the guards from his cell and going inside. he's asleep, still tied up but removed from the rack he'd been on earlier, bloodied and bruised and beautiful. you allow yourself a moment to study him, eyes tracing the curve of his jaw, of his brow, his nose.

then you take him in your hand, squeezing and stroking, his pretty little noises going straight to your core. you want him, you realize, want to claim him, want to make him yours. the urge is so strong it makes you a little angry--that he could have so much power over you in this state is...well, it's unacceptable.

maybe you just need to fuck him, you reason, to get it out of your system. so you do, straddling him and sheathing his hardness inside your warm, wet cunt. he sounds (and looks) even prettier like this, beneath you, his moans breathy, breathing ragged as you ride him. he feels so good inside you, the stretch of his cock scratching an itch you didn't even realize you had. he watches at you with wide, attentive eyes, hips pushing up to meet yours as you impale yourself on him again and again.

you see stars when you come, cunt clenching around his cock as you throw your head back with a strangled moan. he's still hard and inside you when you come down, his ragged breaths reaching your ears. the look in his eyes is almost reverent when you meet them, and when he begs you to let him come inside you, a little piece of your heart crumbles.

you leave his cell, swearing to yourself that you'll never do it again, that you'll tell ren what you've learned and that dameron will be executed and it'll all be done.

but you don't. can't.

you keep the information you learned to yourself so your trysts with him can continue. every day you go to his cell, send away the guards, and fuck him. you start to look forward to it, to seeing him, to being with him. he starts begging you to let him touch you, and one day you cave and allow it. you groan when he cups your breast, arching into his touch as you bounce slowly on his cock. then his hand falls to your hip, his fingers dig into your skin, and a part of you hopes he'll leave behind bruises. when his thumb finds your clit, he circles the bud, groaning as you gasp, cunt fluttering around him. he whispers something as you fall apart, and it isn't until later that you realize...he'd called you beautiful.

(lmaooooooooooo many, many apologies for going overboard with this, i love me a subby man, especially when that man is poe dameron, hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng)

#poe dameron #poe dameron x reader #moots #whitney ahhhhahdhsa

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races-erster · 4 years ago

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Hi!!! I have chronic joint pain too, although mine is throughout my body! The only thing diagnosed that I have right now is miserable Malalignment syndrome but it doesn’t account for all of it. :) and yes that is the real name

Hey hun!! I’ve never heard of that syndrome before, but it seemed very interesting when I looked it up. I know how hard it is to have to deal with chronic pain, so if you ever need a friend who can somewhat understand what you’re going though, I’m always here! Much love 💕

#bb i mean it if you ever want to talk about it im here #i inow how hard it was for me and my mental health #so im always in your corner #anon

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ppnuggie · 3 years ago

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Would it be okay if there's a (RID 15) scenario with Bumblebee's human adult female s/o just hanging out with the bots and the Clays then all of a sudden, her "monthly visitor" arrives and while BB panics and takes her to get supplies, Denny and Russel have to explain that to Team Bee and Fix-It? I saw one with the Prime team and thought it was funny if the same thing happens in the RID verse!

　　　　　　BUMBLEBEE x female human reader

　　　　『　bumblebee ,, strongarm ,, fixit ,, sideswipe ,, drift & minicons ,, female human reader 』

　　-> cycle things with team bee

　　— fluff ,, sfw ,, crack ,, mentions of blood ,, female pronouns ,, she/her ,, cussing

　　— here you go !! :D

　　　panic rushed through you as you felt the sickly, slimy feeling creep down your legs. your smile was strained against your lips, yet you didnt want to interrupt fix-it from his little speech about his tools. the feeling of your underwear becoming wet as it increased in pace only made you panic more. it didnt help that your pants were light colored either.

　　　it wasn’t until slipstream and jetstorm had pointed out the strange red spot on the back of your pants that you knew it was too late. fix-it had stopped mid-speech, his helm tilting to the side in confusion. “whatever do you mean?” he asked the other minicons.

slipstream pointed at the spot, and you already knew what it was. biting your bottom lip, shame and disgust rose through your veins. quickly excusing yourself, you quickly made your way towards the bathroom. denny had prepared for this moment for you, in case you ever started your period in the scrap yard. though you definitely werent prepared for all the confused and curious glances from the bots.

back in the scrap yard, with team bee gazing around at each other as they watched you walk away, bee finally cleared his throat. “what’s going on?” he asked the nearest bot, which happened to be drift.

the orange and black warrior cleared his throat before replying. “(y/n) had a strange red spot on her. slipstream and jetstorm had pointed it out.” he explained to the black and yellow bot. bee was nodding along, before realizing. the red spot could be blood, and if its blood, then that means (y/n)’s bleeding! panic filled through him, hurrying towards where he had been informed she went.

he mass-displaced quickly, making no effort to waste a second. it all counted, especially if his loved one was bleeding at this very moment. bee arrived at the bathroom door, hearing a groan on the other side. he only panicked more, worried for you.

“(y/n)?” he called, knocking on the wooden door, “you in there?” he could hear a small curse fall from your lips, and what would seem to be some paper against paper being grabbed. “yeah, bee? what you need?”

“you alright? i heard about what happened? everything good? decepticons?” he asked, words moving quickly as though he were blurr in his past. the blue bot had talked quickly, making it to the point it would be confusing to decipher what he had said. a sigh was loud and clear from the other side of the door, “yeah im good. its just,” you paused, staring at the bathroom walls. “its just that week, yknow?”

bee was quite confused on what ‘that week’ meant. but once he put two and two together, he understood what you meant. he let out a breath of relief, “alright, i’ll be out here if you need anything.” he assured.

though a different story was told when denny tried to explain to the bots what was happening to you. “(y/n) isn’t dying, nor is she sick. its just something that most women go through.”

even with how vague of an explanation, the bots were still eager to know what it is that you’re going through as of the moment. he sighed, getting ready to explain to drift’s minicons that you’re not dying from a ghost, or to fixit that you didnt get bit bt a vampire.

bumblebee and you quickly snuck out of the scrap yard, heading for more supplies and things for the next time this could happen. though denny did do good, there were a few things you wanted to grab. such as drinks and foods you might crave for later, as well as some medication.

sideswipe was still trying to process the whole situation , only having known the he walked in on the wrong time. maybe he should have stayed on patrol for a bit longer. the minicons were quite confused about the whole process, turning to drift for guidance, yet he only shook his head.

with all the different reactions and questions going through the team at once, denny shook his head, knowing that the rest of the week was goong to be somewhat conflicting.

#transformers x reader #x reader #x female reader #female reader #rid15 x reader #tf rid15 #tf robots in disguise #robots in disguise #bumblebee x reader #transformers bumblebee #rid15 bumblebee #🌇.rid15 #🌇.bumblebee #🌇.sideswipe

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scaramew · 3 years ago

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MORE THAN FRIENDS, LESS THAN LOVERS.

i really thought I'd be better off, but i missed you more than i thought i would. ( or : xiao texts you at 4:00 am. )

ft. xiao x genderneutral reader.

warnings : angst, fluff, modern au, post-breakup, hopeful endings, fine line by harry styles oh my GOD

xiao is good at leaving — which sounds harsh, maybe it's better to say he's bad at staying. xiao's bad at staying, yet he can't seem to leave you behind, either.

the room's quiet, empty — devoid of any trace of you, the only piece of you left in his part of the universe is an old sweater that was "more his style" draped over his desk chair.

double sided tape's still stuck to his walls and he inwardly groans at the fact he has to get rid of it someday — that he has to get rid of the pictures that used to be stuck to that tape, that he had to get rid of you completely.

it's cold, and maybe it's always been cold and he just never noticed. it's cold and all xiao can think about is how you'd be sleeping on the empty pillow beside him if it weren't for everything he did.

the screen of his phone illuminated his face, the only light in his otherwise dark room. xiao stares at your profile, wincing at the past messages he sent — at the nickname he set for you that he hasn't had the heart to change.

xiao isn't sure why he started typing — why now, when he thought that he was finally starting to get over it. he'd say when he was finally starting to forget, but you're not someone he wants to forget just yet.

he must've rewritten that text a million times, because in the hours of comfortable silence you both shared, xiao realizes there was so much more he wanted to say, yet he never said a word.

the words he never said, the things he never acted on are the same things that haunt him every minute he's awake — sometimes it even followed him to his dreams, the thought of what could've happened if he did.

xiao: are you awake?

xiao sighs, covering his eyes with the back of his hand. it feels like iron butterflies are floating in his stomach, like a mix of giddiness and anxiety, the kind that weighs on your chest till you can't breath.

my bb :) ‹3: no ?? wjy r u awake ??'

he can feel his lips quirk into a smile, even if it's for a split second. '

xiao : so you didn't learn to type while i was gone ://'

my bb :) ‹3: fuck u too

it feels like an eternity before you start typing again, and even then, you stop and rewrite before sending another directly after.

my bb :) ‹3: are you okay?

there's a pause between your texts, and you can feel your head pounding — you're not too sure if it's the morning cold or the fact xiao was talking to you.

my bb :) ‹3: why did u message me?

you see him type and you panick — sending strings of messages following your last. '

my bb :) ‹3: not that that's bad !!'

my bb :) ‹3: just because we're not together doesn't mean you can't talk to me anymore.

xiao can barely manage a laugh, and he can only imagine how stupid he looks right now, about to cry at just a few words.

xiao: i miss you.

and there he is again, yet as he types those three words, xiao can't bring it in himself to send it. not now, he thinks. not when he's just getting the chance to talk to you again.

xiao: you left your sweater here.

my bb :) ‹3: that's ok. u can throw it away if you want :]

as if xiao could ever throw out any of the things you've given him.

the cold envelopes him, his breath forming clouds in the mist. it's 4:00 am, and xiao doesn't know — doesn't want to know what it is about your everything that forces him to break down. that forces him to tear down the walls he's spent his entire life building up.

xiao: im sorry for everything that happened.

xiao doesn't think he'd ever be worthy of your forgiveness, but it's the crack of dawn and he doesn't think he'd forgive himself if he didn't say anything.

xiao: and for everything that didn't get to happen

your caller id fills his screen and xiao doesnt think he's ever been so unsure in his life. he swallows, yet it doesn't do anything to stop the panick settling into his chest. it passes, and he can only stare at his phone, unsure of what to do.

you start typing again, and for once, xiao understands what people mean by their heart dipped.

my bb :) ‹3: please pick up

you call again, and xiao picks up almost immediately. you're both quiet, the only thing assuring him that you're there on the other line is your breathing.

"hi." you start after a few minutes of sitting in silence, and what you'd give to be able to sit with him and not be worried of, well, everything. what you'd give for that silence to be comfortable again. "uh—hi, xiao."

xiao takes a breath, hoping it would calm his nerves and the shaking of his voice because god he missed hearing yours. "hi, [name]."

his voice comes out shaky anyway, and maybe that's just something he can't help anymore. your text floods his brain, because xiao could write a book with everything he wanted to say to you, everything he wished he could've said — yet when he finally got the chance to, he goes blank.

you laugh at the other end of the line and xiao didn't realize how much he adored your laugh until now. he hadn't realized how much he missed you until now. "i-im sorry for texting you i just — i don't know." he sighs, running a hand through his hair. even if he doesn't deserve your forgiveness, he knows you deserve his apologies. "you should sleep."

his thumb hovers over the end call button, he's not sure if it's because he had nothing to say or because he doesn't want you to hear him cry.

"wait don't i just— are you sure?" you ask quickly, taking a deep breath after. like you could feel him about to hang up.

"what?"

"are you sure that we're not ... ahem, that you don't think we can work anymore."

you sound exasperated, and xiao wants so badly to tell you you're wrong, to tell you about how everything reminds him of you, to tell you about the extra pillow, to tell you everything he can't.

"because if you are then .. ill leave you alone. ill forget it — ill forget we ever happened."

a four letter word has never held so much meaning over him and despite the repercussions it holds he's not sure what else would describe what you were to him. because if love wasn't what he felt, then he was sure that what the felt was greater than love itself.

"i— you don't have to answer that i just .." your voice echoes through his head and he's not sure when you'd let him talk to you again.

"i love you." xiao breathes. it's quiet — and the weight in his chest feels like it could swallow him whole. it's quiet and xiao can only hope that four letter word held enough meaning to be able to say everything he wishes he could. "even if you don't love me back, even if we're just a little more than friends and a little less than — less than what we had. "

"i miss you, you know that right?" you sniffle, and xiao wishes he never made you cry. "i miss you, but i can hate you so much sometimes." not i missed, because you don't think you ever stopped.

xiao whispers as fatigue creeps up on him. "i missed you more than i thought i would."

it's quiet as dawn stretches across the horizon, light purples an pinks brightening the otherwise grey sky. it's quiet and there's nothing left to say.

the birds croak outside his house and xiao' scared he's loved you just a little too late, but even if he isn't the one for you, if all of this is temporary, then he thinks that he'll be okay with the memories you share.

even if he won't be the one for you, no matter how much he really wanted to, he'll learn to be okay, because loving you was more than anything he thought he was capable of.

i love you's are whispered till you fall asleep, and xiao has hope that you'll both be fine.

#scaramew writing.txt #delete later i hate this thing sm #xiao x reader #xiao x you #xiao x y/n #genshin xiao x reader #genshin xiao #xiao angst #xiao fluff #xiao imagines #genshin x reader #genshin imagines #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact imagines

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