#battery is at -1000 vibes

[hechose]

armand de horror's cuck chair, u will always be famous--

[capricioussun]

Considering Void's struggle with touch, does he have experience/does he enjoy non-contact parallel play/body doubling? (In specific I mean when two people are sharing the same general space but doing their own things, be it work or hobby, it can be quiet or with communication.)

What is his preferred way to spend time with others?

Yes and no, it definitely varies! He’s mostly introverted, and not just from trauma. As much as he genuinely does enjoy company and spending time with friends (and frankly should WAY more than he does), he also has a pretty low social battery, and often needs time alone to recharge.

Even just quietly working alongside someone (his version of parallel play lol) will still be draining. And sometimes, especially when he's physically and/or mentally tired, having someone just sort of there can actually be very distracting or stressful. He can "see" and "hear" beyond just the normal realm of perception, and the more "unfocused" he gets, the more...I guess I'll call it "the background noise" comes to the forefront.

This can kind of blur reality for him a little, and while (after he’s gotten more experience/control) it's something he’s very aware of and isn't an issue, having others around while he’s "unfocused" can cause a lot of unnecessary anxiety (think like being at a party and getting overstimulated, going to a quieter room to calm down, but you can still hear the party, and then someone comes to check on you before you've properly calmed down. Not a great feeling. That's sort of what any company can feel like in that state).

That being said, he does still usually enjoy it! Just has to be at the right times. It's nice to have those kinds of friends/allies where they can work together or spend time together in comfortable silence.

Though I'd say he probably prefers more active company on the occasions he’s seeking any at all, but just by a hair. Someone to chat with or even just listen to while doing other things – he spends a good deal of time alone, so if he’s in the mood for company, he generally likes at least a little more interaction like that :*)

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

i explain india but i'm drunk.

Hello maggots of mine you're all such babygirls and bastards just like Aziraphale and Crowley. I'm so proud of you all for existing. Yes i'm a wholesome drunk you now know this about me. The wine tastes like rotten grapes and smells of battery acid and cost 245 rupees INR. Speaking of INR, thanks to a maggot's ask, I'm here to explain India. I've never set foot outside of this country. But I'm also very very shit at general knowledge.

To any non-Indians reading this, this is a totally legit 1000% everything covered all-inclusive summary. To any Indians reading this, I'm so so fucking sorry.

India, explained.

So there's south india and there's north india and there's north east india. north india is very racist about south india and they're both very racist about north east india. Most of these people are also probably racist either to other countries or they have internalised racism. It's a wild trip.

There are. A lot of languages here. And a LOT of scripts. I can read two scripts, understand four Indian languages and speak in two of them (badly), and those two are not my native tongues. I cannot speak in my native tongues. It's basically English at this point. These aren't dialects, those are separate. Picture like, Europe, but more, in terms of how many languages.

Everyone hates each other which is valid for the entire planet honestly.

In south india we have a lot of coconuts. Like a lot. There are so many coconuts you have no fucking idea guys you cannot escape the coconuts. I was nearly killed by a shower of coconuts when I was 5 I escaped by one second.

There are also cows. People will tell you that you are being racist when you say India has cows everywhere. But it's true. Two weeks ago I had the pleasure to be stuck in a traffic jam. Next to the street barrier thing (what divides a street im too drunk for this) I saw a huge bull fucking HUMPING a cow. The vehicles just had to move around them. They were having sex right there.

If you're a middle class Indian kid, your career options are: doctor, engineer, scientist, CA, lawyer, government official or family disappointment.

Needless to say, I was going to be doctor and am now instead family disappointment. I'm babygirling so hard it's insane. The prodigal son.

It's very ace-friendly and heterophobic in the sense that you are not supposed to be exhibiting any sexuality whatever in a respectable household. Just shut up and give virgin birth already. But be married. That's crucial.

Oh yeah gay marriage isn't legal trans people are constantly othered by society and/or given no respect whatsover and we're just all vibing here this is totally not why I'm finishing a small bottle of cheap wine on a thursday past midnight alone in my room.

Foreigners are like a zoo species you see them you're instantly concerned like what are they doing outside the TV screens and then either people are normal (rarely), they run up and take photos or try to slip into conversation (more often than you'd think, even I've been guilty of the conversation thing as a kid) OR they start talking about how 'this western culture is ruining our culture'. Which is fair but honestly both the 'cultures' these people are talking about usually involve incredible amounts of bigotry and are more similar than they think.

I think the lesson here is that humans just suck as a species. Except for you maggots. I love you all and I will defend you with my life.

THE CHAAT. THE CHAAT IS INSANELY AMAZING. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE CHAAT. I HAVE NO SPICE TOLERANCE SO I HAVE TO BEG ON MY KNEES FOR THE SPICES TO BE REDUCED BUT STILL. THE CHAAT. THE CHAAT, YOU GUYS. YOU NEED IT.

Sorry yes I'm normal. ALSO THE STREET DOGS. THE INDIES. THEY'RE SO LOVELY AND SWEET AND CHAOTIC AND I KEEP TALKING TO THEM. Once when I was crying I made the dog distress while and like five dogs that I didn't know came running to me and comforted me and licked me.

INDIAN DANCE MUSIC. I FUCKING LOVE IT IT'S INSANE. My family were elitist as fuck so I never got to listen to Bollywood music as a kid but it's AMAZING I'm so glad it exists. Bhangra too.

Beaches very very pretty hills very very pretty honestly the nature is fucking beautiful if you can just quickly pretend humans don't exist, which again is true of this entire planet. Yeah. Okay I'm so fucking drunk.

Yeah lots of diversity which is very nice when the humans aren't screaming at each other about it but the rest of the time it's very nice

The garbage and sewer stories? yeah they're all true im sorry

Traffic rules more like traffic suggestions amirite

Well, we still have far better healthcare access than america. so. there is that.

If you speak English well you'll be mocked and isolated. If you speak English poorly you'll be mocked and isolated. Honestly, just be rich. That'll fix it all.

All the conservatives hate each other and don't realise they're the exact same but in like different flavours.

Oh yeah we have auto rickshaws. Look them up. They're so much better than cars I don't get motion sick as easily in them. But the drivers all hate you and never want to take you anywhere.

Eyyyyyyyyyy it's so fucking fun here *drinsk more alcohol* I am so fucking not looking forward to college.

Please someone crowdfund me out of here let's all go chill in Alpha Centauri I've heard it's nice this time of the year.

I will, however, miss the casual live cow pornos. A true highlight.

[I got this peer-reviewed by my friend in India's top law school, just in case, because I'm too drunk and generally dumb. They say I will not be killed. And they've been on Twitter so.]

Irrefutable legal proof y'all. I don't mean to offend anyone except bigots. Fuck you, bigots, if you're not offended then I've disappointed my community.

[nerves-nebula]

Two questions for ya: What do you use for drawing and what canvas size r u using to make ur comics? I've been trying to make comics for a lil bit now but every art program and canvas I try to use theres always something off for me and I keep getting frustrated, any tips?

I use clip studio paint and a wacom intuos pro tablet that I got as a christmas present when i was like. 13 or 14 or something. I've had it for years and replaced once, and before that I got a cheap 40 dollar one to prove to my mom that I was serious about digital art before she'd buy a REALLY expensive one.

I wouldn't advise you to get a wacom tablet tho tbh, the port kept breaking and i eventually had to DIY a solution cause my warranty ran out and they wouldnt replace it anymore (DIY = buying a portable battery charger and an extra battery so I'd always have one ready to go)

as for my canvas sizes, idk. I kind of pick random comic page sizes. well, ok, not random, but i don't have like a go to size. if you look at some of my files they're shit like 1465 x 2342 or something.

generally i keep it in the 1000 to 3000 pixel range (except for Loose Stitches, which i make in the exact size webtoon demands because I can't be fucked to scale it down sfddsf) but the actual size as in SHAPE of the page depends on my presketches and the vibe im going for.

i dont have any tips on canvas's feeling weird, im most comfortable in clip studio paint cause i stuck with it longest (and it was fairly easy to learn i think) but to be honest some people just dont vibe with digital art. idk.

the planning phase goes way faster if i do it physically. something about sketching digitally just stalls out my brain, so i dont even bother. idk if that your issue but, yeah.

[hazygrains]

Only one photo was damaged. Weird because the other half was okay. Oh, the unknown surprises of instant photography!

My First Polaroid Cameras

Last year, I not only bought one but two Polaroid cameras on Carousell, a buy-and-sell platform. It was actually my first time owning this brand of instant camera. I remember when I was a kid, I used to refer to the Fujifilm Instax brand as 'Polaroid.' To me, every instant camera was a Polaroid. I even believed that shaking the film would make it develop faster. Well, as it turns out, that's just a common misconception about instant photography. Anyway, the seller informed me that he had obtained the cameras from an auction house. At first, I was hesitant because I preferred to personally inspect and test them. However, I decided to take the risk. The seller assured me that the cameras were in good condition and that he had already tested both of them, confirming they were working fine. I managed to get both cameras for the price of one. Not bad at all.

As soon as I received my new cameras, I promptly ordered the films. I started by testing the Polaroid 636 talking camera. This camera has an amazing feature that allows you to record your voice or music, and when you click the shutter button, it plays the recorded sound. Personally, I'm not a fan of its design as it lacks the classic Polaroid look, but it's still a Polaroid nonetheless. I also did some research to determine which type of film was suitable for this particular Polaroid model. I was amazed to discover that the old Polaroid cameras don't require batteries. Each pack of film contains a fresh battery that powers the camera. How cool is that?

When it came time to test the cameras, I found myself contemplating what to capture because the film isn't cheap. Each pack has only 8 exposures, and it costs around 1200–1500 PHP. Every shot is precious. So, for my first two packs, I took photos of my loved ones.

This is the second pack of Color 600 film, and I still have one shot left. As you can see, the last two photos here look damaged. This damage occurred due to how I handled the film during the transfer, as well as the fact that there was a significant gap in the time these images were taken. The most recent ones were taken just last month in September, while the previous image, before the last two, was taken in February. The film was stored inside the camera, which just sat on my shelf, untouched, and the storage conditions at home can become quite warm, and this seems to have had a damaging effect on the film.

The other camera I got was the Instant 1000 Deluxe. This one was much older and still had its box, which, according to the seller, was rare for a boxed ‘70s Polaroid. Unfortunately, when I tested this one out, it was not working. Yes, the dark slide was ejecting, but once I tried to click the shutter, it seemed like it was stuck. I still haven’t had the chance to have it fixed. Btw, I love the look of this one. Classic!

I also transferred the SX-70 films to a finished 600 film cartridge. I thought the SX-70 pack that I bought had a discharged battery, but still it wouldn’t work. Anyway, I just used the film using the Polatalk. I should just keep in mind that I need all the light I can get when shooting this because of its 160 ISO.

Here are the results:

Two photos were damaged in this SX-70 pack. I think it was because of how I handled the film during the transfer. Ahhh! I wasted two golden films. Lol! Anyway, the vibe of these photos is very vintage.

I love the overall retro look and feel of Polaroid. It's very different from the contrasty results of Instax. So yeah, can't wait to shoot more. If the budget permits, I would love to bring one of my Pola cams on my travel trips. But for now, we've got to stick to taking photos of our loved ones.

[ratboomerang]

kit dekarios

I just finished Baldur's Gate III for the first time. Yeah I'm in my emotions 😭 If there's anywhere to do the necessary gushing about my tav(and the game in general)(mostly the game in general), I figured this is probably the place to do it. cue the recipe blog exposition:

So here they are, in all their glory. I feel like getting sappy so here we go. Before Baldur's Gate, the only PC game I ever really played was the Sims 4. Even then, I only ever really build, as that's the fun part for me. I didn't realize how much I actually enjoy games that have more concrete depth and plot progression.

I didn't even know Baldur's Gate was a thing until I started seeing the flood of posts about a flamboyant vampire I'd never seen before. My first thought, deadass, was "alright, who's this cunt then?" because boy, had this caught my interest. Of course then I dove in. I've been blessed with multiple weekly D&D 5e games for a few years now, which I'm so thankful for. Fantasy vibes are absolutely a special interest of mine and D&D is an amazing resource to get consistent delicious content for it. Unfortunately, I didn't have any way to play this game. At the time, I was unemployed and facing the monster that is student loans. I didn't have a gaming laptop—just a macbook air from 2017 with a shitty battery life due to my 1000+ hours on the sims over four years. I was feeling MAJOR fomo as my friends all played, having fun conversations about what their unique experiences were like. I got so self-conscious, fearful that it would be blatantly obvious that I wasn't as "in-the-know" as everyone else participating. Fake fan, and all that. Of course, this was not a rational thought, but it was definitely a worry of mine at the time.

Cut to me finally getting a job—at my alma mater, no less. Almost immediately, I felt the weight of financial instability decrease significantly. To celebrate this accomplishment, I treated myself to a gaming laptop and Baldur's Gate. As a D&D player, to say this game is impressive is an understatement. I will continue to recommend it to folks who don't have as much luck when it comes to finding D&D groups. To actually SEE a fantasy world and my character in it is incredible. Theatre of the Mind is fantastic, but getting to see my characters in front of me, realistically animated, is something so special.

That's where Kit (they/he) comes in. For my first play through, I didn't want to use a character I already had. I wanted him to be my Baldur's Gate Character TM. I had finished a mini campaign as a monk a few months prior, and was sincerely missing him. Thus another trans monk was born.

When it came to romance, all I knew going into the game was what I had learned through assimilation. With that, I had come to the conclusion that if I had to guess, Gale or Wyll would win me over. Proud to say I was absolutely correct in my prediction. Wyll is charming as hell, and I am looking forward to the day where I start a run with the intention of romancing him. Something about this LOSER of a wizard though... (something something relatable trauma about self-worth, et cetera.) I'm currently working on a Gale cosplay, so wish me luck as I try to navigate constructing and sewing a costume from scratch for the first time.

I'm so happy with the way my game ended. Karlach lived. Gale proposed. Our party is tadpole-less. I accomplished things that, despite taking a few reloads, seemed impossible for a while (looking at you Raphael and the Boss Battle to End All Boss Battles). I've grown to love these characters so much, and Kit will always have such a special place in my heart as my first hero of Baldur's Gate as well as my first to romance Gale, hehe.

Anyway—this ended up being not SO much about Kit and more about my emotions finishing the game, but maybe I'll end up posting more about them. Shoutout to me for thinking to record the final blow of that last battle as well as the epilogue, and to my computer for swallowing the hour+ video like a champ. Now I have this little token of a gif to celebrate, and I'm so happy with it. I decided to combine that with a photo of Kit super early on at camp, versus him toasting at Withers's party. He went through no actual magic mirror changes, but he LOOKS older. LOOKS accomplished. I love it.

I think that's all I really have to say for now, I do indeed have work tomorrow (today) and it's past midnight. Just,,,,,,,, wanted to write out a sincere love letter to the game, as I'm feeling so lifted and satisfied right now. This is far from the end though—I've got two other active campaigns running, one multiplayer, and where I decided to pursue Astarion, which proved to be a challenge at first as someone who was having a hard time not being the most good-aligned hero. I'm excited though! There's so much more to explore! My heart is full.

[eloquentornot]

I watched all of MythicalSausage's stream live today.

(Except for a few minutes here and there where I had to get up and do other things, but for all of those I paused it then came back and watched on double speed until I was caught up. I was in the chat, live, as much as I could be.)

This is the VOD. I recommend. But I think part of the experience was seeing it live. Spoilers under the cut.

So, if you've seen his most recent episode, you'll know it ended with him trapped in yet another alternate dimension by Evil Sausage.

(If you saw the end of Jimmy's recent stream, the one he stopped suddenly because he realised he had the wrong meeting time, maybe you saw the moment Sausage told Jimmy a quick secret, changed his voice and said "I'm not the Sausage you know" to which Jimmy ran away, wondering if it was Xornoth or something.)

At the start of this stream, Sausage said there would be no lore, that it was strictly a material gathering stream in preparation for an upcoming big build. Chat asked him how he'd escaped, and his response? "What are you talking about? What do you mean, escape? No lore here, this is a no lore stream!" Or words to that effect.

The music was different, during this stream. Instead of Sanctuary's usual tunes, it was dramatic, sometimes dark, reminiscent of season 1!

He didn't go in the church, saying it was closed for renovations. He loved the dark tower, and could go in there fine. He forgot the names of Sanctuary's people. Eddie and Maria were "protected" by magical iron bars over all the exits of their house. Sunny was offline, being used as a battery for a future technological project...

It was pretty obvious very quickly to chat what was going on. We all called it out, that it was Evil Sausage in disguise. He continued to say this was a no lore stream. He started work on some interiors, taunted us with a tale of a dark sorcerer defeating a wizard and destroying a dragon egg, continued to deny that anything strange was happening at all.

fWhip interrupted, with exciting news about the Minecraft update! He asked for help with the new structure at spawn, and Gem came as well and there was plenty of messing around out of character as friends, but also I think he was actually fully in character as much as possible? Like, he somehow simultaneously was just himself hanging out with them while also giving vibes of being Evil Sausage Pretending To Be Sausage!?

At 1000 likes, he promised to tell us a secret. We all knew what it would be. I have never before asked fellow viewers in chat to like the stream I'm watching, and I will never again unless this specific kind of situation happens again. I don't normally catch streams all the way through like this. This is so exciting!

Fully in-character, he nevertheless involves chat, it's like being in a pantomime almost, only the only one of those I've ever actually been to I was too young to appreciate, and now I understand, it's another form of collaborative storytelling!

Also btw while the gang was messing around, fWhip showed him a shulker head and was surprised he didn't recognise it, and Jimmy said the name Hermes. So that plot point is looming closer!

When the likes goal was reached, it was time. The tension rose as he gradually prepared to tell us the secret. Chat was racing past, everyone screaming, we all knew what was coming, and yet...

That music box, from the previous stream featuring Evil Sausage. The game screen is hidden, and sound effects play. Then, his voice. Distorted. Our suspicions confirmed. It's him!

Then, the screen comes back, and he hasn't changed his skin! Evil Sausage is still fully disguised as normal Sausage! Then he sends us to where the real one is trapped, the music is Sanctuary's again, we tell him what's happened and then suddenly we're brought back! Evil Sausage goes to his dark Mythland, where for some reason it seems like the grey collared (evil?) Bubbles is trying to stop him from reaching the summoning circle! But he reaches it anyway, does some more magic, and... That's it. Apparently... the real Sausage is now permanently trapped six months in the past. Before even Bubbles or Eddie appeared to help him, let alone the Staff that allows him to travel between dimensions. (It also seems Evil Sausage has lost the Staff, and there was a "joke" at the start of the stream that the Staff is "sentient", so perhaps there's something there...)

We're sent back to Sausage, trapped in the past, for the end of the stream. He plans to escape the only way he can: to live out those six months again! We will see him again, soon, but for him it'll have been half a year...

I just can't describe how exciting this stream was! To watch the story unfold, live, able as an audience to interact with the character, it was so amazing! I do prefer videos to stream VODs for length, but I hope I manage to catch more streams live like this in the future if I can, it was so fun!!!

[benefits1986]

Candied Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner

As a donut seeking peace of mind, we fought a good fight yesterday, I guess.

And soooo, my 4th panganay aka pinsang Gen Z cheered as we rode our Grab kahapon. "Bring your daughter to office day" daw ang it's giving ng Thursday niya sa BGC pa. HAHAHAHAHA. Iyak ang funds at medyo bawas ang limit ng landi budget neto. Alam mo na... priorities.

Syempre, ang lala ng palpitations and overthinking ko kasi 'yung behind the scenes neto, mala-kunin ang ID sa matang-lawin manong guard levels na sumbungero sa nanay kong Taurus, ages ago.

This one should be easy, theoretically. Basic. Pero syempre, bumusina naman ako ng mainam sa abot ng kaya ko at nagbigay ng context sa mga kinuukulan kahit 'yung totoong ako e, okay, I won't explain and not give a damn because, I can and I will. Periodtzzz.

Hindi naman ito first time, kasi 'yung kapatid kong naa-anxiety attack ages ago rin, sinama ko sa pitch, sa OB at kasama sa kotse ng tatay ko sa start up. HAHAHHAHA. Pero noon, wala akong pasabi. Dumating na lang ako sa office ng bitbit ko siya. Syempre, gulat AF si itay at pati ang team ko. Sabi ko, hindi ako puwedeng pumili sa dalawa --family ba or work. Wala po tayong generational wealth, generational trauma lang. CHZ. Niloko ako ng frat boy tatay ko na grabe daw grit ko. Ako naman e, parang gipit, gitgit at gigil level 1000 lang talaga kasi bakit ba naman sa dinami-dami ng oras, ngayon pa ako walang choice kung 'di all of the above kasi nga... 'yun na nga.

I remember umupo pa 'yung kapatid ko sa pitch table kasi stable naman siya. Sedated. So parang naging plus points pa kasi dumami 'yung lean pitch team namin. Hay. Baliw talaga me. Yes po. Opo. Keep up.

Syempre, 'yung mga ka-team ko jaw drop szn sila. Sobrang strict kasi and by the book ng tatay namin hataw na hataw. Sabi ko naman, wala e. Sumubok lang ako at nilaban ko naman, since sanay naman akong matalo lagi.

Pinangaralan pa nung tatay ko at nung officemate ko 'yung kapatid ko. HAHAHAHAHA. Shemay. Probably, one of my longest days and nights since love ko nga mag-work, work, work noon sa isang male-dominated set up with my ultra feminine and unapologetic ways of getting ALL things done. Tabi. I told you, I have scarlet sins.

And sooooo, I dragged my palpitating self to the office yesterday. Sabi nung 4th anak ko, iba rin. 'Yung drip ko raw is giving Harajuku Barbie Baby Girl na dark and deadly. ULOL. Sabi ko naman, since 'di pa ako makakapag-Japan soon, practice OOTD muna ako, saka as a batang ina at 13, dapat our looks should be aligned. Fit check pa kami bago umalis. Tinanong pa ako neto kung puwede daw sa office suot ko. Gago talaga. Sabi ko anong mali sa drip ko. Sabi niya, wala. O e 'di, tapos. Sabi ko, puwede naman kaming mag-stay na lang sa house kung naabala siya ng look ko. More importantly, I follow the dress code and my body, my rules gaming lang talaga ako. Wala akong pake kasi I dress depending on how depressive I am. Happy? Mema din talaga 'to e. Pota. Gen Z --ingrown na may nana talaga ano? Hahahaha.

Sailor Mercury x Ravenclaw lang naman peg ko pero plus size. CHZ. Saka delulu vibes kasi inisip ko na lang potential Kawaii comments 'pag nakapag-Japan na ako ng malala with private onsen sa dojo with tea ceremony and traditional dinner while overlooking Mt. Fuji or something more interesting. AYWAW. :D Ganyan na lang talaga ako mag-overthink para hindi ko damdamin masyado 'yung fucking palpitations ko.

7:05 am kami dumating sa office para may runway akong 'di gaya ng NAIA. LOL. Naging smooth naman ang landing because I can and I did. :D Hahahahahahahhaha. Shemay. Ang aga. Hulas na bait-baitan vibes ko kasi Friday na, at weekend naaaaa naman pala.

Sabi ko sa kanya, 'pag may kumausap sa kanya unless kasama ako, sabihin: Sabi ni Bene, siya raw kausapin mo. LOL. 'Di naman daw siya mag-small talk because her social battery is so low, almost empty. Okay. Good.

Actually, puwede ko naman siyang pakawalan sa concrete jungle ng shithole ng Manila, BGC. Kaso, ayoko ng masyadong maraming variables sa constant silent battles niya. Mahirap na. Darating din kami sa part na 'yan mala-guryon style sa tamang panahon.

9:00 AM nasa standing desk na siya and nakapag-breakfast na. Para lang talaga siyang Tamagochi, kaya ang task niya is to take care of my Tamagochi. Hahahahaha. Tinanong kung puwedeng mag-laptop. Sabi ko, anong gagawin mo dito until lunch? Magmumukmok? Syempre, yes. Nu ba. Baka daw gagamitin ko personal laptop ko. Sabi ko, gusto mo, sa'yo 'tong work laptop ko. Ikaw mag-meeting. Tumigil siya. Dami ko pang need itawid kasi Thursday is fully booked day sa calendar ko among other things pa after the meetings.

Gave her a 32 oz flask of iced water to check her progress sa hydration since I think her pimples are not pimples. Stress-induced allergies na. Pinagsabihan ko pa na baka dahil din sa hair color niya because even her scalp is flaking so badly. UGH. Sabi ko magpa-check up na siya kasi lala 'yun dahil she keeps on agitating her face, ears, neck and the works.

I also had to do 1 meeting sa tabi niya para ma-sure ko anong headspace niya today. Feeling niya na naman kasi hassle 'yung pagsama niya sa office. :D Sabi ko, I got this. Tabi. 'Wag maarte. After the meeting, niloko ko sa kung anong feedback niya. Siya: Ay. Ganyan ka pala sa office. Mabait ang voice. Sweet girl. Sabay tawa. Saka inspiring daw ako and always guiding the team. Me: Bayad kasi 'to kaya malambing ako plus walang sunog at bagyo, this is utopia, for now. CHZ. Deep inside, tawang-tawa ako kasi mga kausap ko rin ay mga tulad niyang Gen Z who are growing their muscles na protein-deficient pa sa ngayon. Went to my desk of the day na kasi 'di ko na kayang mag-ipit ng boses at gigil. HAHAHAHAHHA.

'Yung utak ko, nasa pagtungga na lang ng naiwan kong wine. I like wine best when downed right from the bottle. 'Di nakakabitin. JUSQ. Kaya 'pag uwi nito, back to the ball game, baby. Babawi tayo ng malala. Hahahahahaha. 'Yan din reason why I like drinking alone. I don't like counting glasses, goblets and the like. Hassle. Too much fuss and pretentious. O kanal lang talaga ako and I don't care.

So, lunch time. Ayaw daw niya sa mahal since may allowance siya today. HAY. Pota. Hahahaha. Sige, convenience store galore. I can't decide what to eat. Dapat binaon ko na lang 'yung adobo kaso tinatamad akong bumili ng kanin pero, now, naisip ko lang, may kanin naman sa cafeteria namin. Nakatipid pa sana ako.

Ni-inception ko siya na punta siya sa Mitsukoshi after lunch. Tinuro ko 'yung daan na kita sa window ng office namin. Google maps na lang daw niya. Sabi ko, andami niyang alam. Hahahaha.

This Thursday lunch in BGC may be my most memorable one since kahit ilang subo lang ng bacon na ugh and masyadong matamis na macaroni salad, I saw her laugh one too many times. HUHUHUHU. Partida, may malalang palpitations pa ako niyan. BOOGSH. 'Yung lala ng palpitation, parang mapapa-clinic na ako levels TBH. Pero, sige... itatawid natin. Let's fucking light myself up like Ember. :D

Mahirap magpatawa ang mang-barda since I figured out she is one of my triggers. Lahat na lang, trigger ng sugatan, luhaan, 'di mapakinabangang nilalang. Off the roof po ang ating impostor syndrome na need ko pang check ang spelling rn.

Her effortless laughs and wicked comebacks over lunch naman are my glimmers. OPAK. 'Di ko kinaya 'yun. Alam mo 'yung nakikita kong she does not have social awkwardness, big win sa akin 'yun. Daig pa KPI kong 'di umaayaw. Kasi, 'pag napapatawa mo ng malala ang isang taong may mental health right after the spiral tapos mas malinaw na isip at intention niya, that is... magic.

Mga tanong at comeback pa neto e ang tinde. POTA. Palibhasa June moonchild. TACCA. Ilang beses ba namang tinanong kung sure ba akong ayaw kong magka-anak and family. Sabi ko niraspa ko na DIY mga egg cells and fallopian tubes ko para super duper safe na ang lahat kahit anong mangyari. Saka, I feel like, I can't afford to have another me. Sa kanya pa nga lang, suko na ako e. Paano pa 'pag 'yung sa sinapupunan ko na mismo galing? Anong kababalaghan at kashitan ang bitbit niya sa mundong ibabaw tapos true kasi talaga na, may mga ugali at quirks na manggaling sa sperm donor aka ama ng theoretical bata. E paano na 'yun? Hindi ko gustong alamin. Let's not go there, Satan.

Nung nasa Mitsukoshi na kami since clingy shitballs din 'to saka natuwa siya na in the zone siya sa office for her commissioned works na in fairness, 30K per pop, aba akala mo naman nakawala sa koral. Sabi ko sipat siya ng bet niya since parang maraming anime sadbois (LOLLOLL) naman sa mall kagabi. Sinulimpatan ba naman ako ng mata? Shet. SOOO ME. Sarap ingudngod. In fairness, tinanong ko saan napunta ang hustle funds niya, she plows it back to her biz PLUS syempre her manga obsession.

Dami niyang tili sa Fullybooked e. Tapos iyak na naman funds ko. Hahahaha. 'Yung gusto kong postcard ng Ghibli, from soft pass, naging hard pass. Tapos pinaka bet niya 12K na Bleach boxed set. 'Yan ang dahilan na isa pa why ayokong mag-anak. POTA. Paano na Shein finds 'pag stressed out ako? Mga 3 weeks from now na lang ulit siguro among other things.

Sabi ko, bilhin na niya 'yung 2 books niya after 3 hours of waiting na almost nakatulog na ako sa seat outside the bookstore. TACCA. Ayaw-ayaw pa. Papilit pa. Pero kilig level 10000000 nung inabot sa kanya 'yung haul niya.

Kumain din kami ng hindi mura and hindi masarap na dinner dahil gusto daw niya ma-try ang food court. Sabi ko naman, okay lang kasi 'pag nag-Japan na siya, wala na. Finished na. 'Yung food court kasi ng mall na 'to, parang Starmall Alabang levels. HAHAHHAHA. Wala akong pake kung 35M 'yung presell ng condo kakabit neto. Wala.

I remember nung nialok ako ng condo dito, sabi ko talaga na I have my tiny house na po plus I don't have funds. Thank you. Sinabi nung taga-benta na, okay lang daw basta kunin ko 'yung flyers and leave contact details. JUSQ, mhie. Condo fucking living. So much hassle pero I do get why it works naman lalo for those who can afford it at gusto ng own world nila. Gets ko. Easyhan ko na. Eto na.

Pagod na pagod ako, pero kanina woke up at 4:10 AM this yaya-mayordoma. LOL. Palowbatt na laptop ko, so, let's slay Friday, Saturday and Sinday. Sunday pala. CHZZZ. PS: BL vibes na lang din ang naging baon ko para sa Huwebes. So, share ko na rin dito and nakahanap na rin ako ng BL babies sa team. It's giving... :D Armiiiiiiiiii!!!! Wagas kang tunay. HUHUHUHUHUHUHU. PS: More and more and more hustle and work, work, work, kasi in a parallel universe, gusto ko na bitbitin 'tong 4th anak ko sa Japan tapos alam na ang mga paganaps. Darating din ako diyan. For now, sabakan na duguan muna. Nag-message pa after ng call: ...Don't let it eat you up. Keep me updated. May emojis pa. Yes, emojis. Thank God for my people, my tribe. Thank you, universe.

[techguys]

5 Portable Mini Bluetooth Speakers for Every Budget

Be it a house party, a pool party, casual hangout at home, a road trip or a hike, having the right type of music flowing around you makes a lot of difference. They add to the overall vibe and uplift the mood.

If you are someone who likes to carry their music everywhere they go then you have to invest in mini bluetooth speakers. They are compact and lightweight. You can easily toss them in your backpack and take them wherever you want. But finding the right speakers can be a task. Especially when the market is flooded with so many options.

If you are also thinking of buying the best bluetooth speakers and are not able to decide which one, then read on.

We have curated the following list of speakers for every budget that are travel friendly and powerful.

Stone 190

Portable & powerful - these bluetooth speakers are perfect for travel. The lightweight design and the ergonomic build gives it an edge.  Equipped with a 52mm dynamic driver, this mini speaker delivers immersive sound that will make any party lit. You can easily connect them with the device of your choice over bluetooth v5.0 and stream your favorite tunes. And if you do not want to use bluetooth, you can always use an AUX cable to establish a secure connection. This dual mode of connectivity gives you the freedom to choose and pair the device of your choice. Its powerful 800mAh battery offers a playback of up to 4H.

Be it a pool party or a trek up the mountains - feel free to take this speaker anywhere and everywhere you go. Don’t worry about any splashes of water doing any harm to your mini bluetooth speaker as it comes with an IPX7 water resistance rating.

Stone 1000 v2

Party all night long and enjoy impactful music with this portable speaker. The 14W stereo audio with a passive bass radiator brings your music to life and will instantly force everyone to join the dance floor. Designed by acoustic experts, it pumps out powerful stereo audio that is loud, clear and accurate. With this speaker, you have a choice to either stream music over bluetooth or establish a wired connection (meaning that this speaker supports both modes for connectivity - bluetooth and aux). The intuitive controls further add convenience and control to your listening experience. Whether it is a road trip or a casual hangout, this bluetooth speaker will keep on pumping out amazing music for up to 8h. The 3000mAh battery stays strong for this long. The IPX5 water & splash resistance rating keeps it safe from any accidents. So, feel free to take this mini bluetooth speaker anywhere and everywhere.

JBL Clubz 750

JBL has been around for quite some time. It is known for its amazing quality of products. This speaker also falls into the league of amazing JBL audio products. Equipped with dual equalizers, this speaker delivers impactful audio. You can also enjoy enhanced bass and switch up the bass by pressing the vol up & down button simultaneously. And if you want to take your party to another level, you can simply connect this with another clubz speaker and enjoy. The 2600mAh battery offers a playtime of up to 10H. And if you want to save battery, you can always use an aux to stream music from the device of your choice. The waterproof design with IPX7 rating is a relief. As it keeps the speakers protected from any accidental spills or splatters.

Mi Bluetooth Speaker

Sleek and classy, this speaker is designed for all the audiophiles out there. The smooth metal structure adds to the overall look & feel of the speaker. The two built-in speaker units in the speaker use strong NdFeB magnets paired with Ferrotec FRM4005 Ferrofluid cooling technology and a black anodizing oxide aluminum alloy diaphragm to make the music quality richer and truer.

What’s interesting about this speaker is that you can also use it to take hands-free calls. All thanks to the in-built mic 7 speaker. This adds convenience to your life as you do not have to switch devices. It offers an 8 hour playback time.

BoultAudio Bassbox

Get your hands on your ultimate portable music companion now! This bluetooth speaker is built for outdoors and indoors. The IPX5 rating givs you the freedom to carry your music to beaches or pools. The 10W speaker offers an amazing stereo sound which is occupied with a passive bass radiator. You can count on this speaker to provide you with amazing audio for 8 hrs straight! The dedicated controls for volume, music playback and calls help you stay in charge of your listening experience, always. So what are you still waiting for? Get your hands on your favorite travel companion now.

[ghostoftheyear]

I've finally played some and I'm sad.

It seems like a beautifully polished, lovely game. I can't read a single word. Even if I was fluent in Japanese, I would still be unable to read any of it. The text is so small and my eyesight is so bad.

I can't figure out where the gacha is or how to pick my favorite. I have managed to do high-fives at the end of songs by pure chance. I couldn't tell you what my player ID is because I have no idea where to find it.

But I played the three new songs (I like QN's, the vibe is groovy) and Maji LOVE 1000%, and I can't even glance at the dancing boys because I was just trying to perceive the notes so I could hit them in time. Which, because of the color scheme, I also have difficulty doing.

So I probably won't be able to play it. And yeah, that makes me sad.

Also, it drained like 80% of my phone's battery just in the download phase, so that doesn't seem very good.

I really wasn't going to, but I finally caved and downloaded Live Emotion. Now to pray I can actually comprehend anything from it to play...

[morkleemelon]

nct ideal types 2021 :: dream

127 version | this has been on my mind for a bit and I wanted to write it down- these will consist of confirmed facts and then my own thoughts. the latter part is, as it sounds, strictly from my opinion and observation and may well not be accurate. this is just for fun! proceed~

mark lee:

confirmed: likes someone with long black hair who is nice (on air nct show)

my thoughts:

he moved to korea to train when he was like 13 and has been busy as a bee ever since. I don’t know his life but I feel like he hasn’t really had the chance to date much if at all yet. this brings me to think he would prefer someone who can lead in the relationship

he grew up christian and seems to still hold those ideals. although if he really liked someone it wouldn’t be an issue, this makes me think he would be drawn to someone with similar ideals

he laughs a lot and gets along well with people who are funny (haechan, yuta, jungwoo). I think that he would like someone with a good sense of humor

he doesn’t spend money lavishly and prefers to use what he has (i.e. the jansport backpack, not having youtube premium, keeping all the gifts he receives in his bag). all of this points to him preferring someone modest and not wasteful

mark got jisung a bracelet that costs over $1000 for his birthday (what a good bro I’m cry). he likes songs like ‘I got you’ by Bazzi (mark superm quarantine playlist) which is about spoiling a girl. this all makes me think that although he is frugal for himself, he likes spoiling others and would like to spoil his significant other

From Japan official book vol 1, mark said he wasn’t sure what his ideal first date would be, but he answered that it would be to go to a restaurant and have a good meal because he likes eating. So someone who’s down for simple dates and perhaps also good at cooking (because our boy can’t even make an egg)

From the same magazine, he said he doesn’t care about fashion and would like his partner to “wear what she likes”. Doesn’t seem like he goes for style much!

huang renjun:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

I strongly feel like he would want to feel like the ‘man in the relationship’. he would want to feel protective over his partner and that’s why I think he would adore someone smaller than him

he’s full of chaotic rage energy (in the cutest way that would never actually hurt anybody). to balance out these vibes, renjun would match well with someone calm and sweet

looks-wise besides being a petite person, I can envision someone very cute, probably with shorter, un-dyed hair

renjun is into sci-fi movies and shows and confirmed he believes in aliens (weekly idol). I think he’d be drawn to someone with a big imagination who likes sci-fi as well

lee jeno:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

jeno is really really shy (when he met yeeun from clc to mc together, they said they couldn’t even talk at first because it was so awkward). I think jeno would like someone more outgoing but not overwhelming

I feel like his ideal type is literally like renjun- a little fiesty and literally, little. jeno has mentioned that he loves renjun’s voice too, so perhaps he would be interested in someone with a nice voice

he works out a lot and likes physical activities like biking and going to the gym. I think he’d like someone who values fitness and health too

he loves animals and has 3 cats of his own despite being allergic. because of this, I think he’d like a person who loves animals too

lee haechan:

confirmed: someone with a nice voice/ singing voice. someone with shorter hair

my thoughts:

he’s so extroverted and craves attention from whoever he’s around, and that wouldn’t be an exception for the person he likes. he’d want someone who looks up to him and gives him attention

he’s still really young and even enjoys movies like the kissing booth (I’m sorry I had to bring it up because I think it’s important). ignoring the actual bad parts of that movie, I think he’s interested in that young love, dancing together at the arcade, kissing in the rain, come over to his house in secret, type relationship

haechan seems to be especially close friends with foreign swaggers line (mark, johnny, jaehyun) so I’m thinking that perhaps he likes the western vibe

during oshiete Japan, he and Yuta were the only ones who chose to give three roses to a hypothetical ‘lover’ (they had to choose between 4 types of roses to give). the psychologist said that this means haechan is “flirty and attention-seeking” which makes a lot of sense. this adds to my point that he would like someone who gives him a lot of attention and good reactions

during a recent fansign (1/23?) OP asked “what are things girls do that makes you flattered?” to which he answered “when I did something wrong and get scolded, that scary look makes me flattered”. although it’s a bit awkwardly translated, this insinuates that he likes it when he gets scolded by a girl. *jaemin voice* sexayyy. thus, I’m adding that haechan likes a someone strong headed and not afraid to scold him

na jaemin:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

he has a sort of 180 personality where he’s either really energetic or prefers to be in the background. jeno says that jaemin hardly talks at the dorms after schedules because his social battery is dead. this is classic introvert behavior so I think he would vibe well with someone patient and calm

he’s the sweetest boy and he volunteers often for unicef and was even cast to sm while he was volunteering. he’d appreciate someone who shares similar values and likes helping others

I think he often doesn’t think or worry about himself. he goes out of his way to please others and help others and often disregards what he actually wants because of it (i.e. taking his shirt off at the dream show even though he was uncomfortable I’m so sad poor baby). he needs someone who is thoughtful and who reminds him when it’s time to stop and think of himself

looks-wise, I’m gonna be completely honest when I say I think he doesn’t go for looks. personality and morals are key

his favorite member of snsd is tiffany. he never confirmed if she was his ideal type, but perhaps he’s attracted to her bubbly, girly personality

zhong chenle:

confirmed: he’s only into girls (vlive)

my thoughts:

this may be a stretch, but in a live he was doing, chenle was talking about which member of wayv princesses was the prettiest. he said something along the lines of ‘ew they all looked weird’ but later admitted that kun was probably the only one who ‘looked okay’. kun was snow white which brings me to my first prediction which is that lele likes the classic chinese beauty (black hair, pale skin, elegant, gentle)

chenle loves winning and he loves to be praised. although his mbti shows that he’s an introvert, he would crave the full attention of his s/o. someone who looks only at him

during the from home live, he was asked to act out a scenario where he accidentally ate his girlfriend’s food. haechan (who was acting as the girlfriend) went “buy me 10 more” and chenle just went “okay :)”. ngl, kinda fell in love with him then but this makes me think he’d want someone to spoil

park jisung:

confirmed: likes it when people call him 오빠 (oppa) - take this how you will

my thoughts:

debuting at 14, I’m quite sure he hasn’t had the opportunity to have a relationship yet. this being said, he also seems quite innocent and shy which is why I think he would prefer someone who knows what they’re doing and isn’t afraid to speak their opinion

just from vibes, I think he would wanna be with someone like a best friend to him. someone who’s down to just hang out and talk, play video games and watch movies etc.

he’s quite tall (the tallest in dream) so I think he’d actually be ok with a tall person maybe even around the same height as him

maybe not a definite need, but I feel like he’d be impressed by someone who can dance well since dancing is such a big part of his life

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

Man how do I talk about my work in a professional manner? My thought process is all about the vibes. I can’t just say “I wanted to make it real crunchy looking. super grungy and saturated and jaggedy. all grainy, and I imagine it smells like gasoline. Lookin like it could run on a potato battery. These are good things btw”

I’m supposed to write a 1000 word report, I’m getting to the point where I’ve run out of normal people words to say. We’re gonna start talking about the vibes, man.

[reidsnose]

Lucie !! 💕💕Congrats on 1k I love you and your account so much you were my first mutual ever when I started tumbler like two months ago! So Thank you and Thank you for literally teaching hing me how to do everything cause this app was so fücking confusing in the beginning 😀😭 you deserve 1k !! A description of me I would say I’m I’m a extraverted introvert I really do enjoy going out and having fun but I hate being in big groups meeting knew people and knew environments it’s scares me 😭 People describe be as very loyal, funny and outgoing and just a blast to be around I enjoy writing and reading and I like being around people. Hope this helps for a description! And my favourite character is Spencer

🎩🌙🕊

1000 follower celebration

hiiii !!! thank u ! i love u too and me being your first mutual makes me so soft awww im so glad were friends :)

🎩- ok my first impression of you was that you were literally the sweetest ever like i just off the bat really wanted to be your friend and here we are :)

🌙- ok not for nothing i 100% see spencer as being your bestie. just like joint at the hip, always together, so many inside jokes yall are practically speaking a new language!!! in big, new environments yall would stick together and find yourselves a little corner to vibe in with each other :) the whole team adores you and u and reid are totally their babies

🕊-

dear vanessa,

derek made me go clubbing with him this weekend and it was AWFUL!!! all i could think about was you being there because i knew you'd understand how i felt. i need a social battery recharge as soon as possible; do you wanna come over and read together? ill make us coffee!

love always,

spencer :)

[themeed]

damn allowed myself to want things for a day and all i want is a van to live in, knowledge, freedom, weight loss, and a bass guitar.

im. happy with that i think. im proud of me, no jokes. im proud of being able to want things and care about them and vibrate towards them with longing. im... pleased with that. its fulfilling in a way Not Wanting For Anything isnt, because thats... kinda hollow. empty. in a vacant, lonely, yearning and grieving and SAD way. maybe because i Couldnt Want then. i Couldnt Desire or it would be used against me or taken away. that sucks. that sucked.

and now. im free to want again. and comparatively???? i think im very much never going to aim for buddhism or that weird Not Desiring Not Attached Nirvana mindset. like good for u but been there out of trauma and its not fun theres no reason to truly Live. u just float endlessly and experience and it aches so badly!!!! it hurts to want to want and not be able to. and i guess that is different from not wanting at all but... its not different enough for me to justify ever going back to that. or going forward to that. i just got this back and screw enlightenment if it means i have to give up on my passions i dont think life is worth living without it.

and anybody who looks down on that from a spiritual tower has yet to examine their own pride and how empty they feel without it.

anybody who looks down and smiles and wishes me luck on my journey? good for them. im glad theyre living their best life, on their journey as they see fit.

and i feel the need to protect myself because ive been hurt by the pride- the arrogance of others before. a lot of my hurts and traumas stem from my mother being too prideful to recognize that she can be wrong and someone under her power could be correct over her. and it was an uncomfortable truth. so she denied it was one at all and hurt me. i know the reason could be elaborated on. she didnt want to confront her own internal logic. or trauma. or even doublethink. that doesnt excuse her hurting a child for the sake of her sense of pride, of comfort, of self-worth. a child under her power, that she claimed to be parent of. teacher of.

not owing anyone anything is not the same as not hurting anyone. i havent reconciled that yet. oppressors should be held accountable for their mistakes, and give reparations if the harm is physical at LEAST. and i think that applies to politics, yes. privately though? if i beat up a nazi, i dont want to pay for his hospital bills. my personal philosophy struggles between equating people and ideas as a worth measurement, and realizing that that line of thinking is... similar to oppressors. but. its based on something people can change. the question is, do i think "if given the opportunity" is a good enough reason to stop and question a racist that runs their mouth? and do i think pre-emptive violence is okay? if say, a nazi walks into a bar and doesnt say anything but is wearing all the red flags and bells and whistles. i dont think that justifies a beatdown. being asked to leave, sure, but the beatdown doesnt start til the first remark flies.

once the intent is given OR the action is taken, the line is drawn. doesnt matter if they Havent Had The Chance. if theyre starting shit outside of debate spaces like that, and not, say, asking questions, theyre not looking for new perspectives, and it is NOT my job to educate people. its not my job to Show People The Light. a quick fucking google search could tell them why theyre wrong. if they havent put even the most basic energy into questioning their beliefs, thats on them.

it sounds like im trying to absolve myself of blame here. largely because. i think i should go out and help educate people because theyre inherently complacent if theyre, yknow, in a position of power. aka white folk and men and rich folk and cis folk and on and on and on. these people dont live my reality. they dont live the reality of a gay black man in the south, or a genderqueer lesbian in the west, or an indigenous woman whose nation is being targeted, or a muslim woman who cannot wear her headcoverings in the face of danger of death, or an asian immigrant who cant get a job because of COVD age discrimination resurging. we will never live each others realities, but we can become aware of them.

they wont come into awareness without someone asking or telling, and then doing something to change them.

we shouldnt need to go running to people in power for them to be aware of problems in the populace, govt is supposed to help and solve issues like this. like. actively. thats the whole point, make life better for the countrys citizens. and individuals in a position of social power...

are individuals who didnt take on a responsibility to protect and serve or otherwise care for the populace of a nation. i personally think they SHOULD care, but they are not obligated to. i cant make them care about others.

and honestly, on some of them, it would be a waste of time. there are people who want to change or question things and yknow what? they seek out answers. in people or places or online usually. stats and stories.

so like. i dont think someones Potential as a person matters when theres a throwdown about to happen. it really isnt my responsibility to save people from themselves or try to change their sides against their will. if they want to chat about it they can ask questions first.

not throw insults or punches or hatred.

what people have been taught is worth analyzing and trying to correct IN SOCIETY but i cant fix every broken white boy that comes to me. PSAs, fliers, outreach, online videos, debate spaces. those are things i already have access to and can be a part of if i really want to go around changing minds. or yknow. get involved in legislation and be myself around others to change their perceptions of whats socially acceptable or normal. maybe protest, maybe call congressfolk, etc.

but not every comment has to be analyzed or a learning opportunity. im allowed to shut it down, and people can respect that or stop talking to me. this isnt my parents house where i had to justify everything that i said or did when scrutinized, and doubly justify any criticism i had of mother, or any joke i frowned at instead of smiling.

these people dont have that power over me. they arent my mother. they arent my boss, and if they are i can fuck off and get a new job if necessary. they dont have financial control over my living space and food and schooling and physical control of where i can go and with who and for how long. I CONTROL THAT. I do.

Huh. maybe thats why i want a van so bad. i mean... when this lease ends if nobody is gonna end up living with me...

i could just... live in my car and shower at truck stops. get a storage unit for my stuff. save by driving jobs. like 40 to 60 a day. tear out my cars back, insulate it, and install my mattress pad there. water on the floor, cooler next to it, wooden cutting coard, knife, single camping plateware set, and another little shelf for spices. maybe a hot plate i can hook up to the car battery? get a long enough usb and it might be doable. i could go camping and open the trunk to just... vibe.

because yeah, honestly? i dont plan on having a solid apartment for a bit. like a long bit. and i still have like 70000 miles on my car before itll want to go. and by that point, even at like 100 miles a day, thats like 2 years, less if i go cross country in that vehicle. i could save up SO MUCH for a better vehicle, or like. college. live on campus, get some credit, continue working after i figure out want i want to do.

i think thats a solid plan, even if i dont get another apartment and put everything in storage. work as i need to instead of all the time for rent, really only paying for gas, car repairs, car ins, food, and phone data/hotspot internet... that would bring my monthly expenses down to like 500 a month max instead of like 1400. id only need to make some 1000 a month doing contract stuff to save for taxes and stuff. anything extra would be just that: extra for savings and things. holy shit.

depending on how this next month goes for my friends, holy s h i t.

i. i might do this. legitimately.

i. dont think i can yet. i need proof of address to get my license im pretty sure? but hey, thatll be my 21st this year, so. once i have that i wont need a new address for a While. i dont know if ill want one, really.

i could always just ask a friend or family member if i could use theirs for mail that cant go to a PO box.

anyway. yeah. wow.

[floorbed]

6, 10, 21, 26, 40 for both pen and agni!

THANK U QUILL THIS ASK MEME IS SO GOOD....

6. How does your character express that they’re uncomfortable?

pen outright states it most of the time and confronts whoever or whatever is making him uncomfortable in a very loud and obvious way, unless its in a situation where hes in a Proper Setting and needs to be Manners Boy in which case he will express Nothing :)

agni drops everything and simply Walks Away no explantation given until she is far enough away to be out of the situation

10. If they were in a rock band, what role would they play?

pen wld be a little singer guy i think >:)

agni wld do stage managing stuff! creative director for things like lights n projections n sound mixing during live shows >:)

21. If they were a potion, what would it look like? (Color, glass shape, smell, etc.)

if pen were a potion it would be like. one of those bottles that kind of look like perfume bottles w all the tapered edges that refract the light and everything . little gemstones along the base. the liquid wld look like a deep wine red w/ gold shimmer, kind of like when u use a bathbomb and all the glitter swirls and pools around in the water u know. and it wld smell like strawberries <3

if agni were a potion it wld be in a nondescript glass vial and it wld just look like Water u know same level of just being completely clear n same consistency like anyone looking at it wld just be like. oh vial of water. and it wld smell like battery acid <3

26. What would they want for their funeral? 

pen wld want a wake, first of all, with everyone he loves there, n he’d want to be put in a pretty white dress with flowers all around him n he’d want his hair to be all pretty and perfect! he’d want his wake to be like . a Vibe Session with all of his friends basically. and he’d just kind of want it to look like a very fancy party. he’d want there to be dancing. n he’d want for his body to just like chill there and be pretty for the day and anyone who wants to can come up n see him and talk to him again. and then hed like to be buried in a very pretty engraved coffin that has like. the sheets and pillows you know. lots of Lace. he’d want to be buried in tarbyen still i think

agni does not care abt what happens to her body But she’d want all her writings n research to finally get published in her name n widely distributed to scholars and the general public alike! 

40 Describe a corruption/redemption arc version of your character.

corruption arc time!

pen. h. wld probably look like. Full Dominion Brainrot Time. he wld resent his mom for ever wanting to leave the palace. he’d be bitchy but not in a self-conscious way anymore it wld just be like. solely for the sake of being cruel bc a) he’d think its funny and b) it wld allow him to finally feel like. superior to others bc he hadnt gotten to feel like that for most of his childhood? he wld 1000% accept strahds offer and become a little conditionally immortal vampire boy that wld fight the party when the time came! lol

agni wld be. god. yeah just like full Evil Scientist Lesbian vibes. if she’d actually graduated from school and started working for the cerberus assembly and never started self experimenting and was still the way she was @ school just like very. stressed out and determined to fulfill people’s expectations of her. but in her adult life in a real career that translating to like. Doing Fucked Up Cogsci / Chemistry Shit to impress her higher-ups and turning her non-understanding of her own emotions into purposeful disconnection from her own emotions 2 be used as a tool so as to not care abt how her advancements cld be hurting others. lol. Extremely Competent And Driven.

[lilflowerpot]

What if Lotor took place of princess Allura? Like, 1000 years /decapheobes before canon Voltron timeline he finds princess and Coran and tries to talk with them but Allura doesnt want to even look at a garla (Coran is more chill) so Lotor decides he is going to freeze them until Voltron comes. When they do, he only u freezes Coran because he is helpful also, I'm going to ignore the fact that obly Allura can use the castle. They'll use her as a battery

I don’t feel that this quite vibes with my personal interpretation of Lotor’s character? Not to mention that LB’s Lotor is not 10,000 years old as he is in canon, so the whole “waiting around until Voltron re-emerges” thing wouldn’t really work.. I suppose I can maybe see canon Lotor doing this, but LB’s Lotor wouldn’t forcibly freeze Coran and Allura if they didn’t act as he wished - nor would he unfreeze only Coran, because I think he’s astute enough to realise that Coran wouldn’t be happy with leaving Allura in cryostasis no matter how poorly she behaved towards Lotor for being Galra (especially not if she were to be used as a battery).