#autopilot off

[myvinylplaylist]

Vans Warped Tour 2001 Tour Compilation (2001)

Side One Dummy

[petrifiedfountainofthoughts]

more of a bastard than i've ever been before i'd be better off just bashing in my brains

[badninken]

Law going through some kinda involuntary goldilocks situation where he can't remember whether he actually saved a bear by using ninja moves or not, because he's too fucked up on lead and multiple types of trauma, so he just has to trust the word of his brand new best friend and biggest fan for life: BEPO! Scene from Little Hearts

[novelmonger]

And the 12th day showed That the sun still rose As we tried to find our way

[raceweek]

there’s other teams being slow and then there’s williams who have a car that overheats significantly after one single race lap, requires several systems to be disengaged to survive a race distance and, most importantly, have a steering wheel which is seemingly autonomous and poses a serious safety concern😭 james??????

[tubes-the-ann]

You put the lethal in the company

[malaiz]

why cuddy/house has me crashing out

(essay) (ravings of lunacy) (help me)

at the beginning of s7, house told cuddy that their relationship would never work. he was right. but why?

because house's relationship with lisa cuddy is exactly the same as the relationship he had with his father.

cuddy is, for lack of a better word, a god to house. she's the reason he has a job, a place to live, access to drugs, meaningful relationships (with his employees + wilson). she directly or indirectly provides him with everything that keeps his life from being a living hell. she gives house roof over his head, and expects house to follow her rules in return. in every other way (every emotional way), she neglects him. punishes him when he tries to act on his own. see the parallels?

house, while not aware of it, completes the dynamic agonizingly well. while he pushes back just enough to make himself feel in control, he always submits when it matters. and in his own sarcastic, explicit, fucked-up way he's constantly seeking her approval, which he never gets. (if anything, his attempts to disrespect or objectify her are a pathetically obvious allusion to how much of a hold she has over his life. it's his defense mechanism).

this cycle of subconsciously seeking approval and love while outwardly projecting misanthropy started when he was a child. he never got the love/acceptance he needed at home, so he carried it with him. it's his biggest flaw. because as much as he doesn't want to believe he needs anyone or cares what they think, he does. childhood trauma (cptsd) is a bitch. he's just seeking positive attention after years of abuse and neglect.

clearly, it isn't working.

in the crane episode, house reached his breaking point. as much as he tried to do what everyone else told him to do over and over again, all it led to was everyone else being happy, not him. he treated people well. made their lives easier. he did what wilson wanted him to do, what cuddy wanted him to do, what his father wanted him to do. in return, he got nothing. he sacrificed so many parts of himself to fit the mold, and wilson still kicked him out. cuddy still rejected him. his patient still died. it's almost like whether or not he listened to his parents colleagues, they abandoned him all the same.

it didn't work. ignoring his own instinct never worked. betraying himself over and over again was never going to make him happy, and he knew that! he was going to heal! he was finally going to start caring about himself before anyone else! sure, it would suck. he would lose people. he would be an addict. but ironically, he would have escaped the cycle! this was his chance at freedom. happiness.

and then cuddy shows up.

try to imagine you're house. you've tried so hard to follow the ten commandments your whole life, to be good enough for the people who control you to finally love you. praying to god every night with only a silent sky and darkness and more pain to show for it.

you've realized it's hopeless, meaningless, impossible. your father was never going to love you. cuddy was never going to love you. maybe, maybe, you just need to show some love to yourself.

suddenly, god shows up in your apartment and cares for you and loves you and has sex with you because oops! they were just so busy with all those rules that they didn't realize how perfect you were all along! they've always loved you, just- shrug- it was an accident!

^(try to figure out which one house actually believes)

house can't even tell cuddy that he loves her back!

now, don't let me forget miss lisa. the one who ignored his endless neediness over and over again until he finally told her he hated her and was done chasing her. it pissed her off! she liked the attention! so she gets revenge.

by making house cut off the leg of a woman who is a near-perfect replica of himself; making house betray himself and everything he believed. by making him listen to her.

she broke him.

to save a woman's life! because she's the benevolent kind of god who saves people and gives pain-riddled drug addicts a job in return for their loyalty and submission. who rewards them when they torture a woman by sawing off their limbs just because she told them to.

"you make me a better person."

that's what she told house in the beginning of their relationship. and it's true! technically! showing mercy towards house makes her a good person, and it makes her feel powerful. (i don't even want to get into her telling house that he needs to "let go" because he "makes everyone around him miserable" when she's the one who chooses to keep him on a leash)

when cuddy found him on the floor, about to relapse, all she did was leave a physical mark on something she already knew was hers. fed a starving, shivering, beaten dog the manna of heaven. not sustenance, not a blanket, not warmth. just another false promise of love.

she locked him outside (slept with lucas), held him down in freezing water (told him she would never love him and that he made her miserable), and suddenly decided to let him back in. to save him!

jk. it was just to keep him begging at her feet. to ensure he would never try to leave or change or think for himself again.

(she 'loves' him, he 'loves' her, and neither of them know what 'love' is)

[remitro]

isatlings on my geo homework…… Woag

[tanjir0se]

Ok AU where Giyuu was close enough that he DID witness parts of Sabito’s fight with the hand demon/ his death but just has dissociative amnesia because of the sheer trauma it caused him so now he only remembers in flashes and nightmares💖🌸✨ where he limps back to Urokodaki’s covered in Sabito’s blood rather than his own but can’t remember why 💖✨🌸 waking up with nightmares of hands reaching for him, grabbing him, wrapping around his neck or trying to tear him apart, but not understanding them🥰💫having to be reminded over and over and over that Sabito is dead because how could that be, I was just with him, he was just right there, he said he was coming right back.

[flibbertigibbety-jibber-jabber]

Hey cro

tell me about your graysted au cro

i’m planning smth cro… smirks

Hey cro 🌹 I deffo put too much but I had to get it out cro 🌹 excited to see what you're planning cro 🌹

Mark specifically

Mark is orphaned after Debbie dies & Nolan leaves the planet, and taken in by the GDA where Cecil is made his legal guardian (not rlly a father, Donald is closer tho)

He doesn't know Viltrumites are bad, or really how everything went down, and thinks his birthright(?) is to be the defender of the planet

Comes off as a stickler who's reserved, strategic, responsible, and ambitious. At heart, he's also awkward, curious, nerdy, a lil silly, and very very determined!! Very easily falls for ragebait, loves seance dog and space, and is silly when prompted

Some unspecified health thing (can't pinpoint b/c interacts weirdly with Viltrumite genes) that he's got futuristic medical implants (and augments) to help with (still there but managed yk :P)

Orphaned at 9~10, gets his powers at 15, starts missions at 16~17, and "main plot" picks up at 17~18

His closest friend is Rex, who's his teammate, who drags him off to do "normal teen stuff" so he doesn't "go grey". Also friends with Kate (teammate), William (childhood bsf), Amber (crush), Amanda (ally), and some agents lol,,, weird relationship with Robot and Sam/Eve.

Little tidbit about other characters/groups juuust in case (still working out some parts)

Global Defense Junior Unit consists of Mark, Rex, Kate, and Robot (who rlly just watches over them). Rex and Kate came to the GDA for their own reasons (mostly to deal with powers), and have been training with Mark since they were ~16 and Mark was 15. ("Armored" suits are given to GDA units… they take in ppl when asked/useful 🙏)

Cecil x Donald canon,,,, yeysesssss

OG Guardians are still together (though Samson is retired due to power loss, and Darkwing is retiring soon)

Sam (Eve in my AU) works solo mostly, but is allied to Rae and Amanda (who work together, still brainstorming some of their team).

William, Amber, and Sam went to school together and met through that. Rick comes along later (but is only friends for a long time,,, Williams different)

Still figuring out some stuff with other characters and crafting up some minor hero OCs to fill in the gaps!!! ^_^ (don't want to announce anything I'm not positive on until I've got a good idea of it)

If you need specifics on something/I left something out let me know cro 🌹

[serenityquest]

[ghoulinfuschia]

Sometimes I find myself acutely aware of how far I’ve come in my life and it fills me with love. It’s amazing to be alive. Something about being human is so unreal, but we never stop and think about it because we’re too busy living.

Your story is your own, and unlike anyone else’s. Isn’t that so cool?

[jame7t]

Honestly the Tesla autopilot thing shutoff thing is probably to prevent the assisted driving from causing more damage during a crash. However, since it’s marketed as autopilot, and everything else surrounding Tesla and it’s CEO, they haven’t earned the benefit of the doubt from me or anyone else.

[lem0nb0nes]

started off as a little doodle and then The Voices consumed me. halfway through i realized towers' mimic body (no, not the mimic) ISNT supposed to have the little top things

(mimic towers for reference) but it looked cool so i kept it anyways

[abirddogmoment]

sillies beget sillies enrichment idea #9

goal: be silly with your dog and create more moments of connection in your day

disclaimer: idk your dog so adjust or skip this game accordingly

activity: while you're chilling with your dog, play them like a musical instrument while dramatically humming or singing a song. common instruments to try include bongos or piano, but also try playing them like a tuba (hold in your arms, put your face against their body, and make tuba noises), guitar (hold them up with one hand and strum them with the other), or violin (tuck their head under your chin and use an invisible stick to "play" them - obviously works best lying down).

tip: this one gives my dog the zoomies so maybe have a toy close by.

goal: this game is just a funny dog joke, there's no real goal besides making your dog think you're really funny.