#autistic lux

[beautifuiprincessdisorder]

how it feels to be a girl who only uses tumblr and pinterest in todays society

[ur-fav-is-autistic]

Luxanna Crownguard from League of Legends is autistic

Luxanna Crownguard from League of Legends is Autistic!

[dreamoftheblueveil]

name a more iconic duo than an autistic person and their first d&d campaign

[thegempage]

...... i blame lux for this. and by blame lux for this i mean i 100% had the starting and ending thought for this idea but lux said something that accidentally spurred it. here on tumblr (at least for now) bcus i'm not married enough to the idea to write it in full but i also don't want to lose the vibe.

cw for self-harm/mutilation & blood, implied suicidal thoughts, and discussions of physical and emotional abuse, btw

The mirror was cruel.

The mirror had always been cruel to Lys, because it reminded her every day that she was alive and breathing and that she looked the way she did, enough like her father to make her mother hate her and enough like her mother to make her hate herself. Not that her mother ever needed an excuse to hate Lys or that Lys ever needed an excuse to hate herself, but the mirror reminded her of those particular flaws every time she bothered glancing at its surface. She was supposed to go to court today. Her door and windows had been locked shut to keep her from fleeing into the forest, such important matters were supposedly going to be discussed today, and so she needed to look "presentable" as per her mother's guidelines, lest she smack Lys upside the head and drag her out to be mocked by the other nobles.

Sometimes that happened anyway. They certainly seemed to love mocking her at any chance she got. There was still bruising on Lys's shoulder from where her mother had struck her last.

The mirror was making fun of her.

Staring at the mirror, pointlessly fussing with her hair to make it not a terrible, too-long mess, Lys's eye kept drawing to the tail violently swishing back and forth behind her. It was shorter than the tails of the elves around her (one of the things she was mocked for), hardly to the back of her knees and therefore bad at properly conveying all of the little intricacies that mattered so much to them and that always escaped her. Yet long enough to get in her way, orange and white like the hair on her head, a constant reminder that she was not human and not elf and something stranger than either one. It made her annoyance too obvious and gave her mother something to pull and -- and --

Lys always wanted to shatter the mirror. She'd done it, once, when she was 14 and angry and bitter, but the sting of glass shards on her hand was not a sensation she was ever going to forget nor did she want a repeat of. Besides, she was in no mood to argue with her mother more than necessary, as empty as she was feeling, and shattering the mirror was certain to cause a screaming match. Watching her tail in the mirror, though, was bubbling anger up to the surface that wanted to break something. She hated her tail. She hated what it stood for and what it meant. She hated that in another world it was an endearing, almost cute thing to have. She wanted it gone.

Her eyes flickered to her desk. She'd hidden a dagger in there a while ago, as... a last resort. One of the ceremonial ones the knights carried that were nonetheless sharp because a blade with no edge was an insult to elven craftsmanship, or some horseshit like that. That --

Lys knew she wasn't in her right mind, but perhaps she'd never been. Her right mind had been lost at sea long ago. Starved to death in this very bedroom. Was not there to stop her.

Her desk was a solid wooden thing. The dagger was clean and sharp and gleamed with beautiful gold inlays. Lys took her tail in hand and pinned as much of it as she could to the desk. She just needed -- she just had to -- This wasn't so different to --

The dagger made the distinct clunk sound as she remembered hearing in the kitchens, when she was young (free) enough to be allowed near the kitchens, of a butcher cutting through meat and into a cutting board. Pain and blood erupted as the damned tail under her hand twitched for the last time, and it took her a few seconds too long to start screaming. She always thought she had the scream of an animal, the screeches of a deer felled in the forest, the desperation of a thing that did not understand death until it was far too late. A thing not fit for pity.

Her tail was red, now. The white and orange both dyed by her cursed blood. Was that more beautiful? Would her mother accept red, pure red, smooth red, over her natural color?

There was blood on her hands and her dress and she knew her mother would be furious and she wondered if she would still have to go to court like this. Mutilated and disgusting. Perhaps she would die here.

Mostly, she screamed.

Foggywillow was in her room soon after that, and she screamed in horror too, the proper scream of a person horrified, and Lys felt the world go black.

She did not have to go to court. When she woke up, groggy and sore and in her own bed, the blood gone from her hands and room, her mother slapped her across the face and cursed Lys for being an idiot.

At least Lys had cut off enough of her tail to hide it under her coats.

[inloveanddepth]

love these guys

[pocket-chomp]

I commissioned this wonderful drawing of my TLT ocs, Lux (they/them) and Serenbelle (she/her), from @catpotion and I'm so happy with how it turned out! They look so good!!

I love my funny little Ninth and Eighth House traitors and the adventures they get up to and catpotion truly brought them to life ✨

[angel-blood-art]

i hope to draw my other ocs at some point but yang is just. so fun to draw

[muse-bs]

@hclluvahctel​

you wanna see all of them in their halloween costumes which is coincidentally the best and last I’ve ever drawn them

no? too bad

[dolluxe-arts]

Question for other high-masking autistic folks

I know I need help, I know I have support needs that aren’t being met. Does anybody know how to ask for these thing? I’m running out of the energy to fake it and I don’t know how to get people to believe me. 

[asteramoon]

i dream of running away so much, it's kind of insane. all i want to do is disappear and leave everything behind. like i won't, but god, do i want to!

[2amtechnicolor]

autism acceptance qotd

questions from @birdofmay!!

1 April: The typical introduction question! Tell us something about yourself. If you can't think of anything, try these: What do you enjoy to do in your free time? What music or series/show do you like? Are you happy with your current living situation/the people you live with? What's one of your favourite foods?

hello!! my name is lux, i'm in my early 20's, and i'm autistic!!

i like playing nintendo games, drawing, watching minecraft youtubers, listening to music, and getting really into researching lore for things i'm not involved in.

favorite music atm

portals - melanie martinez

so much (for) stardust - fall out boy

favorite artist atm is probably porter robinson

favorite shows youtube series

hermitcraft (mumbo, grian, goodtimeswithscar main but i watch pretty much anyone on the server)

(traffic) life smp

so many gaming challenge channels but shoutout to dagnel in particular bc i try to watch his streams when i can

i also use tiktok a lot to watching gaming and sensory content

current living situation

living with my mom, her fiance, my older sister, and our dog who is currently recovering from surgery. i work part time at a local dog supply store a couple days a week. i really don't like working, and it really sets off my burnout but i need the money.

favorite foods

those cookies that taste like cake

sour candy

apples

peach monster ultra

flavor blasted goldfish

[beautifuiprincessdisorder]

girls when the sudden rush of sadness hits and they want to smash their head against a wall (i’m girls)

[salmonidos]

The coolest thing abt Doctor Who being one of my longest term SIs (the other is 2D animation!) is that it doesn't seem I'll ever run out of stuff to see. We have the classic and new series, the big finish audios, books, comics and whatnot. And then such a wide array of fanmade content. It's the endless SI...

[axebodyspray24]

A little info about me

my name is axe

I'm 18

my pronouns are she/they

sagittarius sun, Taurus moon, sagittarius rising

I'm into astrology and consider myself somewhere between atheist, spiritual, and pagan

I watch a lot of YouTube, notably Samantha lux, Sam Collins, jammidodger, pointcrow, game grumps, Jacksepticeye

I love video games and play a lot of overwatch 2 (LFT to help me up from bronze 2), I love undertale and deltarune and legend of zelda: breath of the wild. oh and pokemon games too (my favorite is sw/sh but I can't wait to play sc/vi)

I listen to a lot of music, and you should check out my brothers band Cougar Beatrice (on Apple music, spotify, YouTube, etc) if you like rock/alternative music. I also listen to corpsehusband, MCR, twenty one pilots, still woozy, melanie martinez, etc

I'm autistic and bipolar

I've got a lot of health issues so sorry for possible future inconsistencies in posting

Thanks for reading! have a good day 😊💞

[blackbird-brewster]

Mom!Em Fic Recs

@bau-babygirl requested: Fics featuring Emily as a mom [X]

JJ/Emily + Kids

[Find all of these and more fluff in my Domestic Jemily collection on AO3]

Mother's Day by w00t4ewan (me) Rated: G || WC: 715 Summary: Henry helps Emily surprise JJ on Mother's Day

Dreams Do Come True by w00t4ewan Rated: G || WC: 2000 Summary: Emily and JJ take Henry to Disneyworld on their first family vacation.

Breakfast by w00t4ewan Rated: G || WC: 840 Summary: Emily tries to let JJ sleep in and winds up with her hands full of a certain toddler.

Love is an Open Door by w00t4ewan Rated: G || WC: 1010 Summary: Emily and Henry work together to plan an unforgettable evening for JJ.

Jemily Ficlet Archives by w00t4ewan Rated: M || WC: 31,000+ Summary: An unrelated collection of Jemily ficlets and headcanons which were originally posted on my tumblr and up until now hadn't been shared on AO3.

Sand by @otahkoapisiakii (Phoenix_Falls) Rated: G || WC: 2630 Summary: JJ and Emily incorporate Henry in their wedding ceremony

Steps by Phoenix_Falls Rated: G || WC: 4670 Summary: Modified prompt from tumblr: "you asked me to the store with you and your child, and now my distant relative we met thinks im married with a baby"

Darwin by Phoenix_Falls Rated: G || WC: 831 Summary: Henry has an odd nickname. Likely takes place in the same verse as Steps, but 11 years later Mittens and Hats by @velutluna Rated: G || WC: 1944 Summary: JJ and Emily take their sons for a walk in a winter wonderland.

Perfect by velutuna Rated: G || WC: 660 Summary: A perfect evening at the home of the Prentiss-Jareau family.

Happy Birthday! by @ellegreenawayslover Rated: G || WC: 2028 Summary: Emily’s feelings during her birthday, her feelings years ago, and how she finally is truly happy with her life and how it turned out.

Morning Cartoons and Middle Names by @vhsrights Rated: G || WC: 2634 Summary: A shift in the numbers on his digital clock indicated that the time had arrived. 7:15 am. No sound of an alarm echoed through the upper floor of the Prentiss-Jareau house. There was pin-drop silence, and then the quiet chaos began.

Bonus: My Master List of MomEm Headcanons & Fanworks

Other Fics: Emily + Kids

A Year in the Life by @gaelic-symphony (thelarkascending) Tara/Emily || Rated: T || WC: 8455 Summary: Twelve vignettes from the married life of Tara Lewis and Emily Prentiss, written for the Year of the OTP writing challenge.

handprints on my soul by @prrentiss (unitchiefprentiss) Tara/Emily || Rated: T || WC: 32,000+ Summary: tara and emily after the events of just a dream. Maternal Instinct by thelarkascending Alex/Emily || Rated: G || WC: 1207 Summary: Motherhood brings with it complicated feelings for new moms Emily and Alex. Written for the CM fandom gift exchange Halloween Interlude by w00t4ewan Tara/Emily || Rated: G || WC: 1573 Maternal Instinct by thelarkascending Alex/Emily || Rated: G || WC: 1207 Summary: Motherhood brings with it complicated feelings for new moms Emily and Alex. Written for the CM fandom gift exchange

Bluey Mom by @alexblakeisgay (ArwenLalaith) Alex/Emily || Rated: G || WC: 2713 Summary: The adventures of Emily Prentiss as she navigates running the BAU, being a wife and mother, and her relationship with gender.

Oh, My Darling Clementine by ArwenLalaith Alex/Emily || Rated: G || WC: 930 Summary: Emily Prentiss is not above bribing her toddler daughter to get her to call her Mama…

Book Ends by ArwenLalaith Alex/Emily || Rated: G || WC: 18,500 Summary: Emily's life revolves around Lux - her four year old autistic daughter. She hasn't had a relationship since she got pregnant and certainly isn't looking to start one when she meets Alex Blake: phenom children's author.

Alex's life since her husband left and her son passed has revolved around writing and little else. She's been a recluse for years when her agent finally convinces her to make an appearance at her latest book launch. Little does she know, she's about to meet a four year old girl that will change her life....

[somedudenamedanthony]

Headcannon time, despite the fact that I've never done this for any other fandom, but I feel you guys deserve it.

So, my boy, my precious dumb blonde Chad Charming, by baby who is older than I am by almost ten years, absolutely fucking plays League of Legends (and no, I am not just saying this because I play Legends of Runeterra and wanna project, hear me out). He's absolutely a Demacia girly (Garen main that settles for Jayce (Piltover) when he needs to but will complain about it the entire time). He tried to get his friends to play it, but besides from Doug having a Riot account and pity downloading the game every now and then than deleting it again after a week, nobody gets him.

So of course he talks about it to Chloe, who also kinda doesn't really get it but Lux was low-key her lesbian awakening and she likes seeing her brother happy so she'll hang out with him while he plays.

That is to say, they both absolutely watched Arcane.

Chloe had no prior knowledge to Piltover/Zaun beforehand, so going into it was a shock, but Chad kinda knew stuff and could kinda explain what was going on.

It ended up falling on 90% deaf ears because the second Caitlyn Kiramman showed up lil pre-teen Chloe was GONE, kicking her feet and giggling and blushing.

Afterwards Chad was like "okay, that was fun, can't wait to hear what they're gonna do with season two"

BUT CHLOE, oh sweet Chloe, was WIPPED.

They watched it again like 12 times, then Chloe began playing Legends of Runeterra with Chad for more Caitlyn content, and she tries to hide it like "I dunno, I just relate to her a lot, we're both half Asian, and French, and got blue hair"

But he knows, and he doesn't care because at least he has a friend he can play with now.

And then Red comes along, and Red is a Normie™ who has absolutely no idea what LoL is, and the cycle continues as Chad and Chloe force Red to watch Arcane with them, with Chad infodumping as Red experiences the great joy of Arcane known as There's An Autistic Girl With Nice Titties And Blue Hair On Screen (though she could just look next to her and see one irl).

The two of them stay up at night writing CaitVi fanfics with each other and Chad is afraid of the monsters he created.