#lux rants

[salmonidos]

There's so little fiveainley content or I'm not finding it. I need to fill that void >:00

[koscheicore]

Ranting abt driving, disability, ableism. Use of general "you".

I'm so sick and tired of being "encouraged" everytime the topic of getting a driver's license comes up. Because, I can't drive because of my autism and dissociation... or maybe I could, but the process of learning it is genuinely debilitating both to my mental health and in turn physical health, and to my parents' wallet, since I can't pay it myself. It'd been over 60 practical classes, every single one full of anxiety, every single one in which I dissociated, in which I couldn't pay attention to all the overwhelming stimuli. I gave up, it was too much. Maybe, if it were cheaper, and I had all the time in the world, I could indeed learn it and manage. Or maybe, just maybe, I just can't drive because I am disabled. Not that they test for dissociation or sensory processing and overstimulation issues when you're driving for more than half an hour.

"But nowadays you need a car to work!"

That means the job isn't for people who can't drive.

"What about GETTING to work?"

If you can't get to work in public transport, that means the workplace isn't accessible. If public transport takes significantly longer than a car ride, enough to inconvenience you terribly, which is the usual anyways, that means that the city isn't accessible enough.

Why must people insist on encouraging me every time I say "I can't drive"? Why do they think it's just me not trying hard enough? I tried my hardest every time. I certainly did. It had terrible repercussions on my day to day life to attend those classes. Not to mention, driving IS dangerous, and if I'm impaired to drive, then I just can't. It's not all about "managing my symptoms", even if I could do that, which I'm not sure I can manage them ENOUGH for driving specifically, is it worth it? Is it worth it to invest that much money, to go through genuinely debilitating shit, just to get to work? Yeah, public transport is also debilitating to me, but it's less taxing in the end.

What, is it because I look abled enough? Because I perform well in many other areas? Do you know how much energy it takes to perform well in many of them, that you're not seeing because you don't have my experience? This *insistence* on encouragement doesn't make me feel encouraged, but like a failure, broken, because I am disabled enough to terribly struggle with driving. You are communicating to me that I am not trying hard enough, not that it's understandable that I struggle.

And worst of all is, this isn't even just abled people insisting, it's disabled people too. Yeah I know other autistic people can drive. Yeah I know other people with dissociation can drive. That doesn't mean every single person is disabled in the same way, or same area, or has the same distress tolerance levels.

...So let me decide if I try again at my own pace. I know myself better than you. Disabled people know their disability better than an outsider. If we say we can't why is it so hard to just believe us, why do you act as if we owe you a full length explanation. If you're disabled yourself in any way you should be able to understand this, too.

I want to do an experiment. I'm going to start saying "I want to take care of the environment". See what that does. See how much the reaction changes. It is part of my reason anyways, albeit not the most pressing one, but let's see if people are more sympathetic towards this reason, than towards disabled people taking care of themselves (+ other drivers and pedestrians), or being literally unable to drive. Let's see if in their eyes this is a noble cause, if I'm "trying hard" now. If I'm correct that'll be very telling.

[gayandfullofdismay]

Nothing has made me more radicalized than moving from the lower-to-middle middle class area I grew up in to a very upper middle class area (and changing schools accordingly)

[klirk-hammurton]

Another Face Reveal? Sure, Why Not

Behind the blog:

Hey guys! It's been a little while since I've done something like this and figured why not.

I started this blog....I wanna say 2 and 1/2 years ago. It all started off with KISS and my hyperfixation on them. Then, somewhere along the way, it evolved into a Metallica blog.

I've been a part of the Metallica Family for as long as I can remember. They, along with KISS, have been my comfort band(s). My love for Metallica really came into bloom when I relapsed with SH (self-harm). Fade to Black kept me level enough to not end I completely.

Around that time was when I really started to turn to writing as a way to cope. Yes, yes, I know....'Lux, how does writing about getting railed by men in their 60's help you cope with mental health?' Honestly???? I don't really know outside of writing shit like that; it just somehow calms me down. It's like a pressure release from all of the bullshit of the world, I guess.

Creating this blog has led me to meeting so many amazing people! There's so many I can't even begin to name them all, but they've all become like family to me. So I guess really, the main purpose of this post is to say that the main reason behind the creation of this blog, was to create my own little (not really little) online family.

[salmonidos]

Dualie Squelchers was my first main and I still return to them often! Splatoon 3 is my first Splatoon game and being able to dodge roll is so so fun, adding the range. They taught me a lot about ink management that's for sure dhdkd it feels rlly satisfying and they got me interested further in the game to the point it's my SI now!! Mwah to my dualies! ALSO THEY LOOK SO COOL

Then!! The bloblobber. It's just so FUN. Bubbles!! bouncing everywhere!! and then RAIN!?!? One of my fav things to do in the lobby is just use the rain and swim on it djdkd (user that said "imagine dying to an urinal" you made me laugh out loud ily/p)

Splatana wiper!!! fast enough and the most alike to a sword me being a fencing enthusiast- torpedoes are also my fav sub weapon I love seeing them floating around like ha I got u >:3 U cant Hide from me!!! and then they go boom! bababam!

And well someone pointed out to me I used bombs a lot so I said. What if my main weapon was a bomb? And I've found my new lover the explosher... oh my god that's such a change. It's so satisfying to trap people with ink and splat them, I love how the explosions feel, has the inkstorm!! rain! I already said I love the rain! and getting ppl hiding behind walls! Helping teammates painting near them so they can escape or just assisting them w their splats, pressure strats- AND IT'S A PLEASURE IN SALMON RUN!! (my fav mode! wall inking and byebye to flyfish)

It's easy, and often very tempting, to complain about weapons you don't like, so let's do the opposite of that. What is something cool and/or unique that makes your favourite weapon special to you?

[avocadish0w0]

So, we all know the "There, Right There!" From legally blonde, commonly known as the "Gay or European" meme.

We also know that we have a courthouse on the shopping district.

So, imagine all the Hermits gathering to decide if Grian's gay or just European, just to try and pair him up with Scar, and Pearl's just watching the chaos because she, as Grian's sibling, already knows he's both.

[luxintrus]

if you can change a character's ending, who would you pick? and how would it go?

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You never specified CSMP so I'm gonna monkey paw you and make it so c!Dream actually gets fucking permanently killed by c!Tommy in the disc finale HE SHOULDA DIED BUT INSTEAD NOO WE GOTTA DRAG OUT THE PLOT FOR 30 MORE YEARS ALSO THE REVIVE BOOK IS SUCH A HORRIBLE PLOT DEVICE

[dolluxe-arts]

It was actually so heartbreaking to see them try to talk to Gavin Pundle about Buddy Dawn’s murder and what they need to do now. Because they’re just teenagers, they’re just kids, so Gavin reasonably assumes they’re going to be super worried about their grades, so he just keeps reiterating that they passed.

But these kids have literally been to hell and back. They have seen countless murders. They know what to do, they just need this adult to listen to them. And he basically refuses to. And all the Bad Kids have ever really had was each other.

[salmonidos]

What if Splatoon had a weapon that's just. A giant eraser. Yeah it doesn't shoot ink it makes it disappear. Inverse roller.

[koscheicore]

... I've seen a few of those "10K notes and I will do X" list posts and ngl those are kind of alarming to me. I'm not sure if they're meant as motivation for smth you wouldn't usually do or what, but depending on notes on a post to do important things such as idfk GOING TO THERAPY is unhealthy as fuck, I don't think that's the way to go or to gain motivation. I hate when I see those and I'm genuinely unfollowing people who reblog these because it pisses me off so much. No amount of notes should dictate someone's life.

...Like, if it were silly things, sure! 10k notes and I'll wear my clown nose to school, whatever. But that's not what those posts are.

[gayandfullofdismay]

Breaking: Friend Changes Entire Hangout the Night Before After 2 Weeks of Asking Them for Input, 83 dead, 457 injured

[klirk-hammurton]

Reblogging this because I am still pissed about this

I am scared. I am pissed. We are doomed.

This isn't just about Roe v Wade anymore. It's no longer just about SAFE abortions. It's about the right to privacy. Right to bodily autonomy. Right to choose. Right to contraception. Right for counseling for rape and sexual assault. You think they're gonna stop at Roe v Wade? They're not. Women are losing rights. Women no longer have a voice or opinion to THEIR body. I'm fucking livid. I'm fucking scared. I'm scared for my nieces. I'm scared for my cousins. I'm scared for my friends. We are DOOMED. Abortions aren't banned. SAFE abortions have been banned. MEDICALLY NECESSARY abortions have been banned in 13 states. An unborn FETUS had more rights than a rape victim. I hope you're fucking happy pro-lifers. You have condemned women to prison and to death.

[woahspooks]

She’s so cute

[myslooni]

Fellow Lux Kissers, I need to tell you all why making my character The Moon and shipping him with her turns his episode so so so sweet.

Okay so like. He rants twice about the moon and moonlight, and with this new Lore he's now straight up just telling everyone "I LOVE MY WIFE" and I think that's very funny. But also remember this, he's stuck in that theater for like 3 months, right? The reason he gives Reginald some Wife Moments and is so wistful about it is now because HE MISSES HIS OWN WIFE SO SO MUCH!!

And now, the part at the ending where Lux is growing and then, when he leaves the earth, turns and smiles and cries a lil? He saw the moon! He saw his wife!!! And he's so happy!!

One thing I was thinking about the ending is like. Yeah, he becomes all the light in the universe, but like, where was he before that? I think maybe the ending is just him going back to his Default State (all the light, as he is the god of light) and the reason he needed a body in the first place is he knows this is the case and it's the only way he can freely move around.

Anyway, rant about my funny lil light husband over! :)

[ssspork]

Some Fanart for https://archiveofourown.org/works/61679998 (which is so awesome sauce go read it) @kenshin1340 (not to sure how to tag people tbh but idk how else u would find this😭)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61679998

There’s some symbolism which I will explain down below, and perchance a rant about how I adore how Lux is written and the idea of freedom that this fic is exploring

Also the speed paint with the song

ANYWAYS, symbolism time!!

this piece was inspired by Eleanor Rigby, so the “church” Lux is buried in is the lecture room, bc this is Luxs place of sanctuary. Her freedom, though “nobody came” bc she feels so isolated from others, following things she doesn’t particularly like bc she knows she’ll never get that in the future. We see this in the party scene where she wins, but her smile doesn’t reach her eyes. She feels alone.

Than herself, she’s yellow, a color of happiness and freedom and light, like her name itself, but ironically, she is trapped, as is why her dress is so tight. She lays under a spotlight, the same way her family always has its eyes in her. And a incomplete halo of sorts of blood, she is so close to being free, but she can’t nor will be. The blood comes from what I had assumed to be a blunt force trauma injury, but I’m starting to believe it was a contraption and not a injury that left the scar.

Silco is the priest, alone as well, like Lux, he appears to be some sort of parallel (he was what she is) he sees her injury, as is shown with the red eye, and (most likely) sees it in himself(This is a prediction). He is difficult to see, blending into the background as unable to help. As for Lux to be free, she must figure out who will be free first, and allow herself TO be free (see rant).

Than Luxs name is wiped away, and Luxanna written in top. This is because “Lux” is the free version of “Luxanna” and Lux will die if she goes back, as with Pascal, who is also being wiped away. (Pascal would have worked better with the metaphor, however, having a variation of her name being wiped away and her full name ontop works better thematically)

And than Jinx’s signature at the bottom left, a reference to when she drew Lux in the first place. She’s drawing this because, like her father, she is observant (the both of them noticed her scar). Also, this was an accident, but to make a metaphor of it, her name is written like Roman numerals, similar to how VI’s name is. Which could be used as a sorta parallel between Garen and Vi (in some way?? I feel like Vi and Garen are going to be foils or parallels in some capacity)

Anyways, rant time:

The way this fic has handled the idea of freedom is AMAZING. Usually in Lux fics, Lux can’t be free due to external forces, which sometimes have become internal, and to fix the internal, she must fix the external. But here, the external forces are gone, she’s the one who controls her freedom. And despite having freedom, she truly, has none. Because freedom with a end is not freedom.

So to make up for the fact she will no longer have freedom, she does stuff to try to make up for it: for example, the tree fairy costume I don’t remember exactly what it was called (also like drinking and smoking weed). Stuff she knows she won’t be able to do later. But the thing is, she doesn’t like this stuff, in trying to be free, she’s trapped herself. And now she’s trapped in 2 ways, of her attempts to be free, and what’s been instilled inside her.

We see she never truly lets her guard drop (other than 1 time, but that was when she was with Jinx), she always has a set smile for everything, everything is planned out. Just as how she sees her life. Because of this, she can’t let herself be free, because she doesn’t even really know who SHE is. There’s Luxanna, her parents child. There’s Pascal, the free, but her name ISNT Pascal, it’s Lux(Luxanna as well). Pascal is free, but she isn’t really Pascal. She’s Lux, and Lux needs to be free. But who IS Lux?

And WOULDNT YOU KNOW IT?? that’s what Silcos speech WAS ABOUT. It was about how his class with allow his students to find themselves. AUGH ITS SO GOOD. And the fact that Luxs guard WENT DOWN when around Jinx, if just for a second, if just for a accident, and Jinx CAN AND DOES SEE IT. Oh my golly gee I love it when you can see the arc, this is so good,

[walking-rotting-trash]

Girls are like " oh that's so me " and it's just a woman or creature losing its mind hysterically