#autism obsession can be useful on occasion

[devildomwriter]

Using your Obey me writing and Obey me gathered facts as shifting guides (yeah I'm an escapist) and you're literally a God to me

Hahaha, Thank You!

[lowkeyrobin]

can we get a phoebe spengler dating and/or friendship hcs please im starving out here 🫶🏼🫶🏼

oooo yeah sure!! I apologize if this ends up being kinda short 😔🙏 ; thanks for requesting and I hope you enjoy!!

PHOEBE SPENGLER ; dating hcs

summary ; dating stuff with phoebe

warnings ; language

disclaimers ; I'm not a professional when it comes to autism (because it's like 50/50 canon) so please give me feedback if any of the traits or anything in general is wrong for phoebe and if I should change it!! the sources I used don't seem like they're written by autistic people themselves but I'm putting my trust into these psychologists

word count ; 471

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she caught your eye with those horrible dad jokes of hers

it was the effort and thought that counted

tried using a science fact to reel you in but you were already head over heels 😭😭

you were just like "can I please take you out to do something fun? just us? please?"

she's like "...sure?" like she hasn't had a crush on you for the past solid 15 minutes from across the room

she talks about it to her mom, and she's all excited for her and she just doesn't understand the hype

baby's first date because trevor lives a double life around callie 💯

callie actually takes pictures 😭 and phoebe is just wearing a casual outfit like?? this isn't a fancy occasion mom

she's literally so scared but doesn't really know how to feel

you find it cute and endearing 💔

once you actually start dating, she's still very nervous around you because she's not trying to drive you away

she's obsessed with you though, you're actually perfect in her eyes and she'll do anything to prove that to you (vice versa as well 🫶)

she just stares at you sometimes and it's the cutest thing ever, like whole ass loses focus on whatever she's doing just to look at you. whether you're just chilling across the room or laughing and talking with podcast, she can't take her eyes off of you

she'll ramble about whatever she's fixated on / her special interest at the most random times, it's adorable

trevor will just see her staring at you while you're busy fixing something and be there like "stop staring" and without loosening her gaze on you, will reply "I can't help it"

he's mad she found actual love before him 😭 /hj

she'll hang on to anything and everything you seem to have an interest in

she seems like the type to make one of those pages long essays about how much she l-words you and mail it to you because she's too scared to give it to you herself

she's genuinley head over heels, there is no honeymoon phase that is just how she is

will proudly ramble about her ghostbuster duties to you whenever she can

loves taking walks with you even if it's just in silence

will 100% show you how everything in the proton packs and traps work

she'll have late night theories and scientific ideas and text you to not forget and just to let you know, even if you're asleep

"y/n I have an idea" "hit me"

you're her biggest fan

you made her a little "I got arrested" pin after she did actually get in trouble with stuff LMAO

she got you a little ghostbuster patch because you didn't want to really join them, but she can't help but wanna make you feel included

you, her, and Podcast are seriously an unbreakable trio

[weeb-polls-with-pip]

Autistic Anime Boys Prelims - Propaganda Division - Group 2

Propaganda:

Kyouya -

"what's there to say? you know him. you love him. vote kyoya."

Rinnosuke -

"Rinnosuke Morichika lives in an overly-cluttered curio shop, and has a special interest in making magical inventions. Since he doesn’t live in a modern setting— but a pocket dimension slightly disconnected to the outside world— whenever a modern item shows up in his shop via spiriting away, he can obsess over it for extended periods of time. He is quite blunt without realizing it, even to people he cares for. He also has a special ability to generally understand the name and use of any item he touches (though this backfires sometimes, he thought a Gameboy was a doomsday device once)."

Fuuta -

"okay look theres so many fucking signs hes autistic. he cannot tell tone and often doesn't know how to react to stuff which is a major point in his character id say. he was asked if he remembered his victim's name (hes a murderer. oops!) and his response was something along the lines of "Of course I do. I saw it everywhere." because he did not understand that they wanted to know what it was since it wasnt directly stated. im convinced that hoodies are a comfort object of his because i genuinely have not seen him without one except for one time. also hes canonically a chronically online twitter user. also he gets really passionate about his interests. also not really related but everyone in the fandom agrees hes transgender but no one can agree on what way. ive seen every single gender hc for this dude. vote kajiyama fuuta for this sopping wet poor little meow meow of a man."

Hansum -

"He's just a very odd and strange lad, can't remember names well, is an alien (mild spoiler), he's very popular, obsessed with Doritos and becomes their mascot, just refers to everyone as humans which is a mood, and is completely socially oblivious."

Miyuki -

"Relatable neurodivergent-Gifted Child syndromeTM case with all the superiority-inferiority complex that results. A chronic show-off and scheming strategist with a lowkey hopeless romantic dramatic aspect to him, silly cool and pathetic in a very hilarious way. Shirogane has a trademark glare purely thanks to his eyebags as he runs on coffee everyday having to support his family with multiple jobs in addition to class, on top of student council president duties. He's kind and an obsessive perfectionist who fills his entire wall with the weirdest motivational posters. Shirogane is very devoted to his love. He likes penguins (Kaguya and him is peak asd4asd and bi4bi btw)."

Kirito -

"He's autistic and bisexual as hell, and there's a good bit of trans coding in him 🥺

Autism coding: Bro's literally got a sword and swordfighting hyperfixation where, despite playing a game that focuses around guns, he still chooses to use a sword!! We also see him completely missing Asuna's flirting at first (he tells her she could have just checked her friendlist to make sure he was alive, in response to her tracking him down to see him)

Bi coding: Dual wielding swords is literally a euphemism in Japan for bisexuality; and Kirito initially tries to hide the fact he can dual wield out of fear of how the people he's close to will view him (and once he reveals it to them and they accept it, he begins to be more open about it.) Also in the Underworld arc he becomes very close with Eugeo to the point of living with him (and sharing a bed on occasion), and there are several parallels between Eugeo and Asuna, and they're so gay for each other that despite the anime having only a toned down version of it, they're still very affectionate (Also of note is that Eugeo is the only guy in SAO canon to consistently have a 'laying in bed with Kirito' talk CG in the spinoff games) (There's more but it's spoilers and this is a shortened version)

Trans coding: Kirito is very trans coded in the light novel (which shows Kirito's thoughts in much greater detail than the anime) Aincrad arc reveals that Kirito explicitly Does Not Like his real face, and dislikes how feminine it looks (he mentions that its led to him and his cousin being mistaken for sisters) And in Phantom Bullet arc, he's visibly uncomfortable at being mistaken for a girl due to his avatar's appearance, and in response to being misgendered he briefly panics and checks to make sure his chest flat (at least in the anime adaptation) 🏳️‍⚧️"

Shirou -

"Has one goal in life and ignores almost everything in favor of trying to fulfil that goal."

Keith -

"Speaks in a way that is seen as weird and has mannerisms others think is funny. He struggles with not being taken seriously by others because of this and many of the things others say goes over his head. He struggles to connect with other people because of these things. His entire arc in the second film is about him deciding that the people who don't accept him for who he is aren't worth it and that he's going to continue being himself."

Junpei -

"for other fans of this series, I know the more obvious representation here may be Luou, Junpei is So Good. his special interest is ballet and he has so many hangups involving how his family sees him and how other boys his age interpret him to the point that his idea of masculinity is extremely narrow and he enforces social rules on himself to mask and keep people from realizing that he loves something that Isn't Manly. he misinterprets social cues and takes things literally, like assuming that when Miyako asked him to dance with her she meant Right This Minute rather than as a pair in the studio. for some reason the point where he cuts his hair super short to prove his devotion to ballet is also sticking with me, I think maybe it's the combination of the way it's normal for boys/men in Japan to do that, yet Junpei didn't realize that kind of attitude/action didn't suit ballet at all? he wasn't aware that the context was completely different. Junpei also doesn't act or pretend very well, he's gotta put his whole entire ass into his roles, which he then proceeds to get TOO into and cause a lot of trouble, without giving too much away! he's really relatable to me as someone who's socially anxious but very skilled at masking, and seeing him become more comfortable with himself and start to show how he really feels is so inspiring to me."

Kazuma -

"He may be (wildly) misguided but his intentions are good kinda! He’s just the Guy of all time idk how to explain it."

[itsabouttimex2]

Oooh Mei needs some love ! Love to hear your thoughts on Yandere Best friend Mei 🥰

Yandere Mei Headcanons

Mei is doting in a very ‘big-sister’ sort of way, rough and tumble protectiveness meeting an honest (if obsessive) love for you.

So much of your relationship with Mei consists of doting touch. Her hands are always on you whenever she finds a good enough excuse for skinship. A tangle in your hair? Mei brushes it out and makes you sit down so she can check through your hair for more. Your clothes are skewed? Hold still and let her fix them. Hungry? Hop on her bike and wrap your arms around her waist- she’ll take you somewhere!

Speaking of which, she takes you on bike rides whenever the chance arises. It can be a simple ride to a nearby arcade, or a trip out to the countryside to camp out and stargaze. She opts for the latter more often, given that it allows you both to be alone for days on end, isolated from the world, from anyone who would take your attention and presence away from her.

She involves you in a lot of her livestreams, in the most flattering light possible. Lots of ‘Look what my bestie can do’ or ‘Y/N making their famous home-made cookies’ videos- short and fluffy content that her viewers praise for being heartwarming. In this way, she ‘shares’ you with the world, allowing her viewers to marvel over you like a glittering relic.

Lots of showing you off, actually- like a proud dragon flaunting a cherished treasure from her hoard. Mei also uses her money to keep you dressed and presentable, in the same gold and white that she wears. Several of the outfits in your closet were custom-ordered for you, with the excuse that she won them in a giveaway, but weren’t to her personal style. Then you can accept them without guilt or the need to repay her.

Each expensive outfit is specialized just for you, to fit your tastes and preferences while still being in her own colors. If you like to frolic around in sundresses, she adds in wide-brimmed hats to keep you from getting burnt. Do you wear skirts on all occasions? Mei throws in high-quality tights to keep you modest and leggings to suit the weather. You have autism and can’t touch rough fabrics without discomfort? She skips over cheap swathes of spandex and wool, opting to have silk used instead.

Matching jewelry, too- the only difference between her bracelet and yours is differing birthstones. (MK has one too, obv- her obsessive feelings probably extend to him, albeit on a much less extreme scale.) An immediate #twinsie posts, Mei’s fingers wrapped around yours as she takes the photo. She’ll admit that she bought these glittering bands, but point out that MK already accepted his, so you have to take yours too- and you do, but with the promise that you’ll make something tasty to repay her.

Mei comes over whenever you bake or cook, bringing trendy drinks along to share with you. And, if you have no important responsibilities for the next day, then our upbeat dragon girl is hellbent on a sleepover. Same bed, bestie! Mei wraps around you tightly, clinging with her powerful arms and legs to keep you close. (I like to imagine that dragons share warmth in little cuddle piles- it’s too damn cute to not think of.) Her draconic aura surges out sometimes, wispy green trails illuminating the dark bedroom around you. A pair of leering xanthous eyes stare down at you, adoration etched deep into every glowing inch of yellow.

Sometimes she drags MK along to these little slumber parties, both your heads resting on her chest, an ancient warmth pulsing with each beat of her heart. She holds you and him tight to herself, her arms bringing her beloved friends as close as possible. To Mei, the two of you are the closest to ‘perfect’ that the world gets. If she has you both in her her arms, then everything is good and just and right.

And god forbid anyone try to take that from her.

[plusvanity]

Alright so, I wouldn't have finished this so soon but some of you showed interest in my silly ramblings sooooo... here are some of my headcanons for Larry's 'aloof' personality.

Asperger Syndrome

-Since he was a small child, there were a few behavioral differences between him and the rest of the children.

He never really knew how to properly communicate. That might be very common in children BUT he literally had struggles trying to explain anything. Sentences like: 'I want that' or 'can I have that?' were never on his tongue and lots of time he'd get upset at himself/ people around him for not being able to read his mind and take care of his demands. This kind of behavior crosses a bit into 'anti-social' tenancies. (Hard time to communicate, preferred playing alone, very poor social skills, etc) Shortly, his 'forever-upset' personality resulted in children excluding/ isolating him from their games and plays.

-Larry didn't know why nobody wanted to play with him, why everybody avoided him like plague and gave him dubious looks. Throughout his kindergarten and early-school years he never made friends, never had any significant relationships except with his parents.

Why did nobody see these signs and act accordingly?

We're in the late 90's. There's no such thing as ‘diagnosing kids with mental illness’ unless they've got some kind of schizophrenia that really makes them act out. Parents had little to no information about mental health, let alone autism and how it manifests in children. Rough times but that's how they were.

-Growing up lonely, Larry found his refuge in drawing and writing silly little cartoon stories. Solo hobbies are extremely common in the autistic spectrum, especially when they come in package with die-hard fixations/ obsessions.

-Sensorial sensibility: he can’t stand bright lights in his basement. That’s why he always keeps a small desk lamp on and nothing else to see around him.

-In school, he did poorly. The motto was: it’s either you’re the only one who gets it and nobody else does OR everybody else gets it and you’re the only one who doesn’t. No way in between these two.

-The internal struggle of 'Why am I like this? Why do they hate me? What's wrong with me?' never left his brain. Now, communication was absolutely required no matter if he liked it or not. That's school, you're supposed to answer stuff, use your brains to solve problems and get through the day.

-Firstly, he did what his autistic mind told him to do.. he went fully fucking honest and blunt. With every occasion when he got asked about something, he innocently pointed out everything that bothered him/ seemed wrong or annoying without any fucking filter whatsoever. Needless to say, his true-nature approach didn’t escape punishment. His mother was called, the teachers complained that he’s ‘too mean and arrogant’ , ‘never focused’ , ‘too lazy and selfish’ etc. Everything while Larry looked like a fucking deer in the highlights telling his mom that he didn't do nothing wrong.

-When he finally understood that ‘being honest’ wasn't the key for normal human-communication, that's when his mind began searching for other ways to go by.

-Masking-

Masking was the second option.

-He watched, heard, studied, learned and taught himself the Fine Arts of mimicking normal human response in social situations. Now, that's how he mostly made it work.

-As a chill but tragically misunderstood child, he had finally learned how to make friends. It started with Ash and Maple (alternative music and general outcasts) and later in middle-school, Ash presented him to Todd. (Now, I'd rant about Rob and their 'brother from another mother' dynamic and friendship but that's for another long post if any of you are interested)

-When his father abruptly disappeared from the family frame, it just.... made everything ten thousand times worse for Larry (This is gonna be another post if you're interested)

-All in all, now with a select group of friends he’s still aloof, weird, too loud or too quiet sometimes BUT at least he’s not alone and miserable anymore.

Normally, he's a laid back dude, a stoner (autism and substance abuse is another headache of a post..) a metalhead and maybe just a little delinquent sometimes after 8 pm because of teenage rebellion and all that stuff.

-His ‘masking act’ falls sometimes when he talks about painting, video games, music and basically everything that interests him. Asperger in boys is a lot different than in girls. Girls tend to keep their ‘masking act’ better than boys as boys often don't realize when they slip and start talking miles and miles about their favorite hobbies/ subjects without noticing if the person they're talking to completely loses their interest or gets angry for being talked over and interrupted all the time.

His friends find him a bit annoying at times cause… fuck, who like being talked over? but they’re so used to him that it’s just common and gets easily forgotten.

-When the sudden chronic-insomnia hit him, the fatigue and lethargy didn't go unnoticed by Lisa. Finally, she managed to drag him to a doctor that surprisingly or not, completely missed to diagnose him with autism. The shrink blamed his insomnia on weed (another rant here) and …. ADHD?. Larry took the classic DSM-4 test (oh boy, gotta love the 90′s..) it came back negative on symptoms, confirming everybody that he didn't have ADHD. (Now, I know that the two behavioral illnesses often came in package but with Larry it wasn't the case) After that, nobody did anything.

-Now, he lives freely his teenage years hanging out with Sal, regularly smoking weed, getting deeply offended by the un-true belief that he might have ADHD, still trying to figure out what's actually wrong with him that no shrink or DSM could tell and ultimately enjoying his hobbies and little shenanigans him and his best amigo do.

-The ‘masking act’ has long become an automatic behavior, an unconscious switch for normal social situations so, now he’s most definitely not aware that he’s doing it. 

Sal highly suspects him of being autistic due to the fact that he had far more contacts with doctors and psychiatrists in his entire life that he knows VERY WELL the red flags or autistic behaviors. That and because of their first interaction when Larry was like ‘Sup, you like metal? You GOTTA like metal!’ it screams autism from a fucking mile.

This post is embarrassingly LONG and useless.. and I'll shut the fuck up now for real. BUT If anyone feels like asking questions or going deeper down this rabbit hole, feel free to text me <3 as I love waffling about psychology and pretty much anything lol.

Sorry for my bad English, I did my best in trying to explain all that's written above. These are just some of my little silly headcanons and possibly?? more in-depth explanations for some of the things that go on in my SF fanfic.

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[talkshowboyluvr]

talk treechy to me 🤭 any modern au hcs you have for him?? he looks like the type to create playlists for his friends and for overly specific situations that are niche to him

TREECHY TALK MY FAVVVV

okay modern au treech 🤩 channelling the four (4) modern au fics i have (even tho two are unreleased, leave me be 😭)

okay so starting w the foundations even if the au isn't based in britain, he has a thick english accent (never erasing hiroki's Londoner voice) but the reason's for it can get more and more ridiculous.

one of his favourite celebrities is english, so he's picked up the accent to be more like them. growing up his mom used to only put on english cartoons so he came into school the first day saying shit like "good morning fellas" and got Bullied so bad.

really close friends with lucy gray!!! (even tho most of the hc's come from the lucy gray/treemina fic im not gonna base the relationships on it or else i'll Rant abt coralbalism) i see their personalities as very similar, specifically their love for performing and such

they were roommates in the olive garden fic and im probably bringing that back for the band au, i think they're so good as best friends 😭

okay obviously emo king extraordinaire, but i doubt he ever dropped the phase. like, he stopped dyeing his hair purple (bc yes he would so do that) by the time he was seventeen, but i think he'd still wear the mcr band tee out and about.

goes all out for halloween. i personally imagine he wouldn't watch horror much, but he'd read it (except hereditary, he'd watch hereditary bc that's my favourite movie) and would really dress up for the occasion. he goes as book accurate dracula like five times bc he just Loves vampires (wink wink)

eats so much fruit its unhealthy. man is obsessed w strawberries.

really good at history in school. definitely a history major.

cannot fight to save his life. the one (1) time he tried to punch someone coral and tanner had to step in to save his Life.

brandy despises him. why? because i think it's really funny. (i usually say it's to even out tanner hating lamina but after songs i've decided tanner and lamina are actually best friends)

okay this one is genuinely just funny to me, but i imagine he has had a BUNCH of embarrassing crushes on his friends that Haunt him. (lamina, jessup, reaper, lucy gray) i really think he fell in 'love' constantly growing up and Coral was Sick of it.

oh and autism. i didn't write treech as autistic originally, but i realised half way through allies or enemies he read as Very autistic lmao.

i have. more. but im unsure how to word them, so!!!! here we are.

[zerostyrant]

MEGA UPDATE/REVAMPED INTRO!!!

HELLLLLOOOOO everynyan, my name is Zenith Petrichor! I am usually referred to as Zen, but other names include Zero, Zennie, and on joking occasions, Till and Giyuu. (its not a joke anymore for Till)

Im the most active on my ALNST side blog, @verdantlights !!

I am 18, and my birthday is January 26th! I was on tumblr very briefly a long time ago and I never really returned until my irl moot ( @alien-til-i-stage ) dragged me on here by my hair. (i know where you live, loser)

My pronouns are zey/zem/zeirs and hy/hymn/hymns. If not that, then you can use he/him/it/its.

I am cupio/aegoromantic and aegosexual. Basically, the idea of romance/sex is appealing in theory, but not in practice for me. I also wish I could experience romantic love normally, hence being cupioromantic! I project this onto my ocs on occasion, but usually, my ocs are more allosexual or alloromantic than I am. Do not sexualize me, specifically, unless we are close and I know you well enough/am comfortable with you (you can just ask me, too). I don't mind people simping over or sexualizing my ocs unless I specifically say not to. <3

I have Autism, ADHD, and OCD!! I'm diagnosed as much as I can be with the sources I have available to me. I am a germaphobe and emetophobe as well as a perfectionist. This shines through in my artwork and so sometimes it takes a while for me to get art out.

I write and draw!! My art will be posted throughout my different side blogs!! (listed below) But here's my ao3!

Here's my pronouns page!!

Here's my straw page!!

Here's my commission info!! vv

I talk about pretty gruesome and heavy themes as a metaphor in my writing quite often, such as cannibalism, stalking, obsessiveness/possessiveness, murder, gore, etc. I would like to mention that I personally get nauseous at visuals of any of these things (i was in the mlp fandom as a young child with internet access, that speaks for itself) so I won't be drawing anything visual to go along with my writing. The most I'd do is draw blood and very ambiguous perspectives of a scene.

Current Hyperfixations include:

ALNST (side blog is @verdantlights )

KNY (side blog is @abundantsnow )

Kaiju No. 8

Wind Breaker

Sk8 the Infinity

Genshin Impact

Honkai: Star Rail

TOUCHSTARVED VN (side blog is @lockedbehindtheambereye )

MASHLE: Magic and Muscles (side blog is @grimscripter )

All of my OCs!!!!! :D i love my sillies

Thanks for stopping by!! <3

[zoobiefish]

Yo! So I’ve unfortunately fallen behind by nearly a week for Auctober because I’ve been travelling abroad this past week…whoopsie-daisy! So here’s a little catch-up post!

Day 13: Vivid Imaginations

This one is very true for me! For some reason there’s a big stereotype that Autistic people are incredibly unimaginative. But once again: We’re a spectrum! Some of us may not have the most vivid imagination or may not be the “creative type,” and that’s okay! But I do find that quite a lot of us tend to be very imaginative, artsy, creative etc. My imagination is so vivid that I can practically see an object I’ve imagined in grear detail and can visualize it as if it’s in 3D space. Sadly…this doesn’t make me any better at drawing 😝 Regardless of my skill level though, I’ve always had a passion for the arts. I love to draw, paint, write stories, write poetry, and I used to dabble in playing the piano as well! One of my coping mechanisms I’ve had since childhood has been to retreat into the fictional worlds I’d created in my mind. I do this to this day in my late twenties.

Day 14: Hyperfixations

So, I often see the word “hyperfixation” used interchangeably with “special interest.” (The latter is often shortened to “spin,” which I love!) My understanding is that hyperfixations are more common in ADHD and refer to intense, almost obsessive interests that last a shorter amount of time than a spin. A spin, on the other hand, is more common in Autism and is essentially the same as a hyperfixation but generally lasts longer—anywhere from years to one’s whole life. That was my understanding of the terms, but I of course could be very wrong! I do have both Autism and ADHD however, so I do experience both hyperfixations and spins. My spin that I’ve had my ENTIRE life was The Legend of Zelda. It’s my all-time favourite videogame series and it means so, so much to me. I always related to the main protagonist Link, whom I’ve headcanoned as being Autistic for years! A spin I had for years was Japan, and I taught myself a lot of Japanese from childhood until I graduated high school. It’s not so much a special interest anymore, though I’m still making an effort to learn the language, culture, and I would still very much like to visit Japan some day! 🇯🇵 A few years back, I had a hyperfixation on plague doctors of all things! I still think they’re interesting, but it was definitely a little more of a fleeting interest. Of course, that doesn’t mean it couldn’t resurface—hyperfixations often do resurface for me hehe! One of my current most prominent spins right now is Puritan New England. Recently on my trip abroad, I visited Boston and Salem Massachusetts and I was SO hyped!! I need to clarify that my interest in the Puritans is NOT at all due to any support for colonialism—I am staunchly anti-colonialism. I just have a morbid fascination with fanatical religious groups and their history. I usually compare it to people who have an interest in true crime—just because they’re interested in the subject, doesn’t mean they support serial killers or anything like that. Hope that makes sense!

Day 15: Pebbling

Awww, pebbling! One of my favourite things about the Autistic community and the neurodivergent community in general! For those who don’t know, the term “pebbling” comes from something penguins do when selecting a mate: they will find a rock they think is pretty and give it to the mate they’re interested in as a gift! Autistic people often do this too (though not necessarily in a romantic context; I mean, probably in that context too, but often we do this with friends!) Autistic people might see somehing they think is really cool, neat, or interesting, and give it to someone they like to share in the fascination. This is our little bonding ritual and it shows that we really like you, so feel honoured! I don’t do much pebbling myself, or at least maybe not as frequently as some Autists. But on the occasion I do, it’s usually a craft item I’ve made for that person! For example, when I made a new friend last year at uni who was also Autistic and has a spin with skeletons and spooky things. So, I made them a skull magnet out of fuse beads! (They loved it!) I recall back in high school as well, there was a time I was making like a bajillion origami butterflies for an art project I was doing at the time. I made a few extra, so I just gave everyone in my friend group an origami butterfly! 🦋

Day 16: Autistic Pride

I have always found it odd when people treat my Autism diagnosis as if it’s a tragedy. Yes, I won’t deny that it has caused me much hardship and sometimes I do think it’d be easier to be neurotypical. But if I wasn’t Autistic, I wouldn’t be me. I wouldn’t be infinitely curious with an insatiable appetite for knowledge. I wouldn’t be creative in my particular way. I wouldn’t have my unique sense of humour that everyone in my life seems to enjoy. I don’t think I would have the compassion for others and love of the world that my peers know me for. I just wouldn’t be the same person. I love being a divergent thinker and having a perspective on the world that is entirely my own. I may have difficulties and need a lot of help with certain things, but I’ve accepted it and I accept myself. I love being Autistic, and I have no interest in a “cure.”

Day 17: Repetition

I am known for being very repetitive—probably to an annoying degree. Sometimes it’s embarrassing too 😭 For example, I’ll find a joke far funnier for far longer than most people. By the time everyone is over the funny joke, I’ll still be unable to contain my laughter. I can’t help it, I’m sorry!! I also tend to repeat quotes from my favourite shows, movies, games etc. over and over again. Often with little to no context as well LMAO

Day 18: Self Regulating

Self regulating for me usually means stimming, fidgeting, or, if trying to prevent a meltdown, shutting the blinds/curtains, hiding under a blanket, putting headphones on etc. Sometimes the world is just too much for anyone—but when you’re on the spectrum, it’s like that more often. It’s hard for me to convey just how intense my sensory issues are to non-Autistic people. The best way for me to explain it is…imagine if your eardrums were *outside* of your ears. Or if, like a camera, the exposure (amount of light let in) was turned up to the max in your eyes. Or you know that one itchy sweater you hate? Imagine if almost every kind of fabric you tried on bothered you like that. It’s like all your senses are just…turned up to the absolute maximum. This is why we stim. Why we wear sunglasses sometimes even indoors. Why we wear headphones or earplugs. The world is loud, bright, and constantly coming at you. Let us self regulate. Doing so will make you a great friend to an Autistic person ❤️

That’s all for now, I hope to have a drawing or other form of art for the next prompt! Until then, I’m drained from writing all that and from travelling. I got a plane back to Canada to take soon. Bye bye!

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Welcome to The Firefly Jar System!

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last updated: 01/03/25 (mm/dd/yy)

We are a minor bodied, professionally diagnosed DID system

We collectively go by they/fae/he, and the names Firefly or Aster. We go by Ash irl (name of one of our hosts), so feel free to call us that, too. We’re also an Archaeopteryx (paleo)therian and an American Kestrel therian :]

While not everyone in-sys identifies with all/any of these identities, we collectively identify as transmasc, transneu, nonbinary, a-migdari (א-מגדרי), abrosexual, quoiromantic, systemfluid, and just generally queer. You can check out our collective Pronouns Page here.

In real life, we have been out as transmasc and genderqueer since we were 11-12. While not everyone in our system identifies with this, it's an important part of our identity and life!

We are a smaller polyfrag system (system of ~65). We are ‘brainmade’ heavy and fragment/low development heavy (~20 fully developed alters).

We're white and ethnically Ashkenazi Jewish from both sides of our family. We generally identify as a reform Jew and became b-mitzvah at 13. We are pro-Palestine and support a two-state solution. We don't support the current Israeli government, though we will not tolerate any antisemitic remarks towards Israel/Israelis. This means we also need to stop using "Zionism" as a buzzword or as a synonym for “Jew I don’t like”, as well as calling Israel things such as “Israelhell” and “Isnotreal”.

Our collective special interests are psychology, archaeopteryxes, and we have a very strong attachment to the song Nocturne Op9 No2 by Frédéric Chopin. We collect Furbys, which are a special interest for most of us. We’re also into various nerdy things (ethics, philosophy, music, classic lit, etc), on top of many fandoms between us.

We also have a sort of systemsona you can find here

Don’t follow with an empty blog or we’ll report and block you! Just add something so we know you’re not a bot

We are/have (all professionally diagnosed unless otherwise specified)

(Not everything is shared here, but the ones that are shared feel important to share as part of our life experience/what we talk about here often)

AuDHD (autism + ADHD)

Polyfragmented/complex DID (We are professionally diagnosed with DID, though the polyfragmented label is self-identified and medically recognized)

CPTSD (not an official diagnosis in the DSM yet, but it is included as a diagnosis in the ICD-11. We've been diagnosed with PTSD on multiple occasions for separate incidents)

Anxiety/depression/all that fun (/sar) stuff

ARFID+ (avoidant, aversive, and restrictive)

An unspecified obsessive/compulsive disorder (no official dx but is being treated by our psych nonetheless)

NSSI (non-suicidal self injury) currently in remission! We are now a year clean! :D (NSSI isn’t a diagnosis on its own, jsyk)

Syskids blog: @little-fireflies-syskids

Vent/healing blog: @oh-the-stars-in-my-fingertips

Ash's blog: @chaotic---child

Valentine’s blog: @decora-clown

Fennel’s blog: @enby-worm-nightmare

Basil’s blog: @flowers-and-bandaids

Furby blog: @the-bumbling-furby

We also run: @obsessive-compulsive-culture-is

- intros are tagged #alter intro - our posts/posts we contributed to/things we said are tagged #firefly flickers

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DNI:

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Basic DNI criteria (racist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist, sexist, etc)

TERFS/SWERFS/radfems

Anti xenogender/neopronouns/MOGAI

Radqueer/transID/etc and supporters

Pro-c/anti recovery disordered paraphiles (this is specifically for those with paraphilic disorders, not general paraphilias)

Endos/tulpas and supporters (endo neutrals are fine, tulpa neutrals (term) are not)

Anti otherkin/therian/alterhuman

Truscum/transmed

NSFW/kink main blog (we don’t have anything against you just personal comfort)

Pro SH/ED/ana/mia/etc, including "pro for me but not for thee". we've been in that boat, and we no longer support that mindset

Anyone who brings up ship discourse (we’re neutral and will interact with both parties as long as you’re not being an asshole)

If you harass anyone, even people on our DNI. even if we disagree with you, nobody deserves to be harassed (very few exceptions)

At some point in the near future we will post something about our syscourse stance in-depth

Let us know if we missed anything or if you have any other questions!

Userboxes:

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Our full userbox hoard can be found here

credit to sysboxes for all userboxes | credit to rpinkling for image divider

[desultory-novice]

I just gotta ask... Does Dreamland have a licensed therapist? Because it sounds like a majority of the characters need one!

Dream Land is a really LOVELY place. The food is fresh and healthy for you. Even the fast food and the sweets, somehow! Lots of nature. Life is leisurely paced. The only jobs are the ones you want to work. There's plenty of activities for those who need some socializing and plenty of alone time for those who need their space.

There may not be a licensed therapist, but as long as you're open to your heart and the caring words of your friends, you can find your way out of the bad places on your own, in your own good time!

...In Dess's AUs, on the other hand...

Everything is bad. For everyone. I'm sorry. I feel very bad about it. :cough: ...That is, speaking frankly, as a creator, I trust that since everyone else does such a good job writing Kirby-verse fluff, no one will mind too bad if I have this little corner of the fandom where everyone can be sad and sometimes life does beat you down.

Now...

It probably doesn't come off this way, but sometimes the reason I hop back and forth to several different AUs is that in a few cases, characters DO get better! Marx and Magolor in the Branch AU? They're actually very happy right now running a theme park together for lost Souls! (Well, happier once Marx gets his body back.)

White-Haired Noir in the AU AU verse? He's...well, he's never going to be the same after the loss he suffered, but he is on the mend.

Adeleine, post-Apologies, is doing okay.

My personal Dark Meta Knight is a huge, incurable mess of issues but he gets to duel with his counterpart on occasion and loves it.

Some of my versions of the characters have REALLY awful, messed up traumatic backstories and yet they came out shockingly alright, re: Daroach. (And Elfilin too. Rats stay winning!)

I do enjoy fluffy things, a lot, but I don't write a whole lot of "pure fluff." Which arguably means, if you're not seeing me draw or write anything for someone, they're probably having a GREAT time! Take Taranza. Taranza is often characterized as the forever sad, "I miss my wife, Tails" character but I think he really is doing okay!

...Not great as could be. He lost his friend (and crush) of...some long period of time but he's healing. Dedede's probably got a whole routine set up for getting over possession trauma at this point!!

For my two favorite trauma puppy standbys, Marx and Magolor, I mostly write about them having lingering trauma side-effects because... it's just my favorite sub-genre to write in, I guess? Most of what I write are physical impossibilities anyway: curses, magic-induced ailments, body-snatching, etc. But I think they can be interesting metaphors for what I or others might feel in RL, so I like to write about them as a way to come to terms with those feelings.

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[Warning: Things Get Personal Past This Point]

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I almost went more indepth about this in an earlier ask this evening, but my favorite character from my last major fandom was a purely good character who, in the backstory, had his personality shifted 180 degrees by an evil god, driven to cuckoo levels of crazy, and possibly (at least, it was a fairly popular HC) trapped inside his own mind for a large chunk of time as he was made to commit atrocities that shattered every vow he ever made and everything he believed in.

(Mad Emperor Vector, my beloved... :sob: )

An anime backstory if I'd ever heard one! But one of the reasons he rose from character I loved to MY blorbo was because I was just understanding my autism at the time, and part of how I understood it for myself and how it affected me was through this character's traumas. You might think it was silly but it was shockingly useful!

Around when I started suffering from long-term insomnia is when I started to get really, really obsessed with the "Marx is a sleep-deprived Noddy" theory. When (not to get depressing but...) many of my dreams and aspirations started to fall apart, I became really attached to Magolor + the false promises of the Master Crown...

Noir's creation coincides fairly closely with my feeling massively overburdened with life's pressures and trying to support my loved ones, keeping a chipper exterior attitude despite home troubles while feeling like I couldn't tell ANYONE how much it hurt inside...

That's not to say that I only make these sweet characters have bad days because I'M having a bad day or that I'm "using" them like emotion sponges in place of just seeing a therapist.

It's more that, having experienced some of these things myself, I feel like I have a closer understanding of them. And I want to understand more. Or I want to explore avenues I didn't personally take.

...Or I want to celebrate my own life, shambles and all, by seeing how much worse it could be if only E~vil~ Magic had been involved...!!

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TLDR, the actual Kirby characters probably don't need a therapist at all. Dess's versions are more likely to need one, but I'll probably write about the ones that haven't gone yet because that path is where I personally find the best and most meaningful stories...!

[somnolentleviathan]

So.. Modern fantasy au I guess? I could've just made him a demihuman with the same info and moved on but here I am at 2am

Now I don't have ideas for a plot but if I think of any I'll make another post

Again modern fantasy can be part of the Mafia ideas <3

If we do the Mafia idea I'm just using his original character sheet lore wise he would just be a snow leopard demihuman LOL - I may post another of the original but make him a demihuman and that's it so me explaining won't be so confusing 😭

For his first character sheet: X

Mafia ideas: X

Name: Sylus Love

Age: 24

Pronouns: he/him

Sexuality: gay

Looks: Has silver hair (which is dyed his hair is normally black) , grey eyes, - he's 5'3" - Has scar on his left eyebrow

- His outfits do vary from baggy outfits or crop tops with a jacket and always jeans

Personality: Caring to those around him, curious about everything, adventurous, professional yapper, patient and affectionate, he can be quite brash (though this is rare sometimes) and not afraid to back down - tends to start fights, he can be very jealous

Negative traits: Obsessive

Likes: - Sweets (mainly cookies), he really likes fish and wants a pet beta (white and black to match his hair) - tbh he would love his own little aquarium, loves rain, sharing food (loves hot pots), he loves any source of water and the life living in it

Dislikes: Sour food, the sun, doesn't care for dogs all that much, eating fish. Seeing people eat fish around him.

Powers: Snow leopard shifter !

- He struggles to control his powers sometimes and can't hide his ears and tail

Background:

[ Sylus didn't remember much of his life, one minute he was trapped in a hunters trap than he was in a witches house healing. He did learn that he could shift and that he was a familiar, which he was thankful it was another shot at life, but that good life was soon gone as his owner would get mad at him for every little thing. Got the wrong item? He was punished. Ate without approval? Punished. Even talking to certain people got him beaten. No longer trusting their familiar Leto cursed Sylus making the other have to follow every command that was spoken to them.

He eventually was able to escape, getting lucky as Leto forgot to chain up him, and forgot to lock the door. Maybe he was testing Sylus if the familiar would stay, but he didn't. Sylus stays on the run and is worried he will run into Leto again, mostly since the other is looking for him, mostly since Sylus is still cursed to listen to whatever command is thrown at him. Sylus is looking for a way to free himself from the curse. ]

Notes about him:

- Has ADHD, has sensory issues, he does have autism but is undiagnosed, anxiety and depression (which is also undiagnosed. Everything he has is undiagnosed.)

- He wants to study marine biology and has a huge love for water life

- Loves the cold, and tends to roll around in the snow human and animal form

- Complains about the heat a lot yet he still loves going to the ocean but prefers it on a cold day or rainy day

- On rare occasions he will eat meat raw but he prefers it cooked (he does refuse to eat fish)

- Due to the abuse caused by his owner his sense of hearing ain't that great (compared to how good a snow leopards hearing normally are)

- The curse works for anyone, if some stranger orders Sylus to sit he will

- Even after what he went through he is still rather very trusting of others

- Though just because he trust easily he tends to not give out his name that quickly worried someone will return him to his master and tends to ask the person if they know a guy named Leto, he also doesn't mention that he's cursed

- Yapper, just loves to speak and struggles to shut up - changes topics quickly

[strawbrygashez]

for tyler and the narrator: 🎂💀👔

Sorry it took me a bit to get to this!!! Thanks for asking :D

A birthday headcanon

Narrator- Tbh I think he forgets when his birthday is :,| that or he just kinda stopped celebrating it after a certain point bc I picture him being a loner for a good amount of years before Tyler. He never had anyone to celebrate it with really & he only just suddenly remembers his when he gets a random phone call from his mom or some relative to wish him a happy birthday. They’ll ask if he’s gonna do anything fun to celebrate and he’d be like “yeah. Totally 🙂” and in reality he spends his birthday night maybe eating some ice cream and watching some random tv show.

When he’s with Tyler tho, Tyler just somehow found out when it was (probably on some paper somewhere) and he makes it a little bit of a fun occasion :) he’ll make him some cup cakes or something & he lets him pick whatever they do in 🛏 that night 😳 if he’s feeling really nice he might even go out to get a singular balloon or grab him one gift from the thrift store.

Tyler- He only goes all out if he has a friend or whoever at the time who offers to spoil him for the night. He’s met all kinds of people so I feel like some friends have been richer than others so if they offer… 🤷‍♀️ he can excuse him going some place fancy/wild/expensive by saying he’s just yknow, ‘only doing it so his friend will be slightly broker’ 😑

When he’s with Narrator tho & he’s putting on the show of being such a good role model, he says he doesn’t want anything & not to throw him any parties. The only thing he will accept from Jack that day is maybe a meal & sex 💀

I feel like the space monkeys would wanna do something to celebrate their leaders birthday but they know better than going against Tylers orders.

An injury headcanon

Narrator- From what I’ve heard, it sounds like Jacks face is really ‘messed up’ at the end of the FC book and while I don’t think he ever cares all that much about how he looks, I think sometimes he would stare in the mirror and wonder what Tyler would think. Like if this is what rock bottom looked like for him all along & if Tyler would like it or call him ugly.

He runs his hands over all the scars Tyler has gave him even after Tyler is gone. I think he truly doesn’t ever know how to feel about the kiss mark on the back of his hand. Even if he got it removed or fixed, I’m pretty sure it would still leave a scar so I don’t think he’d see the point of doing anything about it. He has a part of Tyler with him forever 😲😲😲😲😲

(Oh yeah I meant this hc in the he’s actually Tyler way lol)

Tyler- He’s just as obsessed over the scars Jack gives him as Jack is with the ones Tyler gives him. While Jack looks at his own more daydreamingly and all heart eyed, Tyler looks at the ones Jack gives him and giggles to himself :3 because Jack stops holding back as more time goes by.

He might even pick up clothes from the thrift store that will show off the injuries Jack gave him better. Jack won’t think anything of it because he knows Tyler just likes revealing clothes lol.

A clothing headcanon

Narrator- he cuts off all the tags off his clothes, even before meeting Tyler. He hates those scratchy tags that are on the back of shirts and even on the insides of pants sometimes.

I think Tyler would see him do that one time and be like “good :3 you’re improving! Not wanting any designer labels on your clothes!” And jacks like “Yeah…” but it’s really just autism.

Tyler- He used to be succchhhh a band t-shirts guy. He still has some but all of them became crop tops :3 even if the picture on the shirt looks better as a full thing, he didn’t care. He just wanted crop tops but couldn’t find any affordable nice ones for a while so he just worked with what he had. And well.. if anyone complained he ruined a nice band shirt they must just be some loser music elitist since his abs are on display but they are complaining of all things.

[until-i-devour-you]

A little vent post, cuz this is a vent blog, after all.

I'm always thinking I'm faking it for attention.

It doesn't matter what "it" is.

It doesn't matter if I have all the evidence and reasons for "it" to be legit.

There are a few examples I'm getting paranoid about, lately.

I have the suspect of being autistic. I started suspecting it a couple of years ago, I have tons of signs of autism in every aspect of my Life. I talked about it with an handful of trusted people, two of them were recently able to get a professional diagnosis, and always told me I'm one of the few people who understands their sensory issues or certain ways of thinking. One of them actually decided to take the occasion to get diagnosed cuz they thought I already had one, and they thought that maybe they're autistic too. They are. I'm not telling about it to whoever will listen, I believe in self diagnosis but I highly doubt myself because I don't have the money for an official one and I don't want to end up fooling myself because I obsess over things, but what if I'm faking it for attention?

I'm a trans man. I never felt like a girl. A post on Tumblr about Marilyn Manson made me discover the word "transexual" and I finally understood who I am. I was 17 at the time, now I'm 26. I'm trans, I know it, and for safety reasons only my family and my friends know about it, irl. But what if I'm faking it for attention?

I'm punk. DIY is basically what I live for, I'm actively avoiding Amazon and other services like that as much as I can - I have to make exceptions for my special needs pets' sake, since the stupid city I live into doesn't even have a pet store, let alone specific things I need for my pets -, I've always trying to support small business even by just talking about them with my friends if I can't buy, I have the main punk values, I listen to the music. I try to inform others about the crimes big corporations are doing - don't get me started on Nestle -, and I actively try to help others. Only a year ago I started dressing punk, with my lil' thrifted clothes I'm having fun painting and modifying, but heh, I didn't have the opportunity to do this sooner. Then, Across The Spider-Verse came out and I'm happy people remember once again about Hobie's existence, yeah, I love him, but he's making me doubt if I'm really punk, because what if I'm faking it for attention?

I'm pagan. I work with Loki, Hel and Fenrir. I used to work with Thor too, before starting to work with Hel. I truly believe in them, I've always felt close to Norse Paganism since I was a toddler, always reading about it, always fascinated by it. Learning runes felt so natural, I always use them to write in my diary and there's nothing that brings me more inner peace than meditating and working with the Deities I worship. It's not something I yell around, it's something personal, private, and despite having this piece of information on some accounts' bio, I talk about it only if people ask, but what if I'm faking it for attention?

Am I really myself?

Do I really think what I think? Do I really feel what I feel?

Am I really the person others know?

Do I really believe in what I believe? Do I really care about what I care?

What if I'm faking it for attention?

[stories-me]

Potential Character for Mrs. Kelsey and Tumblr 9/21/2023:

Parker, the Thief of Leverage:

Background:

(Spoiler Alert! Watch out and take care!)

An expert thief, cat-burglar, pickpocket and safe-cracker, memorably referred to (by Eliot, the Hitter) as “20 pounds of crazy in a five-pound bag”. The product of an abusive childhood spent in several foster homes, Parker is awkward around other people and has a terrible understanding of social norms. Over the course of the series, she comes to regard the other members of the team as her family, and for the first time in her life, trusts someone other than herself. Sophie (the Grifter) and other members of the team have attempted to improve gaps in her social skills on numerous occasions, usually with limited success. As they become closer, Parker develops romantic feelings for Hardison (the Hacker), but her inability to properly express her feelings leads to a slow, awkward courtship. While emotionally impulsive, she can demonstrate great physical self-control in her work using acrobatics, strength, and concentration to her advantage. Parker was trained at a young age by expert thief (and recurring character) Archie Leach, and her obsessive focus on theft is to the point that her safe house is filled with gear and rappelling equipment to help her in various jobs. Parker is often sensitive to cons involving children, and at several points, the team’s other members were thrown into danger when she went off-script to ensure an at-risk child did not end up like her. In season 5’s “The Broken Wing Job”, she proves that she can handle problems on her own while the other team members are away and seems to be, with Nate’s guidance, developing her ability as a planner. In the series finale, Nate retires and leaves the team in her hands as the new Mastermind.

How she is like me:

We both have trouble fitting in with others (like I’m usually obsessed with fan fictions, at times), we’re both smart, and we’re both loyal to folks we care about. Also, we both focus on things that are important to us. By the way, I’m WORKING on fitting in with others.

Kelsey Notes:

Her “terrible understanding of social norms” can relate to the communication and social skills deficits associated with an autism diagnosis.

In the past you have been open about not feeling embarrassed until the recent years as you have progressed-

When someone feels embarrassed, they develop more motivation to be accepting of social rules that have might have been ignored in the past (i.e. realizing that its gross to fart and pick your nose in public)

In addition to your fan fiction obsession, sometimes you might let your emotions get the best of you- people are less likely to want to form a friendship with someone who is easily frustrated and raises their voice at others. 

Over the years you have progressed greatly in your ability to keep calm when in situations where small talk does not revolve fanfictions- because of this you have been able to maintain a successful zoom with your friends for quite awhile now. 

Accepting that you have difficulty in understanding social norms makes it easier for you to communicate with others that some social understandings for you are just an area of weakness. 

It does not mean that you are rude or that you don’t care, your brain is wired differently to where social rules and expectations are big picture concepts that require learning over time

Emotionally impulsive- you can relate to this when you are faced with problem solving situations that require you to wait for a solution.

 Extended time required for problem solving is difficult for you

            In these situations it is more difficult for you to control your emotions as you wait for a problem to work itself out

[dashie-04]

INTRO POST

Idk in case I use this or smth

ABOUT ME

I go by many names, but generally you can call me “dashie”, I also go by “velvet” (Discord name), and “Erinn” if you really want to use my real name (I would prefer not but you *can*).

I am a gender soup that’s vaguely fspec— though she/they are my preferred pronouns. I call myself a trans girl because it’s easier to explain tbh.

I am a musician (ignore the fact I haven’t released a song in months), a tenured writer of pony fanfiction (you can find me under the same name on FiMFiction), and really nothing else but I love manga, anime, and art.

I do play video games sometimes but honestly it’s restricted to rhythm games, and playing games with my partner. I play killer drums on RB4 though.

Really, in general, I’m a huge fan of music— it’s pretty much my hyperfixation. Right now my favorite artist is Will Wood but that changes frequently.

I have AD/HD and Autism, that combined with my obsession with art means I yap *a lot* so be warned. If you ask me about a music genre run for the trenches because I have a 2 page dissertation prepared.

What I’ll Post Here

If I post anything here, it’ll mostly be reblogs. I have unsuspecting Discord servers for my shower thoughts. But, if I post anything, expect it to be about music, whether it be regarding my band, my projects, or just genre/critique stuff. I can be fairly horny on occasion, but I try not to share too much with any followers, and if I do it’ll be tagged.

These tags have never been used but it’s what I have in mind.

#burnt violets- anything regarding my band if there’s anything regarding my band.

#r.o.s.e.- anything regarding solo projects if there’s anything regarding solo projects

#genre bullshit- the tag for any genre stuff I want to share I find interesting— each genre will be tagged accordingly

#music/billboard notes- for when I want to talk about either random music stuff or Billboard Hot 100 stuff.

#dashie_04- anything regarding my stories

#she’s so silly- for any random shower thoughts I share here for whatever reason (may also be “they’re so silly” if I vibe enby that day sorrryyy)

If I talk about any games, manga, anime, or musicians, they’ll be tagged accordingly. But really don’t expect much from this account. I just wanted to create this post in case.

For additional info— my pfp atp was drawn by Naiya-the-brony on commission! Figured I should put that out there.

Bigots DNI! You will be blocked and reported!

[hellfireheroes]

‘If any of you little shits die down here, IM getting the blame!’

Short Summary:

Steve Harrington was the darling golden boy of Hawkins High. Born into a rich family, with the hair to rival a god’s, Steve was top dog in Hawkins high. The king. The sun.

Until he lost his crown and was shown how feral the world underneath their home is. Now, he spends his time protecting his little family and doing his best to keep them safe.

⚾️ Basic information ⚾️

Name: Steven Richard Harrington.

Age: 19.

Height: 5’10.

Birthday: April 15th 1967.

Zodiac: Aries.

Pronouns: He/they.

Gender: Male.

Sexuality: Bisexual.

Species: Human.

Race: White but nationality is Italian American.

Languages: English, Italian.

Appearance:

Steve’s main identifying feature is his hair. Soft and voluminous, he takes great care in his hair’s appearance. During the years he’s grown his hair out into semi-mullets and swoops.

He mainly dresses in nice polos and jackets and jeans. With tennis shoes and sneakers commonly with more earthy tones such as dark green and blues. He also wears warm colors on occasion.

His main color of choice appears to be blue however.

Personality:

Alignment: Lawful good.

Archetypes: The Hero, The Caregiver.

Type: ESFJ, The Caregiver.

Originally a harsh and egotistical bully, Steve was labeled by many at Hawkins to be a asshole and a douchebag. Using his popularity and his families money, Steve was anything but a good dude. Drugs, parties and flings were his way to relieve that hole in his heart left behind by his parent’s absence.

Though, his personality changed after getting his face bashed in by Jonathan Byers and quickly his kingdom toppled.

Now humbled by the truth of Hawkins and his own traumatic brain injuries, Steve is rather soft and caring to those he loves and tends to be more snarky than mean. Keeping his loved ones safe is his priority. Though, he knows how to defend himself and won’t take bullshit from people. If need be, he can call forth King Steve to put someone in their place.

Backstory:

Warnings include, Ableism, child abuse, child neglect, blood, injuries, alcoholism.

Born to Richard and Maria Harrington, Steve wasn’t planned. He was an accident during a business trip to London. Though, now struck with the possibility of a new asset to their future, Steve was born at Hawkin’s general hospital on April 15th, 1967.

During his years growing up into a toddler, Steve was strange. Often getting attached to things and never sitting still or such. He became obsessed with marigolds and gardening.

Steve was recommended to get tested by a pediatrician.

When Steve turned 5 he was diagnosed with Autism.

Maria and Richard immediately denied such claims and worked to shape their boy into the perfect, normal child. Years and years of conditioning and training made Steve mask his autism. He was normal.

But even as he tried to appease his parents, to be good to get them to stay, they never did.

At the age of 9, Steve learned of his mother’s heritage as a Italian American. At the age of 9, Steve was left alone to take care of himself. At the age of 9, Steve learned about himself.

He learned how to cook, clean, fold laundry.

Steve grew angry.

He hated it.

Once Steve reached 14, he started Hawkins high.

Having grown a reputation as a golden boy due to his family, Steve was already a name many were familiar with. Finding friendship with a boy named Tommy and a girl named Carol, Steve finally found company that stayed.

Quickly he grew up the food chain and after just 3 months of attending Hawkin’s high, he was labeled their king.

Throwing hatred for the freaks and outcasts at Hawkins high, Steve was efficient in his lashing out at anything different. His parents were proud.

But he felt sick.

He labeled Eddie Munson as ‘The Freak.’

He would throw huge parties and drink and smoke and go crazy. Just to fill that hole in his heart left behind by his parents.

1983

Then, he met Nancy Wheeler.

He fell for her and he fell HARD. She was an enigma to him. He loved her sass and her brain. Loved how she played hard to get and actually cared about people and her friends.

She wasn’t like other girls, she had more to her than her surface.

He had never truly been loved like he was with Nancy. Sure, Steve’s been ‘loved’ but never loved. People love the idea of him. His name. His status. But not Steve.

Nancy? Nancy did.

And then Steve gets the shit beat out of him by Jonathan.

He gets his second concussion that day. His ears ring a little and his headaches ache more than they did but he woke up. He realized just how awful he’s been and wants to make it better. He tries to fix his mistakes, cuts off Tommy and Carol and tries to apologize to Nancy and Jonathan.

And then he’s faced with a true monster.

And he makes a decision.

1984

Steve is there for every single time Hawkins is in peril.

He’s dragged into such by Dustin and slowly over time, bonds with the party and is trusted to keep them safe. It never gets easier as a human shield but Steve has a purpose. He was now useful.

Steve gets his third concussion from Hargrove, their rivalry reaching a boiling point at their showdown at the Byers home. Steve didn’t get along well with Hargove, being seen as a competitor to the throne of Hawkins.

Steve easily loses the fight but he kept them safe enough for max to incapacitate him.

The world is saved again and he officially looses Nancy to Jonathan.

He doesn’t cry about his wounds which remain untreated or about loosing Nancy. Harrington men don’t cry.

He’s offered a scholarship for a swimming team, fully paid for and funded but he turns it down for the sake of Hawkins and the party.

Sometimes he regrets that decision.

1985

Steve graduates in 1985 and he’s cut off from his parents money. Forced to get a job, he applies at the new starcourt mall and finds a job at Scoops Ahoy.

He works there for the summer with one Robin Buckley and is immediately in love with her. Loves her snark, her knowledge and her games. Loves her a person. He grows fond of her and the party now more than ever.

And then shit hits the fan.

Steve, Robin, Erica and Dustin all investigate the strange interference in the Hawkins radio and end up lost under the mall. They are locked in an elevator for one night and eventually captured by Russian soldiers.

Steve gets his fourth concussion and a few broken ribs and bruised organs for their troubles. He can’t hear out of his left ear and his vision is fuzzy around the edges.

But he gained Robin. His soulmate.

His platonic with a Captain P soulmate.

Once Starcourt is burned down, he goes home and licks his wounds alone. His hearing never returned and his vision is worse but it’s fine. It has to be.

He drives the kids where they need to go and helped Joyce load the moving van to California. Helped her pick up other belongings from the kid’s houses.

He was there to see Jonathan and Will off.

He got a job at Family Video with Robin, the two inseparable. He slowly unmasked around Robin. Feeling comfortable in his own skin again.

1986

He became jealous of Eddie Munson. Dustin’s new friend and mentor to the party.

He drove the kids to and from hellfire and bonded with them as much as he knew about their game. He did his best to keep himself useful.

Until, once again, it happened.

A dead cheerleader and a innocent man on the run from things he didn’t understand, Steve was once again met with Eddie Munson. Held against the side of the boathouse, Steve felt a familiar spark rise in him with Eddie.

Love.

However, Steve didn’t realize it.

Being dragged into hell after a late night swim, Steve gets his fifth concussion. He cannot hear out of his left ear at all anymore and his vision and memory is fuzzy. But he keeps going.

He can handle it later.

Once max is okay, once the upside down is once again, stopped.

Later came and went and Vecna ran. He got away.

Eddie was torn apart and Dustin broke his ankle.

Canon divergent route 1

Steve gave Eddie CPR and didn’t let him go beyond life at all. Using his life guard training he kept Eddie alive all the way to the hospital. Carrying Munson out of hell himself.

Once Eddie, Dustin and Max were taken care of? Steve collapsed into a seizure.

When Steve was coherent enough, he was given a government assigned neurologist and was later diagnosed with epilepsy and seizures. He lost his license. He lost his freedom.

He was given medication and was offered the latest in hearing aids and glasses and with pressure from Robin, agreed.

During the apocalypse in Hawkins, Steve never once slowed down. Bringing food and clothes and blankets to the shelter, making sandwiches and helping mothers and families get clothes, he worked and worked to keep others safe and provide for them.

For months, he kept watch of Eddie and Max, in their comas and kept Wayne company.

Then, Eddie woke up.

And he and Steve got together and beat Vecna once and for all.

Canon ending for season 4

Eddie dies and Steve and the crew are left to pick up the pieces of Hawkins. Being reunited with the rest of the party, Steve and Robin help with the relief aids in the high school. Making sandwiches and sorting clothes and waiting and planning.

With El back in their neck of the woods, they plan and wait.

Post canon in which Eddie lives

Steve learned to take care of himself with Robin, Eddie and the party’s help. Keeping up to date on MRI’s and his medication and aids.

He learned ASL with Robin to communicate and he’s been having fun teaching Eddie and Dustin words in ASL. He was loved. Appreciated.

Steve stopped masking at 20 and once Vecna was defeated for good, he got a marigold garden. He and Eddie and Wayne move in together and all share rent.

At the age of 23 Steve goes to college for teaching and at the age of 27, he had a degree in teaching for public schools. He became a teacher for the local preschool at 29.

He and Eddie stayed together for years and eventually they both got their own home in Loch Nora together, fit with a marigold and vegetable garden.

Steve still has seizures and he and Eddie and the party all know what to do when one happens but he wouldn’t have it any other way.

He kept them safe.