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samlikesbooks · 2 days ago

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my parents made me wear a dress for my birthday (i hate it), got their favourite niece a bigger cake even though it wasn't her birthday only because “she deserves it” (and i don't obv), told people that she made the decorations in our new house by herself, when infact, we both did it.

does it kill you to be kind to me?

#i hate my birthday fr #like #ah nvm #atleast my friends wished me #i love them #two more years and then im moving out

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bubblepopsims · 9 months ago

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~Bunny Bear Madalyn Marie ft. bunny boop

i couldn't pass up on not putting my bun in these accessories by @1-800-cuupid CC set💘Bunny Bop || VENUS💘

and fits perfectly with my naughty innocent Maddi

#ts4 #ts4 simblr #ts4 screenshots #sims 4 #the tribe #my sims #oc: Maddi #oc: Rafael fl0ptrait #bunny bun #also I have to say it XD maddi is thick alright 🤣🤣🤣 and no it’s not fake at all she grew up like that 🤣#I played maddi and emillie both for Highschool years mhm mhm and it was actually going to be about them but than… BUT THAN I made juju #and it was over 🤣🤣🤣 she had main character energy written all over her #she literally overpowered me and and said THIS is my fucking show alright and these are my friends 🤣🤣🤣#but anyway yeah so maddi’s mom was thickums too ya know but not like this heheheh I also think it’s because she does go work out with Rafa #yep they are a gym couple #but yeah damn I get it Rafa XD I get it #plus you are a ass man #but you also get the tiddies tooo #you are lucky you fucker and you are being a fuckhead #I wish I was just writing story but no this motherfucker while I played him was just tenseeeeeee #all the time #stressed #than he got the fear of being cheated on and I was just not having it #so him in story was truth for the most part atleast my interpretation of it XD #Kay bye thanks for coming to my ted talk in my tags

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lyss-sketchbox · 10 months ago

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ONE WEEK LEFT UNTIL FRENCH-BRIT HUSBAND REUNION

you will come home neuvi, your husband and bestie is waiting for you

#pspspsppsppspspspsp #manifesting i atleast win ONE 50/50 #im gonna facking lose it if it takes me 300+ wishes to get JUST c0r1 #i wanna solo abyss with husbands on either sides please #also make neuvi fight the hydro cube #because my friend who is a neuvi haver refuses to do it #lyssten to my rambles

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deltaruiner · 11 months ago

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i love the pmmm movies but why did they see they had to remove scenes for time and go "hmm guess we must remove 2 of the most important scenes for our messenge and character development then"

#pmmm #puella magi madoka magica #actual oc posts #like mami warning sayaka to consider the true motive for her wish is super important to understanding what sayaka's character goes through #homura about to kill her (but also not really some say) is also CRITICAL for understanding some of homura #like. why couldn't they try to reinclude some aspects in other scenes atleast D:#this is 100% from me debating whether to show my friends the bluray or movies btw #deltaruins tags

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spoofyleaf · 18 days ago

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Dear childhood best friend,

I miss exchanging Christmas gifts with you

#guys I miss my childhood friend so much #we just drifted apart #and it sucks knowing there wasn’t really a reason that we stopped talking #we just…did #shit almost makes me wish that we had a big fight #or that she was a dick #or that I was a dick #bc then there’d atleast be something #anything #anything that was more than ‘they just drifted apart’

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pnsge · 19 days ago

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so… moving day, huh?

#sage’s diary #014 #12/20/2024 #haha what the fuck dude #been so exhausted the past couple days #nothing but work and packing my body can only handle so much #idek how early i gotta get up for the actual move but god im hoping it’s not later in the day #i wanna get this shit done and over with asap #also gotta work on a comm as soon as i can too aaaauhhjgg #i atleast got to have some friend time while packing so yayyyyyy :3 #hope I can talk with them again soon…… im sure moving in won’t take too long but u never know……..#boutta sign off and clean the bed n sleep soon #wish me luck y’all #o7

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nachtnabelle · 5 months ago

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i want him to want me. i dont care if he hurts me, i just want to believe that i can be wanted, and loved, and actually feel it. i want to believe i can be loved.

#i cant imagine it #i dont believe when my parents say they love me: how could they? they would be crazy to love me #and everyone else shows blatantly how little they care for me #i tell myself people must treat me this way because they assume i dont need to be worried about #that there is someone to care for me and love me #that i am not as utterly alone as i am #its ironic #we’re all so violently alone #not really #they may be alone. but they have company #in friends and in happiness #in people who care somewhat #i dont #i wish i could understand why #but im just #strange #unlovable #undesirable #weird and ugly #i do this to myself #it wouldnt matter if i disappeared one day #i want to go some place far away from here #maybe i should pursue accounting #i have no talent in it but atleast ill have no trouble finding a job #ill settle someplace far from here #and maybe ill be happy #just once #i wish i was different #i wish everything was different #i dont want to live in a hole anymore

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girlivealwaysbean · 4 months ago

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it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy

#i follow this person cleo abrams on youtube and she's always talking so excitedly about scientists #and their amazing discoveries cool facts and she's so excited and starry eyed and hopeful #she genuinely just wants to educate people and has so much hope that we can make the world a better place #also like idk maybe unrelated but i saw the mv of new romantics and just. wow #say what you will about her but there's no doubt she's made an insane number of people happy SO HAPPY that they're crying #so many tours #idk i want #i wish my life was bigger #i feel so isolated and always just focusing on myself my career my health my enjoyment #what about everything everyone else #i keep trying to be completely okay with being alone i keep telling myself to not need anyone and be 100% independent #find happiness within hobbies interests #but it feels like a losing battle #i don't know i just. miss everyone 😭😭😭😭#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing #i miss my bestfriend i don't know what i did wrong but she won't pick up my call she keeps saying she's busy #i don't want to be clingy because she hates that shit i don't want to drive her away but she's my only friend #i miss my fucking mom she doesn't care if i live or die obviously but i miss just having her presence in the house #and even tho my sister is here she's never fully present always on her laptop working #i wouldn't really say i miss my dad but wow it's been so long since mom and dad stayed together at home it was almost #always miserable but sometimes at the lunch table it was nice #i don't know everything and everyone is moving and changing so fast and i can't breathe under it and it's already september #but this entire year felt like a blur it's like everyone who left took a chunk of my heart with them #and i should be happy because im so close to the exam which will get me out of this house finally be financially independent #like i wanted since i was 11 i could finally start my life #but it all feels so. i don't know the whole future seems black like i can't imagine life past november 2025 #how do you imagine happiness if you've never been happy?#and all these feelings are making it so hard to study and studying is so fucking important because if i don't ill be stuck here forever #and i don't want to go thru attempts fail and pass again atleast back then i had a reason first heartbreak‚ not getting to go to college #but what now why now i don't even understand i know objectively i do not have it that bad it's literally better even if i compare to my own

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your-dead-european-ancestor · 5 months ago

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Honestly kurikulum merdeka was a good IDEA but the execution is fucking awful 😭 over works you for a whole year and then when you Think 'oh atleast now i get to choose my entire learning experience!' NO!!! You have to have atleast one ips subject and you can only pick 4 subjects and theres Still mandatory subjects (doesnt help that i hate most of them :/) AND YOU WONT EVEN GET THE SUBJECTS YOU WANT. YOULL GET ASSIGNED THE CLASSROOM CLOSEST TO YOUR CHOICE. WHEN HAVE I EVER SAID I LIKED SOCIOLOGY

i didnt get compsci and extra maths and now im sad :(

#atleast theres still normal maths but compsciiii #compsci my beloved.. when will you return from the war..#i wish i could chose another class that has it but every other class is terrible for me personally #indo posting again hehe hoohoo #ghost rambles #we got assigned classes a while ago but i saw one of my friends post ab the thing theyre learning in compsci AND THE AMMOUNT OF ENVY AND #PSYCHIC DAMAGE I GOT #AUGHHHHH

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shanti-ashant-hai · 7 months ago

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#found a letter i wrote to my “18 year old self” when i was 10 #god 10 year old me was so full of life #so ready to do things #she was obsessed with getting her way and working for it #now someone tells me to do hard work and i just. stop breathing #and ive fulfilled little me's wish of getting into BHU and still being friends with my childhood friends #but the last line. the last fucking line.#“its ok if you dont do any of that as long as you are happy and mumma and papa love you and are proud of you”#WHAT IF I CRIED #happy? mumma proud of me? what are those but little whims #mere fantasies that can never be fulfilled #10 year old shanti wished for something and did everything in her power to achieve it #she knew she wasnt talented and said “ok then hardwork it is”#19 year old shanti is tired. exhausted. done.#i know im not talented and i'll only get my way through hardwork. and i dont. fucking. want to.#is it even worth it?#im not even as happy as i thought id be #i want to be 10 #i want to run around with scraped knees #to drink glucon-D and laugh with my friends about fart jokes #i want to reverse time #i want my mother to look at me with love #i want her to stroke my hair and feed me my favourite meal and tell me its ok if im mediocre #10 year old me had her fucking shit together and didnt know it #“i love you older me. you're amazing”#thank you younger me. i hope you. atleast. are proud of me.#shanti ki ashanti suno

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kidrunaway · 9 months ago

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how do I deal with stress from school

#its not just any kind of stress btw it was so bad last year to the point i ended up getting internal bleeding #the same thing is happening again currently. i hope not atleast. ive taken some vitamins today and my stool color changed #so i really hope its just due to the vitamins #I cant keep up w it anymore #i put my worth to my grades and thats my mistake #i give my best and get a bad grade. i resort to cheating and get a bad grade. man #i changed frkm a private school to a public school and the systems are really different #i wish i could do school is the thing #i wish i could effortlessly get good grades but its not happening #i think im js burned out #my therapist said she wants me to take a break from everythjng. because not only am i constantly stressed with school but family n friends #add onto that

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ventcode · 2 years ago

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this isn’t what i wanted

#i wanted to be here but not now. on my own terms i said to myself.#i was taken through an ambulance to the hospital where i stayed. lonely cold and confused. literally #i was taken from my family my friends and my love. i was TAKEN AWAY.#and now im going to be watched for the whole summer incase i have a fucking panic attack and try to hurt myself or something.#so i dont kill myself #this is what i feared. but it will be good for me right? thats what i said going into this.#first few days i wouldnt stop crying.#another day my roommate asked to have sex with me and guided my hand. i pulled away and changed roommates.#but nothing happened. i still have to talk to them.#im leaving on monday. ill make the most out of my weekend. i cant contact anyone this way over weekends.#atleast darlings on the contact list. i can call them. as for the others.#i miss everyone. im scared.#and im happy. im happy im getting the FUCK out of here. monday.#i cant wait for monday.#i wish i could apologize for everything ive done.

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rfks-brain-worms · 2 years ago

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#MY FRIENDS I ABANDONED ARE DOING GREAT SO THIS IS A AVOIDANT WIN!!!!#They are making new friends and starting up OC worlds #It’s amazing #i’m really fuckin happy they are not only ok but better #But that also means my brain is right about me being shit so ugh #Well atleast the people I care for are ok #Thats all I want at this point in life and if me being near them (since I’m annoying cracker) harms them then I will keep them away!#I miss them but they are doing well it looks like so #Still wish i was with them #I do love them #platonically of couse #But still #maybe I didn't have to leave but they seem better idk #They were all nice people I could trust #I wish i could go back though #Just to see #that was by far the nicest year of my life #That 7 month period of my life #I had friends people pretended to enjoy my art I felt like I could breath #Too late to go back now #I’m gonna write a goodbye note I think #We both hate goodbyes but I feel like daisy atleast deserves one #They were a friend who changed me and that doesnt happen #Hasent happened but it did #So yeah I’m gonna write a goodbye letter thing IDK lack of better words #Not like anybody will read this but don’t be like me #Dont let that voice in your head speak at all #The people you know do actually care for you atleast a little bit #Idrc If they were liars or something only going “oh your art is good!” To be nice #Id rather be surrounded by liars than by myself

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sardonicsergeant · 7 days ago

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Idk its sorta funny that it took me 25 years to really ask for help and I just... completely lost my oldest and closest confidants and then I'm just stuck on the other side like... wow I was really getting physically abused again and they just... abandoned me over love bombing. Usually I try to forgive but... man even if it stopped feeling so raw, and I was able to completely blame myself[both for the initial abuse, and the fallout ensuing from talking about it but fearing being too negative or focusing on myself too much, resulting in ""love bombing""] I just can't see myself actually... engaging with them. Which is fine enough, I closed myself off to everyone including them long before that anyways. I'm certainly a self fulfilling prophecy, I do wish there were less casualties in the meantime.

#sardonic speeches #best part about being bullied by your former friends in elementary is it really just...#cements that people will leave and they wont care when they do so theres no use worrying too much over it #i think 10+ years of the closest thing to friendship i can muster is enough to mourn and grieve over tho lmao #atleast i can use tumblr again without the thinking useless thoughts thing #idk i think ill drop off social media and maybe life in general in a bit tho...#i just... wish i had been self motivated enough to do anything? or talented enough that someone felt i was worth motivating #i mean... my mentor said he was proud of me but he never #idk.#said i was smart or funny or anything?#i can always pretend i am but... man ive never really had shit going for me #which isnt to say i couldnt still do something with myself!! thats the case w plenty of people i just....#lack ambition or motivation and i hate living w myself but uhm... i am myself so other ppl arent into it either #god then add capitalism on top of it and like... bro i dont want to use my labour for a conglomerate.#like... truly glad i didnt go thru school to be in debt for a stem field and have all the research im passionate about not be funded #and then have my findings used for absolute bullshit #hs me was right dissuading myself from shooting for a graduate degree program like epidemiology #idk i just dont trust that companies would release a cure en masse and if i had ever contributed...

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too-late-chomp · 1 month ago

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#having straight thoughts.#nobody will know of my fantasy of being a normal husband who adores his wife. i know i cant ever have that but #gosh do i want a cheesy romance with some random girl . i dont actually love but.#gosh..#the thought of being desired and being able to desire. the thought of making a lovely lady happy. gah...#how i wish to just be a normal and whimsy guy sometimes. i just want to charm girls.#all i can do is confuse them and thats pretty much romance enough for me #i wish. i could feel love. sometimes. and im okay with not. but. also. gahh...#its just!! love seems like such a cute feeling!! i want to see people happy and enjoying themselves and i want to just!!#sigh. i just wish i could charm people and not in my 'scary weird not quite a girl' way #i wish i wasnt percieved as a girl at all but. if it helps #they percieve me as a weird scary girl! which is pretty nice. others percieve my as what i am : a femboy. a lot think im nonbinary?#gender is weird. i dont mind being called nonbinary but i HATE being reffered to as trans. like yes its what i am but it doesnt feel Right.#i do wish i was a cis guy. if i was a cis guy i would dress like a girl or nothing.#i wish i had a packer. i hope i can get top surgery one day. i wish i didnt have this body but theres things i do like about it.#i do like my body i think? but. gosh. the way others percieve it is awful. i hate being catcalled its so awkward. i like my curves because #they make me feel closer to that femboy status! my tummy is cute! but. others see it way different.#tonight i feel wonderful about my body because i got to lie against my friend's chest and feel their heart and i adore their body because #its theirs! and i wouldnt have it any other way! and they probably feel that way about mine . so i must love mine regardless.#im tired and my body has been wonderful today because i got to have it with a friend.#i want to lie against their chest again the feeling of touching them and being so close it hurts so much i need it #i love my friends #i love how they dont think my touch is bad i dont need to be worried about my grossness with them because they understand me atleast a lil.#i love them!!#feeling love in this special loveless way is wonderful. i never want to feel whatever romance is. sigh <3 :-)

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girlivealwaysbean · 7 months ago

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my bestie sending me that reel on ig 'to the ones who healed the heart they didn't break. i love you'... we haven't hung out or talked in weeks......

#it's sweet i guess #i just #she holds me in such high regard she's like i tell you everything you know you're my no. 1 bestfriend right #and it's a lot coming from her because she has pretty cool close friends like atleast 4 more #i want to feel the same but like #how can you say you love me when you don't talk to me everyday #or atleast regularly like 2-3 times a week #i wish it was enough i wish i could tell her everything too

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