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#she knew she wasnt talented and said “ok then hardwork it is”
shanti-ashant-hai
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#found a letter i wrote to my “18 year old self” when i was 10
#god 10 year old me was so full of life
#so ready to do things
#she was obsessed with getting her way and working for it
#now someone tells me to do hard work and i just. stop breathing
#and ive fulfilled little me's wish of getting into BHU and still being friends with my childhood friends
#but the last line. the last fucking line.
#“its ok if you dont do any of that as long as you are happy and mumma and papa love you and are proud of you”
#WHAT IF I CRIED
#happy? mumma proud of me? what are those but little whims
#mere fantasies that can never be fulfilled
#10 year old shanti wished for something and did everything in her power to achieve it
#she knew she wasnt talented and said “ok then hardwork it is”
#19 year old shanti is tired. exhausted. done.
#i know im not talented and i'll only get my way through hardwork. and i dont. fucking. want to.
#is it even worth it?
#im not even as happy as i thought id be
#i want to be 10
#i want to run around with scraped knees
#to drink glucon-D and laugh with my friends about fart jokes
#i want to reverse time
#i want my mother to look at me with love
#i want her to stroke my hair and feed me my favourite meal and tell me its ok if im mediocre
#10 year old me had her fucking shit together and didnt know it
#“i love you older me. you're amazing”
#thank you younger me. i hope you. atleast. are proud of me.
#shanti ki ashanti suno
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