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These past two days have not been good!!!!
#tw vent#my laptop charger broke again#and i think im gonna have another anxiety episode#+ some other stuff#at this point put me in a psych ward
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this isnt what i usually post on this blog but I'm already sick of all the memes and 'jokes'. I am almost certainly leaving the fandom for good now because of the book of bills release and NO it is not because billford's community has an influx of supporters.
So the worship and romanticization of asylums and other abusive practices for mental health have been steadily gaining traction in recent years, especially with the rise of tiktok's toxicity.
SO many people, especially younger people, regularly talk about how they want lobotomies or how women they don't like should be lobotomized. They get tattoos of lobotomy like it's some quirky fun thing and not one of the most horrific tortures someone can endure.
These same people, ESPECIALLY leftists, will look at anyone they disagree with or don't like and say "get institutionalized, loser" or "et therapy" and it's always in a mocking way. it's always in a policing way.
because these people know that mental wards strip everyone of their freedom and their bodily autonomy. they know these places arent for healing--theyre for silencing.
So the amount of people i see treating bill being institutionalized like a good thing---even the writers and alex himself?
Yeah. Im out ✌🏼
#you people try to act quirky and say you like weird stuff and you like crazy people and hate normies#but then when someone isnt a normie and actually does want to change things in radical ways you want to put them in an asylum#i do not want to interact with any of you people!#i still love gravity falls (obviously) but im just... so over the fandom at this point.#even people who LIKE bill are trying to act like this is all a good thing#guess what asylums dont help :) they almost always make things worse!#so in reality if bill ever got out he would just be 100x worse and more vengeful than before! congrats.#Play stupid games get stupid prizes!#gravity falls#antipsych#i seriously dont understand why anyone things mental wards are in any way different than how they used to be a hundred yeears ago.#because they arent. at all. like literally at all.#they forcefully medicate you with pills that you dont need and that actively harm you bc random ass nurses diagnose you with#someething different every other day and ust give you a new pill for every diagnosis#i know someone who was put on antipsychs when not only do they not have a psych disorder but they had a heart condition and#nearly died bc of it. I myself was put on three different pills the very night i went in. they never#even hesitated to wait and see if i would have a bad reaection or if i reeally needed it.#bc why would they when heavily meedicating you makes you unable to think or reaelize what theyre doing is extremely unethical?#i saw multiple people held down and strapped to their beds and given sedatives for doing nothing at all. For simply asking questions.#I saw staff harass and mock and disrespect very speciifc kids (specifically the poc kids.)#I saw staff lie and try to incite fear in other kids and myself.#one of them told me the night before i was cleared for release tat if i said 'im fine' at any point they would keep me for another month.#and that if i didnt continue to take the meds (ssris) that i was overdosing on that they would come grab me in a van and bring me back#against my will.#Keep in mind i was here based off of lies. There was no real reason for me to be in that asylum.#So yeah. literally dont come on this post trying to defend asylums bc i PROMISE you i have more experience in the reality than you#ever could.#Theyre horrible and romanticising it even against a fictional villain is repulsive behavior.
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Tulips by Sylvia Plath
#tulips#poetry#Sylvia Plath#psych ward#medical#hospital#mental hospital#upload#I have a nagging feeling the needle was full of Thorazine#that’s what they do at some mental hospitals. just put you on meds that make you sleep so they don’t have to deal with doing their jobs#I’ve seen people who are literal zombies because the doctors gave them an antipsychotic dosage that was WAY too high#like there were people that would sleep all day because they genuinely couldn’t get up after injections being forced upon them#and sometimes they were literal children#it’s kind of extremely evil#you’re not fixing the problem you’re just drugging someone to a point they cannot function#and that’s disgusting to me
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i have been diagnosed with “rather severe” fibromyalgia
#and ‘likely’ the me/cfs double whammy but he couldn’t determine my#degree of PEM so i’d have to find someone else to confirm it#pegasus speaks#they told me i was gonna have to stay on the psych ward until monday or tuesday if i wanted to see the rheumatologist#bc they don’t work weekends and there is no outpatient option#(told me this AFTER i had been discharged .. like after they had cleaned my room and put someone else in it)#i’d been waiting for them to come see me all day and then evening rolled around and still nothing#and i’ve been fighting for this for years so i agreed. but i cried so hard the doctor arranged for an on-call to see me#did the whole physical and ultrasounds and went over all the blood work and my history again#and i got to go home after#i’m so thankful to that man#feels like shit to know how poor the prognosis is but i’m comforted to have a concrete starting point#to know i’m not delusional after 6-7 years of seeking medical attention for this#i’m both saddened and so relieved#and above all exhausted
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gatekeeping ttpd because i’ve actually been in a psych ward. this one’s for the girls who had to give up shoes with shoelaces for weeks at a time everyone else sit down
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Time to get lost in a book since I highly doubt I'm going to be able to sleep before my doctor's appointment 🙃
#I am so nervous and my brain is so loud !!!!!!!!#I hate it I hate it#I just want to get tomorrow over with but God I feel so judged every time I go there#if I see nurse b I will throw up not even kidding you#I still can't believe she tried to cut me off all my meds and said I was driving while on them and she was gonna put me in jail#I have so many shitty experiences with this hospital at this point I just need to move somewhere else#like it's one thing to have had a bad visit with her and for that to have been it#but then writing a false report on me and forwarding it to different departments including the psych ward?????#God every time I remember that I get so mad#but whatever#I just wish I didn't have a damn panic attack every time I needed a refill for my fucking IBS meds you know#but I can't see the actual specialist until July#guhfufhhdhshs hate this so much#I literally feel like I'm gonna have a police car waiting for me each time I go back there lmao I'm pathetic#I don't even feel like I want to go but I have to#God I miss the doctor I had 2 years ago#I want to cry
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ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.
months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.
#im kind of impressed that i can at this point carry a normal conversation (as good as i ever can. which is bad but irrelevant)#while being in agony and having been in agony for as long as i can remember#usually also with something dislocated just for some extra fun#because what i actually feel like doing 100% of the time is lighting myself on fire and/or screaming forever until i die#however thats the kind of shit that puts you in the psych ward again#so i am. smiling and making small talk while migraine auras wash out my vision and i try not to visibly dry heave#its really really really fucking bad. all the time so fucking bad.#i need to message my neurologist but likelihood of me doing that is low#because 1) the stuff she's put me on has so far done nothing but add intolerable side effects to the hell that i am already existing in#and 2) its fucking hard to do anything. even the bare minimum im not doing. so extra shit is just. not happening#i want to scream.#i am gonna. go for a walk and smoke a cigarette instead and then get really high because at least then i dont really care#the auras are making it really hard to see though. theyre like bleach all over my vision. just this wash of white#hhh.#chronic illness#chronic migraine#and its like. when my knee also gives out and it feels like theres metal in there slicing everything up with each tiny movement#or any of the other one million goddamn things broken in my body#i end up so overwhelmed by pain that i just want to lay on the floor and cry#at which point everyone around me gets mad that im not being productive and im costing them money and im not good enough#like ok kill me then. cheaper for you happier for me. just get a heavy object and go to town i would thank you for it#but i cant even say that because openly expressing suicidality just makes people angrier#im rapidly running out of fucks to give but also i will do anything to avoid returning to the psych ward#literally anything. morals out the window. i dont give a shit.#so its a catch-22.#vent
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Wait a minute. I just thought back to my child psych ward days and good golly gosh did they. commit a lot of hmmm,, medical malpractice,, that might've had some effect on my psyche
#they put me in an adult high security psych ward at 14 didn't give me any therapy instead they got me hooked on benzos#they didn't have enough nurses so whenever nore than one patient was having an Episode they'd just tranq everyone and put em in the cage bed#fun fact this was the same hospital where Hans Asperger did his thing#at a different hospital i was yet again in an adult ward as a minor in which i received no therapy and spent all day alone in my room#i stopped taking my meds at some point and they did nothing until it triggered my first and only psychotic episode#this was 2014 so it was fnaf themed :/#those same guys would just let me weigh myself whenever and didn't stop me until i was weighing myself like six times a day#omg i remember now one time i came to the nurse's office because i was dizzy and weak and basically passed out as soon as i walked in#hit my head pretty hard but i woke up to them just berating me for passing out?#AND IN THAT SAME WARD some grown ass man flashed me (STILL 14) and when i told the doctor they made ME move wards#which obv includes switching doctors and treatment plans because why would the two wards communicate with each other#brooo#there was actually so much fucked up shit going on?#ganja's diary
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most of the time im like "i love being a freak :) yaay identity :) wahoo" but jesus christ. teenage girls will always make me want to kill myself.
#see a couple of teens in low rise jeans and crop tops laughing at a tram stop ? kms.#stand next to some girls in their 20s talking abt how a guy wont stop snap chatting them ? kms.#GOD right now im sitting next to an insanely loud trio of stupidly rich#oops. rich pretty straightened-hair girls and they r making me want 2 dieeeee#“there r some girls in my group who literally dont talk. like how hard is it? just dont be boring!?”#“omg im literally so adhd at this point its getting a bit spectro (?)”#“like i was literally like crazy they should've put me in the psych ward fr”#I DONT WANT TO INSINUATE THAT POPULAR PRETTY NEUROTYPICAL GIRLS DONT HAVE PROBLEMS. I KNOW THEY DO.#i just wish they knew how f u ck i n g hard life can be#i wish i could shoot anyone who uses adhd or ocd as an adjective#FUCKING FAKE TAN. WHO THE FUCK WOULD EVER FAKE TAN.#jesus christ. i feel like the most tistic dyke in the world.#AND im wearing a singlet today so my armpit hairs are out#i am a recovering shaver#man i feel like im in grade eight#txt
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I think probably the only thing I’m good at is pretending I’m a mentally sane and neurotypical person
#i know how someone is supposed to act even though it’s not my instinct to act that way#if I acted how I wanted I would have even more people hate me. i would probably be diagnosed with all my shit by now lol but I would also -#-probably be put in a psych ward and deemed unfit for society#i swear I am constantly on the verge of my breaking point and just acting how my mind wants me to
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Even just half-heartedly looking for work as someone who is legally blind, autistic, with no highschool diploma, GED, or degrees and who can't leave the house is a very specific kind of let-down and disappointment that just really makes a person depressed.
#irl#vent#suicidal ideation#i am a money sink and a financial burden and trying to look for ways to fix that turns up nothing!!!#society abandons those who cannot work!!! and i sure do seem to be unemployable!!!#like#i would need a work from home job that doesnt require a highschool diploma ged or a degree that i can do as someone who is legally blind#at the LEAST#even just being a cashier at pet smart requires a fucking highschool diploma!!! and i cant even do that sort of work anymore!!!#i dont have any fancy little talents or areas of expertise either!!! i cant code i suck at source work i cant do graphic design!!!#what am i supposed to do#can someone just like put me down like a sick animal or smth at this point#because i feel like all i amount to at this point is a burdensome and childish good for nothing waste of space#and an additional source of stress and disappointment for everyone who has ever cared about me or had hopes for my future#sincerely feel like everyone who knows me would be better off if i were dead#no one would have to take care of me then - theyd be free of any burden i put on them#hell considering how few people i talk to and how little o do talk to ones i DO talk to they probably wouldnt even notice i were gone#and once they did they probably wouldnt be upset for long at all if they would be upset to begin with#my partner would be free to find a smaller more affordable place to live or could even get a car and live in it as he thought of doing#before if i werent around being a little needy whiny bitch#seriously whats even the fucking point#im so tired of just...fucking everything.#i dont talk about it much but i really do just feel like shit all the fucking time man#and i feel so fucking powerless and like i have no control of my life too#should probably be in therapy still but i just know theyd force me into the psych ward again#not that talk therapy would do shit for me anyways tho#i dunno#im tired and sad and hopeless and i just wanna go to sleep and not wake up again#not that it matters or anything though lololol
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the unfortunate part of the larvae debacle today (well the whole thing was unfortunate and bad but fsjkl this just kicks it up a notch) is that i've been having insect hallucinations the past .... three(?) days. like whole insects just... crawling around. also i've been seeing things dripping randomly like full drops just falling and then landing in a tiny puddle but then theres... nothing there. so thats fun! (sarcasm)
it makes it really hard to feel any kind of relaxed or safe though because i genuinely cannot tell if i am just seeing things or if there's actually an insect crawling/flying around because both are equally likely at this point it feels like :/
#maybe i will mention this to the counselor but. also. i am afraid of being put in the psych ward fdsjkl#they almost certainly wouldnt put me in there again just for that because i had to basically beg to be put in there the second time i went#me: i am literally going to kill myself if u do not put me in this ward. them: okay but do you reeeeaaally need to be here.#however! i am fucking terrified of the medical field ever since my first involuntary stay lmao. and before then. but especially afterwards#i just... do not know what would happen if i brought up hallucinations like this fsdjfkl bc it is so fucking stigmatized#and they always ask ''do you ever experience things that other people dont'' or ''do you see things that other ppl dont'' -#- on first visits to mental health places from my experience#so... what happens if i answer yes to that question fsjkl#but also . hallucinations are somewhat normal esp when stressed and w poor sleep so idk. is it rly causing me distress? (yes it is)#(but maybe not enough... plus what would they even do for me realistically. like i wont be put on any meds for this i dont think)#(so what would be the point of bringing it up! idk! i just want it to stop fsjkl and i also just. want to be out of this basement)#okay shhh @ me. i need to be quieter fjsdkl#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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Clearly I very much don't know my limits yet because the urgesTM are back
#i'll likely delete later#i say that and i'll prob forget again#tw suicide#tw self harm#mentioning for tags coz i'm ab to overshare my life again#idk why the suicidal/self-harming intrusive thoughts are back i usually have a better grasp on them#like i don't usually get those urges from something like it just being brought up#and i've not had any flashbacks or panic attacks or medical concerns (other than tics they've been more agressive lately) today#so i'm not really sure why it's come back again it's a bit silly tbh#it's not like i've even seen any weapons other than within their normal contexts like cooking etc#so idk why i'm having a weird thought to shoot myself#you can't even really buy a gun in england anyway so it's a bit stupid of a way to die lol#might as well just walk up to roadman and ask to be shivved at that point#god help me if my school's safeguarding account ever finds out this is me lol#i'd be in so much shit i'd literally be committed to a psych ward or just like permanent therapy#idk why my mutuals put up w me coz it's always like this huh?#ok i need to stop before i start spiralling again#that would not be good
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Thank you for sharing your experience! It's very inspiring & interesting to hear your story. I love your energy! We need more people like you out here! 🩷
The Aqaurius Mind: Pluto in Aquarius, Age of Aqaurius, and 2024
The recent events surrounding Katt Williams have stirred my interest, though this event barely scratches the surface of the cosmic workings. The year 2024 portends a great unraveling, as deciphered through its numerology (8) : the influence of Pluto looms over this year, with its placement in Aquarius.
This year's fixed energies signal transformation (Aquarius and Scorpio) and raw power (Taurus and Leo), with Uranus and Jupiter in Taurus and Pluto in Aquarius. The impact of the fixed signs will be significant and profound.
Saturn's presence in Pisces heralds a great awakening. ;I am reminded of my own natal Saturn in the 12th house, which imbues this area of spirituality with discipline and authenticity.Saturn brings discipline and realness to this area of spirituality. And this is what we will see happening for those who are already tapped in. For those who are not this is another great chance similar to 2020 to awaken.
Turning to Vedic astrology, Saturn is positioned in Aquarius this year. In 2020, this was such a huge alignment the only difference is there won't be a great conjunction. But I could see similar potency already. With certain things being spoken about, and if you haven't heard. It's because the government (Saturn) is trying to hide (pisces) a lot of this information away from society. We are fully in the age of aquarius, and things will only continue to get exposed. And no matter how much certain authorities try to hide or stop it. It won't stop until the FULL truth is revealed. No matter how many people are killed, and etc. More and more will keep popping up until the mission is done.
Now switching to tarot, because this is how I connect a lot of my dots. Referring back to my Taurus & Aquarius post, I put the 21st card (The world card) in there. This card consists of a lion (leo), Eagle (scorpio), Human (Aqaurius), and A Bull (Taurus). We see all of these energies being pulled towards us. The world card is the very last card in the tarot deck, and represents completion. Now I would like to turn this over to venuz because he knows more about the cycles and years and stuff. But, Before i do, I want to also talk about the 10th card in tarot. This is the wheel of fortune. This card signifies karma, destiny, and fate. The cycle of life. This card also resembles the world card but not in a way where things are ending. It shows how life goes on &; on. This card also has The lion, The Bull, The Human, and The Eagle. The four corners of the world/ The angels of the four directions. We see how that number 4 is so significant. These are cycles and Fixed is the last stage. Beyonce was right, America really does have a problem...... The Seal has been broken. ☺ Now, to you venuz.
Cycles......Yes, cycles! Everything evolves in cycles and changes, it's only so long you can stay in the same scenario or comfort zone without chaos knocking at your door. Aquarius is all about change and revolutionizing its surroundings and its people. This energy is at its boiling point. Every 20 years there's a recurrent cycle of same-aged groups with specific behaviors that change. So, if you add 3 more cycles to that it will be a 4 cycle switch, which every generation would affect the other. When the 80-year mark comes around it is a crucial period. Everything is done in cycles, it doesn't matter what it is. Saturn in Pisces will materialize everything you think of, or focus on. This will also bring about what you have been hiding, and not speaking. Thoughts of your subconscious will be brought to the surface, and some will have to face those fears. For Example, Katt Williams has known all of these lies, secrets, backstabbing, cheating, phony, and false allegations, so it's being materialized. All his thoughts, dreams, and deep-rooted issues about other comedians came out to the forefront without any care. As he spoke and exposed their behaviors in front of millions (mass 11th house) and demanded a change (pluto). This calls on the energy of Pluto in Aquarius.
Pluto in Aquarius loves erratic behavior and unexpected scenarios. Pluto comes with a punch and is at full throttle here. Many people are outspoken now and about change and freedom. Aquarius is all revolutionary and Pluto is a generational planet so change is bound to come. This is just the beginning of this world being destroyed and reconstructed into a new and profound system that isn't in line with these new powerful souls. This makes an 80-year period. 10 more years from now will make 90 years which is energy 9 which will be the completion of a major cycle. 8 is just the transformation period and reconstructing period, everything and everyone who wasn't living in their own essence and misusing their fortune, fame and financial abundance in a non conducive manner will reverse roles and be exposed for their inequality.
Like gorgeous Moon Devi said they're trying to hide what they're up to but Saturn in Pisces is revealing everything they have been hiding. So everyone wakes up to all those lies, takes off the rose-colored glasses, no more fantasy land, and is in a delusional state of mind. Pluto in Aquarius will allow everyone to have a voice and speak up, change what's not right, and stand for something even if you never did your whole life. If you were born in this era or if you were born to still be alive in this era get ready for the showdown. If watched in Living Color, this movie promises to be a captivating experience, delivering the answers to long-standing questions and revealing hidden truths. It has the potential to evoke personal fears, making them tangible and forcing introspection. It's a crucial time for everyone, not just celebrities or elites, to focus on self-healing, purification of the soul, and actualizing personal aspirations. Astrologically, the influence of Aquarius, which rules the 11th house of hopes and aspirations, and Pluto provides the necessary impetus to transform negative situations into positive ones, for oneself and the greater good.
However you envision your world to be, you will get the results in this transit. Imagine yourself as a kid at the art table, and you have a box of crayons, an blank piece of paper. The teacher tells you to draw your new world. How would you create it? Would it consist of peace, prosperity, and love? Then she says," Stand up in front of the class, and explain what your world looks like." You say it out loud in front of the class with conviction and power. Then you close your eyes and watch it manifest right before you, VOILA!!!
From two aqaurius/uranus dominant spirits, ~ Prinz Venuz & Moon Devi
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭
𝐎𝐮𝐫 𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐏𝐨𝐬𝐭
𝑶𝒖𝒓 𝑷𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒔: 𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐳 𝐕𝐞𝐧𝐮𝐳 𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐃𝐞𝐯𝐢
#i have draconic 6H pluto in aquarius myself#and as such my biggest gripe is with the healthcare system in this country#i know a lot of things about what goes on behind the scenes#and my family of origin is complicit in a lot of the healthcare industry’s corruption#also i did technically punch my CNA grandma in the face back in 2009 and she was also stabbed in the gut by a Scorpio man she used to date#because we witnessed her abuse of power for personal gain and needed to put a stop to her#she also went to jail that year#my grandma is an aquarius#suffice it to say these next few decades will be interesting#i don’t plan on punching anybody lmao don’t worry#i only attack if i am attacked first#aquarius is on my MC and Pluto in Aquarius will conjunct my natal 9H Saturn in Aquarius soon. Pls don’t blame me for whatever happens next#i’m doing what i can to help take down bad people and i strike from the shadows when least expected#oh and the family did to me what britney’s family did to her in a way. using psych ward visits & meds to silence and control me.#i am free now thankfully#but the healthcare industry in america and big pharma have a lot of crimes to answer for#btw the drama on tiktok involving the nursing industry is very much a sign of what is to come#it’s objectively true that the people working in the 6th house domain are fundamentally corrupt at this point#i have my natal pluto in scorpio there
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Work today is hell we had to put the same kid in seclusion 3 times in the span of 2 hours because he just could not chill out and he kept attacking staff and the seclusions were traumatic as fuck for everyone involved the kid was screaming and begging and then trying to bite us it was just so bad and then I just have to go back to my group and be like hi everyone! :) but i feel dead inside
#he had to go in the 6 point restraint board every time bc he kept taking his clothes off and using them to strangle himself#I love this work I do I love being with the kids but god damn the bad parts of this job are REALLY bad#like not that other jobs aren’t shitty sometimes but like. other ‘shitty days at work’ are ur boss yelled at you or a customer was rude#bad days at this job are ‘I had to put an 11 year old on a restraint board while they screamed and cried and spit at me because they tried-#-to slit their wrists with Legos and then tried to punch me in the face’#I feel aged by 10 years#and like a lot of people have a lot of shit to say about psych wards but I wanna see them work on one for a day#you don’t think we should restrain kids? okay fine well what would you do if a kid is punching themself in the face over and over#and won’t stop#or when a kid is literally swinging on another kid trying to actually kill them#or when a kid is tearing their wrists open with their own fingernails#like fuck man nobody likes to seclude/restraint children but like sometimes thst is literally the only way to stop them hurting themselves
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me trying to find the words to explain how important ian's reaction to mickey getting married is cause!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
once he finds out about it he compares himself to her. asks mandy if mickey loves her, if she's pretty, asks how she is as a person and even get blown by her thinking she maybe is better at sex than ian.
he's scared terry managed to ''fuck the gay out of him'' and wants to know if he's forced to marry her.
ian won't go to school, leave the bed and stop thinking about it. every time ian has felt any sort of deep emotions in a relationship has only been with mickey.
he ran away because mickey got married.
whe was so ashamed of going to the psych ward thinking mickey would be put off by it.
was miserable whilst saying ''this might be the end with mickey.'' to his family
held onto mickey's hand when he showed up at night and could finally rest.
its no wonder ian decided to break up with him, he loved him too much and wanted mickey to be free.
when ian broke up with caleb he was mostly focused on being mad for being cheated on and questioned about his sexuality
he got with trevor cause he was being pushed to by trevor himself with his ''you're scared cause im trans'' and being judged for his lack of lgbtq+ knowledge. when he cheated on trevor and came back, he only did so that he could distract himself from leaving mickey behind once again. he only used trevor for sex as a way of coping. ive never seen ian being heartbroken by trevor not wanting him back to the point of not leaving his bed.
he didn't care about worrying trevor with his bipolar and trevor didn't really care to check if ian's med were working or not. but with mickey? he was scared of getting married cause he didn't want mickey to be stuck with ian's illness,
during their marrige he tried so hard to make his and mickey's life better and accepted with fondness mickey's worries about potentially being triggered
they're soulmates
#shameless#gallavich#ian gallagher#mickey milkovich#ian x mickey#svetlana yevgenivna#shameless us#cameron monaghan#noel fisher
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