#at the same time i cant really say i dont need it

[natsmagi]

im sorry im gonna vague post here for a second because im genuinely at a loss. if you see a switch artist on twitter claim theyre facing "proship allegations" and wrote a response thread about it, know that the main accusation held against them is grooming. there have been repeated instances of this person being inappropriate around children, but theyre trying to act like that never happened. i dont know what to do. this person was once my best friend in this fandom, yet theyve developed such a deep rooted hatred for me ever since i started to tell them to their face that their behavior with minors was inappropriate back in summer of 2023. i dont really want to go into detail, and i want this person to be left in the past, but i cant help but get irrationally scared whenever i hear about the shit they get themself into. They were once my best friend man. i really did trust them. and theyve hurt so many people since i cut them off.....

i dont want to get involved in this situation at all, but to sit back and let them continue to lie and twist the narrative just doesnt feel right. i want to make a twitter post but im scared itll turn into a cancellation when all i had ever wanted was for this person to improve. i had tried so many times to get through to them, i really had. and all theyd ever do in turn was lie to my face.

im heartbroken and disturbed. There are real people who have been victimized by them, be it via grooming or just being a horrible friend, and they continue to act like none of that happened and that people are just mad at them over shipping k/oha/mada or whatever the hell. How can you be so heartless? how can you care so little about those around you while constantly trying to be liked by everyone? They never own up to their actions or even apologize sincerely. every time they do they always feel the need to shift the blame and downplay their own actions. and their apologies are hollow, they had apologized to me so many times yet never once acted on said apology. theyd always repeat the same shit over and over and over again, only ever saying sorry so that i wouldnt leave them or start to hate them.

im sad to say that even after all of this, even after their smearing of my name behind my back and trying to get everyone to hate me, even after theyve been so horrible to so many people and been inappropriate with minors, i still want to see them better themself. i know i shouldnt. i know i should probably just accept the reality of the situation. but fuck, man. i really did care so much.

[its-a-coffin]

ive been so tired to read anything on tumblr anymore these days..... could just be general burn out stuff cuz im burnt out from everything but honestly i feel like everything i see right now is just telling me what to do and dont constantly and its draining..

[autisticlancemcclain]

Could you explain your position on Shallura? Since Allura was established as a teenager when she started dating Lance and Shiro was very clearly an adult. I can understand the bi shiro headcannon but the shallura thing worries me

i am going to remind yall that i have been in this fandom since 2016. and in the early seasons, allura was not established as a teenager. in fact she was coded as older, as closer to shiro's age -- there was a specific divide between her and the younger paladins that she did not have with shiro. they made her younger (both explicitly and in mannerisms) as the show went on. and i do not give a fuck about voltron like...post s4 and i didn't even watch s7-8. so like. especially with older fics, im going to enjoy shallura.

[vanweezer]

i dont even listen to deftones like that but when someone else says they dont like them for some bullshit reason im like hey Hey you shut your damn mouth. those are my problematic uncles on my nu metal side

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

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[petricorah]

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[rearranging-deck-chairs]

rewatching 13s era for me is not so much diminishing returns as it is something opposite and eviler...............increasing losses? increasing losses

[floralovebot]

i am once again thinking about the missed opportunities of a garth and jackson mentor/mentee brother in arms relationship

[cicidraws]

i miss how i felt before this year.

[hassianlovebot]

i don't know if it's just me but i've noticed that players are getting more impatient with the groves? like ik waiting 15 minutes is Not ideal but i'm used to people waiting at least,,, 10 before they start saying things like "chop" "anyone else" yknow? but nowadays i've noticed more and more players want to chop the groves like,,, 3 minutes after it gets called out. and it's like,, idk man, maybe i'm just Too used to waiting but that seems a little excessive. (or lord when one person just keeps chopping a tree and no one around them joins like Bro read the room ahdgl)

[queensparklekitten]

I think I just guaranteed queen of nothing by the crane wives a place in my spotify wrapped tonight because of time princess

[mayo-is-an-instrument]

I made a boo oc!! I'll make more drawings to use them for when I start making "serious" YouTube videos :3

[namelessprince]

thinking about the rolled for 93. Condi guessed Arlin as the guarding giant, Chip as the nameless prince and Rose's Kid as the unborn kings. only 1 of these is correct.