#at least its the weekend but hhhh

[mittykidi]

ufgh i forgot to sleep again- i had the lights on all night so i couldnt tell the sun was coming up

the brainworms are restless :c

[silentsneezes]

to the one person in support of a v/ander drabble, here it is !! i plan on writing more of him bcs i’m still figuring out how to write his character, but here’s a 700 word drabble to suffice until then

It’s been a long fucking shift.

Between the recent short staffing and the sudden influx in customers, Vander has been working his ass off to keep The Last Drop afloat.

It’s just past 12:30 AM, meaning only the regular frequenters of the bar remain. The typical late night crowd, who indulge in loud, drunken celebration and down drink after drink.

Vander doesn’t typically mind. He enjoys having patrons loyal to the bar, and on occassion he’ll share a drink with them to end the night with a slight buzz— although with his size, it has to be one hell of a drink to even get him tipsy.

He’s currently standing behind the bar, working to polish its pristine countertops, which he’s always prided himself on. The Last Drop isn’t just any bar in the undercity: it’s the bar. It’s his bar, and it’s a damn good one.

Vander’s attention is broken as the chiming of the front door’s bell rings through the room. His tired features are illuminated by the low lighting of the bar, and yet a visible grin tugs at his lips as Sevika enters. He’d been wondering when she’d come around, expecting her presence on a Saturday night.

“The usual?” he asks simply, his hands already moving to grab the liquor of Sevika’s choice. She nods wordlessly, straddling a nearby barstool and pulling out a cigar.

Vander’s quick to make the drink, passing it over and watching as Sevika lights her smoke.

“Busy night,” she comments gruffly, letting out a huff of laughter as she observes a drunkard put his buddy into a headlock.

“Oi! You break it, you buy it,” Vander calls as they knock over a chair in the tussle. The men are quick to stop their drunken behavior, seating themselves once again. It’s common knowledge that you don’t want to fuck with Vander, and most customers respect him enough to keep in line; if they don’t, they’ll sure as hell learn their lesson.

Vander scowls as he feels an irritating itch bloom in the back of his sinuses, burning up to the tip of his nose and barely giving him a moment to turn away from the bar. He ducks into his elbow with a resounding, “hhHHDDSXCHhhew!”

A few of the especially inebriated patrons cheer at the sound, a bellowing of laughter following the expulsion.

Vander keeps his back turned to the bartop, reaching for the rag he keeps tucked in his back pocket. As his breath catches with a vocal “hhHH” he raises the rag just in time, burying his nose into the rough fabric, “hhHRRRSZZCHh’uh!”

Another round of hollering sounds after the sneeze, accompanied by clapping from one man and a drunken, “Good one Vander!” from another.

Vander pinches the bridge of his nose in annoyance, sniffling hard and berating the underside of the appendage. He tosses the rag into the ‘dirty bin’ and exchanges it for a clean one to continue his work.

To those who spend hours at The Last Drop every weekend— if not every day— Vander’s sneezes are somewhat famous. They match his size, certainly, and he makes no attempt to stifle them. At least not in the confines of his bar. Afterall, it’s his bar, why on Earth would he suppress his sneezes?

As 1 AM draws nearer, Vander starts giving out warnings that he’s closing soon, met with groans and animated protests.

Much to his annoyance, the itch returns just as the final stranglers exit the bar. He locks the door behind them, starting the closing tasks before doubling over with a chest heaving “hhHHSSZZXCHhhew!” without any warning or build up.

Vander groans as he notices the spray cast upon the table he’d just started cleaning, having to begin his work again. Much to his relief, his nose stops its irritation for the rest of the evening, seemingly satisfied with three sneezes tonight.

By the time he finishes closing the bar, it’s just past 2 AM. He’s practically asleep as soon as his head hits the pillow, exhausted but ready to do the same routine tomorrow. And the next day, and the next… If it meant The Last Drop could stay open, it was well worth it. He wasn’t going to sacrifice a pillar of the undercity’s social scene over a little fatigue.

i hope i did him justice ! if anyone has v/ander specific headcanons or prompts i would love to hear them

[pyraffin-drgo]

Dear god my nephew infected me with the worst stomach bug in the world what the guck why do kids have to get up right in your face and spray everything they say and get slobber on everything like jesus christ can you not be so moist please

Anyways I'm fucking dying, already having chronic illness and pain relating to my digestive system, and a stomach bug on top of this now where it is literally making me hurt- my stomach is literally aching. It's the usual "going to have blazing diarrhea" pain but ×10 and UP BY MY RIBS so I cannot sit comfortably no matter what, standing is horrific, can't even hunch over, dont want to consume anything so I'm lightheaded. And worst yet, nothing is coming out so it isn't even being alieved any. I'm past the shitting my brains out phase. Its JUST PAIN NOW- PAIN??? better than throwing up but GOOD GOD it's different pain than I'm used to so I can't cope with it as well and it's stressing me tf out. I hate inside pains. Give me more bug bites and brusies, just stop this. When will it be over.

I sure as fuck hope that this doesn't permanently alter my system and this pain become a new addition to the misery club. Hhhh.

I'm going to have to skip derby practice for this bs. God, kids are filthy disease spreading gremlins. Fuck.

As much as I like my niece and nephew, they are filthy sticky disease ridden vermin simply by being kids. So most of the blame is on the parents for bringing them over even if they were throwing their guts up the night before.

This isn't the first time they've spread a horrific disease through the entire family because "It's just allergies!" And beings them over anyways, even if theyre clearly miserable being anywhere but home.

I need to establish better personal space boundaries with those beasts, as if they'd even listen or the parents wouldn't get mad at me for 'disciplining' their children. They'd still find some way to land their spit particles on my face.

I'll have to start making more effort to remember when they're recently sick and hide away in my room when they roll up (un announced because the parents also have no boundaries, for us that is. We can't just show up on them but they can us.)

Jesus christ I just need to vent this out I am miserable right now, I just had to go last weekend without my medication and go through withdrawals, and as soon as I recovered from that I got hit with this ALL WEEK.

I am angry to say the least. And in pain. FOR A TRIPPLE THREAT IT WAS ALSO MY PERIOD WEEK SO I COULDNT TELL WHAT PAIN WAS WHAT

I just wanna scream but the area around my diaphragm hurts so I can't.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[absofrutey]

Still want to be alone with you

[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #15: August 22, 2021

Dollar Tree is honestly pretty fucking awesome 👌👌👌

I set my alarm for like 6:25 this morning, but it took 6 minutes for the "Horsin' Around" theme song instrumental to wake me up. I was pretty tired lol. I just dismissed it and went back to sleep.

I only went back to sleep because I knew I had another alarm set for 7:00. That got me up.

I should mention that this was still in the RV over an hour away from the house.

After I got up, I went to go get a shower, and did so successfully.

Unfortunately, I had forgotten my brush this time and had to do it afterwards after my hair had a bit of time to dry, which did make it a little more difficult lol.

I got dressed and grabbed my stuff, putting it into my car.

I made it a point to see and say "see you later" to my grandparents before I left for the flea market.

My dad insisted that I stayed to say goodbye to my mom, so I left.

I did NOT have cell service up there, as was mentioned in my previous 2 blogs of which I could only post today, so finding my way was a tiny bit difficult until I got some service to ask Google to take me to "...".

It worked and I got there.

On my drive, I listened to 1 by Simple Kid, a CD I had previously purchased at a Dollar Tree location.

I got a call from the guy at the flea market saying that I had some people there waiting for me. He asked how far away I was, to which I said "about 10 minutes." Ironically, that call made me miss my exit, as Google couldn't talk during the call, and added about 3 minutes to my arrival time lmao.

I did sell the Xbox that he said someone was interested in. I got $40 for it. I spent 27¢ on it. Pretty good return if you ask me.

I couldn't sell it with anything other than a power cord because the controller and AV cables I had been using to play it there were for my personal console. I'm just glad I can actually hook my Xbox up and stop having to drag them to the flea market along with a small library of games.

Not too long after I sold the Xbox, someone came in and asked if I wanted to see some electronics he had in his car. I went out with him. It was a pair of 3ft speakers and a Pioneer audio system with dual cassette decks (although neither of them works) and a 25 Disc CD-changer, as well as the standard AM/FM tuner. Additionally, there was a Fisher amplifier and AM/FM tuner as well as a Fisher Direct Drive turntable. He said he wanted $60 for em, but before that he casually, and probably accidentally, dropped that he was just gonna take em to the thrift store.

Big mistake.

I got em for $35 lmao. THERE GOES MOST OF MY PROFIT.

Oh well.

I tested everything. As I mentioned, the cassette decks don't work, but everything else does apart from the turntable needing a new stylus.

I posted some new photos of the shop to Facebook, and someone soon DMed me about a stereo system.

I priced everything, and it turns out I have about $300 worth of equipment from that deal, the Fisher amp and tuner being worth about $150.

The buyer will hopefully show up next weekend, for he wants to buy the Fisher stuff ($185 with the turntable), the 3ft speakers, an 8-track deck, and a Kenwood deck we've had for a week or two.

The speakers are listed for $50 (and are worth around $100-150), the Kenwood Deck for $50 as well, and the 8-track for $35. That makes it about $320 in equipment. Since he's buying so much, I'll knock it down to $270 and essentially give him the speakers or cassette deck for free lol.

Apart from that stuff, not much happened at the flea market. I sold some records, cassettes, CDs and I think 2 DVDs. One person bought a VHS tape? That money was the other guy's though. Oh well xD.

I can't say that I didn't miss my wonderful partner while on the trip. I actually brought along the stuffed animal they gave me (who's name is Greg) and snuggled with him both nights.

I was very happy to hear from them UwU.

They let me rant and I let them rant.

I honestly give them too much responsibility over me xD. I'm like, "Okay, I'm gonna do this. HOLD ME TO IT."

I know I can't hold myself to anything I personally say (this blog being the only exception apparently), but I listen to them pretty well I think 🤔. If they tell me, "No, you don't need that VCR," so long as it's not some weird specialty thing, like a worldwide VCR 🥵, I'll be like "Yeah, you rite bro."

I love you man xD. You control my craziness pretty well. I'm so thankful for you UwU.

#relationshipgoals

So part way through the flea market day, I went over to Dollar Tree to buy some snack, but ended up looking through the CDs to see if there was anything good. I took photos of about 18 CDs and flipped through them online for the remainder of the flea market day.

I deleted the photos of the ones I didn't want and kept those that I liked. Surprisingly, I ended up buying 13 CDs there, but not before dropping them on the floor like the dumbass I am.

Also, sorry for all the nerd shit I spilled on your lap earlier. No one cares about amps and tuners xD.

I'M LISTENING TO ONE OF THE DOLLAR TREE CDS RIGHT NOW THO.

I already transferred over to my online library on iBroadcast and put the disc into my CD changer, which is now holding 164 CDs.

Its max capacity is 300 discs 🥵

WHY AM I NERD

Oh well

I like being a nerd gurl

Also maybe a technosexual 👀

I get really excited over some electronics. Like. REALLY excited.

Some editing VCRs are like "Holy shit that is SEXY. Look at those goddamn VU meters 🥵. And hhhh there are like 7 inputs on this thing and individual controls for left and right audio gain, not to mention Hi-Fi S-VHS recording. Hhhhhhhhhhh please gimme 😭. Why are you so expensive?"

I uh, mean, uh, *cough* look, pretty lights.

Oh yeah, I was gonna say the album I was listening to xD. MAN I GOT SIDETRACKED.

It's 37 Everywhere by Punchline. Def give it a listen; it's pretty heccin good.

Another notable album I picked up was Page One by Steven Page. I very much like the first track, "A New Shore." It's quite catchy and he has a great voice imo.

Also at dollar tree, I bought a regular bag of Fieras and 2 bags of Fieras Sticks, which were marked down to 75¢/bag because they're expiring soon.

I honestly like the generic Dollar Tree version of Takis more than actual Takis. They're a lot more flavorful when it comes to the lime, but also hotter at the same time.

Don't get the hot nacho ones tho. Hot nacho? More like hot pile of shit.

HAH

Goteem.

They're not that good xD.

THE REGULAR ONES ARE FIRE THO

"How do you do fellow kids?"

I got home and started working on putting the CDs onto my computer, and then onto iBroadcast, but not without first adding The Music Man to my digital library, something I had neglected for a month or two. The CD had just been sitting there lol.

I also switched my digital file for "The Black Parade" to that of the uncensored CD, which I had purchased before I event started working over 2 months ago.

MAN I'M LAZY

I eventually get around to shit tho lol. I guess it's just a matter of priority.

What usually takes priority is digging through everything to find something that I forgot about but then remembered, making a mess in the process that I would then have to clean up, at least partially.

I think the album just ended. I've been writing for a while xD. I'ma start "I Made You Something" by The Island of the Misfit Toys.

I'll tell you where that album came from in a minute.

In the meantime, where was I?

I kinda lost my train of thought despite reading up to see where I was. Oh well. On I go.

I ate dinner and kept working on those CDs, eventually putting my clothes from the week into the washer.

I FORGOT TO PUT MY SHAPING UNDERWEAR IN. FUCKING HELL MAN.

I wanted to wash em for this week 😭

No tight pants for Leonna I guess qwq.

Meanwhile, the box of my CD album cases is overflowing. I need another box.

I keep all of the album artworks in a big CD folder. That's almost full.

I wanna fill my entire CD changer. That's one of my big goals in life. Idk why, but I just wanna legitimately fill the entire thing.

My clothes are in the dryer now. I don't think I have the time (or energy) to fold them tonight. I'll leave that for tomorrow morning before work.

And God. Fucking. Damnit. I start school again on Wednesday. NOT looking forward to that, and neither are my 2 coworkers. We already have low enough staff, but only the two of them working is gonna be a pain in the ass.

I'll still work Saturdays.

I need to contact my guidance counselor to get out of the gym class I signed up for. I scheduled this shit before I found out I was trans, and I don't wanna deal with the fucking locker room situation 🙄 I have far more important matters.

Okay so anyway, the album I'm listening to came from a cassette. I bought this cassette a few months ago at the flea market along with a few others. The reason I bought them? They were all newer cassette releases from the 2010's, and they're all actually pretty good music from very indie bands.

Currently getting mad at iBroadcast's compression algorithm. It's unnaturally fucking anything over -10db up. Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it.

I have like 13GB of music on my phone btw. That's about 3.5k songs on 268 albums.

I'm kind of an audiophile, but I'm too cheap to pay for a lossless service. Oh well.

They do actually have a lossless service on iBroadcast, but once again, too cheap.

Someone just sent me a friend request who legitimately posted that BLM and the democratic party are hate groups.

BLOCK.

Goodbye ho.

I don't get that. They call the democratic party a hate group when they hate people like me, and I, being more of a democrat although not fully because the 2-party system is fucked, think nothing more of them than they're very wrong about certain things, especially, as shown, that black people, as well as asian, Indian, native, and people of all ethnicities and backgrounds, are not equal to white people.

Yeh.

Totally.

You go buddy.

Anyway, yeah, I can, and do, convert music and video from analog formats to digital files in order for me to archive and listen to whenever and wherever I please. I've actually made a bit of a business out of it, but I don't get too much work from it. At least I'm not overloading myself xD.

I honestly have so much more to say, but I should probably go to sleep soon.

A few final shoutouts to the following people and companies:

-Dollar Tree

-Steven Page

-Broken World Media

-The Island of Misfit Toys

-Simple Kid

-Punchline

-My incredible partner QwQ I love you so much. Thanks for being the best all the time. I hope I can give you the best life ever.

Anyway I suppose this is goodnight. Lmk if you want a full list of the CDs I bought today! I'll link that song by Steven Page here.

And here's a good song from Simple Kid

I really like music lol. Enjoy these pieces.

Anyway, goodnight lol.

Lots of love,

-Leonna.

[hajimine]

to the coolest person alive,

i think youre gonna see this in the morning or afternoon so good morning!! or afternoon idk ✋🏼 BESTIE IM WATCHING JJK ALREADY 😻 im on ep 14 now,, i started today 🚶🏻‍♀️ idk if im gonna watch it now or tomorrow tho. to keep the diary entry short, my day was very shitty bc of my toxic family 😻😻 but it was fine ig i had some ✨alone time✨ to straight up binge jjk and distract me 😼 lex please can you yell at me to not fall for every 3rd character i see I AM OBSESSED WITH SOME OF THEM ALREADY IT AINT HEALTHY 🏃🏻‍♀️ i lowkey saw that coming but still <3 lemme drink water real quick i sadly didnt drink much due to this whole ass day LMAO WHY DO I SOUND SO DEPRESSED PLSJDKDJ ✋🏼 MAYBE bc i am,, hey god, its me again 😻🚶🏻‍♀️ i hope i can finish it tomorrow or at least on friday, idk if im gonna try to watch banana fish in the holidays too 👁👁 i need to get my heart broken its been a while <3 actually its only been a few days- not the point tho. also, yes i do think people see our convos and shake their heads JSHSKD 🤝🏼 honestly who wouldn't if they saw our whole ass paragraphs every time BUT I AM HERE FOR THEM ❗ pls this whole essay this time is a EXTRA mess. also!! i hope you're gonna drink water and eat something!! 😌 other than that, do you have any plans for the day? // or if youre gonna answer this later, what did you do today bestie? 🤲🏻 the amount of times ive said "bestie i cant do this today" while talking to myself in the last 48h 😻 anyways, i think that was enough for today and for your sexy ass to read ugh 😫✋🏼 sending u hugs and kith rn, u deserve them!!! 😠 mwah, ilyvm <33

love,

🐉 anon <3

to my darling 🐉 anon,

hellurr good evening my love 😻 STOPPP im... still on ep 15 ☝️🥲 i haven’t had the time to pick it back up yet smh </3 but how are u liking it so far tho? oh bubs :( im sorry u had a shitty day, i hope tmr will be better for u babes <3 they suck ass and u deserve better 👿‼️ but hhhh we can talk abt sth else if you want,, who’s your fave so far?? or fave(s) i suppose 😯 ITS OK all of em are so pretty i feel ya!! bestie u better be drinking more water rn, ily kay? and cheers to using humor to cope lmao 🏃🏻‍♀️💨 wait omg i havent watched banana fish yet smh. is it good?? i also wanna watch that other sad one,, your lie in april?? im not sure what it’s called but i wanna binge all the heart wrenching animes on my sem break later 😁 and also jjk bc im so behind dammit 😞💔 well they can just sit back and observe while we pour our hearts out in long ass paragraphs,, it’s okay 😴 mm im doing good today hottie!! i tried doing manga colorings for the first time ever and i love them sm?? i wanna do it properly but i dont wanna have to use photoshop ghhh but look at lil kindaichi in my pfp omg (it looks kinda messy im ngl but u cant see it in the lil pic so we’re good 😋) i don’t have much plans for the weekend,, i’m probably gonna study some more later 😞 hbu tho!! how are u today? do u have anything fun planned for the long weekend? any events going on (if u do celebrate that is)? i hope you’re doing better today sexy 😠 don’t forget to eat lots of good food and drink lots of h2o,, also sidenote, aside from your jjk faves, who’s your fave in hq? :0 (also p.s. i have to actually sit down and formulate an essay back to u whenever we talk so im sorry for taking so long to reply help 😭😭) ily more angel you’re the coolest and the sexiest person in the universe 🤞🏼😫 lots of xo’s for u bebe mwah!! <33

from your beloved tumblr user,

lexus 😽

[kyunsies]

madch madch <3 hello love!

how are you my love :D YAY I'M SO HAPPY YOUR COLD IS GONE OMG!! Do you feel properly better now? the sleep nose cloggs is the worst, i'm super glad it's gone for you.

YES for a whole month - like it makes me miss summer holidays when i was a kid and you could take the time off like that. do you ever feel like you didn't appreciate that stuff like when you were a kid? like being able to have long sleeps and stuff or just running about the mall with no consequence? we really do have the same situation going on! i just want to be able to buy my mum a better house and a better car and nicer holidays and stuff? like that small stuff which sounds a bit boring but like, idk that means more to me than the overly flashy stuff? like i'd love to be a mum one day but seeing how much my mum does sometimes i'm like... IDK if I could hack it you know?

ah wow ok! my school i really get what you say about catholic guilt as it's super similar from my cultural influences as well? YES like, it's bad to think too well of yourself, or just that you shouldn't do it? or you're gonna end up inviting bad things if you do think too much of yourself? i get really confused about it sometimes. like - almost like there's a difference between self love and thinking too well of yourself? and i can appreciate myself without ever thinking i'm too good at something etc? does that make sense? idk i'm worried about self love it if means it makes my ego bad and over arrogant and all that stuff? I GET YOU tho - it is that line between contentment and like feeling yourself to the point it's ... ick? it's hard isn't it?

THAT FACT STEALING TOILET PAPER WAS YOU USING BAD LANGUAGE omg do you see what i mean you are just so so so so pure of heart and sweet and thank you for being so kind <3 are you looking forward to going back to uni in some ways? or is it all general *internal screaming*? remember you're mega and amazing <3

omg we literally had a HUGE HEARTWAVE to the point where I have so many bites everywhere - i'm glad you've had a bunch of sun but YAY TINY TINY SQUAD!!!!!!! I AM 5'1" so yay to us being tiny together <3 I am always the tiny one too! i used to hate it but i like my height more now - and like the fact i can fit into kids stuff on sale? or like shoe sizes not being a problem? but then sometimes the sizing is a bit weird like you said before! YOU GET IT WITH THE BF JEANS. It is a neverending quest RN. I've figured out the size I can really get for them but so few stores make it :/ we will see how this saga unfolds. do you lampshade a lot with clothes? i find i always end up doing that even if i don't mean to haha XD

OKAY SO JO MALONE I like the smell of pomegrante noir but IDK if I'd wear it but the lime and basil is another fave of mine. I just really really don't like musky smells I'm with you with the citrus! like, stuff that reminds me of summer and fresh stuff? musk makes me feel like i'm walking into like a noughties teen clothing store i just can't hasjdakshd. like i hate lynx smells? WHY DO BOYS WEAR IT?

AHHHH OMG ok mutual blue moon love YES HELLO <3 <3 <3 I ADORE lofi jazz garage I honestly die/simp for that sound. like they dabbled a bit more with those vibes in OOAK and that's why I loved the new album so much I guess? just so so so beautiful. i just wanna drown in like the sounds of moonlight and suggestions of other things by candlelight or long city drives? does that make sense? ugh LOVE IT. getting up in my feels here hahahajsdkhasda

YAY HI TO YOUR MOM <3 I hope she's having a beautiful beautiful day too and that's getting rest as well! never worry about getting back to me late, I know you're so busy and that's always okay, love you lots and lots <3 <3 <3

-💥xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

MY BEST PAL <33 hello my sweet, how have u been doing these days? i know i must sound like a record on repeat, but i miss you all the days that i don't hear from you, i'm always thinking about how you are doing ;____;

but YES after like ,,,,,,2 and a half weeks of being sick with the cold i am FINALLY over it :') it's not so much the stuffy nose during the daytime that annoys me it was the freaking clogged nose at night for the love of GOD i hate breathing with my mouth open it's so gross ;___; and sore throats ......... honestly i wouldn't wish a sore throat on my worst enemy lol like i'd rather have the flu for 2 days than a sore throat for a whole week ldkfjsdkf i'm such a baby <3

about being on holiday as a kid LOL IT WAS !!!!! the absolute best time !!! i know at some point we need to be functioning human beings in society lol but honestly at the age of like 13 where ur too young to work but u can't drive yourself anywhere ?? it's the best time (besides the driving part lol) bc you literally do not have one ounce of responsibility it's so great ;____; it's good to work and help ppl but i miss that too ....... and about our experiences with our single moms !!! pls this is all i want for her lol ; like u said nothing overly flashy but once i'm established i would like for her to live comfortably without being at the hands of someone else so i wouldn't mind like buying her a nice apartment ;____; when she was younger she traveled all the time and once i was born she coudn't do that with me bc she simply didn't have the money so she's always telling me after i graduate we should take a little trip to europe or go out west :( i think that would be so great :(((

OH GOOD OLD CATHOLIC GUILT LOL listen ..... there are a lot of things that the catholic church has done in the past that i don't agree with at all and stuff but ;____; i'm still grateful in some aspects bc my moral compass is like . a super big part of my life and it guides me to lead me away from decisions that aren't the best for me lol and i'm really grateful again for my mom for sending me to catholic school all these years :') and i think it's good to have this sense of humbleness (i hate ppl that are so boastful about themselves like truly no one cares sdjfslkf) but i do agree that catholic guilt can sometimes be a hinderance like i keep on saying i wish i had at least one ounce of self dignity SDLKFJ idk like u said it's a fine line between being humble and having no self worth :') i guess at the end of the day u need ppl surrounding u who make u feel like u are worth something and that it's okay to think positively about urself <3

honestly babe no ,,,,,, i'm not looking forward to going back to my final year of uni at all ;____; i don't know when i got like this but nursing school has literally scarred me to the point where i'm so anxious to even finish this year :( the ICU, my preceptorship, exams, finding and landing a job successfully before i graduate ???? i want it to all be over with so quickly but i'm so nervous for the future ahead of me ;____; will i get to where i am meant to be ???? i'm going to sOB IM NOT READY FSKDJFDS .............................

YAY TINY SQUAD LOL SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS !!!!!!! everyone on here is like boo hoo i'm 5'3 and im like ?????? ur inching near normal height shut up ?? SDKFJ :') truly shopping is so hard literally u can kill pants every fitting u perfectly unless u hem them and omg ??? pls explain to me what lampshading is LOL I HAVE NEVER HEARD THAT TERM BEFORE ?? :o !!!!!!!!! but also yes almost all of my sneakers are kids shoes LOL JOKES ON TALL PPL WE CAN GET THEM FOR CHEAPER <3

and about jo malone !!!!!!!!!!! the lime and basil one i've had my eye on it omg !!!!!!! bc i love love the smell of basil :) i'm actually visiting my grandparents this weekend and we are going to the mall so i'm going to finally pick up a new scent !!! i've literally had the one i told u about for 2 years LOL but i also agree everyone loves musky scents for some reason but i don't lsdkfjs i feel like those heavy scents "weigh me down" ????? do u feel that way too? it's hard to explain :')

ALSO OMG OKAY you are my blue moon ride or die now <3 have never met a mbb yet who loves blue moon as much as i do LOL it's just *mwah* perfection ........... absolute perfection like it fits all moods its fresh its lowkey it's perfect and YES YES i felt heaven kinda had the same vibe ??? not so much the dark garage jazz sound but more of the light and airy garage jazz sound LKDFJS i know that sounds dumb but it's lighter and happier but has that same lofi sound i'm obsessed with <3

okay bubbie but YEAH mom and i are healthy now we are in good spirits and we are hanging in there !! again i'm sorry for getting back so late hun really i always want to respond right away but like i always say quality over any short answer hhhh <3 i hope u have a lovely rest of the week if i don't hear from u soon okay? always sending love and hugs xxxxxxxxx !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

[minijenn]

Also hhhh I suppose I owe all you UF fans a quick update since I’ve been starving you as of late. I was gonna start work on Greg the Babysitter this past week after I finished that last chapter of Keys, but the thing about that was, I had to physically go into work for three days last week (and have to go in again on this upcoming Wednesday) for training stuff, which both cut out most of my free time on those days (I usually use a lot of time time while working from home to write or draw) and even when I got home I was usually pretty damn tired or annoyed :P Not to mention I felt like shit this weekend so I decided to take it easy, draw some stuff, play some video games, ya know, relax because this past week has been so fucking goddamn stressful for everyone for a lot of obvious reasons. 

Now for this week, I’m also kinda gonna take things a little easy, mostly because I feel like I’ve been approaching creative burnout both in writing and in drawing lately, so taking a break every now and then is a good thing. Also MoM comes out friday and I’m gonna marathon it all next weekend when it does. But once I’m finished with it, if I have some time before that next Friday when AoC releases, I may get started on Greg the Babysitter at least. I don’t expect it to be a very long chapter and it’ll be pretty easy too since its a fluff/comedy/fillerish chapter. But of course I’m taking another weekend off once AoC drops because i have tooooooo. Week after that is Thanksgiving week and I am taking Thanksgiving day off at least to spend with the fam. But I do have every intention of getting Greg the Babysitter out before November is over. 

After that I kinda am eyeing the possibility of opening commissions again in early December to go toward my apartment fund. I could maybe open them before I start the next chapter of Keys, but we’ll see. I do intend to get at least one more chapter of Keys (and maybe another chapter of UF out) before the year is up but that might be a bit tricky since the last two weeks of December I’ll be doing a lot of moving into my new apartment related stuff. But that’s more or less how things are gonna be laid out for the remainder of the year on my end. Hopefully I won’t keep you UF fans waiting for too long (or you Keys readers either) ^_^

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Let's go buck wild. Even numbers

i did this........ on mobile........ for You............

also im not bolding all of these its absolutely painful on mobile

2. How old did you turn this year?

21

4. Did your appearance change in anyway?

uhhh not really, been that kinda "lowkey dumpster fire" look for like the entire decade tbh

6. If you traveled, where did you go?

went to las vegas with family for three days over thanksgiving

8. Which fashion trends did you hate?

i dont even know what fashion is i just wear business casual for work and dont get dressed at all on the weekends unless i need to buy food.

10. What song sums up this year for you?

home by cavetown and/or strawberry blond by mitski

12. What was your favorite movie of the year?

i cant even remember if ive SEEN any movies this year tbh but uhh did good blood's oot analysis video essay come out this year? because if so ill go with that

14. Favorite new TV show?

i dont watch SHIT because i am uncultured and have no time!!!!!! but i guess steven universe future has been entertaining to watch from the sidelines

16. What food did you try for the first time?

uhhhhhh i guess i had shepard's pie. i know very new and original but considering my usual diet is "pre-portioned shit that can be thrown in a microwave and consumed" its something

18. What was one nice thing you did for someone else?

i dont remember things that happen more than like 3 days ago at any given time so idk

20. Did you develop a new obsession?

not particularly? just a few old hyperfixations came on stronger

22. Did you move?

yea for work, im in the civilization now

24. Did you get a pet?

sorta? my parents adopted a puppy but shes not mine n im not up there to see her most of the time so

26. Do you regret doing something?

sorta but its hard to explain

28. Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days?

sorta yea? but idk how to explain it in short form

34. Did you have to cut ties to someone?

not really? i dont remember

36. Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year?

i dont remember. this whole list is just kinda reminding me of how fucking long this year has dragged on tbh

38. What was the best moment of the year for you?

not really any one specific moment? idk, just goofing off with friends

40. Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t?

this question makes me feel Things in a way thats hard to describe. same with the companion question thats an odd number. how the fuck are you supposed to determine if something should change you as a person? how do you quantify that? and then how do you make a comparison at the end? i have megabig identity issues that im not really public with on this blog and pretty much never have been! it's just a huge series of cop-outs and shit! and like this isnt even getting into the idea of how im supposed to anticipate a change ahead of time? like whats up with neurotypicals n their future vision shit i want that?

42. What are you most proud of accomplishing?

uhhhhhh i got a job n i finished my first big project on that job. i am still working at that job and i hope that i can continue to work there because if i cant im beyond fucked.

44. Did your opinion of anyone change for the better?

uhhhhhh i dont really know? i mean sorta but can an opinion really qualify as having changed for the better if it previously just didnt exist? like oh, i now know more about this person other than their name and the fact that they exist and turns out they are cool and nice. like that doesnt really count as an opinion change imo

46. If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year?

if i made resolutions i sure as fuck dont remember them. but i got a job in my field at least so thats something

48. If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do?  Who would you go this?

kinjago reunion party in fuckin uh. some big cabin in the woods where we can subsist and have sleepovers. n we never leave we just stay there forever.

50. What do you wish for yourself?

really need to keep my job hhhh. really need to fix my pc hhhhhhhhh.

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high school!donghyuck

request: idk if you’re taking reqs but i really like ur highscool aus so if u want to write one abt hyuck ill be :^))))))) - anonymous

word count: 5.1k

a/n: oof its been awhile unnies!!!! ive had exams for the past two weeks and I still have exams now so im sorry for not posting anything but reblogs with headassery in the tags!!! we are continuing the high school series n renjun is next!! since I got like 3 requests for him !!!!! hhehhehehheheh its gonna b cute <3 anyways hope u enjoy this I love my lil duckie baby

masterlist

mark, renjun, jeno, donghyuck, jaemin, chenle, jisung

big oof i’m gonna cry while writing this

i’m running out of creative ways to say let’s dive in

let us take the plunge

okay!!!!!!!!!! so you’ve been an editor/writer for the school paper for pretty much all of your high school career

you’re not super well known though because you don’t try to take any credit for anything and always sign your pieces like “- the daily newspaper team” or smth 

anywhom you’ve always loved writing about the stuff around you or making up little short stories

one of your hobbies is just going people watching and trying to write down a brief description of people you see and what you think they’re on the way to do

you’ve befriended the baristas at your favorite spot, lucas and mark, and they always beg to read them but you never let them because mark is too nice to tell you it’s shit and lucas is too dumb to at least say it nicely

you’ve got at least 6 notebooks FULL of these little stories but you’ve never really ? showed anyone because wow showing others your work is Scary

criticism ???/$&/&:&:&:

it’s midway through the first semester of the school year and you’ve been super busy since it’s football season and you gotta write about all the games

and you haven’t had much time to write your cute little stories for yourself and you miss it a lot :/

this weekend though the chance of rain is SUPER high so the football game is cancelled and you have plenty of time to yourself !! :D

there is, a setback tho

THUNDER!!!!! IS SO SCARY !!!!!!

u fckin softie

you decide to tough it out though and get suited up in some polka dot rain boots and a rain jacket and set off to find somewhere to chill

as you’re walking to the nearest lil greenhouse/cafe thing it starts raining ,, ,,, hARDER

when you started it wasn’t rlly raining it was just like that weird tension in the air right before the air pressure drops and it starts to rain and you were already on edge OOF

but then it’s raining so you clutch your notebook to your chest and dash

usain bolt had nothing on you girly you were ZOOM ZOOM

broom broom- doyoung

unfortunately you don’t make it though because with you head down to keep the rain out of your eyes you run RIGHT into someone’s CHEST !!!!!!

hehe u know i’m a sucker for these god damn TROPES

your notebook goes flying and and the arms attached to the Chest That Caused Your Grief come up to catch you by the arms

“oh gOD sorry are you okay ??? i wasn’t looking and i was trying to keep my journal dr- MY JOURNALSDJDDD”

you fling yourself out of this boys arms and pick up your soaking wet journal sadly

:((((((( you had so many stories in there wtf

“oh shit i’m sorry do you uh want me to buy you another one ???”

“no that’s okay it wasn’t your fault :( and it’s just a journal i’m only sad because all my stories are gone :(((((“

you finally look up from your Ruined journal to see , the prettiest boy

you can’t tell for sure cause his hair is soaking wet but it’s a bright red that looks a bit faded and his skin is tanned and golden like HONEY OOF

he meets your eyes and awkwardly smiles and he looks so GUILTY AW

“no really it’s fine don’t feel bad!!”

“okay but i feel bad what can i do to make it up to you?”

“hMMM you could come help me think of wacky stories about people who walk past”

“well if you INSIST m’lady”

“aw, never mind”

“IM JUST KIDDING SJDJJD”

so in the pouring rain you both walk to cafe and find a little corner to people-watch in

on the way there he tells you his name is donghyuck but his friends call him hyuck

“dude that’s the sound goofy makes when he laughs your friends are terrible”

“oh my god i don’t even think they know what they’re saying HsjdjHEHHS”

after a couple minutes of bad goofy impressions you decide to call him duckie instead because ,,,, GARSH MICKEY 🤠🤠🤠

also because it’s cute

you didn’t hear this from me but he uwued so hard rip his street cred with the Boys

anyways right before you settle in you’re like hey uh did you have somewhere to be like weren’t you heading places

and he was like nah i like the rain it’s nice to just walk around feels GOOD

your eyes widen so big and he snorts because what’s so ridiculous about that

and you’re like uh UH NO NOPE NO SIR I DONT FUCK WITH DEMONS

your dramatic ass tries to get up and LEAVE but he grabs your wrist and is like noooo we haven’t even written any stories yet why do you hate rain so much ??

you explain how thunder is the work of the devil and that lightning could strike you down where you stand at any moment and storms are EVIL

he chuckles and side eyes you

“aW you big wimp you’re afraid of thunderstorms aren’t you”

“yES. like any sane person would be”

“you know a lot of people actually like storms”

“like i said, SANE people do not”

and then you change the subject right quick because your face is getting RED with embarrassment

you n donghyuck spend like 2 hours just sitting in the corner and writing little scenarios on napkins

“oh shit that girl over there with the french braids is TOTALLY gonna marry hipster beanie guy in two years. mark my words”

“idk y/n she lowkey has the hots for the barista”

“ ew you mean mark??”

“yeah. now THAT man is a work of art”

MARKHYUCK RISE

“god what is wrong with you maybe you should buy me another book”

“too late now we’re FRIENDS and i don’t owe you ANYTHING”

“being friends doesn’t work like that at all but, okay”

at the end of the day you’ve got a stack of napkins with scribbled notes on them

(one of them has donghyuck’s number on it skdkkfjd)

he leaves you with a bright smile and you’re in awe this boy is so golden and lovely

oof and when you were still in the cafe his hair had dried to the unnatural red color that he ? somehow made look good ugh not fAIR

and it was a lil curly and fluffy and looked very soft :(((((

as you walk home you drift along the sidewalk with a stupid smile on your face wow please get a little less obvious hunty

when you get home the sun is setting and the rain has cleared and you are so Happy that was the best day !!!

you weren’t even scared of the thunder because whenever the sky would fckin CRACK OPEN hyuck would subtly try to keep your attention and distract you with questions

the sky: AAAAAAAAAAA

duckie: oH Hey uhhh so hOW do you even come up these stories ?):$:$ theyre so good

such a sweet boy uwu

when you get home your mom eyes you suspiciously as you drift down the hall towards your room but doesn’t comment

she didn’t need to though because you immediately return and tell her everything !!!

she encourages you to befriend him at school and see where it goes from there ;))) or just TEXT HIM

so you do

both of those things !!!

you: hey!! it’s y/n btw

duckie: hey! u make it home alive without the sky cracking open and killing u

you: stOP MAKING FUN OF ME

you send him memes and he sends , even better ones back this boy is Husband Material

the next couple weeks you realize that hyuck is actually in like a lot of your classes

and he’s like yeah i don’t blame you for not noticing since your nose is always in one of those Damn Journals

can’t believe u smh

anywhom

you start actually interacting with people in class

and by people i mean donghyuck and any of his friends who happen to be there

you literally get thrown into their friendgroup like one day you know donghyuck and have vaguely heard of jeno since he’s on the soccer team

and then the next you’re a part of the group message and jaemin begs for your math homework during lunch ????

“jaemin just dO YOUR OWN HOMEWORK FOR ONCE ???”

“ugh but i don’t know how”

“hey you know what maybe if you didn’t sleep in class you WOULD”

“IM TIRED GOD DAMN IT”

this is usually when duckie interjects with

“hey now girls, you’re both smart <3”

“i know im smart but , jaemin , i don’t know about him 😔😔”

poor jaemin leave him alone :(

jisung is , extREMELY awkward around you because he’s a Baby Freshman and you’re a Female Senior hsjdjf it’s so cute

and chenle is the complete opposite he IMMEDIATELY latches onto you and is always like

“y/n !!!! wanna watch this video of me singing and playing the piano when i was thirteen on live national television !!!!”

“y/N !!!!!!! can you drive me n jisung to get ice cream plEASE !!! we won’t even play PSY this time”

“okay,,,,, pinky promise?”

his pinky hooks around yours at an incredible speed as he jumps up and down with excitement

“pinky promise !!!!!!!!!!”

hyuck overhears and insists upon coming with for , unknown reasons

renjun and jeno keep snickering to each other across the lunch table too uGH

sneaky bastards !

after school you wait in the parking lot for the Babies with hyuck who looks rather flushed considering his skin is pretty tan and it takes a lot for him to visibly blush ??

“hey duckie boy you good?”

“haha yEAH uh just wondering where the boys are hhhh”

“oh yeah ! they should’ve been here like 10 mins ago”

your phone buzzes in your pocket and you go to check it to see a text in the group message

lele: hey y/n~ me n jisung can’t come we totally forgot we joined a frisbee team and there’s practice today !!!

blueberry: yeah ! have fun w/ hyuckie tho

moominluvr96: sjdjd i’m so proud of them

jenomunomunomu: absolute legends have fun at ur frisbee practice my sons

you: 🅱️ro i wanted to go home and SLEEP

blueberry: sorry ! xoxo :*

duckie: chenle my son ? how could you 🅱️etray me this way???

you: ur dead to me

you: literally what’s a chenle ?? sounds like a poisonous fruit

lele: NO IM SORRY

but tbh you’re just being Silly you don’t mind just going with Sunshine Boy

hyuck has only gotten redder as the texting went on though what’s his deal 0.0

you agree to take his car !

actually you insist because you don’t wanna drive but, let’s say you agreed

you find out that hyuck exclusively listens to hipster bands and the occasional troye sivan song because we love a gay legend

actually his music taste is ALL OVER THE PLACE but we r still boppin ladies

you roll the windows down even tho it’s Chilly and let your hand float in the breeze until your fingers start getting numb and you pull your hand back in and roll up the window

okay maybe that was a Bad Idea your fingers almost hurt they’re so cold and you’re rubbing the feeling back into them when hyuck clears his throat

you look up at him and he tilts his chin toward the hand he stretched toward you

you’re confused bc like ? i don’t have anything to give u duckie

he sighs anxiously

“just. give me your hand. mine are warm because i didn’t try to be cool and stick my hand out the window like this is a teen coming of age movie”

“have you ever just been nice and not followed it up with a weirdly specific insult”

“nope. now gimme”

you cautiously placed your hand in his and felt heat bloom all over your cheeks and trail up to your ears and down your neck

he gulps and interlocks your fingers and tucks them in the pocket of his hoodie

you have to lean against the console in between you a little so that your arm isn’t strained but it’s,,,,, Warm and Nice

you’re quick to continue the conversation like normal but your voice sometimes goes in and out since he is subconsciously rubbing his thumb over the back of your hand or tapping his fingers against yours

when you arrive you awkwardly pull your hand from his grip to get out of the car and he cringes a lil :(

you decide to be bold for once in your life and run around the car to catch up with him and shove your other hand into his

“this one’s cold too”

he ducks his head and smiles but gives your hand a lil squeeze :3 uwu

eventually though you do have to let go and enjoy your ice cream

you just make small talk with him about the newspaper and whatever homework is due the next day when a man walks in wearing BRIGHT RED CLOWN SHOES

the weirdest part though is the fact that other than the clown shoes the man is dressed like a body builder and has the hulking mass of one

and also there is a PARROT ON HIS SHOULDER ???

you and hyuck whip to face each other and then look back at the man

without looking away you slide your notebook to the middle of the table and flip open to where you’ve bookmarked the next available page

needless to say you both have a field day making up storylines for this man

“hey hyuckie i missed this it’s been forever since it’s been just the two of us and my journal”

“me too, sunshine”

“heY now you’re the sunshine in this relationship”

both of you choke at your use of the term “relationship” but continue with the conversation JSKSK

“alright but then you have to be the rain”

“aw you know i don’t like the rain”

“yes i know that’s why YOU are sunshine”

“kay but you are so much more like sunshine than i, an Emo”

“how bout i be sunshine since you like sunshine and me, and you be rain since i like rain and you”

OOF ????????

you blush for the Millionth Time and nod shyly and duckie is about to turn purple YIKES

you leave the ice cream shop and climb back in the car and the whole atmosphere is very Tense

you sigh because you miss holding his hand and then turn up the song on the radio which just happens to be, Walkin On Sunshine

THE !!! IRONY !!!

you giggle into your hand and he snorts and you both break into laughter

you plug your phone into the aux

“alright time for some Real Tunes”

“i swear to GOD if you play Bad Boy one more time i’m gonna LOSE IT”

“fuck you red velvet are LEGENDS”

“the only reason you know who they are is because mark tells everyone with a pulse that one of them is from canada just like him”

“okay and ??? i can still appreciate that they produce iconic songs only”

“LISTEN I LOVE RED VELVET TOO BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH”

you playfully bicker the whole way back and when you get back to the school to pick up your car you realize you never even got to play your song

“for your information, i was in fact NOT going to play bad boy i was going to play the bop of the century, what is love by twice”

and then, with heavy sarcasm

“well gee why didn’t you just sAY SO”

“IM SICK OF YOUR GIRL GROUP SLANDER LEE DONGHYUCK”

then he giggles and grabs your hand to keep you from getting more than halfway out of the car

“okay okay you know i’m just messing with you”

“yes but leave my gorls out of it”

he releases your hand with fake disgust and wipes it on the passenger seat headrest

“ugh go home, gru”

“it’s a good meme and you can’t even deny it duckie boy”

you blow him a half serious half playful kiss as you bounce over to your car and climb in

you play bad boy and roll the windows down as you drive by his car just to spite him and he laughs good naturedly

it’s only when you get home that you’re like heyyyy nOW

WAS THAT A DATE ??????

you tell your mom about it and she’s like uHHH sounds like a DATE to me ???

but you’re Unsure so you don’t say anything to the others or hyuck just the usual goodnight texts and whatnot

although it could be argued ,, that goodnight texts are a little, relationship-y

it could also be argued , that you do have his contact name as , duckie☼♥

but those can be discussed another time

you continue to hang out with the boys although you refuse to allow them to sit with you at football games because they’re so DISTRACTING

jeno and jisung just fckin yell the whole time while you try to jot notes down to turn it into a story later for the paper

but you can’t concentrate or even figure out wtf is goin on because they’re scREAMING and jumping and messing you uP !

so you sent them elsewhere although,,, hyuck stayed with you

he always does “just in case you get cold or smth”

ur not fooling anyone hyuckie baby

and would you look at that time has FLOWN and it’s time for homecoming !!!!

you plan on going in a big group with hyuck and all The Boys and jaemin has even scored a date !!!

it was highkey through trickery but that’s okay

chenle and jisung are gonna wear matching shirts because they’re headass like that

you’ve already bought a dress and you haven’t ….. shown hyuckie……. just in case……… he asks you

since he…… hasn’t …… YET

renjun keeps assuring you that you don’t need to find a date and that everything is covered but ???? inch resting how duckie has done nOT ONE THING

alright the day of the dance you wake up feeling a little off but go through your normal saturday routine of eating a waffle and absentmindedly watching old gossip girl reruns

but later in the day you feel SHITTY

you’re flushed and your head hurts and it takes so much EFFORT just to get up and get a glass of water

you , comrade, are sick :-(

you text in the gm to let your boys know you can’t come

chenle thinks you’re faking until he calls and hears you sniffling and how rough your voice sounds

“hEY THOT I KNOW UR FAKING BC U DONT HAVE A DATE”

“chenle if it didn’t hurt to speak i would yell at u but my eyes are watering please just text me”

“oh,,,,sorry love u”

and then he hangs up real fast lmao

so you decide to just wallow in despair in your bed and rent overpriced movies on demand

there’s a half drank mug of tea that has long gone cold that contains the medicine you’re supposed to be taking but,, you can’t be bothered tbh lifting your hand is so hard

after a few movies and the sun setting there’s knock at the door ???

you barely hear it since you’re in your room with the door closed but /sigh/ you gotta go answer

you drag yourself out of bed and stumble to the front door and open it, immediately slumping against the frame

this whole time you have still not opened your eyes because light hurts a lil and you know your house well enough

in hindsight that was probably dumb considering you don’t know who’s at the door

you try to open your eyes but they only turn half lidded and droopy so you can just barely make out donghyuck looking Concerned on your front porch

“duckie? what are u doing here?”

“uhhh i uh came to take you to homecoming ??”

he then holds up some flowers and smiles awkwardly

“duckie. baby. sunshine. did u not read the texts i sent ? also it is VERY late to be asking me to homecoming. also, i am a little high on cold medication”

“srry princess, can i come in? you look like you need company and soup and possibly some Sarcastic Banter”

“sounds good duck”

“okay duckie was already incorrect please don’t shorten it to duck”

“you know i didn’t have to let you in”

“so what kind of soup do you want? :-)”

he busies himself attempting to make soup while you have melted into a chair at the dining table with one eye cracked open to watch him

he is very obviously Struggling so you wobble to your feet to stand behind him at the stove and maybe lean a little too much into his back to prop your chin up on his shoulder and reach a hand around him to turn the heat down on the stove

you’ve reached the point of I Don’t Give A Shit and have given up on trying not to be affectionate with him you’re too tired and sickly to restrain yourself and his heart is just steadily beating faster and faster

after your soup you drag him into your bedroom to force him to provide you warmth while watching another movie

but he digs his heels into the floor and tugs on your hand to turn you around

“since you’re missing homecoming….. wanna dance?”

“in my bedroom. while i’m dying. with no music.”

“i’ll take care of the music. cmon don’t be difficult”

“i’m not being difficult i’m just-

you’re cut off by him pressing a finger to your lips and going shhhhhh

you open your mouth to curse him out bc hOW DARE HE

but then he gently pulls you by the waist into his chest and does his best to tuck you under his chin

you’re too comfortable like this so you don’t bother admonishing him for earlier and just settle into his embrace

you loop your arms around his neck as he starts to sway you back and forth

after a couple seconds he starts humming, quietly at first and then louder

and then he starts singing and it’s so sO SWEET AND SOFT

you can feel each breath he takes under your hands and the vibrating of his vocal chords against your forehead and you just close your eyes and press closer to him

you’ve literally never been this content in your whole life binch

he is so warm and ever so often smooths a hand up and down your spine whenever you shiver a little or shift in his arms

when the song finishes you keep swaying with him a little while longer

you’re leaning against him so hard that like the majority of your weight is on him yikes

“babe are you asleep”

“mm”

“no?”

“mmm”

“pretty close though?”

“hm”

“alright”

he chuckles and presses a barely there kiss to the top of your head and sort of waddles the two of you over to the bed

you don’t even have to ask him to climb in with you that was The Plan, Stan

(that’s a saying and also i’m calling u a stan wow queen of puns)

as soon as he settles in you tuck yourself under his arm and throw an arm over him to play with the fingers of his other hand

you’ve got the breakfast club on and it’s Real Nap Hours

hyuck’s arm falls asleep pretty soon tho so instead you switch to laying on your sides facing each other with your face pressed into his neck and your arms draped over each other

right before you fade into unconciousness, he tilts his chin down and nudges his nose against yours to get your attention

your eyes flutter open and you look up at him while he smiles gently down at your sleepy expression aWE ???

“hey wanna be my date when you’re not on your death bed?”

“god, what a romantic. is that a shakespeare quote?”

“shut up and say yes”

“alright fine”

“with more enthusiasm!”

“YES!! GOD DAMN IT”

he shakes his head but then leans down to press a lingering kiss against your cheek before tucking you back against him and evening out his breathing

you fall asleep and dream of boys with beautiful voices who love to dance in the rain

a couple hours later you wake up to a forehead smooch and your Boy whispering bye angel

you sit up and whine and he’s like bby i have to go it’s like midnight n my momma wants me home :(((

you pout and he giggles and taps your lips with his index finger

“go back to sleep and i’ll text you something nice to wake up to yeah?”

you nod and grab his hand to kiss it before flopping back down and passing The Fuck Out

the next morning you wake up still feeling a bit shitty but smiling anyways bc you’ve scored the cutest boy in the universe uwu

he even kept his promise and left you a cute message to wake up to ;((((

duckie☼♥: good morning bbg i hope ur feeling better today and that the sun shines all day for u !!!

you: JEKDKDJ DUCKIE IM STILL SICK BUT TAKE ME ON A DATE RN

you: 💗💗💗💕💌💞💞💗😤💖🤧😔💗😔🤧😔🌺💐🌺🌺🌸💐😔💛😔💛💐🤧💐💐💖💖

duckie☼♥: noooo ur gross

you: you ruined it :(((

duckie☼♥: i mean noooo u gotta get better

you: okay :)))

you finally get over your cold like 4 days later and insist you’re fine to be Taken Out And Treated Like A Princess

he tells you to dress warm except gloves bc he wants to hold youR HAND CAN YOU BELIEVE

you’re weirdly not nervous ? like you thought you would be but you’re just excited and very happy !!!! uwu

he picks you up about an hour after school and reveals that he’s gonna take you to all the cafes in town to people watch and write stories which is !!! your favorite activity !!!!!!

“is it lame??? oh god you think it’s lame i’m so sORRY”

“nO!!! no i love it you did good”

“are you sure?”

“yes duckie”

“okay good i mean i knew you’d like it”

“but you just-“

“hm?”

“,,,,, nevermind”

you both hike around town until it gets late and you’re tired and you end up on a bench in the local park with his head in your lap and your fingers in his hair

you lightly scratch his scalp and hum and he practically PURRS like a cat

(furry ????? it’s more likely than you think)

his eyes are closed and you trace your fingers over his features lightly until it tickles and he scrunches up his nose aw bABY !!!!!

then, without opening his eyes

“so when are you gonna man up and kiss me?”

“first of all, i will never man up i prefer being female thanks. sECOND WHY DO I GOTTA DO IT”

“i asked you on the date !!! you gotta do something!!!”

“i held your hand first!!”

“after i literally offered my hand to you”

“uGH fine come here”

“no i’m not gonna ‘come here�� you literally just made a disgusted noise at the thought of kissing me”

“it wasn’t at the thought of kissing you it was just at you”

“this isn’t helping at all”

you roll your eyes playfully and then yank him up by the collar of his shirt to press your forehead against his

“does this help?”

aND THEN YOU LAY ONE ON HIM ??????:$&:&;&;

QUEEN OF CONFIDENCE

he sighs against your lips and sits up a little more so he can reach you better, smoothing a hand up to cup the side of your jaw and neck

you pull away and his eyes are still closed

“hmmm,,, yeah”

you scoff and drop him back to half laying on your lap

“you’re such a dork”

“yeah but i’m your dork now so it’s embarrassing for both of us”

“aw i wouldn’t have it any other way <333”

“is it just me or was that sarcasm”

“just you <3333”

renjun, who has been rOOTING FOR YOU GUYS THIS ENTIRE TIME

screams when you call him that night lol

literally SCREECHES

chenle happens to be with him and screeches eVEN LOUDER

basically the whole group screams simultaneously they’ve been shipping it since day one

hyuck is a bit prideful so when you guys are out in public he’s not super affectionate but ,, when you’re not out

he’s wrapped around you like a koala and will never let go

you have to go pee? hold it

you’re dehydrated and dying? you can live off of his Love

your favorite activity to do together is BAKING because it never goes well no matter how hard you try

and although it usually ends in DISASTER it’s also a good time and afterwards duckie lets you curl up between his legs on the couch and nap uwu !

dating really didn’t change the dynamic between you two other than affection you still read each other to DUST on the regular  lmao

no one gets too harsh tho bc you love each other and whatnot

ugh love ruins all the FUN doesnt it :/

donghyuck makes it his business to know exactly when it will rain and makes sure to be with you when it does

at the first sight of clouds he is in your house with board games and movies and snuggles to distract you !!! what a sweetheart

on days when it’s really bad you just climb into bed and bury your face in his chest while he talks about whatever comes to mind and distracts you

he also takes to slumping down and falling asleep on your shoulder whenever you have movie nights together and it’s so CUTE

his little heart shaped lips and his cheeks always end up smushed and he just looks adorable wow rip you

he’s obsessed with your cheeks he loves to cup your face while he talks to you and press gentle kisses to them during Sleepy Time or when you part ways in the school hallways

if he’s excited he’ll bound up behind you and wrap his arms around you and kiss your cheek real hard and then start babbling about whatever’s got him so worked up

basically, hyuckie is a boy full of sunshine and passion and sarcasm and he’s the best boyfriend you could ever ask for :’-)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[popiaemeritus]

Intro game

Ack- I am really behind on tag games ;0;

I was tagged by @metal-is-life091 and @onlyxciii aaa thank yall💕💕🐀

nickname: Ghoulie 👻

gender: Possibly

astrological sign: Sagittarius eyy

height: 5'4ishhhh (short enough where I have to climb countertops lol)

sexuality: Bisexual 😎

hogwarts house: Ooof I've never read/watched Harry Potter but my friend said Ravenclaw, and it has blue and a bird?? So I'm cool with that☆

favourite animal: A l l. Hhhh, I love all animals;0; but either cats or sheep (you ever pick up a lamb?? Its a magical yet painful experience )

average hours of sleep: On weekdays, like 5-6, on weekends, oof depends on if I'm binge watching something so between 2-7 hours😂

number of blankets: Like one really thick one then two throw blankets (I'm a cold lil bitch)

where i’m from: Canada, land of the poutine and I guess Giant Tiger?

dream trip: Norway! Idk even as a kid I was in love with the place, it seems so beautiful there♡♡

when i created this account: Oooh like June of this year? Or at least that's when I started posting stuff?

why i created this account: I honestly didnt want to bug and annoy my followers on my main with all the Ghost stuff and I also wanted a place to be able to store and reblog all the neat stuff without it getting jumbled up between other stuff :^Dc

It says to tag 20 people :^0 but I'm an awkward rat man and don't want to bother anyone do if you want to do this, please do!!!♡♡♡♡

[dailyopulence]

𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙳: 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚍𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚜

Group texts between members of the Auto Club taking place between October 9th to October 16th. Feat: @marsdenlee​, @wolfontheloose​, @sirensofia​.

[text from mars]: Anyone know who owns that green 2010 Dodge Viper? I want an introduction and a joy ride. [from Ryden]: no clue [from Ryden]: i can try finding out? [text from mars]: ,,,,,,,,,,'xxcccccccc mmmmn hhhh'"""""";;;;;;; [text from mars]: Sorry the drool machine had my phone. [text from mars]: Yes please. Thank you. 😘 [from Ryden]: was bout to say that was the smartest thing u ever said [from Ryden]: ok i found out [text from mars]: You've wounded me you saucy boy. [text from mars]: Who is it? [from Ryden]: dont cry [from Ryden]: cant tell u that what if u plan to steal it? [text from mars]: I ain't gonna steal it. [text from mars]: I just wanna play with it. [from Ryden]: thats what they all say [from Ryden]: tell honeybun im bringing over smt nice for her tmr [from Ryden]: gnite [text from mars]: I'll let her know. [text from mars]: Sleep tight don't let the werebugs bite. [text from sofia]: you realise he didn't even tell you right? [text from sofia]: it belongs to that guy who manages the gas station. [text from sofia]: like lenny or larry or something. [text from mars]: You're right, I've been bamboozled. [text from mars]: Gas station Lenny! [text from mars]: I'm gonna bribe him with jerky. [text from sofia]: he probably has infinite access to jerky, you know, working at a gas station. [text from mars]: Good point. Sweet talk him for me! [text from sofia]: i don't think that would work... [text from sofia]: i may or may not have told him his fingers have the dexterity of a falling tree... [text from mars]: My dream of riding in that Viper dies with you. [text from mars]: How do you know his finger dexterity? [text from sofia]: i may or may not have said it while they were inside of me. [text from mars]: Ew. [text from mars]: My condolences for your pussy. [text from sofia]: i felt bad for it too. [text from sofia]: regardless, not sure i can sweet talk a ride for you. men tend to take insulting their lack of technique personally instead of, you know, getting better. [text from mars]: I'll try to sweet talk him but pretty sure I'm not his type. [text from sofia]: it's surprising whose type you can be. [text from Ryden]: u guys... srsly, if i asked for yall cause u got a rly cool house or smt would u like ppl giving ur name around?😒 [text from mars]: How cool of a house are we talking? Do I have an indoor pool with a slide? [text from sofia]: ry should come hang out at the mansion with us. [text from mars]: Great idea! 😯 [text from Ryden]: delusional yall dont have mansions [text from mars]: I have a huge mansion. [text from mars]: Seven of them. [text from mars]: Each is a different color of the rainbow. [text from Ryden]: okay mars bar ❤️ u can have whatever u want [text from mars]: I want us to Thelma and Louise that Viper 😘 and then hang out in my blue mansion in my indoor pool [text from sofia]: he really doesn’t think we have a mansion… [text from Ryden]: ...shit dont tell lenny bruv, he pack... i cant🙁 [text from mars]: Awright pack is pack. I'll leave his pretty Viper alone for you. [text from mars]: Fair, Sof, we're glorified squatters. [text from sofia]: eat the rich tbh. its ours now. [text from Ryden]: oh no like lenny is shithead he dont even service it at my place like i would steal it meself just to spite him but cant cuz pack [text from Ryden]: eat the rich? i would im game [text from mars]: That sounds like I can steal at least one lug nut. [text from Ryden]: i heard nothin [text from sofia]: steal the gear stick, he can’t work it anyway. [text from Ryden]: heh tru [text from mars]: One commemorative gear stick and lug nut coming your way [text from mars]: BRB [text from Ryden]: well tits.... [text from sofia]: just us now. your girl gave me a tattoo. micah and i probably going back this weekend for some more. i’ll look like you nerds soon if he has his way. [text from Ryden]: cel gives best tats [text from Ryden]: u can always tell micah no if you dont wanna look like a nerd [text from Ryden]: but in those exact words cuz he otherwise won't undertand [text from sofia]: nah, i should look like what i am. [text from sofia]: you got any tats with anyone? [text from Ryden]: yah [text from Ryden]: latest one with nerd no 2 [text from Ryden]: we were both drunk tho😁 [text from sofia]: you each had space left? what did you do? tattoo your ball sacks? [text from sofia]: that’s where i’ll convince the old man to get one. [text from Ryden]: i had to look rly hard [text from Ryden]: marsupial has some catchin up to do [text from Ryden]: mines just above my left ankle had some space there left [text from Ryden]: hah dont he'll be useless for weeks u dont need useless teabags in ur life [text from mars]: I got the shift knob but not the lug nut.

[text from Ryden]: u chaotic mf u screwed me tnx  alot... [text from mars]: Anything for you dear.😘 [text from mars]: He didn't even see me. I was so stealth. [text from sofia]: what did y’all get though? [text from sofia]: dibs on it. [text from sofia]: i’m not sure what you imagine the balls of a man in his fifties are doing either but they’re already useless teabags. only good for a some flavor 😏 [text from mars]: Raw onion flavor? [text from mars]: Pass! [text from mars]: Not even sour cream and onion which is far superior. [text from mars]: Consider this knob all yours Sofia. [text from mars]: May it serve you better than your current one. [text from mars]: I have no memory of getting a new tattoo. [text from Ryden]: u know who's fuckin useless [text from Ryden]: that guy right there this one called fuckin marsden lee [text from Ryden]: steals shit like a pro but remembers jack squat [text from Ryden]: useless [text from Ryden]: bff role revoked mate [text from Ryden]: i got a pacman and i got it alone so there [text from mars]: Oooooooh that's right I got the ghost gang. [text from mars]: Don't forsake me baby 😢 [text from Ryden]: too late bye [img text from mars]:

[img text from mars]:

[text from Ryden]: pulling ur leg is fine u were piss drunk dont drama [text from mars]: I'll drama if I want to drama. [text from mars]: fine gimme a moment to mute [text from sofia]: that seems so off brand for your tattoos. [text from sofia]: whatever, what’s your guys opinion on red ink? [text from Ryden]: but we were drunk so thats ttly on brand [text from Ryden]: do not recommend [text from sofia]: why? [text from mars]: Red ink makes the ouchy more ouchy. [text from sofia]: pretty sure we could handle the ouchie. [text from Ryden]: most risky, can cause alergic reactions easily in some ppl [text from Ryden]: but like we are superhuman who cares [text from sofia]: watch me give micah an allergic reaction because i want something special. [text from sofia]: i’ll show you guys at the next meeting though. [text from Ryden]: dont forget to show i wanna see [text from sofia]: i’ll remember! i’m not that forgetful. [text from Ryden]: sweeeeeet 👍

[aroihkin]

The saga of Sapphire’s fucking idiot light.

[8:37 AM] Aroihkin: I have to at least bitterly enjoy the irony, that Sapphire only failed smog due to the check engine light being out -- it passed everything the light would come on for [8:38 AM] Aroihkin: I've wrestles it onto functionality but a damn light lmao [9:05 AM] Aroihkin: they're taking a while to find the reason damn(edited) [9:18 AM] Aroihkin: hhhh [9:19 AM] Aroihkin: lays on the floor I'm trapped at a mechanic shop while they figure out my dumb check engine light [9:20 AM] Aroihkin: which makes me think it isn't something I could have tackled in the weekend bc it's been about an hour :< [9:34 AM] Aroihkin: Weh it's the fucking instrument module [9:34 AM] Aroihkin: the bulb isn't serviceable the whole thing has to swap out :I [9:35 AM] Aroihkin: fuckin modern cars and their over abundance of electronics lmao [9:35 AM] Aroihkin: dude: the funny thing is this car is pretty basic that way [9:35 AM] Aroihkin: me: not as basic as my festiva [9:36 AM] Aroihkin: dude: yeahhhhh [9:36 AM] Aroihkin: lmao [9:37 AM] Aroihkin: non serviceable parts drive me nuts(edited) [9:38 AM] Aroihkin: I saw the module too it's sealed af [3:54 PM] Aroihkin: hh [3:56 PM] Aroihkin: this fucking light that I don't even need because I pay attention to my car, has already cost me 175 dollars and it ain't done yet [3:57 PM] Aroihkin: but it has to be able to light up, by law [3:57 PM] Aroihkin: so since I'm registering and transferring it [3:57 PM] Aroihkin: it has to pass this idiot check [3:58 PM] Aroihkin: or it won't be road legal mid April :'] [3:59 PM] Aroihkin: it's kinda infuriating considering how well I maintain my shit [3:59 PM] Aroihkin: they won't give me CA plates without the ffff-light [4:01 PM] Aroihkin: I feel like a car that has OBD2 which is all of them newer than I believe 1996, shouldn't legally require the check engine light in order to pass smog [4:01 PM] Aroihkin: bc you can get a $20 scanner plug it into the OBD2 port and your car will dump info on your head lmao [4:02 PM] Aroihkin: I mean I understand why it's a law, I really do [4:02 PM] Aroihkin: I'm just :'))))))) save me [4:04 PM] Aroihkin: most of my frustration is like... thanks daewoo for making parts that aren't serviceable and have to be replaced completely because one tiny bulb blew out I appreciate your choices as a manufacturer [4:05 PM] Aroihkin: it's like if every time a headlight bulb went out we had to get a whole new headlight, and can't even get it used because this part has to be assigned to my VIN by the manufacturer [4:05 PM] Aroihkin: what a fuckin scheme [4:06 PM] Aroihkin: they soldered the bulb straight into the PCB and then sealed the unit and VIN stamped it like why [4:07 PM] Aroihkin: we know why, it's $$$$ [4:07 PM] Aroihkin: but fuck [4:08 PM] Aroihkin: this is why no modern car will replace Jack for me, the serviceability is on point [4:10 PM] Aroihkin: Jack is a resurrected a/c, new brakes/suspension swap, new lights, and an installed power steering motor away from doing everything just as good as Saph which is 13 years younger [4:10 PM] Aroihkin: which granted is a lot of work [4:10 PM] Aroihkin: but it's all shit I can do myself over time [4:11 PM] Aroihkin: and guess what I can say about all them upgrades once they're on? all of it will be serviceable [4:11 PM] Aroihkin: I'm not even like truly mad just resigned and annoyed [4:12 PM] Aroihkin: Saph is a good little car I just wish its engineers weren't a bunch of fucks(edited) [4:14 PM] Aroihkin: it was a cheap car new, but so was Jack :I they added more features in the economy market but made it harder to maintain [4:15 PM] Aroihkin: which obvs it's for turnaround [4:16 PM] Aroihkin: no one wants people to keep the same car past a decade or two, then they don't get as much money [5:16 PM] Aroihkin: according to my mother a lot of people trade in their cars after like six years and start their loan debt over again [5:17 PM] Aroihkin: like holy hell [5:17 PM] Aroihkin: talk about the endless cycle of debt

I trimmed out the other person since I didn’t ask if they were cool with me posting this but basically this is what’s been up with Sapphire’s registration. The Monday before last, I had the shop order the sealed module, and I’ve gotten up early four different days when it was supposed to be in and ready to be installed, only to find out today after a few calls that oops the place they’re getting the part from had to manufacture it and it should be in tomorrow.

...

All of this for a fucking check engine light I’m screaming. :]

Oh and the module is $105, installing it is $125, and a new smog check for it to pass will be about $60 so this one stupid LED will have cost me a hair over $400 when it’s all said and done. Just for that light that will probably never come on outside of a second when starting the car.

It’s frustrating but at least I have the money to cover it. And it’s not a repair I can do myself because of the very nature of the sealed module. I’m :]. I’d be so much less annoyed if this was like, to fix something functional.

At least everything else passed. I don’t think it would have when I first got it back, but I’ve been wrenching on it a lot.

The photo I posted earlier with the speedo/tacho in my hand was my morning of pulling things apart looking for the fucking module with the idea of going to pick-n-pull in Modesto and yanking the thing out of the 04 aveo they have there and hoping it fits an 05 and that it works. Which is still my plan tomorrow if they don’t actually receive my part! It won’t have my VIN but I doubt anyone will tear into the dash to check it.

And yeah everything went back together fine lmao. I lost a few screws into the dash but they just hold plastic trim so I don’t care right now. This one piece of plastic trim can deal with three screws in it instead of five, I think it’ll survive.