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evanbi-ckley · 3 months
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so i hear tommy is supposed to be 40?
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did he enlist at 15?
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jabberwockypie · 24 days
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I lived, bitches.
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bigmammallama5 · 1 month
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My parents bought their 4 bed 3.5 bath house 32 years ago for $145,000 (originally $200,000). This summer a similar house a block away (similar age, 4 bed 3.5 bath, slightly smaller lot) went up for $800,000. It's since been reduced to $650,000 and they put some more work into it, but it's still on the market. I know interest and investment and overall cost of living raise prices, but that just seems like highway robbery to me.
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thegreymoon · 11 months
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Post-canon Taxian-jun is 100% going to do boy math on both their ages and come to the conclusion that he is now, idk, some 42 to Chu Wanning's 29, just so that he can coerce him to call him "Gege" in bed 🤣🤣
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ancha-aus · 28 days
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RealAgeAU drabble - Math Class
What is this? Two Drabbles a day?! more and less likely than you think!!
We are back with the baby <3 Baby Nightmare my beloved <3 @spotaus ready friend!
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No edits/betas! We going :D timewise we are in early summer <3
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Nightmare stares down at his little noteblock. He glances back at the little basket and takes careful notes. Six eggs. One bottle of milk. a bag of wheat.
Nightmare turns back to the scale and weighs the wheat. He pulls over the price list and makes careful notes.
Horror sits next to him and watches him note things down "Do you need help?"
Nightmare shakes his skull as he slowly calulates what each thing costs and adds them together like Dust explained to him. start with the single numbers and add those. Note down the extra ten and add those together.
Ngihtmare nods and looks at Crop "It should be 24 gold!" and he waits.
Crop nods "sounds about right." he grins at the customer who had been waiting with a gentle smile "That will be 24 gold then."
the person nods and counts out the money which is given over. They wave goodbye and walk down the market.
Nightmare looks back at his calculations. What if he got it wrong? No one even checked it and-
Horror rubs his skull "No worry."
Nightmare frowns as he shoots them both a look "What if i got it wrong?"
Crop shrugs "If you were very far off they would have said something. The price sounded about the same as what i ask for stuff simular to that. I am sure it is fine."
Nightmare frowns as he looks down. He looks at his dad and gives him the little noteblock. Horror leans closer to Nightmare as he looks over the calculations. He doubl checks a few nad nods "Seems good so far."
Nightmare frowns at the numbers. It is a bit easier to do the math like this. Instead of only numbers or drawings. Actually seeing the items and prices help a bit. Nightmare can't explain why it does but it just does.
It is late morning now and there have been quite a few people buying stuff. Nightmare isn't always fast enough to keep up with the amount of people but Crop got that handled. Whenever someone else comes to buy something while Nightmare is still calculating Crop steps in and helps the person quickly.
Does make Nightmare feel bad about making the people who he is calculating for wait so long. As he is so slow. But Horror reassures him that the people waiting don't mind.
Nightmare doubts it but he won't argue. He looks back at the noteblock and makes little swirling motions with his pen. Tiny patterns on the side of the paper. It is nice. Drawing is actually kinda fun and Nightmare is happy that he tried it. a swirl here, a circle there.
Someone walks up to the stall and Nightmare sits up straight. New customer!
They shoot Nightmare a look before showing the two dozen of eggs and the wheat they picked out.
Nightmare nods and quickly grabs his noteblock to start working on the price. He weights the wheat and notes it down. Oh the same weight off the wheat! that is easy! So that is 13 again. And two dozen eggs is 24 eggs... one for each egg. which means...
Nightmare looks up and looks at crop "37." he nods. feeling very sure about it.
Crop nods and grins at the customer "37 gold it is."
The customer huffs "That can't be right. That is much to expensive!"
Nightmare frowns and looks down. He mutters the numbers to himself softly. the weight times the price is the same as last time. he calculates it again and comes down to 13 again. 24 eggs which are all 1 gold a piece. 13 and 24 added together. first the 3 and 4 which is 7. No extra tens. so just 1 and 2 which is 3 tens. so 37.
Nightmare looks at Crop starting to feel anxious "I still get 37..."
Crop nods and grins at the customer "37 gold please."
the customer huffs "I just told you that is much to expensive!"
Crop nods "then you will just have to put some back."
The customer huffs but Horror leans closer and over Nightmare. The customer gasps and backs up a bit. Horror glares the other down "You heard tiny boss. 37 gold."
the customer grumbles but lays down the gold before huffing and storming off.
Nightmare hugs the noteblock close.
Horror gently bonks their skulls together "You okay little bean?"
Nightmare shrugs and mutters "I really thought it was right..."
Crop grins "and it was right." he sighs as he leans on his fist "You just have those type of people and customers. those who are rude and try to get a discount."
Nightmare nods as he keeps holding the noteblock close. Feeling a bit reassured he did alright after all.
Nightmare pulls the block away from himself and taps it with his pen "don't wanne mess up like... selling stuff.."
Crop chuckles and shrugs "ah it is fine. Everyone knows what everything's price is. or about at least. If you were actually wrong people would be a lot more gentle in their correction and be understanding." Crop grins "Everyone messes up their prices sometimes. Hell I know that Straw and I used to mix up the price for the wheat and the milk a lot when we first started."
That also helps a lot and Nightmare relaxes more "Really?"
Crop nods "of course. everyone messes up sometimes. It is normal and part of doing stuff. No one is always perfect." he shakes his skull "anyone who tells you you have to be perfect all the time is an idiot. No one is always perfect. That doesn't exist."
Nightmare doubts that. Dream is always perfect after all. That was the main difference between him and his twin. Or at least to everyone else. Nightmare however knew Dream also made mistakes...
Someone else walks up to the stand and she coos "Well who is your new employee Crop?"
Crop grins "This is Nightmare. The boss for the day."
The lady giggles "Well then! I wish to buy two dozen eggs if i could."
Nightmare nods and checks his notes quickly before giving the price.
The woman smiles and nods "Thank you so much!" she takes out the needed gold and hands it over to Crop. Crop puts it away. the lady smiles and thanks him once more before leaving the stall.
Nightmare blinks down and shoots Horror a look. Horror grins "see? Generally? People are very nice."
Crop laughs and nods "Unless they are rude or had a very bad day. But normally? people being mean or rude to you? Not your fault. just them going through soemthing."
Nightmare nods and relaxes a bit.
Then the rush happens and Horror actually takes him away from the counter and Nightmare gets to see Crop and Straw work like a well oiled machine to serve all the customers.
It is almost shocking how quickly they work through the stuff they have for sale and when the rush ends most things are gone.
horror puts him back on the counter as Straw stays with them as well. Crop and him talk about how Straw's shopping went and Straw mentions he had no issues.
Nightmare looks at the few things left in stock before looking at the brothers "Is it always that fast?"
Straw grins "Yes! the rush is always a lot which is why i try to get our shopping done early!"
Crop nods as well "Each day has a different rush. weekens are normally early in the morning while the weekdays are like today around lunch time. Seeing as then people get breaks to actually visit the farmers market."
Ngihtamre nods and tilts his skull "Are you guys here daily or not?"
Crop laughs and shakes his skull "We sadly don't produce enough to sell daily. we just go weekly and do eveyrthing in one go. It depends on when it works with the farm which day we go." he grins "Why do you wonder?"
Nightmare shrugs as he mutters "Grapes are starting to grow and we will have to sell those too... was wondering what was normal...."
Crop blinks but Straw laughs "Good thinking! It is always smart to think ahead!" Straw looks thoughtful "I think for you guys it will be a bit different. there will be a time where the grapes will all be fully grown and where the plant keeps producing some for a little while. I think you all will have to be very active witht he harvesting and selling around that time!"
horror nods "We wanted to save some of it. try and make some stuff. but mostly get a feeling for selling and seeing what people agree with price wise."
Crop grins "Like jams? jams are so good and not sold by many. If you don't want to do the rushed selling each day. you can always end up deciding to safe all the grapes for yourself to process into jams. Though you will have to get a large cooling chamber to make sure they don't go bad." Crop leans on his fist "Though i doubt that would be a problem for you guys with how Dust can repair and make about anything as long as he has the parts."
Horror nods and has a loving smile on his face "He is a true engineer..."
Which is when an elder couple walks over and asks if they still have some stock. Nightmare watches as Crop takes the innitiative on this one and helps the elder two. Straw offers to help them carry it back but the couple says they will be fine.
Nightmare watches them go and shoots crop a look. Crop sighs and shrugs "some older folks. have been down on their luck health wise and are still recovering. we all try to make things a bit easier with some cheaper prices for them."
Ngihtmare nods. that explains why the prices didn't make sense.
then his stomach grumbles and he feels embarrased.
Horror chuckles and picks him up from his sitting spot "It is time i get some food for us both." he looks at Crop and Straw "You two okay?"
Crop rolls his eyes and waves him off "We have been doing this for a while. you two take your time to get something to eat."
Straw jumps up "oh! the fishing farm had a special offer! Aparently their farm did very well this spring. They always sell amazing stuff."
horror nods "we will check them. Thank you." Nightmare waves as he leaves his math work on the counter as his dad carries him away to get a lunch snack.
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Nightmare has to learn his classes somehow :D And dust has figured out that a more practical and real version works better to help Nightmare visualise the things he is thought.
So. Live classes at the market! :D
Crop and Straw both were more than happy to help! The other people in town find it cute to see the babybones calculate what the price is. Nightmare doens't notice it but he sticks his tongue out slightly in concentration as he swings his legs. It is an adorable sight and so they don't mind waiting extra time for the price.
And Nightmare is pretty okay with his calculations! he is rarely wrong and if he is wrong Horror is there to help Nightmare see where he went wrong while Crop corrects the amount the customer needs to pay! <3
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puppyeared · 10 months
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people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime
#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head#around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working#as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of#how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol#i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were#pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family#i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by#ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me#or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made#you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm#im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help#wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career#i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades#but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard#yapping
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spaghett-onaplate · 4 months
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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed
#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself#and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change#it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly#so there was somewhat of a gradual progression#but still#also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time#i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i#had been socially involved#anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change#and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find#the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever#and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha#(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically#it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni#ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that#but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped#and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr#i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years#and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it#and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing#kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao#i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school#and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build#--ing towards#which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now
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lovelyrotter · 4 months
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yknow i love transmasc/tboy dirk always and forever but the way some ppl treat transmascness vs transfemmeness in HS's narrative........kinda sucks. like the whole thing about how being transfeminine is a literal transient experience and lets the character in question (any character) truly escape the oppression of HS's narrative-as-a-character which is patriarchal and toxic (lord english, hussie-the-character to an extent. i guess. idk ive seen a lotta ppl lump SI-hussie in w/ this), which is great and does hold weight as an analytical lens esp with how hussie irl is nonbinary. but where does this leave transmasc characters. why are we treating (headcanoned) transfemme HS characters like this and then tbh gleefully dooming (headcanoned) transmasc characters to eternal narrative suffering brought by LE and then mocking them for being ''gross tboys'' full of ''icky testorerone'' so its their fault theyre in this perpetual torment really? because they ''''chose to be a man''''? dunno man its starting to feel bad. especially since some bnf's who are really into this fan theory do actually kinda treat the general idea of transmasculinity like somthing to hold with tongs at arms length away from them. as if its alien or infectous or something and then get really mad when equally dysphoric transmascs do the same with feminity. why are we dooming dirk strider to eternal toxic-masculine suffering and what does that say about how we treat real life transmasc folks both in and outside of the fandom
#my t#basically you arent more or less special or deserving of celebration or joy depending on what pronouns you use#and idk yall gender is such a personal thing and your trans experience def does colour the way you look at the world. it def does mine/ours#and i wish ppl on this site would be more honest about that cause holy hell do some of yall treat eachother like dogshit#PURELY on the basis of identity. you are no better than a TERF if you do this. you ARE a TERF if you do this#but like...........can we all at least TRY not to demonize '''the other side''' here#in quotations because theres no '''other side''' in the trans community we're all just trans in different ways#theres just like. yknow#theres a reason why so many tboys and transmasc folks identify with the striders and dirk especially#and theres a reason why *so many* transmascs felt so much joy abt tboy roxy#so many of our lives pre-transition looked and felt like roxy lalondes. so many of us legit forcefully feminized ourselves#bc the alternative was so fucking scary. as you can probably imagine regardless of what flavour of trans you are#theres also a reason why there are so many transmasc fictives named dirk and dave and idk what to tell these ppl abt that#i remember rlly clearly this affectionate joke like a literal decade ago on this site that was like#daves intro dropped and 1mil tboys named dave materialized into existence#dirks intro dropped and 1mil MORE tboys named dirk materialized into existence#i try rlly rlly hard not to get sour at wlw/nblw focused memes that are like#''i made pepsicola better!!! theyre she/theys now :)'' for example#but its getting increasingly harder to ignore when the same ppl who make these memes treat#fans who prefer m/m *bc they themselves are gay* like shit#or like enjoying m/m because theyre mlm is mysogynistic. which it isnt ffs#that shit gives i am uncomfortable when is not about me and i aint here for that#if i were like these ppl maybe id turn all their fave girls into tboys just to spite them#but it wont be just to spite them bc 1) i aint abt that actually. im too fuckin grown for it and 2)#i genuinely just enjoy exploring m/m and masculinity more because i am a trans mlm. its very simple math
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femslashspuffy · 1 month
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What do you do with a math degree? I've never met anyone who has one 😯
You can do a lot of different jobs. The people at my university in the program (I think there's like 40 of us max) all seem to have different interests. I know some people who want to focus more on the math side of computer science. I have a friend who's doing it because she enjoys math and is applying to law school (math is a very good degree to get for that because they do like to diversify the types of people and math is very vigourous and about problem solving) I know plenty of people who are going to go into teaching or research
I find that a lot of people have misconceptions about math degree math classes too. My school makes me do some of the engineering math curriculum (math is also one of the main degrees engineers switch into) but our major specific classes that they only have a few of a semester are much more abstract. I just took my first junior level class which was all about how to read higher level math and the actual problems we did and numbers we worked with were easy, its more about learning the concepts and the basis for what math is. Im taking advanced calculus this semester and the first thing the teacher told us is that this is not a calculus class
Its super different from what engineering students do but once you get the degree you can do anything that requires specialized or difficult math. My grandpa got the same degree from the same college and he was a rocket scientist. I'll probably end up doing some scientific math but sadly most engineering jobs in the U.S are less than ethical so I wont follow in my grandpa's footsteps
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monards · 5 months
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i will never stop hating tests with vague answers and questions. “would you rather go to a party or library” i need. details!!!! clarification!!!!! is it a big/populated party. do I know someone there. is this party far away from my house. is it spontaneous or commemorating or centered around an actual event. is this a popular library where people will be. what books do they have. is it a school or public library. I CANNY TWKE THIS ANYMOIRE IS IT THAT HARD TO GUVE DETAILS.!!!!!!!!!!!
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rainyinautumn · 11 months
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So Secret Life is happening. And it's great. And it has potential to be a LONG series compared to other life installments.
Let me explain.
Historically, the biggest killers in the life series are fall damage, PvP, and TNT (if you're wondering how I know this, this is how). Let's look at how each of those makes you dead.
Fall damage gets people in one of two ways: either taking a fatal bit of damage after being almost killed by something else (ex. Tango's final death in Limited Life), or falling a massive distance that wipes all ten hearts in one go (ex. Grian's final death in Limited Life). Neither of these are particularly viable at killing someone in Secret Life, at least not for a while, given all the players have triple the amount of hearts as usual. As for big falls, a lethal fall for someone with a full 30 hearts would have to be roughly 63+ blocks (fall damage is half a heart for every block after the third, with some small discrepancies for tick timings). That's a LONG fall. I'm talking you could jump off the top of the Crastle from 3rd Life and survive just fine. Granted, people won't be on 30 hearts forever, so that number will gradually whittle down, but what's typically a big killer is going to be more of an inconvenience for people with higher hearts.
PvP is the only top cause of death that's based on consistent and deliberate lowering of health, and without the boogeyman, it's not even a factor until someone goes red. Grian has implied, however, that reds will get different (and likely more violent) secrets, so I expect that once one person goes red, things will go downhill for everyone else rather quickly. I'm curious to see how PvP will work for people with high hearts but no regeneration. It'll probably take longer—an unenchanted Netherite axe in the right hands can deal a full 30 hearts worth of damage in just 4 seconds, but against unenchanted diamond armor would take around a full 20 seconds, assuming the person (for some reason) didn't fight back at all. And keep in mind players are allowed to enchant to their heart's content this season. The goal of most confrontations is likely going to be just to put a big dent in another player's health and in the hopes that that endangers them enough to be killed by more natural causes, rather than putting in the effort to wipe them out completely. Reds will likely prefer seeking out players with lower health in order to complete their secrets, but they may have to break the mold if they can't find an ideal target. Additionally, I wouldn't be surprised if some red secrets are something along the lines of "deal [x] amount of damage to a player" instead of just "kill someone."
On to TNT. The idea when setting off an explosion is always to do the maximum amount of damage possible. Explosions are based on power (how hard a thing explodes (4 in the case of TNT and 6 for end crystals)) and impact (how hard the exploding thing hits you). Impact is based on exposure (how close you are to the exploding thing), which varies wildly every time, so it's hard to say exactly how much TNT it would take to kill someone with 30 hearts in one go. My best guess, based on TNT-related deaths we've seen, is probably sixish point-blank explosions (probably best reached with six stacked TNT minecarts). Personally, I would love to find out exactly how much TNT you would need, and I'm sure Secret Life will help me out here. In short, you need a LOT of TNT to kill someone, but iron and TNT can be earned from secret rewards, so it may not be all that hard to get. And players should invest in a piece of blast protection armor (just one, though, more than one doesn't do enough good to be worth it).
And, on top of all this, players can get hearts back. Not without some trials and tribulation, but they have three pretty substantial lives. Sure, people will have bad days (like Martyn) from natural hazards like caving and being exposed at night, but both those things become much easier to avoid after session one or two.
TL;DR—it's harder to lose a life in Secret Life. As long as people are careful and try to hang on to their green/yellow lives, it could easily be the longest life series installment yet.
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welcometogrouchland · 9 months
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they shouldn't let me stay up past midnight bc then I start identifying every single problem I've ever had. No solutions found. Net zero personal progress and 0.5 hours of sleep are achieved
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spotsupstuff · 1 year
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doin' a fuckshite again ✌, i'll see y'all artistically in five to seven business days this fucking script is so bitchily long. i swear to fuck if its gon be over 8 pages.
anyway Fish is gon be in it <3 fucking Finally he shows off properly
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anyway,
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autogeneity · 8 months
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actually a cool place sent me a challenge/assessment and alas I probably do gotta study further to get into this field because I have no idea what I am doing. it's still extremely addictively good though somehow
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buggbuzz · 1 year
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semi-heavy adhd vent tw 🫢🫢
personally of the opinion that the worst thing about adhd is the subtlety. we joke abt how obvious and silly it is but its barely visible 95% of the time.
& u spend your whole life not knowing if the mental struggle you have doing basic shit is what everyone deals with or if something's wrong. even when you KNOW you have adhd and even have it TREATED you STILL don't know if you're having a normal amount of obstacles.
i've been on meds for two years now and i just spent a whole fucking summer semester not sure if i was having adhd burnout or if my meds weren't working or if i was actually just being lazy. i think its all three, but who knows! and now i have a final tomorrow that i have to pass and i dont know if i can because i could barely fucking do any work all semester.
this happens like every year/semester but this one particularly stings cause it was supposed to be really good this time!! lots of free time, one class to worry about, the best nd-friendly note-taking system i've ever used, lots of flexibility, and friends to spend time with. it was even a science class!! chem, not bio, but better than non-science, right? but apparently, the only way i can ever stay motivated and on the ball is if im chained to a super-stressful and merciless schedule. so i have to choose between my long-term success and my mental health!!
i don't envy neurotypicals for the weird fucking ways they operate sometimes but good lord fucking jesus it sounds nice to be able to do things. i feel like a loaded gun with a busted trigger; i have all these amazing ideas and well-thought-out schedules and all the passion and desperation to follow through, but my brain and body just. won't. do it.
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skrunksthatwunk · 2 months
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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight
#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here#it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening#and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time#we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please#idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest#but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work#sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon#ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for#my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell#happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and#when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends#and i don't wannaaaaa#i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but#it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being#the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it#we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line#i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know#and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot#but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class#even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig#i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me#and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh#i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like#The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed#but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me#and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it#and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh
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