#asking if I am truly ok

[asavt]

Trying to make sense of the thoughts in my head.

[chasedeys]

https://www.tumblr.com/chasedeys/769504049256169472/from-sportscenter

The flinch is proof Joe be putting his hands on him lmaooo 😭😭😭🥹

a whole preview of their ufc matches 😭😭 does he have to be dialed up 24/7 constant vigilance from the possibility of joe coming at him for whatever reason.....

he did say that joe does flying kicks when he annoys him too much lmaooooo smushing a donut to his face mid-live interview does warrant a fight i fear. what would happen if there were no cameras on sight? the thought haunts me i won't lie.

[saetiate]

cora! for you and sae <3

i hope i captured corae in this collage ! i’m in the lib and made this in during a study break and some girl stood behind me bc she was looking for a book and ik she saw this too

SPIRIT OHMYGOD??? wait i am actually sooo I AM SO SORRY for getting to this a whole 24 hours later so genuinely ohmygosh please forgive me friend... especially for a gift as sweet as this i am so grateful thank you so much ohmygosh HELLO?? THIS IS SO SWEET WAIT WAIT PAUSE I AM . WALSJFLKDS OKAY

THE LIL KISS MARKS ON HIS LIL TOY LSAJFLDSJFKDS THE QUOTES AND THE RED AND PINK TONES I AM SO HEARTWARMED THAT YOU THOUGHT OF ME... and put the time and effort and energy just to do this for me??? ohmygosh??? wait brb i am making this my desktop wallpaper rn AHSFLASJD AHHHHHHH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

the red hair and the flowers and the silhouetted kiss :'))) WAHH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I AM SO TOUCHED?? THE LIL LOCKETS AND THE TAROT CARDS?? waasfdjlds AND THE FLOWERS AND CAKE AHHH u r so talented my friend i cannot believe... a collage just for my lil selfshippie 🥺🥺🥺 i am sending you so much love my dear friend this means so much to me. i can't believe you would do this for me i am genuinely so heartwarmed ohmygosh THE HAND HOLDING THROUGH THE FENCE like i cannot believe .. that you would take time and effort out to make something for me?? i am so i feel so speechless (says many things anyways) WAHSFLJDS THIS IS SO SWEET THANK YOU SO MUCH . THANK YOU THANK YOU I AM so honored and grateful truly

i am sending you so so much love and i hope your weekend is wonderful also the girl who saw probably thought you really liked sae HAHA WAHSFLDS THIS IS SO CUTE I AM SO HONORED... AND SO GRATEFUL TRULY I AM GIVING YOU SO MUCH LOVE . i would carve a piece of my heart out for you ohmygod

i hope your studying is going well and i wish you the best with all your classes!!! please take care of yourself and remember to take breaks!!! and drink water!!

[midesastremanifiesto]

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[rowenabean]

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[rolandkaros]

thoughts on naomiga 🎤

truly fascinating. not endgame to me. imo 'right person wrong time' kind of thing. iga with the most embarrassingly obvious schoolgirl crush. honestly understandable. good for all young gays to get at least one of those out of the way u know its like character building or something. u think ur whole self revolves around this person to the point that a concerning number of decisions you make are consciously or subconsciously influenced by them. and at some point you have to wake up to recognize most of the affection was in your head and the precious little that wasn't was not intended to mean everything you had hoped. so you double down on reinvention of the self and it kind of helps but at least you are good enough that nobody will talk about how obviously down bad you were for someone you looked up to who only ever saw you as a friend.

anyways naomi left when iga really exploded and was having the season of her life and then she came back to iga as solid #1 tour leader etc etc etc...like seeing a good friend for the first time in years and realizing they've grown without you. first you meant something to who they were as a person. shaped them, even. and now they're different but you can't really complain because they're also better. so it feels like you lost a seat at the table. but its also a seat you probably weren't meant to have to begin with.

[the-lark-ascending69]

I loove the android robin au it's really one of the most interesting au I have seen in a while.

I am always happy to see new post abt it

Also making my favourite characters go through hell and then receiving comfort from their people is like the best thing ever for me so every time I see a whump!Robin post I like automatically

People loving android!Robin makes me so happy anansnssndsnsns she's curious and excitable and full of wonder and the world keeps punishing her for simply being alive. Sometimes it's too painful even for me, big whump lover 😭😭 though seriously, there is not enough Robin whump, and while all the characters in the show are very whumpeable, hurting my little blorbo Robin feels special because... she's just so deeply lonely. She's lonely and she thinks she deserves to be because of something wrong with her (pulling this interpretation from Surviving Hawkins lore which is canon to me 😭). That was a big idea I had when I first came up with android!Robin... that there is something wrong with her. Broken. In this AU she's literally broken in a lot of way (battery and memory problems, weak joints in her lower half, etc), but that's all within the range of normal robot problems. The real issue with her is that she's sentient. It terrifies people because it really brings out the existencial horror of... well, existing. It terrifies Robin most of all. She is the problem. She is what's wrong with her. She shouldn't exist.

But at the same time, she loves being alive so much! She doesn't understand it and doesn't know how it happened, but it happened, and now she's real and wants to experience life and the world and know people like human beings do. So it's her constant battle to become human despite humans having hurt her so much in the past... only for Nancy to already see her as human. Just one made of metal and plastic, but human nonetheless. She's the first person to see her that way and maybe everyone else thinks she's crazy, but Nancy is used to that. She's so sure of this, though, of Robin's self-awareness. She trusts her so blindly. She doesn't even need proof. And not only does she believe her, but she defends her humanity in front of her friends and family so ardently, fighting so hard for Robin to be aknowledged by everyone else as human. Fighting so hard to give her a home and family for the first time in her life.

Nancy has it bad for Robin, really. She's just so in love, even if everyone else thinks she's crazy for falling in love with a machine (no one thinks she is, though, because they all know Robin, and once you know Robin, it's impossible not to love her).

[labellefleur-sauvage]

hello! i hope you're doing well and i just wanted to say that i love all of your work! you have such a beautiful way with words and insane talent <333

i was also wondering whether you'd be up for writing something torturously heartbreaking for nessian??? i know it would never happen bc they're obsessed with each other and there would never be anyone else but i think a cheating thing would be interesting to read 😭 like if cassian cheats? or then (although they are going to live ETERNALLY TOGETHER), maybe something where one of them dies? like cassian's reaction to nesta's death or vice versa?

much love to you!!! 🩷🩷🩷

This is so so kind, thank you so much!

I will be the first to admit: I am a huge wimp. A big baby. I cannot handle too much angst or sadness in books, fics, any media, frankly. At this time, I don’t see myself writing anything angsty or toxic for any couple, unless there was some massive twist or misunderstanding involved.

BUT I fully understand most people don’t feel the same as me and want those angsty, toxic feels. I asked some of my Nessian friends for fic recs and this is what they gave me!

Can’t Help It by @moodymelanist. Honestly, her entire Nessian catalog is impressive and wonderful so here’s her entire Nessian masterlist. Also worth mentioning Paint It Red, especially if you’re in the mood for major character death.

Daughterofthesea on AO3 has some soft and angsty fics.

Also on AO3, theteaqueen is also very good for Nessian angst

Wonderland by @c-e-d-dreamer in which Nesta breaks the mating bond with Cassian

Somewhere by @thewayshedreamed for an ongoing toxic Modern AU

Finally, It Looks as Though You’re Letting Go by @xtaketwox. An ongoing soulmates AU fic tagged as “you’re going to suffer but you’re going to be happy about it” on AO3.

If I missed anyone or anyone else has fic recommendations or wants to shout out their own works, please feel free to comment and reblog!

[cannibalisticskittles]

saw someone say they didn't get the people with 'older rooks' romancing emmrich bc they made their rook 19/20 to play up the drama and uh

girl i don't know what kinda drama you think you're intensifying because it certainly isn't going to be romantic, emmrich already has hang-ups about age, he is not going to fall for a goddamned teenager

and even besides that, the timeline of the game establishes that rook has been traveling with varric for about a year, and with some backgrounds, the event that made rook leave their faction and start them on the path to meeting varric could have happened weeks to months before that

in no universe would varric see a fucking 17 year old and decide yep, that's who's gonna get a crucial part in stopping a plot that could end the world

[starburnedkisses]

i will say that i Heavily struggle with knowing if i do mean anything to people. if i'm important in their lives or just wave of a hand whatever thought. friendships mean a lot to me given how often i've been fucked over, so i wish i knew how to just let things be instead of freaking out that i may end up losing someone over Something that turned out to be Nothing. yknow?

[ssreeder]

AHHHHH i can’t believe Katara knows. And from Ara. And all of it at once, that’s gonna be a lot to process. Anyways I LOVED the chapter and CANNOT wait for the next one ( you always have to torture us with cliffhangers, don’t you? (Hah but i kind of love it a little bit))

I’m reaally excited for the next chapter the latest one made my week once again :)

What’s that meme? The one with the kid smirking back at the camera as the house burns in the background?

That’s Ara.

But in all honesty, I don’t think she truly understands what she just did, haha - not that she’d care much... haha, Ara is in her ‘IDGAF gurl mode’ so it’s probably better she’s leaving the compound. after one million words it’s finally time for her to put on her big girl pants on and actually take control of her life,,, away from the people she traumatized and who traumatize her. GOOD LUCK ARA!! WE WISH YOU THE BEST! (Well… some of us do haha… some still cry for her head on a stick)

I AM GLAD YOU ENJOYED THE UPDATE AND SUPER SORRY IN ADVANCE FOR THE NEXT EVEN WORSE CLIFF HANGER………..

[stardustdiiving]

I would read your zhongxiao codependent yuri Like, I do generally picture them as a vaguely father/son dynamic BUT THAT IS NOT CANON. It's just as much fun to view them through a romantic interpretation! Idk why people can't view the same characters in different kinds of relationships without being weird about it.

Anyway I love your vision and would love to hear more about it lakdjs

THANK U SO MUCH Im not sure if I’m gonna write zx in the future since I’ve tended to be shy about posting my stuff relating to them for over a yr now, but I did post this fic with them last year while trying to get a hold on how to write them (mind the tags it’s pure angst omg). I was too shy to tag it as ship since it didn’t feel shippy enough, which is kind of funny to me in hindsight bc I reread it and am like. Man I think only a zx shipper would write this NUFNVJVJV

Post got kind of lot Im gonna go on a tangent about them under the cut

Honestly my theory for why ppl r very set on the father/son interpretation is everyone’s immediate thought on to how to make the power imbalance between them seem less uncomfortable is to apply a parental interpretation to it. Which is fine ofc, I get it, but the way ppl push it as canon a lot kind of grates on me a little bc they’re usually incredibly passive aggressive and pushy even if u clearly designate ur post as ship OTL

Also not really a fan of the characterizations either since ppl tend to treat Xiao like a moody teenager Zhongli has to reel in (this is hilariously reminiscent of the post I made about how ppl handle scaramouche and nahida a bit ago haha). And idk I just feel kind of polarized about the headcanon overall bc I associate it with people being really uncomfortable and frustrating about zx

I just like how there’s sort of an imbalance to them, some zxs like them being more fluffy and functional but I sort of like it where it’s not like, entirely dysfunctional but I’m prioritizing a specific kind of character study over romance. This tends to be how a lot of my ships go ngl I just sometimes enjoy the intensity/intimacy of romantic feelings thrown into the mix if it makes it interesting but I’m not often interested in a lot of my ships following more standard romance plots(?) I guess? Unless it’s specific ones. Which sounds clinical when I put it like that but this is just bc I am very aromantic NHFBVJVJ

When I say codependency in zhongxiao honestly it’s sort of a theoretical(?) codependency—not sure how to word it? I think Xiao would be really fucked up if he didn’t have Zhongli in his life suddenly but I don’t think his relationship with getting attached to people invokes what people would majorly think of when they think of codependency in a ship I suppose. It’s moreso I just feel Xiao could be at his worst with dehumanizing himself in comparison to other people with Zhongli, because said mental state is driven by how he feels about debt, service, and duty which are very closely tied with devotion and how he would feel about someone he considers his god and leader, as well as someone who saved him

It’s fun this is paired with Zhongli who generally knows how to work with Xiao kind of understands the self destructive depth Xiao’s loyalty/devotion comes with. Also fun they have been around each other for a very long time and Xiao as one of the adepti is familiar with the past I think Zhongli appreciates having around. They work but it’s also a case where Zhongli is in such a position of power over Xiao its kind of very delicate situation that’s hard for both of them to navigate. Which is fun to explore. I esp love contrasting it with other Xiao pairings (actually i think i still have that xiaoven fic up on my ao3 where I tried to convey a specific interpretation of them in a similar exploration vein too)

I totally get why people wouldn’t like it (I feel a lot of my opinions on xiao ships just clash with a lot of fandom consensus so bad all the time And it’s just bc I’m like this I’m not even trying to be contrarian or anything. HELDINCJD) but I just tend to handle shipping in a specific way. It’s not I don’t enjoy fluffy or lighthearted zl and xiao stuff I actually enjoy it a lot I just like there being layers. This makes it feel more impactful when I think about how Zhongli looks out for Xiao in canon or how Xiao gets like textually flustered talking to him (lantern rite 2023 was so tailored to my tastes it’s not even funny)

[sirenedeslily]

i apologize for disappearing, got distracted with overwatch :3 posting PROFILE ONE when i wake upppppplppppppppppp

[gudakdalee]

not everyone old is 2nd gen

just for the kpop girlies that see anyone OLDER THAN 25 and immediately categorize them as 2nd gen. STAWP PLS. know ur culture.

Just bc they've got 5 years under their belt does NOT mean they're 2nd gen. CMON PPL.

There's actually periods of CULTURAL SHIFTS (characterized by music show formats/structures, changing markers of 'success', structures of songs, pop culture at the time, technology development aka SNS, styling/HMU, methods of promo (aka variety shows) and debut year vs heyday years) that designate the DIFFERENT ERAS.

(another indicator is military enlistment timing, but that's wacky now given the variety of age debuting now)

GEN BREAKDOWN BELOW:

2nd gen: 2005-2009

Significant moments: this essentially encapsulates what that era was like (the end-of-year award show collabs to end ALL EOY award shows collabs; you wont ever see such glorious unhinged shit like this again lmaooo)

GROUPS representative: SuJu, SHINee, 2PM/2AM, B2ST, 4Minute, KARA, T-ara, SNSD, Brown Eyed Girls, Big Bang, 2NE1 , MBLAQ, Wonder Girls, Secret

EXAMPLE: Debut yr VS Heyday yrs: TVXQ debuted in 2003, but I wrote 2005 bc with the combination of other groups in 05-06 is when the golden era really started to establish itself in popularity domestically and internationally.

How do they promote? Shows like Star King, Strong Heart, Star Golden Bell, Happy Together (in the sauna), Family Outing, Dream Team (and Xmen if we're going back 1st-2nd gen mix). TV Variety shows are the bread! and! butter! of whether your group will make or break it in the industry. You gotta get on these shows, you gotta be funny and witty, you gotta make an impression to get your name out there! There's several idols who've talked about nervously needing to do well in their debut on xmen or star king, and feeling like they had to impress Kang Hodong (etc). That's bc there was barely any other way to promote. Idols of this time are known as all-around entertainer (manneung entertainer), bc they had to do it all, e.g. leeteuk, eunhyuk, wooyoung, sunny, sooyoung, yuri, jo kwon, daesung

2.5 gen: 2010-2012

Truly like middle children, 2.5 gen groups debuted/worked in that amorphous time where times were in transition. They're like millennials, old enough to know cassette tapes, but young enough to know the first smartphone.

GROUPS representative: SISTAR, INFINITE, BTOB, APINK, EXID, VIXX, BAP, miss A, B1A4, Teen Top

REMEMBER WHEN: there was a huge online fanwar, INTENSE competition btwn EXO and BAP for the Rookie of the Year award from MAMA, fans were absolutely. incensed! Voting day and night, creating voting strategies, accusing the others of rigging/cheating, and when the time came....... Busker Busker won. LOL. International fans were dumbfounded, me included HAHAH. But we didn't know that busker busker was/is a HIT in SK.

How do they promote? 2.5 groups start not appearing on Strong Heart/Star King/Star Golden Bell as much; that's how I differentiate from 2nd and 2.5 gen (and it's WHY there is a 2.5 gen) bc you don't see 2.5 groups on those older shows that were dominated by 2nd gen groups. Like, Kang Hodong wouldve loved btob on star king, and they were on, but star king was over the hill at that point. The shift in these variety shows as promo starts here.

3rd gen: 2012-2017

Significant moments: korean news channels characterized the leaders in this era as "EBS", an acronym (it's an educational TV news channel's name) to summarize EXO, BTS, Seventeen (that's why I put exo here not in 2.5)

GROUPS representative: EBS (above), Twice, Oh My Girl, Mamamoo, Red Velvet, BlackPink

SNS: technology CHANGED RAPIDLY! We got Vlives, we got expansion of ways for idols to connect and directly speak to fans

HEYDAY: these are the groups enjoying their HEYDAY now! As in, they've got the experience, the money, the established fandom, and the respect-on-their-name (cough seniority cough)

How do they promote? We start seeing something call VLive, where fans can watch their own idol on their phone via a livestream, leaning into the individual parasocial connection. There's less Strong Heart and Star King, and more emphasis on the creation AND expansion of groups' OWN variety content. Instead of relying on variety shows (aka TV), they now can use youtube and create their own variety shows. Also, SNS starts!

4th gen: 2018-2024, WE ARE HERE CURRENTLY-

Significant markers: SNS era: the ACCESS is wild, online fan meetings, 1:1 fan calls (!?!?!!)

GROUPS representative: NCT, Stray Kidz, ATEEZ, GIDLE, IVE, Le Serafim, NewJeans (honestly I'd almost put them in 5th gen given how young theyve started, how far they could still go)

EXAMPLE: nct debuted 2017 but didnt really hit their public stride until a few years later, so they're currently in their heyday now in this gen era. and young as hell SHEESH.

How do they promote? Idols are allowed to/get to create their OWN social media accts now! SNS is heavily factored in when considering promotion and business strategy. Individual and group content now is a MUST: youtube, tiktok, insta, weibo, douyin, all the apps. Promotions emphasize internet methods rather than tv variety shows, so unless they have a variety-trained/-passionate member, it's much rarer to see kpop groups guest on a show. VLive unfortunately dies and we see the rise of Weverse, and BTS/kpop global recognition, and along with them: the marvelization of kpop (cough hybe-zation cough)

5th gen: 2024(?)-? BUT RAPIDLY MOVING HERE?

depending on how culture shifts and how technology develops, we could be going into a new era soon (now??), though as I've emphasized, it's more than just time and debut year, generations are marked by cultural shifts (whether it's environmental, music genre sound, or fandom practice).

GROUPS representative: TWS, Baby Monster, (idk anymore they're too young for me) I believe ppl look to/label NewJeans as the forerunner for the future (they were even on TIME mag)

How do they promote? Unfort, the trend of kpop idols being trained to be influencers rather than entertainers is real heavy right now, and might get more emphasized. Again this is a product of the changing times: as mentioned in the 3rd gen point about variety shows not being their main avenue of promos- idols now just aren't trained as much on variety skills bc they can get their popularity/recognition in other ways. Like you'll still see IVE on Knowing Bros, bc variety shows are still critical to the general korean populace's recognition meter, but they aren't there for the variety factor. Whereas older gen idols had to be variety-trained (that's why so many of them also work as show MC's now bc they have the skillset) bc variety shows were the main way to get their names out there and make sure their group doesn't fail. Nowadays, it's possible to focus promo online and not have the group fail, but it wasn't back then.

[ssreeder]

HELLO

I didnt see that there was an update until now and i dont feel like discording and i just read the new chapter so here i am with my few main points bc i dont feel like doing a full live reaction👍👍🫶

Seeing Jeeto come into play in any capacity at all makes me feel like a proud parent watching their children grow. Its always wonderful like those are my emotional support middle aged fictional men. I watched them go from conspiracy to getting crumbs to now their "dates" and gossiping together. Youve gotta love it. Those are my children. Im so proud of them. But im also scared because you killed shen so obviously my feeligns mean nothing to you 🙄😒😒. (Im never going to get over that, im going to be 80 years old in some pst apocolypic enviroment with horrors all around me, but im going to be having nightmares about shen. Ill send you my therapy bill) (im going to get a tattoo in his memory istg)

Also its always really subtle but its funny to see your specific linguistical patterns in liab esp because i can never really explain it. Like ill read a random sentence and be like 'yeah that seems like sreeder wrote it' i just think its neat.

I also really loved zukka this chapter. But i always lovr zukka so its not a surprise. But espesially this chapter because its mostly soft zukka.

"Do you think we will stay together" NO Zukko divorce 🔫🔫. 🙅🏻🔥🔥🔥🙅🏾

The 'moving forward' ness of zukka in liab is so nicely written. Like ive been reading liab since (almost) the beginning and it has been a ride and its starting to feel more conclusive and that is SCARY but its also nice because you write it very well and i adore the way you write trauma and the healing of it and the ups and downs and the two steps forward two steps backness. Its very lovely.

I knew ara was going to have a suicide attempt (esque situation (idk if that counts)) i called it i win.

Idc what others say ara will always be amazing. I love her character SO MUCH

i feel like you can always tell the strengths of a writer in the way they write complicated characters and the way you write ara is very telling of that. Like the fragility and also harshness used for her is very realistic and i always enjoy her parts so much.

Like her deciding to move on independant of how zuko or sokka feel about it is and regardless of whether people thinks she 'deserves it' is immaculate.

And thats a good example on your specific strengths as the author of liab (being able to handle delicate situations well, and realistically and make them very thought out and not rushed, stuff like that).

But her 'i need to start getting along with other girls' is great because like,, RHATS SO TRUE. she is genuienlly one of my favorite characters of all time, i could write essays on why i love her. Exquisite.

REHO MENTION 🥳🥳💪💪💪💪

Thats my emotional support woobified early 20 something year old man. I adore him. If 30 people love reho i am one of them, if one person loves reho i am them if 0 people love reho i am dead (rip rehoes 😔) i will defend his (and aras) good names until i die.

Amazing chapter as always 10/10 *chefs kiss* im so excited for the series to finish and see what you do with everyone and the rest of the storylines and such.

Every time I think of Shen’s death I think of your utter devastation & how I wasn’t expecting you to be so distraught over it. I will say I had another commenter lately who was talking about how much they liked Shen & wanted an Iroh/Shen/Zuko dynamic and I kept thinking…. Damn it buddy, you’re going to be soooo mad at me in a few chapter haha…. oops.

ugh my linguistic patterns haunt me and I specifically ask my betas to check for them because I feel sooooo repetitive sometimes especially when there’s a lot of introspection lol. So it’s funny you mentioned that lol.

Omg I remember when I was still on RIA & someone in the server was like “dude I’m rooting for some jeeto.” & I was like oh no how do they know??? I created this fun divide between hakoda and bato just to push Bato into Jees arm!! Don’t spoil it haha, but whatever at least Dentys dead

Awwww thanks for the compliments it means a lot coming from you <3 but also yeah Ara is my delicate dumpster fire who says she going to make her existence everyone’s problem (most importantly sokka because damn girl could just LEAVE but she refuses lol) I love it. She’s fun, and any scene with her expect utter chaos haha.

every time I write Reho in a scene my mind says and the crowd goes wild,,, he’s annoying but I’m glad you like him.

thanks for this amazing ask you’re awesome

[ozsvessalius]

im like sincerely so sorry bc my most shameful flaw is that envy is one of my favorite characters in the entirety of fma which is like. listen it's genuinely irredeemable but she knew exactly what she was doing when she made envy the pinnacle of gender envy bc my non-binary ass is NOT immune to feeling the gender envy to the highest degree for that little freak